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    Restarting a few of the stickies as they had passed the 500 posts mark or were close. Please continue any discussions in the new threads.
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    I just had the worst day at my work I've ever had.

    Also first.
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    I met a really cool chick last night. One of my best friends in this area invited me over to his house, said his sister wanted to meet me before she moved across the country this morning. We drank lots of alcohol and ended up hooking up. She was a real nice person (cute too), it's too bad I'll probably never see her again. Oh well!

    The whole aspect that it was my good friend's sister made it kind of weird but whatever.
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    quite a stretch off from work where instead of stressing about external stuff like bills/rent and then paying them at the last minute, I focused entirely on myself and made sure that the only things I did were lift heavy weights, eat, and sleep, and watch movies, play through the last of us on ps3 again/gta 4. So basically nothing got done at all but I reached my personal goal regarding lifting which was body weight of 180lbs which turned into 185lbs recently. Now I can switch up my routine etc.. this isn't even the fitness thread sorry
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    quite a stretch off from work where instead of stressing about external stuff like bills/rent and then paying them at the last minute, I focused entirely on myself and made sure that the only things I did were lift heavy weights, eat, and sleep, and watch movies, play through the last of us on ps3 again/gta 4. So basically nothing got done at all but I reached my personal goal regarding lifting which was body weight of 180lbs which turned into 185lbs recently. Now I can switch up my routine etc.. this isn't even the fitness thread sorry
    At my best ever I was able to lift 180... No longer, to say the least.
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    At my best ever I was able to lift 180... No longer, to say the least.
    I weigh half of that! I'm comfortable with my skinniness though. ^_^
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    No amount of pedestals, trophies, statues or other idolatrous symbols will change that the 'best' and 'worst' among us are all clumps of matter placed by a freak cosmological accident among other similar clumps of matter and shaped beyond any illusion of 'control' through interactions with them. It's an oddly comforting truth once you recognize it.

    Also, I think I'm going through another "Nobody understands me" phase...someone shake me until I'm out of it.
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    >intellectualizing like fuck
    >nobody understands me
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    brad you're wonderful

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    came into this thread to post that i'm worried that my rationalizations are excuses and that the embarrassment of the person that i've been holds me back a lot from trying to move on. not just in my mind, but in actuality; in real, physical ways, that serve as even more barriers to being a normal human. i mean honestly there's really nothing wrong with me i don't think but at the same time i know that that can't be true given the places that i've been, again, both physically and mentally. i think i have a lot of valid reasons to have turned into and to continue being whatever it is that i am, but what if that's all in my head just like everything else?

    i don't really understand anything and in a lot of ways i think i deserve myself and my situation. in my mind, i know that that's not true, but i guess i've either internalized a lot of ignorant, reactionary beliefs, or that i hold myself to too high of a standard, or maybe i just actually am sort of a fucking loser who just needs to get his shit together in the worst possible way.

    how can i even figure it out? everything seems so strange. i feel like i woke up in september from a multiple-year-long nightmare and i just sit here asking myself where my life went. if someone were to ask, what would i even say? i still haven't figured that out yet, and until i do, it's just going to be a subject i try to avoid.
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    Originally Posted by Mari3L
    play through the last of us on ps3 again/gta 4.
    You'll have to play GTA5 online with me and bcbm somtime
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    Where to start. I went home for the holidays, not because I'm religious but to see my family all assembled. Turns out my gramdma died and no one told me. I guess my sister tried to text me, but I never got it. No one really seemed to care. She was the last of her siblings, all 9 of them, my mom is a bit nutty and had been avoiding her. I think she probably died alone in the hospital, and no one bothered to talk about her afterwards. I got intensely depressed and went off in a corner to sob uncontrollably about the whole thing. Would anyone bother to see me on my death bed or even text each other when I died?

    I made her (and my uncle she's buried next to) a nice juniper wreath and laid it on her grave. It was clear of any flowers or anything at all, even though she was only buried 3 months ago. Was anyone at her funeral? How terrible.

    I felt much better after bringing them a wreath.

    Also, my sister is a terrible right-winger who actually vocally supports segregation, is intensely upset that the North Koreans took her Hollywood movie away, demanded to know the "biological sex" of the person my other sister was dating... I don't want to go back again.
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    quite a stretch off from work where instead of stressing about external stuff like bills/rent and then paying them at the last minute, I focused entirely on myself and made sure that the only things I did were lift heavy weights, eat, and sleep, and watch movies, play through the last of us on ps3 again/gta 4. So basically nothing got done at all but I reached my personal goal regarding lifting which was body weight of 180lbs which turned into 185lbs recently. Now I can switch up my routine etc.. this isn't even the fitness thread sorry
    Post in the fitness thread! I feel silly when it's just me.

    What kinda lifting did you crack 185 in?
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    I made her (and my uncle she's buried next to) a nice juniper wreath and laid it on her grave.

    I got intensely depressed and went off in a corner to sob uncontrollably about the whole thing. Would anyone bother to see me on my death bed or even text each other when I died?
    Yes. As long as there are more people like you in the world, then the answer is yes.
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    She was a real nice person (cute too), it's too bad I'll probably never see her again. Oh well!
    Sometimes that's the best way for these things to go down. You can only enjoy it for what it was.
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    I met a really cool chick last night. One of my best friends in this area invited me over to his house, said his sister wanted to meet me before she moved across the country this morning. We drank lots of alcohol and ended up hooking up. She was a real nice person (cute too), it's too bad I'll probably never see her again. Oh well!

    The whole aspect that it was my good friend's sister made it kind of weird but whatever.
    As if you just referred to a woman as a baby bird...What is wrong with you?
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    Was playing football (apparently I'm an 'adult', so I tried to play it cool) with my friend's nephews (they're 7 and 9) and one of them kicked me hard. My ankle looks like a tennis ball now.

    Damn kids, I hope they didn't get anything for Christmas.
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    and now I cut my lip with a razor

    this is the best day ever jesus
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    I'm so fucking sad right now. I want to blast myself. I love everyone on this board tho.
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    I figure if I just keep drinking, I won't be able to kill myself.
    I am a pessimist by nature. Many people can only keep on fighting when they expect to win. I'm not like that, I always expect to lose. I fight anyway, and sometimes I win.
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    I'm still here.

    I was right. LOL.
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    you okay man?

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