Guardia Rossa
30th September 2015, 20:25
EDIT: Don't read this if you don't want to read the lamentations of a adolescent.
I am 17 years old, I suffer discrimination for being young. I cannot discuss politics, philosophy, sociology, actually, any and all things I say are disregarded as "young revolt" and that "time will change me" as if I would join this sick Capitalist Status Quo automatically when as I get older.
People don't take us seriously. My sociology teacher, a admitted revisionist, keeps attempting to convert me to revisionist tendencies, saying "You will grow" and shit like that, as if I can't think straight until I'm at least 21.
Likewise, my father is a typical patriarch. He thinks he "owns" both me and my step-mother. To give an example, if he makes something wrong, it's "It was only once, I don't do this all the time, stop trying to be victimize yourself and make me look like an idiot blablabla". If we make something wrong he thinks he is in his right to say we are shit and idiots until 4 A.M. and stress the fact "This is MY house, I buy the food, if you want to do things like that go rent yourself a house, blablabla"
It's fun that if I try to re-affirmate my independence he aggressively ask me "ARE YOU CHALLENGING ME???" as if we were animals fighting for a bone, in a zero-sum relation where one have to be dominant.
He is totally into Zen-Buddhist Neoliberal culture (Except in his Patriarchy, he is quite a conservative there) and smokes marijuana, hears indian music. Still, he criticizes me when I relax hearing rock and playing strategy computer games, as if smoking is any better than playing.
I cannot move into the house of any of my family members, half of them live far from my city and most of them live far from the city center (My school and work are at the center of the city. Half-million city, more houses than apartment buildings so it's the bigger urban zone per population of my nation (Brazil) so living too far away is not an option, that is, if I want to sleep more than 6 hours per day)
And my salary is 400 Reais, 100 dollars, for a 4-hour workday. Wouldn't manage to rent a cardboard box and buy the essentials. I don't actually work much, but as the russians said about late-USSR, "They pretend to pay and we pretend to work"
I'm attempting to get a 830 reais (207 dollars) job for the same 4 hours, but that's for at most next year. And won't really help, cheapest rent is 500 reais, water+energy+food is 200, I wouldn't be able to buy anything else then the most essential stuff.
Worst is the government. I can't do anything without my father, my mother, my grandfather, my dog, my tree and my boss signing down that they "allow" me to do stuff. As If I cannot be responsible, I cannot take care of myself, as If I was a pet.
I already though about making a party for youth rights, but hey, I can't even read Karl Marx's books, how am I supposed to create a party from scratch?
So I'm stuck with an reactionary father that thinks I'm his propriety, a minimal salary, my opinions are automatically trash, because I am still to young to think, after all, and I don't have time for do nothing worthwile, like learning German, reading Marx, learning how to make drawings (Propaganda posters FTW), no money to rent a place for myself.
Sorry for this thread. I am very stressed and need to say this to someone. And the thread deviated quite a lot from my original objective, but I will leave it like this. I don't know what to do, so I will use the social medias to annoy people and cry out loud, as if this was going to help me solve my problems. Whatever.
Mods, throw this wherever you think it's more appropriate. Delete it if you want.
I am 17 years old, I suffer discrimination for being young. I cannot discuss politics, philosophy, sociology, actually, any and all things I say are disregarded as "young revolt" and that "time will change me" as if I would join this sick Capitalist Status Quo automatically when as I get older.
People don't take us seriously. My sociology teacher, a admitted revisionist, keeps attempting to convert me to revisionist tendencies, saying "You will grow" and shit like that, as if I can't think straight until I'm at least 21.
Likewise, my father is a typical patriarch. He thinks he "owns" both me and my step-mother. To give an example, if he makes something wrong, it's "It was only once, I don't do this all the time, stop trying to be victimize yourself and make me look like an idiot blablabla". If we make something wrong he thinks he is in his right to say we are shit and idiots until 4 A.M. and stress the fact "This is MY house, I buy the food, if you want to do things like that go rent yourself a house, blablabla"
It's fun that if I try to re-affirmate my independence he aggressively ask me "ARE YOU CHALLENGING ME???" as if we were animals fighting for a bone, in a zero-sum relation where one have to be dominant.
He is totally into Zen-Buddhist Neoliberal culture (Except in his Patriarchy, he is quite a conservative there) and smokes marijuana, hears indian music. Still, he criticizes me when I relax hearing rock and playing strategy computer games, as if smoking is any better than playing.
I cannot move into the house of any of my family members, half of them live far from my city and most of them live far from the city center (My school and work are at the center of the city. Half-million city, more houses than apartment buildings so it's the bigger urban zone per population of my nation (Brazil) so living too far away is not an option, that is, if I want to sleep more than 6 hours per day)
And my salary is 400 Reais, 100 dollars, for a 4-hour workday. Wouldn't manage to rent a cardboard box and buy the essentials. I don't actually work much, but as the russians said about late-USSR, "They pretend to pay and we pretend to work"
I'm attempting to get a 830 reais (207 dollars) job for the same 4 hours, but that's for at most next year. And won't really help, cheapest rent is 500 reais, water+energy+food is 200, I wouldn't be able to buy anything else then the most essential stuff.
Worst is the government. I can't do anything without my father, my mother, my grandfather, my dog, my tree and my boss signing down that they "allow" me to do stuff. As If I cannot be responsible, I cannot take care of myself, as If I was a pet.
I already though about making a party for youth rights, but hey, I can't even read Karl Marx's books, how am I supposed to create a party from scratch?
So I'm stuck with an reactionary father that thinks I'm his propriety, a minimal salary, my opinions are automatically trash, because I am still to young to think, after all, and I don't have time for do nothing worthwile, like learning German, reading Marx, learning how to make drawings (Propaganda posters FTW), no money to rent a place for myself.
Sorry for this thread. I am very stressed and need to say this to someone. And the thread deviated quite a lot from my original objective, but I will leave it like this. I don't know what to do, so I will use the social medias to annoy people and cry out loud, as if this was going to help me solve my problems. Whatever.
Mods, throw this wherever you think it's more appropriate. Delete it if you want.