Post a Confession Here

[Quail]

Just something silly and a bit weird. Preferably related to Revleft.

If I see references to Quail eggs I think of myself rather than the teeny little birds my name comes from, so I think, "Haha, you're eating my eggs."

Anyway, what are yours?
(Is this too weird to post?)

[Tim Cornelis]

"Whenever Quail eggs come up...." wha'? Is that frequently? lol. I've never seen that being mentioned. How does that even come up? I also don't know what they are.

Now I feel obliged to make a confession. This is something common, but I always, by default, imagine an online person is a guy unless stating otherwise, or if there's a woman in the avatar, even if it's just a random one (like, Emma Watson or some celebrity). I've heard other people say the same thing, so it's not really a good confession I guess.

[Anglo-Saxon Philistine]

Quail eggs are tasty if a bit fiddly due to their small shells, and if you can buy them in Croatia you can probably buy them anywhere.

As for the confession, I am seriously prejudiced against people from my region, and the surrounding mountainous rural areas. As soon as I hear the regional accent(s), people start losing points.

[Quail]

"Whenever Quail eggs come up...." wha'? Is that frequently? lol. I've never seen that being mentioned. How does that even come up? I also don't know what they are.
It's not massively often, but it comes up often enough to make me chuckle to myself.

[Comrade Jacob]

I've never read a Marxist book in full, I get bored (But I am making an effort with Engels: Origins of Family, Private property and the state).

[Armchair Partisan]

Most of my best friends IRL are fascists or far-right-wingers, and due to having a scarcity of real-life friends I cannot afford to drop them like hot potatoes. One silver lining is that they don't tend to be pushy and obnoxious about their politics around me, mostly because they took the hints that I'm not really on one page with them.

[Fourth Internationalist]

I cheat in school. And I'm proud of it.

[Comrade Njordr]

I used to be a little homophobic a few years ago. It was mainly brought on by unwanted attention from a gay guy who kept harassing me despite me making myself pretty clear that I wasn't interested. Fortunately, I no longer hold those views and I'm embarrassed that I did.

[Sinister Intents]

If I say I'm fine I'm lying

[Redistribute the Rep]

Judging by his posting style, I feel like Rafiq is probably really attractive looking

[Bala Perdida]

We sell expired snacks at work

[Atsumari]

I find Alexander Dugin to be fascinating.
When I was younger and less feminine, I disliked gay guys and would only date bisexuals.

[The Intransigent Faction]

Most of my best friends IRL are fascists or far-right-wingers, and due to having a scarcity of real-life friends I cannot afford to drop them like hot potatoes. One silver lining is that they don't tend to be pushy and obnoxious about their politics around me, mostly because they took the hints that I'm not really on one page with them.

Definitely not most, but I have had a couple of acquaintances who were fascists (and likely still are). We had some similar musical tastes, and having them around kept me aware of reactionary ideology standing in the way of revolution. Hearing the way some liberals talked to these fascists also solidified a radical left perspective for me as the only way to really effectively take them on.

[Brandon's Impotent Rage]

i am a noodle

[consuming negativity]

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[motion denied]

thread is getting interesting lol

[cyu]

I treat revleft as my recruiting ground for government agents. I can't think of any other place they'd naturally gravitate to :grin:

[Redistribute the Rep]

I'd like all of the users who changed their name in the last batch to change them back. Now I'm confused

[Sewer Socialist]

No. I am very happy with mine.

[Redistribute the Rep]

K

[Brandon's Impotent Rage]

The truth is that, although I try to be mindful of the way that women's sexuality is often exploited in media....I still manage to fall for it every time.

I can't help it. I like boobs. And sometimes, boobs win.

[Sinister Intents]

K

I think I'm kind of obvious, don't you think?

I'm a walking contradiction and it's painful

[Sinister Intents]

The truth is that, although I try to be mindful of the way that women's sexuality is often exploited in media....I still manage to fall for it every time.

I can't help it. I like boobs. And sometimes, boobs win.

I think people can like boobs without sexualizing them or objectifying women. They're soft and comfy, they're perfect for laying your head on that person's chest. I wish i had breasts.

[consuming negativity]

men who don't prefer butts are weird and i view them with suspicion

i am not kidding. breasts are for babies.

[Sinister Intents]

This thread is getting weird

[Redistribute the Rep]

men who don't prefer butts are weird and i view them with suspicion

i am not kidding. breasts are for babies.

Well, butts are for poop, so...

EDIT: let's talk about something else

[Sinister Intents]

I have an infatuation with women much older than me. Like 40+ year old women. There are so many beautiful, sexy people out there.

Now I feel awkward and embarrassed

[Bala Perdida]

I missed going to the gym today and took a nap instead. Also I overslept this morning. I'm terrible.

[Sinister Intents]

I sexted once, that was fucking awful

[Os Cangaceiros]

There are a lot of really generic, stupid pop songs that I like. Top 40-type stuff. I'll listen to it in my car at an audible volume if I'm by myself.

[Quail]

There are a lot of really generic, stupid pop songs that I like. Top 40-type stuff. I'll listen to it in my car at an audible volume if I'm by myself.

Along this vein, I kind of like the Frozen soundtrack and have listened to it without my son being there on occasion :lol:

[Bala Perdida]

I like the fiddel (that weird violin thing) but probably not in a way anyone here can imagine.

[BIXX]

I often lie on the floor like a beached whale. It bothers everyone who has seen me do it but they obviously have no idea how comfy it is so I have been known to force people to lay down that way so they can understand but most of the time they still don't get it.

[Sewer Socialist]

I sleep best when face down.

It's not very cuddly.

I haven't been very cuddly in the last couple of years.

I have been getting much better sleep.

[#FF0000]

My room is loaded with books I haven't gotten around to reading yet and instruments I haven't gotten around to learning proficiently.

[The Intransigent Faction]

I sexted once, that was fucking awful

That made me think of another one now, instead of copying Armchair Partisan:

I sincerely wish I were asexual. Having a sex drive at this point just piles on another bodily function that it'd be nice to do without.

[PhoenixAsh]

Outing somebody in a rev political scene as a cop is not a joke even if meant half serious or as a joke.

General warning: DON'T do it again unless you have some sort of proof and evidence that corroborates the statement.

This could have very real consequences for that person IRL you may not have intended or are aware of. Some of us and some of our readers are activists who take a dim view and may act on that information by spreading this (dis)information in groups this person is active in.

[Armchair Partisan]

I have an infatuation with women much older than me. Like 40+ year old women.

Me too. It's one of the least weird paraphilias I have (to stay in the spirit of the confession thread).

[RA89]

Nothing wrong with liking older women, there's millions of people into that.

From all the research and reading I've done I'm convinced open relationships or polyamory are the way forward. But I can't see myself taking part because of jealousy (which I believe would not be there if I wasn't brought up in capitalism).

[Rosa Partizan]

Part of the reason why I started activism is because I like to hang out with all those people and I don't dare to ask them if this is partly their motivation, too.

[cyu]

I still manage to fall for it every time


Pavlovian conditioning works, whether you realize it's happening or not =]

[Quail]

I don't think being attracted to older women should be a "confession"... At what age do women stop being people and become some kind of guilty pleasure?

[consuming negativity]

Outing somebody in a rev political scene as a cop is not a joke even if meant half serious or as a joke.

General warning: DON'T do it again unless you have some sort of proof and evidence that corroborates the statement.

This could have very real consequences for that person IRL you may not have intended or are aware of. Some of us and some of our readers are activists who take a dim view and may act on that information by spreading this (dis)information in groups this person is active in.

not to argue, but i did post evidence, and this is the second time i've made that particular claim. this time in a confession thread because i thought i could actually do that. maybe you should try reading my post before you want to pretend you're not moderating it?

but thanks for the condescending implications. you're a peach, as always. i wouldn't be surprised if half the fucking mods and admins here were cops though. it would explain why you're all so useless. but i guess i can't be honest because the self-proclaimed activists take offense. :glare:

whatever, i'm out, it really doesn't matter if it's malevolence or stupidity i really just want no parts of it

[consuming negativity]

I don't think being attracted to older women should be a "confession"... At what age do women stop being people and become some kind of guilty pleasure?

it's because it's not "supposed" to be that way according to society. like how it's cool to be a daddy's girl but not a momma's boy, because mom/women/etc. are supposed to be a downgrade. so it's embarrassing for si to feel that way. i mean, have you ever heard the insult "motherfucker" before? it came from somewhere...

[human strike]

I like to engage in some weird kinky shit that I'm sure some people here would object to (and yeah that was prompted by the above post). I've never been a member of the AWL though.

When I was 18 I voted for No2EU in a European parliamentary election. Shame. Shame. Shame. *rings bell*

[Sinister Intents]

I don't think being attracted to older women should be a "confession"... At what age do women stop being people and become some kind of guilty pleasure?

It was mostly a stupid joke referring to something I get made fun of for by my employees and dad. It's because I don't make any preferences for women because I'm attracted to all women. I also can't say I'm perfect because I have to put up with bullshit all day with my dad objectifying women and I open my mouth when someone says something fucked up. My dad insists that my attraction to older women is a fetish when it's not. It's similar to the racist view that black, asian, and other women is a fetish. Or when I call my dad and employees out on sexism period. I don't mean to instigate terrible arguments, but I can't stand the bullshit

[#FF0000]

I never pay my IWW dues on time even though I'm a delegate. v:mellow:v

[Anglo-Saxon Philistine]

I don't know how to ride a bike.

[Tim Cornelis]

I started working out for odd, faux-feminist reasons: evening out that women invest a lot of time and a bit of money in taking care of themselves in terms of appearance, by I starting to do the same. I guess, fight objectification with objectification.

Feminist input please on whether either or both constitute objectification. Thanks.


When I was 18 I voted for No2EU in a European parliamentary election. Shame. Shame. Shame. *rings bell*

I laughed.

[PhoenixAsh]

You realize that you are posting this in a semi-serious thread right? Where half of what is posted is either a joke or not to be taken too serious on a part of the forum that is not really the place to out somebody.


You are dropping an H-bomb in here.



Others may not notice or place particular importance to it. Activists however will probably take that shit deadly serious and will take a dim view on people being cop informers but equally take a dim view on outing somebody on a non serious level giving the appearance that it isn't really that big of a deal.

So I am sorry if your feelings got hurt...let me explain to you why

Most notably how you started the passage...with adding it on the back burner of accusing her of having a sock...


Security culture

There is a long history of cop infiltration. This breaks down mutual trust within groups and between activists and necessitates security culture.

Cop infiltration can be disastrous on both an individual or group level with far reaching consequences ranging from being tagged/flagged, continuously watched and monitored, losing your job, jail time or even harassment, death threads, your family being threatened or disappearing or being murdered.

Cop infiltration can go on for years with activists not being any wiser that their close comrade and friend (and even lover, husband, wife or mother/father of their children...because yeah...that is how long such shit can go on) plays for the other team.

For that reason we have security culture. We don't know what other people are involved in. We don't know who they associate with. We don't know what the legal status is of their activity. And we don't know whether or not they are being observed, followed or whatever.

This is especially true because of the international nature of this board and the large variance on legal issues pertaining to activism not to mention the difference in consequences varying from nation to nation. This goes especially for those among us who might be active internationally.

For this reason we don't do the following:


We don't mention specifics.
We don't mention personal details of people we associate with.
We don't mention what we are involved in.
We don't even don't provide or allow you to provide (on this board) our/your own identifying data on open board.
We advice strongly against doing so in PM/Chat....and this is at your own risk. Do note that you may be risking others as well...so...keep that in mind. you might not be the real target.
We don't ask for specifics from our fellow activists
We don't run our mouths
If somebody doesn't need to know they don't need to know...if you don't need to know...then don't want to know


Good activists will tell you when you run your mouth and stop you. not only because of your safety, the safety of people you are involved in but also their own (don't make me complicit in your activism). Very good activists might even peg you as an informant if you do or tell people they know you associate with that you run your mouth.

Somebody who runs their mouth can't be trusted...obviously.

It is essential that out spaces and groups remain as safe as possible. Which is why we do the following:


If you don't trust somebody tell people
If somebody is new watch yourself around them
If somebody is asking too many informing questions...tell them to stop.
If that behavior persists or you observe them doing the same with others...tell people.
If you suspect somebody to be an informant provide your evidence.
If people don't hear you then continue to speak up
If you post pictures of actions...blur out faces in such a way the picture can't be reconstructed or matched with facial recognition data. The cops most likely use the press or their own photographers...but there is no sense in helping them along. Let them make the effort.


There is a host of other sensible advises.

For this reason and for the system to work:

There is no shame in flagging somebody as a person to watch yourself around. There is no shame in telling that person that you don't trust them.
There may be consequences between you and that person. But yeah..c'est la vie.

There is no shame in being tagged or flagged. This most likely is a trust issue and not something to take personal. If you are new in a group, unfamiliar or look out of place...that can certainly happen {que Sasha with "Yeah PA was flagged as a potential undercover cop once"...:D...I just looked to darned pretty & groomed to be part of that particular scene ;) } If you are refused in an activity/group...don't get angry...go home.

By the way...that action was published on here...I am not sure if I told this. But somebody in my Gym was Fb friends with me. I posted a picture they felt obligated to inform their, apparently, supervisor at the cop academy (which...I didn't know he was doing) and he was strongly advised to end the friendship and all further contact with me if he wanted to have a career with the cops. On top of that he told me that one of his teachers was taking part o the cop side and she turned out to stand right next to me when we were boxed in. She told him about me. He recognized me from the description. The world is small. Needless to say that is the last time he and I spoke more than two words.

What we don't do however is out people as cops when we are not absolutely sure....and we don't do it in a situation where we won't be or are likely to not be taken seriously....and without expanding on specifics about why we think this that expand beyond..."well they are befriending every male member on the board and PM-ing them"...give specifics.

There is a difference with outing somebody as not trustworthy and outing somebody as a cop. While I don't mind the first as it is opinion which can be noted or ignored at your own peril...the second can have very dire consequences for the person outed...with being shunned the very best possible outcome of that...but there are examples in hear say narrative of stories that may or may not be true...of outed people being targeted in a more direct manner.

Now...I am absolutely sure not everybody here is either an activist or involved in anything more illegal than writing shit on a forum....which...sometimes is enough. Some of us however might be activists and they might or might not be involved in shit and may or may not have very bad experience with these kind of issues either way.

For activists this is deadly serious stuff. They take a dim view of informants/cop infiltration and they also know and realize the consequences and take a dim view of outing somebody impromptu in aux serieux situations or circumstances.

So be careful what you do. Do it properly.

[Rudolf]

I occasionally got cat called when i was a teenager. They didn't realise im a guy.

[Invader Zim]

I once read tom Clancy book and actually enjoyed it. I hang my head in shame.

[PhoenixAsh]

I once read tom Clancy book and actually enjoyed it. I hang my head in shame.

This depends on which one

[human strike]

I once read tom Clancy book and actually enjoyed it. I hang my head in shame.

I still have several Tom Clancys on my book shelf. A couple of Dan Browns too. I think it's for nostalgia's sake, I'm not sure; maybe I just dislike getting rid of things. Shameful shit, regardless.

[Fourth Internationalist]

I stopped believing in God when I was 12 because the History Channel show "Ancient Aliens" convinced me that the gods of all the religions were actually just extraterrestrials with advanced technology which was indistinguishable from divinity to the ancient peoples.

(I am still an atheist, but not for the above reason)

[Sinister Intents]

I stopped believing in God when I was 12 because the History Channel show "Ancient Aliens" convinced me that the gods of all the religions were actually just extraterrestrials with advanced technology which was indistinguishable from divinity to the ancient peoples.

(I am still an atheist, but not for the above reason)

At least it's an iota more believable than gods, for there to have been some kind of alien influence that just never came back. I don't believe we've been visited by aliens

I held some horrible views in the past, and I still may, I don't know, but I'll consistently work on not being fucked up.

[Redistribute the Rep]

I started working out for odd, faux-feminist reasons: evening out that women invest a lot of time and a bit of money in taking care of themselves in terms of appearance, by I starting to do the same. I guess, fight objectification with objectification.

Feminist input please on whether either or both constitute objectification. Thanks.

I don't think most women really care who can even lift. It seems more like a male power fantasy.



Also, I like the new mod of non political. The old one closed one of my threads for not being serious enough. But I just wanted to be able to get rep.

[Futility Personified]

After I heard the phrase all men are rapists, I assumed that sex was inherently bad and that basically anything qualified as rape, so whilst being a teenager I was a pursuin', once the chase was over i'd just say some patronising pseduo-priestly stuff and then sit around in a very resentful room like I was gandhi.

At the time it felt like suffering for the world, now I look back and laugh at how I take certain things far too literally.

[Tim Cornelis]

After I heard the phrase all men are rapists, I assumed that sex was inherently bad and that basically anything qualified as rape, so whilst being a teenager I was a pursuin', once the chase was over i'd just say some patronising pseduo-priestly stuff and then sit around in a very resentful room like I was gandhi.

At the time it felt like suffering for the world, now I look back and laugh at how I take certain things far too literally.

wuut. Can you expand on this? What gender are you, or did you identify with then? So, if I'm getting this right, you would 'lure' people into a situation where they expected sex and then lecture them about it being rape? And what do you mean by "resentful room"?

[Tim Cornelis]

I don't think most women really care who can even lift. It seems more like a male power fantasy.

lol, well, I have done 'extensive research' (google) on this topic. Either way, I'm now lifting more for enjoyment. When I lifted for external reasons I just skipped a lot and was unmotivated.

It's a little difficult to separate expressions of being attracted to someone physically with assumptions of a social nature that factor into it. For instance, most women say they don't like men that are too muscular, but they also give reasons for this that are not related to physical attraction such as that 'too muscular' bulky guys are preoccupied with themselves, that they go to the gym too often and for too long (they assume), that they are likely douchebaggy, and are more likely to cheat. So some stereotyping is involved. One study done showed pictures of men the women respondents were interested in for long-term relationships, and it included not a single muscular physique, but again, this may be because of reasons other than physical attractiveness (the stereotyping). Another (flawed) online study showed that the physique most desired in terms of physical attraction by the women respondents was significantly less bulky (but still athletic) than the physique men most desired for themselves. I think, based on this personal research, most women, or at least a significant minority, thinks a physique that (they think) reflects going to gym in moderation is ideal, that reflects taking care of yourself, being healthy and active, but not being preoccupied or being narcissistic about it -- so an athletic-muscular physique, not a muscular-bulky physique. Having a muscular-bulky physique will probably get you more attention from mirin' dudes than women. Ultimately, I think, in getting a (serious) relationship, lifting or not will not matter significantly. So in that sense, yes, I think you're right.


Also, I like the new mod of non political. The old one closed one of my threads for not being serious enough. But I just wanted to be able to get rep.

I tend not to know where non-political ends and chit chat begins. What are you planning on doing with that rep?

[Sinister Intents]

I'm very suspicious of some Trotskyists and other MLs, but not all, but mostly the trots. There are exceptions like 9mm/Skunk Ape, sixdollarchampagne, and so on.

TW


I use a lot of laxatives to keep myself thin, I'm mortified of gaining weight even though I need to because I'm painfully underweight. I've also been skipping most meals

[Ele'ill]

There are a lot of really generic, stupid pop songs that I like. Top 40-type stuff. I'll listen to it in my car at an audible volume if I'm by myself.

I look forward to whenever a Taylor Swift song comes on the radio and if I am at the gym my lifts increase when it happens.

[Redistribute the Rep]

Americas next top model is a good show ok

[human strike]

So is Don't Tell the Bride, ok.

[Anglo-Saxon Philistine]

I expected stories about poisoning your neighbours but you people are genuine monsters.

[Fourth Internationalist]

I expected stories about poisoning your neighbours but you people are genuine monsters.

We're bike-riding monsters.

[Sinister Intents]

Fourth Internationalist is a decent Marxist and a very smart kid.

[Fourth Internationalist]

Fourth Internationalist is a decent Marxist and a very smart kid.

I'll be legally an adult within a year :)

[The Disillusionist]

Being a member of this website has made me seriously question my leftist leanings, because you're all completely ridiculous, and the ideas on this site are a joke. But I have nothing but contempt for right-wingers. I'm beginning to think that I basically can't hang out with any group of people without growing to hate them and their ideas. Maybe I'll go back to hanging out with the post-leftists and trying to tolerate their nihilist, post-modernist garbage...

[PhoenixAsh]

I officially don't watch television. I haven't watched television for about 10 years and unless I had no other choice. I stopped after watching an episode of Temptation Island....and realized how infuriating ridiculous television has become.

I own a tv which I use solely for the purpose of playing video games.

I download or stream series or episodes of things I want to watch. I don't feel like I am missing out.

[Sinister Intents]

Being a member of this website has made me seriously question my leftist leanings, because you're all completely ridiculous, and the ideas on this site are a joke. But I have nothing but contempt for right-wingers. I'm beginning to think that I basically can't hang out with any group of people without growing to hate them and their ideas. Maybe I'll go back to hanging out with the post-leftists and trying to tolerate their nihilist, post-modernist garbage...

Lol, most of us aren't leftists, I'm not one. The left-right thing is pretty liberal.

You're young right? I am too, but I feel like you're younger than me four some reason. No one says you have to be a leftist, an anarchist, et cetera. Your views will consistently change throughout your life. I think this was probably a pointless post.

[The Disillusionist]

Lol, most of us aren't leftists, I'm not one. The left-right thing is pretty liberal.

You're young right? I am too, but I feel like you're younger than me four some reason. No one says you have to be a leftist, an anarchist, et cetera. Your views will consistently change throughout your life. I think this was probably a pointless post.

...What? You realize that this site is called revLEFT, right? Anarchism and Communism are both far-left political doctrines.

I think I need to get back in touch with anarchist theory. That could be the solution. All the orthodox Marxism on this site is driving me insane. Maybe some modern anarchist reading would clear my head a bit, introduce some innovation.

Also, I'm 21.

[Art Vandelay]

The left-right thing is pretty liberal.

This makes no sense. The word liberal actually means something, it isn't just a catch all term for whatever you happen to dislike or disagree with.

[Rafiq]

Being a member of this website has made me seriously question my leftist leanings, because you're all completely ridiculous, and the ideas on this site are a joke. But I have nothing but contempt for right-wingers.

Plainly, it's because you're most likely just a spineless person. And I mean that as kindly as possible.

That is to say, your "leftism" was never an actual affirmative leftism. It was a hysterical opposition to the "black and white" facade of the 'hard' right wingers, it places you squarely in the liberal camp. You see, your affinity with Leftism was never actually an identification with it, but the desire for something more "open" and "balanced".

This is a temporal hysteria. When push comes to shove, when it's life or death, your heart is truly with the right wing, and don't deny that. You want to be 'reasonable' about things - you want to remain comfortable within the confines of the existing order. You detest our destructive spirit, and you are horrified by its unity with the cold theoretical prowess of Marxism - because "science should be reserved for the neutral, the 'reasonable' with no such extreme passions!"

What brought you to radicalism was most likely some kind of fascination with Chomsky, which in turn is probably why you identify as an "anarchist". But Chomsky is no anarchist, he's a liberal. And that's what you are. Real anarchists could only ever hold your irk in contempt. Real anarchists are the ones who start breaking windows when the liberals just want a nice, modest demonstration.

[GiantMonkeyMan]

Stay classy, Rafiq.

[PhoenixAsh]

Please don't ever engage in speaking to non class conscious workers...winning hearts and minds isn't your strong point.

[Rafiq]

But non class conscious workers, by merit of being workers, have an inclination to be class conscious. I don't need to have patience for petite bourgeois academics, to convince them of anything.

Academics are either for us or against us. We don't need them. For that reason Lenin called them the shit of the nation.

[Redistribute the Rep]

Rafiq you have to make a confession now

[Rudolf]

You know, i kinda like Rafiq's posts.

[The Intransigent Faction]

...What? You realize that this site is called revLEFT, right? Anarchism and Communism are both far-left political doctrines.


I think what Mistresss Sinistra was getting at is that "left- and right-wing" are descriptors of political positions which arose after a particular revolutionary situation and of which some people still hold a simplistic linear perception ("Left-wingers love the state and right-wingers hate it!"). Liberal political compass tests (and here I'm not throwing around the word---they're based on a liberal perception of the spectrum of ideologies) have trouble even registering the positions of anarchists and socialists. Regardless of the site's name, there might be better descriptors.

I don't *hate* "left-wing" as a descriptor, but it does seem weirdly abstract and anachronistic.

[PhoenixAsh]

But non class conscious workers, by merit of being workers, have an inclination to be class conscious. I don't need to have patience for petite bourgeois academics, to convince them of anything.

Academics are either for us or against us. We don't need them. For that reason Lenin called them the shit of the nation.

They also have the ability to become extremely militant fascists...and in less extrapolated language...fervent supporters of the imperialist interests of the bourgeoisie.

[Sinister Intents]

This makes no sense. The word liberal actually means something, it isn't just a catch all term for whatever you happen to dislike or disagree with.

Thanks for reminding me about the history of the terminology of left and right. I completely over thought that. It's not that I don't like the terms, I was thinking about it in the wrong light. So Yeah I'd pretty much be far left. I was thinking of it as pertaining to bourgeois ideology being more center, and communists fall outside of bourgeois ideology, in opposition of it.

[Rafiq]

Yes, otherwise they would not be proletarians.

That is besides the point. When an academic is a Communist, they are a Communist insofar as they identify with the interests of the proletariat. When proletarians are Communists, it is in their own interests that they fight.

[PhoenixAsh]

Well...very true. Can't argue with that.

[Quail]

I don't know why I expected this thread to turn into anything BUT a big drama-y mess... more silly confessions plz.

[Counterculturalist]

This is entirely unscientific and anecdotal, but it seems to me that this identification of the left with love of the state is a fairly recent phenomenon, no? I mean, Randroids and Ancap types always said this, but I seem to remember when conservatives and fascists alike were all about a strong government protecting the decent folk from impending anarchy.

It seems some time in the last 10-20 years that the right has tried to (and, to a large degree, succeeded in) re-branding themselves as freedom-loving rebels. It smacks of historical revisionism.

[Sinister Intents]

I don't know why I expected this thread to turn into anything BUT a big drama-y mess... more silly confessions plz.

I don't know how to tie my shoes, seriously, I never learned the proper way.

[Fourth Internationalist]

When I was a little kid, I insulted a black kid by calling him "brown" because brown is the color of poop.

[Quail]

Also, I feel like this isn't in the spirit of the thread and could at least use a trigger warning.



I use a lot of laxatives to keep myself thin, I'm mortified of gaining weight even though I need to because I'm painfully underweight. I've also been skipping most meals

If you have these problems you should bring them up with your therapist and try to do something about them before they get worse. Laxative abuse can actually kill people and will fuck up your insides. I know it's not as simple as just quitting... but it is not a road you want to go down.

[GiantMonkeyMan]

I don't know why I expected this thread to turn into anything BUT a big drama-y mess... more silly confessions plz.
I gave my little nephew a lightsaber for his birthday, pretending that I bought it specially when in actual fact I already had two lightsabers (because I'm a nerd but also because I joined in a massive lightsaber battle flashmob once) and gave him one. Now, whenever he wants me to have a 'lightsaber fight' with him, or whatever, I feign annoyance but inside my head the Star Wars theme tune is playing.

[The Intransigent Faction]

This is entirely unscientific and anecdotal, but it seems to me that this identification of the left with love of the state is a fairly recent phenomenon, no? I mean, Randroids and Ancap types always said this, but I seem to remember when conservatives and fascists alike were all about a strong government protecting the decent folk from impending anarchy.

It seems some time in the last 10-20 years that the right has tried to (and, to a large degree, succeeded in) re-branding themselves as freedom-loving rebels. It smacks of historical revisionism.

Corey Robin's book "The Reactionary Mind" goes into some great detail on this history of opportunistic re-branding.

In the spirit of the thread: I've tried reading Atlas Shrugged. I got through a few hundred pages, but then exams rolled around and I never bothered to get back to it afterwards. I'm still weirdly fascinated by the vileness of her 'philosophy', however.

[PhoenixAsh]

A couple of 100 pages? That is freaking hard core! I managed ten or so...then I watched porn because it was a better use of my time.

[Zoop]

I wiped my arse with a t-shirt today because I had ran out of toilet paper.


Preferably related to Revleft.

Oh.

[GiantMonkeyMan]

I wiped my arse with a t-shirt today because I had ran out of toilet paper.
Sounds like a pretty shitty situation.

[Rudolf]

I wiped my arse with a t-shirt today because I had ran out of toilet paper.



why didn't you just wash your arse instead?

[PhoenixAsh]

Ow...I didn't see the related to RevLeft thing either. Maybe not such a good idea....you never know what beans might spill and cause drama.

Either way...there was some post about Xhar-Xhar a while back.

Ever since that post I imagine him with a sombrero, a large mustache and a martini cocktail glass in his hand while chewing on a stick (I forgot the name) with an olive on it.

Also I can make a lot more spicier confessions about this board but won't because I am either an asshole or not....you decide.

[BIXX]

I am actual cannibal shia labeouf

But seriously I do think all of my time spent here is a total waste a d only come back because I have nothing better to do while I'm at work, or because of the funny shit some of you say.

[Sinister Intents]

Also, I feel like this isn't in the spirit of the thread and could at least use a trigger warning.



If you have these problems you should bring them up with your therapist and try to do something about them before they get worse. Laxative abuse can actually kill people and will fuck up your insides. I know it's not as simple as just quitting... but it is not a road you want to go down.

It's a pretty recent thing, like three months and when I can't get the pills or chocolate, I binge drink coffee. I've already told my therapist
...

I can't stand when NGNM85 posts

[GiantMonkeyMan]

Also I can make a lot more spicier confessions about this board but won't because I am either an asshole or not....you decide.
Alright, alright... I confess.... I am neither a Giant nor a Monkey... Now I just feel embarrassed though.

[Futility Personified]

wuut. Can you expand on this? What gender are you, or did you identify with then? So, if I'm getting this right, you would 'lure' people into a situation where they expected sex and then lecture them about it being rape? And what do you mean by "resentful room"?

Woah man, simmer down. I'm a male, and I always felt that whenever a situation came up for sex it always felt somehow exploitative for whatever reason. Whenever things were leading to a point it'd be a case of purposefully winding it down on the basis that I didn't want to do something that seemed.... unchivalrous?

There was no sane basis for it, frankly, but sometimes you very keenly feel that you would like to be a good person. Albeit, in a completely idiotic way that way of no benefit to man nor beast.

[Brandon's Impotent Rage]

I'm almost 30 years old and I'm still a virgin.

[Illegalitarian]

All of the communists I know irl from my few years of organizing and activity are M-L's. This has lead me to the conclusion that revleft is an anomaly, and that leftcoms and orthodox Marxists don't exist out side of the internet

[Zoop]

I'm almost 30 years old and I'm still a virgin.

I don't see why that should be regarded as a confession, as if it's something to be ashamed or embarrassed of.

[RedWorker]

Me too. It's one of the least weird paraphilias I have (to stay in the spirit of the confession thread).

In any case, that would be a fetish, not a paraphilia. But liking older women is no fetish. It is actually one of the most typical scenarios of sexual attraction.

[Thirsty Crow]

I was really wary of starting the anti-depressant therapy, but it seems to work. For now. I kind of harbor slightly weird anxieties about becoming a pill junkie. In all probability it's all irrational.

Going off of something a user here said, I never imagined Rafiq as anything other than mind numbingly dull to hang around with, and not handsome in any way or form.

Wow this is getting a bit weird. Let's continue. I usually sleep with my cat, but we don't engage in anything even remotely sexual. It's all a Platonic man-on-animal thing. Perfectly normal. Right?

I had fits of rage due to some ramblings on here which induced a terrible and pissed off mood for the next couple of days. That's weird 'cause I don't even need to control my anger like 90% of the time (you don't control embers but a fire).

I like to wear colorful undies.

I was a bit freaked by this whole "Rosa Partizan is a cop thing". Then I was slightly amused.

Sometimes, some animals invoke a sense of sadism in me. Roaches in particular, and when my cat turns one on its back (and leaves the roach like that) I sometimes burn them to death. This I'm not proud of at all really. It's embarassing.

I'm a huge metal nerd. Also considering starting a blog when I get my shit together which the entirety of 7 people online would ever read.

That's enough for now.

[#FF0000]

I have a little sign that said "anime" that I picked up from a bookstore that went out of business.

I hang it above my bedroom door and touch it whenever I leave. For good luck.

[Redistribute the Rep]

I tried using a nicotine patch to lose my appetite. It didn't work.

[The Disillusionist]

Plainly, it's because you're most likely just a spineless person. And I mean that as kindly as possible.

That is to say, your "leftism" was never an actual affirmative leftism. It was a hysterical opposition to the "black and white" facade of the 'hard' right wingers, it places you squarely in the liberal camp. You see, your affinity with Leftism was never actually an identification with it, but the desire for something more "open" and "balanced".

This is a temporal hysteria. When push comes to shove, when it's life or death, your heart is truly with the right wing, and don't deny that. You want to be 'reasonable' about things - you want to remain comfortable within the confines of the existing order. You detest our destructive spirit, and you are horrified by its unity with the cold theoretical prowess of Marxism - because "science should be reserved for the neutral, the 'reasonable' with no such extreme passions!"

What brought you to radicalism was most likely some kind of fascination with Chomsky, which in turn is probably why you identify as an "anarchist". But Chomsky is no anarchist, he's a liberal. And that's what you are. Real anarchists could only ever hold your irk in contempt. Real anarchists are the ones who start breaking windows when the liberals just want a nice, modest demonstration.

Hahaha... Glad to hear you know me so well Rafiq.... :rolleyes:

My objective has always been the same... to fight for a world where all people are equally allowed to reach their full potential, without being subject to any oppression.

I scoff at your "cold, theoretical prowess". Your "destructive spirit" is completely impotent. That's why I'm sick of your kind of leftism... because I know what I want to achieve, and your theories are completely powerless to achieve them.

I'm trying to change the world and you're prattling on about breaking windows... As if broken glass means anything when your ideas are absolutely useless...

I want a realistic, revolutionary approach to social revolution, not more of the same old faith-based speculative Marxist crap that people have been trying and failing at for 100 years... But Orthodox Marxists aren't about to move into the modern age, so I'm thinking that anarchist theory could hold the key to future progress.

Oh, and for the record, I'm more of a fan of Kropotkin than Chomsky. Though to call Chomsky a liberal is pretty stupid, as that statement is definitionally incorrect. But your posts do demonstrate that if my approach to social theory was based on a "hysterical reaction to the black and white facade of the right wingers," I could just as easily find all kinds of naive black-and-white thinking on the leftist side (the kind of thinking that turns "liberal" into a dirty word, and "bourgeois" into a fascist accusation for anything that a Communist doesn't agree with).

[Anglo-Saxon Philistine]

I sometimes get drunk and watch old Captain Planet episodes and I'm like, yeah, Mr. Nuclearsludge or whatever your name is, I totally understand that you would take that tanker full of expensive petrol and beach it, sometimes you just have to teach those seals a lesson.

Then I fall asleep with my head in the toilet bowl and for the next few days the only thing I can smell are those awful gel pad things you put in your toilet so it doesn't reek.

Ah what a great life I have.

[motion denied]

One time I shot a man in Reno just to watch him die.

[Os Cangaceiros]

Wow this is getting a bit weird. Let's continue. I usually sleep with my cat, but we don't engage in anything even remotely sexual. It's all a Platonic man-on-animal thing. Perfectly normal. Right?

I was going to agree that it was normal until you used the phrase "man-on-animal thing"

[Aurorus Ruber]

I'm almost 30 years old and I'm still a virgin.

As am I.

Also, I have a preference for fat and especially bottom-heavy women that has always perplexed and unnerved me. I am not really attracted to obesity in general, but I find fat incredibly sexy when it accentuates an already curvy figure.

[The Intransigent Faction]

All of the communists I know irl from my few years of organizing and activity are M-L's. This has lead me to the conclusion that revleft is an anomaly, and that leftcoms and orthodox Marxists don't exist out side of the internet

That's boloney. Everyone knows most of them predate the internet. :lol:

[Armchair Partisan]

I want a realistic, revolutionary approach to social revolution, not more of the same old faith-based speculative Marxist crap that people have been trying and failing at for 100 years... But Orthodox Marxists aren't about to move into the modern age, so I'm thinking that anarchist theory could hold the key to future progress.

It's not like anarchist theory is any more realistic in theory or has a better track record, so get off your high horse (and preferably Revleft too, since you constantly say you don't want to talk to us anymore yet you just refuse to put your money where your mouth is).

I think I finally understand why revolutionary leftists hate each other a lot more viciously than even the most arrogant supercapitalist who sits on a throne made from the skulls of Pakistani sweatshop children. It's because we're all so demoralized and pessimistic, we just want some easy victories, and since we can't really achieve them against capitalism we try to kick other revolutionaries while they're already down to feel a little better about ourselves. It's very similar to poor workers spreading hate against other poor workers who also have the problem of darker skin, more woman-ness, less conformity to the Christian moral police, etc. Tragic. Can the class war even be won by our side?:unsure:

[cyu]

One time I shot a man in Reno just to watch him die.


I shot the sheriff, but I didn't shoot no deputy.

[Ethics Gradient, Traitor For All Ages]

I sometimes get drunk and watch old Captain Planet episodes and I'm like, yeah, Mr. Nuclearsludge or whatever your name is, I totally understand that you would take that tanker full of expensive petrol and beach it, sometimes you just have to teach those seals a lesson.

Then I fall asleep with my head in the toilet bowl and for the next few days the only thing I can smell are those awful gel pad things you put in your toilet so it doesn't reek.

Ah what a great life I have.
You have to appreciate the strength of their convictions if nothing else. Polution was so important to them that they were willing to go back in time and ally with Hitler in one episode.

Pride is this weekend and my lady and I have every intention of getting baked and oggling some butts, sorry in advance everyone.

Sent from my SGH-T769 using Tapatalk

[GiantMonkeyMan]

I shot the sheriff, but I didn't shoot no deputy.
Since the second part is a double-negative, cyu, I can only assume that you're confessing to shooting both a sheriff and a deputy. As I expected from you.

[cyu]

I can only assume that you're confessing to shooting both a sheriff and a deputy. As I expected from you.

Lol, no really. I really didn't shoot no deputy! :laugh:

[Cliff Paul]

When I was in elementary school I purposely pissed my pants because I hated school so much I wanted an excuse to leave the classroom...:laugh:

[Counterculturalist]

I used to pretend I had to go to the bathroom in grade school, and then wander aimlessly around the school. One time while I was doing this I ran into an older bully who used to beat me up at recess semi-regularly. I told him what I was up to and his face lit up: "I do that all the time too!" We've been friends ever since.

[Cliff Paul]

I used to pretend I had to go to the bathroom in grade school, and then wander aimlessly around the school. One time while I was doing this I ran into an older bully who used to beat me up at recess semi-regularly. I told him what I was up to and his face lit up: "I do that all the time too!" We've been friends ever since.

ooo this reminds me of an even better confession I have -

When I was in middle school I used to be a 'jock' and a bully. I was pretty short and scrawny as fuck because I played soccer but because of my social standing I could pretty much do whatever I wanted to. One day I was just repeatedly harassing this kid who played OL for our school's football team. After a certain point he realized "why the fuck am I taking this from him" and picked me up and stuffed me in a garbage can. Suffice to say, that was the last time I picked on him...

[Zoop]

ooo this reminds me of an even better confession I have -

When I was in middle school I used to be a 'jock' and a bully. I was pretty short and scrawny as fuck because I played soccer but because of my social standing I could pretty much do whatever I wanted to. One day I was just repeatedly harassing this kid who played OL for our school's football team. After a certain point he realized "why the fuck am I taking this from him" and picked me up and stuffed me in a garbage can. Suffice to say, that was the last time I picked on him...

That's the only effective way of dealing with bullies, in my experience. When I was at school, those people would do exactly what you did. They see you as vulnerable. When I decided to hit them, and physically intimidate them however, they stop. And then the façade of their power unravels and they're exposed for what they are: weaklings and cowards.

Basically, if you hurt somebody, they'll leave you alone. A grand and important lesson for life, in my opinion.

[Comrade Njordr]

I've never had any issues with people trying to bully me, that doesn't mean I haven't gotten into scraps before. I think most people are intimidated by me for some reason, perhaps I act too aggressively.

[motion denied]

When I was in middle school this older kid used to pick on me. One day he hit me in the back of the head, I decided t punch him in the face. I did.

I mean, he beat the living shit out of me afterwards, but from that day on he started to respect me. I don't know why lol

[Comrade Njordr]

When I was in middle school this older kid used to pick on me. One day he hit me in the back of the head, I decided t punch him in the face. I did.

I mean, he beat the living shit out of me afterwards, but from that day on he started to respect me. I don't know why lol
You fought back, that act deserves some respect. I know I'd have more respect for someone who decides to take action rather than someone who remains docile.

[Comrade Jacob]

For a Maoist I'm quite fond of Hoxha.

[A Revolutionary Tool]

I masturbated in the woods the other day.

[The Intransigent Faction]

For a Maoist I'm quite fond of Hoxha.

This may just be my experience, but: Call yourself a Maoist, and people immediately get all uppity. Call yourself a Hoxhaist (outside of RevLeft, at least), and people just say "WTF is that...?"


When I was in middle school this older kid used to pick on me. One day he hit me in the back of the head, I decided t punch him in the face. I did.

I mean, he beat the living shit out of me afterwards, but from that day on he started to respect me. I don't know why lol

I tried that, but I was a scrawny kid and I didn't hit hard. Also in my case it was a couple of older kids. Also, as Chief Wiggum said, "The law is powerless to help you...Powerless to help you, not punish you."

[The Feral Underclass]

I don't know how to ride a bike.

I don't really know how to swim.

[PhoenixAsh]

You both need to come to Holland. Sasha and I will throw you both in a canal where you can dive for bikes...two fish...one stone. Plus weed and shrooms. :)

[Thirsty Crow]

Oh yeah, like Xhar Xhar I don't know how to ride the bike too. It's a Croat thing. We hate bikes, mostly.

Another semi-confession, I sometimes think that seagulls are conspiring against me since the day that one shat all over my neck and shoulder blade. There were at least three more occasions when the vile beasts flocked very near me with no apparent, gull-appropriate reason.



I was going to agree that it was normal until you used the phrase "man-on-animal thing"There's a rational reason for this rhetoric! Sometimes it's man-on-animal as I wake up atop the poor cat in some way. She doesn't seem to mind. Other times it's animal-on-man, with me waking up almost smothering with that fur ball on my face. It's all natural and friendly.

[human strike]

When I was about 15 I used to argue that global warming was a myth invented by the nuclear power industry.

I also masturbated in the woods once.

[mushroompizza]

I use racial slurs casually(examples:wop, guido, paddy, mick, spic, cracker, chink) , not the n-word, I've decided that its still disgusting and have stopped.

[Comrade Jacob]

I use racial slurs casually(examples:wop, guido, paddy, mick, spic, cracker, chink) , not the n-word, I've decided that its still disgusting and have stopped.

I use none but the n-word, lol (well, I do use cracker)

[mushroompizza]

Okay I still use cracker and spic, but that's because.... Im a Cracker Spic. :rolleyes:

[Art Vandelay]

I don't really know how to swim.

Neither do I.

---

My mind seems to predominantly work in fairly abstract ways. What I'm trying to say is I'm pretty sure I lack common sense. You want to talk politics/philosophy/literature? I can hold my own with most people. When it comes to everyday stuff, I'm kind of a fool. For example, twice in the past couple weeks my girlfriend has come home to find me shiverring by the heater, meanwhile I apparently had multiple windows open in our place and couldn't figure out why I was so cold. It's actually something I find quite embarrassing and if ever afforded the possibility to change a certain aspect of my nature, it would certainly be a contender.

[Sinister Intents]

I have trouble staying off of this forum and I don't feel welcome, but I come back and keep coming back. I constantly make an ass of myself and I'm not very intelligent

[Counterculturalist]

My mind seems to predominantly work in fairly abstract ways. What I'm trying to say is I'm pretty sure I lack common sense. You want to talk politics/philosophy/literature? I can hold my own with most people. When it comes to everyday stuff, I'm kind of a fool.

This is the story of my fucking life.

[The Intransigent Faction]

I have trouble staying off of this forum and I don't feel welcome, but I come back and keep coming back. I constantly make an ass of myself and I'm not very intelligent

Nonsense. Some of us may post exclusively in Non-Political, and we can't all be geniuses like Rafiq, but you're a part of our neurotic little crowd and there's nothing you can do to escape that!

Some of us make asses of ourselves on here without realizing it :glare: :unsure: but we come back anyway because what's the alternative...the YouTube comment section (*SHUDDER*)?

Seriously, we're versed in Marxist/anarchist literature to different degrees and articulate with a different and sporadic degree of effectiveness, but we won't learn by beating ourselves up for perceived inadequacies.

On another note, I have to confess that I handle interruptions very poorly. The sheer amount of times which I've started to type or say something, been interrupted by some kind of loud noise, and tried to get back to it only to find my train of thought derailed or less coherent worries me. I end up either over-thinking and saying fuck-all, or barely thinking and spewing words. Yet, on quiet nights when there's no one around and almost no interruption, I function 'normally'. It has me putting off talking to people because I just can't think straight during some days.

[#FF0000]

I never really drank until I was about 20 or so.

[Cliff Paul]

I never really drank until I was about 20 or so.

The first time I drank was when I was 19 I think. My girlfriend of 3 years broke up with me and started dating someone else shortly afterwards - I was straight edge at the time but my friends were like "this will make you feel better" so I ended up getting smashed on rum and coke. Don't think it particularly helped but oh well.

[#FF0000]

I'm just realizing now that the drinking age is 21 anyway.

I'm pretty sure I was 23 when I first got really drunk.

[Cliff Paul]

First time I smoked pot was a week or so ago. It was incredibly mundane. I have no idea why people are so into it - if you want to feel a little light headed just don't drink enough water or something.

Also the person I smoked with was my ex girlfriend from the previous story...

[Fourth Internationalist]

Well masturbation has been mentioned a few times, so I met as well admit that I've masturbated in a Church before.

Edit: I was by myself in a whole separate room from everywhere with the door shut.

[Comrade Njordr]

Well masturbation has been mentioned a few times, so I met as well admit that I've masturbated in a Church before.

How dare you commit such an atrocious act before the lord! Shame on you! :laugh:

[Fourth Internationalist]

How dare you commit such an atrocious act before the lord! Shame on you! :laugh:

The Catholic church doesn't mind that sort of thing.

[Fourth Internationalist]

Also to go with smoking/drinking:

Smoking isn't fun. Drinking is much better. On Halloween, I drank so much (puked that night and next morning, blacked out, couldn't remember much) and I cried about Chinese children who work in factories all day. I was crying to my boyfriend about it while claiming he doesn't care about the children because he doesn't care about politics.

[Tim Cornelis]

First time I smoked pot was a week or so ago. It was incredibly mundane. I have no idea why people are so into it - if you want to feel a little light headed just don't drink enough water or something.

Also the person I smoked with was my ex girlfriend from the previous story...

It doesn't sound like you were stoned.

[Atsumari]

I lie about eating Greek homemade yogurt when in reality, I eat Yoplait. I also hate Greek yogurt.

[Cliff Paul]

I lie about eating Greek homemade yogurt when in reality, I eat Yoplait. I also hate Greek yogurt.

this is unforgivable

[Quail]

I use racial slurs casually(examples:wop, guido, paddy, mick, spic, cracker, chink) , not the n-word, I've decided that its still disgusting and have stopped.

... Why do you think this is okay? If you use any racial slurs on this board, you will receive an infraction.

[Tim Cornelis]

To elaborate a bit: when I first smoked tobacco I got light headed and a bit dizzy. Sounds more like you smoked tobacco, or didn't inhale correctly.

[Sinister Intents]

First time I smoked tobacco I puked

I find it hard to be positive

[Comrade Jacob]

I wash twice a week tops and bush my teeth basically never.

[human strike]

I never really drank until I was about 20 or so.

Despite rejecting my Mormon upbringing years previously, I didn't drink until I was 20. In Britain that's very unusual, especially in a small town like the one I grew up in where there's nothing else to do.

[Ismail]

This may just be my experience, but: Call yourself a Maoist, and people immediately get all uppity. Call yourself a Hoxhaist (outside of RevLeft, at least), and people just say "WTF is that...?"Well outside of RevLeft no one calls themselves "Hoxhaist." I do notice that in 1970s-80s publications a lot of pro-Albanian parties are considered "Maoist" though, simply due to their attitude towards Soviet revisionism and the class character of the USSR after Stalin.

[Bala Perdida]

I've never really been in a relationship. Never asked anyone out, never kissed a girl, never been on a date. I was asked out once, but I was to young and stupid to recognize and accept it. I never really knew how to tell someone I like them or ask someone out, like the process. At least not without sounding like an absolute creep. Also I don't know how to read someone to see if they're interested in me at all. Also, with all the bullshit womxn get on a daily basis, I just wouldn't feel right getting at them. They don't need that. So I figured just let them make the first move if they're interested. That's gonna take a while :unsure:

[PhoenixAsh]

There is nothing inherently wrong if you go to somebody and tell them you want to get to know them better. People will let you know when they are not interested.

There is a world of difference between harassment and normal respectful social interaction...

Women are not some alien fragile species....don't make assumptions for them....about what they want nor about what they think of you. They will tell you.

[human strike]

I've never really been in a relationship. Never asked anyone out, never kissed a girl, never been on a date. I was asked out once, but I was to young and stupid to recognize and accept it. I never really knew how to tell someone I like them or ask someone out, like the process. At least not without sounding like an absolute creep. Also I don't know how to read someone to see if they're interested in me at all. Also, with all the bullshit womxn get on a daily basis, I just wouldn't feel right getting at them. They don't need that. So I figured just let them make the first move if they're interested. That's gonna take a while :unsure:

Two words: online dating

[The Intransigent Faction]

Well outside of RevLeft no one calls themselves "Hoxhaist."

Yeah, that was the point (there are however parties, if I recall correctly, that take a "Hoxhaist" line on the Sino-Albanian split).

[Sasha]

Saw today that the MLKP who i thought where maoists are in fact hoxaists, why didnt ismail tell us they have an army...

[Ismail]

(there are however parties, if I recall correctly, that take a "Hoxhaist" line on the Sino-Albanian split).In the 1970s China's foreign policy veered sharply rightwards. It upheld Pinochet, Mobutu, King Hussein of Jordan, the Shah of Iran and other avowed anti-communists and reactionaries as leaders struggling against Soviet social-imperialism and worthy of support from their respective peoples for this reason. Pro-Chinese parties in the West who upheld the new line in Chinese foreign policy gave "critical support" to NATO and campaigned for keeping US nuclear weapons in countries like Belgium. American Maoists upholding the new line denounced Carter as an "appeaser" of the Soviet revisionists, defended the continued US presence in Puerto Rico, and so on.

The Albanian position on all this was, as you might guess, negative. The Chinese revisionists argued that American imperialism was weakened and in retreat as a result of the Vietnam War, whereas Soviet social-imperialism was in ascendance. The Albanians did not agree, they regarded American imperialism and Soviet social-imperialism as equal dangers.

There were Maoist parties that more or less took this line as well, like the RCPUSA and the PTB in Belgium (which later dropped Maoism in favor of a fusion of revisionist "Marxist-Leninist" ideologies), but they made it clear that they were very much opposed to the Albanians on every other issue.

[Bala Perdida]

Two words: online datingI got some of those recently. Some accounts on different sites, but I'm taking some down. Don't feel it's worth it with some, some sites are oversaturated. On some of them, feel like I'm finding more friends than 'matches' which is cool. I like talking with females more, macho ass guys get fucking annoying.

[Comrade Jacob]

I got some of those recently. Some accounts on different sites, but I'm taking some down. Don't feel it's worth it with some, some sites are oversaturated. On some of them, feel like I'm finding more friends than 'matches' which is cool. I like talking with females more, macho ass guys get fucking annoying.

Macho guys are such a turn-off.

[Bala Perdida]

There is nothing inherently wrong if you go to somebody and tell them you want to get to know them better. People will let you know when they are not interested.

There is a world of difference between harassment and normal respectful social interaction...

Women are not some alien fragile species....don't make assumptions for them....about what they want nor about what they think of you. They will tell you.I get that, I got homegirls. I wouldn't wanna ruin or make our friendship akward by asking them out. Also there's no harm in letting them make the first move. Although I'm not interested in dating my homegirls because they're my homegirls.

Also I'm bad with strangers in general otherwise, and I can't read guys either. Although I've had a guy make a move on me and I went along with it, but that didn't go anywhere. Relationships aren't a priority for me anyways.

[Atsumari]

Just treat girls differently than you treat others and have some confidence. That is what usually wins my heart.

[The Intransigent Faction]

In the 1970s China's foreign policy veered sharply rightwards. It upheld Pinochet, Mobutu, King Hussein of Jordan, the Shah of Iran and other avowed anti-communists and reactionaries as leaders struggling against Soviet social-imperialism and worthy of support from their respective peoples for this reason. Pro-Chinese parties in the West who upheld the new line in Chinese foreign policy gave "critical support" to NATO and campaigned for keeping US nuclear weapons in countries like Belgium. American Maoists upholding the new line denounced Carter as an "appeaser" of the Soviet revisionists, defended the continued US presence in Puerto Rico, and so on.

The Albanian position on all this was, as you might guess, negative. The Chinese revisionists argued that American imperialism was weakened and in retreat as a result of the Vietnam War, whereas Soviet social-imperialism was in ascendance. The Albanians did not agree, they regarded American imperialism and Soviet social-imperialism as equal dangers.

There were Maoist parties that more or less took this line as well, like the RCPUSA and the PTB in Belgium (which later dropped Maoism in favor of a fusion of revisionist "Marxist-Leninist" ideologies), but they made it clear that they were very much opposed to the Albanians on every other issue.

Yeah, I'm aware of the history of the split, thanks. The point was, firstly, that I was at least under the impression that there were parties outside of Albania that adopted, if not what we might call "Hoxhaism", then at least a positive view of Hoxhaist Albania relative to China. The CPC-ML came to mind as one, at least at one time (I'm not really familiar with their current position on China). Secondly, even if the term "Hoxhaist" is completely exclusive to RevLeft, well, that just proves the point. For rather obvious reasons, people with little or no knowledge of this history who will react with hostility in one case (faced with a self-described Maoist) will probably react with confusion in the other (faced with a self-described "Hoxhaist", or merely someone who's sympathetic to Albania's position regarding the path China took). Anyway, none of this is really thread-appropriate, so whatever. :o

[RA89]

I regularly fantasise about rich company owners, right wing politicians and the monarchies around the world etc suffering painful diseases, cancer, being maimed etc.

[Os Cangaceiros]

I've never really been in a relationship. Never asked anyone out, never kissed a girl, never been on a date. I was asked out once, but I was to young and stupid to recognize and accept it. I never really knew how to tell someone I like them or ask someone out, like the process. At least not without sounding like an absolute creep. Also I don't know how to read someone to see if they're interested in me at all. Also, with all the bullshit womxn get on a daily basis, I just wouldn't feel right getting at them. They don't need that. So I figured just let them make the first move if they're interested. That's gonna take a while :unsure:

Just say "hey, you want to hang out sometime?" Invite someone to go do something with you. Be casual about it.

Don't rely on other people "making the first move". Quite a few women I've been with aren't afraid to do that but there are a lot of other people who won't, and they'll wait around for someone who will. Which won't be you if you're waiting on them. I know because I'm like that.

I remember one time I was at a bar with a friend of mine, just having a few drinks or whatever, and we both left at about the same time (it was late at night and cold, snow falling, no one outside really). She turned to face me and said "you don't make the first move much, do you?" and kissed me, pretty deeply, she grabbed me and pressed her body against mine. Then she pulled away a little bit, looked at me and grinned. I miss that girl, we had a weird relationship but she was fun and nice. Had an incredible body too.

I hope you meet someone like her ;)

[The Intransigent Faction]

I get that, I got homegirls. I wouldn't wanna ruin or make our friendship akward by asking them out. Also there's no harm in letting them make the first move. Although I'm not interested in dating my homegirls because they're my homegirls.

Also I'm bad with strangers in general otherwise, and I can't read guys either. Although I've had a guy make a move on me and I went along with it, but that didn't go anywhere. Relationships aren't a priority for me anyways.

My own feelings and experiences are similar. I've at least made big steps if not completely overcome shyness, but even so I'm part of my tight circle of friends because they actively reach/reached out to me. I tend to be modest which I suppose doesn't project much confidence. Struggling with anxiety on a daily basis also isn't something I think I could hide even if I wanted to (not in the sense of not spilling the beans on every detail of my inner turmoil, but after a while some of my obsessive-compulsive behaviours seem like they'd be hard not to notice).

I've never really asked anyone out or gone on a date. I used to get caught in a pattern of developing a crush on someone, thinking "Wouldn't it be nice" but not working up the nerve to do anything about it, and ultimately watching the person drift away as people do because rather than trying to get to know them better I would try to force myself to stay distant and forget about it. I've probably missed 'signs', in hindsight, as well.

Starting conversations isn't really a problem, but then they don't go anywhere. Drifting through life and trying to figure out where, if anywhere, I "fit" and what I can do with myself hasn't helped, either. I almost dread being asked "How are you?" or "What's new with you?", except once in a while when something new or interesting happens. Irreconcilable differences are also an issue. There are women whose different religious or political views haven't stopped me from getting to know them and being friends with them, but dating is another matter.

[Sewer Socialist]

Yeah, dates also don't have to be a big deal and 100% either romantic or 100% platonic. Sometimes it's just nice to get to know someone better, and when you have decided that you'd like to get physical, say, "can I kiss you?", and if the other person is an adult, it's really not that awkward if they say no, and you can still be friends, and still get to know each other better. They might even be interested in getting kissy another time.

[Os Cangaceiros]

Yeah, dates also don't have to be a big deal and 100% either romantic or 100% platonic.

^ Agreed.

[Brandon's Impotent Rage]

I did it! I DID IT!!

I
PUT THE SCREW
IN THE TUNA!!!!!!!!

:crying::crying::crying::crying::crying::crying::c rying::crying::crying::crying::crying::crying::cry ing::crying:

[Sewer Socialist]

I did it! I DID IT!!

I
PUT THE SCREW
IN THE TUNA!!!!!!!!

:crying::crying::crying::crying::crying::crying::c rying::crying::crying::crying::crying::crying::cry ing::crying:


:unsure:

[Aurorus Ruber]

Another confession:

I honestly don't feel much kinship with the working class, at least in the sociological rather than Marxist sense of the term. I felt much more at home at the university than I currently feel in the factory. I would rather drink an expensive cappuccino than cheap beer and I wouldn't dream of taking up smoking. I enjoy classical music and don't have much interest in genres like punk rock or hip-hop. My speech generally follows educated standards, without the double negatives and accentual features typical of people around here. Although it's worth noting that most of the working class people I know are rather conservative and religious, often express racist, sexist, and homophobic attitudes, etc.

[Os Cangaceiros]

I did it! I DID IT!!

I
PUT THE SCREW
IN THE TUNA!!!!!!!!

:crying::crying::crying::crying::crying::crying::c rying::crying::crying::crying::crying::crying::cry ing::crying:


They grow up so fast

[Ismail]

The point was, firstly, that I was at least under the impression that there were parties outside of Albania that adopted, if not what we might call "Hoxhaism", then at least a positive view of Hoxhaist Albania relative to China. The CPC-ML came to mind as one, at least at one time (I'm not really familiar with their current position on China).The CPC-ML in the 1970s and 80s was one of the most prominent pro-Albanian parties in the world, to the extent that Hoxha was able to talk to its leaders, its writings were referenced in Albanian media, it was able to send delegations to Albanian Party Congresses and other important events, etc. So that's a bad example to use.

Of course after 1990 it took a different position, similar to Ludo Martens' PTB, of "Stalin, Brezhnev, Kim Il Sung, Hoxha, Mao, Castro and so on are all basically okay and the polemics between them were harmful because they undermined the unity of the international communist movement." Nowadays the CPC-ML is particularly enthusiastic about Cuba and the DPRK. I don't think they view modern-day China as socialist though.


Anyway, none of this is really thread-appropriate, so whatever.True, let's just agree to end this here or take it to a different thread.

[Cliff Paul]

I am dissapointed. I saw Ismail post in this thread and I was expecting to read him confess something!

[Counterculturalist]

It's interesting that so many of us seem to have issues with social anxiety. Has anyone tried counseling? I'm seriously considering it, mainly because I fear my social anxiety will get in the way of finding a job in my field.

For me, the hardest things are talking about myself, asking people for things, and being around a large group of people I don't know (unless I get drunk first.)

Unrelated:


I honestly don't feel much kinship with the working class, at least in the sociological rather than Marxist sense of the term. I felt much more at home at the university than I currently feel in the factory. I would rather drink an expensive cappuccino than cheap beer and I wouldn't dream of taking up smoking. I enjoy classical music and don't have much interest in genres like punk rock or hip-hop. My speech generally follows educated standards, without the double negatives and accentual features typical of people around here. Although it's worth noting that most of the working class people I know are rather conservative and religious, often express racist, sexist, and homophobic attitudes, etc.

It's the opposite for me. Even though I was considered a total weirdo in some ways when I worked in a factory (people called me "the professor" even before I started going to university:lol:) I feel way more at home having a beer with my friends from the shop than I ever will having a coffee with fellow academics.

[Zoop]

It's interesting that so many of us seem to have issues with social anxiety. Has anyone tried counseling? I'm seriously considering it, mainly because I fear my social anxiety will get in the way of finding a job in my field.

For me, the hardest things are talking about myself, asking people for things, and being around a large group of people I don't know (unless I get drunk first.)

I have social anxiety too. I've never considered counselling though, because I don't think it would do me much good. I know a lot of people with SA though who have tried counselling, and for some of them it's worked. That mostly is a result of their own effort really.
I have tried "putting myself out there", but it doesn't get much better. I'm just used to being the way I am now anyway though.
You should try counselling. It might help. You could also try medication.

[cyu]

I tend to be modest which I suppose doesn't project much confidence.

There's a different kind of modesty that comes from "knowing" that you are so awesome that you no longer feel the need to show off or have other people say nice things about you. Like "yes, I know you think I'm great, but it's not really news or validation I'm seeking out anymore" - you wouldn't actually say that out loud of course ;) - instead you try to make them feel better about their effort to tell you - it's no longer about others making you feel better (since you don't need it anymore), but about you making others feel better.

Whether you actually believe that deep down doesn't really matter, but if you can imagine someone who feels that way, then you can imagine how someone can behave both modestly and be comfortable with who they are.



Starting conversations isn't really a problem, but then they don't go anywhere.


With the exception of people like those described above, I suspect the vast majority of the population still suffers from self-esteem issues on a variety of levels. Almost everyone wants others to tell them they're OK, they're accepted, they're valued, they matter. If you can help someone become fully comfortable with themselves, then you've probably developed a relationship with them that none of their previous partners could give them - but then, on the other hand, is it really about getting a boyfriend or girlfriend? If you were fully at peace with yourself, you wouldn't need another person to fill any void in your own life, and if you helped someone else achieve the same "enlightenment", then they wouldn't need a relationship to complete themselves either - which leads to an entirely different question - what would a relationship be like between "fully enlightened" people. Personally I don't think most couples are ready to even consider that question yet, since most are still battling their own personal demons...

[Sewer Socialist]

I have only just realized in the past year or so that I have had problems with social anxiety throughout my life. I still have yet to get around to medicating, probably partially because I'm anxious about it.

[Quail]

Sometimes when I'm writing, I imagine what people might say about the story if they were studying it in a literature class :o It helps me figure out what I'm trying to say and how what I've written could be interpreted.

[GiantMonkeyMan]

Sometimes when I'm writing, I imagine what people might say about the story if they were studying it in a literature class :o It helps me figure out what I'm trying to say and how what I've written could be interpreted.
I do this sort of thing as well whenever I feel creative enough to take another stab at writing something. The only problem is that it slows me down as I feel I have a tendency to get bogged down in metaphors and references. Sometimes I wish I had never gained the critical thinking I developed from university because when I was younger, like five years ago or more, I used to be able to bang out chapters of stuff - probably drivel, but at least I got it finished, ya know. Now I think too carefully, plan too much and rarely get anything on paper.

[Zoop]

Sometimes when I'm writing, I imagine what people might say about the story if they were studying it in a literature class :o It helps me figure out what I'm trying to say and how what I've written could be interpreted.

I do this with my drawings. I find that it allows you to objectively critique your own work in a strange sort of way, so that you can improve it. It's also a way of receiving feedback, even if that feedback is imaginary, and it does help.

[Counterculturalist]

When I was a kid (like, almost since birth) I used to rock back and forth compulsively. I was incapable of sitting still. My parents had to prop pillows up against the wall where my bed was because I would rock directly onto the wall and smash my head. I even did it in public, up until the age of 11, when I decided I had to stop. But I still had to spend a couple of hours a day in my room rocking and listening to music while thinking about stuff. Eventually the daydreaming became more of a thing than the rocking.

I still can't stop daydreaming and I still can't sit still, although now I'm more likely to tap my foot or shake my leg.

Thanks to the internet I know that this whole sequence of events is a thing that other people go through too,and it's called "maladaptive daydreaming."

[Ethics Gradient, Traitor For All Ages]

First time I smoked pot was a week or so ago. It was incredibly mundane. I have no idea why people are so into it - if you want to feel a little light headed just don't drink enough water or something.

Also the person I smoked with was my ex girlfriend from the previous story...

I think you smoked shit weed, come to ohio and you can be the first lieutenant in my cult

[Rosa Partizan]

I often give rep to rafiq without having read his posts entirely. And I feel slightly sexually aroused by the thought of him sitting on my couch and venting about liberal feminism and leftism.

[Brandon's Impotent Rage]

I sometimes look at a bag of potato chips the way that other people look at a big juicy steak.

[cyu]

I'd rather have a bag of potato chips than a big juicy steak :grin:

[Sinister Intents]

Nor much of a confession, but I still question my gender, and I might be slightly genderfluid but I feel either neither or a third?

[BIXX]

I did it! I DID IT!!

I
PUT THE SCREW
IN THE TUNA!!!!!!!!

:crying::crying::crying::crying::crying::crying::c rying::crying::crying::crying::crying::crying::cry ing::crying:


What does this mean?

[Sinister Intents]

What does this mean?

He had sex?

[Comrade Jacob]

What does this mean?

Kennan and Kel

[Sinister Intents]

I smoke eryday

[John Nada]

Hi, my name is Juan and I'm an addict.

[#FF0000]

I often give rep to rafiq without having read his posts entirely.

same


And I feel slightly sexually aroused by the thought of him sitting on my couch and venting about liberal feminism and leftism.

also same

[#FF0000]

I've never read one of DNZ's posts.

[Ethics Gradient, Traitor For All Ages]

Rafiq's posts are often too theatrical for me to take seriously, I have wondered what he sounds like in real life though. I originally registered here with the intention of trolling the board, but now I only do it like 30% of time.

[consuming negativity]

my biggest fear has never been death but going completely insane and having to live the rest of my life that way. i don't think anyone actually bothers to read the random essays i write on here, and i'm secretly a bit scared that what i'm really doing is showcasing my mental illness for everybody on revleft to see. the way i jump around and draw conclusions scares me and seems indicative of something. but at the same time, i don't even think mental illness actually exists - i think it's a way for society to write people off who they don't understand.

a lot of the time, in arguments, to save myself energy, i will read all of rafiq's posts in their entirety - i always do - and then just not even bother to read the posts of his opponent. i frequently worry that the only reason i agree with him so much is because i do this, but they're good posts 90% of the time; i just wish he wasn't so goddamn mean to his debate partners. it makes me want to think he's wrong, and he actually is wrong about some stuff, which he is very much aware of. i also wish the rest of you would stop hero-worshiping him, but i'm not sure if it's just because i'm jealous that i don't think my posts are as good or if i genuinely just think it's kind of pathetic. probably a bit of both. i hope he enjoys the attention, though. i do think he deserves it.

it annoys me that many of you don't contribute long, thought-out posts on a more regular basis, but honestly, i wouldn't read them from 95% of you because i don't think you have a lot that's worth saying. and, truthfully, i think you probably recognize that and it's precisely why you don't. but, at the same time, there's a couple people - in particular quail - who i think will read this and think that applies to them when it actually doesn't. actually, maybe, it applies to none of you, and it is merely your collective anxieties about appearing stupid that keeps you all from contributing lots of good content. i don't really know.

i think ckaihatsu is one of the smartest people on this board who gets pretty much no credit for it. i judge the people pretty harshly who constantly make fun of his diagrams and i think those of you who don't understand them are pretty stupid. they're actually really fucking simple and he's usually just taking his time to illustrate, graphically, the relationships between different concepts.

i also, despite constantly shitting all over them, tend to think the "orthodox marxist" types are very smart. secretly, i think of myself as a marxist or as marxist-inspired, even though i hate marxists. recently i've been thinking that non-hierarchical marxist organizing on a political basis (like Q talks about), syndicalist organizing as a strategic basis in the workplace, and communization as a lifestyle and as a representation of the former two combined as the creation of communism within the current capitalist system, are together equally valid and necessary, non-contradictory ways of fighting capital. i'm not even sure how that's possible but it is.

[Ethics Gradient, Traitor For All Ages]

I normally read your long posts, but not anymore after you just made me read that sappy shit about ckaihatsu.

[Sinister Intents]

I disagree with Communer at times but say nothing

[Os Cangaceiros]

it annoys me that many of you don't contribute long, thought-out posts on a more regular basis, but honestly, i wouldn't read them from 95% of you because i don't think you have a lot that's worth saying.

LOL. "Why don't you idiots write more shit for me to completely disregard?"

[Redistribute the Rep]

I really hope nobody reps me, so my rep stays at 2015 :rolleyes:

[GiantMonkeyMan]

I've only just restarted posting again after like a three month hiatus or whatever but has the forum really degenerated into 'hero worshipping' Rafiq of all people?

[consuming negativity]

LOL. "Why don't you idiots write more shit for me to completely disregard?"

well i mean it's not really about me though. plenty of times i ignore posts by great posters who i like a lot for completely arbitrary reasons. they shouldn't stop posting just because i'm a lazy, judgmental fuck. but someone will read it and find it interesting and you never know who has a really fucking awesome idea but just hasn't bothered to share because they're unsure of it. and i can't be sure that the reason i don't value some people's intellect is precisely because they never bother to showcase it. like yes i'm an idiot and an asshole but i'm aware of this and so i think people should disregard my opinion and take my advice and post more for their own personal benefit


I've only just restarted posting again after like a three month hiatus or whatever but has the forum really degenerated into 'hero worshipping' Rafiq of all people?

he is a very polarizing man

[The Intransigent Faction]

If I see references to Quail eggs I think of myself rather than the teeny little birds my name comes from, so I think, "Haha, you're eating my eggs.

I biked past a road called "Quail's Run" earlier, and thought of this and smiled. :)

[Comrade Jacob]

I want to buy a dildo.

[human strike]

I want to buy a dildo.

psst *opens trench coat to reveal a large and wonderous assortment of colourful dildos* what can I do you for, guvna?

[consuming negativity]

i hate people who have money or who have come from money. even if they're the sort of person who recognizes that they are entitled and lucky, unless they also hate their wealth and wish they didn't have it. and i don't just mean rich people or the bourgeoisie; i mean anybody who hasn't ever had to worry about food or their next rent payment. not only do i personally resent them for it but i think they're shittier people because of it. i think any person who would actually want to have significant wealth in this society is a shitty person. even moreso if they call themselves a communist and they understand that their wealth directly contributes to the impoverishment of others. i think people who value objects that much in general are disgusting and i love myself for hating them.

on the other hand, i have a lot of respect for people who refuse labor on principle and who see nothing wrong with begging for a living. because there isn't. in fact, i think being a destitute beggar who rejects capitalism and its morality entirely is probably the most moral way of living, and i've been known to empty out my wallet to people who i know for a fact are going to the liquor store with it - because i know them personally. not because i want to feel better for helping them, although that used to be my motivation, but now it's because i think they deserve it more than i do. they're better people than the rest of us and i want to contribute to their happiness because i love them.

i also don't trust people who don't use drugs and who were never frequent drug users. people who think they don't need anymore drugs - fine. people who tried drugs and hated them - fine. people who never tried them? do not trust these people. they're not good people and i avoid them at all costs.

[Aurorus Ruber]

i also don't trust people who don't use drugs and who were never frequent drug users. people who think they don't need anymore drugs - fine. people who tried drugs and hated them - fine. people who never tried them? do not trust these people. they're not good people and i avoid them at all costs.

Why is that?

I will confess that I have never tried drugs and have no particular interest in them. I have no real problem with them per se, but they have always sounded rather boring or else dangerous.

[Os Cangaceiros]

consuming negativity, have you ever considered becoming a lifecoach?

[consuming negativity]

Why is that?

I will confess that I have never tried drugs and have no particular interest in them. I have no real problem with them per se, but they have always sounded rather boring or else dangerous.

i use drugs so i can stop caring. i think people who care too much, who have hit rock bottom, who understand reality, eventually will always need an escape valve where we don't have to give a fuck anymore and we can just be numb to our emotions for a while.

a person who won't use drugs because they're scared of the law or scared of what they'll find is someone who is ruled by fear. fearful people are hateful people and they can't be trusted to do the right thing.

the intelligent are inclined to use drugs and to experiment with our perception of reality. i grew up constantly being told by my parents, themselves both former drug users, that drugs were bad and to never do them. i was terrified of the police and of what i'd find inside my head if i tried drugs. and then i tried them anyway. people who are intelligent understand that other people are just like them and they treat people with kindness and respect because they understand that people deserve kindness and respect - not because they were told to as a kid and they're too stupid to disobey authority.

i think people like that can be trusted. other people? no, not really, they don't understand themselves and so they don't understand me.

http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/velvetunderground/heroin.html

anybody who has ever had any sort of drug problem, regardless of what they were using, knows exactly what lou reed is talking about in that song. it's one of the best ever made, and people who don't understand that don't understand reality. i feel a sort of kinship with people who feel too much.


consuming negativity, have you ever considered becoming a lifecoach?

is that anything like a life guard? i've never been a strong swimmer

i've always been interested in social service type jobs. i once volunteered at a homeless shelter and then quit because i hated it. probably because it was run by conservative christians who frequently drug tested people for, say, coming back 5 minutes later than they said they'd be back, and then kicked them out onto the street for testing positive. i remember they had me asking people who were homeless, old men sitting there crying, where are you from, what's your situation, and how do we know you'll be out in a month? you know, why not just let the poor fuck go back and get his shower and get some sleep and take care of this shit by himself? it's disgusting the way the marginalized are treated by the so-called "charitable" and i've never really looked at the social service types the same after that.

i've never really felt emotionally held-together and strong enough for that type of shit, anyway. i currently am probably, soon, going to be doing crisis intervention work. but to stop talking about myself and answer your question, i never really considered it. don't know what they are, in honesty, (don't know what CI is either), and i'm still sort of worried that taking on any emotional responsibility that i HAVE to do because it's my job is going to just destroy my mental balance. why do you ask?

[Sinister Intents]

Nothing. ..

[cyu]

I happily voice my disagreement with ideas I consider to not be "anti-capitalist enough" but when I disagree with something I consider to be a more "extreme left-wing" position, I usually leave it unchallenged, if not to make my own views appear more moderate, then to "expand the boundaries of debate" :grin:

[The Intransigent Faction]

Sometimes, when I have quiet moments, or if I'm just walking around the neighbourhood, I'm gripped by an almost all-consuming feeling of nostalgia. It's as if my mind feebly struggles against the passage of time. If any of you have seen the Twilight Zone episode "The Incredible World of Horace Ford", that pretty much describes the feeling.

[human strike]

Sometimes, when I have quiet moments, or if I'm just walking around the neighbourhood, I'm gripped by an almost all-consuming feeling of nostalgia. It's as if my mind feebly struggles against the passage of time. If any of you have seen the Twilight Zone episode "The Incredible World of Horace Ford", that pretty much describes the feeling.

I've never seen the Twilight Zone but I wonder if I'm feeling something similar. Everything in this city reminds me of times when things were better. I don't like remembering.

[John Nada]

(don't know what CI is either)Confidential informant?

[Cliff Paul]

One time I was lying in bed with my girlfriend and she leaned up against me and said "is that a pencil in your pocket or are you just happy to see me". My response: "no I just left my gameboy in my pocket, I was playing pokemon before you came over..."

[consuming negativity]

wow, i've been infracted for "personal attack / slut shaming"

no, tim; i think this is what it feels like to be accused of being the illuminati when you know you aren't

btw, i got a notification on tapatalk as soon as you quoted my post in the "accusing another user of being a cop" thread. i chose to do nothing about it because part of me felt i deserved punishment for my mental state, even though it has absolutely nothing to do with this website whatsoever. even though, really, i didn't do anything wrong, and had someone asked me, i would have flat out told them that it wasn't ever meant to be a serious accusation. actually, someone did actually try to find out my side of the story - the same person who i told it was my fault so they wouldn't defend me. yes, someone other than you - and i really, really hope you shared the full PM convo we had in the thread, even though i know you didn't. i want to see the revleft mods reaction to "i'm not working with them!" (LOL) to try to pump info out of me that i didn't want to give you. precisely because i have respect for the user you're accusing me of shaming. you disgusting, duplicitous fuck. i wonder what they would think of the fact that you kept on being belligerent with me after i told you i didn't want to receive any more messages from you. probably nothing; the sociology behind the blue code of silence doesn't just apply to cops.

that said, i do owe a certain user here an apology. not for slut shaming, not for speaking my mind and being honest, but for not trusting her when i should have known better. for that, i'm sorry. it should be obvious by now that i have major trust issues, but that isn't any excuse. and for everything else, including this post, i apologize. i also apologize to quail for having given these idiots the static with which to find the enemy that they wanted to find. it wasn't ever my intention to hurt anybody. i'll take an infraction willingly, because i think i'm a piece of shit and i deserve much more than that for the way i've behaved toward another human being. but "slut shaming"? give me a fucking break. does everything have to be a chance for you to prove how feminist you are?

that's all i wanted to say.

[Tim Cornelis]

I didn't vote for you to be infracted. Or even bring you up for infraction. What I did do was approach you for clarification and a chance to defend yourself and to substantiate your allegations, which you reciprocated with insulting me and others left and right and overall behaving like a crybaby. And I have no problem with making public our interaction. The reason I didn't do it was because you insulted other members of BA/mod team and I didn't want that to influence their decision whether to infract you or not. The reason I approached you in private was because it was a delicate matter, not so I could insult you in private, which I had no intention to initially. I mean, I didn't even know we were supposed to have personal "beef". I talked to you one time, when you said academics are parasites that live off of the labour of others, and I said that that was ridiculous. Apparently you took that so personal and held a grudge and developed this "beef" in your head which I didn't even know we were having. But I'm now considering whether I should approach a mod/BA to see if it's possible to infract you for flaming.

[Blake's Baby]

...

If I see references to Quail eggs I think of myself rather than the teeny little birds my name comes from, so I think, "Haha, you're eating my eggs."

...

This made me feel a little bit sick.

[Cliff Paul]

I've been a part of several online communities over the years. Every one of them had their fair share of drama. That being said, I've always noticed that drama in online (and actually real irl) leftist communities tend to be more personal, virulent, and all-pervasive.

[Redistribute the Rep]

I love revleft drama!

EDIT: although after reading the last page I realize this drama is incomprehensible to most of us

[Sinister Intents]

I love revleft drama!

I don't :( and I hate that I cause some of it

[Redistribute the Rep]

I've always noticed that drama in online (and actually real irl) leftist communities tend to be more personal, virulent, and all-pervasive.

I think it's because leftists discuss sensitive topics often like racism and sexism. If somebody has a disagreement over theSe issues it can be alienating to others who have been affected by them

[consuming negativity]

the same sorts of personalities that lead people to question everything we think we know about life, the universe, and everything have other impacts on how we think and interact with each other. fascists look for enemies outside the party, communists look for enemies within the party. if you can't put two-and-two together here and figure out the material circumstances that create our ideological views, there's nothing else i'm willing to say about it.

[Sinister Intents]

CN, face it, all commies and anarkiddos are doomed to repeat history as tragedy and then again as farce, repeatedly, forever.

[consuming negativity]

CN, face it, all commies and anarkiddos are doomed to repeat history as tragedy and then again as farce, repeatedly, forever.

material circumstances are constantly changing. the same pattern laid out through a different medium is not a repetition, and a different medium can in fact require a change in the pattern. not that you actually believe this in the first place - you just want me to tell you why you're wrong. you should read more about the dialectical process.

oh, and since this is the thread where i did it, i got turned down for the job i mentioned earlier in the thread. i could tell i wasn't going to get it but i like lying to myself sometimes. people who want to help the most are often the ones who need the most help, i think. it's paradoxical but it makes me wonder who is actually doing the helping to begin with. maybe, eventually, the cycle gets broken and we just become normal again.

[Sinister Intents]

Pretty much, and I'd read more if my focus was better.

[The Disillusionist]

I have a theory that as a part of every Leftist social movement, there will always be supremacists, people who only participate in social movements for what they can gain for themselves, with no consideration at all for others: Anti-trans feminists, anti-feminist gay men, nationalist anarchists, and other bigots all around. I think this is a phenomenon to the point that I think the engine of leftism, to a large degree, is just plain-old selfishness. I suspect that we don't really have any claim to moral superiority, we are just a bunch of fringe populations acting selfishly under a loosely-allied but strained political category. I'm sure that a lot of people don't see that as an issue, but I don't see how such a group of people could ever be successful at accomplishing anything, let alone a revolution. Add to this dynamic the post-modernist ideological hole we've dug ourselves and our culture of constant impotent whining, and I don't know if leftism can even survive. We may be helping capitalism more than hurting it... we're probably just a running joke... the spineless stuffed dummy that the capitalists parade around as a threat to further their own agendas.

[Cliff Paul]

I think it's because leftists discuss sensitive topics often like racism and sexism. If somebody has a disagreement over theSe issues it can be alienating to others who have been affected by them

To an extant. I've only been around college "leftists" but the hostility in many of those environments is well beyond rational - and in most cases, the ones who are the most hostile tend to be those who are quite "privileged".

[motion denied]

University leftism is the most hostile thing on earth. No wonder they're utterly isolated from the class.

no everyone was socialised as they (we) were...

[Rafiq]

I have a theory that as a part of every Leftist social movement, there will always be supremacists, people who only participate in social movements for what they can gain for themselves, with no consideration at all for others: Anti-trans feminists, anti-feminist gay men, nationalist anarchists, and other bigots all around.

Yes, because all of us radicals here are only rabidly opposed to nationalism and homophobia because we're empathetic toward people who are not us - give me a fucking break! The idiocy of this logic is that it assumes that the idea of the "self", the nation you're born into, or your sexual orientation, is somehow reducible to your fucking genetics - when in fact these are all collectively refined concepts which are irreducible to the whims of individuals. So to speak of phenomena like "national anarchism" in terms of plain selfishness is literally beyond me.

Do you actually go out of your way to literally envision how to be plainly wrong in every possible way? In fact these phenomena do not have their grounding in a lack of empathy, but in ideological weakness. You claim "there will always be supremacists" while ignoring the fact that someone who is gay and anti-feminist, or someone who calls themselves "national anarchists" are not going to be politically limited in their reactionary fervor specifically in their national chauvinism or their misogyny. Even if you try to be a consistent Communist, 100% while adhering to nationalism, you find yourself bloating out a bunch of Freudian slips which reveal that - in fact, you are predisposed to other reactionary ideas in general, divorcing them from what can practically be called the "left" in general. You accuse us of postmodernism, but you think that the ideas and positions of the individual are self-sufficient unto themselves, that people can simply hold reservations with far-reaching implications simply because it is their personal prefernce, ignoring hte casual factors which lead one to be predisposed to the ideas that they do. Even worse, you give a fast food superstitious, metaphysical explanation for it - that it will just "always, inevitably exist" without actually giving a scientific, critical explanation as to why that is. You make over-reaching, baseless declarations about things because they might sound nice, because they might make you feel comfortable about the world around you, and that's it.

Imagine if Marx and Engels had this attitude - the petite-bourgeois socialists, the agrarian socialists, all of whom they firmly grounded in the social developments that defined the 19th century, were just the "inevitability" of reactionary currents pervading the left. You accuse of postmodernism, but to you, ideas just come out of people's ass. Nevermind that national anarchism might just be a fetishistic abstraction of the definite language of Fascism (The point being that Fascism is NEVER what it claims it is - it is a fantastic pathology), nevermind the fact that anti-feminist gays might just arbitrarily be reactionaries in general, nevermind that trans-phobic feminists might just be theoretically confused or, worse- the kinds of feminists who are not serious about the abolition of gender but the hysterical exaltation of the female gender as it exists. All of these things are conceivable critically in terms of our existing conditions, none of them are beyond the scope of scientific explanatory power - none of them are reducible to some kind of "cold, timeless" reality of life like the inevitability of death. There's not even any EQUIVALENCY between "bigots" on the left and bigots on the right - because "bigots" on the left are always those who wish to tautologically identify with the left, while remaining rightist to the core. You, again, accuse us of postmodernism but you literally conceive ideas as just free floating tokens of self-identification which someone can just mix and match as they please.

What you're doing is the opportunistic rightist trick of re-hashing predominant leftist language in a self-ironic manner to, with no regard for the platitude itself, attempt to dismantle it. Think about reverse racism or the idea of "Left-wing privilege" as a response to white privilege. Do these fuckers actually, genuinely spontaneously regard this idea for what it is? No, they simply opportunistically appropriate an aesthetic because they have to - because if they speak in a way that actually reflects what they really are, they would have no place in the political arena. Words like "religious liberty", the famous horse-shoe equivalence of Stalinism with Fascism, words like "German socialism", all of these are self-ironically tautological with no intrinsic substance. When you ABSTRACT a real-event, like sexism, and suck all the substance out of it, you only come up with reverse sexism by abstracting the inherent properties of the real, and opportunistically applying them to fit some other archetype. But there is no spontaneous inclination to actually think that sexism against men is a real thing it's just a perverse false-logical extension of anti-sexism.

This is all the more true for someone like you, Disillusionist, whose identification with the Left is purely one of self-proclamation. You have no spontaneous, deep seated inclination toward the left - it's all political correctness for you.

[Redistribute the Rep]

To an extant. I've only been around college "leftists" but the hostility in many of those environments is well beyond rational - and in most cases, the ones who are the most hostile tend to be those who are quite "privileged".

Agreed, I haven't been around college leftists though. Some people just know the leftist rhetoric and figured that they can use it for their own gain. Same reactionary shit, just with a different mask. I'll continue in a different thread so as to not derail this one

[#FF0000]

i accidentally hit a stranger in the face when giving my friend a big ol drunk hug at the Run The Jewels show and I still feel bad about it.

edit: actually i don't and that's what I feel bad about

edit2: i actually just don't feel bad at all don't walk where my idiot drunk hand is, stupid

edit3: i felt pretty bad about it at the time tho

[Atsumari]

I think this thread is becoming less fun now

[human strike]

I was reminded of this:

“A certain way of asserting a moral superiority which they haven’t earned is doubtless a quirk inherited from the left. As is the presumed ability to decree the right way to live–the way that is truly progressive, enlightened, modern, correct, deconstructed, and undefiled.”
The Invisible Committee, ‘To Our Friends’

Now this thread is less fun.

Once in a public library I approached a stranger and started a conversation with them as if they were my father but then I realised they weren't and that felt pretty embarrassing.

[Cliff Paul]

I used to listen to Korn when I was in middle school.

[motion denied]

I used to listen to Korn when I was in middle school.

whoa whoa whoa, now that's embarrassing

[Os Cangaceiros]

I STILL LISTEN TO KORN :ohmy:

(Not really but I do still like some of their songs!)

[GiantMonkeyMan]

I used to listen to Korn when I was in middle school.
I used to listen to Sum41. In fact, when I was like 12 or something I watched them live and some massive dude (probably just a normal adult but back then I was a weedy fucker) put me on his shoulders. Good times.

[Comrade Jacob]

If Stalin was still young I would fuck him.

[Blake's Baby]

It's not a 'confession' if we all knew it already.

[Comrade Jacob]

It's not a 'confession' if we all knew it already.

Very smart

[Cliff Paul]

I used to listen to Sum41. In fact, when I was like 12 or something I watched them live and some massive dude (probably just a normal adult but back then I was a weedy fucker) put me on his shoulders. Good times.

If you don't know all of fat lip off the top of your head you are no comrade of mine.

[GiantMonkeyMan]

If you don't know all of fat lip off the top of your head you are no comrade of mine.
I haven't even heard the song in years but the moment I thought about it I was singing the lyrics in my head....

Another confession regarding singing: there was a party on a beach with a load of my friends one time (more than a couple summers ago) and someone had brought along an ipod with speakers, everyone had just chilled out nearby and were singing cheesy songs like the Beatles or Queen or whatever and getting drunk. I was just laid down on my back looking up at the stars and singing Hey Jude and when the song ended I looked up and everyone else had walked away (the implication being they walked away cos my singing was so shit). Most embarrassing moment of my life.

[Ro Laren]

I've never done drugs. Not much access, only vague interest. I guess I'd like to try weed someday. I really dislike being drunk which makes me think I might not like getting high.

[The Disillusionist]

Yes, because all of us radicals here are only rabidly opposed to nationalism and homophobia because we're empathetic toward people who are not us - give me a fucking break! The idiocy of this logic is that it assumes that the idea of the "self", the nation you're born into, or your sexual orientation, is somehow reducible to your fucking genetics - when in fact these are all collectively refined concepts which are irreducible to the whims of individuals. So to speak of phenomena like "national anarchism" in terms of plain selfishness is literally beyond me.

Do you actually go out of your way to literally envision how to be plainly wrong in every possible way? In fact these phenomena do not have their grounding in a lack of empathy, but in ideological weakness. You claim "there will always be supremacists" while ignoring the fact that someone who is gay and anti-feminist, or someone who calls themselves "national anarchists" are not going to be politically limited in their reactionary fervor specifically in their national chauvinism or their misogyny. Even if you try to be a consistent Communist, 100% while adhering to nationalism, you find yourself bloating out a bunch of Freudian slips which reveal that - in fact, you are predisposed to other reactionary ideas in general, divorcing them from what can practically be called the "left" in general. You accuse us of postmodernism, but you think that the ideas and positions of the individual are self-sufficient unto themselves, that people can simply hold reservations with far-reaching implications simply because it is their personal prefernce, ignoring hte casual factors which lead one to be predisposed to the ideas that they do. Even worse, you give a fast food superstitious, metaphysical explanation for it - that it will just "always, inevitably exist" without actually giving a scientific, critical explanation as to why that is. You make over-reaching, baseless declarations about things because they might sound nice, because they might make you feel comfortable about the world around you, and that's it.

Imagine if Marx and Engels had this attitude - the petite-bourgeois socialists, the agrarian socialists, all of whom they firmly grounded in the social developments that defined the 19th century, were just the "inevitability" of reactionary currents pervading the left. You accuse of postmodernism, but to you, ideas just come out of people's ass. Nevermind that national anarchism might just be a fetishistic abstraction of the definite language of Fascism (The point being that Fascism is NEVER what it claims it is - it is a fantastic pathology), nevermind the fact that anti-feminist gays might just arbitrarily be reactionaries in general, nevermind that trans-phobic feminists might just be theoretically confused or, worse- the kinds of feminists who are not serious about the abolition of gender but the hysterical exaltation of the female gender as it exists. All of these things are conceivable critically in terms of our existing conditions, none of them are beyond the scope of scientific explanatory power - none of them are reducible to some kind of "cold, timeless" reality of life like the inevitability of death. There's not even any EQUIVALENCY between "bigots" on the left and bigots on the right - because "bigots" on the left are always those who wish to tautologically identify with the left, while remaining rightist to the core. You, again, accuse us of postmodernism but you literally conceive ideas as just free floating tokens of self-identification which someone can just mix and match as they please.

What you're doing is the opportunistic rightist trick of re-hashing predominant leftist language in a self-ironic manner to, with no regard for the platitude itself, attempt to dismantle it. Think about reverse racism or the idea of "Left-wing privilege" as a response to white privilege. Do these fuckers actually, genuinely spontaneously regard this idea for what it is? No, they simply opportunistically appropriate an aesthetic because they have to - because if they speak in a way that actually reflects what they really are, they would have no place in the political arena. Words like "religious liberty", the famous horse-shoe equivalence of Stalinism with Fascism, words like "German socialism", all of these are self-ironically tautological with no intrinsic substance. When you ABSTRACT a real-event, like sexism, and suck all the substance out of it, you only come up with reverse sexism by abstracting the inherent properties of the real, and opportunistically applying them to fit some other archetype. But there is no spontaneous inclination to actually think that sexism against men is a real thing it's just a perverse false-logical extension of anti-sexism.

This is all the more true for someone like you, Disillusionist, whose identification with the Left is purely one of self-proclamation. You have no spontaneous, deep seated inclination toward the left - it's all political correctness for you.

This is complete and utter crap, as always. But I just got off a 10 hour evening shift and I'm too tired to deal with it. Just keep making all the folks on this site feel good about their useless, go-nowhere ideas, and I'm sure you'll keep getting those thanks.

[Os Cangaceiros]

I really dislike being drunk which makes me think I might not like getting high.

Very different feels. That's not to say that you'll like it, though.

contra-consuming negativity's opinion a while back, I do know a handful of people who have never done drugs who I have complete respect for. They've just decided that it wasn't for them and I respect that decision. Recreational drug use at best is just an form of escapist entertainment, in my opinion, akin to sporting events or watching television. At worst it can evolve into an addiction and enslave you. My peers who don't use drugs don't look down on people who do use responsibly, and I think they should receive the same consideration.