Xing
30th January 2007, 04:42
I guess , to be honest, my current situation is pure intimidation. I'm so use to walking into a room, or joining a forum, with the idea that everyone has been either brainwashed, has no clue, or will shun me for talking politics. Thats arrogant, and self righteous of me, but I can not expect my subconscious mind to pretend it doesnt have some sort of pre-emptive duty to quell my fears, with self assuring thoughts of previous experiences. Yeah, its sad that I find that reassuring.
Anyway, if you want to know what my motivation has been, its related to my youth just outside East St Louis. That city itself is a metaphor of everything wrong with the current system. Immigration, and Iraq, solidified my current standings. My parents were born in Mexico. My dad joined the air force, because the gas station and onion field he was working at, were not financially reliable for a new father. The ignorance, and the disgustingly quick brainwashing of most people in the country, simply over immigration, have certainly pushed me further away from my old views.
I guess , to be honest, my current situation is pure intimidation. I'm so use to walking into a room, or joining a forum, with the idea that everyone has been either brainwashed, has no clue, or will shun me for talking politics. Thats arrogant, and self righteous of me, but I can not expect my subconscious mind to pretend it doesnt have some sort of pre-emptive duty to quell my fears, with self assuring thoughts of previous experiences. Yeah, its sad that I find that reassuring.
Anyway, if you want to know what my motivation has been, its related to my youth just outside East St Louis. That city itself is a metaphor of everything wrong with the current system. Immigration, and Iraq, solidified my current standings. My parents were born in Mexico. My dad joined the air force, because the gas station and onion field he was working at, were not financially reliable for a new father. The ignorance, and the disgustingly quick brainwashing of most people in the country, simply over immigration, have certainly pushed me further away from my old views.
Oh, the other irony has been my familys historical relationship with Pancho Villa. To hear positive stories about him, while learning the negatives in history class and from people around me what a trip thats been.
Whatever, nice to meet you people.
I guess , to be honest, my current situation is pure intimidation. I'm so use to walking into a room, or joining a forum, with the idea that everyone has been either brainwashed, has no clue, or will shun me for talking politics. Thats arrogant, and self righteous of me, but I can not expect my subconscious mind to pretend it doesnt have some sort of pre-emptive duty to quell my fears, with self assuring thoughts of previous experiences. Yeah, its sad that I find that reassuring.
Anyway, if you want to know what my motivation has been, its related to my youth just outside East St Louis. I had way too many friends from there, for me to buy all the garbage some people there had attempted to throw at me, as far as why East St Louis was bad. I did my own research, and learned how far in denial those people are about the role race played in the destruction of that city. That city itself is a metaphor of everything wrong with the current system.
Immigration, and Iraq, solidified my current standings. My parents were born in Mexico. My dad joined the air force, because the gas station and onion field he was working at, were not financially reliable for a new father. The ignorance, and the disgustingly quick brainwashing of most people in the country, have certainly pushed me further away from my old views, and the majority's.
Oh, the other irony has been my familys historical relationship with Pancho Villa. To hear positive stories about him, while learning the negatives in history class and from people around me there has been a lot of debate there.
Whatever, nice to meet you people.
Anyway, Im in Chicago now. Anyone else in the Midwest?
Anyway, Lord of the Flies, favorite book, since before I knew what it was about. Alive, you know, that story about the Andes survivors? Lost was my favorite television show, although there was some things in it I didnt care for... (picking up on a theme?)
Halloween- Favorite movie.
Education - I have all these theories of how screwed up education is right now... I mean, I was seriously led to believe I was stupid, because my classes were discouraging and boring. Im talking about high school. Yet, we're talking about Midwest Private school here... I did fine in college. My sister, even worst, and my "dumb ass" spent a lot of time trying to help her out, and in many cases, doing a better job than her dumb ass teachers, some of which told my parents, she was hopeless.
Nevertheless , she, at times, convinced herself that they were right, and it was for a moment, a struggle for me to reverse all of that garbage. I mean, I did this when I was a republican, and I still found reasons to defend these assholes. They brainwashed my family. I'm disgustingly serious.
My other sister is so convinced that immigration is messed up, but all other issues republicans have right on. What? Conveniently the republicans got everything, but your most passionate beliefs correct? WAHH? That makes no sense. The only reason for that is because she grew up with, and experienced enough of the immigration process, the learning involved, and the assimilation, enough to know they're full of shit, yet she is so convinced with the military, being they changed our token support , for a living contrary to the absurd lifestyles and factory abuse of most other Mexican immigrants.
Anyway, to warn you of how I am... I'm impulsive, incredibly honest, and self righteous. I will argue something, no matter what that oppisition believes, until I fully understand their perspective myself. Looking like an idiot, in my opinion, is worth the honest understanding.
The other party- oh yeah, Democrats. I worked for a consultant company in Illinois. I had studied film/video in college, and these people actually spent their time making commercials for Democrats and teaching these idiots about the current situations in the states(yes, I saw many of them, being taught about politics, after they were elected, in some cases). They are the most fake, bullshit, drama-hungry group of worthless individuals I have ever seen. I seriously have a notch more respect for Republicans for being honest about their hatred, and ignorance.
Anyway, if you want to know what my motivation has been, its related to my youth just outside East St Louis. That city itself is a metaphor of everything wrong with the current system. Immigration, and Iraq, solidified my current standings. My parents were born in Mexico. My dad joined the air force, because the gas station and onion field he was working at, were not financially reliable for a new father. The ignorance, and the disgustingly quick brainwashing of most people in the country, simply over immigration, have certainly pushed me further away from my old views.
I guess , to be honest, my current situation is pure intimidation. I'm so use to walking into a room, or joining a forum, with the idea that everyone has been either brainwashed, has no clue, or will shun me for talking politics. Thats arrogant, and self righteous of me, but I can not expect my subconscious mind to pretend it doesnt have some sort of pre-emptive duty to quell my fears, with self assuring thoughts of previous experiences. Yeah, its sad that I find that reassuring.
Anyway, if you want to know what my motivation has been, its related to my youth just outside East St Louis. That city itself is a metaphor of everything wrong with the current system. Immigration, and Iraq, solidified my current standings. My parents were born in Mexico. My dad joined the air force, because the gas station and onion field he was working at, were not financially reliable for a new father. The ignorance, and the disgustingly quick brainwashing of most people in the country, simply over immigration, have certainly pushed me further away from my old views.
Oh, the other irony has been my familys historical relationship with Pancho Villa. To hear positive stories about him, while learning the negatives in history class and from people around me what a trip thats been.
Whatever, nice to meet you people.
I guess , to be honest, my current situation is pure intimidation. I'm so use to walking into a room, or joining a forum, with the idea that everyone has been either brainwashed, has no clue, or will shun me for talking politics. Thats arrogant, and self righteous of me, but I can not expect my subconscious mind to pretend it doesnt have some sort of pre-emptive duty to quell my fears, with self assuring thoughts of previous experiences. Yeah, its sad that I find that reassuring.
Anyway, if you want to know what my motivation has been, its related to my youth just outside East St Louis. I had way too many friends from there, for me to buy all the garbage some people there had attempted to throw at me, as far as why East St Louis was bad. I did my own research, and learned how far in denial those people are about the role race played in the destruction of that city. That city itself is a metaphor of everything wrong with the current system.
Immigration, and Iraq, solidified my current standings. My parents were born in Mexico. My dad joined the air force, because the gas station and onion field he was working at, were not financially reliable for a new father. The ignorance, and the disgustingly quick brainwashing of most people in the country, have certainly pushed me further away from my old views, and the majority's.
Oh, the other irony has been my familys historical relationship with Pancho Villa. To hear positive stories about him, while learning the negatives in history class and from people around me there has been a lot of debate there.
Whatever, nice to meet you people.
Anyway, Im in Chicago now. Anyone else in the Midwest?
Anyway, Lord of the Flies, favorite book, since before I knew what it was about. Alive, you know, that story about the Andes survivors? Lost was my favorite television show, although there was some things in it I didnt care for... (picking up on a theme?)
Halloween- Favorite movie.
Education - I have all these theories of how screwed up education is right now... I mean, I was seriously led to believe I was stupid, because my classes were discouraging and boring. Im talking about high school. Yet, we're talking about Midwest Private school here... I did fine in college. My sister, even worst, and my "dumb ass" spent a lot of time trying to help her out, and in many cases, doing a better job than her dumb ass teachers, some of which told my parents, she was hopeless.
Nevertheless , she, at times, convinced herself that they were right, and it was for a moment, a struggle for me to reverse all of that garbage. I mean, I did this when I was a republican, and I still found reasons to defend these assholes. They brainwashed my family. I'm disgustingly serious.
My other sister is so convinced that immigration is messed up, but all other issues republicans have right on. What? Conveniently the republicans got everything, but your most passionate beliefs correct? WAHH? That makes no sense. The only reason for that is because she grew up with, and experienced enough of the immigration process, the learning involved, and the assimilation, enough to know they're full of shit, yet she is so convinced with the military, being they changed our token support , for a living contrary to the absurd lifestyles and factory abuse of most other Mexican immigrants.
Anyway, to warn you of how I am... I'm impulsive, incredibly honest, and self righteous. I will argue something, no matter what that oppisition believes, until I fully understand their perspective myself. Looking like an idiot, in my opinion, is worth the honest understanding.
The other party- oh yeah, Democrats. I worked for a consultant company in Illinois. I had studied film/video in college, and these people actually spent their time making commercials for Democrats and teaching these idiots about the current situations in the states(yes, I saw many of them, being taught about politics, after they were elected, in some cases). They are the most fake, bullshit, drama-hungry group of worthless individuals I have ever seen. I seriously have a notch more respect for Republicans for being honest about their hatred, and ignorance.