Pour Your Heart Out X

[Ele'ill]

Pour it out

Leaving the other thread sticky'd for a day so everyone can catch up on stuff

[Le Rouge]

First? What do i win?

(edit : Ok, i leave )

[NewLeft]

Everyone's out of town.. They're all going on the grad trip to Spain to some party island. I didn't really want to go, but it would be nice to go on vacation for once. I think the last time I went somewhere just for fun was like 10 years ago? The trip was $5000 just for the tickets and reservations, let alone clubs/drinks. There's no way in hell I could afford that. I'll just spend my day tomorrow reading.. Reading.. And then coming back to school after the break and talking about what you did..

[gorillafuck]

the long time friend who I mention sometimes (all aboard the patheticness train) is going to be back in under a week.

I'm trying to figure out things I could say or do to test the water to see how she might respond if I confessed how I actually feel to her (the patheticness train is going to gruesomely crash if I talk any more).

[PC LOAD LETTER]

Everyone's out of town.. They're all going on the grad trip to Spain to some party island. I didn't really want to go, but it would be nice to go on vacation for once. I think the last time I went somewhere just for fun was like 10 years ago? The trip was $5000 just for the tickets and reservations, let alone clubs/drinks. There's no way in hell I could afford that. I'll just spend my day tomorrow reading.. Reading.. And then coming back to school after the break and talking about what you did..

Do you have someplace nearby you where you can go camping? Or exploring? Fishing? That's always fun.

the long time friend who I mention sometimes (all aboard the patheticness train) is going to be back in under a week.

I'm trying to figure out things I could say or do to test the water to see how she might respond if I confessed how I actually feel to her (the patheticness train is going to gruesomely crash if I talk any more).

Don't be bashful

Let's hear it

[NewLeft]

the long time friend who I mention sometimes (all aboard the patheticness train) is going to be back in under a week.

I'm trying to figure out things I could say or do to test the water to see how she might respond if I confessed how I actually feel to her (the patheticness train is going to gruesomely crash if I talk any more).

You always seem to cut to the chase.. Why not..?

[NewLeft]

Do you have someplace nearby you where you can go camping? Or exploring? Fishing? That's always fun.

I might just get a job. I already waste my time anyway.

[Leftsolidarity]

It seems as if no one noticed this from Newleft's (I think) post.

It can't be too bad.. I got my wisdom tooth removed a couple of pages ago and I was dysfunctional for hours..

Are we really so attached to this thread that we now measure time by its pages?

[PC LOAD LETTER]

I might just get a job. I already waste my time anyway.

When I don't have a job I go crazy with boredom.

Tomorrow I'm supposed to go to this one place and give them my resume. Hopefully I'll hear back from them. But I'm not going to hold my breath. I hope I find something soon or I won't be able to pay my bills next month

Jobs suck, but they pass the time and result in money for shit you need. Or, as I call it sometimes, imperial credits.

[NewLeft]

Are we really so attached to this thread that we now measure time by its pages?

I can't really think in time. I don't remember things in time for some reason. Ask me what I did yesterday and I wont remember..

[Pretty Flaco]

I can't really think in time. I don't remember things in time for some reason. Ask me what I did yesterday and I wont remember..

i have the same problem. people'll ask me what i did at a certain time and or when i did a certain thing and i honestly won't be able to remember. they might think im lying but it's hard.

[NewLeft]

When I don't have a job I go crazy with boredom.

Tomorrow I'm supposed to go to this one place and give them my resume. Hopefully I'll hear back from them. But I'm not going to hold my breath. I hope I find something soon or I won't be able to pay my bills next month

Jobs suck, but they pass the time and result in money for shit you need. Or, as I call it sometimes, imperial credits.

Yeah.. I mean I found a couple of student jobs on weekdays. They're all after school and last 8 hours.. I will fall so behind in school if I did that..

[gorillafuck]

You always seem to cut to the chase.. Why not..?

yeah but this is a lot more serious and socially complicated

Don't be bashful

Let's hear it

read previous pourings of the heart

[Pretty Flaco]

damn you guys are responding so fuckin fast lol

[Le Rouge]

I say that in 14 days, we will close this thread.

[NewLeft]

It's a sad day when you can't even pour your heart out on the pour your heart out thread.. With that said, I'll shut up. For good.

[Le Rouge]

It's a sad day when you can't even pour your heart out on the pour your heart out thread.. With that said, I'll shut up. For good.

Indeed. I already poured my heart out

[NewLeft]

Just another moody rant. Just felt like being a black hole tonight..

Outside of my home, I'm chill and always having a good time, but at home.. I have the worst of my days. My best memories are away from home. I like home, it's comfortable and all. My house is green and with all the plants at home, it always feels like I'm outdoors.. But the only times I've considered committing suicide were at home. It seems the most appropriate place. It's a hellhole.. The worst memories are at home, especially in my room. I live with other people, but only feel related to two of the three. I really wish I had a dad, not some guy who calls himself my dad. My least favorite day of the year is father's day. He's mentally ill, so it's hard to try and understand, but I can't tell anymore where the mental illness starts or where personality begins. I feel like he became my punch bag, that person who I hate just for the sake of hating because I hate other things/myself. But I've been traumatized by things he's done and seeming him today really ruined my mood for whatever reason. Other days, I wont mind. Makes me want to pull out my hair, why is this so frustrating/confusing.

[Ostrinski]

the long time friend who I mention sometimes (all aboard the patheticness train) is going to be back in under a week.

I'm trying to figure out things I could say or do to test the water to see how she might respond if I confessed how I actually feel to her (the patheticness train is going to gruesomely crash if I talk any more).

do you feel like your heart is gonna jump out of your chest

[Le Rouge]

@Newleft
Get out of your home. Find an apt. and a job if you don't have one. You're 18+ I hope.



My heart out :

RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH. It's been 2hours, been throwing shit on messenger at a girl that i loved once...She still want to talk to me. I don't. I'm borderline insulting her...Don't know what to do. I hate her so much now. Can't find the will to block her.