What kind of a bigot were you before and why did you change?

  1. AK
    I was once a raging racist, anti-semitic, homophobic, military-fetishist anti-communist-for-the-hell-of-teaching-those-Ruski-bastards-a-lesson. Two things happened;

    1. After yelling out "Jew" as a casual insult to someone, my forensics teacher pulled out a Star of David necklace. This began maybe a month's worth of talks during lunchtimes and recesses about how one man's racist ignorance helped cause a tragedy which killed millions of oppressed minorities all over Europe.
    2. I had a substitute teacher who we guessed was from the former USSR by her accent. After abusing her and giving her shit about her supposed affiliation with communists for weeks, I decided to look up communism to see what it was. It changed my views on issues to hear how all history was that of class struggles - and how discrimination is manufactured by ruling classes.

    My story is obviously not as exciting or interesting as 777's, but oh well.
  2. 777
    Well, I don't know what happened to me. I was always a committed Socialist as a youth. I come from a family of Irish Republican types and reading into the history of the republican movement inevitably led me to learn about class issues and workers/civil rights movements.

    When I reached about 17/18 years old, I began to read more about ancient history of Europe, the culture, myths an cosmology of my ancestors. I started to feel that we had lost something very special - a unique culture that was being eroded and diminished by "the system".

    That system was obviously Capitalism. Immigrants were brought to my country to provide cheap labour for the bosses, and in so doing they were pushing us out. I felt that my people, who had always lived and worked on these isles were being robbed of their homes. For a Nation is a lot like a home, your race the family that lives there; and here we had these squatters who had moved in while we were still living there.

    In order to make people accept this, it was like the government forced the doctrine of multi-culturalism down our throats. In so doing they helped even more to rob us of our unique identity. The media appeared to play a large part in this "we are all one" dogma - and it was a dogma because if you so much as questioned it you were a heretic!

    All around me I could see more and more of the people I grew up with falling into poverty (not that we weren't poor to begin with) and more and more immigrants turning up and forming their own communities.

    It didn't take long to figure out what was going on....

    I could see how any attempt by white people to assert themselves was suppressed, no matter how innocent it was. I could see how Nationalist activists were given extremely unusual attention by intelligence and security forces. It was obvious that somebody didn't want whites around.

    I began to read Mein Kampf.... and it made perfect sense. The financial oligarchs who had been manipulating the masses were obviously the Jews. The Jews were the living embodiment of Capitalism, and they invented Marxism to weaken and manipulate the Aryan race. If you look hard enough, there's plenty of evidence for this.

    But still, I was not fully convinced. For a few weeks I weighed up either side and could not come to a conclusion. I began talking to BNP people on the internet and found most of them to be the perfect archetype of racist idiocy. Understand, that although I was racially aware, I saw no need for nastiness and had an ideological motivation for my beliefs - not simple hate. They sickened me. I thought "is THIS what I want to preserve?".

    Around the same time I purchased a book by A.F.A called Beating Fascism. While I disagreed with some of their perceptions about National Socialism (to be fair, the laft have a habit of turning NS into a cartoon villain - helped in no small part by some of the idiots the right have), but I could agree with what they were trying to achieve.

    While I agreed with the Anarchists, I could not reconcile what they wanted to achieve with some of their opinions. It seemed like although they wanted to achieve a better society, they wanted to do it through destroying everything I held dear, such as my ethnic identity, religion, art, tradition and such. The Nationalists wanted a better society also, and also valued some of the things I did - even if they expressed themselves in a simplistic and vile way.

    In Nationalism I could see people of my same class and ethnicity. We had common goals. So I decided to go with them.

    I turned into the most exemplary Nazi you could find - ideologically speaking. I wasn't vulgar or anything, but I had the worldview and ideology perfect. I was, so to speak, a good Nazi.

    Racism for me was an economic thing, not because I didn't like others. I viewed my race as superior, but didn't hate others. Sure I engaged in racist activities, but that was more of a joke than anything.

    As I became more active, I began to become disillusioned with the movement. Let's be frank... it is full of cranks. There are a few good people who are simply misguided and who actually want a better world, but the majority are just plain idiots.

    There is a prolific blogger and activist in the North West who we all kept an eye on. After reading his stuff, I realized that we agreed on most issues. As my outlook became more class conscious, I began to split my desire for ethnic preservationism away from politics. I realized that it is not something you can force onto other people and that there are larger issues to consider.

    I owe him a lot really and hope he can forgive me for some of the bad things I've done.

    Through my Nazi phase I have lost friends and family. Now I have to just suck it up and admit I was wrong. It's hard because I'm such a proud man, but it has to be done.

    I'd like to become as active for the left as I was for the right, but I'm afraid my history will prevent this.
  3. Slav92
    Slav92
    Hey all Most of my storys on the "Confessions of an ex-nazi" thread in the anti-fascism forum - ill spare you a copy and paste, however, suffice to say the group that I used to be a part of - the ASF - is now mostly in prison, facing a variety of charges from terrorism to inciting racial hatred.

    However, there are two events in my life (After I stopped being a fascist) that I like to think, at the very least, would have tested my faith in fascism.

    The first was a college trip to Germany - specifically the Sachsenhausen concentration camp, if any of you have ever visited a concentration/death camp, you'll know what I'm talking about when I say an aura of pure evil lingers in these places - they are quite possibly one of the most emotional, horrifying and saddening places to exist on this Earth. The sheer shame I felt in myself for allowing myself to be compromised by this evil was beyond description.

    The second was a talk I attended by a holocaust survivor - needless to say it was incredibly emotional (the mans family was butchered), and I felt the same feeling of shame as I had before.

    I'd like to think that those two things would have turned me away from fascism, but in reality, as everyone in this group will know, they probably would have strengthened my belief in fascism - I believed they were doing a good deed, at the time. (Again, I dont think I will ever be relieved of the shame this knowledge causes me)

    As I became more active, I began to become disillusioned with the movement. Let's be frank... it is full of cranks. There are a few good people who are simply misguided and who actually want a better world, but the majority are just plain idiots.
    Ill agree with that 100%

    I'd like to become as active for the left as I was for the right, but I'm afraid my history will prevent this.
    Everyone on here seems to be pretty tolerant of us, I cant see why the same couldnt be said in real life. Naturally there'll be distrust at first, but that is easily overcome in time.
  4. Huey P. Newton1233
    Huey P. Newton1233
    I was homophobic, greedy, and a racist little piglet but thank god i dated celeste she turned my dumbass arounf and made me who i am today even if she read mein kampf lol i loved her
  5. Dani Phantom
    Dani Phantom
    I used to be an anti-semitic,anti-communist,neo-confederate asshole.But like I said,I met a Titoist,and he got me out of it
  6. Imposter Marxist
    I was once a Stalinist, then I became a Trotskyist who didn't accept the State Capitalist theory. I thankfully was saved by Tony Cliff
  7. RedCloud
    RedCloud
    My story is a bit like the beginning of 777's. Coming from an Irish-American Republican type of family caused me to read in to worker and rights related issues and got in to ancient Euro history in the same way as well. I guess I just noticed that our society is going downhill with illiteracy and disregard for any common sense, education, etc. and felt that many pieces were missing from our current society.

    I went with the National Socialist type by the way. Not a skinhead or 'Nazi punk' style, just National Socialist with casual dress style. Drew Swastikas on my things at school, had a Hitler Jugend stiletto knife, had a copy of Mein Kampf with me at school etc. but never showed it off in the same way the obnoxious skinheads do. Anti-Semitic by some measure, hated Klansmen and confeds though too... Still do, actually.

    I also am a "reformed anarchist" in the sense that when I was younger (around 14 years old) I filled out the anarchist stareotype... A little teen sociopath who just hated people and hated not having control so I broke shit and just got in trouble. I grew out of that phase pretty quickly though... Was a punk who didn't believe in anything.
  8. Comrades Unite!
    Comrades Unite!
    It was 3 years ago, I was 12 years of age.

    I used to think that the Jew's,Fags,Niggers,Packies and other non-white pieces of shit flooded this country and I want it back! I used to bully a few foreigners (Calling them mongrels and whatnot)Hell I even called the strongest chap in my class a filthy nigger and got my ass handed to me.

    Needless to say I discovered the Communist manifesto and I found myself agreeing with it too much and converted to Marxism, I flew down from one end of the Political spectrum to the other and I felt better in the end.
  9. Philosophos
    Philosophos
    I was raised in a very conservative and dictators-friendly area (the dictator Papadopoulos helped a lot of people in my region when he achieved the coup d'etat). A lot of people were telling me that imigrands should die because they steal our jobs, communists must die because they killed so many people, gay people should die too because they are abnormal, black people are animals "just look how they live in their countries and in ours".

    The thing that made me start looking about communism was that none of the ideas above were matching the ones of Christianity (I'm a christian orthodox btw) so I started wondering why the fuck do they want to kill and hate all these people while their religion says something different. Either there was something wrong with me because I'm crazy and I can't understand why is this happening or this whole world is out of order for some f*cked up reason.

    When I first saw what communism was all about I didn't like it, but then I grew up and started to realise that what communism says is the same as Christianity says: Care about your fellow humans, equality and that you are not supposed to be a slave to anyone.
  10. Tolstoy
    Tolstoy
    While ive never held particularly rascist or homophobic opinions (in bi and have never denied it), I was for a long time a "Technocratic, Autocratic State-Capitalist" as I considered myself. I basically believed that Singapore did things the right way
  11. Super international
    Super international
    I used to be a Monarchist.
    I thought it was my duty as a citizen of the commonwealth to worship the monarchy.
    Though, I wasn't really racist, I had a bias against jews.
  12. ashtonh
    ashtonh
    Hi before realizing my true belief I was a Christian Republican Capitalist. (shudder) I began to change after converting to paganism. I realized that republicans were mainly christian theocrats and with this I researched. Still a capitalist I became democrat. After a series of personal encounters and stories of poor and disabled people I became angry. Realizing our current system would not work I (unknowingly) developed anarcho-communist ideals. After many hours of research and thought I dedicated myself to the trotskyist cause. This is but a brief description of my (now long gone) bigotry.
  13. Red-Heathen
    Red-Heathen
    My experience with Fascism was short (Thank the gods). But it certainly shaped me into the political person I am today.

    One of the things about being raised in a Heathen background in the United States is. All of your legends, all of the old heroes. All of the gods. They come from a far away place. They come from old Scandinavia and Germania. Which has a completely separate culture than the culture of the U.S, the world around you. And is also taught to you through these religious practices. Which means you're sort of "Born of two cultures" if you will. Now, this is not to say that modern Scandinavians and Germans are anything like they used to be. Or that I am like them for being a Heathen. But being raised with this culture, that is very different than mainstream American culture. You get this feeling of not being like everyone else. Not being one of them. But at the same time. You're not a Scandinavian or German either. You're between. Of both, but accepted by neither.
    And as any religious minority can tell you. You are NOT welcome in society if you don't believe what most people do.
    So, I was disenfranchised. I struggled, and struggle. With a very serious issue of identity. But, I was not alone.

    I had a friend, much older than I. And also a Heathen. He however, was born in the old land. In Scandinavia. But, when he was little his parents moved to America. Forcing him to adapt to a culture that he was not used to. And ripping away a lot of his old culture with him. This, though from the opposite side. Had the same affect on his identity that being raised the way I had did. He was born of two cultures. But accepted totally by neither.
    Because of this connection, we formed a strong bond. We experienced matching conditions. And, followed the same path to identity.

    Here we come to Fascism. He was a political man. And in his search he discovered Fascism. The idea appealed to him, the nation, the folk. All working together as one. And being young and impressionable. I believed what he told me. I was a big fan of Oswald Mosley, as was he. And we got very in to this idea of returning "Home" (He wanted to go to his native country. And I wanted to go to Scandinavia, where I had hoped I would fit in better than in America). Along with right wing Fascism.
    But as I became more political listening to him. So did my desire to seek outside knowledge. To learn on my own without his help. It was through this that I discovered on Youtube, a channel called Maoistrebelnews2. (I do not agree with everything this youtuber said and does, but that is besides the point). And while at first, I despised the "Damn commie" for...Idk, hating white people? Lol. Eventually, listening to the arguments Communists made. And connecting those with my own experiences as someone who grew up in a Working class environment, and as someone who had experienced bigotry for being a religious minority. I had a huge change of heart. I began reading, starting with the Communist manifesto. And kicked Fascism like a nasty habit. The other person and I had a falling out and I've not spoken to him since.

    I'm leaving out parts of the story that make it a bit deeper for personal reasons. But the point comes across I hope. I'm not /VERY/ anti Fascist and nationalist. But I'm glad it at least got me politically interested. And taught me just how easy it can be to make terrible ideas seem good.

    I know it's a bit dull, but I wanted to share!
  14. Viktor89
    Viktor89
    I was a fascist for some 3 or 4 years when younger, I was a racist, did not call myself a nazi but now afterwards of course it was, antisemitism, fascism, and racism, homophobia, mixed up in propaganda words such as "identitarianism" or "traditionalism". Same nazi crap, just different names for it. I woke up when I got to experience prison. I thought every day "if this is tough, how painful it must have been for the poor victims of fascist regimes". I think it's important to notice and talk about and talk with the young people who are confused and are turning to neonazism in schools. Get them out of that shit before it's too late. It's difficult but not impossible. May those leading nazis who recruit and prey on such young confused kids go to hell.
  15. Guardia Rossa
    I was 11 years old, disillusioned with humanity. I believed that humans are naturally assholes and that a dictatorship was the best way to contain this evilness. That we should make dictatorships for each people, with it's own characteristics, so we can all live in peace and harmony. I was an idiot.
  16. Guardia Rossa
    delete this please