What's on your mind? IX

[Sentinel]

Continued from here (http://www.revleft.com/vb/whats-your-mind-t183838/index.html).

[Quail]

It's kind of weird how my mind will accept different kinds of fantasy universes to different degrees. Space travel? Fine. Time travel? Okay. Vampires and demons? Sure. Superheroes? That's fucking ridiculous, I can't take that seriously.

[cyu]

https://twitter.com/EGO_TeeShirt/status/263976099942387712

"Okay, he's not a vigilante. He's an anarchist."
-The Amazing Spiderman-

;)

[TheGodlessUtopian]

Just got done mentoring duty at the Middle School. lol... was so awkward being in the classroom on the "power" side and keeping a small group of our students on track. At first I kinda stayed back and let the substitute (my actual mentor was on a Ski trip exchange thingy) handle things. But a bit later in the class I felt the waters some and managed to regulate the... inattentiveness. One of the students even seemed to respond to me; even the sub said so. Is just sad that I cannot log more time there but I guess I will have plenty of that in the coming years.

[Art Vandelay]

I'm making my supper for work right now and I was just cutting into a red pepper and there is green pepper on the inside of it. :confused: Never seen anything like it before. Wish I knew how to upload pictures cause this is weird and I don't know how to properly explain it.

[motion denied]

just posting to be on the first page

[Quail]

I'm making my supper for work right now and I was just cutting into a red pepper and there is green pepper on the inside of it. :confused: Never seen anything like it before. Wish I knew how to upload pictures cause this is weird and I don't know how to properly explain it.

I've seen this quite a lot. It is weird though I guess.

[Landsharks eat metal]

Just had such a huge meal I can hardly walk: 8oz steak, mashed potatoes, broccoli, and grilled bread. Fuck yeah EBT :D

[human strike]

I know I say this a lot, but I fucking love counselling! Something that feels so good can't be healthy, it just can't lol. I'm feeling more positive than I have in a fucking long time. I feel optimistic and whilst I don't want to get carried away, I really do think the progress I'm making and lessons I'm learning now can be life changing and in the most positive ways.

Increasingly my suicidal daydreams have been making way for homicidal daydreams; I also see this as progress. Earlier someone was talking to me about some bollocks - I never understand what he witters on about - and I was just fantasising about bludgeoning him to death with the balalaika I was holding. I can't play the balalaika but it's fun to pretend. I found a great comfort in the knowledge that I could murder him if I wanted, I have the power to do that, I'm just choosing not to. :)

[Yuppie Grinder]

i've come to the conclusion that i just really don't like gramsci after all

[human strike]

i've come to the conclusion that i just really don't like gramsci after all

Gramsci is dead, comrade. :)

[#FF0000]

"I'm gonna leave your sideburns cuz I like them"

Yo the person who cuts my hair knows how to get those tips.

[Yuppie Grinder]

yea i'm gonna stop hanging out with my friend who i spend the most time with all together, probably for the rest of my life
he admits he thinks he's more intelligent and talented than anyone in his life
he constantly lies to me in ways that benefit him in no way but inconvenience and annoy me all the time
he whines constantly
i'd rather just not have as many friends and not hang out with him

[Os Cangaceiros]

I've realized that I have a problem with spending money in stupid ways. I need to reign that in & learn to budget.

[#FF0000]

yea i'm gonna stop hanging out with my friend who i spend the most time with all together, probably for the rest of my life
he admits he thinks he's more intelligent and talented than anyone in his life
he constantly lies to me in ways that benefit him in no way but inconvenience and annoy me all the time
he whines constantly
i'd rather just not have as many friends and not hang out with him

Sounds like you're in a similar boat as me (we are both gonna be much better off)

[Os Cangaceiros]

Man, I really, really want to go out drinking. There are multiple reasons why I shouldn't (bad for my health, I have a math test tomorrow, I don't want to walk there in -6 degree cold & driving drunk would be irresponsible, waste of money, etc.) but goddamn if it isn't still a powerful urge.

[Os Cangaceiros]

I broke down and went to the bar and had a single drink. Had to scratch that itch.

The night was going pretty good, I had a conversation with some chef about food. Then some lady walked in, waved me over to her, told me that I "looked like you've never been to a bar before", look like "you go to the bar to get laid but don't know how", and "look like an actor, you have that facial structure". And that it was beginning to look "trashy" in the bar (I guess because I live in the ghetto of this city and the bar is located in the same "bad neighborhood"...someone got robbed at gunpoint in the parking lot of the strip club across the street not that long ago) Then she wanted to know if I wanted to do shots with her, but I was going to be damned if that was gonna happen, not only because I was driving but because apparently she thought it was OK to insult a complete stranger. Harumph! :mad:

[The Jay]

I hate Good Morning America more than FOX News. At least FOX knows that it is bullshit. GMA is just FOX with a Disney skin.

[tallguy]

Just got done mentoring duty at the Middle School. lol... was so awkward being in the classroom on the "power" side and keeping a small group of our students on track.....
If you feel "awkward" on the "power side" of a relationship in a classroom setting with students, then you need to get a grip. Either that or get out of the classroom. Power differentials between teacher and students are inevitable due to differences of knowledge. What marks a good and honourable teacher out is that they do not abuse that power. If you are inherently uncomfortable in confidently and honourably wielding the power such a role inevitably confers, then you shouldn't be in a classroom.

[human strike]

I've noticed that when I'm sleep deprived my anxiety can reduce significantly. Does anyone have any ideas or theories as to why that might be? I suspect it might have something to do with dopamine levels.

[Admiral Swagmeister G-Funk]

I know I say this a lot, but I fucking love counselling! Something that feels so good can't be healthy, it just can't lol. I'm feeling more positive than I have in a fucking long time. I feel optimistic and whilst I don't want to get carried away, I really do think the progress I'm making and lessons I'm learning now can be life changing and in the most positive ways.

Increasingly my suicidal daydreams have been making way for homicidal daydreams; I also see this as progress. Earlier someone was talking to me about some bollocks - I never understand what he witters on about - and I was just fantasising about bludgeoning him to death with the balalaika I was holding. I can't play the balalaika but it's fun to pretend. I found a great comfort in the knowledge that I could murder him if I wanted, I have the power to do that, I'm just choosing not to. :)
so edgy

[The Jay]

I've noticed that when I'm sleep deprived my anxiety can reduce significantly. Does anyone have any ideas or theories as to why that might be? I suspect it might have something to do with dopamine levels.

Do you exercise?

[TheGodlessUtopian]

If you feel "awkward" on the "power side" of a relationship in a classroom setting with students, then you need to get a bloody grip. Either that or get out of the classroom. Power differentials between teacher and students are inevitable due to differences of knowledge. What marks a good and honourable teacher out is that they do not abuse that power. If you are inherently uncomfortable in confidently and honourably wielding the power such a role inevitably confers, then you shouldn't be in a classroom.

Dude, get off your high horse. It was my first experience being in the classroom as a mentor (not a paid position, part of my training at college), ever, so I have a right to be a bit awkward since the last time I was in this scenario I was the student. I never said I was inherently uncomfortable with it; in fact, if you actually bothered to read my post instead of just being a troll and attacking me outright, you would have seen that I was very excited to continue my work with the students there. And of, course, you are the only one talking about abuse as if you are teacher supreme. In short: next time you reply to one of my posts actually contribute to the content in a meaningful way or do not bother to do so at all.

[human strike]

so edgy

I wasn't trying to be edgy at all. There's a reason why I fantasised about hurting him specifically. Usually I'm too involved in beating myself up to even feel anger towards other people and it genuinely pleases me for that to change and I honestly think it's a sign of progress. So don't be such a dick. :(


Do you exercise?

No.

[Landsharks eat metal]

I'm trying to relax at the library but the obnoxious fucker who yells at people about Jesus through a megaphone is nearby and I can sort of hear him through the window all the way up on the 5th floor. Wish that dude would just stay on Market St where he was before. hate that guy. But once I saw someone throw a drink at him, which was funny.

[Crabbensmasher]

I've noticed that when I'm sleep deprived my anxiety can reduce significantly. Does anyone have any ideas or theories as to why that might be? I suspect it might have something to do with dopamine levels.

Yeah, I get that too. Despite the fact that I really hate being sleep deprived, it helps me a lot during drawn out conversations. I guess I'm normally a bit anxious when I'm speaking. It's not like a million thoughts are popping into my head a second or anything, I guess it's just that I'm a bit on edge.

In the past I know, like if your in a job interview, on a date or something, you always feel like you need to keep the conversation going, even if it is irrational. You're more preoccupied with making an impression than what you're actually talking about. So you're kind of focusing on two things at once, and it can be kind of hard to juggle.
Anyway, when I'm sleep deprived, I can actually pause and think about what somebody is saying/ what I'm going to say. It almost, like, slows everything down. Suddenly, there's no pressure. I feel like a wise old sage or some shit. I think your brain just says "Fuck it, I can only focus on one thing right now", that being the dialogue. Suddenly, you're not so worried about awkward pauses or distractions. You're free, man

[cyu]

was so awkward being in the classroom on the "power" side and keeping a small group of our students on track. a bit later in the class I felt the waters some and managed to regulate the... inattentiveness.


Made me think of http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pedagogy_of_the_Oppressed but didn't want to mention it at first - you've probably already heard of it, but anyway...

Freire calls traditional pedagogy the "banking model" because it treats the student as an empty vessel to be filled with knowledge, like a piggy bank. However, he argues for pedagogy to treat the learner as a co-creator of knowledge.

Freire rejects the "banking" approach, claiming it results in the dehumanization of both the students and the teachers. In addition, he argues the banking approach stimulates oppressive attitudes and practices in society.

Pedagogy of the Oppressed is a revolutionary text, and people in totalitarian states risk punishment reading it. During the South African anti-apartheid struggle, ad-hoc copies of Pedagogy of the Oppressed were distributed underground as part of the "ideological weaponry" of various revolutionary groups like the Black Consciousness Movement. In the 1970s and 1980s the book was banned and kept clandestine.

[Sinister Intents]

Feeling like an idiot and very negative, if anyone feels like talking to me I'd appreciate it. Not good state of mind at all,

[Rugged Collectivist]

I'm trying to relax at the library but the obnoxious fucker who yells at people about Jesus through a megaphone is nearby and I can sort of hear him through the window all the way up on the 5th floor. Wish that dude would just stay on Market St where he was before. hate that guy. But once I saw someone throw a drink at him, which was funny.

Take his megaphone and throw it in a lake. If he objects, tell him god is dead.

[Sinister Intents]

Tired.

[TheGodlessUtopian]

Last night a friend and I hung out for a few hours talking politics. The topic at hand was the transition from capitalism to communism. Lots of topics where breached including morality, material conditions, means and mode of production, conflict, and so on. Also had to debunk the popular “social democracy is socialism!” argument. He was very intent on the human nature fallacy. Very rigid in believing that communism is impossible because humanity would always find something to bicker about hence making them incapable of working together. The conversation, however, did take some interesting turns in regards to theory but nothing evolutionary in scale. In all though it was a swell time.

Later on in the night I asked him what his sexual orientation was (because I am lonely and hopeful). As it turns out he is not straight but rather asexual. Came as a surprise. I mean, I was hoping against hope that he wasn’t straight but was not actually expecting him to be something other than heterosexual. So we talked a bit about that and felt that afterwards it was a positive thing sending the email.

I still wish I could be with him but I am content now that I know who he is and that things are far more open than they were before. Feels like a weight has been lifted from my shoulders.

[Rosa Partizan]

The last 6 weeks or so, I spent 500 bucks on perfume. I feel like a shopping addicted jerk. But at least a nice smelling one.

[Criminalize Heterosexuality]

I wonder if it's possible to buy a Nazi flag without seeming like a Nazi (my bald head pro'lly wouldn't help). You see, my homophobic former "friend"'s birthday is soon, and apparently it's illegal to just mail people explosive devices.

[Sinister Intents]

I wonder if it's possible to buy a Nazi flag without seeming like a Nazi (my bald head pro'lly wouldn't help). You see, my homophobic former "friend"'s birthday is soon, and apparently it's illegal to just mail people explosive devices.

Buy it and say you're gonna burn it! Also where the fuck do you buy one so you can burn it or destroy it?

My cellphone smells funny.

[Sinister Intents]

When I see who is online and there are mods I think to myself the cats are on :) (I mean this in a good way)

[Futility Personified]

I wish there were clubs that played music besides chart music in the immediate area. I know some people on here enjoy chart music, whatever is your vibe, fair, whatever, but! I can't help feel that when all you listen to is that, you are enjoying what you are told to enjoy. There is no independence of thought here, no stubborn indicator of personality. There is only dull, tedious consumerist propaganda, and that's fine, some of the time, you know? you can't be switched on, or jamming out hard, or shouting slogans, or pilling out your mind to garage or jungle or whatever constantly on the weekend, I get it. Sometimes, mindless self indulgence (though not the fucking awful band) can be a good thing, sure. But all the time? Every fucking weekend? Constantly? Jesus fucking wept, I can think of nothing more terrible.

[human strike]

I had a really nice night tonight just hanging out sat around a fire with some friends, singing some songs, talking some feels. Started off at some punk gig, but I'm glad we left when we did - fires are way better.

I've put this in spoilers because I know how sensitive some people are to hippy bollocks and I sympathise with that, I really do, but the reason we had the fire and talked feels was because it was Imbolc. Whatever, I liked it. We talked about how we felt about the last six weeks and our hopes for the next six weeks. Apparently my friend does this with people every six weeks so come spring equinox we'll do it again. :)

[Igor]

my money

[tallguy]

my money
:lol::lol::lol:

My lack of money

[TheGodlessUtopian]

So my inclinations are getting the better of me and I am resolved to ask my crush if he is a romantic and what his interest is in possibly dating me (or dating in general). I invited him over to talk tonight so if he accepts I will hopefully not chicken out.

Edit: He said he was busy tonight so it seems I will be left to my own devices once more. *sigh* ...I feel depressed.

[human strike]

Feels really inappropriate to post this right after what you've just said Utopian (sorry), so I'll put it in spoilers...

I got a date! :grin:

EDIT: Oh wow, I got an angry ex text - I've never had one of those before! Tonight sure has been exciting. :laugh:

[Quail]

I drank on an empty stomach after a national afed meeting and now I feel really embarrassed because I was totally hammered and there were a couple of comrades there who don't really know me that well.

[Rosa Partizan]

Wtf is this shit

I'm at work and can't access this page (now I'm using my mobile phone). It says "category intolerance and hate speech denied by webblocker policy". Go and fuck yourself, how am I supposed to spend my time at work? Def not in mood for working, duh. stupid assholes.

[Igor]

called in sick today due to a violent hangover

tearing down capitalism one bottle of shit estonian vodka at a time

[Art Vandelay]

Has anyone ever continued sleeping with someone after a break up? And if so, was it an awful idea that further complicated an already complex and difficult situation?

[Rosa Partizan]

Has anyone ever continued sleeping with someone after a break up? And if so, was it an awful idea that further complicated an already complex and difficult situation?

Yes, this is an awful idea.

[Quail]

Yes, this is an awful idea.

Depends on the circumstances, but I'd tend to agree with this.

[Art Vandelay]

Yes, this is an awful idea.

Not really what I wanted to hear, but kinda what I was thinking in the back of my mind regardless. :glare:

[human strike]

Has anyone ever continued sleeping with someone after a break up? And if so, was it an awful idea that further complicated an already complex and difficult situation?

I've continued not only sleeping with but living with someone after a breakup. Neither is especially advisable to be honest. In some ways it made things easier, but in other ways quite a bit harder. I think it really depends on the people involved and their situation though.

[Quail]

In a vegan facebook group thread about hospital food...

"They can't afford houmous on the NHS but they can afford to vaccinate you..."

Lol, because having houmous on offer is way more important than eradicating dangerous childhood diseases? Those are some interesting priorities.


Ah, sorry Qyail, I keep lumping vegans with freethinkers - it's my bad.


Yeah I've just been brainwashed by big pharma man... because I don't want my child or any other children to die or suffer permanent effects from preventable diseases. I'm sorry but I can't stand pseudo-scientific conspiracy bullshit, especially when it's actually harming people.

& for the record there would be vaccinations in my anarchist utopia.

Honestly fuck anti-vax people. It makes me so angry that people are actively choosing to put not only their own children but people with compromised immune systems and people who can't be vaccinated at risk. And then this person calls themselves a freethinker and implies people who vaccinate are brainwashed... Ugh the smug stupidity.

[Quail]

Ugh. I'm just going to leave this debate before I get myself banned from the group.


Aw Quail, bless ya. I know you mean well.

Well aren't you patronising. If you can give me a single scientific study backing up the idea that vaccines are bad for people, I will eat my steel capped vegan boots. Seriously, why do you think people don't get smallpox any more (or TB, or polio, or... you should get the picture by now)? It didn't just die out on its own. Enough people got vaccinated to eradicate it. I would be happy to let you stew in your own smug ignorance, but people who choose not to vaccinate are literally choosing to allow people to die from preventable illnesses so it's not just an idiotic conspiracy theory, it's a dangerous idiotic conspiracy theory.

(I guess I should do something other than moan about facebook debates on a message board too... I'd say that's a serious sign of needing to get a life. :unsure:)

[Rosa Partizan]

props for your veganism anyway!

[Comrade Jacob]

My YouTube inbox is filled with stuff related to the super-bowl, hell, I didn't even know it was on, just shows how little I care.

[Sinister Intents]

When someone who rarely thanks my posts thanks my posts :)

[Landsharks eat metal]

My friend got injured an was in the hospital for a little bit. I'm mostly worried about him and hoping he'll get better soon, but I also find myself being almost upset that he wasn't available to help talk me through a rough time yesterday because he's usually the best at that. I feel like a piece of shit.

[cyu]

I also find myself being almost upset that he wasn't available to help talk me through a rough time yesterday because he's usually the best at that.

We're all in this together - probably better for all relationships to be a two-way street than a one-way street in either direction =]

[human strike]

My date's been rescheduled. Asked a mate if he knew of anything occurring this eve I could do instead. He said he's going to a Left Unity social... Yeah, hanging out in a pub with some old socialists, that'll cheer me up. It bothers me that some of my friends genuinely believe that's a fun thing to do.

[Rosa Partizan]

My date's been rescheduled. Asked a mate if he knew of anything occurring this eve I could do instead. He said he's going to a Left Unity social... Yeah, hanging out in a pub with some old socialists, that'll cheer me up. It bothers me that some of my friends genuinely believe that's a fun thing to do.

no chance that there are some hot chicks? :drool:

[Rugged Collectivist]

Quail, you should show them this video

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That show was actually pretty good if you could ignore the rank libertarianism.

[human strike]

no chance that there are some hot chicks? :drool:

I would be surprised if there were any women under 40 there at all.

[Vladimir Innit Lenin]

I find it both inspiring and discouraging that a 65 year old can look this good:

http://brucespringsteen.net/content/uploads/2014/02/3-approved-72x800-quote-steve-instructs-tommy-and-i-on-the-details..7E1A6391-700x466.jpg

[tallguy]

I find it both inspiring and discouraging that a 65 year old can look this good:


What we are looking at there is money and privilege, almost certinaly gained at an equal and opposite expense of someone or something else, somewhere else on the planet. The fact that the causal link between the one and the other is indirect and tortuous does not diminish the reality of that relationship.

[Os Cangaceiros]

Quail, you should show them this video


This is a pretty good resource too: http://antiantivax.flurf.net/

[Trap Queen Voxxy]

I touched and was close to what was probably the most ugliest dog in history, I mean this thing looks like an ancient Narnian beast, but what's important here is I didn't explode or scream to much or anything. I know, I live an exciting life, tell me about it.

#bIgSTePsHaHaWOAhSaH

[Vladimir Innit Lenin]

What we are looking at there is money and privilege, almost certinaly gained at an equal and opposite expense of someone or something else, somewhere else on the planet. The fact that the causal link between the one and the other is indirect and tortuous does not diminish the reality of that relationship.

His relationship to other people is not really an exploitative one since he's not a 'boss', but yeah obviously money does help a person like him.

Still, the point is that at 65 he's still the ideal of professionalism, creativity and longevity, and there's much to admire in him because of that.

[tallguy]

His relationship to other people is not really an exploitative one since he's not a 'boss', but yeah obviously money does help a person like him.

Still, the point is that at 65 he's still the ideal of professionalism, creativity and longevity, and there's much to admire in him because of that.
I'm not having a go at him personally since he is simply part of an exploitive system. He is no more responsible, in that respect, than I am for still being reasonably fit and well fed at fifty instead of being knackered and at death's door. I am under no illusion, though, that my good fortune is due to living in an economic system that has benefited me (albeit merely as an incidental side effect to my masters being benefited far more handsomely) at the expense of someone else on the other side of the planet. For someone to profit, someone or something else somewhere else has to incur a loss.

[Vladimir Innit Lenin]

I'm not having a go at him personally since he is simply part of an exploitive system. He is no more responsible, in that respect, than I am for still being reasonably fit and well fed at fifty instead of being knackered and at death's door. I am under no illusion, though, that my good fortune is due to living in an economic system that has benefited me (albeit merely as an incidental side effect to my masters being benefited far more handsomely) at the expense of someone else on the other side of the planet. For someone to profit, someone or something else somewhere else has to incur a loss.

not really, that only occurs in a non-temporal model of economics. If you have different time periods (which we do), and assume that economic growth exists (which it does), then what you're saying doesn't hold true, otherwise we'd still all be living in huts/wooden cottages on farms.

But yeah, I was just commenting on the guy's body/wellbeing. really. I'm too shallow to consider anything else.

[Ceallach_the_Witch]

i was goofing around last night walking home and I slipped on wet pavement - result I've knocked my shoulder all out of shape (not broken, thankfully) and pretty well flayed my knees and the palm of my left hand.

at least I'm not hungover.

[Trap Queen Voxxy]

I love waking up to no heat or electric, thanks complex!

[human strike]

There's something I don't understand that bothers me. I'm not sure why my ex has been asking to see me. I don't get her reasons for it because though she's ok with talking on the phone with me, in person she's just too awkward to maintain a proper conversation and there really doesn't seem to be anything she actually wants to talk about. It's unsettling because I don't at all feel like I can say no, I'm in love with her and I want to see her, but I also don't see the point of these meetings. She lies to me too. Just little lies (for the most part) about things that aren't important and I know they're lies because I can tell when she's lying. I don't get it. Why ask to meet up with me just to lie about things that don't matter? It's not even that she's rubbing things in my face like how over me she is or anything like that that people sometimes do after relationships, she's actively hiding that stuff and lying about it. She doesn't seem to be doing too well, I wonder if she wants emotional support from me, but she doesn't seem able to actually talk about anything, so she sort of just awkwardly sits there. If I had any sense I would just say I'd prefer not to see her, I'm not getting anything from it, it's only unsettling me. Why does she want to see me? Does anybody understand what this is?

[Vladimir Innit Lenin]

i was goofing around last night walking home and I slipped on wet pavement - result I've knocked my shoulder all out of shape (not broken, thankfully) and pretty well flayed my knees and the palm of my left hand.

at least I'm not hungover.

try not to break your shoulder, it's painful/6 months of torture. :(

[tallguy]

not really, that only occurs in a non-temporal model of economics. If you have different time periods (which we do), and assume that economic growth exists (which it does), then what you're saying doesn't hold true, otherwise we'd still all be living in huts/wooden cottages on farms.

But yeah, I was just commenting on the guy's body/wellbeing. really. I'm too shallow to consider anything else.That's why I said something else as well as someone else. For the last 250 years we have experienced unique growth on the back of the one time draw down of the stored solar energy of millennia, in turn allowing us to cause the earth itself to incur much of those losses. Nevertheless, great losses have also been incurred by other people on other parts of the planet, often as an indirect consequence of those environmental losses.

However, since we are now hitting the global limits of those natural resources, the losses must be once again fully incurred by other humans. Indeed, much of the financial shenanigans of the last half decade or so have been about precisely that. As profit is becoming ever more difficult to extract from the earth itself, in order for the upper economic echelons to maintain the size of cake they have become accustomed to overt the last couple of centuries, the rest of us are now going to have to put up with fewer crumbs thrown our way. To that extent, the future is looking set to be a re-run of our pre-industrial past in term of the disparity between rich and poor.

Unless we do something pretty drastic and pretty quickly about it.

[Vladimir Innit Lenin]

That's why I said something else as well as someone else. For the last 250 years we have experienced unique growth on the back of the one time draw down of the stored solar energy of millennia, in turn allowing us to cause the earth itself to incur much of those losses. Nevertheless, great losses have also been incurred by other people on other parts of the planet, often as an indirect consequence of those environmental losses.

However, since we are now hitting the global limits of those natural resources, the losses must be once again fully incurred by other humans. Indeed, much of the financial shenanigans of the last half decade or so have been about precisely that. As profit is becoming ever more difficult to extract from the earth itself, in order for the upper economic echelons to maintain the size of cake they have become accustomed to overt the last couple of centuries, the rest of us are now going to have to put up with fewer crumbs thrown our way. To that extent, the future is looking set to be a re-run of our pre-industrial past in term of the disparity between rich and poor.

Unless we do something pretty drastic and pretty quickly about it.

Limits to natural resources? What are you, some sort of Malthusian? Last time I checked there was plenty of green and pleasant land in this little overcrowded country called Great Britain, the sun has plenty of power to harness and food should be plentiful (though granted, climate change could be a factor for food/water supply/distribution).

In any case, i'm really not sure why you're grinding my gears on this in this thread, it's really not relevant.

[Quail]

Okay, I have a confession to make. I heard mousy noises and I need a daily dose of cute so I put some chocolate drops on the kitchen floor and I'm sitting here watching out for the mouse.

... I won't feed it again I swear.

[tallguy]

Limits to natural resources? What are you, some sort of Malthusian? Last time I checked there was plenty of green and pleasant land in this little overcrowded country called Great Britain, the sun has plenty of power to harness and food should be plentiful (though granted, climate change could be a factor for food/water supply/distribution).

In any case, i'm really not sure why you're grinding my gears on this in this thread, it's really not relevant.I'm not attempting to grind anyone's gear. I'm just responding to posts as they arise.

In response to your post, above:

http://i958.photobucket.com/albums/ae67/stevecook172001/pop8.jpg (http://s958.photobucket.com/user/stevecook172001/media/pop8.jpg.html)

Wake up mate. The crisis that is coming is bigger than yours, mine or anyone else's political ideology. Having said that, socialism is just about the only ideology that is even remotely likely to help us steer a path through it without destroying ourselves and much of the rest of the mega fauna and flora. Even then, it's an unimaginably grim journey we have ahead of us.

[Landsharks eat metal]

Good news on the trans front for me, I guess. Yesterday I went to Queer Youth Meal Night and met a cool trans guy. I felt able to connect with him more than the other trans people I've met so far. I've mostly just met a ton of trans women, and the few trans men I've met have all been significantly further in their transition. Even though we're from very different cultural backgrounds, he is currently facing the same sorts of family issues I did. Unfortunately, he is planning on going to Peru in March for some sort of medical treatment, but I think it will be fun getting to know him until then.

Plus tomorrow I have an appointmnet for intake at a trans clinic. They say it usually tkes a few months, but this will at least be starting the process of trying to get me on testosterone. Plus they said it should be covered with my insurance.

[motion denied]

Welcome to where time stands still
No one leaves, and no one will

[Landsharks eat metal]

So the appointment thing didn't happen. The guy who took me seemed to think I was going to be able to just walk in and start, but the receptionist had me make an appointment 2 weeks out. I don't know how the hell that guy didn't know how it goes since he fucking works there. I'm just pissed. I walked about 45 minutes all the way to the Castro and achieved very nearly nothing.

[Rosa Partizan]

10 years ago, I could handle more alcohol than now, which kinda sucks.

[Art Vandelay]

10 years ago, I could handle more alcohol than now, which kinda sucks.

I've never understood why people didn't love being lightweights. It means its cheaper to get drunk, you should be rejoicing!

[human strike]

Whoever said, "It is better to have loved and to have lost than to have never loved at all," was a fucking liar. What I had with my ex was so close and so intimate, I've never known love like it. I'm scared to let myself love anyone so intently again for fear of another loss like this. I'm really not sure it was worth it; we've both come out of it so damaged and have both acted so insane. All I want is to make her better, but that's impossible and not just because she's still trying to hurt and punish me in some ways. Now I really know that I just have to cut her out completely and focus solely on myself from now on. :(

[Rosa Partizan]

I've never understood why people didn't love being lightweights. It means its cheaper to get drunk, you should be rejoicing!

yeah, but look, dude, I'm 27 now, I don't drink for the sake of getting drunk as I used to do, but for the taste. I buy less alcohol, but spend more for quality. By the way, last month when buying alcohol I had to show my ID twice to convince them I'm not underage. Fuck yeah.

[Quail]

I've never understood why people didn't love being lightweights. It means its cheaper to get drunk, you should be rejoicing!

It's good if I just want to drink a couple of cans and get a buzz, but it's not so great when I'm with other people and I'm already drunk just as they're starting to get tipsy.

[Criminalize Heterosexuality]

I've been browsing through some old threads on this site, and, despite what people have told me, I think this site has improved. I still can't figure out why people who want market mechanisms aren't restricted but it's a start, I guess.

[TheGodlessUtopian]

He finally responded... with a minor three sentence response telling me precious little. Hmph... well, if he does not want to talk about it than I have to respect his wishes and where he is in life. I cannot force anything, nor would I want to. I suppose I shall have to see if he contacts me I'm the future but if not then that is that.

[Os Cangaceiros]

Speaking of alcohol, stopping drinking has been a lot more difficult than I thought it would initially. I quit cigarettes pretty easily so I thought it would be a cakewalk, but it seems that it's not the case with alcohol :( I'm skeptical of AA but I don't really know of any resources around here besides AA, and I feel the need to get help from people who have experienced the same problems with alcoholism that I have. So I'm considering going to a meeting or something. I feel like it's kind of somehow "shameful" to go to AA, like just sitting through AA is a sign that I have a bad problem, but at the same time if I keep drinking hard I'm going to die, probably sooner rather than later.

My friends are disdainful of this kind of thing, I can't rely on them for support on this, they're going to ride life hard, fair play to them I guess. I'm having a very hard time socializing wit people without alcohol, though. It's not that I cant. It just seems like alcohol finds it's way into most of my social interactions with people and I end up drinking a lot.

[Quail]

Speaking of alcohol, stopping drinking has been a lot more difficult than I thought it would initially. I quit cigarettes pretty easily so I thought it would be a cakewalk, but it seems that it's not the case with alcohol :( I'm skeptical of AA but I don't really know of any resources around here besides AA, and I feel the need to get help from people who have experienced the same problems with alcoholism that I have. So I'm considering going to a meeting or something. I feel like it's kind of somehow "shameful" to go to AA, like just sitting through AA is a sign that I have a bad problem, but at the same time if I keep drinking hard I'm going to die, probably sooner rather than later.

My friends are disdainful of this kind of thing, I can't rely on them for support on this, they're going to ride life hard, fair play to them I guess. I'm having a very hard time socializing wit people without alcohol, though. It's not that I cant. It just seems like alcohol finds it's way into most of my social interactions with people and I end up drinking a lot.
There's no shame in seeking help if you need it. Alcohol is a very addictive and destructive drug. I think the social aspect of alcohol is quite difficult because people question why you're not drinking a lot. Although actually I find it easier to go out and socialise without drinking than be alone without drinking, which probably can't be good. I usually tell people I don't feel like drinking or I don't have much money.

[Art Vandelay]

Whoever said, "It is better to have loved and to have lost than to have never loved at all," was a fucking liar. What I had with my ex was so close and so intimate, I've never known love like it. I'm scared to let myself love anyone so intently again for fear of another loss like this. I'm really not sure it was worth it; we've both come out of it so damaged and have both acted so insane. All I want is to make her better, but that's impossible and not just because she's still trying to hurt and punish me in some ways. Now I really know that I just have to cut her out completely and focus solely on myself from now on. :(

I believe it was Shakespeare and to be honest, its always seemed pretty true to me. Breakups do suck though, I'm still trying to get over one at the moment and probably won't be able to for a while. I can definitely relate to the feeling of being scared to let anyone in, I'm kinda the same way. If you don't let anyone in, then you can't get hurt, but at the same time you miss out on alot too.

e: I guess it wasn't Shakespeare but Alfred, Lord Tennyson.

[Vladimir Innit Lenin]

I'm worried that my politics has gone backwards. I have found that the past few months on here I have been unable to form a coherent theoretical argument on pretty much anything, and my real-life political activity has somewhat dwindled.

I don't know if this has something to do with not currently being a worker (student), although I am 'working' on placement for pretty much 50-60 hours per week.

It's quite worrying me. I haven't even developed any reactionary views, I just seem to lack the ability to actually form a theoretically valid argument on anything relevant to socialist politics at the moment. Hmm.

[Quail]

I'm worried that my politics has gone backwards. I have found that the past few months on here I have been unable to form a coherent theoretical argument on pretty much anything, and my real-life political activity has somewhat dwindled.

I don't know if this has something to do with not currently being a worker (student), although I am 'working' on placement for pretty much 50-60 hours per week.

It's quite worrying me. I haven't even developed any reactionary views, I just seem to lack the ability to actually form a theoretically valid argument on anything relevant to socialist politics at the moment. Hmm.

Could it just be that you feel a bit burned out and/or tired? Sometimes when I come here there are threads that I would really like to respond to but when I try to formulate anything resembling a coherent post it just doesn't work and I have to delete it.

[ed miliband]

cannae be bothered to go into too much detail, but had a really weird, subtle but significant knock back from a friend-of-a-friend which basically amounted to telling me to fuck off. i'm not sure why, but it's stranger because we were hanging out last night getting on pretty well, no sense of tension, didn't get the impression they disliked me, had some pretty cool conversations, didn't leave on bad terms, etc.

i'm just bemused and a bit anxious as to what i could have possibly done wrong, but the strangeness of it all is overwhelming any sense of insult.

:confused::confused::confused:

[ed miliband]

and it's also awkward because they're somebody i'll probably see a lot of, but i don't know what i've done to cause offence, so...

[Ceallach_the_Witch]

I'm worried that my politics has gone backwards. I have found that the past few months on here I have been unable to form a coherent theoretical argument on pretty much anything, and my real-life political activity has somewhat dwindled.

I don't know if this has something to do with not currently being a worker (student), although I am 'working' on placement for pretty much 50-60 hours per week.

It's quite worrying me. I haven't even developed any reactionary views, I just seem to lack the ability to actually form a theoretically valid argument on anything relevant to socialist politics at the moment. Hmm.

i know the feeling, and by extension i've found myself unable to do much apart from aimlessly flop about on the ground floor (in terms of understanding etcetera) when it comes to the reading and writing i have to do at university. Hell, I'm even having trouble playing games intelligently or reading any particularly demanding books or news articles, it's almost like someone replaced my brain with a bundle of old elastic bands (looks roughly the same, right?) The unpleasant irony is that I'm aware of how mentally lethargic I'm being but doing anything about it seems kind of out of my grasp.

[Vladimir Innit Lenin]

Could it just be that you feel a bit burned out and/or tired? Sometimes when I come here there are threads that I would really like to respond to but when I try to formulate anything resembling a coherent post it just doesn't work and I have to delete it.

burned out from work, yes. Burned out from politics, no, because I haven't really done all that much this year aside from anarchist bookfair and some early attempts to form a discussion group with friends.

I feel like certain posters on here make very intelligent posts that reflect their deep understanding of the current state of revolutionary politics, movements and theory, which I seem to be lacking somewhat. And to be honest, there are very few people or groups on the organised left that I find appealing at all, so a lot of the time I feel quite isolated from both sides - from non-revolutionary politics which I just am not going to participate in, and from revolutionaries who either mimic god squad preachers in their devotion to some historical figure, or are just boring as fuck.

[cyu]

I believe it was Shakespeare and to be honest, its always seemed pretty true to me. Breakups do suck though


Yeah, I've been through unpleasant breakups, but looking back on them now, I honestly think those relationships were each a learning experience and have changed the way I approach things. I guess as with anything, when I'm a noob, I have no clue what to expect and what negative things my actions may result in - I guess as long as you're willing to make some changes in your approach for the next relationship, you'll come out OK.



there are very few people or groups on the organised left that I find appealing at all


Don't go to the party for the politics. Go to the party for the beer - and do your analysis and synthesis at a more relaxing pace in your own time =]

[Le Socialiste]

Went for a walk in the rain today. Felt good. I know I've probably said this here already, but I just love it when it rains. Everything feels more real, oddly enough. I don't quite know how to explain it.

[Os Cangaceiros]

There's no shame in seeking help if you need it. Alcohol is a very addictive and destructive drug. I think the social aspect of alcohol is quite difficult because people question why you're not drinking a lot. Although actually I find it easier to go out and socialise without drinking than be alone without drinking, which probably can't be good. I usually tell people I don't feel like drinking or I don't have much money.

Last time I drank was on Friday, I got obliterated at the bar. Got there at around 10 o'clock or so and drank till closing time. I had to walk home in the freezing cold and I was depressed as hell. Some nice guy pulled his car over and gave me a ride, though, which I really appreciated...in this part of the world a lot of drunks collapse out in the snow or woods or something and die of exposure. Today I saw some other guy walking to his job and gave him a ride. Paying it forward lol

I was very tempted to go there tonight but I exercised instead and held back the urge. It's just so tempting when I'm stressed. It's within walking distance from my house, and the crowd there knows me, we're all a bunch of alcohol and drug-using degenerates and people gravitate towards others based on common interests I suppose. I've been to the bartender's house to drink more liquor and smoke more dope after closing time and he practically starts pouring my drink (Jack Daniels, neat) when he sees me walk through the door, LOL. Drink enough of that and the volume on life just seems to get turned down by 30 decibels and the rest of the world & every person in it disappears into a warm haze. That's the good part. The bad part is when the depression, guilt, anger & frustration kick in.

Solo drinking is something I've often thought I had a firm grip over, but lately it seems to be resulting in me waking up on my face on my kitchen floor after drinking two-thirds of a handle of bourbon.

[ed miliband]

Shared too much, need to cut down on drinking though, I think.

[Os Cangaceiros]

Oh yeah, I get that too. I think it's because alcohol acts on the same stress receptors in the brain that anti-anxiety medication work on.

Withdrawals from alcohol aren't uniform for me...sometimes I get those seemingly-endless, waves-of-nausea hangovers that last into the afternoon and even evening sometimes, other times I wake up after drinking large amounts of alcohol with only maybe a slight headache but otherwise feeling fine. The thing that worries me the most is that I'm starting to get some trembling in my hands and that's pretty disturbing.

[TheGodlessUtopian]

Oh god. I am doing my poetry homework for ENG 272 and this female Spanish poet really knows how to dish it out. Lets take a look at the translation:

"You crank out lies until a girl can't think.
Your charms are much exaggerated. Still, Inez,
the problem isn't you, you cruel pussy

The way I love you is a sin, I know it-
but the way you fuck me is no trick. Your hard-on's real,
and I'm a field just waiting to be plowed."

Inez is a woman's name, by the way. This author was writing in the sixteenth century.

Most awesome homework ever!

[Lily Briscoe]

This author was writing in the sixteenth century.
Who is it?

[Landsharks eat metal]

Yesterday evening I was walking down the street and some random lady asked me to reach into her sleeve pocket and pull her money out for her. I did it, but I'm still wondering how people can be such idiots. I'd never trust some guy on the street to even know I have money, let alone actually let him touch it.

[Comrade Jacob]

Just another passing phase of feeling like shit and feeling like socialism will never come and that it is just a pipe-dream that I've deluded myself into believing. :(

[TheGodlessUtopian]

Who is it?

Sor Juana Ines de la Cruz

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Juana_In%C3%A9s_de_la_Cruz

http://www.poets.org/poet.php/prmPID/1032

[Trap Queen Voxxy]

Psychopathology is pretty fucking interesting.

[ÑóẊîöʼn]

So I finally got fed up of walking around with one of the soles of my boots coming off and bought a new pair. Turned out not to be as expensive as I thought, although they're not quite in the style I would have liked (they're going to look a bit odd with the suit I wear to work). Only problem now is that they're going to be a bit painful for however long until they're broken in. I wore them on the way home from the shoe shop and they've already rubbed a sore spot into my right ankle. Walking to and from work is going to hurt. But at least I'll have dry feet.

In other news, I think maybe I should throw that blue cheese away. It's been in the fridge for a few weeks now, and although it smells and tastes OK I suppose there is a point where eating it is just not healthy.

Also, since an over-indulgence of the naughty salt two weeks ago lead to a scare in which my heart started beating fast and hard, I've pretty much given up that and smoking, including joints apart from the odd puff or two. I've been loathe to smoke green as much as I used to because I've been scared it would get my heart racing again, and not at all in a good way.

Anyway, those are my first-world issues of late. Right now I'm enjoying a beer and should probably be going to bed soon because I have work.

[Rugged Collectivist]

Got a new phone.

Sent from my C6522N using Tapatalk

[Crabbensmasher]

In other news, I think maybe I should throw that blue cheese away. It's been in the fridge for a few weeks now, and although it smells and tastes OK I suppose there is a point where eating it is just not healthy.


Every so often I leave things in my fridge, and they sit there. Silently, waiting.
They sit there for a really long time in tupperware or something, and I become scared to touch them. So they just stay in there. I avoid them and hope the problem goes away, but they continue to sit, waiting, judging me. I sleep easy at night, but I know that whatever festering horrors live under those lids will be waiting for me. Some day. Just waiting, agonizing, planning, deliberating a most unholy revenge.

Yes, grandma's clam chowder, I'm talking about you. I know, it's been far too long.

[Futility Personified]

All of the south will flood. London will float away on a giant pile of money, but they'll get a good smiting. Jah's called time on babylon alright. But seriously, what the fuck is up with the weather?

[Trap Queen Voxxy]

Inhaling these ghosts like a witch doctor.

[Vladimir Innit Lenin]

All of the south will flood. London will float away on a giant pile of money, but they'll get a good smiting. Jah's called time on babylon alright. But seriously, what the fuck is up with the weather?

God has willed it.

:ohmy:

[ÑóẊîöʼn]

I'm thankful I don't live on the ground floor. Maybe I should buy a rubber dinghy just in case.

[Igor]

God has willed it.

:ohmy:

dont be surprised if you see boris johnson riding a beast of seven heads down the piccadilly anytime soon

[PhoenixAsh]

burned out from work, yes. Burned out from politics, no, because I haven't really done all that much this year aside from anarchist bookfair and some early attempts to form a discussion group with friends.

I feel like certain posters on here make very intelligent posts that reflect their deep understanding of the current state of revolutionary politics, movements and theory, which I seem to be lacking somewhat. And to be honest, there are very few people or groups on the organised left that I find appealing at all, so a lot of the time I feel quite isolated from both sides - from non-revolutionary politics which I just am not going to participate in, and from revolutionaries who either mimic god squad preachers in their devotion to some historical figure, or are just boring as fuck.

Strangely I understand the feeling you describe.

I don't think that reflects on you. Your posts were quite good as I remember (which doesn't mean we always see eye to eye...just saying ;) ). There is no such thing as a partial burn out. If you feel burned out from work...that affects everything and especially how you perceive yourself or the things you do. Usually...unless you are extremely special...it has a negative effect.

[PhoenixAsh]

On a more personal note. I just saw my first echo of the baby which was f-ing awesome!

I unfortunately missed the first one :( And my girlfriend was being a real pain in the ass and refused to show me the photo because she wanted to see my face when I saw it move. (So I hope when the critter starts kicking she will kick up a storm... ;) ) We already were very lucky a few weeks back when we could hear the heartbeat (at 9 weeks!!) with a doppler. I really can't describe the feeling when you try to find it and all of the sudden you suddenly do hear it. (It sounds like a little train. :grin: )

So today was the first time I actually saw the fetus. (right now it kind of looks like me...so I am hoping that will change )

We did a bloodtest for free embryonic DNA and today we got the results. It is going to be a girl :) :)

[Slavic]

Drove through the drive though at Dunkin Donuts this morning on my way to work to get a coffee and a sandwich. After I finished my order the guy taking it shouted through the com, "OOOOOOOOOH YEEEEEAH Snap into a Slimjim!".

Needless to say my day started off bright.

[Quail]

On a more personal note. I just saw my first echo of the baby which was f-ing awesome!

I unfortunately missed the first one :( And my girlfriend was being a real pain in the ass and refused to show me the photo because she wanted to see my face when I saw it move. (So I hope when the critter starts kicking she will kick up a storm... ;) ) We already were very lucky a few weeks back when we could hear the heartbeat (at 9 weeks!!) with a doppler. I really can't describe the feeling when you try to find it and all of the sudden you suddenly do hear it. (It sounds like a little train. :grin: )

So today was the first time I actually saw the fetus. (right now it kind of looks like me...so I am hoping that will change )

We did a bloodtest for free embryonic DNA and today we got the results. It is going to be a girl :) :)

When I heard my son's heartbeat I spent most of my time terrified it would suddenly stop. :unsure:

It is weird though when foetuses move because you can kind of see your stomach moving. Kicking can be pretty unpleasant as they get bigger too. My son always managed to kick me in the ribs.

[PhoenixAsh]

When I heard my son's heartbeat I spent most of my time terrified it would suddenly stop. :unsure:

It is weird though when foetuses move because you can kind of your stomach moving. Kicking can be pretty unpleasant as they get bigger too. My son always managed to kick me in the ribs.

Tink, my girlfriend...though...that is her nickname, has that too.

She used to keep checking the doppler and would be panicking when she couldn't find the heartbeat. But Tink panics at everything that might be wrong...which is understandable because she already was pregnant once and had to make the god awful decision to abort during the third trimester because there was an immune reaction that developed in the 5th month. So she is worried all the time.

Right now she is at 15 weeks...and things are going very well.

Which basically means I, as she puts it, am getting more and more privileges around the house (which translates as: get to do more chores ;) ) because (again as she puts it) the relationship evolved from a voluntary direct democracy towards a matriarchal dictatorship in which the boys (me) are outnumbered 2.5 to 1. Basically...I have been told the fetus has more rights than me and rules us all :) So far I am trying to bribe the 8 year old stepdaughter with Asperger but she proves to be very understanding about how capitalism works and het support doesn't come cheap :D

I think I have to cut my losses here...

[ed miliband]

was in an office all day and didn't notice that the weather has gone mental - yet again - nearly got blown away and a fuck-off massive tree has fallen down blocking an entire road. gonna be an interesting night, but i'm worried i won't get my coach down to london tomorrow.

[TheGodlessUtopian]

My new favorite pastime is to browse my hook-up site and translate what is said in non-English languages Is fun to uncover what is the dirtiest! lol

[human strike]

So how does this rate for bad things to happen on a first date: my ex-girlfriend turned up with the guy she's seeing now and not only did she stay - despite my surreptitiously asking her to leave (which according to her was immature of me?) - but she came over and said hello too. I feel like she's this omnipresent ghost that's going to haunt me for the rest of my life. Apparently, and to be fair this is entirely plausible, she didn't see who I was with when she decided to say hello, which she said she did to "make things less awkward," but bollocks was that the reason why and that was definitely not the resulting outcome. My frustration is compounded by the fact that she always laughs a lot in awkward situations, which is incredibly grating. That was also the first time I'd seen her with this other guy - he used to be a friend of mine, but to be honest not so much anymore. Fortunately, because I was so preoccupied, seeing them together didn't actually upset me at all, so that's something I suppose. As it happens this didn't actually jeopardise the date and I didn't have to explain that the person she'd just met was my ex, because that really would have been awkward. But, seriously, wtf? I didn't expect to see my ex there. I mentioned the place to her once about a month ago and she didn't even know it existed. I feel like she's everywhere all the time. Obviously she isn't, but there is a real threat of bumping into her a lot of the time. Not only is it pubs I thought she didn't know existed, it's all the other pubs, social centres, cafes - I found out today she's started working at a cafe I like to frequent - and the houses of close friends. Even online she seems to end up knowing about things I've said privately to people about her. I just want space to get on with my life without her presence looming over me. :(

This is going to sound really immature, but I don't care; I was here first. All these places she visits now, all these friends she has now, all of these things were mine first and she only even knows they exist because she went out with me. She can have the rest of the country for all I care, I just want this relatively small part of the city and the people in it.

[Ele'ill]

I am feeling very very depressed and very optimistic with the housing search. I don't trust myself, I don't trust that I won't just leave again and destroy my life (or maybe save it, I haven't figured that out yet). There are apartments available right now (and probably more into the warmer, less rainy, months ahead) that are not very affordable imo (but they're there). I make minimum wage atm but am set at 40 hours (and will probably shift into a slightly higher paying position at some point).

How much should I be willing to spend/sacrifice for a studio/1br?

[Ele'ill]

I honestly probably don't even have enough money saved and coming in right now to be able to pull this off. I'm likely looking at another year of this before I can even start picking up the pieces. Sharing space with other people is out of the question too.

[A Revolutionary Tool]

Got fucked over so bad today, you can not trust people with money. My dad basically tries to support the family by being a handyman. He'll fix your gutters, install a furnace, fix a hole in your roof, random stuff like that. Work is scarce so it's not like we're living very fat but today we had a big job so we were excited. Four of us had to cement this rich guys backyard. Days before we started work they had agreed to pay $1,500 that would cover the cement truck and all the work that we just spent all day doing. After everything is done though the owner comes out and basically fucks us. He kept saying no he hadn't agreed to that, that he thought it was going to be $1,500 for the cement job and for building a pateo which we agreed to do in a few days when the cement dries(the materials alone for the pateo would be well over $1,500). In the end he gives us a measly $400! And this motherfucker is loaded, 2 brand new cars in the driveway, a house with two seperate garages and everything but his cheap ass can't pay for the hardwork we just performed, basically no money is made after you factor in how much it cost just for materials. Fucking A my dad spent almost $100 on just tools to use to spread the cement around and shit. God damn it pisses me off so much, I just want to go do some gangster shit and start bashing his fucking skull in and then drown that cheapskate in the wet cement.

And that's the thing, whenever we have a problem with someone not wanting to pay what was agreed to its some rich motherfuckers which just adds insult to injury. Like my dad is a handyman, he's not getting paid union wages for this, they're already getting his service for cheaper but they still want to fuck you over and pay you even less. So frustrated, I just want to burn every rich persons house down and listen to their screams.

[Os Cangaceiros]

I've realized recently that I've been thinking about alcohol all wrong recently. I've been trying to think of activities to do that don't involve drinking, but then I realized that I've been doing all the same things I've done when I was drinking, only now I'm sober. Drinking just made those things way more fun. Like even something simple, like, say, cooking chicken nuggets in a microwave. When I was wasted drunk I'd be stumbling around, giggling, would say something stupid like, "cook, you golden-brown muthafuckas!" as I shoved the chicken nuggets into the microwave, maybe send idiotic text messages to a couple random people while I waited for them to cook, and man did those chicken nuggets taste good when I ate them.

Now it's just boring. *sigh*

[Os Cangaceiros]

Seeing people who are really drunk kind of re-affirms my belief that suspending alcohol consumption was the right thing to do, though. I picked up a buddy at the bar last night at last call who was absolutely wrecked. He was drunk when I dropped him off at the bar, and that was at 10 PM, so...yeah. That should give you a good idea of his state when he poured himself into my vehicle.

He was talking to some girl in the bar when I got there, and they got to talking about different types of meat, like moose, venison, caribou etc. Then came a part in the conversation where he said something along the lines of "I'd like to feed you some of my meat". OH MAN. I struggled to keep a straight face so bad. He realized what he had said a split-second after it came out of his mouth and then he hurriedly said "I don't mean it like that, obviously". She just said, "yeah, said it before you thought about it, didn't you?"

He didn't even remember saying that several hours later. I reminded him of that incident and he was all like, "OH SHIT? I REALLY SAID THAT?!" :lol: Thanks for keeping me sober, buddy

[cyu]

whenever we have a problem with someone not wanting to pay what was agreed to its some rich motherfuckers

They think they are entitled because their money makes them "better" than you. http://www.washingtonpost.com/blogs/wonkblog/post/study-rich-more-likely-to-take-candy-from-babies/2011/08/25/gIQAXE0beR_blog.html

The “upper class” were more likely to break the law while driving, take candy from children, lie in negotiation, cheat to increase their odds of winning a prize and endorse unethical behavior at work, researchers reported today in the Proceedings of the National Academy of Sciences.

undergraduates were manipulated to view themselves as wealthy or poor. They were then presented with a jar of candy, which researchers said would go to children in a nearby lab, though they could take some if they wanted. The undergraduates believing themselves to be upper income took more than those believing themselves to be low income

those making more than $250,000 were more likely to lie to researchers than those making less than $250,000.

Drivers in pricey vehicles were more likely to cut off other drivers and less likely to stop for pedestrians than drivers in cheaper cars.

previous research that has shown wealthy people are worse at recognizing how others feel and are more likely to be disengaged during social interactions than others.

[tallguy]

Got fucked over so bad today, you can not trust people with money. My dad basically tries to support the family by being a handyman. He'll fix your gutters, install a furnace, fix a hole in your roof, random stuff like that. Work is scarce so it's not like we're living very fat but today we had a big job so we were excited. Four of us had to cement this rich guys backyard. Days before we started work they had agreed to pay $1,500 that would cover the cement truck and all the work that we just spent all day doing. After everything is done though the owner comes out and basically fucks us. He kept saying no he hadn't agreed to that, that he thought it was going to be $1,500 for the cement job and for building a pateo which we agreed to do in a few days when the cement dries(the materials alone for the pateo would be well over $1,500). In the end he gives us a measly $400! And this motherfucker is loaded, 2 brand new cars in the driveway, a house with two seperate garages and everything but his cheap ass can't pay for the hardwork we just performed, basically no money is made after you factor in how much it cost just for materials. Fucking A my dad spent almost $100 on just tools to use to spread the cement around and shit. God damn it pisses me off so much, I just want to go do some gangster shit and start bashing his fucking skull in and then drown that cheapskate in the wet cement.

And that's the thing, whenever we have a problem with someone not wanting to pay what was agreed to its some rich motherfuckers which just adds insult to injury. Like my dad is a handyman, he's not getting paid union wages for this, they're already getting his service for cheaper but they still want to fuck you over and pay you even less. So frustrated, I just want to burn every rich persons house down and listen to their screams.I'd burn the fucker's house down



Only joking.........
























not

[#FF0000]

well my valentine's day turned out much differently than expected.

[human strike]

well my valentine's day turned out much differently than expected.

In a good way or a bad way?

[#FF0000]

in a p. great way

edit: there are donuts and candy downstairs wow

[Os Cangaceiros]

When you have insomnia, you're never really asleep... and you're never really awake. - "Fight Club"

:blink: < that's what I look like at all times

[ÑóẊîöʼn]

Got fucked over so bad today, you can not trust people with money. My dad basically tries to support the family by being a handyman. He'll fix your gutters, install a furnace, fix a hole in your roof, random stuff like that. Work is scarce so it's not like we're living very fat but today we had a big job so we were excited. Four of us had to cement this rich guys backyard. Days before we started work they had agreed to pay $1,500 that would cover the cement truck and all the work that we just spent all day doing. After everything is done though the owner comes out and basically fucks us. He kept saying no he hadn't agreed to that, that he thought it was going to be $1,500 for the cement job and for building a pateo which we agreed to do in a few days when the cement dries(the materials alone for the pateo would be well over $1,500). In the end he gives us a measly $400! And this motherfucker is loaded, 2 brand new cars in the driveway, a house with two seperate garages and everything but his cheap ass can't pay for the hardwork we just performed, basically no money is made after you factor in how much it cost just for materials. Fucking A my dad spent almost $100 on just tools to use to spread the cement around and shit. God damn it pisses me off so much, I just want to go do some gangster shit and start bashing his fucking skull in and then drown that cheapskate in the wet cement.

And that's the thing, whenever we have a problem with someone not wanting to pay what was agreed to its some rich motherfuckers which just adds insult to injury. Like my dad is a handyman, he's not getting paid union wages for this, they're already getting his service for cheaper but they still want to fuck you over and pay you even less. So frustrated, I just want to burn every rich persons house down and listen to their screams.

Would it help to suggest to your dad to have the job and price written down and signed by both parties before work starts? At least then if they decide to fuck you around you'll have some paperwork to show for it, and having a written record would seem to be the best way to discourage people from fucking your dad around.

[A Revolutionary Tool]

Would it help to suggest to your dad to have the job and price written down and signed by both parties before work starts? At least then if they decide to fuck you around you'll have some paperwork to show for it, and having a written record would seem to be the best way to discourage people from fucking your dad around.

Yeah that's what I told him and he always keeps receipts and gives out receipts, I honestly have no idea why he wouldn't do this. Makes me wonder if you're supposed to have a license to do some of these things or something that we don't have like he's afraid that he's breaking a code or something so we couldn't take it to court anyways if we wanted to. Maybe that's why people would want his labor in the first place you know, because then they could fuck him over with impunity on projects like that. I would definitely get it written down though.

[Leftsolidarity]

I had a perfect mixture of stoned/drunk while I was falling asleep to have absolutely insane dreams. I had a bunch of them, mostly scary, like being in ancient Egypt and leading a failed coup against the Pharaoh and then myself and my co-conspirators getting torture like in the movie The Mummy. I fought off packs of wild animals out of the garage of the house my mom lived in years ago and for some reason my dad lived there too.

I think my favorite was when I befriended a wild bear and a goat (I think it was a goat). The bear was so awesome, it wrestled with me and carried me around on its back. Then out of no where a huge pitbull ran at me trying to bite my face off. The bear knocked that piece of shit to the ground. Thanks bear, I owe you one.

[human strike]

The other day I dreamed I was possessed by an evil spirit. It was a bit like the Moriarty character in Moffat's Sherlock, kind of quirky and insane, and it wanted me to make sure bad things happened, really bad things. At one point it was writing on me in ink and I couldn't tell if the ink was real or not. It wrote around my neck, "Humanity will kill itself." For some reason at this point I appeared to be Hugh Laurie from Jeeves and Wooster.

I'm pretty sure this dream could say a lot about how I perceive myself at the moment, but I'm too scared to analyse it properly.

[Leftsolidarity]

Every time I go into OI for a discussion I make it 1-2 pages before I sigh and go "why the fuck am I in OI?" and quickly dip out. It's like slamming my head against a brick wall.

[Yet_Another_Boring_Marxist]

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[A Revolutionary Tool]

I had a pretty weird dream the other night, it was confusing but fun. I was in a movie theatre and this girl named Kim(don't know her but that was her name and I knew it) sitting a couple rows behind me kept yelling at me. "ART! ART! Look I'm up here."
"Yes I know Kim, I'm trying to watch the movie." Happened like three times.

The movie gets done and I'm on a search for Kim but can't find her do I start to leave. When I get outside the theatre there's huge crowds and a bunch of tv cameras pointing towards me and I'm in my boxers holding a bong for some reason. Apparently India and Pakistan were making a peace deal right in front of this theatre and then some American dude came up and told me how I ruined it and they were going to continue fighting because of me. I remember the Indian guy laughing at me and asking if I forgot to put my socks on. Oh the shame.

[Sinister Intents]

I am so happy to be back to RevLeft after my two week hiatus :) Hi everyone! I'm feeling better and doing a bit better. I still have work to go though. In those two weeks I got a massive project finished, smoked too much weed, drank a bit much, but I've cut down on my drinking heavily. I met someone I like a lot too, and we have a lot in common :)

[Sinister Intents]

I also officially consider myself an atheist, no longer a wiccan in anyway, I've gotten rid of my pagan stuff like my book of shadows I started. I'm also no longer gonna be a vegetarian, it's just not easy for me at the time being, but I'll be one in the future some time.

[tallguy]

I also officially consider myself an atheist, no longer a wiccan in anyway, I've gotten rid of my pagan stuff like my book of shadows I started. I'm also no longer gonna be a vegetarian, it's just not easy for me at the time being, but I'll be one in the future some time.
There only two rules to remember in life mate.

1) never mind the little things.

2) most things are little things.

3) don't pay too much attention to rules

4) keep a sense of humour.......:grin:

[A Revolutionary Tool]

Book of shadows sounds awesome.

But I'm really tired of people talking shit on any organization and the work they might do. ISO is insignificant, FRSO is insignificant, CPUSA is insignificant, PSL is insignificant, WWP is insignificant, SA is insignificant, etc, etc. I'm so sick of that talk because minimizes and puts down people who are actually out there trying to build something so the left isn't insignificant. We should be able to treat our comrades with a little bit of respect and if we have criticism it should be constructive, not meant to just hurt those in the group with ad homs from people who in comparison are so much more insignificant with their one person Internet armies. I know I've done this before but I'm coming to realize just how arrogant it is.

[Os Cangaceiros]

I think that all those organizations are pretty much insignificant. Organizations like the CPUSA and the IWW at one point in history were somewhat significant, but now they're not. Maybe the day will come when they're once again significant. Or maybe not. I don't know. I mean, I'm a member of IWW but I can admit that we're insignificant, that's just taking an honest appraisal of the situation here in the USA.

Anyway, I feel like my body is crapping out on me more and more. I would see a doctor about it but I don't want more medical bills and they'll just tell me that something else is wrong with me, it seems like that's all they've been doing over the past couple years. Stupid body, why can't you just work like everybody else...the same goes for my mind :glare:

[A Revolutionary Tool]

Whether they hold sway or not, I don't think it's a good thing. Like some Arizona CPUSA members going over to the FRSO thread. Why was it necessary for anybody to go into that thread and talk about how they don't care, make jokes about its 6 people joining another 6 person group, that they don't matter. They could have just as easily not said a damn thing. I'm saying we spend way too much time tearing each other apart even further because we're mad in the first place that were insignificant. It doesn't help, I think we should stop with it, it's not going to lead anybody anywhere but down.

[BIXX]

I gotta lose weight, and fast. Gonna schedule an appointment to check my body fat percentage, gotta figure out a healthy diet to go on.

Time to go to the fitness threads.

[Crabbensmasher]

There only two rules to remember in life mate.

1) never mind the little things.

2) most things are little things.

3) don't pay too much attention to rules

4) keep a sense of humour.......:grin:

I like this sort of philosophy. I realize though, that in reality, I take life pretty seriously. Hell, I'm calling for the abolition of private property - I want a worldwide revolution; beliefs that affect everyone around me. Shit, nobody does that. Most people don't give it a thought. They worry at night about their careers, relationships, sometimes the economy. Hell, the economy.

Meanwhile, we're into changing this whole order, throwing out the norm - this foundation we've been living under, clinging to like a liferaft; calling it into question. Like, if you think about it, it's pretty fucking serious stuff.


At the same time though, I agree with you. I feel like I'm just along for the ride. We're all gonna die, so you may as well smile, be happy, make a few jokes along the way. It's short and sweet. Listen to some Neil Young. We're pretty simple creatures. Same old shit plays to a different tune, world keep spinning, we all have moments, but life goes on like a big old wheel with or without you. Some sort of cosmic orchestra, an old film. Call it fatalism, but I feel it sometimes, and to be honest, it makes me happy. Just put your hands back, smile, and go along for the ride.

[Art Vandelay]

One of the first times ever I've had a friend interested in Marxism, to the point where they talk my ear off. Awesome dilemma to have, just not used to being tired and having someone want to discuss the bolsheviks, luxembourg, capitalism, economics, etc..but an a positive issue to have I suppose. Just too lazy at the moment I guess.

[Landsharks eat metal]

Never thought I'd be as excited to eat peanut butter and jelly as I was today. There are so many things I used to be able to take for granted like tasty and nutritious meals or a comfortable bed.

[motion denied]

ate many candies and now I feel fat :unsure:

[#FF0000]

idk how someone's supposed to drink a whole cup of syrup when like 5 ml of promethazine and codeine knocked me out for 10 hours.

[human strike]

I've no internet at home anymore... This is serious shit. It's bad that I'm just lying in bed for hours doing nothing after waking up each day, but on the plus side it means I'm spending much more time hanging out with housemates. I think it's really about time I stopped just talking about doing voluntary work or something and I actually started doing something with my time. There's a lot more than just this on my mind but I'm finally bored of talking about myself, I feel like that's how I spend most of my time currently. I've started seeing someone who is so shy they barely talk at all and consequently when I'm with them I end up just talking about myself constantly basically. What I'm saying is, I'm bored of my problems and I need a hobby or something - I don't wanna do any organising again though, that shit stresses me out.

[human strike]

One of the first times ever I've had a friend interested in Marxism, to the point where they talk my ear off. Awesome dilemma to have, just not used to being tired and having someone want to discuss the bolsheviks, luxembourg, capitalism, economics, etc..but an a positive issue to have I suppose. Just too lazy at the moment I guess.

I remember how that felt. Now my friends bore the shit out of me with that bollocks. To be far to them, they're not as bad as they used to be. Hey, maybe we could swap friends?

[Landsharks eat metal]

Was going to write a long post detailing a few doctor appointments I had, but my Kindle web browser crashed in the middle of it, so I'll take that as its way of telling mehow boring I am and keep it brief.

I had intke at an LGBT youth clinic yesterday and this morning had some blood drawn for labs to see if I'm healthy enough to start testosterone in a few weeks :)
(Also hoping to begin seeing a psychiatrist and therapist there but am unsure how long that will take)

[Art Vandelay]

I had intke at an LGBT youth clinic yesterday and this morning had some blood drawn for labs to see if I'm healthy enough to start testosterone in a few weeks :)
(Also hoping to begin seeing a psychiatrist and therapist there but am unsure how long that will take)

That is really awesome LEM. Congrats! :)

[Sinister Intents]

I managed to fuck up ramen :(

[PhoenixAsh]

How? How can you fuck up ramen? That is like overcooking water

:laugh:

[Os Cangaceiros]

idk how someone's supposed to drink a whole cup of syrup when like 5 ml of promethazine and codeine knocked me out for 10 hours.

You gotta grip grain, drop top & bang screw ;)

[Leftsolidarity]

Ahhh stress, we meet again. Only this time I have the upperhand you see. I am armed with half a bottle of whiskey and smoke while you are only armed with rational thinking and deadlines.

[motion denied]

some trots (IWL-FI) brought a "Syrian revolution flag" to a march today

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

I wonder why are they quiet about the "Libyan revolution"? And the military Junta in Egypt?

Fifth column is what they are. Scum!

[RedAnarchist]

How? How can you fuck up ramen? That is like overcooking water

:laugh:

I once put noodles in the microwave. A few minutes later, and the smell of burning was irritating my nose. Next time I remembered to add the water.
:grin:

[PhoenixAsh]

Aargh!


I had to do a factory reset of my phone. Lost all my music. Pretty much restored everything important except for one freaking song I can find, don't know the artist from, don't know the name, don't know any of the lyrics.

I stumbled upon it by accident and now...again by accident it has gone.

Fucking entropy.

[PhoenixAsh]

I once put noodles in the microwave. A few minutes later, and the smell of burning was irritating my nose. Next time I remembered to add the water.
:grin:


:lol::lol:

I keep forgetting pizza's in the oven...:lol:

[RedAnarchist]

:lol::lol:

I keep forgetting pizza's in the oven...:lol:

I did that once a couple of months ago because I was watching a stream of a football match. My pizza was pretty burnt, but it was still edible and wasn't too bad.

[Landsharks eat metal]

Chilling in a park eating a container of chocolate covered apricots I found on the sidewalk and even managed to connect to wifi out here. Shit's still hella fucked up, but everything is good for the moment. :)

[Ele'ill]

'hella'? lol

[Sinister Intents]

Stressed out, pissed off, still want to die. Honestly, if anyone really found me interesting, they'd talk to me, but no. Fuck life, fuck living with my parents and how much of a hindrance that is. The women I met doesn't talk to me anymore. My attempt at a date utterly failed. Thinking of my ex still as well and I'm so fucking sick of it. This house, this fucking town, these winter damaged roads, these fucking places, and these people trigger me heavily. I'm just fucking wasting my life here. I have to fucking leave or kill myself, these are my options.

[Ele'ill]

Stressed out, pissed off, still want to die. Honestly, if anyone really found me interesting, they'd talk to me, but no. Fuck life, fuck living with my parents and how much of a hindrance that is. The women I met doesn't talk to me anymore. My attempt at a date utterly failed. Thinking of my ex still as well and I'm so fucking sick of it. This house, this fucking town, these winter damaged roads, these fucking places, and these people trigger me heavily. I'm just fucking wasting my life here. I have to fucking leave or kill myself, these are my options.

Leave. 2 tarps, 1 sleeping bag, 1 ticket

[Landsharks eat metal]

Leave. 2 tarps, 1 sleeping bag, 1 ticket

Nah, try to avoid being homeless if at all possible. It really sucks. Seriously.

[Ele'ill]

Nah, try to avoid being homeless if at all possible. It really sucks. Seriously.

Does it suck more than what their proposed alternative was?

[cyu]

Find the most expensive neighborhood in town. Raid it. If you're alone, they'll call it crime. If you got 10 friends, they'll call it gang violence. If you got 10,000, they'll call it revolution.

[Landsharks eat metal]

Does it suck more than what their proposed alternative was?

tbh i think he can calm dow,n think of some better ones, stop letting his goddamn ex dictate his life and understand that tons of people are gona be dicks no matter where he goes, especially if he is homeless.

[tallguy]

tbh i think he can calm dow,n think of some better ones, stop letting his goddamn ex dictate his life and understand that tons of people are gona be dicks no matter where he goes, especially if he is homeless.
good advice

[Leftsolidarity]

To this day I still don't understand why traveling (particularly on buses) makes me depressed. It's like it sucks all the good things out of life, reminds me how poor I am, all the responsibilities that I'm never taking care of, and how cold and scary the world is.

[Os Cangaceiros]

To this day I still don't understand why traveling (particularly on buses) makes me depressed. It's like it sucks all the good things out of life, reminds me how poor I am, all the responsibilities that I'm never taking care of, and how cold and scary the world is.

I feel the complete opposite. I love travelling, and travelling on buses is fun as hell. It's made for some really good conversations with random eccentric people

[Leftsolidarity]

I feel the complete opposite. I love travelling, and travelling on buses is fun as hell. It's made for some really good conversations with random eccentric people

There are upsides to it for sure and sometimes I can't wait to travel next but whenever it's 4+ hours along with transfers it goes from fun into shoot me in the face I hate life. Like I was just traveling for about 9 hours and 3 buses for what would be an hour and a half in a car. Fuck that.

[TheGodlessUtopian]

To this day I still don't understand why traveling (particularly on buses) makes me depressed. It's like it sucks all the good things out of life, reminds me how poor I am, all the responsibilities that I'm never taking care of, and how cold and scary the world is.

Maybe because you are lonely? Need to find that companion-comrade to associate with during those long rides? That is what I would be, at any rate. Of course you are not me (and hence do not associate those thing, probably, like I do) so there is that.

[Os Cangaceiros]

The only kind of travelling I really despise is prolonged air travel.

[Criminalize Heterosexuality]

I think it's time to trim our trolls in accordance with the socialist lifestyle.

[Sinister Intents]

I think it's time to trim our trolls in accordance with the socialist lifestyle.

I agree with purging trolls, but disagree that there be a 'socialist lifestyle'

[Lily Briscoe]

I talked my way out of another speeding ticket this morning (thank god) and got a long lecture from my supervisor about being late (I am always late everywhere, no matter what; there's nothing I can do about it... I blame genetics). I really need to get a different job.

[Os Cangaceiros]

I talked my way out of another speeding ticket this morning (thank god) and got a long lecture from my supervisor about being late (I am always late everywhere, no matter what; there's nothing I can do about it... I blame genetics). I really need to get a different job.

I'm late for things a lot, too. Mostly school stuff, though, not so much job stuff.

[Lily Briscoe]

I'm about 30-90 minutes late to work every day (literally every single day; there are no exceptions). Any job I get where they're major sticklers about this I tend to lose in about a week.

[Ele'ill]

tbh i think he can calm dow,n think of some better ones, stop letting his goddamn ex dictate his life and understand that tons of people are gona be dicks no matter where he goes, especially if he is homeless.

But he said his house life etc.. if you believe what you posted here, why don't you move back home? If they are deciding between moving out on their own away from their current life that is to them emotionally unmanageable instead of potentially taking their life, those are emotions that they have to sit down with and decide the severity of. I think that moving out is a must for a lot of people, it was for me, but the reality is a tarp and sleeping bag, and it sucks, but less than the previous emotional pain of life at 'home'. I know when I was going through really bad times as soon as someone said 'just calm down that sucks' I would write them off as not understanding the scope of what I was experiencing. Not saying that's exactly what you did but it's food for thought when someone is talking about self harm and basically saying (numerous times) 'I have to get the fuck out of here).

[TheGodlessUtopian]

Today I have my Marxist Literary Analysis presentation for an English class I am taking. Should be fun. I have an idea of how to tackle the material but am just going to 'wing it' when it comes to the exact phrasing (I really don't think it is something I could pre-plan). I just hope I am able to cover the content without lapsing into either A) awkward silences as I figure out what to say next, and B) going through it too quickly and therefore not explaining everything well. It is a fine line since I only have twenty minutes to explain the basics of Marxism and literary criticism as well as an essay concerning the book we were reading and how it relates. I think I will do well, however.

[Sinister Intents]

I'm tired of racist bullshit at home. I just hate my family.

[Landsharks eat metal]

But he said his house life etc.. if you believe what you posted here, why don't you move back home? If they are deciding between moving out on their own away from their current life that is to them emotionally unmanageable instead of potentially taking their life, those are emotions that they have to sit down with and decide the severity of. I think that moving out is a must for a lot of people, it was for me, but the reality is a tarp and sleeping bag, and it sucks, but less than the previous emotional pain of life at 'home'. I know when I was going through really bad times as soon as someone said 'just calm down that sucks' I would write them off as not understanding the scope of what I was experiencing. Not saying that's exactly what you did but it's food for thought when someone is talking about self harm and basically saying (numerous times) 'I have to get the fuck out of here).
We've talked about his life before and he and I have very different issues. From what I know about him I don't necessarily think that would help much and being homeless wouldn't really be healthy. I also know he tends to get really upset about things (particularly when he has consumed certain substances) and then calm down later and find out he can actually deal with things he didn't think I could. I almost feel like he looks at me and what I did and assumes it would be right for him even through our situations and selves are both very different.

[Sinister Intents]

Btw I'm looking for an apartment at this time, I'll be able to afford within a year what I couldve afforded this year if I didn't spend my money on weed so much and fycking gas

[Landsharks eat metal]

Btw I'm looking for an apartment at this time, I'll be able to afford within a year what I couldve afforded this year if I didn't spend my money on weed so much and fycking gas

Yeah an apartment is good. A shelter or the streets not so much. Especially with your social issues (something I've been struggling with a lot lately)... plus I remember your post about how much you hate to be dirty lol.

(you don't think I'm being a dick do you? I'm not trying to be; I'm just worried. Plus stressed about my own separate issues.)

[TheGodlessUtopian]

My presentation went well. Made sure they understood the basics of dialectics as it related to the essay at hand. Not my very best but considering it was my first time actually presenting something like that it was great. I think my knowledge was over-all, impressive and I think my dissemination at least illustrated the point; as I said before though, I had a lot to cover and not a lot of time to do it in so add in my anxiety and indirection about how to proceed, I did better than expected. Will be interested to hear what my professor says though, what her thoughts were. In any case, I know I was better than the speaker who followed me.

[Sinister Intents]

I'm hearing voices :crying:

[BIXX]

(you don't think I'm being a dick do you? I'm not trying to be; I'm just worried. Plus stressed about my own separate issues.)


You're like the nicest person here- I think it's impossible for you to be a dick.

I have been having a hard time being motivated lately and I am really close to graduating but dropping out sounds fucking awesome right now.

[cyu]

You're like the nicest person here

I wouldn't quite go that far, but Landsharks would definitely be one of the top contenders ;)

[Ele'ill]

You're like the nicest person here- I think it's impossible for you to be a dick.

I don't think they're a dick I hope I didn't suggest that with my other post.


I have been having a hard time being motivated lately and I am really close to graduating but dropping out sounds fucking awesome right now.

Don't drop out, (heh), Just get 2 tarps, 1 sleeping bag, and a ticket and live around town then use the ticket to go somewhere once you graduate.

[Trap Queen Voxxy]

My life in 50 years?

PgIFPRDSpz0

Still Glorious!!

[Quail]

I feel happy because earlier at Judo I fought a guy who is kind of sexist and over 20kg heavier than me... and I did all right. I didn't win, but I lost well.

I wish there were more lightweights to fight though. Lightweights are fast, and there are few people at my club who fight that way.

[Sinister Intents]

I'm at a shitty moment where I don't know where I stand between Marxism and anarchism, I tend to agree with both sides.... So I guess I've a huge amount more of studying, glad I'm on break :)

[cyu]

I'm at a shitty moment where I don't know where I stand between Marxism and anarchism, I tend to agree with both sides


http://media-cache-cd0.pinimg.com/736x/55/50/bd/5550bd9184b729a27ea59c40bd425a94.jpg

Thesis, antithesis, synthesis ;)

[#FF0000]

'i'm about to go home and turn up to diplo alone in my room'

damn dude my co-workers have the best weekend plans actually

[Ethics Gradient, Traitor For All Ages]

I feel happy because earlier at Judo I fought a guy who is kind of sexist and over 20kg heavier than me... and I did all right. I didn't win, but I lost well.

I wish there were more lightweights to fight though. Lightweights are fast, and there are few people at my club who fight that way.


I'd like to get into kickboxing but I feel too intimidated to join a club for it. I'm a skinny dork with no athletic experience aside from basic exercise. Had you had experience with that kind of club before you joined or did you jump in totally green? Is everyone pretty cool or no? Obviously your opponent sounds like an ass but other than him I mean.

[Quail]

I'd like to get into kickboxing but I feel too intimidated to join a club for it. I'm a skinny dork with no athletic experience aside from basic exercise. Had you had experience with that kind of club before you joined or did you jump in totally green? Is everyone pretty cool or no? Obviously your opponent sounds like an ass but other than him I mean.

I think most sports clubs try to be welcoming to new members. Also, most people who do a martial art will look after new people. I usually hang put with judo and jitsu people afterwards so they're mostly nice. Bit macho at times though.

[TheGodlessUtopian]

As of 12:00am (2/28/14): up for 39 hours with but minutes of occasional rest. I think that's the right amount.... feels too long but it's right; of course, my math has never been the best. Buy yeah. Weird. At any rate- I have work to do.

[Art Vandelay]

Yo, you may stop your internal dialogue, puppies are officially the cutest things in the world.

[Landsharks eat metal]

Got my prescription for testosterone last night! Scheduled to have my first injection on Saturday but Walgreen's said my pickup has been delayed. I hope I get it on time for that because if not I'd have to wait until next Thursday.

[Trap Queen Voxxy]

Yo, you may stop your internal dialogue, puppies are officially the cutest things in the world.

No no no no no no no no no no no no no no

[Art Vandelay]

Got my prescription for testosterone last night! Scheduled to have my first injection on Saturday but Walgreen's said my pickup has been delayed. I hope I get it on time for that because if not I'd have to wait until next Thursday.

Awesome news! I am really happy to hear that LEM. :)


No no no no no no no no no no no no no no

You know not what you speak of.

[Trap Queen Voxxy]

You know not what you speak of.

Les just keep vicious wolf beasts indoors for no reason. Just what we always wanted. Yay.

see how supportive I'm being? :) progress! Hahahaha

[Art Vandelay]

Les just keep vicious wolf beasts indoors for no reason. Just what we always wanted. Yay.

see how supportive I'm being? :) progress! Hahahaha

I'm going to unleash the tiny vicious wolf beasts on you and they shall viciously smother you with kisses.

[Sinister Intents]

I like both cats and dogs, I like all animals. Also awesome LEM :)

[Landsharks eat metal]

Got my prescription for testosterone last night! Scheduled to have my first injection on Saturday but Walgreen's said my pickup has been delayed. I hope I get it on time for that because if not I'd have to wait until next Thursday.

lol i was stupid enough to think it would just work out so easily. just got told they need to do a special order and have to wait until they get it approved by my insurance and the doctor didn't even send over the needed information. people seriously need to stop giving me false hope.

[Sinister Intents]

I am in Michigan!

[Landsharks eat metal]

I am in Michigan!

What are you doing there?

[human strike]

Bored, lonely and brain-dead. uuuuurrrrrggggghhhhhh My mission of sorting out my life and mental health continues, but it's so tempting to expand energy instead on the easy sticking-plaster fix that is getting a girlfriend, and that actually ain't all that easy either. My counselling stops next week which is pretty scary. I had so much positivity a few weeks ago, when it went away I expected it to come back, but it hasn't and it's disappointing and scary. :/ I don't understand how people just do things of their own accord on their own with nobody telling them what to do or when to do it. I keep saying I'll look into voluntary work or do some organising or whatever but I just don't, all I can think about is how much I miss certain people and their intimacy, I crave it so much. I have a pretty good handle on my problems now, in the sense that I understand them and am aware of them, but the doing something about it part: eek. I'm only ever happy when I have someone else to focus on and to pour all my energy into, i.e. when I'm in a relationship, and I find it very hard to adjust to being single; I struggle with not having someone to depend on, with having to look after myself, with doing things for myself rather than for someone else. I fucking hate being single actually, and meeting people is difficult and stressful. There was a week or two where I was actually managing to not focus on my ex and not focus on finding someone else but actually focus on myself, and I was feeling really really good. Now that I've started dating people again it's hard to get back into that mindset. And I feel so fucking spaced out and I'm annoyed at myself for all this shit and I'm annoyed that I'm annoyed! ffs

[Os Cangaceiros]

I'm only ever happy when I have someone else to focus on and to pour all my energy into

"The man for me is the cherry on the pie. But I'm the pie and my pie is good all by itself. Even if I don't have a cherry."

- Halle Berry

Words of wisdom right thar

[Crabbensmasher]

Bored, lonely and brain-dead. uuuuurrrrrggggghhhhhh My mission of sorting out my life and mental health continues, but it's so tempting to expand energy instead on the easy sticking-plaster fix that is getting a girlfriend, and that actually ain't all that easy either. My counselling stops next week which is pretty scary. I had so much positivity a few weeks ago, when it went away I expected it to come back, but it hasn't and it's disappointing and scary. :/ I don't understand how people just do things of their own accord on their own with nobody telling them what to do or when to do it. I keep saying I'll look into voluntary work or do some organising or whatever but I just don't, all I can think about is how much I miss certain people and their intimacy, I crave it so much. I have a pretty good handle on my problems now, in the sense that I understand them and am aware of them, but the doing something about it part: eek. I'm only ever happy when I have someone else to focus on and to pour all my energy into, i.e. when I'm in a relationship, and I find it very hard to adjust to being single; I struggle with not having someone to depend on, with having to look after myself, with doing things for myself rather than for someone else. I fucking hate being single actually, and meeting people is difficult and stressful. There was a week or two where I was actually managing to not focus on my ex and not focus on finding someone else but actually focus on myself, and I was feeling really really good. Now that I've started dating people again it's hard to get back into that mindset. And I feel so fucking spaced out and I'm annoyed at myself for all this shit and I'm annoyed that I'm annoyed! ffs

I get this. Most of my 'romantic interests' end up being one-sided. It seems like, whenever I warm up to someone new, they seem to get bored or whatever.

Recently, I went to a friend, and he helped me out. He poured me a drink, and got me to picture my dream, like, my paradise, my utopia, or whatever. I pictured it, and he said "What part of the shit your dealing with now prohibits you from doing this?" The answer is nothing. It's got no part in the big picture. Like, your fucking life as you know it is just one fucking thing after another. Like, once we get what we want (a girlfriend, a relationship, a fucking job), we'll just be confronted by new problems. You've got a moment of momentary relief, maybe a few days where you don't have a worry in the world. You're fulfilled. Then the cycle starts over again.

At the end of the fucking day though, there's always a goal; there's always an end. Whatever it is, revolution, firebombing the police station, packing your bags and just leaving. For me, I guess it's a replacement for some sort of religion that I grew up around. I wouldn't say it's exactly heaven, but you get the picture. It's a pipe dream, and I get that. But still, I can always look at that, smile, and say "Some day".

[Trap Queen Voxxy]

So I'm tripping like fucking crazy, who is awake???

[Trap Queen Voxxy]

It's a weed chocolate, nicotine and ice cream kind of day. :?

[Ele'ill]

good thing this place is closing I've made my way up to non-political

[Art Vandelay]

Looks like I'm going to be selling my truck. Very bitter sweet, its probably smart in the long run, but its so much fun to drive, I'm going to miss it. Got someone coming to take a test drive tmro and I just put up the add around supper time today. Wasn't expecting a response that quickly.

[Sinister Intents]

I'm so tired

[motion denied]

Two days since last bath. I stink. Ew.

[Os Cangaceiros]

Anyone have any tips for how to make new friends? I am unemployed and I live "off-campus" (I only take one class anyway)...I've met new "friends" at the bar, but I'm trying to drink less and those aren't real friends anyway. I guess try to meet people based on common interests? But I'm drawing a blank at the moment.

[motion denied]

Anyone have any tips for how to make new friends?

Seconded.


Been trying to do it for years.

[Sinister Intents]

My laptop is utter fucking trash and should meet my 16 Lbs. sledgehammer

[Trap Queen Voxxy]

Lovin life.

[human strike]

Anyone have any tips for how to make new friends? I am unemployed and I live "off-campus" (I only take one class anyway)...I've met new "friends" at the bar, but I'm trying to drink less and those aren't real friends anyway. I guess try to meet people based on common interests? But I'm drawing a blank at the moment.

Online dating sites? Or does your college have societies where you can meet people with shared interests?

[Sinister Intents]

I've received a second death threat. What should I do? I'm not gonna take it seriously, I'm well armed.

[cyu]

I guess try to meet people based on common interests?

Common interests might include pick-up basketball, MtG tournaments, hiking clubs, support groups of various kinds, etc. There might be some level of competition involved in these groups though - for example, among MtG players, you're always trying to trash each other in your games, so you may not end up being very close.

Common goals might be different since you're all working for the same cause - certain political activities (unless it ends up being everyone competing to be "The Candidate"), various volunteer type projects, trying to spread the word about one thing or another - including but not limited to spraypainting gang-signs all over town ;)

[Sinister Intents]

Why? :( KimJongIllmatic/Yuppie Grinder is banned, WTF happened?? This made me feel sad
http://www.revleft.com/vb/member.php?u=37419

[consuming negativity]

i kinda wanna pop a few more benadryl to help me sleep and then lay on the floor for a few days

[motion denied]

Why? :( KimJongIllmatic/Yuppie Grinder is banned, WTF happened?? This made me feel sad
http://www.revleft.com/vb/member.php?u=37419


Self-requested.

[Sinister Intents]

Self-requested.

But why :(?

[Sinister Intents]

I found my first post :) my how things have changed. http://www.revleft.com/vb/hello-comrades-t166938/index.html?t=166938
Only two people said hi to me

[Comrade Jacob]

2nd post in a week, don't really see a point in continuing. I'll stick around just don't expect much from me.
I can hear the cheers.

[Sinister Intents]

https://i.chzbgr.com/maxW500/8091982336/h54A216FC/

[Futility Personified]

All those beautiful songs, all that heartfelt expression of a brighter future... kept us going through the day, but didn't change shit.

[Art Vandelay]

I'm house/dog sitting for my family while they're out of town this weekend. I was running down the stairs to let the dogs out and somehow my leg and the puppy collided. He instantly started yelling and then the other dog attacked him. I gave her shit and picked up the pup and his leg is hurt from the collision. I've been on the phone with the vet and I'm going to take him in if he's not better in a hour and a half. He's not in pain, but won't put weight on his leg. I feel so awful, I know it was an accident, but I'm really upset and beating myself up over it. I know I'm a sob, but I was crying at first and just feel terrible. :( I really hope he's okay.

[Rosa Partizan]

whoa dude, right now, I like you just more and I really hope that doggy is gonna be fine again. Don't give yourself shit for that. If that were me, I'd accidentally have killed the dog, considering my clumsiness.

[Sentinel]

What kind of dog is it?

[Art Vandelay]

Miniature schnauzer. He's only 6 weeks old so he is really tiny. I have a vet appointment booked in 50 minutes time. I've been holding him since it happened and occasionally putting him on the ground to see if he'll walk. He seems to be doing better, but I'm worried there could be some sort of dislocation, so I'm talking him in just in case. Between him being a pup and me being a panicker, it might all be unnecessary, but I'm not sure. Luckily we've both calmed down a bit.

[tallguy]

Anyone have any tips for how to make new friends? I am unemployed and I live "off-campus" (I only take one class anyway)...I've met new "friends" at the bar, but I'm trying to drink less and those aren't real friends anyway. I guess try to meet people based on common interests? But I'm drawing a blank at the moment.We are social/economic creatures. That is to say, we form relationships on the back of these two phenomena. When we are young children, our social and economic worlds are largely shaped for us and so our friendships naturally grow out of those circumstances such that we never really have to think about it. Several decades back, when large numbers of us worked en-mass in various industries, our economic world continued to be shaped for us. Not for our interpersonal benefit, you understand. but, nevertheless, such collectivisation of our economic life led to strong communities forming around those circumstances. It's one of the main reasons why we had stronger unions a few decades back (at least here in the UK). Nowadays, with much of the mass-employing industries having been off-shored to the developing world, the world of work here has become much more fragmented. This has inevitably led to a fragmenting of our interpersonal lives as well. Again, I would argue that this is one of the main reasons our unions are now much weaker (at least here, in the UK). We are now far more likely to have an immediate apparent economic kinship with only a few co-workers and, furthermore, they are just as likely to live miles away from where we live as they are to living next door. All of the above means, as adults, it is harder to form and maintain friendships these days.

The answer to the above is to join local clubs of one form or another where like-minded people can meet up and partake of a shared interest or activity. The interest or activity provides the initial "economic" focal point or impetus to social interaction. From this, friendships will inevitably grow.

I hope that helps a bit mate.

[Art Vandelay]

So I'm back home with the pup now. He's got his little leg all splinted up and it looks like a cast. I'm not going to let go of him all night and he's a bit immobilized from the splint. I almost fainted at the vets office. It was weird, I started sweating and then all of a sudden my vision went blurry to the point I couldn't see, and my knees were buckling and I would of fallen over if I didn't grab the front desk. They had to bring me a chair and some water. The bad news is he has a small break in his front left leg, the good news is he will have a full recovery over the next few weeks or so. He's on some pain meds so he's drooling a bit, but I'm glad he's not hurting anymore. Our other dog is in the doghouse (figuratively, not literally) since she attacked the little guy after he got hurt and she knows it, so she is being a suck at the moment. I feel so bad and bad for him. All I had to do was watch a empty house and two dogs for a weekend and just over 24 hours in the puppy has a broken leg. My mom has been telling me thats it's not my fault and to not freak out cause I think she could tell how upset I was. Nothing but cuddles and treats all night long for the pup for being such a tough guy.

[#FF0000]

don't worry too much 9mm bb. dogs and puppies are really really dumb.

Mine barks at airplanes like holy shit dude it's a fucking plane chill

glad the pup is okay though~

[motion denied]

I got an infraction. I feel so dirty and outlaw.

[Sentinel]

I got an infraction. I feel so dirty and outlaw.

We have an infraction system at my work (for failing alcotests). We have this saying; you've got to have one to not be an asskisser - but only one. ;)

But yeah on a more serious note, that thread just has a tendency to escalate into spam extremely quickly, hence the harsh rules.

No hard feelings, I hope.

[motion denied]

No hard feelings, I hope.

None at all. :lol:

[Goblin]

Bolshevik Sickle is back (http://www.revleft.com/vb/member.php?u=149799)

Edit: He told me it was him in a PM

[Yet_Another_Boring_Marxist]

Well alot of things have been going on with me politically. But the most recent news is that I might be joining a party soon! I'm not going to go into detail here but I'll try to bump my old thread about my political acticity so I don't spam you guys with another thread and so I can give you a more comprehensive update than I can in whats on your mind

[consuming negativity]

It's so cute when liberals get all bothered about how this and that is happening and everything is so bad in the world. You have /no idea/. Take the red pill and see how deep the rabbit hole goes.

[Lily Briscoe]

So we got Sasquatch Festival tickets for 4th of July weekend. So fucking psyched. The line-up is completely amazing this year, but Neutral Milk Hotel is gonna be there so I don't even have room in my brain to be excited about anyone else. Any other PNW posters planning on being there?