What's On Your Mind XI - A whole football team of thoughts and feelings

[RedAnarchist]

Continued from here - http://www.revleft.com/vb/whats-your-mind-t188334/index31.html

[#FF0000]

Jurassic Park on SNES/Game Boy was a cultural touchstone get out of my face

[Ele'ill]

No they really are making the next jurassic park movie it is called jurassic world

[Sinister Intents]

Jurassic park was cool. What's the Best thing to do for torn muscles?

[#FF0000]

No they really are making the next jurassic park movie it is called jurassic world

Oh wait yeah I heard about that. it is probably going to be bad. :mellow:


Jurassic park was cool. What's the Best thing to do for torn muscles?

Should probably go to a doctor actually.

[motion denied]

Beloved neighbour listening to loud music

Dude has a good taste ;)

[Anglo-Saxon Philistine]

Gotta love our translators. There's a paragraph in "The Revolution Betrayed" where Trotsky says something to the effect that the leaden arse of the bureaucracy outweighed the head of the revolution. Now, that's a very clear and, I would say, powerful metaphor, particularly for us gentlemen and gentleladies of a higher calibre who have experienced the peculiar phenomenon, usually after a heavy meal, where our head wants to get up but our arse is just too heavy.

And how did our translator translate that?

"The iron back of the train of bureaucracy... weighed more than the forehead of the revolution."

That's the description of a horrifying railway incident. It's like they were using Google Translate in the seventies.

Also help me I'm being held in political slavery by the evil Spartacists and I have to do political duties for once in my life.

[exeexe]

I just wanted to take a minute to throw out mad love for everyone here on the site (special tanks goes out to SI dat lolcat). You guys are really great, and frankly it's the first time I've fit in at least partially somewhere. The acceptance here is off the chizzane. I argue a lot, but at least people here make sense. Imagine. Before RevLeft, my whole existence was basically trolling right-wing sites. Now that is just sad. :laugh:

You have done a heroic battle of words against the selfdecieved liers of our society. Maybe now it is time to recuperate the wounds and eat ice cream?

[Sinister Intents]

Oh wait yeah I heard about that. it is probably going to be bad. :mellow:



Should probably go to a doctor actually.

........ Expensive and no insurance :( I don't qualify for insurance

[Loony Le Fist]

You have done a heroic battle of words against the selfdecieved liers of our society. Maybe now it is time to recuperate the wounds and eat ice cream?

Shit dude. I don't even feel the wounds anymore. At some point you get hit so much it doesn't even hurt. :laugh:

[#FF0000]

........ Expensive and no insurance :( I don't qualify for insurance

welp, unless the pain is hella severe or you can't walk or something, just rest it, use ice and compression, and try to elevate it.

[Redistribute the Rep]

When someone tells me to do something it just makes me not want to do it. It's really annoying when I wanted to do it though because then I can't

[Sinister Intents]

Hard ciders are really fucking good

[Redistribute the Rep]

I have a theory that Rosa Partizan's a hacker because there's no way she has that much rep given her post count (not that you're not awesome, Rosa)

[Sinister Intents]

Aliens and alien abduction scares the living shit out of me :crying:

[consuming negativity]

I have a theory that Rosa Partizan's a hacker because there's no way she has that much rep given her post count (not that you're not awesome, Rosa)

Posts in these forums don't count towards post count.

[Loony Le Fist]

I have a theory that Rosa Partizan's a hacker because there's no way she has that much rep given her post count (not that you're not awesome, Rosa)

Rosa's just awesome like that. Like you Red. :laugh:

[Loony Le Fist]

Aliens and alien abduction scares the living shit out of me :crying:

It's ok SI, I got your back in case of an alien invasion. :grin: You're my homie.

[consuming negativity]

Earlier today I was thinking about how strange gender is. It's sort of like patriotism but instead of with countries, for genitalia. Most people will just rep whatever they were assigned at birth, but a significant minority of people say "fuck that" and rep a different biological sex's arbitrarily assigned gendered stuff, or are like myself and opt out of the system entirely.

And the thing is, I feel a bit weird even posting this because it sounds sort of offensive from a subjective standpoint; comparing anyone whose gender matches that which they were assigned at birth to a flag-waving nationalist. It isn't like I'm looking down on them or anything but it just seems weird to me. Like I have blue/green eyes but I would never say that I *feel* like a blue/green eyed person. But if someone said "I feel like a wo/man" it doesn't sound weird to us at all, and is actually a pretty catchy tune.

All of the other species get along just fine without it, and it is in the same category for me as stuff like religion where I can't tell if I wish we didn't have it or if it's really neat that we do have it. But I've never really felt like a gendered person either way. Maybe I'm just broken, or something. It's probably all the drugs.

[Redistribute the Rep]

you all can kiss my democratic and free ass!!!!

[Redistribute the Rep]

Oh and can we bring back neg repping but just for the restricted members? :lol:

[Redistribute the Rep]

Aliens and alien abduction scares the living shit out of me :crying:

The idea that aliens are imperialist implies that capitalism is the highest and last stage of development and is therefore inherently reactionary.

[Sabot Cat]

The idea that aliens are imperialist implies that capitalism is the highest and last stage of development and is therefore inherently reactionary.

Why would aliens be at the 'highest and last stage of development'? The concept of linear civilized progress is reactionary.

[Sinister Intents]

The idea that aliens are imperialist implies that capitalism is the highest and last stage of development and is therefore inherently reactionary.


Why would aliens be at the 'highest and last stage of development'? The concept of linear civilized progress is reactionary.

Technically you're both right, but I'm still terrified of it because I've heard and read too many stories :crying:

[Redistribute the Rep]

Why would aliens be at the 'highest and last stage of development'? The concept of linear civilized progress is reactionary.

Eh, maybe highest and last stage was the wrong choice of words. I was just thinking that capitalism is a unique stage in HUMAN history. But to generalize it to include other beings I think would be accepting capitalism as some sort of inevitability or universality, as if that's all that there is.

[Sinister Intents]

Eh, maybe highest and last stage was the wrong choice of words. I was just thinking that capitalism is a unique stage in HUMAN history. But to generalize it to include other beings I think would be accepting capitalism as some sort of inevitability or universality, as if that's all that there is.

I've met so many that do exactly that. So many seem to think capitalism is something universally superior and that anything else is tyranny or inferior. So many don't realize the reality of things. They cannot peer outside of the box they've been brutally shaped to fit into. Their individuality destroyed so that they more easily beckon to the authority of gods and masters.

[Loony Le Fist]

I've met so many that do exactly that. So many seem to think capitalism is something universally superior and that anything else is tyranny or inferior. So many don't realize the reality of things. They cannot peer outside of the box they've been brutally shaped to fit into. Their individuality destroyed so that they more easily beckon to the authority of gods and masters.

So many do not understand that capitalism is simply a more sophisticated form of tyranny. Totally on point.

[Sinister Intents]

So many do not understand that capitalism is simply a more sophisticated form of tyranny. Totally on point.

Yet, when I attempt to explain this people struggle to comprehend that they've been indoctrinated. They're so dogmatic in their beliefs steeped in fallacy upon fallacy. No one wants to face the deadly reality. The reality which will shake them to the core when their beliefs are peeled and split apart. Could not an increase in class consciousness or class hatred come in a tidal wave?

[Loony Le Fist]

Yet, when I attempt to explain this people struggle to comprehend that they've been indoctrinated. They're so dogmatic in their beliefs steeped in fallacy upon fallacy. No one wants to face the deadly reality. The reality which will shake them to the core when their beliefs are peeled and split apart. Could not an increase in class consciousness or class hatred come in a tidal wave?

Maybe I'm just out of my mind, but if it ain't freedom it's fascism. That's just my opinion. I feel you 110%, you know. I want real freedom, just like you are talking about. Fuck all that mediocre shit.

[exeexe]

I remember the days when the government was alright.
As long as it didn't break loose in the dead of night
Those days seems so far away now
Alas its just an outdated lore
Now i feel better than i have ever felt before
The feeling of black
Never gonna go back
:lol:

Edit: i got inspired by loonyleftist to write this

[Crabbensmasher]

I like to think hate is like a sort of ever-present, omnipotent force. It's always there, but people just direct it towards different things at different points in time. Like I said when I was really stoned 'People aren't hating things - they're thinging hate'. When you hate something, you think your hate is special, that it has a meaning, but instead, its just you guiding the direction of this hegeggilian-world spirit-y type historical hate force

It sounds pretty far fetched, but it seems poetic as hell.

Now I wonder, can the same be said about love? Is our love unique? Can we love some specific thing at all? Or is it just an ever-present force, gliding through the annals of history, guided by our ever whim and fancy.

Man, I don't even think I can believe in this stuff, but it just seems like such a cool concept I had to share it

[Loony Le Fist]

I remember the days when the government was alright.
As long as it didn't break loose in the dead of night
Those days seems so far away now
Alas its just an outdated lore
Now i feel better than i have ever felt before
The feeling of black
Never gonna go back
:lol:

Edit: i got inspired by loonyleftist to write this

Damn. I'm seriously flattered. I truly am. :o

Thank you.

[Rosa Partizan]

today I'm gonna visit my parents for 12 days, which basically means that they'll drive me nuts after, like, 2 hours. I love them and stuff, and they love me (unfortunately), but I somehow can't stand spending time with them.

[Loony Le Fist]

today I'm gonna visit my parents for 12 days, which basically means that they'll drive me nuts after, like, 2 hours. I love them and stuff, and they love me (unfortunately), but I somehow can't stand spending time with them.

It sure is nice to have parents that love you. :grin:

You are right, though. Sometimes despite loving relatives (and them loving you in return), they can grate on you after a while.

[#FF0000]

I miss the "how do you imagine people on here" threads but I feel like it's kind of redundant these days :(

[Quail]

I miss the "how do you imagine people on here" threads but I feel like it's kind of redundant these days :(

I may have half of revleft on facebook, but you're one of the few people I can remember the username of. So it wouldn't be totally redundant for me :lol:

[Ro Laren]

My grandfather has a gushing nosebleed and is going to the hospital. I just watched him go by in the ambulance. He takes blood thinners so that's probably why its so severe, but the fact that they called an ambulance for him in the first place scares me. Then again, he's almost 80 and has a pacemaker, so erring on the side of caution is probably a good thing.

I love my grandpa, man.

:unsure:

[human strike]

So I just emailed someone I've been dating for a few months calling things off. I've never broken up with anyone before and pushing anyone away in any capacity goes completely against my nature. I really hope I said the right things (I'd have liked to have talked to them in person, but I rarely get to see them and I figure it'd actually be more respectful to let them know sooner rather than that much later) because I really want to maintain a friendship with them. It's not that there was anything especially wrong with them, I've just fallen in love with someone else, but I know they already have pretty low self-esteem and I'm loathed to do anything to damage that further. :/

[Redistribute the Rep]

Ugh, mood swings

[Loony Le Fist]

Ugh, mood swings

It's a way of life for me. Hence the name. :laugh:

Laughter is the only cure for me. If it wasn't for humor and music, I would go insane--well more so than I am now. That's saying a lot, as you may already know. If I didn't laugh as much as I do, I would be crying constantly. Tears are welling up just thinking about it actually. So fuck that, I'll just laugh.

[Futility Personified]

Been pretty good for the last week or so, been working, keeping busy, sorting stuff out.

For no real reason i've crashed today after riding the mood waves high. I just feel really angry and shitty at anyone and everything for no reason. Also got that weird spacey head feeling where I wonder if its just gonna detach and float away.

[exeexe]

Heinous Bifter sounds like Bipolar

also:
VJ-hu9JfnUM
LOL

[Loony Le Fist]

Out of all the crazy random shit, a turtle crawled up out of the sewer by my house. It was too ironic, so I took it home with me. :laugh: You guys think tomato will be good to feed him with? It's all the veggies I have right now. :(

[Loony Le Fist]

Thank goodness my brother came by. He knows about reptiles way more than me. Turns out it was an aquatic turtle! If I hadn't moved him into water, he would have dehydrated! Poor little guy. My bro saved that day on that one. :laugh:

EDIT: BTW, my brother reminded me that I had seen a rat in the garage earlier on. Too funny. Life sure does throw remarkable ironies at people. The human mind is so adept at finding patterns.

EDIT: My brother told me it was a female based on the backside. They are so hard to tell apart for me. I can't sex birds for shit either :D

[Futility Personified]

Where i'm from, it's a mark of snootiness if you don't have sex with birds.

[Brandon's Impotent Rage]

I used to have a huge crush on Disney's Robin Hood.

.....Just, ya know, throwing that out there.

[exeexe]

Turtles are so cute. I have something like 40-60 snails outside my house after it has rained. You really have to watch your steps so you dont accidentally step on anyone when going to the city. But its nice to have so much nature outside your house.

[Sinister Intents]

Yay!!!! One month!!!!:wub:

[Quail]

My uterus hates me and I have no painkillers.

[Anglo-Saxon Philistine]

RevLeft needs some sort of headdesk emoticon. I find myself wanting to use one a lot recently.

[Futility Personified]

I -think- I have a job lined up. I am celebrating this here because if my future boss saw the shit I put on facebook I think i'd be in a bad way. Hopefully things will start looking up for the time being.

[Ele'ill]

my mood is still elevated, hasn't gone back down to any type of depression which is odd usually it feels like this for a day or two and then back down but this has been a week i think, I haven't slept very well and can't/don't want to I feel like there is a huge list of things I want to do even though I can't remember the list in full until an item from it reenters my mind, I've been taking caffeine in the evening and wandering the night which is a thing I like to do which is why I'm posting this because it is weird when you have the entire day and night cycle spread out in front of you it feels like endless time and your mind is racing recalling memories and feelings and stuff




maybe i can ride this into an apartment lol

[motion denied]

Destroy students' unions. Destroy them all. Destroy their "gotta do sumthing maan" activists too, and their tiny little cults.

Seriously, students are the most spineless, opportunistic shits around.

[human strike]

Destroy students' unions. Destroy them all. Destroy their "gotta do sumthing maan" activists too, and their tiny little cults.

Seriously, students are the most spineless, opportunistic shits around.

Usually I strictly abstain from carrying placards or banners, but I was happy to carry this one (though still only for a few minutes):
http://www.indymedia.org.uk/images/2012/11/503125.jpg

[Rosa Partizan]

Destroy students' unions. Destroy them all. Destroy their "gotta do sumthing maan" activists too, and their tiny little cults.

Seriously, students are the most spineless, opportunistic shits around.

As an eternal student myself, I agree wholeheartedly.

OT: Being with my parents is a bit less horrid than I thought. Still, annoying enough. I got a date on Monday 40 miles away from here, I found a really hot guy on okc, with very well matching sexual preferences. I just wrote him stuff like "look, here's the deal. Usually, I live over 200 miles away, I'm here for 2 weeks, not looking for anything too serious and I see that we'd be a great match in certain matters. You're down?" and he reacted very quickly and after checking my profile was like "yeah sure, let's do this." Being a woman can make some things stunningly easy. Pretty sure if I were a guy, I'd have to write to at least 10 women to get such a response.

[Ethics Gradient, Traitor For All Ages]

I briefly used okcupid and I don't feel you would ever get such a response as a dude hah. In general I think I would get 1 response per 5 attempts at contact and generally it was just some small talk. But I was so worried about coming off as a creep that I think I probably just came off as stiff and uninteresting so I could be wrong.

My partner's parents will be staying with us for the next week. I'm not looking forward to it, her mother is really overbearing and Catholic as all hell. :(

[Os Cangaceiros]

Being a woman can make some things stunningly easy. Pretty sure if I were a guy, I'd have to write to at least 10 women to get such a response.

That's because we often think with our little heads instead of our big ones. :rolleyes:

[Comrade Jacob]

Reeeeee, my good laptop fell over and the screen is smashed.

[A Revolutionary Tool]

Finally have internet again, haven't had it for a month. Moved in with my buddy out of my parents house finally, still have to unpack everything. The only bad thing about my roommate is he's a slave to consumer culture and he rarely has money. When he gets money he spends it on something stupid like a graphics card for his computer or a PS Vita and then always tries to get me to spend my money alongside him and this drives me crazy. He's broke as fuck but half of what he says is "I want to buy this and that, and a plane ticket to Europe, and another expensive thing." He spends all day planning to buy stuff when he doesn't even have a job or source of income. He constantly asks me "So when are you going to buy X(right now it's Final Fantasy XIV)" which he thinks I'll buy because I said it looked cool or showed interest in. "When are you getting a PS4, when are you getting a PS4, when are you getting a PS4?!" Fuck off, I don't need your PS4, other shits more important!

[motion denied]

I was going to say that PhoenixAsh looked way more friendly with his new avatar, but he changed it again...

Now he looks even more frightening and aggressive, like a big muscular anarchist who punches people while lifting dumbbells.

:unsure:

[Psycho P and the Freight Train]

Whenever I see someone's avatar, I picture the person behind the computer screen as a manifestation of that avatar. Even if it's an ambiguous symbol or a cartoon or multiple people, I still picture them as that thing, if that makes sense. I can't help it. When someone changes their avatar I imagine them to now be a completely different person.

Irrational? Yes. Stupid? Yes. …….

[consuming negativity]

Whenever I see someone's avatar, I picture the person behind the computer screen as a manifestation of that avatar. Even if it's an ambiguous symbol or a cartoon or multiple people, I still picture them as that thing, if that makes sense. I can't help it. When someone changes their avatar I imagine them to now be a completely different person.

Irrational? Yes. Stupid? Yes. …….

I do this, too. It's not stupid, it's interesting!

[RedAnarchist]

Meow?

[Futility Personified]

Forklift safety saves lives.

[Anglo-Saxon Philistine]

Whenever I see someone's avatar, I picture the person behind the computer screen as a manifestation of that avatar. Even if it's an ambiguous symbol or a cartoon or multiple people, I still picture them as that thing, if that makes sense. I can't help it. When someone changes their avatar I imagine them to now be a completely different person.

Irrational? Yes. Stupid? Yes. …….

Then you're imagining me with a lot more hair than I have.

...made myself annoyed.

[Rosa Partizan]

I think I'm really close to the image of my ava, especially because of that AK 47.

[Zoroaster]

So I just read "The Fault in our Stars".

It was really damn good. And that ending. Damn.

[Rosa Partizan]

So I just read "The Fault in our Stars".

It was really damn good. And that ending. Damn.

I cried so goddamn much. You gotta watch the movie, it's as great as the book. I heard so many people crying, and I was no exception.

[GiantMonkeyMan]

I totally just posted my 600th post, which is cool and all, and I feel that I am sufficiently 'part' of the revleft community.... but three days ago I posted in the "compliment the user above you" thread and no-one replied. Clearly nobody loves me. :crying:

[slum]

having a leaky roof is infinitely more annoying when you live in an attic

ugh i don't want to have to talk to the landlords, they're horrible. maybe i can fix it myself.

[motion denied]

Whenever I see someone's avatar, I picture the person behind the computer screen as a manifestation of that avatar. Even if it's an ambiguous symbol or a cartoon or multiple people, I still picture them as that thing, if that makes sense. I can't help it. When someone changes their avatar I imagine them to now be a completely different person.

Irrational? Yes. Stupid? Yes. …….

Mari3l, for example, has become a totally different person.

[Ele'ill]

I just tried to chug a 24oz four loko (fruit punch) here's how it went. I let my mouth fill then stopped and that was the end of trying to chug it. Chugging/casually sipping from a 750ml bottle of sake/red wine is easier than anything having to do with four loko and its kin. It is the horrific malt oil/fat/rancid/somethings-wrong sensation in your mouth that does it.

[Loony Le Fist]

Just spoke to my good friend who is a Vietnam Veteran. Man it makes me sad. It also makes me understand why I am a libertarian socialist.

[Trap Queen Voxxy]

I will never drink again, losing my son today, all because I was drinking basically. I know for a fact now I never will again and will cling to sobriety like no other. It's the only way I can get him back. My eyes hurt and my heart aches.

[Crabbensmasher]

She thinks I'm funny. Hah, now that's funny

[Anglo-Saxon Philistine]

I always find it amusing when we "authoritarian" socialists advocate for people to have more freedom than the "libertarians".

[Ele'ill]

I will never drink again, losing my son today, all because I was drinking basically. I know for a fact now I never will again and will cling to sobriety like no other. It's the only way I can get him back. My eyes hurt and my heart aches.



:(

[DOOM]

I cried so goddamn much. You gotta watch the movie, it's as great as the book. I heard so many people crying, and I was no exception.

a friend of mine started crying right in front of me, when mentioning that metaphor stuff hahaha :laugh::laugh:

[Rosa Partizan]

a friend of mine started crying right in front of me, when mentioning that metaphor stuff hahaha :laugh::laugh:

oh goddamn this is so cute! Then again, I'm probably way older than most of your friends, and still cry, so what does that say about me :laugh:

[DOOM]

oh goddamn this is so cute! Then again, I'm probably way older than most of your friends, and still cry, so what does that say about me :laugh:

ageist prick http://i61.tinypic.com/swq0wi.png

[Rosa Partizan]

ageist prick http://i61.tinypic.com/swq0wi.png

yeah sure, as if I didn't know that you're actually in your midthirties http://oi61.tinypic.com/swq0wi.jpg

[DOOM]

Now that I mentioned it - ageism is really fucking with me.
It may sound a lil bit pretentious (check ur privilege, adult scum) but I'm sometimes really annoyed when I get excluded from discussions I'm fairly capable of participating, for example debates about politics. Jeez it's fucking annoying. And whenever I mention my interests in front of an adult I get kinda derided. "Oh you're still young, you'll learn more about the world"
Like yeah fuck you

[Rosa Partizan]

Now that I mentioned it - ageism is really fucking with me.
It may sound a lil bit pretentious (check ur privilege, adult scum) but I'm sometimes really annoyed when I get excluded from discussions I'm fairly capable of participating, for example debates about politics. Jeez it's fucking annoying. And whenever I mention my interests in front of an adult I get kinda derided. "Oh you're still young, you'll learn more about the world"
Like yeah fuck you

you're probably the smartest teenager I've ever seen online, and actually also offline. You're smarter than I was when I was....25? :laugh:

[DOOM]

you're probably the smartest teenager I've ever seen online, and actually also offline. You're smarter than I was when I was....25? :laugh:

offline? You stalking me? http://oi61.tinypic.com/swq0wi.jpg

[Anglo-Saxon Philistine]

you're probably the smartest teenager I've ever seen online

Admitting she spies on you through your webcam.

[Rosa Partizan]

offline? You stalking me? http://oi61.tinypic.com/swq0wi.jpg

of course, a useless effort to find out if you're kidding me in terms of your age...and also to find out if you're legal for girls of my age http://oi61.tinypic.com/swq0wi.jpg

[Rosa Partizan]

Admitting she spies on you through your webcam.

should I spy on you instead? My curiousity knows no limits!

[Anglo-Saxon Philistine]

should I spy on you instead? My curiousity knows no limits!

You know I live a life of danger for the VChK.

[Futility Personified]

Is this life? The latest wanker shirt, the latest shit car? The latest pop song that is so much bollocks it kills me inside. I don't care if I come across as edgy teenager, it offends me. The idealised worker? The one who's a fucking geezer and asserts his masculinity through every muscle flex and how he commands the demands of the next intellectually under-exercised muppet who thinks that irksome Pharrell William's song is just "so amazing", fuck right off. I deserve more from my life than this.

[consuming negativity]

Is this life? The latest wanker shirt, the latest shit car? The latest pop song that is so much bollocks it kills me inside. I don't care if I come across as edgy teenager, it offends me. The idealised worker? The one who's a fucking geezer and asserts his masculinity through every muscle flex and how he commands the demands of the next intellectually under-exercised muppet who thinks that irksome Pharrell William's song is just "so amazing", fuck right off. I deserve more from my life than this.

What does it even mean to "deserve more from my life"? If you think about the words that you're saying and what they mean it might shed a bit of insight into how to solve your problem. And yes it is your problem. None of us chose to be alive initially... we were birthed without our consent and raised in an environment that tells us to be thankful even for a life of hardship as if we were given a gift by being able to suffer. There are many people who "take the easy way out", but I wouldn't recommend that because it doesn't solve the problem of existence so much as it makes the problem irrelevant.

There are two kinds of people - people who enjoy sandbox video games like GTA, and people who can't stand them and prefer a game with structure, goals, and purpose. I can't stand them, but life is essentially GTA without saves or do-overs. There is no rhyme or reason, there is no morality, there is nothing. We can choose to be loyal to those who show us kindness, or not. We can choose whatever we wish even with our varying circumstances, although many of the obstacles to our freedom exist only because we create them ourselves through our wants and through believing that they are there even if they are not. If you believe I will shoot you if you walk in the door, you won't open the door even if there is no actual danger involved. And so by believing that morality, that people, that materials limit us imposes these limits on ourselves. In this sense all of society is already anarchistic. There is no reason why you can't walk down the street and begin shooting every person you see, before ripping out their hearts and masturbating with them. But the police? But that would require a bit of planning? But I wouldn't want to do that? These are not real limits but reasons in your mind that you don't take these actions, but it does not prevent you from these actions except in making them not worth your time. There are other things you'd rather do.

And it is those things that you'd rather do that form your disillusionment - you want to do X Y and Z but are doing A B and C because the environment around you is not supportive of doing what you want. But you can always do what you want. You cannot, however, get from other people what you want them to do without manipulation of some kind. Even a mutual agreement is manipulative insofar as you are agreeing to act in a certain way or do something if another person acts in a certain way or does something. But nobody owes you anything and you cannot be deserving of anything in a world with no compass, direction, or purpose. Discover through critical analysis what you want to accomplish and what is required to accomplish it, and then accomplish it not through any means necessary but through the means which are necessary. The means create and define the ends.

...

what the fuck am i even talking about

[Crabbensmasher]

I hate going into work and being like 'Hey how's it going' to everybody I pass, and they go 'Good, yourself?' and I say 'Not bad'. Or they initiate, and I say 'Not bad' or 'Good' or some crap like that.

Why the fuck do we even do that? If you think about it, its utter insanity. It's a fucking mask because none of us know how to behave in front of eachother or what to do so we say 'Hey Bill, how's your day been?'

You know what? It's been shit. I woke up at 1 because I don't have the fucking willpower to not sleep in past noon anymore, I took a shower after killing like 3 spiders in my gross ass bathtub, took a big old shit and ate bran flakes. I ate fucking bran flakes. Then I fucking commuted out to work on the bus and it took me a full goddamn hour before I showed up because my city doesn't fund public transit and I just want to die.

So, "Oh, not too bad Bob. How's your day been?"



These little social customs are so goddamn pointless, hollow, and just dishonest. There's something dishonest and fake about them. Every time I participate in them, I'm acting. I've learned to play your stupid little game, society. Now what? I can even do it when I take my parents dog for a walk. Dog people are the fucking worst for this. "Hey, how's it going." "Oh, what type of dog is that?" "Wow, she's just full of energy today".

You know why we do stupid crap like that? Because we're scared and a little bit pathetic. We hide behind our 'How's it goings' and 'Have a good ones' because they'll always be the same. You might be socially inept, but anyone can manage a "Some weather we're having, eh Bill?" It's something fucking static, it's safe. It's comfort. We don't actually care how we're doing BECAUSE WE'RE ALWAYS GOING TO SAY GOOD. We do it to delude ourselves that we're fucking in control of the situation. It's some fucking tiny semblance of order that we just cling to because its safe. It's static. It'll always be the same.

Man, I'm too sober for this shit.

[Futility Personified]

I feel quite bad Communer, that was a decent well thought out post in relation to a drunken rant because all the pubs are shite where I live, the music is shite, a good deal of the people are arseholes, some imbecile from school was telling me he got a job in 3 days whereas I had to wait god knows how long (I very nearly hit him and i'm not quite so sure I'll be able to resist next time). It is hard to put into words how shite it is without using the word shite at least 50 times. Drugs are too expensive or they put you on an inappropriate kilter.

For some reason, I have an innate desire to socialize. This is revoked probably an hour after going out, but I have loyalty to the friends I do have, who I don't want to leave in the cesspit because they've gone out largely for the same. Just a release from reality.

As a rule I value experiences over material goods, but when everyone else around me seems to be materialistic, I feel like becoming so just so that instead of going out, I can just smoke my life away / drink my life away and wait until I die in a self-contained bubble.

The real challenge is finding a way to stop myself from feeling the need to go out. But if you go out to escape, then what do you do to escape the escape? Smoke crack in a field and start fucking wildlife? Noone wants to be a misanthrope but there is an appeal in not being let down so often.

[Sinister Intents]

I got dominated last night <3

[#FF0000]

Went to an IWW social and they had a big ass table covered in grilled meats and vegetables surrounding a center piece of massive bottles of whiskey and spiced rum and i cried

[Ceallach_the_Witch]

I hate going into work and being like 'Hey how's it going' to everybody I pass, and they go 'Good, yourself?' and I say 'Not bad'. Or they initiate, and I say 'Not bad' or 'Good' or some crap like that.



http://i.imgur.com/WLovSMn.jpg

[Le Socialiste]

Can't seem to muster up the willpower to post much of anything anymore.

Edit - I'll assume the 'thanks' are sympathetic ones, lol. On a semi-related note, I've tendered my resignation as Forum/Global Moderator. I'm trading my fancy purple name in for a blue one.

[Comrade Jacob]

Me mum thinks Siouxsie and the banshees are evil pagans because they had an album called Juju. OH NOES!
I wonder what they think about Alien Sex Fiend and Christian death. I mean fucking christ's baby-dick they think because i bring in something with a name they don't like into the house they think it will damage the spirit of the house. Well they can fuck off.
OH NOES witchcraft...what a bunch of intolerant assholes.

[slum]

Me mum thinks Siouxsie and the banshees are evil pagans because they had an album called Juju. OH NOES!
I wonder what they think about Alien Sex Fiend and Christian death. I mean fucking christ's baby-dick they think because i bring in something with a name they don't like into the house they think it will damage the spirit of the house. Well they can fuck off.
OH NOES witchcraft...what a bunch of intolerant assholes.

time to start listening to black metal and grindcore, please post results

[consuming negativity]

When people ask how you are, stop and tell them as if you're completely unaware that you're supposed to just say "good" and move on. What are they going to do, express their annoyance that you answered their question thoughtfully and with sincerity? They get stuck having to listen to stuff they don't really care about and you get to enjoy punishing them with your life. It's really quite fun.

[bcbm]

I hate going into work and being like 'Hey how's it going' to everybody I pass, and they go 'Good, yourself?' and I say 'Not bad'. Or they initiate, and I say 'Not bad' or 'Good' or some crap like that.

Why the fuck do we even do that?

the two goals of communication are to convey information and maintain relationships. 'how are you doing' sounds like a content message, a request for information, but most of the time when we say 'how are you' it is just to acknowledge someone's existence- to maintain relationships.


Is this life? The latest wanker shirt, the latest shit car? The latest pop song that is so much bollocks it kills me inside. I don't care if I come across as edgy teenager, it offends me. The idealised worker? The one who's a fucking geezer and asserts his masculinity through every muscle flex and how he commands the demands of the next intellectually under-exercised muppet who thinks that irksome Pharrell William's song is just "so amazing", fuck right off. I deserve more from my life than this.

your life is what you make it. don't waste your time worrying about other people.

[Sinister Intents]

I give up on music and being in bands, and this is because I can't find anyone who wants to play the style I want to play, and when I do they're assholes to me for how inexperienced I am. No one gives me a chance to prove I can play guitar proficiently nor do they give me the time to learn tracks. I'm just gonna play guitar for my own pleasure. I'll probably eventually get sick of playing alone and sell my shit.

It must be nice for people who have friends to have more than eight people who want to hang out with them. At least there are people on Facebook and my girlfriend

[bcbm]

It must be nice for people who have friends to have more than eight people who want to hang out with them. At least there are people on Facebook and my girlfriend

i have four good friends i spend most of my time with and maybe two or three others i see occasionally. quality over quantity, i've found.

[Quail]

Yeah... I don't have more than a few people who I'm actually close to. I don't know if many people do, to be honest. And even if they do... I'm happy with my few good friends.

[Sinister Intents]

i have four good friends i spend most of my time with and maybe two or three others i see occasionally. quality over quantity, i've found.

I completely agree, hence Facebook is nice to talk to people from RevLeft when I get the opportunity to speak to people.


Yeah... I don't have more than a few people who I'm actually close to. I don't know if many people do, to be honest. And even if they do... I'm happy with my few good friends.

My family, my girlfriend, a dude named Brandon, and a few people on Facebook are all I really need and enjoy talking to.

I'm definitely not am extravert. I'm sitting here waiting for my girlfriend and people are giving my strange looks because of my music

[Ceallach_the_Witch]

insomnia hitting back with a vengeance, i'm still up at 10 to 5 in the morning and i'm so fucking frustrated at getting no sleep its given me a headache

[bcbm]

insomnia hitting back with a vengeance, i'm still up at 10 to 5 in the morning and i'm so fucking frustrated at getting no sleep its given me a headache

ive been on meds for my broken wrist and had a similar problem. i can't not take them because then the pain keeps me awake. but when i do take them they severely fuck with my sleep. its a pain, i had been getting a good pattern going. have you tried melatonin?

[Trap Queen Voxxy]

ive been on meds for my broken wrist and had a similar problem. i can't not take them because then the pain keeps me awake. but when i do take them they severely fuck with my sleep. its a pain, i had been getting a good pattern going. have you tried melatonin?

Tylenol PM is pretty awesome.

[bcbm]

what is the different drug in pm?

[Trap Queen Voxxy]

what is the different drug in pm?

Diphenhydramine HCl, which I think is an anti-histamine which works as a sedative.

[bcbm]

yeah i think thats benadryl. i cant take more acetaminophen anyway cuz my sweet, sweet opiates are cut with hella aceta

[Loony Le Fist]

I give up on music and being in bands, and this is because I can't find anyone who wants to play the style I want to play, and when I do they're assholes to me for how inexperienced I am. No one gives me a chance to prove I can play guitar proficiently nor do they give me the time to learn tracks. I'm just gonna play guitar for my own pleasure. I'll probably eventually get sick of playing alone and sell my shit.


Been there. However, if you really love music, it's hard to give up. :laugh: I've tried--I play too. Maybe we'll jam sometime. Do you have any licks or progressions you've banged out?



It must be nice for people who have friends to have more than eight people who want to hang out with them. At least there are people on Facebook and my girlfriend

I hear you. I do not have a whole lot of people to chill with either. It is unfortunate that I do not get out much these days.

[Rosa Partizan]

So I got some virus that caused me diarrhea, one day before I leave my parents and go back to the town where I study and have to sit in a train for 6 hours. Fortunately, it's supposed to become better rather quickly. I'm not hungry, but I LOVE eating so much and having all these delicious things in the fridge that I didn't buy by myself, but can eat as much as I want, but am not allowed to right now, really breaks my hoggish heart :crying:

[human strike]

When people find out that I graduated uni a year ago and have never had a job, a lot of them ask what the fuck I want to do with my life. Most recently this was my girlfriend's rather scary grandmother, but I was slightly drunk and stoned (hey, it was carnival day) so just shrugged the question off (she told me if I were her son she'd give me a "good walloping"). I could have told her how I've considered a career in the mental health sector, but what I really want to say to people is, "When I grow up, I want to be in the Manic Street Preachers!" But until then I'm too busy being young and lazy, ya know, living.

I have to go to the jobcentre now...

[Rosa Partizan]

When people find out that I graduated uni a year ago and have never had a job, a lot of them ask what the fuck I want to do with my life. Most recently this was my girlfriend's rather scary grandmother, but I was slightly drunk and stoned (hey, it was carnival day) so just shrugged the question off (she told me if I were her son she'd give me a "good walloping"). I could have told her how I've considered a career in the mental health sector, but what I really want to say to people is, "When I grow up, I want to be in the Manic Street Preachers!" But until then I'm too busy being young and lazy, ya know, living.

I have to go to the jobcentre now...

totally feel ya on this. the only problem is: being lazy and enjoying that living standard I got right now are pretty incompatible. If I wasn't so obsessed with organic food, books, perfume, nail polish and vinyl, I'd cut my workload to the half or so.

[Sinister Intents]

Been there. However, if you really love music, it's hard to give up. :laugh: I've tried--I play too. Maybe we'll jam sometime. Do you have any licks or progressions you've banged out?



I hear you. I do not have a whole lot of people to chill with either. It is unfortunate that I do not get out much these days.

Sounds awesome to jam with you!!! I generally play power chords and trem picked riffs.

I also tried not being introverted lol it didn't work so I don't go out verry often!!"

[Danielle Ni Dhighe]

I have cabin fever. I think I'm going to do some day trips this summer, starting Friday when I plan to drive 100 miles to do some genealogical work and visit some cemeteries.

[Loony Le Fist]

What could happen today if every single worker in the US decided to take over their workplace? So very much could. With a single collective decision. To decide to rule ourselves rather than some unjustifiable authority by accident of history.

[Zoroaster]

What could happen today if every single worker in the US decided to take over their workplace? So very much could. With a single collective decision. To decide to rule ourselves rather than some unjustifiable authority by accident of history.

Yeah, it'd be pretty cool. What a strange world we live in. Full of communists and capitalists, atheists and theists, it makes you wonder.

[Loony Le Fist]

Yeah, it'd be pretty cool. What a strange world we live in. Full of communists and capitalists, atheists and theists, it makes you wonder.

Well, diversity of opinion is wonderful. What bothers me is that despite all this freedom to think for ourselves, very few people bother to take advantage of that right.

[Ceallach_the_Witch]

me and my second youngest brother are (probably) hard to understand because we hav an actual private language and 17 years of in-jokes and dk why but I just considered this

we are at our most comprehensible when we call all dark spirits wiskles

[Sinister Intents]

The view of lake Erie is beautiful from where I am at the job site.

I'm afraid of more people abandoning me, I know my girlfriend won't, I've no fears with her. I'm afraid of my two other friends just outright abandoning me....

[Ele'ill]

I am getting out into wild spaces more and more and coming back to life a little bit each time and have decided that the PNW isn't that bad wish the rainy season was shorter though

[Loony Le Fist]

Learned a badass cheesecake recipe. Totally awesome! :laugh:

[Futility Personified]

Just scrolled down 12 pages of POF listings in my area. I'm never getting that time back, ever. At least I might mine some forum rep with this post so when the revolution starts i'll have my own cadre in this area because forum rep = revolutionary leadership skills, but all POF has done is made me feel like smoking and throwing stuff in the neighbors garden.

[motion denied]

I'm under the impression that I'm getting dumber.

[Sinister Intents]

I must have booze!!

[Loony Le Fist]

I must have booze!!

I'm in the same boat. We ought to make a drinking game of all the suckers claiming human nature is the reason we need capitalism.

:laugh::laugh::laugh::laugh::laugh:

[Quail]

A page on the revleft wiki: Revleft drinking game?

[Loony Le Fist]

La-di-da-di, we like to party
We don't cause trouble, we don't bother nobody, we're
Just some men thats on the mic
And when we rock up on the mic we rock the mic right

For all of y'all keeping y'all in health
Just to see you smile and enjoy yourself
Cause it's cool when you cause a cozy condition
That we create, cause that's our mission
So listen close, to what we say
Because this type of shit, it happens every day

--Slick Rick.

[human strike]

Just scrolled down 12 pages of POF listings in my area. I'm never getting that time back, ever. At least I might mine some forum rep with this post so when the revolution starts i'll have my own cadre in this area because forum rep = revolutionary leadership skills, but all POF has done is made me feel like smoking and throwing stuff in the neighbors garden.

Stay away from POF. I once, after taking a not unsubstantial amount of speed, went through at least that many pages on that site, after which I decided it's complete shit. I've never heard of anyone having much success with it. It's all about OKCupid. ;)

[Quail]

What is POF?

I just downloaded tinder to see what the fuss is about, and despite changing my preference on both facebook and tinder to just women, I would say that roughly 1/3 of the people that tinder showed me were men. Plus it makes me feel really judgemental because there aren't really many criteria on which to base whether you like or reject someone. So I'm not really convinced about tinder.

[Futility Personified]

Stay away from POF. I once, after taking a not unsubstantial amount of speed, went through at least that many pages on that site, after which I decided it's complete shit. I've never heard of anyone having much success with it. It's all about OKCupid. ;)

A heroic dose for a heroic endeavor! It's a lot more vacuous on there from experience, seems more a shaggathon than anything else.

Quail, POF is essentially one brief page with some optional pseudo-psychology thrown in, OKcupid is superior on the questions aspect. As a man, I suspect dating sites are a numbers game, but Okcupid would be the equivalent of phoning ahead to book a restaurant, whilst POF would be flytipping sausage rolls out the back of a transit van on the A303.

The people I know who use Tinder seem to have it to reinforce the idea that they are desirable rather than meeting anyone.

[Loony Le Fist]

What is POF?

Plenty of Fish. Meh. Just another sucky dating site. :laugh:



I just downloaded tinder to see what the fuss is about, and despite changing my preference on both facebook and tinder to just women, I would say that roughly 1/3 of the people that tinder showed me were men. Plus it makes me feel really judgemental because there aren't really many criteria on which to base whether you like or reject someone. So I'm not really convinced about tinder.

Well, it is an app designed for meeting people based almost entirely on how they look. It's interesting to note how many people have come to similar conclusions as you have.

[Loony Le Fist]

Feed the babies
That don't have enough to eat
Shoe the children
With no shoes on their feet
House the people
Living in the street
Oooo There's a solution! [you got that right, Steve!]
...
I want to fly like an eagle
Riggght through the revolution

--Steve Miller, Fly Like an Eagle

[Ele'ill]

http://cdn.memegenerator.net/instances/250x250/52441570.jpg

ranger (plural rangers (http://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/rangers#English))


One who ranges (http://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/range); a rover (http://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/rover).

A roving robber (http://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/robber); one who seeks plunder (http://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/plunder).


A keeper (http://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/keeper), guardian (http://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/guardian), or soldier (http://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/soldier) who ranges (http://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/range) over a region (generally of wilderness (http://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/wilderness))



So today I hiked again, my quads, hamstrings, calves, glutes, abs, are shot. Tuning up ecological awareness skills at a considerably wild park area given its in between two heavily populated areas of this city. Getting back deep into my roots, a place I have avoided for personal reasons for years. Have been mapping out where a female adult western redtail hawk and her two now juvenile offspring hunt/chill out at. They tend like hanging out in what's less than a half circle on the outside of the park and its open areas which leaves their hunting grounds/prey pushed into the park and open areas away from the city (smart). Was walking through the woods alone in silence and the adult female came out of nowhere completely silent, within two arms reach of me and dove onto something she had seen in the vines. She didn't get whatever it was but looked at me and then flew at me within arms reach doing her hawk ngk ngk agitated throat noises. I know hawks specifically tend to like areas that are not completely forested because it just plays into their natural ability to see distances which such areas impede but I had not seen these ones hunting in the woods like that before with so much other terrain that would yield easier accessible prey.

So I continue down the trail stopping every 10-20 feet or so just to listen. You can tell what is going on around you in the woods just by staring at the ground and listening. You can hear how other animals are reacting to the environment, other animals, incoming weather, you can hear what activities they are doing, are birds pinging or are they alarmed, what kind of birds are they what would make that type of bird do what its doing, why that response. Some yuppy idiot had a boombox and they were playing loud music was glad they left, they have the entire city to play music/hear shitty music from other people get the fuck out of the woods scumbag. This other person walked past kind of looking at me and was like 'UH, are you lost' attitude and its like, i'm staring up at the trees and listening and watching and smelling and occasionally tasting things around me just stop and feel it. I just replied that I'm watching three redtailed hawks hunt and turned my back on them. At one point there were owls talking back and forth across 100ft of forest, everyone else was just crashing past. Ended in the open areas and watched the three talking back and forth and one of them made a kill some distance away, I didn't see it happen but there were two bouncing from tree to tree and I could hear tons of Steller's Jays losing their shit. On my way out one of the juveniles landed on light post about 10 feet tall. A person walking was looking at the ducks that it had almost got (they hit the water) and the person was confused. The hawk ended up landing right above this person's head like right there so I walked up and stood there looking at it. I got a weird look from the person like three times they were totally sketched out by me and I pointed and said hawk and they didn't get it they looked up had a baseball cap on and still couldn't see the giant bird that was right there. So they leave, i'm standing there watching it react to all the movement of the ducks, the finches, bugs, everything its in full hunt mode and then it turns and is looking at me and tracking me and I realize i'm standing next to a hill so I look over and there's a field mouse moving around and i'm like oh shit so I move back about six feet right as someone else is coming up and of course the hawk goes for the mouse, gets it, and carries it off. Very cool, everyone was impressed etc

I have a lot of work ahead of me, I don't know a whole lot about the ecosystems/biomes of the PNW, I know very little about the vegetation and what's edible or what various animals are eating.

[Anglo-Saxon Philistine]

Since the recent change of my name hasn't been received well, and it's just occurred to me that 870 is too short to search for, I will probably change my name to Workers' Pre-Dreadnought in a few months, so that even less people know what my name refers to and I look even more like a complete ponce.

Also he~at fuck heat we should install a giant mirror between the Earth and the Sun.

[Ele'ill]

one thing I don't entirely mind about not having a place right now is that everyone's place I go into is like a sauna even with shitty box fans in the windows, and they all have ants

[Sinister Intents]

Exhausted

[Loony Le Fist]

My brother and I had a conversation a few minutes ago. He was telling me about managerial class he took and critiqued my approach to work. He says that the reason I have gone through so many jobs is because I ignore the chain of command. Apparently I'm too much of a go-getter. :laugh: He didn't do it in a mean way though. I understood entirely what he said. He agreed that it was totally fucked.

He was absolutely right. I was guilty on every charge. It just makes me so sad now knowing that this is what they teach to people at the university. Being subservient. It sounds like corporate fascism, and I don't remember things being that bad.

Why am I so fucking sad now?

[Sinister Intents]

My brother had a conversation a few minutes ago. He was telling me about managerial class he took and critiqued my approach to work. He says that the reason I have gone through so many jobs is because I ignore the chain of command. Apparently I'm too much of a go-getter. :laugh: He didn't do it in a mean way though. I understood entirely what he said. He agreed that it was totally fucked.

He was absolutely right. I was guilty on every charge. It just makes me so sad now knowing that this is what they teach to people at the university. Being subservient. It sounds like corporate fascism, and I don't remember things being that bad.

Why am I so fucking sad now?

You're so sad because someone said you say fuck authority? I think chain of command gets in the way so I allow the whole decision process in my business to be made collectively with my employees, this works perfectly well. When I just shout orders and sit on my ass a smaller amount of work gets done.

You may also be sad because I don't know what state you're in the share a beer or eight?

[Loony Le Fist]

You're so sad because someone said you say fuck authority?


Right? :laugh:

Actually I think I'm more sad because the fact that college students are being taught that it's wrong to question authority.



I think chain of command gets in the way so I allow the whole decision process in my business to be made collectively with my employees, this works perfectly well. When I just shout orders and sit on my ass a smaller amount of work gets done.


Agreed. I always worked hard and tried to do everything. He says that doing that was actually challenging to the chain of command. He made some excellent points actually. It wasn't that he was happy about it really. He was just being the messenger. It's definitely true though. In the corporate workplace you must be an obedient drone. I believe one employer of mine called it an issue of maturity before they fired me. Apparently being obedient like a lost child is the new maturity. How ironic.



You may also be sad because I don't know what state you're in the share a beer or eight?

Don't I wish. I can always pretend. :laugh:

[Sinister Intents]

Does the pope shit in the woods?

[Trap Queen Voxxy]

Loving someone so much it hurts and knowing full well they don't love you; it's such a weird feeling. Such a weird thing. Unrequited love. Some people cower away or run away but I don't feel I'm pathetic. Because in a way, it's made me see a beauty I never have and seeing as I've been suicidal for 24 yrs, I think maybe I deserve to be happy; even if it's pretend. Maybe I really am crazy. I tbh don't know what I'm doing any more but I feel there's something poetic about my journey. The misery. The shit. But whatever, it's meaningless but it's whatever for now and now is all that exists matters. The worst that could happen is it kills me. Oh no. Not like I don't wish I could some how find the strength to buy that grand ticket to the next adventure, lol, that's my solace. Love and death. Illusion and sharpest reality. Paradox. I just want to disappear. Like smoke or condensation.

[motion denied]

Is cynicism the first step towards reactionary?

[Art Vandelay]

Loving someone so much it hurts and knowing full well they don't love you; it's such a weird feeling. Such a weird thing. Unrequited love. Some people cower away or run away but I don't feel I'm pathetic. Because in a way, it's made me see a beauty I never have and seeing as I've been suicidal for 24 yrs, I think maybe I deserve to be happy; even if it's pretend. Maybe I really am crazy. I tbh don't know what I'm doing any more but I feel there's something poetic about my journey. The misery. The shit. But whatever, it's meaningless but it's whatever for now and now is all that exists matters. The worst that could happen is it kills me. Oh no. Not like I don't wish I could some how find the strength to buy that grand ticket to the next adventure, lol, that's my solace. Love and death. Illusion and sharpest reality. Paradox. I just want to disappear. Like smoke or condensation.

:crying:

[Futility Personified]

Would love to be able to either learn how to produce for myself, or find someone who does production and would be on the same vibe as me. I'd love to make some hip-hop, even if I sound like a 12 year old.

[Slavoj Zizek's Balls]

Loving someone so much it hurts and knowing full well they don't love you; it's such a weird feeling. Such a weird thing. Unrequited love. Some people cower away or run away but I don't feel I'm pathetic. Because in a way, it's made me see a beauty I never have and seeing as I've been suicidal for 24 yrs, I think maybe I deserve to be happy; even if it's pretend. Maybe I really am crazy. I tbh don't know what I'm doing any more but I feel there's something poetic about my journey. The misery. The shit. But whatever, it's meaningless but it's whatever for now and now is all that exists matters. The worst that could happen is it kills me. Oh no. Not like I don't wish I could some how find the strength to buy that grand ticket to the next adventure, lol, that's my solace. Love and death. Illusion and sharpest reality. Paradox. I just want to disappear. Like smoke or condensation.

I know how you feel :(

I just didn't see it as poetic but instead as a learning experience.

[Loony Le Fist]

Is cynicism the first step towards reactionary?

I think it depends on your fundamental view of human nature. If you believe that human nature is some static unchanging entity, then maybe. However, if you understand that human nature is subject to change then I think that leads to the contrary conclusion.

[Bala Perdida]

I was ringing someone up at work and their change was 8.70. I immediately thought of revleft, and for that moment I felt liberated from the grasp of the exploiters. :D

But then I realized I was still at work. Working for a piece of shit payment.
FUUUUUUCK!!!!!! Such a useless occupation!!! Why?!?!?!!??! CAPITALISM!!!!!! MUST DESTROY!!!!!!!

[human strike]

Glad the Olympics are over.

[Quail]

Someone I spoke to at Sheffield bookfair sent me a message on okcupid. Who needs okcomrade?

[Rosa Partizan]

Someone I spoke to at Sheffield bookfair sent me a message on okcupid. Who needs okcomrade?

wtf? Isn't this is a bit...creepy? How did you react?

OT:

I really have to elaborate on what happened today, cause this happens very rarely in a small town like this. I sat outside the students' cafeteria with a friend of mine and saw a tall, hot, beardy guy, and all of a sudden noticed how he was looking at me from time to time. At first I thought he was looking at my really hot friend, but somehow he rather made eye contact with me. I asked her if he was looking at me or her, and she was like, let's find out, walk past him inside, come back and I'll tell you.

And when I returned, she was like, "he didn't look at me even once, and when you came back and walked past him, he looked at you...or well, your ass." Then he brought back his plate and was about to leave, so I went after him (yeah, I'm a creep, deal with it) and then came the most stupid, embarrassing dialogue ever.

Me: I've noticed you and maybe you've noticed me, too. (:rolleyes:)
He: (laughing) yeah, indeed, I noticed you.
Me: maybe we could hang out or something.
He: I'd really like to do that.
Me: I wasn't sure if you were looking at me or my friend ( :rolleyes: :rolleyes: :rolleyes:)
He: It was you. And I think it's great that you just spoke to me like that, too few girls do that with guys.
Me: Yeah, neither do I like those stupid gender rules nor playing games, so I just go for it.
He: That's great. Just give me your number, I'd really like to meet you.

Somehow, I feel like an idiot, but on the other hand, it worked out. I just panicked a bit when I stood in front of him and didn't have the time to come up with something smart. So instead, I came up with something stupid :laugh:

[cyu]

I was ringing someone up at work and their change was 8.70. I immediately thought of revleft, and for that moment I felt liberated from the grasp of the exploiters.


I think I saw this on libcom: Remember that for every moment that you're "lazy" at work or "stealing" from the company supply room, what you're really doing is merely reclaiming surplus value.

[Sinister Intents]

I like one brand of beer: Busch. I can't think of any other brand I would drink. I also am starting to feel significantly better again from the negative period I went through and I hope all my friends here who are feeling a bit down feel better soon!

[Lily Briscoe]

...redtailed hawks...Steller's jays...
Have you ever heard Steller's jays do red-tailed hawk impersonations? They're pretty good at it.

[Five Year Plan]

Nothing good, that's for sure.

[Crabbensmasher]

wtf? Isn't this is a bit...creepy? How did you react?

OT:

I really have to elaborate on what happened today, cause this happens very rarely in a small town like this. I sat outside the students' cafeteria with a friend of mine and saw a tall, hot, beardy guy, and all of a sudden noticed how he was looking at me from time to time. At first I thought he was looking at my really hot friend, but somehow he rather made eye contact with me. I asked her if he was looking at me or her, and she was like, let's find out, walk past him inside, come back and I'll tell you.

And when I returned, she was like, "he didn't look at me even once, and when you came back and walked past him, he looked at you...or well, your ass." Then he brought back his plate and was about to leave, so I went after him (yeah, I'm a creep, deal with it) and then came the most stupid, embarrassing dialogue ever.

Me: I've noticed you and maybe you've noticed me, too. (:rolleyes:)
He: (laughing) yeah, indeed, I noticed you.
Me: maybe we could hang out or something.
He: I'd really like to do that.
Me: I wasn't sure if you were looking at me or my friend ( :rolleyes: :rolleyes: :rolleyes:)
He: It was you. And I think it's great that you just spoke to me like that, too few girls do that with guys.
Me: Yeah, neither do I like those stupid gender rules nor playing games, so I just go for it.
He: That's great. Just give me your number, I'd really like to meet you.

Somehow, I feel like an idiot, but on the other hand, it worked out. I just panicked a bit when I stood in front of him and didn't have the time to come up with something smart. So instead, I came up with something stupid :laugh:

That doesn't sound embarassing! You could have butchered it faaar worse

[Quail]

wtf? Isn't this is a bit...creepy? How did you react?


I didn't think it was creepy - it was a nice message :)

---

But ugh, some fucker stole my wallet and keys last night. I was just upstairs (it must only have been half nine or so) and I heard a funny noise like there was someone in my house, so I came downstairs but the only thing they could take before they left was my wallet. Probably my fault for not locking the door, but it's still fucking bullshit.

[Art Vandelay]

But ugh, some fucker stole my wallet and keys last night. I was just upstairs (it must only have been half nine or so) and I heard a funny noise like there was someone in my house, so I came downstairs but the only thing they could take before they left was my wallet. Probably my fault for not locking the door, but it's still fucking bullshit.

That's downright shitty, sorry to hear that.

---

Been up at work all night, tossing and turning cause I can never fall asleep in the staff bed. Heard the birds coming out for the morning through the window, so now I'm outside having a smoke cause I've given up on sleeping for the night. Got another 16 hour shift tmro and my sleeping pattern is gonna be completely messed.

[Sinister Intents]

But ugh, some fucker stole my wallet and keys last night. I was just upstairs (it must only have been half nine or so) and I heard a funny noise like there was someone in my house, so I came downstairs but the only thing they could take before they left was my wallet. Probably my fault for not locking the door, but it's still fucking bullshit.

That's pretty scary and very shitty. Remember when I had change stolen directly out of my car? I hate that the conditions of society create the need for others to be in a situation where theft is an option. Also a few years ago, well more like a decade ago by now, at our property we had a ton of shit stolen from our piece-of-shit mobile trailer thing by the people up the road. We still lived in Erie at that time, but we had a small shed type thing behind the trailer and the inbred family up the road stole our generator, all of our tools from shovels to rakes to picks, everything that was in the trailer, and took everything metal that they could to the junk yard they own, but they sold all of the metal they stole, so we had to start over and buy all the stuff again, which I'm pretty sure my parents had the money to do at the time.

[consuming negativity]

Over the past few weeks, if anyone had been paying attention, they would have noticed a shift in the content and character of my posts, and by this point I think I can truthfully say that I don't really consider myself an anarchist anymore. I'm not sure this is the place to say that, but it is on my mind and I don't intend to go any further than that about it. I've been moving through the left back and forth for years and years now, and every time I've formulated things and gotten fixed in my position it's happened before a radical change, but this time, like all the others I was wrong about, I have a good feeling about this. :rolleyes:

[Sinister Intents]

My room smells like the room of a rock star: Drugs and Sex.

[consuming negativity]

My room smells like the room of a rock star: Drugs and Sex.

I'm not sure what kinda stuff you're into, but there's some new Pink Floyd coming out soon that could go well with both of those.

Well, maybe the first one. Now that I think about it I wouldn't want to have sex to Floyd at all. Ever.

[Five Year Plan]

I'm not sure what kinda stuff you're into, but there's some new Pink Floyd coming out soon that could go well with both of those.

Well, maybe the first one. Now that I think about it I wouldn't want to have sex to Floyd at all. Ever.

Sure. If you think Nick Mason and David Gilmour constitute "Pink Floyd." I consider the continued use of the name a marketing gimmick masking a shell of what the actual band's entire catalog really represents.

[Ele'ill]

pink floyd is one of the worst bands ever I hate them and all 60's slop there was never anything trippy or ground breaking about anything that came out of that era it is nothing but hyped up attributed meaningfulness

[Ele'ill]

I mean, today a mother looked at her kid who was complaining with sounds and she said 'tell me, find your words' and it is kind of what needs to be said about new generation 60s music fanboys like its 2014 yeah man its fuckin pot i get it and janis joplin is dead like everything else that lives and dies who gives a fuck you're not there you're here in this abyssal void of vicarious livers just like you why not just stop pretending and stick your face into the cold black and bob for the fruits of your existence its gonna be a hell of a lot more rewarding even if you don't find something cuz this time and place has photos too u can even make them black and white post processing if u really gotta still cling to that shit hole of a time period. That doesn't even matter though people still drop acid and fuck in parks they might have hair too if not whatever

[Ele'ill]

Just for fun, I scrolled down to look at who is viewing this thread currently and it says 2 members and 0 guests. Cool. Who are the members: Mari3L

That means I am worth 2 members. It also means that a correction needs to be made to my current reputation level which is already amazing but it needs to be double the current amount. I'll settle for roughly thirty thousand reputation points. Sasha make it happen thanks.

[consuming negativity]

Just for fun, I scrolled down to look at who is viewing this thread currently and it says 2 members and 0 guests. Cool. Who are the members: Mari3L

That means I am worth 2 members. It also means that a correction needs to be made to my current reputation level which is already amazing but it needs to be double the current amount. I'll settle for roughly thirty thousand reputation points. Sasha make it happen thanks.

It was going to be like that, but the Mods heard that you didn't like Pink Floyd and removed your 2 member reputation multiplier.

[Ele'ill]

I don't think there are any mods anymore

[Quail]

I have no fucking clue how to dress for an interview for a teacher training course. I'm going to go to town and try to find something cheap but presentable to wear, but I just don't feel comfortable in smart clothes, especially quite feminine stuff. It just doesn't feel enough like me so I can never find anything to wear.

[TheFox]

Right now I'm wondering what the fucking point of humans are. We've done nothing but destroy our planet and each other. I feel like we're all a mistake. I hate feeling like this. :(

[consuming negativity]

Right now I'm wondering what the fucking point of humans are. We've done nothing but destroy our planet and each other. I feel like we're all a mistake. I hate feeling like this. :(

there is no point.

there is no point to us, or to anything, which means that making mistakes is impossible.

[human strike]

got a job lol

[Futility Personified]

Petty petit bourgeoisie being a massive pain in my arsehole.

[Quail]

It's kind of shit that all my ID and stuff got taken with my wallet.

I was in the shop earlier and I wanted to get a bottle of wine with some food, so I went to the self-checkout thing and obviously I was asked for ID. I said I didn't have any because someone took my wallet (lol as if they haven't heard that one before :rolleyes: ) and then when the attendant looked a bit unconvinced for some reason I said, "I have tattoos..." because you have to be 18 to get tattoos and still I have no idea why I said that. She rolled her eyes and reluctantly put the wine through... and then I realised that the wine wasn't actually on offer like it said, and I didn't have enough money so I asked if I could get a cheaper bottle. She just looked at me like I was utter scum, but thankfully put it through anyway.

I also can't get student fares on the bus without my student card. Today I went to get a council tax exemption certificate so I used that on the way home, and the driver said he didn't usually check anyway. I wish he'd been driving the bus yesterday when I had to pay full fare.

I've been a bit anxious since losing my wallet tbh... Now I can add getting robbed to the list of stuff I worry about.

[Art Vandelay]

So its my last day of work (at the very least for 6 weeks, but I most likely won't be coming back) and its kinda bitter sweet. On the one hand I won't miss the shit hours and shit pay, but on the other I'm really gonna miss the guy I work with and kinda feel bad for leaving. The amount of progress I've seen him make is absolutely astounding and I'm proud to have played a part in that. I've spent anywhere from 40-60 hours a week with him for over a year now and we've developed such an awesome relationship. He tossed a huge bear hug on me this morning and it made me tear up a bit. I'm gonna miss him. He volunteers at a couple different places all day, but we're gonna fuck off in the afternoon and play some hookey so I can take him out to eat at his favorite restaurant.

[Sinister Intents]

I was never overweight to begin with, but I lost 3 pant sizes, sizes 30/30 men's jeans don't fit me anymore, I fit 27/30 men's jeans better now. I've gained a ton of wait but I look thinner, but holy shit am I fucking strong this year compared to other years. I just out lifted my sister's scrawny tae kwon do black belt boyfriend by carrying a heavy ass television into the house which he set down three times while we were carrying it together, so I lifted the fucking thing up all by myself and carries it to my sister's room and that was the wrong place to put it :) Now we have to carry it out to the garage. I feel bad because I've been completely outdoing my employees in labor and they are getting frustrated at me being a one person work crew that monopolizes the work we should be working together on. I wanna keep exercising and stretching because it's making me feel awesome and my ego lately has been thoroughly stroked and massaged and I feel a hell of a lot better than I did the previous months.

[Five Year Plan]

I was never overweight to begin with, but I lost 3 pant sizes, sizes 30/30 men's jeans don't fit me anymore, I fit 27/30 men's jeans better now. I've gained a ton of wait but I look thinner, but holy shit am I fucking strong this year compared to other years. I just out lifted my sister's scrawny tae kwon do black belt boyfriend by carrying a heavy ass television into the house which he set down three times while we were carrying it together, so I lifted the fucking thing up all by myself and carries it to my sister's room and that was the wrong place to put it :) Now we have to carry it out to the garage. I feel bad because I've been completely outdoing my employees in labor and they are getting frustrated at me being a one person work crew that monopolizes the work we should be working together on. I wanna keep exercising and stretching because it's making me feel awesome and my ego lately has been thoroughly stroked and massaged and I feel a hell of a lot better than I did the previous months.

Oh ffs. I swear when I first read that opening sentence, it said you lost 3 penis sizes. :ohmy: I have not been getting enough sleep.

[motion denied]

Leg day at the gym.

do you feel my pain

[Bala Perdida]

A person came into the store at work and stole. I didn't care enough about a high person stealing 30 cents worth of poison to call security, but why the hell are you so obvious about it? Don't tell me your stealing, and don't come back and do it again. In all honesty I wouldn't have caught him the 2nd time if a kid didn't scream it out loud, but no one around cared so I just let it pass.

Goddamn it though, I'm gonna have to call security at some point.

[Sinister Intents]

I wanna tell the people that I'm not a man

[Anglo-Saxon Philistine]

I've basically become the male character from Human League's "Don't you want me?", and no, that's not supposed to sound good. I really have an authoritarian streak a mile wide, and if something in my life is not like I want it to be I go nuclear.

[Five Year Plan]

I saw this as I was driving home a short time ago. I was going to post it in the thread "Something small that annoys you for no good reason," but I think this annoyed me for a good reason. What's certainly small is the pecker of the guy whose truck this sticker was on.

http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-ihla_Gou8_8/UIHaSVngayI/AAAAAAAADFs/xKHlFgyOBH8/s1600/Capitalist.JPG

[Sinister Intents]

I feel out of place, disconnected, I feel like everything about me is wrong with how I represent myself versus how I feel and want to present myself. I really wish I could just come out and be completely honest about my feelings and just start being who I feel I am. Fuck I hate being called sir, bro, man, and shit like that. That's not fucking me. I want to be set free.

[Sinister Intents]

I'm also tired of sexist and homophobic bullshit. I haven't even came out and got to experience a transphobe today because of my earrings, my hair tied back with a pink hair tie. I should fire that kid....

[Loony Le Fist]

I saw this as I was driving home a short time ago. I was going to post it in the thread "Something small that annoys you for no good reason," but I think this annoyed me for a good reason. What's certainly small is the pecker of the guy whose truck this sticker was on.


I don't know if I can comment on the size of their wee-wee, but I can certainly say something about the size of their cerebrum. It also says something about their courage to face reality. Of course, I believe they are all positively correlated variables. :laugh:

[Five Year Plan]

I don't know if I can comment on the size of their wee-wee, but I can certainly say something about the size of their cerebrum. It also says something about their courage to face reality. Of course, I believe they are all positively correlated variables. :laugh:

I think by calling it a "wee-wee," you've already provided a commentary about its likely size.

[Bala Perdida]

A person came into the store at work and stole. I didn't care enough about a high person stealing 30 cents worth of poison to call security, but why the hell are you so obvious about it? Don't tell me your stealing, and don't come back and do it again. In all honesty I wouldn't have caught him the 2nd time if a kid didn't scream it out loud, but no one around cared so I just let it pass.

Goddamn it though, I'm gonna have to call security at some point.

Damn it fat boy! Why'd you come back!?! I had to call security and racially profile! I hate it!

I hope they didn't catch him. Seriously though, why is he so obvious? He thinks I'm his guy on the inside. I don't know how often he goes there. Steal from somewhere else once in a while, it's not that hard.

People these days, don't know how to expropriate.

[Rosa Partizan]

when I was younger, had less self-confidence and almost no friends or just people to hang out with and I was asked "what are your weekend plans?" I was like "oh, I'm gonna have a barbecue and chill in the sun and then go to a birthday party" and none of it was true. Nowadays, I don't give a fuck about it. Yesterday, I met with a close friend of mine who's been knowing me since 2006 and she was like "I never told you, but I observed some development during the last 2-3 years. You seem so much more relaxed, as if you don't have to proove anything anymore". This remark really hit home. She later asked me about my weekend plans and I said "goddamn I hate these super high temperatures, I'm gonna buy ice cream and won't leave the flat until Monday" and I wasn't ashamed to confess that 'cause as she said, I don't have to proove I'm super popular and I feel way more comfortable with who I am than I used to some years before (this is something I've seen with other friends, too). Part of this gain of confidence is of course because of others, because of their support and affection and confirmation that I'm great to be around with, even when I have these days when I wanna be alone and just lock up in my flat. Well, but unfortunately, my bff asked me for going out and eating ice cream tomorrow, I think I won't say no, but I'm gonna melt away for sure :(

[Sinister Intents]

My girlfriends shift got cancelled and I dropped her off at work. She's an hour away and it sucks she didn't know her shift was cancelled

[Trap Queen Voxxy]

Jut got off from a long ass sales day and boy are my lips tired, lol, now I'm home, alone. Son is gone. Husband he is gone. Guess I'm just gonna smoke weed and try to commit carbicide tonight. :( le sigh, le purrrrr

[Five Year Plan]

Jut got off from a long ass sales day and boy are my lips tired, lol, now I'm home, alone. Son is gone. Husband he is gone. Guess I'm just gonna smoke weed and try to commit carbicide tonight. :( le sigh, le purrrrr

What were you selling? Bubblegum?

[Trap Queen Voxxy]

What were you selling? Bubblegum?

No, I am actually phone slave again and I get moneys for charities.

[Psycho P and the Freight Train]

Your username makes me feel like there was some weird conspiracy between Disney and Mao to discredit communism. Mao did it by fucking up China and Disney did it by doing all that horrible propaganda against Scar in the Lion King. They wanted to starve the hyenas and kick them out of the pride lands and keep the greedy lions at the top of the food chain. Scar didn't kill Mufasa. It was Simba, as he even SANG A FUCKING SONG earlier in the movie about how he couldn't wait to be king.

[human strike]

I'm not a big fan of demonstrations, but I enjoyed marching in solidarity with Gaza in Bristol today. About 2,000 people turned out despite the thunderstorm, the vast majority of whom were Muslims. It was good to see a community that is usually quiet and keeps its head down getting rowdy about something. It was nice to see a community united in that way and to feel a part of it - I've never felt a community vibe like that which exists in this part of Bristol, it's rare to find that anywhere anymore. One of the few things that bothered me though were some of the white people (same old). "We are all Palestinians!" Are we? I'm certainly not and neither are you, mate. We're both white dudes and I think the difference is important. The way certain old white hippies fetishise Palestine disturbs me generally though. It was also notable how the onlooker reactions changed when we moved out of the predominantly Muslim area of the city into the centre. Whereas before people were clapping, beeping their horns and joining the march (it must of doubled in size by the time it reached the centre), later it was the bemused looks of disturbed shoppers, sometimes confused, sometimes scared, sometimes disgruntled. Again, white people.


when I was younger, had less self-confidence and almost no friends or just people to hang out with and I was asked "what are your weekend plans?" I was like "oh, I'm gonna have a barbecue and chill in the sun and then go to a birthday party" and none of it was true. Nowadays, I don't give a fuck about it. Yesterday, I met with a close friend of mine who's been knowing me since 2006 and she was like "I never told you, but I observed some development during the last 2-3 years. You seem so much more relaxed, as if you don't have to proove anything anymore". This remark really hit home. She later asked me about my weekend plans and I said "goddamn I hate these super high temperatures, I'm gonna buy ice cream and won't leave the flat until Monday" and I wasn't ashamed to confess that 'cause as she said, I don't have to proove I'm super popular and I feel way more comfortable with who I am than I used to some years before (this is something I've seen with other friends, too). Part of this gain of confidence is of course because of others, because of their support and affection and confirmation that I'm great to be around with, even when I have these days when I wanna be alone and just lock up in my flat. Well, but unfortunately, my bff asked me for going out and eating ice cream tomorrow, I think I won't say no, but I'm gonna melt away for sure :(

I can relate to that.


Your username makes me feel like there was some weird conspiracy between Disney and Mao to discredit communism. Mao did it by fucking up China and Disney did it by doing all that horrible propaganda against Scar in the Lion King. They wanted to starve the hyenas and kick them out of the pride lands and keep the greedy lions at the top of the food chain. Scar didn't kill Mufasa. It was Simba, as he even SANG A FUCKING SONG earlier in the movie about how he couldn't wait to be king.

Pinocchio could pass for a Hitler Youth film.

[Trap Queen Voxxy]

Your username makes me feel like there was some weird conspiracy between Disney and Mao to discredit communism. Mao did it by fucking up China and Disney did it by doing all that horrible propaganda against Scar in the Lion King. They wanted to starve the hyenas and kick them out of the pride lands and keep the greedy lions at the top of the food chain. Scar didn't kill Mufasa. It was Simba, as he even SANG A FUCKING SONG earlier in the movie about how he couldn't wait to be king.

That's actually not to far from my thoughts when creating it tbh. To me, I feel like Walt was America mirror and the same with Mao. It's like pretty crazy if you really think about it. I think they could've been in cohorts. I mean look at the cultural impact of both aesthetically speaking, alone. Idk.

[motion denied]

British English, despite being more beautiful, hurts my ears.

[Trap Queen Voxxy]

British English, despite being more beautiful, hurts my ears.

I like Australian English and Canadian English the best. Kiwis are pretty cool too. Americants and Britots? Nope nope.

[Loony Le Fist]

Anyone toy around with the Chromebook? My friend gave me one he had lying around he wasn't using. It seems really impressive so far. Of course, the first thing I did was put it into developer mode. I mean, where's all the fun without being able to toy around on the shell. :laugh: I think I'm going to throw an Ubuntu chroot on it.

I do think the touch pad is a bit clunky and they should all be touchscreen. Other than that, it's great.

[Rosa Partizan]

I eat something warm and start sweating immediately. C'mon sun, are you serious? Back down a bit, you've been really obtrusive lately...

[human strike]

I eat something warm and start sweating immediately. C'mon sun, are you serious? Back down a bit, you've been really obtrusive lately...

I've been spending most of these days indoors sleeping - fuck the sun.

[Quail]

My house is a lot tidier when I'm trying to convince someone I like that I'm not a complete slob. Seriously. Clean kitchen, clean living room... It's so unlike me haha.

[human strike]

I'm not sure what I'm doing here, I'm supposed to be in a 90s alternative rock band.

[Trap Queen Voxxy]

So, I'm in my hood at an AA meeting and I'm currently I. The bathroom killing my fith of vodka 100 proof. I'm awful. I hate this.

[Trap Queen Voxxy]

So, I'm in my hood at an AA meeting and I'm currently I. The bathroom killing my fith of vodka 100 proof. I'm awful. I hate this.

So, the total fuck tally for last night is. Got in a huge fight with one of my best friends on the phone via text and she said I scared her, apparently last night my roommate needed a cigarette paper and I said look in my purse and she found my vodka bottle and then her boyfriend woke me up and said "might wanna throw away the liquor bottle," and then slammed my door and they left so it's been a pretty shitty and awkward morning.

[#FF0000]

was hanging out w/ wobblies this weekend. drank half a handle of 10 dollar vodka and called them dorks. kept saying "capitalism did this to me" as i vomited

[Slavoj Zizek's Balls]

"The point is not to dirty the balls of those in power, but to cut them off." - Slavoj Zizek

[Sinister Intents]

My dad shows evidence of being influenced by Stirner and Proudhon as well as Voltaire. My mom has only background in spiritualism and catholicism. Both of my parents however led me to the path to becoming an anarchist communist. They both taught me to question and think about things. This really set in inside of me in 2009 and it led to me transforming as an individual plus influence from various morons that gave me some botched views. Ever since I've been in a process of ever changing where I go through mild and flow periods, to violent upheavals of my self into who I am now. I started out believing in the bourgeois construction of the state based on things my white supremacist grandfather said to me about how a strong centralized nation is necessary. When I became a communist I considered myself a Marxist because I believed in the state based on what Lenin said in State and Revolution and my reading of the communist manifesto. I look back now considering myself an anarchist communist and I feel mildly embarrassed of my beginnings in politics. I'm especially embarrassed in my belief in the state which is a bourgeois construction and an organ of violent class rule. The state will always be an organ of suppression and oppression and will always be a dull, lifeless, colorless centralized cancer that leads directly to death. Within this death is renewal of the same recurring thing over and over until people step in and ensure humanity can live collectively and freely.

[Brutus]

^ eye twitching as I try to refrain from starting a debate aha

[Sinister Intents]

^ eye twitching as I try to refrain from starting a debate aha

Go ahead :) just don't be an ass

[Slavoj Zizek's Balls]

Go ahead :) just don't be an ass

Or I'll dirty his balls... oops that slipped out! Too many Zizek analogies.

[Sinister Intents]

I got my girlfriend too baked last night and she had a panic attack :( I spent the night helping her feel bettee

[Art Vandelay]

My dad shows evidence of being influenced by Stirner and Proudhon as well as Voltaire. My mom has only background in spiritualism and catholicism. Both of my parents however led me to the path to becoming an anarchist communist. They both taught me to question and think about things. This really set in inside of me in 2009 and it led to me transforming as an individual plus influence from various morons that gave me some botched views. Ever since I've been in a process of ever changing where I go through mild and flow periods, to violent upheavals of my self into who I am now. I started out believing in the bourgeois construction of the state based on things my white supremacist grandfather said to me about how a strong centralized nation is necessary. When I became a communist I considered myself a Marxist because I believed in the state based on what Lenin said in State and Revolution and my reading of the communist manifesto. I look back now considering myself an anarchist communist and I feel mildly embarrassed of my beginnings in politics. I'm especially embarrassed in my belief in the state which is a bourgeois construction and an organ of violent class rule. The state will always be an organ of suppression and oppression and will always be a dull, lifeless, colorless centralized cancer that leads directly to death. Within this death is renewal of the same recurring thing over and over until people step in and ensure humanity can live collectively and freely.


eye twitching as I try to refrain from starting a debate aha


Go ahead :) just don't be an ass


The road to socialism lies through a period of the highest possible intensification of the principle of the state … Just as a lamp, before going out, shoots up in a brilliant flame, so the state, before disappearing, assumes the form of the dictatorship of the proletariat, i.e., the most ruthless form of state, which embraces the life of the citizens authoritatively in every direction...- Terrorism and Communism : A Reply to Karl Kautsky (1920; 1975), p. 177

Come at me yo.

[Sinister Intents]

So the road to socialism is through seizing control of a brutal organ of violent class rule and suppression. The state requires a producing class to suppress and oppress and any form of workers control contradicts the function of the state.

This is a rough draft as in I'm not done

I'll add a bunch of shit and revise.

Let's just outright destroy the state in a direct and immediate revolution. Destruction of the state destroys the class system

[Art Vandelay]

So the road to socialism is through seizing control of a brutal organ of violent class rule and suppression.

Yes.


The state requires a producing class to suppress and oppress and any form of workers control contradicts the function of the state.

No.

[Sinister Intents]

Yes.



No.

But what about the children!!! :crying:

[Art Vandelay]

So I'm going to be in the netherlands, france and germany over the coming month, what cool stuff is there that I need to do (falling outside of the guide book type stuff, some of which I am already planning)? Also what sort of nerdy historical leftist stuff is a must see?

[Sinister Intents]

Super fucking jealous^^^

[Rosa Partizan]

oh no, not another "summer's killing me"-post.

oh yes! It feels as if this heat is sucking dry my whole energy. I come home after 5 or 6 hours work and am completely exhausted and just wanna lay down and eat ice cream and tell anyone that goes like "c'mon downtown, weather's so awesome" to go fuck themselves and rot in hell.

[Slavoj Zizek's Balls]

That feeling when you are saturated with ideas. It's horrible. The words "Marxism", "Saussure", "Post-structuralism", "Althusser", "Ideology", "Balls", "Zizek", "Individualism", "Hegelianism", "Egoism", "Foucault" and "Society of the Spectacle" keep flying around my head.

Someone help please.

[Five Year Plan]

Just like you, when I think of "Zizek," I often think of the word "balls" as well.

[Slavoj Zizek's Balls]

Just like you, when I think of "Zizek," I often think of the word "balls" as well.

Right... well please keep your fantasies to yourself, I'm not into that stuff.

[Bala Perdida]

Goddamn I'm tired. My eye lids weigh like 4000 kilos.

[Sinister Intents]

Let's all play a game of burn the cop car :)

[consuming negativity]

Education is important but the American school system disgusts me. Nauseous as fuck just thinking back to my time in grade school and the incredible amount of propaganda I had to sift through to end up where I am.

[Trap Queen Voxxy]

Great, so, on top of fucking everything I get suspended from work or 30 days for no real reason. It's fucking awkward as shit at my house. Like wtf man.

[Ceallach_the_Witch]

in light of the last few pages I would like to request a name change to Slavoj_Zizeks_Balls





(I'M KIDDING HOLY SHIT DON'T)

[Sinister Intents]

Brownies!!!

[Sinister Intents]

I feel stupid as fuck and want to cut myself for various recent occurrences, but being with my girlfriend helps... I'm afraid of saying how I feel

[consuming negativity]

I feel stupid as fuck and want to cut myself for various recent occurrences, but being with my girlfriend helps... I'm afraid of saying how I feel

It will either go awesome, awful, or awkward. Are you feeling lucky?

That isn't meant to brush off your anxiety or problems, but rather to illustrate that you really won't know what's going to happen until you do it. Just be sure you're ready to deal with the answer. Not just eager, but legitimately stable. See the conundrum? As for me, I always think it's a good idea and then it always ends up terrible. There is always something left to be cleaned up. I am not a lucky person.

[Slavoj Zizek's Balls]

in light of the last few pages I would like to request a name change to Slavoj_Zizeks_Balls





(I'M KIDDING HOLY SHIT DON'T)


I... I think I might do that...

[Rosa Partizan]

I saw some of the women I graduated highschool with and came to the conclusion that many of them look way older than me and that I'm one of the few that looks better now than 9 years before. That gave me some deep satisfaction, since I've always been that unpopular nerdy girl with good grades, and now I'm hot and they look like my grandma did 30 years before. And then I had to remind myself that it's really shitty to be that superficial and judging of looks, but somehow, I can't help but feeling good. Don't blame me, patriarchy made me do this!

[Sinister Intents]

It will either go awesome, awful, or awkward. Are you feeling lucky?

That isn't meant to brush off your anxiety or problems, but rather to illustrate that you really won't know what's going to happen until you do it. Just be sure you're ready to deal with the answer. Not just eager, but legitimately stable. See the conundrum? As for me, I always think it's a good idea and then it always ends up terrible. There is always something left to be cleaned up. I am not a lucky person.

I was feeling this way from being triggered :( In which it became worse later on when my girlfriend asked about my previous relationship and I just spilled everything out and started biting myself and shaking violently and crying, but she comforted me and helped me feel better rapidly and I feel so much better today. Everything went very well past me having a bad panic attack and self harming

[Slavoj Zizek's Balls]

I was feeling this way from being triggered :( In which it became worse later on when my girlfriend asked about my previous relationship and I just spilled everything out and started biting myself and shaking violently and crying, but she comforted me and helped me feel better rapidly and I feel so much better today. Everything went very well past me having a bad panic attack and self harming

Your girlfriend. Boss level.

[Sinister Intents]

Your girlfriend. Boss level.

She's fucking amazing and I love her so much and she is literally someone I hope to spend the rest of my life with. I may not see monogamy as an ideal or believe in marriage, but I'd propose to her and all of that romantic stuff. I can't wait to pick her up from work later

[Slavoj Zizek's Balls]

She's fucking amazing and I love her so much and she is literally someone I hope to spend the rest of my life with. I may not see monogamy as an ideal or believe in marriage, but I'd propose to her and all of that romantic stuff. I can't wait to pick her up from work later

Just retain that healthy skepticism. I'm saying this for your benefit.

[Ele'ill]

I've been doing a pretty good job lately staying out of trouble, avoiding cops, avoiding assholes, avoiding weird situations that I seem to always end up in the middle of. ...But what just happened is pretty crazy I think, it's def. one of those things that happen to me a lot.

So, I am trying to decide what to do with my day and i'm in this neighborhood and its raining so I cross a neighborhood street, there's this blue tiny car a safe distance away approaching the intersection where i'm crossing. The guy has 2 be first tho and accelerates and swerves at me, trying to hit me. Apparently I am still in bad decision making mode/rebel youth/not feeling my age yet/dumb so I see him doing this and I slow walk and come to a stop in the middle of the road challenging the guy's decision. The guy came very close to hitting me with this car, I could have reached out and touched the right side of the hood. He had to swerve again to avoid it. So I finish my walk across the street and see him turning around in a drive way to come back. So naturally, I stand in the rain on the corner waiting for him to pull up and he does and he says something like 'if you ever walk that slow in front of me again I'll fucking kill you' (he's giving me the finger) so I'm just standing there smiling kinda puzzled kinda breathing cause fight or flight sucks. I just said something like 'ya but you actually swerved at me'. His reply was 'oh fuck you you faggot' and he gave me the finger again and drove off. I made a few hand gestures and gave him the finger while shrugging with probably a puzzled look.

I didn't approach his car when he turned around and pulled up, I didn't move at all, and he did nothing. I think that is a win for me, although I wonder sometimes if I'm selling myself short by letting people do that type of stuff to me, but, he could have been expecting that, and been holding a gun. "you can't even hit me with a car motherfucker you think that shits going to help you?" And that probably would have been the end of me, in the street, in the rain. Whatever, I guess I'll take being able to piss people off to such extremes over punching them. Oregon has mandatory minimum sentencing for assault too and its no joke.

[Ele'ill]

I bet my day gets weirder and this guy walks into the library. I can't wait for that. Or later tonight. Do you all think people like that have ever gotten their shit kicked? What motivates folks like that?

[Ethics Gradient, Traitor For All Ages]

Once while walking into a restaurant some idiot backing up in his giant red pickup almost hit my partner, but I managed to pull her out of the way in time. I gave him a dirty look and he stops, rolls down the window and just starts talking shit. I explained that he had almost hit her and that he should watch out for pedestrians next time. His response was to call me a nerd or something like that. I just remember standing there weighing my options, thinking that no matter what the outcome, no one my age looks cool getting into a fistfight over something stupid like being called a name. On top of that I'm pretty sure I would have gone home alone due to my partner not putting up with shit like that. I just let it go and went inside for dinner, there's nothing to gain from fighting an idiot like that. On the upside, imagine how awful their life must be if they walk around with enough anger at all times to go from 0 to 100 in just a few seconds because you were walking "too slowly". The situation could be worse, you could be them.

[RedAnarchist]

in light of the last few pages I would like to request a name change to Slavoj_Zizeks_Balls





(I'M KIDDING HOLY SHIT DON'T)

Something tells me that I might need to go into the Admin CP... :P

[Slavoj Zizek's Balls]

Something tells me that I might need to go into the Admin CP... :P

Plz no.

[Sinister Intents]

I just got home and came in to see that the dogs got in the trash and spread it all around. Yay.... I get to clean again...

[The Intransigent Faction]

I just got home and came in to see that the dogs got in the trash and spread it all around. Yay.... I get to clean again...

I swear that happens every week with my dog. The trash isn't the worst thing he's gotten into, either.

[Ceallach_the_Witch]

Something tells me that I might need to go into the Admin CP... :P

it's not that much worse a name than rousing_chorus tbh

[Zoroaster]

Right... well please keep your fantasies to yourself, I'm not into that stuff.

Also, I'm a bit lost. What is the deal with the "Slavoj Žižek's Balls" thing?

[Sinister Intents]

My girlfriend doesn't u derstand what being trans is like. I don't want to be male.... I can't accept my physicalitiws for how I feel.... I gotta atop drinking.

I don't think I can accept myself unless I make myself note the way I want to be which won't happen

Fucking bullshit with panic attacks lately

[Slavoj Zizek's Balls]

My girlfriend doesn't u derstand what being trans is like. I don't want to be male.... I can't accept my physicalitiws for how I feel.... I gotta atop drinking.

I don't think I can accept myself unless I make myself note the way I want to be which won't happen

Fucking bullshit with panic attacks lately

Just when I pointed out the need for healthy skepticism. What sick humour is this?

Please stop drinking. It won't help you actually change your situation. It just basks you in illusory emotions and numbness.


As for balls, basically a joke used by Zizek to explain the general rubbish the left (including the revleft) does in terms of the ineffectiveness of its praxis, merely dirtying the balls of those in power instead of cutting then off, while those in power [warning: potentially upsetting stuff ahead] rape your wife/your quality of life/things dear to you (as said in the joke by Zizek). In other words, just light superficial damage as opposed to full castration.

Here is the actual joke [more disturbing things ahead about rape] in paraphrased form (the characters he actually used were two farmers and a Mongol horseman, the setting being Russia at the time of the Mongol invasions):


Two slaves are walking in a desert, a husband and a wife. A warrior is riding along nearby on his horse and stops to get off his saddle as soon as he notices the two slaves. The brutish warrior notifies the slaves that he will have sex with the slave woman. To make it even more humiliating he tells the male slave to hold onto his balls while he is raping the woman so that his balls don’t get dirty. After the warrior has his pleasure with the woman, he leaves. The woman, humiliated, turns over to his husband and notices in disgust that he is laughing even though she had just been raped. The wife asks, “What’s there to be smiling about?” The husband replies giggling, “Don’t you see, I dirtied the master’s balls! The master told me to protect his balls, yet before grabbing his balls I got a handful of sand in.” This is the slave/master relationship that Zizek illustrates. The slave is nothing more than a fool who took a “simple pleasure” in dirtying the master’s balls despite his wife being raped. The fool will try to disobey the master without actually changing the master at all. In fact, it logically follows that the slave would be willing to have his wife raped again if it meant dirtying the master’s balls.

TL;DR: analogy for the left.

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[Quail]

SI - alcohol is probably making your panic attacks worse. Alcohol can lead to a vicious circle of drinking to feel less anxious, waking up more anxious due to a hangover, drinking that anxiety away... and so on. It's hard making it through the night sober, but you'll feel better for it.

[Loony Le Fist]

Fuck it SI. I'll lay off the drinking too. We'll be sober buddies together. :grin:

I need to quit drinking as well. Might as well have some company.

[Quail]

This is like my 3rd day without alcohol so I'll be sober too :grin: