What's on Your Mind XII

[RedAnarchist]

Continued from here as the last thread went over 500 posts - http://www.revleft.com/vb/whats-your-mind-t189494/index28.html.

[Redistribute the Rep]

First!

[Zoroaster]

Second, I guess.

[Sinister Intents]

Third!

Psychedelics bring out my inner darkness

[Sinister Intents]

My parents are treating me slightly differently and I'm not exactly sure why or what to think...?

[Redistribute the Rep]

What happened to the site?

[Rosa Partizan]

appr. one out of three friends of mine has been seeing a therapist at some point of their life. Somehow depressing and at the same time pretty indicative in terms of society.

[Sinister Intents]

What happened to the site?

I did :)

[Sinister Intents]

I really should hide who I am... I don't want people to know I'm trans.... I feel fucking terrified right noe

[Redistribute the Rep]

I really should hide who I am... I don't want people to know I'm trans.... I feel fucking terrified right noe

Did people threaten you

[consuming negativity]

I really should hide who I am... I don't want people to know I'm trans.... I feel fucking terrified right noe

Are you alright? Anything we can do to help?

[Sinister Intents]

No one threatened me, I'm just feeling really emotional and I don't want to talk about it, I hate my fucking body

[Sinister Intents]

A really really bad combination of things

[Sinister Intents]

My relationship is perfectly healthy, but I really hate my body and want not to be shaped like a fucking man

[consuming negativity]

e: nvm

[Sinister Intents]

Motherfuck I'm sorry

[human strike]

"I love you, you're like my dog or my mum but with a penis."

Possibly one of the most romantic things my partner has ever said to me... She's actually started being really affectionate and telling me that she loves me a lot, which is new, and very welcome. :)

I'm still really fucking tired all the time and not seeing the doctor for another week or so now because I missed my appointment because buses are shit: 10 minutes late and the driver doesn't let anyone on cuz it's supposedly at capacity despite the fact two people just got off - bullshit. I didn't go to work today because I was just too tired. I almost never don't feel tired; I wake up tired and I fall asleep tired. A few nights the past week I've passed out without getting undressed or turning the light off - something I never used to do. I'm reluctant to but I think I'm going to have to start consuming lots of caffeine from now on, just to get through an ordinary day. I'm sure there may be some dietary changes that can help and maybe seeing a chiropractor (though they're very expensive) could result in me having more energy too - I hope so anyway - only times I feel human are when drugs and strong stimulants are involved.

[Sinister Intents]

Holy fuck I gotta stay off this site when I'm panicking and hating my body

[Trap Queen Voxxy]

Oh, you know, just thinking about almost being fired cuz some fucking snap has to come to my WORK all junkin out and shit. Idk what's going on and I get yelled at by my boss and told this isn't a dope house and to schedule things during break or before/after work. I agreed but it's just like wtf man, thas tots not my fault, you can't hold that against me. Gaaaaah, so dumb.

But that was also pretty cool, I totally would've been fired at a normal non-sales place hahaha

[Futility Personified]

I've started looking at publishers (again) who might appreciate a manuscript of my book. I've worked so much of it out - but mostly in my head. A friend lent me a book of Hunter S Thompson's letters throughout the peak of his career, i've found it encouraging and discouraging; how he uses language is just sublime, he also seemed to have the same doubts and worries regarding his projects as me (so if i'm a cliché, at least the precedents were so also).
I've been thinking about the dialogue between characters. A lot of it is cherrypicked, things i've heard my friends say that crack me up, things that i've thought out in my head, those long proto-conversations that give you the edge in an argument. But also, some of the things that contextually i'd use for the political side of the book. The typical arguments of both left and right that aren't anchored in any real thought as such, different ways of saying something of little substance anchored by a conviction of ignorance (kinda like a lot of my posts! blagging 2k14 and still going strong).

Some of the things I intend to put in as dialogue that i've heard are, reading back on them, absolutely ridiculous. I find it funny that good dialogue would appear to be far far away from what most people would say, there is an air of forced-ness in the vibes that are put across. Personally i'm trying to inject a bit of mundane, typically dull dialogue that is so absurd it just /has/ to be included, whilst keeping some high-falutin writing with comedic elements knocking around so it isn't too real.

I'm in one of those phases where my room is tidy enough to maneuver in without knocking shit over all the time, and now my fingers feel like dancing across a keyboard again. I need to get this shit done, i've seen what I could be like in about 20 years in a hundred different faces and the certainty of submissive viciousness is not something I want to cultivate. Need to get a bit of defiance going. Need to get a bit of life going.

[Trap Queen Voxxy]

http://media-cache-ec0.pinimg.com/236x/65/06/fc/6506fcd41fe7df0f6058b9b8760d9a79.jpg

Idk y but I screamed I thought this was so funny.

[consuming negativity]

wat

[Sinister Intents]

Baked macaroni and cheese!

[The Intransigent Faction]

Getting my bike back from the shop tomorrow...just in time. I've got a lot of pent-up energy now.

[Brandon's Impotent Rage]

I really like Red Zapple Ale.

[consuming negativity]

Ah, when the heroin is in my blood
And that blood is in my head
Then thank God that I'm as good as dead
Then thank your God that I'm not aware
And thank God that I just don't care
And I guess I just don't know
And I guess I just don't know

[DOOM]

I kind of want scotland to gain independence, just to see what would happen lol

[Quail]

I should dye my hair a different colour to avoid the awkward situation of being assumed to be my partner's sister, which seems to happen with alarming frequency.

[motion denied]

time is money
only difference is that I own it

[Trap Queen Voxxy]

wat

Some weaves of lower quality contain horse hair instead of actual human hair and what have you.

[Trap Queen Voxxy]

I should dye my hair a different colour to avoid the awkward situation of being assumed to be my partner's sister, which seems to happen with alarming frequency.

Going along with my other posts, have you considered either extensions, weave or wig? There is a lot of fun things you can do with hair in addition to dying it. Me personally, I think wigs are super fun and the best invention ever.

[Quail]

Going along with my other posts, have you considered either extensions, weave or wig? There is a lot of fun things you can do with hair in addition to dying it. Me personally, I think wigs are super fun and the best invention ever.

I haven't thought about any of that stuff. I tend to do my own hair so I stick with stuff I can't fuck up too badly :lol:

Though I couldn't fuck up a wig, I imagine they're more expensive than a £5 pot of hair dye.

[Lord Testicles]

I had no idea who Michael Hastings was until an hour ago but someone definitely killed that guy.

[Sinister Intents]

Star Trek is officially one of my favorite shows

[Trap Queen Voxxy]

I haven't thought about any of that stuff. I tend to do my own hair so I stick with stuff I can't fuck up too badly :lol:

Though I couldn't fuck up a wig, I imagine they're more expensive than a £5 pot of hair dye.

Probably not but it's an investment in fabulousness. I personally also dye hair and braid and do weaves for way cheap. I'm sure there is probably someone else crafty in your nick of the woods.

[The Intransigent Faction]

Star Trek is officially one of my favorite shows

It's also officially cancelled!

Seriously though, I actually started at Voyager and am working my way backwards. I really need to get back into TNG. They're both good, though.

[Rugged Collectivist]

I should dye my hair a different colour to avoid the awkward situation of being assumed to be my partner's sister, which seems to happen with alarming frequency.

The opposite happens to me. People think I'm dating my sister. It's especially awkward when we go somewhere with her kids.

[Brutus]

People thought me and my friend were brother and sister when we walked into sixth form together, then they thought we were going out, then they eventually buggered off.

[motion denied]

sometimes it seems Zizek is just taking the piss.

he goes from Hitler to Borat and Jennifer Anninston. I mean cmon

[Trap Queen Voxxy]

sometimes it seems Zizek is just taking the piss.

he goes from Hitler to Borat and Jennifer Anninston. I mean cmon

We should all be like Kung Fu panda. Thchis is pure ideology.

Have you ever heard his lecture on toilets? Enjoy (http://youtu.be/rzXPyCY7jbs), yw. (http://youtu.be/jWHC102Pcsk)

[Ele'ill]

long story but basically there was this cat that died unfortunately and was in a bag and one of the idiot dogs ate it even though they were animal friends a few days before hand

[consuming negativity]

everything is either a waste of time or not worth the effort

[Sinister Intents]

long story but basically there was this cat that died unfortunately and was in a bag and one of the idiot dogs ate it even though they were animal friends a few days before hand

That's the circle of life! It lives, it dies, something eats it's kitty remains. Very sad and there is no point or reason because we're just conscious chemical reactions floating on a rock in space. The sun will eventually erase everything. I know how I'm going to die: Silicosis. The silica dust in my lungs will eventually lead to the development of scar tissue. The tissue will know longer be able to expand and I'll suffocate lest I die of some other lung disorder. I'll be lucky to reach my fifties.


everything is either a waste of time or not worth the effort

I know this feeling all too well! Only my dog and girlfriend are worth the effort

[Sinister Intents]

My girlfriend recorded a video of me twerking to death metal

[Art Vandelay]

The Miami Dolphins break my heart every single year. Sigh.

[Trap Queen Voxxy]

The Miami Dolphins break my heart every single year. Sigh.

http://i.imgur.com/vQ9Fs.jpg

[Art Vandelay]

http://i.imgur.com/vQ9Fs.jpg

Not now love. Just. Not. Now.

[Trap Queen Voxxy]

Not now love. Just. Not. Now.

<333 I'm sorry. I will make you a mourning cake.<33

[Art Vandelay]

<333 I'm sorry. I will make you a mourning cake.<33

Really!? With sprinkles? :ohmy:

[Trap Queen Voxxy]

Really!? With sprinkles? :ohmy:

:lol: duh of course of every kind in fact

[The Intransigent Faction]

everything is either a waste of time or not worth the effort

Strange as it maybe sounds that's actually kind of reassuring. Thanks.
I still might have my doubts, though. Or not. Trying to figure out what matters when I'm feeling so confused and distracted is definitely a waste of time, though.

Maybe that made no sense. I kinda want to talk to someone about it but wouldn't know what to say, so I say nothing, or ramble.

[Brandon's Impotent Rage]

After having played Destiny for a while......I must ask:

Is it just me, or do most modern First Person Shooters just kinda suck compared to the ones from yesteryear? Sure, the graphics are much better....but they're often so dull.

[Loony Le Fist]

After having played Destiny for a while......I must ask:

Is it just me, or do most modern First Person Shooters just kinda suck compared to the ones from yesteryear? Sure, the graphics are much better....but they're often so dull.

Yes. The game mechanics have changed to taking cover with stop and go type action in an attempt to be more realistic. Unfortunately, more realistic modeling of gunfights can lead to a pretty dull game, except perhaps when you are caught by surprise. I always liked the cool arsenal of the older games along with the feeling of constant action rather than the stop and go style of the more modern FPSs. I can't really get used to them either. Sometimes I want to kill my opponents in strange and wonderful ways for the laughs. It's also amusing to watch your own character be killed in a strange way, rather than with a mundane and sterile gunshot. :laugh: I miss that.

There's no reason that the cover mechanics can't be combined with a more fast-paced style game. It's just that the current action style is what's hip.

[cyu]

Unfortunately, more realistic modeling of gunfights can lead to a pretty dull game, except perhaps when you are caught by surprise.


Yep...

"Dude! That guy was totally unarmed!"

"No worries, I still got a spare AK we can plant next to the body."

[Rosa Partizan]

we got a new client called Kockjoy. How am I supposed to get through his phone calls like a mature adult? fml.

[Atsumari]

One day at the restaurant, there was a customer who was wearing a White Rabbit Radio T-Shirt. The first thing that puzzled me was why a white nationalist who is against multiculturalism would come to a multicultural sushi bar and whether or not I should have fucked up his order. In the end, I simply gave him the "expired" spicy tuna rolls with the hopes that they were truly expired.

[Futility Personified]

Wolfenstein: drowning nazis in wee!

[Ceallach_the_Witch]

my internet is still doing the virtual equivalent of puking and crapping itself simultaneously whilst hungover and crying. Connection drops frequently, still drags stuff down on the same network and won't go above 300kb/s. This is getting frustrating.

[Sinister Intents]

One day at the restaurant, there was a customer who was wearing a White Rabbit Radio T-Shirt. The first thing that puzzled me was why a white nationalist who is against multiculturalism would come to a multicultural sushi bar and whether or not I should have fucked up his order. In the end, I simply gave him the "expired" spicy tuna rolls with the hopes that they were truly expired.

*Clapping hands vigorously*

I'm so fucking pissed off from how I just got fucking treated for an error my father made because I suck at math! I cut 42 fucking boards 2 fucking inches too long! All because he kept interrupting me! It would've been all correct and I wouldn't have lost two hours of fucking labor when the fucking from was constructed. Thanks motherfucker! I hope you're fucking happy my arms are fucking bruised and bloody from bitinh and cutting myself because you seem to want to psychologically fucking abuse me like fucking Kyra did me!! "Oh I didn't spank my son when he was younger, I never hit him." "You're a fucking idiot because I never told you that enough when you were younger." I remember you fucking calling me a little retard when I was younger and your bullying to make sure I'd conform to your masculine fucking standards. I remember your fucking negativity. I remember every fucking ounce. Yeah you were nice 80% of the fucking time, but abuse is fucking abuse. I abuse myself so I don't abuse others because I know you were abused fucking horribly but I don't have to be like you motherfucker just because you were fucking raped as a little boy by your foster parents. Because you were fucking beaten and scarred horribly by your family and step father, because your mother fucking abused you. I don't need to take your authoritarian and hypermasculine bullshit, I don't need to take your psychological abuse, I don't need to fucking listen to you. You're not an example of anything except someone who went through horrors in your fucking life. I won't be like you. I'm not a fucking man, I'm not a fucking retard, I'm a human fucking beinh and I deserve liberty you fucking cock.

[Brandon's Impotent Rage]

Wolfenstein: drowning nazis in wee!

It's the best fps to have come out in years. And the numerous ways you get to fuck up nazis is just....delightful.

[Art Vandelay]

My workers vanguard subscription came today. Looks like I got some reading to do.

[Sinister Intents]

Holy fuck do I want to just fucking bleed. No one I want to talk to is fucking available or will answer. That's probably because I'm inapproachable and fucking horrible.

[cyu]

because I'm inapproachable

Speaking of which, can you give us an update on LEM? Apparently, you're still in contact? Whatever happened after LEM's last post here?

[Sinister Intents]

Speaking of which, can you give us an update on LEM? Apparently, you're still in contact? Whatever happened after LEM's last post here?

Sure. LEM seems to be doing well, seems happier and he's living in California going to college and I think he gas a job. I text him and have him on Facebook.

I feel like I should leave this site again because of my previous highly triggered post. I'm just wanting to fade away.

[human strike]

A few things are on my mind. I'm happier in my own self-image than I've ever been - quite honestly I think I'm hot as. Though I've been having some bouts of anxiety of late mostly due to it, this new job has been a pretty good and engaging challenge; I want to be busy and if I can sort my physical health out so I have the energy I think I can be really happy in a state of busy-ness - this is really unusual for me but very positive. Unsurprisingly me and my partner's falling out didn't last long. Though problems aren't resolved and we have a lot we need to think and talk about, right now we're really loved up and it's pretty sweet (which is how we usually are, to be honest). Basically things are pretty good - even when they're not they're still not bad, ya know. Makes a refreshing change. :)

[The Intransigent Faction]

Holy fuck do I want to just fucking bleed. No one I want to talk to is fucking available or will answer. That's probably because I'm inapproachable and fucking horrible.

Sometimes people are just busy? I don't mean to presume anything and I don't know your situation, but give it some time. That's just something I've learned. Especially so if when you're feeling the need to talk tends to be late when almost nobody's around and it's just you and your thoughts.

[cyu]

LEM seems to be doing well, seems happier and he's living in California going to college and I think he gas a job.

Great to hear


I feel like I should leave this site again because of my previous highly triggered post.

Not great to hear =/

[Sinister Intents]

Sometimes people are just busy? I don't mean to presume anything and I don't know your situation, but give it some time. That's just something I've learned. Especially so if when you're feeling the need to talk tends to be late when almost nobody's around and it's just you and your thoughts.

I'm not talking of RevLeft members at all btw, just people I know physically that weren't available. .. He was at work and my girlfriend left her cellphone in my car. I did however contact TGU and he didn't get back to me, he makes me happy when I talk to him.


Great to hear



Not great to hear =/

I feel highly embarrassed and panicked

[Sinister Intents]

My girlfriend is upset now... I want to hide so much right now, I want to just disappear

[consuming negativity]

My girlfriend is upset now... I want to hide so much right now, I want to just disappear

You can't get anybody else to help you the way you want to be helped, with the things you need to be helped with. They have as much trouble dealing with it as you do, except they haven't been exposed to it and learned how to deal with it their entire lives. Take it from me: if you don't learn how to get the cycle of self-loathing and lashing out under control, you will lose everyone you love and everything you care about. Again, and again, and again. You have to be able to be for yourself what you want her to be for yourself. You have to give yourself the unconditional love and acceptance and support that you wish you had. Don't let the guilt overwhelm you and make you think that you're the monster, because you're not. The feelings you feel and that little voice in your head aren't always yours, even if they seem inseparable from your other emotions. That kind of hatred is implanted from outside, and it comes early enough that you don't even hear it in the voice it originally came from anymore. But it's not you. You're a good person, and once you accept that, you won't have to fight the feelings that you're not worth it anymore.

[consuming negativity]

Deviancy is not a "yes" or "no" type of thing. It is more like a scale. Being deviant from the norm doesn't make a person abnormal. Normal people do the majority of things we consider abnormal, as a result of abnormal or misunderstood situations. Moreover, being deviant is not the same thing as being wrong, and neither of those are the same thing as being immoral. A person can advocate for something that is wrong and bad but still not be a bad person, even if we consider their actions bad, because THEY don't consider their actions bad. The majority of people consider themselves to be good people, and almost everybody will tell you that they think they try to be a good person or what they think a good person is.

[Sinister Intents]

Thanks Communer. My girlfriend was upset about her school work and her sociology class. Good advice is good advice and you're always very helpful and I've really no way to know how yoi appreciate all of this. Thanks. I hate being intensely emotional and prone to panicking. I've been isolating myself regardless... I can't go without getting professional help much longer...

[Sinister Intents]

I'm gonna be seeing a therapist

[Quail]

I'm gonna be seeing a therapist

I think that's probably a good step for you to take. Hope you find it helpful.

[human strike]

People on facebook keep telling me Scotland should go independent. I understand the temptation to cause a bit of a chaos - who knows, maybe something interesting or even good might happen! - but what bothers me is that most of them seem to think that it's really important and will definitely lead to good things happening. Wish I could filter anything about Scotland out. Maybe I should just delete all the Leftists on my friends list - would probably be for the best.

I didn't go to work today again; too damn tired. I really need this to stop happening. It stresses me out because I don't feel like it's a legitimate reason to not be there and I worry about what to say to them. Fortunately my line manager is probably the nicest person in the world and they act more like a mother than a boss. Still causes me stress though.


I'm gonna be seeing a therapist

I'm pleased this has proved possible for you. I know it can be (/was) difficult to get access to that kind of help. :)

[Ethics Gradient, Traitor For All Ages]

Louisiana is the worst place on the planet. New Orleans is dirty, poorly designed, boring and filled with awful white tourists. I would do some pretty degrading things to get a job that didn't require travel.

[The Intransigent Faction]

Louisiana is the worst place on the planet. New Orleans is dirty, poorly designed, boring and filled with awful white tourists. I would do some pretty degrading things to get a job that didn't require travel.

Hey! I was planning on being one of those "awful white tourists" :(. Mostly for music. I know the 'state book' or whatever is the Bible, too. Still...can't be all bad.

[Ethics Gradient, Traitor For All Ages]

Eh I'm not being fair, I've had a decent enough time in new Orleans on previous trips, work is just driving me absolutely crazy. This town is in desperate need of a power wash though, I stand by that statement.

[The Intransigent Faction]

Distancing myself from people so as not to bother them with my mood or whatever.
Trying to talk hasn't helped anyway. Some music, a long ride on my bike, and hopefully I'll think more clearly. Or not. Meh.

[Quail]

I think sometimes I forget that most people don't share my values. It can be awkward.

[Ro Laren]

Someone overheard my supervisor at work saying she wants to try me out on a machine but she's concerned I'll be too slow and can't keep up. Because I apparently give the impression of being slow despite having the exact same numbers on my timesheet as everybody else who works in the back. Or maybe I walk slowly or something. Fuck you.

I like pretty much everyone I work with except this woman. Ugh.

[Atsumari]

I never cringed harder in my life.
2OS2WhLOctk
Conclusion: Nazis are scum, liberals are weak and annoying.

[DOOM]

Hyped for scottish independence. Jeez

[Sinister Intents]

I strained my back and neck and now I've a terrible headache and bad pains. I smoke a joint now!

[The Intransigent Faction]

I strained my back and neck and now I've a terrible headache and bad pains. I smoke a joint now!

Yeah, try and take it easy if possible. Obvious advice, but I'm no doctor so yeah.

I was invited to a public forum thing at university where students/alumni can ask the bourgeois mayoral candidates questions relating to unemployment etc. I'm trying to think of a subtle way to troll them, or something.

[Brutus]

Someone overheard my supervisor at work saying she wants to try me out on a machine but she's concerned I'll be too slow and can't keep up. Because I apparently give the impression of being slow despite having the exact same numbers on my timesheet as everybody else who works in the back. Or maybe I walk slowly or something. Fuck you.

I like pretty much everyone I work with except this woman. Ugh.

My supervisors are alright. Could be a lot worse

[Futility Personified]

So it looks like Scotland is not becoming independent. This really bums me out - you could argue there should be no states, or that it'd be trading one set of bourgeoisie for another, and you wouldn't be wrong. But it'd be a start in rejecting Westminster. I've always understood Scotland as having a larger left sentiment than the rest of the UK. Anything that'd hobble the labour party as well couldn't be too bad.

It just seems like any change that might perhaps make things open and shift in even a vaguely positive direction can be ruled out. I hear so much belligerence about the scottish from the fuckwits around here, I just wish that Scotland could separate itself from the tories, or from labour or whofuckingever, just so -something- could change.

I'm tired of idiots saying "it's amazing how many people are talking about politics!" as well. As if people parroting whatever they hear on television is any substitute for real debate. As if people haranguing others for being scroungers is anything close to debate.
There is absolutely no debate. A duped section of the working class who seem to think the labour party mean different this time, honestly, they really do, who've condemned their comrades to more of the same. At least if labour was smashed, perhaps in the space there could be something else in opposition to the status quo.

It just seems hopeless. The only time we'll ever see a chance for positive change in the UK will be when the streets are burning; and by that time they'll have all our names on a register and they'll probably set about locking as many people up as possible. Then the media would run themselves ragged condemning everyone as "extremists" (the catch-all word for 'a very bad thing', contributing to the infantilisation of discourse) Something has to give, it just has to.

Now I reckon I will teach english abroad for a few months or so. Even if politics abroad are just as reactionary, it'd be nice to have aggression either directed at me so I can respond in kind, or to be ignorant of the local language and not have to understand the terrible things people say about each other.

[Sinister Intents]

I wanna binge smoke tonight....

[Sinister Intents]

I came out to my sister!! 'Tis all good and I'm accepted and loved

[BIXX]

Yeah, try and take it easy if possible. Obvious advice, but I'm no doctor so yeah.

I was invited to a public forum thing at university where students/alumni can ask the bourgeois mayoral candidates questions relating to unemployment etc. I'm trying to think of a subtle way to troll them, or something.


When you hurt your back you're supposed to only take a day or two easy, then go back to normal, cause for some reason if you don't go back it just gets worse.

[Ro Laren]

My supervisors are alright. Could be a lot worse

I know, I just get the impression that she doesn't like me personally.

[Brandon's Impotent Rage]

I wish we had a much better, more eloquent spokesperson for Marxism on social media instead of Jason "The victims of 9/11 deserved it" Unruhe.

[The Intransigent Faction]

When you hurt your back you're supposed to only take a day or two easy, then go back to normal, cause for some reason if you don't go back it just gets worse.

True.

[Loony Le Fist]

I wish we had a much better, more eloquent spokesperson for Marxism on social media instead of Jason "The victims of 9/11 deserved it" Unruhe.

Can he even be considered a spokesperson? I know this opinion is controversial here, but I rather don't like Unruhe. He selectively overlooks the crimes of certain regimes while condemning others that do precisely the same. It is the exact same kind of relativism, distortions, and framing that Western sources use. It completely undermines his credibility. You cannot distinguish yourself from your adversary without distinguishing and establishing who has the high ground. You also need a defined adversary.

The enemy is power unto itself. Power shall always exist within a limited and particular context and never outside of it. By compartmentalizing power, we limit it's ability to encroach on individual rights while maximizing happiness for both the individual and collective simultaneously.

It works by having power be managed through independently operated private associations of organizations that seek to maximize a goal for all partners involved. It's a different way of framing the basic economic principle from maximizing profit to maximizing overall societal benefit. Not only must the structure of society change, but the structure of how we frame socioeconomic transactions must also change. It's quite a long term project. :grin:

[Brutus]

I know, I just get the impression that she doesn't like me personally.

She probably doesn't. But ya can't please everyone

[Brutus]

Fuck supervisors in general tho

[Zukunftsmusik]

I know this opinion is controversial here, but I rather don't like Unruhe

Haha, have you been paying attention? If you "support" Unruhe here you get properly shit on.

[consuming negativity]

I didn't want to like every post that I liked, but after I got on a roll I felt just a little guilty about leaving people out and so I went ahead and liked them all.

What's really on my mind though is the fact that I'd climb a fucking mountain if I didn't get money for it, but don't think I could find the energy to walk my own dogs if someone offered to pay me for it. It's like the very idea of being paid or otherwise improving things for myself completely turns me off. Maybe this is some strange type of self-destruction. But the question remains: if any of this is true, why the fuck is my response to go post about it on the goddamn internet? :unsure:

[consuming negativity]

I've been working on a fictional story about Stalin's conversations with a would-be SS assassin.

[cyu]

I could find the energy to walk my own dogs if someone offered to pay me for it. It's like the very idea of being paid or otherwise improving things for myself completely turns me off. Maybe this is some strange type of self-destruction.

Science backs you up... not help-the-poor moralism, not even scientific communism, but even science based on efficiency. From http://www.alfiekohn.org/books/pbr.htm

Alfie Kohn shows that while manipulating people with incentives seems to work in the short run, it is a strategy that ultimately fails and even does lasting harm.

the more we use artificial inducements to motivate people, the more they lose interest in what we're bribing them to do. Rewards turn play into work, and work into drudgery.

the more an organization relies on incentives, the worse things get.

[Quail]

I'm at a music festival. Shoupd have brought something to do when my son goes to bed each night really. Ive taken him back tothe tent but everyone I'm with wanted to see the band playing now. Still, he enjoyed having a dance earlier and there should be some nice kid-friendly stuff to do tomorrow :)

[consuming negativity]

I wanna do something stupid.
I wanna do something to forget
that the dice are weighted
and the cards were counted
and the alarm was already set.

I wanna do something smart.
I wanna write them a letter.
But I'll turn it to art
and speak from my heart
and pretend that everything's better.

---

Okay everyone, I made a thing. Now where do I sign up to get the money?

What do you mean I don't get any money?

So what was the point of expressing myself if I'm still hungry?

[TheGodlessUtopian]

I am now convinced that a good friend of mine has Anorexia; this isn't a absurd musing as another person-his roommate-has come to the same conclusion. I am worried about him. It would be greatly saddening if he died for lack of nutrients; I imagine that scenario where I discover his passing and I can only come to agony ...is this terrible fate likely to happen? He has lived for about 20yrs so far so perhaps not, but people, many people, are living a 'running battle' so you never know what their inner-life is like. Is he in denial? I don't want to insult him but I want to express my concern as well; of course, it isn't like I am in any position to express my existential issues to another person (considering our relation). It is like being between a rock and a hard place, only the hard place is a ephemeral void filled with nothingness.

[Brutus]

I've got to leave for work in less than an hour and it's killing me inside.

[consuming negativity]

Applying for jobs and I get denied on the spot because I didn't pass their personality test.

L

O

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[Futility Personified]

I failed the KFC aptitude test about 6 times. I kept wondering who would honestly, in their heart of hearts, behave in the ways asked for those questions. So I figured i'd lie a tiny bit. Eventually, the lying progressed until eventually I was asked to work there.

[Sinister Intents]

I want to die

[Comrade Jacob]

I want a fucking overnight-pass! Keep your shitty 3 hours and day-passes!

[slum]

I failed the KFC aptitude test about 6 times. I kept wondering who would honestly, in their heart of hearts, behave in the ways asked for those questions. So I figured i'd lie a tiny bit. Eventually, the lying progressed until eventually I was asked to work there.

i've said this before on here but i am 99% sure they blacklist you if you fail those things even once, since you have to put in yr social

i have applied to countless jobs that use this bullshit 'peoplesoft' personality test shit (dont even get me started on how there's questions in there that are cribbed right from diagnostic lists on depression) and i've answered the questions lots of different ways (after i flunked the first time i looked up how to 'game' it) and i still fail them.

idk why this makes me so overwhelmingly angry, maybe it's just you finally get to see layed out real directly exactly what they want out of us in terms of affective labor- and it's not even a real person

i mean fuck service work fuck retail fuck bosses fuck everything it's so fucking demeaning and dehumanizing

[Futility Personified]

It was more of a "how would you behave in this situation?" type list, nonetheless I did put in my Nat Ins number. The turnover in that shithole was obscene, so perhaps it was down to desperation, I don't know.

I'm not sure if anyone buys into that Myers-Briggs stuff, i'm not wholeheartedly supportive of it but it seems to have some validity. I first bumped into that on a managers training website about dealing with different personalities, which was concerning as certain personalities do seem to be dirt in the eyes of employers.

It's fucked. Perhaps aptitude tests of that nature would be appropriate if they were proportionate to the needs and demands of society as opposed to the precariat / proleteriat, but in the current state of affairs it's nothing more than an attempt to force people who don't fit in to suffer.

I had an interview where it went exceedingly well until I told them I had anxiety previously. Sorry to hear you are both going through shit Slum and Communer, don't let the motherfuckers grind you down. We should exist to bum them out, not to let them bum us out.

[Loony Le Fist]

Applying for jobs and I get denied on the spot because I didn't pass their personality test.


You have to lie to pass them. Of course, you can't come off like a naive idiot, but you can't sound like you've taken the proverbial red pill. It's a tough balance to strike. You have to think like a worker drone and answer like a typical worker drone would answer. I have a tough time with them myself.

[Rosa Partizan]

wtf is this? Personality tests? Never heard about such stuff in Germany.

[Loony Le Fist]

wtf is this? Personality tests? Never heard about such stuff in Germany.

They are very common for retail workers and entry-level employees in large corporations in the US since the late 1990s. I think they are trying to assess if you are subservient to authority with just enough independent thinking that they can throw you under the bus if necessary. That's how I tend to answer the questions. Though it can be really hard if you are quite the independent thinker. I think communer can relate, from what I'm reading.

[Rosa Partizan]

I'm not even sure if this would work in Germany from a legal point of view. So if you have a mind of your own, you can basically suck it.

[The Intransigent Faction]

wtf is this? Personality tests? Never heard about such stuff in Germany.

Even fucking clothing retailers have been asking questions here such as:

"You're a new addition to the crayon box. What colour would you be, and why?"

I have a question of my own: "You're a major retailer looking to hire someone. What asinine question would you ask them, and why?"

:mad:

[Sinister Intents]

I'm never going to be able to express myself the way I want. I feel so much anxiety, I feel defeated. I'm putting the emergency service's number on speeddial. I'm going to do everything alone...

[Brandon's Impotent Rage]

Even fucking clothing retailers have been asking questions here such as:

"You're a new addition to the crayon box. What colour would you be, and why?"

I have a question of my own: "You're a major retailer looking to hire someone. What asinine question would you ask them, and why?"

:mad:

Agreed. I had to take one of these when I applied to be a Pharm Tech at the 24 Hour Supermarket I now work at (which shall remain nameless).

And the thing is, objectively, these things are completely fucking useless. There might be a couple of questions on there that might be relevant, but then they crowd them with questions so vague that you could arguably get the question wrong no matter what answer you end up choosing.

[Landsharks eat metal]

hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiooooooooooiiiiiiiiiiiiiiioooiiii ii i might be back or just visiting. undecided

[Landsharks eat metal]

Got my own room with fantastic rent, been on testosterone for 6 months, got my name legally changed, am going to college, and receiving benefits from the government lol

[RedAnarchist]

The MBTI is pseudo-science at best. I fit mostly into INTP, yes, but there's parts of my personality rhat are nothing like INTP, and no human fits 100% into any of the 16 types.

[Os Cangaceiros]

today I learned that 1) JFK was addicted to meth, which he received via injection (thus providing the number 2 example of how meth can make you become a successful public speaker, number 1 is Hitler of course), and 2) Michael Foucault was a fan of extreme anal fisting, which I learned upon opening a random page of a Zizek book I saw at the bookstore. I chuckled, put the book back down, and thought to myself "fuck you Verso, I'm not paying that much for a goddamn book"

[cyu]

Got my own room with fantastic rent, been on testosterone for 6 months, got my name legally changed, am going to college, and receiving benefits from the government lol


Awesome to hear - even more so considering what you were just going through the last time you were here. Just goes to show you can never tell what's right around the corner I guess - hope you'll have more time for us now :)

[consuming negativity]

It was more of a "how would you behave in this situation?" type list, nonetheless I did put in my Nat Ins number. The turnover in that shithole was obscene, so perhaps it was down to desperation, I don't know.

I'm not sure if anyone buys into that Myers-Briggs stuff, i'm not wholeheartedly supportive of it but it seems to have some validity. I first bumped into that on a managers training website about dealing with different personalities, which was concerning as certain personalities do seem to be dirt in the eyes of employers.

It's fucked. Perhaps aptitude tests of that nature would be appropriate if they were proportionate to the needs and demands of society as opposed to the precariat / proleteriat, but in the current state of affairs it's nothing more than an attempt to force people who don't fit in to suffer.

I had an interview where it went exceedingly well until I told them I had anxiety previously. Sorry to hear you are both going through shit Slum and Communer, don't let the motherfuckers grind you down. We should exist to bum them out, not to let them bum us out.

Well that's the thing, I've tried lying, I've tried being honest, and I don't know if there is a way to pass the tests without doubling down on lies. Which is weird. Because the people who make these tests know that there's no such thing as actual people like that... right? I assume they know. And it makes me think what they actually want is someone who is willing to compromise their beliefs, lie, do anything in order to get their shitty entry-level job. Not a slave, but a person who is willing to become one, which is somehow more sad for me. But there's plenty of larger employers around here, some of whom are multinational, who didn't ask me any of that shit. It seems that it's largely a service sector/retail phenomenon, which also makes me think it might be about having employees who are willing to get shit-talked by idiots all day. I applied for well over a dozen things just to find some extra income anywhere around nearby to supplement my current job, and as the salaries rose and I got away from retail and service, they started making me jump through significantly less hoops until the application process turned into "upload your resume and you're done".

[The Intransigent Faction]

"upload your resume and you're done".

:ohmy: That...would be fantastic.

[Landsharks eat metal]

Awesome to hear - even more so considering what you were just going through the last time you were here. Just goes to show you can never tell what's right around the corner I guess - hope you'll have more time for us now :)
I'll try. For a while I mostly left because it was bad for my mental health and I kinda got way into it. (plus I worried that people would stop liking me as it was weird to me how popular I had gotten). Now I might be able to be on as much as I was in the beginning of this year since I have a bit of a life now instead of sitting in the library for like 8 hours a day or whatever ridiculous thing I was doing before.

[Futility Personified]

Well that's the thing, I've tried lying, I've tried being honest, and I don't know if there is a way to pass the tests without doubling down on lies. Which is weird. Because the people who make these tests know that there's no such thing as actual people like that... right? I assume they know. And it makes me think what they actually want is someone who is willing to compromise their beliefs, lie, do anything in order to get their shitty entry-level job. Not a slave, but a person who is willing to become one, which is somehow more sad for me. But there's plenty of larger employers around here, some of whom are multinational, who didn't ask me any of that shit. It seems that it's largely a service sector/retail phenomenon, which also makes me think it might be about having employees who are willing to get shit-talked by idiots all day. I applied for well over a dozen things just to find some extra income anywhere around nearby to supplement my current job, and as the salaries rose and I got away from retail and service, they started making me jump through significantly less hoops until the application process turned into "upload your resume and you're done".

I guess it's a vetting process for compliance, not so much aptitude. On the one hand it must be so that the manager is guaranteed a degree of obedience, i'm assuming that they are assuming the competence of the average person is so low that they have to micro-manage everything.

On the other hand, if you lack even the imagination to lie you are normally the perfect candidate for the most irksome service sector position. You don't need to be a 'creative problem solver', you just need to take abuse and clean up vomit when all's said and done.

[Ro Laren]

Two of my co-workers are in the Nation of Islam. The one is dating a white woman so I don't think he's that serious about it, but its hard to tell how serious the other one is. It came up kind of organically and I was so surprised about it I think I came off way more receptive to it(as receptive as a gay white woman can be?) than I meant to. He told me to read more about Yakub and to google John Hardy Hawkins, and said that he thought we were destined to meet that night. The whole interaction was kind of surreal.

He's a cool guy and I feel like I should probably try and introduce him to Marxism, but at the same time I don't feel confident in my ability to discuss it with him. But honestly I have no fucking clue what I'm going to say to him at all tomorrow, so... :lol:

[motion denied]

I think I might be in a qualitative transition in my politics.

Quantity into quality dialectics OH NOES. Yeah, but I think I am.

[cyu]

I feel like I should probably try and introduce him to Marxism, but at the same time I don't feel confident in my ability to discuss it with him. Not that I actually know you or your friends, but if it were me in a similar imagined situation, I'd read up on the Black Panthers, and try to find points of contact there.

http://www.reddit.com/r/socialism/comments/2gdr3h/the_state_targeted_the_panthers_because_we_were/

[Anglo-Saxon Philistine]

I think I might be in a qualitative transition in my politics.

Quantity into quality dialectics OH NOES. Yeah, but I think I am.

Hail the Red Army in Afghanistan. You know you want to.

[Anglo-Saxon Philistine]

Also, our "civil initiative" (clerical initiative might be a more fitting term) "In the Name of Syphilis and Genital Warts the Family" is trying their luck with a new referendum.

What I would give for a Saint-Just or a Carrier about now...

[TheGodlessUtopian]

I was just asked to speak at this year's upcoming Queer-Trans Youth gathering. Everything is still in the planning stages but they are looking to me to lead or co-lead workshops because of my abilities to articulate words (public speaking). Should be fun.

[Rosa Partizan]

I received this rep comment


Mostly this is because you have Daria as your avatar. I am shallow like that, I judge things on appearance.

and it really made my day, cause I'm very shallow, too :wub:

[slum]

one of my co-workers is actually probably a guy who posts on reddit

all he talks about are "internet memes" and today he insisted on showing me an anti-feminist internet meme that he thought was very funny hahah he is very proud of how much time he spends on the internet and how much he understands ~internet culture

i don't like it when i am reminded that these basement-dwellers don't just stay in their basements. i mean have some fucking dignity at least pretend during your day job that you aren't a sad sack of shit and a horrible excuse for a human being

[Rugged Collectivist]

Haha! Who needs sleep before a job interview?

[consuming negativity]

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/robert-lanza/science-spirituality-what_b_624292.html

this shit is interesting and it's four years old

i typed up like three paragraphs of ramblings about useless theories based on it, so i figure someone else might enjoy wasting time at work with it too

[Anglo-Saxon Philistine]

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/robert-lanza/science-spirituality-what_b_624292.html

this shit is interesting and it's four years old

i typed up like three paragraphs of ramblings about useless theories based on it, so i figure someone else might enjoy wasting time at work with it too

It doesn't really work that way, though. "Observation" in physics is shorthand for any interaction by the experimental apparatus and the system being measured. Most "observations" amount to electrical signals from scintillators, tracks in a bubble chamber, things like that. It's stupid shorthand, but there you have it, we physicists like our jargon ridiculous. Human observation plays no role in physics.

[consuming negativity]

It doesn't really work that way, though. "Observation" in physics is shorthand for any interaction by the experimental apparatus and the system being measured. Most "observations" amount to electrical signals from scintillators, tracks in a bubble chamber, things like that. It's stupid shorthand, but there you have it, we physicists like our jargon ridiculous. Human observation plays no role in physics.

Well yeah, I know that much. It's just an interesting article I found while looking for something only tangentially related to it; I'm trying to find out what we have so far on trying to explain what the purpose of the system is that we're a part of. That sounds like physics territory if you ask me. Have any theories, information, books, whatever that you could share to give me some ideas to work with? There's not a lot of point in doing all of the thinking myself when there's gotta be stuff already out there done by the professionals that I can read over and learn from.

e: To clarify, by purpose, I don't mean as a designed purpose (necessarily) but as a sort of "okay, we can see the the train is moving, but where is it going?" sort of thing. What would happen if life were to continue progressing over [really big number] of years? I'm sort of starting from Camus' philosophy about whether or not to commit suicide being the most important choice we make. And I'm trying to figure out what the point of reproduction would be. Yes, we reproduce, yes, we evolve, and yes, there are laws and blah blah blah, but what does all of that mean? I'm sure there's something out there that's exactly what I'm looking for but I can't find it.

[Anglo-Saxon Philistine]

Well yeah, I know that much. It's just an interesting article I found while looking for something only tangentially related to it; I'm trying to find out what we have so far on trying to explain what the purpose of the system is that we're a part of. That sounds like physics territory if you ask me. Have any theories, information, books, whatever that you could share to give me some ideas to work with? There's not a lot of point in doing all of the thinking myself when there's gotta be stuff already out there done by the professionals that I can read over and learn from.

e: To clarify, by purpose, I don't mean as a designed purpose (necessarily) but as a sort of "okay, we can see the the train is moving, but where is it going?" sort of thing. What would happen if life were to continue progressing over [really big number] of years? I'm sort of starting from Camus' philosophy about whether or not to commit suicide being the most important choice we make. And I'm trying to figure out what the point of reproduction would be. Yes, we reproduce, yes, we evolve, and yes, there are laws and blah blah blah, but what does all of that mean? I'm sure there's something out there that's exactly what I'm looking for but I can't find it.

I'm not sure I can help you with that, to be honest. To me, asking about "the point" or "the purpose" of things like life, reproduction and so on is missing the point. What is the "purpose" of a mountain range, for example? I don't think there is one. It just exists. Likewise life. We can speculate about how life would be in a million years, but that doesn't mean that life has some sort of purpose - in any case, that would be outside the purview of physics, no? I'm still not quite sure what you're asking about, though.

[consuming negativity]

I'm not sure I can help you with that, to be honest. To me, asking about "the point" or "the purpose" of things like life, reproduction and so on is missing the point. What is the "purpose" of a mountain range, for example? I don't think there is one. It just exists. Likewise life. We can speculate about how life would be in a million years, but that doesn't mean that life has some sort of purpose - in any case, that would be outside the purview of physics, no? I'm still not quite sure what you're asking about, though.

I mis-communicated when I said I was interested in a "purpose" because I used a pretty charged word in an alternative meaning. But I'm not sure if there is a word for what it is I'm trying to find out. End goal? But it isn't like a goal, like I would set a goal to help you figure out what the hell I'm talking about. Because it doesn't have to be intentional, even though it could be. I don't think we can know for sure until we figure out what the goal is. For example, if we look at a train, we can see that it is designed to do certain things. Right? But that only matters insofar as we can then look and figure out where the train is going. So, applying the same logic to life, we reproduce, to live, to reproduce. Which is fine. That's what works and it eventually lead to us. But what happens next? What is the result of the system that is the universe running over a long enough time scale? Has anyone ever tried to run a universal simulation? Maybe I'm just in the realm of science fiction at this point. I don't really know. The whole point of getting into all of this was to solve a completely different and much more mundane question but I can't even remember it anymore because I got lost in my own head again.

[Anglo-Saxon Philistine]

I mis-communicated when I said I was interested in a "purpose" because I used a pretty charged word in an alternative meaning. But I'm not sure if there is a word for what it is I'm trying to find out. End goal? But it isn't like a goal, like I would set a goal to help you figure out what the hell I'm talking about. Because it doesn't have to be intentional, even though it could be. I don't think we can know for sure until we figure out what the goal is. For example, if we look at a train, we can see that it is designed to do certain things. Right? But that only matters insofar as we can then look and figure out where the train is going. So, applying the same logic to life, we reproduce, to live, to reproduce. Which is fine. That's what works and it eventually lead to us. But what happens next? What is the result of the system that is the universe running over a long enough time scale? Has anyone ever tried to run a universal simulation? Maybe I'm just in the realm of science fiction at this point. I don't really know. The whole point of getting into all of this was to solve a completely different and much more mundane question but I can't even remember it anymore because I got lost in my own head again.

I mean, we can speculate, but at this point we aren't sure if life on Earth will survive the Sun becoming a red giant (in fact it might become extinct well before that). As for long-term cosmological projections, that depends on quite a few variables - the precise geometry of the universe, models of "dark energy" (another pretty stupid term) and so on. There are a lot of options. And obviously, a lot of the history of intelligent life will be dictated by technology, but we can't really predict technological development. It stands to reason, for example, that we will probably have more efficient batteries. But will we be able to solve the problems of stickiness and viscosity that arise on the nanoscale and have the sort of nano-fabrication often envisioned in SF? Who knows.

I also think it's wrong to say we live "to" reproduce and vice versa. It makes a biological fact - a lot of animals do reproduce and those that reproduce effectively "prosper" in a sense (until their habitat changes and they all die off) - into a normative something.

[Ethics Gradient, Traitor For All Ages]

one of my co-workers is actually probably a guy who posts on reddit

all he talks about are "internet memes" and today he insisted on showing me an anti-feminist internet meme that he thought was very funny hahah he is very proud of how much time he spends on the internet and how much he understands ~internet culture

i don't like it when i am reminded that these basement-dwellers don't just stay in their basements. i mean have some fucking dignity at least pretend during your day job that you aren't a sad sack of shit and a horrible excuse for a human being

I was working at a client site once and they happened to have another IT consultant around for a different project. He kept asking if I knew anything about wow and I didnt want to be rude so I was like yeah I know a little about it. Well apparently this was code that I actually played the game but was too embarrassed to admit it or something because he spend the rest of the day taking about it and making jokes that I can only assume must have pertained to the game.

It was really fucking embarrassing because it kept interrupting the work I was doing and I could tell the staff members were just thinking the worst things about these two nerds that were so obsessed with a videogame that it even dominated their professional lives. I just wanted to scream at the dude, like fucking shit man keep it to yourself.

[consuming negativity]

I mean, we can speculate, but at this point we aren't sure if life on Earth will survive the Sun becoming a red giant (in fact it might become extinct well before that). As for long-term cosmological projections, that depends on quite a few variables - the precise geometry of the universe, models of "dark energy" (another pretty stupid term) and so on. There are a lot of options. And obviously, a lot of the history of intelligent life will be dictated by technology, but we can't really predict technological development. It stands to reason, for example, that we will probably have more efficient batteries. But will we be able to solve the problems of stickiness and viscosity that arise on the nanoscale and have the sort of nano-fabrication often envisioned in SF? Who knows.

I also think it's wrong to say we live "to" reproduce and vice versa. It makes a biological fact - a lot of animals do reproduce and those that reproduce effectively "prosper" in a sense (until their habitat changes and they all die off) - into a normative something.

I think you might have just answered my question. We don't know now, but in the future, we could know, if we develop our own intelligence and awareness enough to be able to do it or at least find out whether or not we can do it. So we should try to figure shit out. That's what we should do. Exactly what we've been doing... trying to become more aware and to accumulate information to be analyzed and applied.

Thanks for the help, 870. Hope you have a great morning. :lol:

[consuming negativity]

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[Rosa Partizan]

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oh but I do mind :o

[Rosa Partizan]

I'm bored by "anything goes-fuckyeahporn-empowering-random-blogger-beyoncefangirl"-feminism 2014. I'm tired of all these tumblrs with BDSMish pictures on them, showing gagged and beaten women, uploaded by other women calling themselves "modern, sex-positive feminists". I'm bored by the fact that everything is tried to be legitimized and explained from a feminist point of view, when I really can't get my head around why this could be feminist. I don't wanna hear about "feminist porn" anymore. I hate that you have to find everything cool. I'm bored by the massive use of "empowering", especially in combination with naked women, presenting themselves sexually available, calling it "owning their sexuality". I sound like a 70 year old grandma shaking her head about youth nowadays. If this is feminism, I'm gonna revoke my membership.

[Lily Briscoe]

I sound like a 70 year old grandma shaking her head about youth nowadays.

Kinda. :p

It could just be spending too much time on tumblr, though... That shit's not real life

[Rosa Partizan]

Kinda. :p

It could just be spending too much time on tumblr, though... That shit's not real life

I try to avoid it, but I got some friends sending me this shit almost every day, because raging in company is so much better :laugh: no you're actually right, I don't meet that type of feminist at ladyfests, or maybe this is rather an American phenomenon, not sure about it.

[Rosa Partizan]

I never showed any type of self-harming behavior, be it cutting or substance abuse (except for eating a lot when stressed out, if that counts), but I got this really super annoying habit of biting overlaying skin (you know, these small shreds of skin) from around my thumbs. It's only the thumbs, but this time (yesterday), I bit off too much and got a rather big open wound there and it's still showing and I really gotta stop doing it.

[Ethics Gradient, Traitor For All Ages]

I chewed all of my fingers like that from about the age of 8 until I finally forced myself to quit around the age of 25. Definitely sucks, I'm not sure what it was in response to but by the end it was just a really irritating and kind of embarrassing habit. I was afraid the skin wouldn't ever look normal but after a few months it all grew back and looks like anyone else's.

[Anglo-Saxon Philistine]

I still do that, heh. Add to that my habit of jotting down notes with the world's leakiest pen, and my fingers must look interesting. In fact I've just noticed the only finger I don't chew is the middle one on the left hand. That's... slightly perverse actually.

[Rosa Partizan]

I still do that, heh. Add to that my habit of jotting down notes with the world's leakiest pen, and my fingers must look interesting. In fact I've just noticed the only finger I don't chew is the middle one on the left hand. That's... slightly perverse actually.

Please elaborate on that, I'm too innocent to understand. :blushing:

[Anglo-Saxon Philistine]

Please elaborate on that, I'm too innocent to understand. :blushing:

That's the finger what you use to pleasure your lady-friend and that you don't want covered with cuts and rough skin, basically.

[Rosa Partizan]

That's the finger what you use to pleasure your lady-friend and that you don't want covered with cuts and rough skin, basically.

I really love how you answered this in a serious manner :laugh: so you're currently not on the guy thing? Sorry for my curiousity, but you know how us Yugos are :rolleyes:

[Art Vandelay]

I bite my fingers till they bleed alot of the time. Its a terrible habit, not sure if its considered self harming or anything (I hope not cause I thought that it had been over a year since I'd done anything like that), I kinda always thought it was more of an ocd thing. Generally I bite at my cuticles, my knuckles, or the calluses on my left hand, which is pretty dumb cause then when I go to play guitar, my fingers hurt. Surprised to hear other people do that actually, I thought I was the only one.

[Anglo-Saxon Philistine]

I really love how you answered this in a serious manner :laugh: so you're currently not on the guy thing? Sorry for my curiousity, but you know how us Yugos are :rolleyes:

No, my current partner is, as far as I can tell, a woman (although I do get a lot of comments about being the woman in the relationship, which I find weirdly flattering).

Also, yeah, I thought I was the only one as well. Finger-biters of the world unite! You have nothing to lose except, er, well your skin I guess.

[Brandon's Impotent Rage]

You know, I've been a gamer for over 20 years. In that time I've seen women in games go from being either pure eye candy (name random fighting game here), or being a hidden novelty ("Samus is a GIRL?! Holy shit!"), to being either main characters or important side characters with their own personalities, goals, and interests.

Games have come far, but so many women in games are still designed as pure titillation. I should be angry about this....because honestly, as long as women characters in games are treated as stripperific eye candy (like in ever JRPG ever), the whole medium will seem as purely juvenile power fantasies to everyone else, and let's not forget that there's an underlying misogyny to it....that apparently, a woman has to be half-naked before she can be taken seriously by male gamers.

....On the other hand, I really like boobs. And many times, boobs win out.

*sigh* I'll go back to playing the big-boobed ninja ladies now.:glare:

[cyu]

we reproduce, to live, to reproduce. Which is fine. That's what works and it eventually lead to us. But what happens next?

http://hitchhikers.wikia.com/wiki/42

This Answer was first calculated by the supercomputer Deep Thought after seven and a half million years of thought. This shocking answer resulted in the construction of an even larger supercomputer, named Earth, which was tasked with determining what the question was in the first place.

The Earth was destroyed by the Vogons five minutes before its ten-million year program was due to be completed.

http://refspace.com/quotes/The_Hitchhiker's_Guide_to_the_Galaxy/2

one Thursday, nearly two thousand years after one man had been nailed to a tree for saying how great it would be to be nice to people for a change, one girl sitting on her own in a small cafe in Rickmansworth suddenly realized what it was that had been going wrong all this time, and she finally knew how the world could be made a good and happy place. This time it was right, it would work, and no one would have to get nailed to anything.

Sadly, however, before she could get to a phone to tell anyone about it, a terribly stupid catastrophe occurred, and the idea was lost forever.

This is not her story.

[Art Vandelay]

Soo...yeah...I'm fairly certain I've developed a bit of a crush on my friend, who also happens to be another friends girlfriend. Obviously I'm not going to do anything about it, as I won't intrude into their relationship, plus I really doubt she'd feel the same way, but damn this might get awkward for me.

[consuming negativity]

NO WORRIES COMRADES

I HAVE TAKEN ALL OF THE CAFFEINE

I'M GONNA GO FIX THE WORLD, DO ALL THE WORK, AND STILL HAVE TIME LEFT TO PET THIS DOG SITTING NEXT TO ME

BRB

shit i feel sick to my stomach

[Ceallach_the_Witch]

You know, I've been a gamer for over 20 years. In that time I've seen women in games go from being either pure eye candy (name random fighting game here), or being a hidden novelty ("Samus is a GIRL?! Holy shit!"), to being either main characters or important side characters with their own personalities, goals, and interests.

Games have come far, but so many women in games are still designed as pure titillation. I should be angry about this....because honestly, as long as women characters in games are treated as stripperific eye candy (like in ever JRPG ever), the whole medium will seem as purely juvenile power fantasies to everyone else, and let's not forget that there's an underlying misogyny to it....that apparently, a woman has to be half-naked before she can be taken seriously by male gamers.

....On the other hand, I really like boobs. And many times, boobs win out.

*sigh* I'll go back to playing the big-boobed ninja ladies now.:glare:

my younger brother argues that games (generally) have made a mistake by trying to be something other than just entertainment and (not unjustifiably) really despises the movement to make games an art-form. He says games are stupid, juvenile, disposable power fantasies purely for entertainment and never will or should try and transcend that. He plays a lot more games than I do but he takes an incredibly negative and (I guess) reactionary approach to the entire field of video games.

Then again he is the third grouchiest person I know after a depressed Norwegian guy I know online and my mum.

[Os Cangaceiros]

Soo...yeah...I'm fairly certain I've developed a bit of a crush on my friend, who also happens to be another friends girlfriend. Obviously I'm not going to do anything about it, as I won't intrude into their relationship, plus I really doubt she'd feel the same way, but damn this might get awkward for me.

My friend's girlfriend told me that she told him that she liked me once (god what an awkward sentence). That was during their relationship and I just thought, good god, how dumb are you to say something like that to him, why do you feel the need to make things weird.

We've known each other for a really long time and have fucked some of the same people though so I guess it doesn't matter. Life's too goddamn short

There's a girl in a couple of my classes who I've noticed recently. She's pretty cute and she's in my academic program which I think is sexy for some reason, like she's interested in the same intellectual pursuits that I'm in. Plus she doesn't talk in class...and I don't talk in class! We have so much in common.

[consuming negativity]

My friend's girlfriend told me that she told him that she liked me once (god what an awkward sentence). That was during their relationship and I just thought, good god, how dumb are you to say something like that to him, why do you feel the need to make things weird.

We've known each other for a really long time and have fucked some of the same people though so I guess it doesn't matter. Life's too goddamn short

There's a girl in a couple of my classes who I've noticed recently. She's pretty cute and she's in my academic program which I think is sexy for some reason, like she's interested in the same intellectual pursuits that I'm in. Plus she doesn't talk in class...and I don't talk in class! We have so much in common.

Brain chemicals make us do strange things.

*shrug*

Good luck with your pursuit. ;)

[The Intransigent Faction]

I'm disturbingly good at abruptly cutting people out of my life, or handling it when other people abruptly cut me out of their lives. I know people move in and out of our lives and it's something we just have to live with, but it's making me very cynical lately to the point where I wonder if I'm capable of really connecting with anyone.

[Lily Briscoe]

Super glad it's Friday and I have a very weird weekend planned.

Also, somebody at work gave me a bottle of Maker's Mark today for no particular reason. So there's that.

[Rosa Partizan]

that feminist meeting was nice, I learned a lot about Emma Goldman, there was some lecture about her autobiography and it sounded super interesting, I might buy it. There were plenty of guys, too, which I found really cool, but none of them was remotely hot, unfortunately, so I mostly talked to the women. Yeah, I'm shallow like that.

[Redistribute the Rep]

There were plenty of guys, too, which I found really cool, but none of them was remotely hot, unfortunately, so I mostly talked to the women. Yeah, I'm shallow like that.

Reverse sexism!!!!1!11!!

[Rosa Partizan]

Reverse sexism!!!!1!11!!

total misandry, look what feminism is doing to that poor guys!!!!! they can't get laid whenever they want!!!!

[Rugged Collectivist]

my younger brother argues that games (generally) have made a mistake by trying to be something other than just entertainment and (not unjustifiably) really despises the movement to make games an art-form. He says games are stupid, juvenile, disposable power fantasies purely for entertainment and never will or should try and transcend that. He plays a lot more games than I do but he takes an incredibly negative and (I guess) reactionary approach to the entire field of video games.

Then again he is the third grouchiest person I know after a depressed Norwegian guy I know online and my mum.
I don't think this is fair. Games are just a medium. It's like saying books can only be Dostoyevsky or shitty romance novels from Wal-Mart.

[Art Vandelay]

You know for all the shit that vegetarians/vegans get for being in your face about their dietary choices (and some folks are like that and its annoying), I get so many more comments from folks who eat meat. Like I'm just sitting at the bar in this restaurant watching baseball and I get something to eat. This guy beside me leans over and tells me this place has the best ribs and I should of ordered them. I tell him I don't eat meat and he acts like its a personal affront to him and goes into some speel as to how I'm 'one of those people' and goes on about the food chain or something and I'm just sitting there nodding my head, wondering how I got trapped in such an awful conversation. Seriously leave me alone, I get enough of that shit whenever I have supper with my folks.

[Brutus]

Went to fireworks with a group of mates, then me and muh bestie went back to this new friend's house which involved walking through some rough areas. Ended up getting drunk and watching him play guitar. Got back at about 1am.

Work in 3 and a half hours! Hmmm, I love 6 hour shifts on a Saturday... On the plus side I have 2 people coming over tonight to sleep and get shitfaced. Weekend don't start until 6:30pm on a Saturday

[Rosa Partizan]

So I ate appr. 3-4 oz of chocolate in less than 2 min and now I feel a little sick. 10/10 will do again.

[motion denied]

Things Make People Happy is a bot that thanks all Rafiq's posts.

[Anglo-Saxon Philistine]

Things Make People Happy is a bot that thanks all Rafiq's posts.

I swear they thanked one of my posts once. It keeps me up at night worrying about what I did wrong.

[Rosa Partizan]

I swear they thanked one of my posts once. It keeps me up at night worrying about what I did wrong.

Was is that corporate capitalism-thread? that was excellent.

[Comrade Jacob]

"The Earth ain't bad, just the bastards on it" - Nik Fiend (Alien Sex Fiend vocalist)

[human strike]

Right now, everything sounds like dub music.

[Slavic]

Right now, everything sounds like dub music.

Stop living in England then.

[Art Vandelay]

Stop living in England then.

I don't know, england is pretty cool, better than most places in north america I've been.

[Zukunftsmusik]

I bite the skin around my fingertips too. A little while ago it ended in an inflammation :/ It's probably not such a good habit.

[consuming negativity]

Applying for jobs and I get denied on the spot because I didn't pass their personality test.

L

O

L

Update. I ended up contacting one of those old-but-good friends. The kind where you barely ever talk, but when you do, it's sort of like you just pick up where you left off. You know? Well, she seems to be certain that she can get me the kind of job I'm looking for, in the place I want it, and with an option to pursue a better degree with subsidy there. Normally, I would be skeptical, but when she says she knows something, she usually does. She got straight As all through high school and college without even trying, and even offered to help me in her spare time, but I was always too proud of myself to ever accept the help. :rolleyes: It might not happen tomorrow, and I'm gonna keep pulling out the stops and doing what I can regardless, but if this works out the way I want it to, my situation is looking a lot brighter in the near future.

[Brutus]

Does any male here wear women's skinny jeans? Pls advise.

Sleeping next to someone you love (even platonically) does bloody wonders.

[Art Vandelay]

Does any male here wear women's skinny jeans? Pls advise.

I've worn all sorts of womens clothing before. Jeans, shirts, hoodies. A lot of it looks better on me than men's clothing.

[The Intransigent Faction]

Spent a couple of hours compulsively trying to remember some random unimportant stuff (damn OCD). Gonna try to sleep now hoping I'll be too tired to be anxious.

I don't know how I'm gonna move forward in life or be any use without fighting this better somehow.

Yeah I'll regret complaining later but I'm tired so whatever.

[human strike]

Stop living in England then.

I think it has less to do with being in England and more to do with being in the MDMA capital of Europe during a dub festival. Do you ever get so immersed in bass that for hours after even traffic sounds like music?


Does any male here wear women's skinny jeans? Pls advise.

Yeah.

[Brutus]

Yeah.

What inch waste are you? And what size in women's are you?

[Brutus]

I've worn all sorts of womens clothing before. Jeans, shirts, hoodies. A lot of it looks better on me than men's clothing.

Anything would look good on you :wub:

[Zukunftsmusik]

Ugh. Hungover and feel like shit.

[TheGodlessUtopian]

I feel good. Like I was at the beginning of the semester; dedicated, free of profound negativity, and a willingness to maintain. I can look at my things now without feeling a animosity or disdain for the unfinished tasks and intellectual matters. Like that storm cloud has dissipated and I can think clearly. It is a refreshing change of pace. Let's hope it lasts for the immediate future.

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[Quail]

I'm not sure whether it's amazing or depressing that it's possible to get better food out of a bin than I could normally afford to buy.

[TheGodlessUtopian]

I'm not sure whether it's amazing or depressing that it's possible to get better food out of a bin than I could normally afford to buy.

Amazing of course, it is the Free Market in action! Like God it chooses to take strange forms. Sometimes said form is bins. It works in mysterious ways. (Be careful about the trickle down stuff though... you may want to scavenge for an umbrella). The market has spoken! (It's voice was never fully developed)

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[Rosa Partizan]

I'm not sure whether it's amazing or depressing that it's possible to get better food out of a bin than I could normally afford to buy.

It's a shame what supermarkets consider to be garbage, right?
Well, the better for you :)

OT: Went eating veggie burgers with a friend after work. There was this guy sitting some metres away and obviously realizing that I'm a female with boobs, to put it nicely. Then he went away and shortly after that, a woman went by and asked "Have you seen that guy with sunglasses sitting there?" and I was like "yeah why?" and she was like "he'd like to have your phone number" and I was like "uhm no!" and she went away.

What kind of fuckery is this? Gaping at me like a lewd asshole, but not even having the guts to come straight to my table. Goddamn I really hate men. REALLY! Fuck off for good already!

[Lily Briscoe]

There's not enough emoji in off topic. We need more phallic vegetables 🌽🍆

[Anglo-Saxon Philistine]

I haven't been relaxed for... just over a year now, I guess. I've come to look forward to the inevitable breakdown. What worries me is the possibility that I won't break, but keep being stressed out until an ulcer kills me or I space out while crossing the road or something.

Also: Hahahaha, I'm genuinely worried about getting a stress-related ulcer. I've become an old man.

[Art Vandelay]

Today is the 150th anniversary of the founding of the 1st international.

[PC LOAD LETTER]

What inch waste are you? And what size in women's are you?
You weren't talking to me, but when I was in high school I did sometimes. I I wore a 30 or 31 in men's depending on brand, and I think I wore a 5 in women's jeans.

You know for all the shit that vegetarians/vegans get for being in your face about their dietary choices (and some folks are like that and its annoying), I get so many more comments from folks who eat meat. Like I'm just sitting at the bar in this restaurant watching baseball and I get something to eat. This guy beside me leans over and tells me this place has the best ribs and I should of ordered them. I tell him I don't eat meat and he acts like its a personal affront to him and goes into some speel as to how I'm 'one of those people' and goes on about the food chain or something and I'm just sitting there nodding my head, wondering how I got trapped in such an awful conversation. Seriously leave me alone, I get enough of that shit whenever I have supper with my folks.
I get that sometimes when I order vegetarian dishes, especially tofu-based dishes, and I'm not even a vegetarian. Like, "motherfucker, you can be an omnivore and eat tofu too, I'm not making snide comments about your face and your mother but I might now."

[Ceallach_the_Witch]

i've ordered vegetarian main courses and taken people out to meals at vegan restaurants partially out of spite in the past (i'm not a vegetarian or a vegan but my closest friends are and it pisses me off when some of my other friends go through the whole tired rigmarole - we all know what it is.) because some of these people really do take it as a personal affront for some wacky reason.

[human strike]

Am I just an arsehole? It would explain why I seem to always end up hurting those closest to me.

I was gonna post that when I remembered that I'm actually really fucking not and fuck anyone who disagrees.

[cyu]

I'm not sure whether it's amazing or depressing that it's possible to get better food out of a bin than I could normally afford to buy.


Have enough armed leftists with you, and you can take food right off the rich man's plate :lol:

...not to mention the restaurant, the grocer, the supply trucks, the farms, etc etc. That's the fatal weakness for capitalists - if they take that stuff, they'd actually have to do work to extract any value out of it - in effect, turning themselves into the working class :grin:

[DOOM]

I came to the conclusion that work breaks humans.

[Rosa Partizan]

I'd totally prefer dating a bisexual guy, but I just don't know why, and how to find out if it's an "okay" preference or if I'm fetishizing them in some way.

[Art Vandelay]

I can't speak for anyone else, but it certainly wouldn't bother me. I guess it probably depends on why you'd find yourself more attracted to them, cause some people seem to think bisexuals are only there to fufill their fantasy of a threesome, although I suspect that is alot more common among men. A lot of people have assumptions about folks who are bi, that they're promiscuous and more likely to be unfaithful. Which of course is nonsense, so it's nice knowing they're are folks out there who don't have those same inaccurate notions and hangups.

[Quail]

I'd totally prefer dating a bisexual guy, but I just don't know why, and how to find out if it's an "okay" preference or if I'm fetishizing them in some way.

Maybe you like the idea of being able to talk about cute guys with your partner? I'm not sure how dating a bi guy would really be any different from dating a straight guy though.

[Redistribute the Rep]

Now that SI is gone no one thanks my posts

[Lily Briscoe]

I'd totally prefer dating a bisexual guy, but I just don't know why, and how to find out if it's an "okay" preference or if I'm fetishizing them in some way.

Who cares if it's an "okay preference" lol (whatever that even means)? Also I suspect that (out) bisexual men are statistically somewhat less likely to be uptight dickheads who constantly feel the need to prove their masculinity to everyone, so there's that.

[Ethics Gradient, Traitor For All Ages]

I had to work with this really old guy all fucking night yesterday. He's kind of a racist but I still felt bad for him, he is way out of it and probably should have retired but can't afford to. I hope I'm not working in some field that I'm totally unqualified for when I'm that age, it's bad enough getting old without having to feel useless on top of it. Luckily that whole environmental collapse thing will probably take care of that for me.

[human strike]

Like four or five months back I was dating this girl and ever since I've periodically had dreams about her, sometimes as often as two nights a week. I spent last night with her. Needless to say, it was somewhat underwhelming. The dreams didn't stop even though she was lying right next to me (or maybe because she was). I think I prefer the dream her to the real her. Hopefully I can forget about her now, though I can tell some stupid part of me doesn't want to.

I got the results from my blood test today. The hypochondriac in me was pleased when they told me I have Gilbert's Syndrome, but ultimately disappointed when they told me it's harmless.


I'd totally prefer dating a bisexual guy, but I just don't know why, and how to find out if it's an "okay" preference or if I'm fetishizing them in some way.

I'd say it's fine.

[#FF0000]

Not sure how to tell someone I'm not interested in a relationship without hurting their feelings or how to tell them that I still think they're cool n cute without sounding insincere as if I'm only trying to let them down easy.

[consuming negativity]

Not sure how to tell someone I'm not interested in a relationship without hurting their feelings or how to tell them that I still think they're cool n cute without sounding insincere as if I'm only trying to let them down easy.

Do it with proletarian realness. Be as honest as you can and hope for the best.

[Os Cangaceiros]

Sleeping next to someone you love (even platonically) does bloody wonders.

I hate sleeping next to people, because I move around constantly in my sleep and I hate it when there's someone blocking my restlessness. Plus I'm making it so that person also can't sleep...the only way I can get to sleep in such situations is if I'm physically exhausted or drunk.

Sleep has always been somewhat difficult for me though.

Anyway, I think I'm going to stop doing psychedelics for a while.

[Ethics Gradient, Traitor For All Ages]

Actually what's really on my mind is I want to get to 1200 posts but none of the threads in the last couple weeks have been interesting enough for me to participate in for more than one or two posts, or they are interesting but they're filled with folks i don't want to talk to. Like what the fuck people, why are my needs not being taken into consideration. Also no one will confirm my theories about the hidden world of 40k erotica, which is bumming me out. This lack of solidarity is probably the reason for the failures of radical politics in general, not to mention

[consuming negativity]

Actually what's really on my mind is I want to get to 1200 posts but none of the threads in the last couple weeks have been interesting enough for me to participate in for more than one or two posts, or they are interesting but they're filled with folks i don't want to talk to. Like what the fuck people, why are my needs not being taken into consideration. Also no one will confirm my theories about the hidden world of 40k erotica, which is bumming me out. This lack of solidarity is probably the reason for the failures of radical politics in general, not to mention

What are your interests? I have some time to kill. I will make an interesting thread for you so long as I am not one of the people you don't want to talk to.

[#FF0000]

Do it with proletarian realness. Be as honest as you can and hope for the best.

yeah i'm probably worrying a little too much seeing as I don't think this person is necessarily looking for a relationship anyway -- they've just been uh a weird mix of very forward and very eager to talk to me since the last time I saw them.

[Ceallach_the_Witch]

Now that SI is gone no one thanks my posts

my 4:1 rep-to-posts ratio will be ruined! RUINED :crying:

[Ethics Gradient, Traitor For All Ages]

What are your interests? I have some time to kill. I will make an interesting thread for you so long as I am not one of the people you don't want to talk to.

More than anything it would be cool if there were more participation in general from the user base, but since almost everyone here is such a dick to new people, or people in general I understand why most of them just lurk. I feel like it's almost entirely 870 posting at this point. Which isn't to say I dislike 870, he's just irritating to talk to more than once a week. He's like a contrarian chatbot.

[Anglo-Saxon Philistine]

More than anything it would be cool if there were more participation in general from the user base, but since almost everyone here is such a dick to new people, or people in general I understand why most of them just lurk. I feel like it's almost entirely 870 posting at this point. Which isn't to say I dislike 870, he's just irritating to talk to more than once a week. He's like a contrarian chatbot.

I basically post two or three posts a day in "serious" threads. Also, just don't search for Dark Eldar porn. There are things human minds were not meant to be exposed to.

[consuming negativity]

yeah i'm probably worrying a little too much seeing as I don't think this person is necessarily looking for a relationship anyway -- they've just been uh a weird mix of very forward and very eager to talk to me since the last time I saw them.

Possible. You seem like a real thoughtful type of person. And they may have just been happy or in a good mood, or they might just be comfortable with you and think you both know that it's not like that. Could be anything, and you've gotta make sure, and you know that. But they probably noticed that you're a little off-put by their behavior, even if you tried to hide it. If they tone it back a bit next time you talk, they're trying to show you that it's all good and that you're on the same page. If not, and they keep giving you the signals, you'll be sure enough then to have the frank talk with them. And if they take it hard, what can you do except apologize? But you already knew all of that. I just think it's easier to not be worried when you already know all in your head what's going to happen.


my 4:1 rep-to-posts ratio will be ruined! RUINED :crying:

Not if I have anything to say about it!

[Atsumari]

I'd totally prefer dating a bisexual guy, but I just don't know why, and how to find out if it's an "okay" preference or if I'm fetishizing them in some way.
I only met very few girls with this problem, but in one exceptional scenario, I had a friend who wanted her boyfriend to fuck me to fulfill her boy's love fantasy but other than that, there seems to be no history of bisexual guys being fetishized the same way bisexual girls have.

[The Intransigent Faction]

One of the mayoral candidates here (whose winning would be unlikely) has a job creation plan that mainly involves supporting worker cooperatives.

I have no illusions about voting for him or about cooperatives in a capitalist society, but damn, that sounds better than "offering financial incentives for businesses to create/keep jobs in this city". If worker cooperatives as a possibility can get mainstream exposure, I can see a fair case that this might not be a bad thing.

[cyu]

they've just been uh a weird mix of very forward and very eager to talk to me since the last time I saw them.

Think of other people from among your friends that are almost as good as you - none are quite as good of course ;) - and introduce them to each other. If it doesn't work out, at least you tried. If they hit it off, both will be eternally grateful :lol:

[#FF0000]

Think of other people from among your friends that are almost as good as you - none are quite as good of course ;) - and introduce them to each other. If it doesn't work out, at least you tried. If they hit it off, both will be eternally grateful :lol:

Oh I don't see that happening. They've been immersed in the social circle I run with out here these past few weeks and they've been encouraging this.

Either way it isn't a big deal. All I can do is be honest. I'm just worried about hurt feelings.

[consuming negativity]

I am so much the stereotypical absent-minded professor that it sort of hurts to think about. To give you an idea, after I realized this, I spent over half an hour with this thread open getting distracted on the internet before I posted. Seriously. I opened this page at 7:55 my time (the time is at the bottom of the page) and it is now 8:34. LOL. My mom always used to tell me I'd forget my head if it wasn't stuck to my body, but I always just sort of assumed she was a jerk. I never even stopped to consider that maybe she was just fucking right and saw the obvious behavior pattern that I never did. And now I want to tell her that I see it, but how do you even have that conversation?

[PC LOAD LETTER]

I am so much the stereotypical absent-minded professor that it sort of hurts to think about. To give you an idea, after I realized this, I spent over half an hour with this thread open getting distracted on the internet before I posted. Seriously. I opened this page at 7:55 my time (the time is at the bottom of the page) and it is now 8:34. LOL. My mom always used to tell me I'd forget my head if it wasn't stuck to my body, but I always just sort of assumed she was a jerk. I never even stopped to consider that maybe she was just fucking right and saw the obvious behavior pattern that I never did. And now I want to tell her that I see it, but how do you even have that conversation?
"Yo dogg I mean mom, you were right, I'm kind of an airhead"

[#FF0000]

"Yo dogg I mean mom"

every time i call my parents

[Ceallach_the_Witch]

I am so much the stereotypical absent-minded professor that it sort of hurts to think about. To give you an idea, after I realized this, I spent over half an hour with this thread open getting distracted on the internet before I posted. Seriously. I opened this page at 7:55 my time (the time is at the bottom of the page) and it is now 8:34. LOL. My mom always used to tell me I'd forget my head if it wasn't stuck to my body, but I always just sort of assumed she was a jerk. I never even stopped to consider that maybe she was just fucking right and saw the obvious behavior pattern that I never did. And now I want to tell her that I see it, but how do you even have that conversation?

i forget my glasses all the time.

my eyesight is so poor that i only take them off to sleep. You are not alone.

[PC LOAD LETTER]

I'm still trying to figure out what in the holy fuck ckaihatsu is on about in his pictures

[Ethics Gradient, Traitor For All Ages]

I know, every once in a while someone will pretend to understand one of his infographics and ill be like, wait a minute what am i missing here.

[consuming negativity]

They're just visualizations of the relations between different concepts. Luckily, he posts them everywhere, so it took me all of two seconds to grab these:

http://s6.postimg.org/6omx9zh81/3_Ideologies_Operations_Fundamentals.jpg

^ This one is just a big flow-chart of specific political tendencies and how they relate to each other both on a left-right spectrum and in relation to overarching ideological themes.

http://s6.postimg.org/nmlxvtqlt/1_History_Macro_Micro_Precision.jpg

^ And this one is just showing how groups get bigger as they go up. At the bottom is geography, followed by people, all the way up to the top wherein we are all united by the class struggle. I mean, I'd probably call it something like "society" or "the species", but whatever. It illustrates what I was trying to talk about in my one thread earlier about how changing things at the micro level can impact the overarching superstructure, and so I still think it's pretty neat.

http://s6.postimg.org/rtrvqqoz5/2714844340046342459_Quxppf_fs.jpg

^ This one took me a minute at first, but he's saying that characterization and generalization are two parts of the same process of trying to describe something. Characterization attempts to be more specific about a specific thing, whereas generalization is an attempt to stick things into groups and relate them to other concepts. Knowing that, it's easy to figure out the rest; although "ideal type" would be a way better term to use than "archetype".

[Redistribute the Rep]

I feel like my real life name doesn't fit me at all

[Futility Personified]

I quit my job. Gonna spend a few days with friends in Hampshire and hopefully see AJJ twice. I felt a bit melancholy leaving, aside from the bigotry they were nice people bar 1. Got me thinking about the nature of propaganda and such, Communer's post about fear resonated pretty strongly with how they seemed to think about the out-groups that they'd been convinced represented a threat to them.

That said, I did not like the work. At all. But then again, most work is distinctly unappealing. That cartoon about talking about trading labour power in a job interview springs to mind. Only thing for me to do is to start looking at teaching english abroad til I can reapply to do an NVQ or something at uni with my last 2 years of student loan.

[Trap Queen Voxxy]

http://wac.450f.edgecastcdn.net/80450F/thefw.com/files/2012/09/honey-foucault.gif

[Rosa Partizan]

I've had an awesome afternoon with some of my ladyfriends. We went to some kind of bazaar, I bought a super kitschy panda vanity case, omg :o and then we chilled out in the meadow, drinking lemonade and beer and there was this band jamming and they had a fabulous singer and it was some late summer feeling, so wunderful :wub:

right now I'm considering going to a pub with my bff. Some guy I was chatting yesterday with on tinder is bartending there and invited me to have a drink there. But he's French!! It's wrong to be French!! (his German was really good, wow, after only 2 years)

[cyu]

Only thing for me to do is to start looking at teaching english abroad Seems like a sweet gig if you're unattached and can get it. My brother did that after leaving the Peace Corps - I've met others that seem almost to make being an ex-pat a way of life. Seems a bit escapist to me, but probably worthwhile if there's a lot of stuff worth escaping.

[Sewer Socialist]

Depression. Should I go see a therapist? They'll probably be hella bouzhie, and I'll probably hate them.

Shitty relationships.

Other people's jealousy. Why do I so rarely feel it?

It seems like all my friends hate each other, and I'm stuck in the middle.

Just typing this out feels a little better.

[consuming negativity]

I've found the greatest, most genuine man in the world. He lives in Turkey and one day I will visit him and his boyfriend and we will drink lots of alcohol together.

[motion denied]

communer you should bring your avatar back, that koala

[consuming negativity]

communer you should bring your avatar back, that koala

Ask and ye shall receive!

But it's a raccoon. :laugh:

Cute little fucker isn't s/he? I don't really remember why I ever got rid of it in the first place.

[motion denied]

Cutest animal ever.

[Zoroaster]

So yesterday, I was in the downtown area eating chili and chatting with an old friend, when I noticed one grey-haired, older fella shaking hands with a bunch of people. I can sort of recognize him, but not really. So I get up from my seat, walk over to him, and say "I appologize, but your name escapes me." He says, "It's alright. I'm Scott Brown, pleasure to meet you".

Scott Brown, as in, that Scott Brown. The conservative running for New Hampshire Senate. The guy who was born in Rhode Island but keeps saying that he was born in New Hampshire, the state that I currently reside in. The guy who always refers to himself as a "Reagan Republican".

Great.

At first, I thought I was going to start a debate or something silly like that. Luckily, I was able to keep my cool (I didn't want to attract attention, since I was unprepared), so instead, he noticed my school band jacket and talked about music. It was actually kind of nice.

So yeah, that was wierd.

[Anglo-Saxon Philistine]

A, let's say friend, is becoming very creepily obsessed with her new cat. She insists on showing it to me on Skype (yeah, it's a cat, it's got four legs, a tail and can be put in a box and maybe killed if a beta-unstable nucleus decays, what's your point?), constantly asks me to come to her place (which looks like someone took a hikikomori's room and then shelled it) and play with the cat "for an hour or two" and refuses to talk to me when I suggest I don't even know how to play with a cat (never had one, no one I knew had one either).

[Rosa Partizan]

you're not enthusiastic about cats?

I'll never read your posts on revleft again.

[PC LOAD LETTER]

A, let's say friend, is becoming very creepily obsessed with her new cat. She insists on showing it to me on Skype (yeah, it's a cat, it's got four legs, a tail and can be put in a box and maybe killed if a beta-unstable nucleus decays, what's your point?), constantly asks me to come to her place (which looks like someone took a hikikomori's room and then shelled it) and play with the cat "for an hour or two" and refuses to talk to me when I suggest I don't even know how to play with a cat (never had one, no one I knew had one either).
I lol'ed at this, damn, thats some serious imagery.

But yeah, I had a cat growing up. They're cool. I like all animals, but I consider myself a dog person because I don't think a cat would enjoy wrestling in dirt and I've spent wayyyy more time with dogs than any other animal. Cats like to chase things, like they're hunting shit. Fuzzy things, maybe drag a toy on a string around. It's kinda neat to watch them hunt it.

[Crabbensmasher]

I think I'm writing an essay that touches on mental health in radical communities (or even just left-wing political currents in general) as opposed to traditional conservatives. I'm basically looking at how lefties may have issues related to feelings of dependence, specifically lack of self confidence or anxiety. My thesis kind of stresses that its part of our worldview. Whereas conservatives put a high value in free will (ie. you can do whatever you want, american dream, land of opportunity, free markets, capitalism, home ownership - all valued). Lefties, however feel that we are constrained by the system. (ie. chances are poor people don't get a chance to rise up from their background, criminals shaped by their environment they grew up in, etc). basically, this idealization of human freedom that conservatives espouse is a bit of bullshit.

Anyway, couple that with an ideology thats totally marginal, not taken seriously, and viewed as a threat in one's own society and it creates problems - specifically low self esteem, feelings of being unable to exert change in the community and your own life, dependence, some forms of anxiety, etc.

So what do you guys think? I know I'm treading old ground here, but does it make sense? And if so, do you have any links you can give me to studies that prove it?

[consuming negativity]

It's getting colder and colder this week, and we won't have any heat here until at least the end of the month. I hope things warm up soon, but in the meantime, feel free to send fire, hugs, and/or adorable small animals my way. Dogs, cats, raccoons, koalas... I don't discriminate as long as they won't try to eat me. :rolleyes:

[Rosa Partizan]

Will stop posting personal stuff on revleft, am tired of PMs telling me what I am like and what I'm not and why I come here and just strangers acting as if they know me better than I know myself. Stop it, you have no fucking clue, living 4000 miles away.

[PC LOAD LETTER]

Will stop posting personal stuff on revleft, am tired of PMs telling me what I am like and what I'm not and why I come here and just strangers acting as if they know me better than I know myself. Stop it, you have no fucking clue, living 4000 miles away.
creepers abound? you can go into user cp > edit options and only allow PMs from people you've added as 'friends'/'contacts'

[Anglo-Saxon Philistine]

I lol'ed at this, damn, thats some serious imagery.

But yeah, I had a cat growing up. They're cool. I like all animals, but I consider myself a dog person because I don't think a cat would enjoy wrestling in dirt and I've spent wayyyy more time with dogs than any other animal. Cats like to chase things, like they're hunting shit. Fuzzy things, maybe drag a toy on a string around. It's kinda neat to watch them hunt it.

Yeah, it's not that I dislike cats, but she's being so creepily intense about it my brain is screaming at me to run away before she takes my eyes out with an ice-cream scoop because I wasn't enthusiastic enough about the damn cat.

Maybe there is no cat. I'd walk into the apartment and it'd just be her with a balaclava and a hatchet.

[human strike]

A, let's say friend, is becoming very creepily obsessed with her new cat. She insists on showing it to me on Skype (yeah, it's a cat, it's got four legs, a tail and can be put in a box and maybe killed if a beta-unstable nucleus decays, what's your point?), constantly asks me to come to her place (which looks like someone took a hikikomori's room and then shelled it) and play with the cat "for an hour or two" and refuses to talk to me when I suggest I don't even know how to play with a cat (never had one, no one I knew had one either).

Are you sure the cat isn't just an excuse to see you or something? I find it unlikely that anyone could be quite that enthusiastic about getting someone to play with a cat.

[Ceallach_the_Witch]

people always assume i like cats but i really, honestly detest being around animals.

[human strike]

This new job offers so many great opportunities, but frankly it might be too many. One of the bosses was just like there's this art project I think you should do cuz you're so talented or whatever but you've only got two weeks and you better deliver cuz they're giving us/you money and if you don't it'll be on all our heads. And I'm like, I'm not sure I'd need to think about that. And she's like of course think about it but you'll do it, right?

AAAAAARGRH FUCK OFF!!!! I've been doing so well at pretending to work, but this woman is determined to make me do loads of shit that I don't really know how to do. I don't care if you'll give me £400, I don't need more money, I'm happy doing 30 hours a week on minimum wage - I'd even work fewer hours! So you like my photography, thanks, that's nice, but I do it because it's fun! And I don't know how to make fucking arty films!

Ok, maybe it'll be a great opportunity and will look good in my "portfolio" or whatever and I'll get lots of support and money and maybe it'll even be fun... Maybe, whatever...

Or maybe there's still a way I can get out of this if I want.