Do you think you have answered the questions... - that plagu

[Rebelde para Siempre]

I'm sure everyone has wondered the same things at least one (if they have half a brain).

Who am I?
Why am I here?
What is the meaning of my life? etc etc...

Does anyone believe they have answered them? I think I may have, but I'll never know the truth (truth is relative; If I believe it, it is my version of the truth and as far as I know, it's the only one).

Who am I? - I am myself, nothing more and nothing less. I am my beliefs, my ideals, my behaviour, the picture of myself in my mind. As far as I know, I could be the centre of this universe; or I could be a speck of insignificant dust in comparison to everything else.

Why am I here? - There is no predetermined reason. I have to make a reason for myself. Whatever I believe my purpose is on this earth is simply whatever I choose. Although scientifically, our purpose is to reproduce.

The meaning of life? - There probably is no meaning. We live, we die; simple as that.

My mind keeps changing though, I may change my thoughts on this later (or add to this).

Goodbye everyone, and question everything...

Your friend,
RpS

[Dhul Fiqar]

As a psychonaut, I believe the search itself is far more important than the result. Even if I never find an answer, I'll hopefully have fun expanding my mind looking for the answers at the bottom of a vial of LSD :)

--- G.

(Edited by Dhul Fiqar at 5:13 pm on Mar. 16, 2003)

[Rebelde para Siempre]

Dhul,

You and I are quite similar I believe. For me also, the use of drugs is not nessacarily the 'high', but the expansion of the mind; the understanding of perception and reality.

[mentalbunny]

My ideas are always changing but even in the midst of the confusion that is my teenage years I have a fair idea of who I am and the reason I am here.

I think generally the purpose of a human being is to improve the circumstances of their life in some way and that differs from person to person. Obviously it is impossible for us to attain perfection but we can try and at least improve the world for ourselves and other people. We are constantly struggling against things like poverty and ignorance and we all want to imporve some aspect of the world but the method and outcome are different for everyone. Some people dedicate themselves to being physically perfect, either beautiful or athletic, etc, others try to imporve themselves by learning, others want to improve the lives of others by serving them in some way, being a doctor or teacher or being a socialist.

[Rebelde para Siempre]

This is what I wrote in my diary today -

I fucking hate this world. People are fucked in the head and so am I. Fuck women, they are so fucking capitalistic. Society shits me so much, especially the whole youth culture thing. Just to get laid I have to fucking wear gucci or armani, or I have to look like a fucking wannabe gangsta wearing fubu and dada. Why the fuck should I be a socialist and take care of other people? Why the fuck should I care when no one gives a fuck about me? I can't fucking get dreadlocks because it's going to cost a shitload. I can't get anyone else to do them or do them myself. Fuck it's so damn frustrating. I have to be a fucking greedy, indifferent prick to get anywhere in this fucked up world. The more corrupt and selfish you are, the further you will go and the more women you will fuck. Thats my purpose on this Earth, to fuck; nothing more. I want to just fuck all the women and leave my children to fend for themselves. Spreading my stupid genes is all that drives me and I can't even do that. Aarrrrrrrrggggghhhh I feel like I'm going fucking insane. I can't sort out anything anymore, I'm not who I thought I was. Logic and society tells me I have to be a fucking greedy **** to succeed, and everyone else tells me I have to share and believe in equality. Fuck equality, humans will never be truly equal. Yeah fuck it, I know I'm a racist prick - everytime I see an aboriginal I feel awkward. And why the fuck shouldn't I? Every abo I have come into contact with has been loud and aggressive towards me. Every abo I hear about has done something terrible. I know it's not their fault, but thats the fucking way they are and I can't change that.

Fuck the western world, fuck the western values. Fuck this stupid war. The people in Iraq are going to die and I can't do anything about it. Why should I go out and protest when I'm ignored? Why the fuck can't people just listen to each other and see things from a different perspective??? Equality will never come. Humans are flawed beyond any kind of fucking redemption. Fucking deadlines everywhere, people telling me how to live my life. Fuck, even none of my ideas are my own. I want to see society crumble, I want to see all the fucking governments fall. I want to live in anarchy, even if it means death and chaos. And you I know your fucking reaction to this stupid rant. I'm just confused, FUCK YOU. Everything I have said is true and right, because it is all that I have experienced and known. Yes death is the only true freedom, but I'm too fucking cowardly to do anything. Something inside me struggles to keep me alive and that is that. My 18th birthday was supposed to be special, after all everyone else's is; but no, I did fuck all, I got fuck all. I know what you are thinking "this guy is so self centred", but that is my nature and I can't fucking change that. I'm so sick of caring about other people when no person cares about me. All I have is my hate and my mind, and I can't handle them. I'm so fucking cut off with reality, I can't distinguish anything anymore. Shit I don't even know what I believe any more. I have no identity, I am nothing special. God please someone say something that will make everything all right. Would please someone restore my faith in this world..... Or maybe this is just one of those days, and when I wake up tomorrow everything will be alright...

But I feel a lot better now, and please disregard the majority of this rant.

(Edited by Rebelde para Siempre at 2:06 pm on Mar. 20, 2003)

[Dhul Fiqar]

Cheers!

*tips vial*

[Pete]

I have answered these questions. In my writings. I will write something for later~~so tired~~

I have been informed by a few different girls that 'girls are mean' and i cant stand superfical ones, or superfical guys at taht matter. It is understanable. I need a nap...offf

[KRAZYKILLA]

if u have no reason of life why dont you just go die? you have no purpose therefore you have NO RIGHT to existence.
ok so you non-religious... what happens when we die? also after we die? do we just cease to exist? matter cannot be destroyed in science therefore we cannot be destroyed.

(Edited by KRAZYKILLA at 6:24 pm on Mar. 20, 2003)

[canikickit]

if u have no reason of life why dont you just go die? you have no purpose therefore you have NO RIGHT to existence.

What a silly proposal.


matter cannot be destroyed in science therefore we cannot be destroyed.


Do you think your thoughts contain matter?
Your body decomposes and becomes food for worms.

Yes we cease to exist. What else? Sounds perfectly logical to me.

[Rebelde para Siempre]

Krazykilla,

FUCK YOU. I wasn't in a 'good state of mind' when I wrote that.

But any other day of the week, I look like you want to look, I act like you want to act, and I fuck like you want to fuck. I am smart, capable and resourceful; and everything that you are not.

But seriously I am smarter than you, so come back and talk to me once you have actually learned something.

Fascist fuck. Oh and judging by your sig, I better watch out, you're too hardcore for me to handle.