What's On Your Mind 8

[Leftsolidarity]

Do it to it.

[Sinister Intents]

I want to fucking kill someone I know.

[Tim Cornelis]

Not sure if this thread is meant for this, but.... I'm so contend and happy with my life and life in general, it's so amazing that we exist, that we are conscious, that I can blast Danzig - Mother through my speakers, socialise, party, have fun.... That I'm so privilege to meet the people I meet, make the friends that I do, and like and love people.... :) and yet I'm way too conscious of my mortality. I'm filled with a sort of gleefulness thinking of life followed by a damp sadness that it will end -- or actually I feel them at the same time. In 100,000 years the earth will still spin, humans will still populate the now-communist earth, but I will no longer feel emotion, anger, happiness, have memories. Forgotten. Life seems so useless if it's not going to matter to you or anyone you know in a very short time relative to the existence of the universe. I will be gone. :( ... still enjoy it while it lasts :) but it wont last long :(

It's two conflicting emotions arising from the same premise............................. That's just on my mind I suppose.

[Os Cangaceiros]

I turned in a report for my political science class today on the subject of Obamacare and the gov't shutdown. Not a topic I'm particularly interested in, and wasn't really sure what the instructor wanted, but I think I did a decent job on it, made it concise (at six pages) but complete with a good number of solid sources.

Also had a history test today. Didn't study for it at all but I'm pretty sure that I knocked that muthafucka out of the park. It was filled with questions like "describe how it could be said that Thomas Jefferson personified Enlightenment ideals". Pfft. Easy.

I hate that history class too because the teacher is terrible and it's an entry level class (despite my having done several upper-level history courses, for some reason my entry-level history credit didn't transfer into this university so I'm stuck taking an entry-level history course), so I'm stuck with all these teenaged freshmen who's dumb questions I peer down upon with disapproval from my ivory tower of wisdom.

[Art Vandelay]

Just got into such a stupid fight with my girlfriend. Even though the situation which brought this about, was kinda on her, I still acted like a jackass and feel like an asshole boyfriend. Probably gonna down myself two bottles of pinot noir and forget about it till the morning.

[Quail]

Feeling happy for stupid reasons.

[Art Vandelay]

the fact that i live 2 blocks away from 7-11 and how tempting it is to drunkenly walk down and buy a ridiculous amount of chocolate

[Landsharks eat metal]

This thread needs stickied and it's going to bother me until it is...

[CECE]

the fact that i live 2 blocks away from 7-11 and how tempting it is to drunkenly walk down and buy a ridiculous amount of chocolate

So... So... So insanely jealous of you...

[Quail]

I ended up at this weird garage thing last night, and it was really just kind of bad. The music was aggressive and people were just kind of dancing aggressively to themselves. Maybe I'm just out of touch but I don't really get how people enjoy that (I'm guessing probably with drugs). The atmosphere was just really weird and hostile.

[Thirsty Crow]

I ended up at this weird garage thing last night, and it was really just kind of bad. The music was aggressive and people were just kind of dancing aggressively to themselves. Maybe I'm just out of touch but I don't really get how people enjoy that (I'm guessing probably with drugs). The atmosphere was just really weird and hostile.
Sounds very similar to the thing I'm going to this evening. Oh and yeah, it is a garage literally.
Though, to be fair, many people going there know each other - it's a small town, of maybe 7000 people (my hometown). So probably no aggressive dance to ourselves.

[Landsharks eat metal]

I'm lonely and I need a hug :(

[Thirsty Crow]

I'm lonely and I need a hug :(
Consider it done :)
(but yeah, I've been feeling somewhat similar lately)

[Quail]

Sounds very similar to the thing I'm going to this evening. Oh and yeah, it is a garage literally.
Though, to be fair, many people going there know each other - it's a small town, of maybe 7000 people (my hometown). So probably no aggressive dance to ourselves.
I don't mind drug-fueled dancing, but I think most people there were on ketamine. I don't really "get" ketamine as a party drug, seems really anti-social somehow. Dancing should be social.

Ugh, my brain is completely fried.

[TheGodlessUtopian]

I've had enough of my roommate. I am requesting a single.

[Arlekino]

Ah I did not smile at work so somebody wrote reviews I did not smile enough, what are bastards, I can see how some stupid as-holes want to destroy my job.

[motion denied]

I've heaten like everything that I had here, I can barely walk.

[Sinister Intents]

I'm annoying ad fuck......

[TheGodlessUtopian]

I intend to post up the study guide to Capital (Vol.1) later in December after the first semester ends (for those that were wondering).

[Zostrianos]

Next time Christians come knocking at your door, here's a brilliant way to get rid of them for good:


About six months ago there was a knock on my door and I opened it to find two evangelicals Christians there. I knew they were evangelicals because they had that fake friendly smile on their faces, which all evangelicals have when they are trying to convert someone.

This was the third time that month that evangelists had come knocking on my door and disturbing me so I decided to teach them a lesson. 'Good morning' they said. 'Good morning' I replied. 'Have you heard about the Lord Jesus Christ'? They asked. 'I know something about him but I am a Buddhist and I'm not really interested in knowing more' I said. But like all evangelists, they took no notice of my wishes and proceeded to talk about their beliefs.

So I said, 'I don't think you are qualified to speak to me about Jesus'. They looked very astonished and asked, 'Why not'? 'Because', I said, 'you have no faith'. 'Our faith in Jesus is as strong as a rock' they insisted. 'I don't think it is' I said with a smile. 'Please open your Bible and read the Gospel of Mark, chapter 16, verse 16, 17 and 18' I said and while they flicked through their Bibles I went quickly inside and came out again.

One of them found the passage and I asked him to read it out loud. It said, 'He who believes and is baptized will be saved but he who does not believe shall be condemned. And these signs will follow those who believe in my name. They shall cast out devils, they shall speak in tongues, they will handle snakes and if they drink poison it will not hurt them and they will lay hands on the sick and they will recover'.

When he finished I said, 'In that passage Jesus says that if you have real faith you will be able to drink poison and not die'. I took a bottle of Lankem (detergent) from behind my back, held it up and said, 'Here is some poison. Demonstrate to me the strength of your faith and I will listen to anything you have to say about Jesus'.

You should have seen the looks on their faces! They didn't know what to say. 'What's the problem'? I asked. 'Is your faith not strong enough'? They hesitated for a few moments and then one of them replied, 'The Bible also says that we must not test God'. 'I'm not testing God', I said, 'I'm testing you. You love to witness for Jesus and now is your big opportunity'.

Finally one of them said, 'We will go and speak to our pastor about this matter and come back and see you. 'Ill be waiting for you' I said as they scurried away. Of course they never came back again. Here is a bit of advice.

Keep a copy of this Bible reference and a bottle of Lankem ready and every time the evangelists come to your door to harass you give them this test. You might like to have a polanga ready as well.

http://www.crusadewatch.org/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=165&Itemid=137

[Thirsty Crow]

Next time Christians come knocking at your door, here's a brilliant way to get rid of them for good:


About six months ago there was a knock on my door and I opened it to find two evangelicals Christians there. I knew they were evangelicals because they had that fake friendly smile on their faces, which all evangelicals have when they are trying to convert someone.

I had the same experience, but with Trots dropping propaganda material in my mailbox.

[Sinister Intents]

Contemplating the freedom of death. I want to see eternal blackness

[Thirsty Crow]

Contemplating the freedom of death. I want to see eternal blackness
Your brain not working, it would be hard to see this blackness.

[Devrim]

Contemplating the freedom of death. I want to see eternal blackness

Try to speak to somebody, such as a doctor, about this. I don't know where you are but many countries have organisations you can phone when you are feeling like this, such as the samaritans in the UK (08457 90 90 90).

Devrim

[Quail]

I wish there was more support for nursery costs. I get 15 hours a week free now that my son is 3, and my parents and my son's father are both paying for a morning each of nursery for me, but it's really fucking hard juggling my uni work and being a parent. It was easier as an undergraduate because a lot of my nursery costs were covered by student finance - now I get nothing because there is pretty much no financial support for postgraduate degrees unless you get a scholarship (and there were no scholarships for my course anyway). There just aren't enough hours in a day, because by the time my son is in bed and I've been awake all day I just don't have the energy to focus in the same way that I do in the daytime.

[Sinister Intents]

Your brain not working, it would be hard to see this blackness.


Try to speak to somebody, such as a doctor, about this. I don't know where you are but many countries have organisations you can phone when you are feeling like this, such as the samaritans in the UK (08457 90 90 90).

Devrim

True....
I talking to people :) contacting oithers helps a lot, anyone wanna talk on Facebook? Kik? Anything?
I'm in the US, thanks. I can fight the thoughts a lot.

[TheGodlessUtopian]

My roommate and I filled out a "agreement" form which states how we will handle living together; the moment was nerve racking in that I went just a little outside of my comfort zone (by little I mean alot). But the "best" part?... it isn't over yet. Sometime we will discuss the nuances of each other's actions and *really* dig into things. I can already feel the shakes coming.

[argeiphontes]

^ I hope you don't live with Dr. Sheldon Cooper (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xFvOlQNI8vQ) ;)

[Thirsty Crow]

My roommate and I filled out a "agreement" form which states how we will handle living together; the moment was nerve racking in that I went just a little outside of my comfort zone (by little I mean alot). But the "best" part?... it isn't over yet. Sometime we will discuss the nuances of each other's actions and *really* dig into things. I can already feel the shakes coming.
I know a whole lot of people who live with roommates. It isn't that complicated, no need for filling out an agreement (just be glad you didn't go to a public notary).

[TheGodlessUtopian]

I know a whole lot of people who live with roommates. It isn't that complicated, no need for filling out an agreement (just be glad you didn't go to a public notary).

Normally, but I have a lot of fucked up things with my head which drags the process down... so, yeah, it is not the easiest when I live with someone. Normally I would say it would be easy though.

[thriller]

Last night was pretty fucking awesome. Still high on good feelings those often forgotten butterfly's. But I am also scared as shit about a class of mine. My midterm for it is tomorrow and I literally know about 2 weeks of material. I plan to cram all day but even then, I'm not sure how it will go. I know getting an F for the class isn't the end of the world or even my life plans in general, but I still feel like a failure for not getting this right. But at least I still got my class-consciousness going for me :)


Count your bruises one by one and laugh them off.

[Sinister Intents]

Practicing guitar and trying to create a communist death metal song

[Comrade Jacob]

I'm going to lie down.

[thriller]

Practicing guitar and trying to create a communist death metal song

You should post it, if u have recording stuff. I'll come up with a bass line.


Count your bruises one by one and laugh them off.

[Sinister Intents]

You should post it, if u have recording stuff. I'll come up with a bass line.


Count your bruises one by one and laugh them off.

I'll try to post :) that'd be awesome, I'm helping start a band :)

[TheGodlessUtopian]

Lonely and depressed. Also thinking about the revisions I need to make to an article I am writing.

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[TheGodlessUtopian]

Good news: discovered that the student life director did, in fact, receive my email asking about singles. Bad news: there are no single left. In between news: our community adviser and us will be discussing things tomorrow night.

Jesus fucking christ, I just want my own goddamn space, as if that is so much to fucking ask.

[Art Vandelay]

Good news: discovered that the student life director did, in fact, receive my email asking about singles. Bad news: there are no single left. In between news: our community adviser and us will be discussing things tomorrow night.

Jesus fucking christ, I just want my own goddamn space, as if that is so much to fucking ask.

Its not, I had a single room when I was in res and I still hated that, let alone having to share their closet sized rooms with another person. Hopefully it all works out, I know my neighbors in res had the same problem, but eventually one just moved out and the other got to keep the double room to himself.

[Devrim]

My roommate and I filled out a

When you say roommate do you mean somebody you share a flat with or share a room with. I have never really understood this word. I don't think they use it in the UK or Ireland.

Devrim

[TheGodlessUtopian]

When you say roommate do you mean somebody you share a flat with or share a room with. I have never really understood this word. I don't think they use it in the UK or Ireland.

Devrim

We share a small room: he gets one side of the room while I the other. Each Sid is just big enough for a desk, bed, small closet an a tiny amount of storage space for totes.

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[Landsharks eat metal]

Today we had a possibly dying puppy come in to the animal hospital. Her mother had already died, along with most of her littermates. She had been rescued from an Amish family who had never bred dogs before and were trying to keep the orphaned puppies warm by dipping them in hot water and putting them in an oven. It was a weird day.
Done on Monday, though.

[Rugged Collectivist]

Welp. I've got an 8 page paper due Monday and I haven't even started yet.

[CECE]

Welp. I've got an 8 page paper due Monday and I haven't even started yet.

8 pages by Monday? Pffft, cake! You've got it. What's it on?

[Art Vandelay]

Today we had a possibly dying puppy come in to the animal hospital. Her mother had already died, along with most of her littermates. She had been rescued from an Amish family who had never bred dogs before and were trying to keep the orphaned puppies warm by dipping them in hot water and putting them in an oven. It was a weird day.
Done on Monday, though.

:confused: When I started reading that post it was making me sad, but by the end I was just kinda confused. I mean I'm sure I don't know much about breeding puppies, but I just can't wrap my head around the line of thinking which comes to the conclusion of 'lets put these puppies in the oven, yeah that's a good idea.'

[Rugged Collectivist]

8 pages by Monday? Pffft, cake! You've got it. What's it on?

Thanks! I have work Saturday and possibly Sunday which will fuck me up but I think I can make the deadline. It's about literally anything related to the field of psychology. I'm allowed to break it up into two papers, which is good.

[CECE]

Thanks! I have work Saturday and possibly Sunday which will fuck me up but I think I can make the deadline. It's about literally anything related to the field of psychology. I'm allowed to break it up into two papers, which is good.

Well I guess I did assume you had the entirety of the weekend to work on it. With work it does make it a little more strenuous though. And it's on psychology?? I love psychology... mainly because I just know a decent amount about it, haha. You could do one of the two on the Stanford Prison Experiment and what it reveals about human nature. It's a relatively simple concept but it's pretty interesting. Just a thought.

[TheGodlessUtopian]

So, last night my roommate left our dorm at 10:40pm to "go hang out with friends" not saying specifically what he was doing. He didn't get back until around 2:00am. I am left he wondering- WTF?! So much about this is weird on an absurd level. I mean, I honestly do not care what he does with his time but I just see it as suspicious. In any case he is pissing me off. I am holding out hope for a single... a magical day may come where one becomes free.

[Landsharks eat metal]

:confused: When I started reading that post it was making me sad, but by the end I was just kinda confused. I mean I'm sure I don't know much about breeding puppies, but I just can't wrap my head around the line of thinking which comes to the conclusion of 'lets put these puppies in the oven, yeah that's a good idea.'
All you really need to know is that they were Amish. In my experience the Amish have some... interesting ideas about animal care. Pair that with the fact that many Amish seem to view animals more as tools/potential moneymakers than companions/beings in their own right and you get fucked up things like that.

The puppy died last night. She had gone home with one of the techs to be fed overnight and seemed to be getting better, but then she just died. One of the doctors did a necropsy on her, and it turned out she'd had fluid in her lungs and an infection throughout her chest cavity.

[Landsharks eat metal]

So, last night my roommate left our dorm at 10:40pm to "go hang out with friends" not saying specifically what he was doing. He didn't get back until around 2:00am. I am left he wondering- WTF?! So much about this is weird on an absurd level. I mean, I honestly do not care what he does with his time but I just see it as suspicious. In any case he is pissing me off. I am holding out hope for a single... a magical day may come where one becomes free.

tbh that doesn't sound weird for college students in my experience. My roommate was always going to crazy parties at all hours of the night.

[Yuppie Grinder]

Today we had a possibly dying puppy come in to the animal hospital. Her mother had already died, along with most of her littermates. She had been rescued from an Amish family who had never bred dogs before and were trying to keep the orphaned puppies warm by dipping them in hot water and putting them in an oven. It was a weird day.
Done on Monday, though.

that's fucking horrible
sounds like they had good intentions, but that wouldn't normally happen outside of that sort of community where they know so little about the world

[Art Vandelay]

tbh that doesn't sound weird for college students in my experience. My roommate was always going to crazy parties at all hours of the night.

That's what I was thinking. In all honesty, I was out all hours of the night my first year of uni. Id suggest not worrying about your roomate TGU, he is an adult, he can take care of himself; there really isn't much suspicious about what you mentioned.

[TheGodlessUtopian]

tbh that doesn't sound weird for college students in my experience. My roommate was always going to crazy parties at all hours of the night.

He is not the partying type of guy and does not hang out with those people who party, so for him it was odd especially since I know him a bit better than most people know their roommates as we have spent quite a bit of time together before the semester. Otherwise I wouldn't have thought anything of it.

[Leftsolidarity]

I just realized that dating websites might not be a completely awful way to meet other queer guys.

[GiantMonkeyMan]

Debating whether or not to quit my job. It's seriously making me depressed and I fucking hate it. I've got like 2 months rent plus food money so it is conceivably possible for me to quit and then spend two months applying hardcore for another job but I'm not even sure that I want to do that because filling out job applications puts me in a bad mood itself. Last time I didn't have any work I got in a bad way and ended up loosing a lot of weight purely because I couldn't afford enough food to eat more than one meal a day so that's on my mind and part of the reason I've kept at it. About to go to bed and I've got work in 8 hours roughly.... argh.

Anyone got any advice? Is it worth it?

[Rugged Collectivist]

I started the paper but I barely got any done. I sat there for hours fucking around on the internet and trying to think of a topic to write about. I don't know how to write a paper. I don't know anything about any topic I've thought of so I would need to get the information from books/the internet and then my paper would just be citations. All the papers I've written thus far were my reflections on various things so I don't really know what to do. I had to write papers in highschool but I either paraphrased stuff from the internet or refused to do them. It's times like this I wish I had relatives who went to college that I could talk to about this stuff.

[Crabbensmasher]

Today we had a possibly dying puppy come in to the animal hospital. Her mother had already died, along with most of her littermates. She had been rescued from an Amish family who had never bred dogs before and were trying to keep the orphaned puppies warm by dipping them in hot water and putting them in an oven. It was a weird day.
Done on Monday, though.

Ugh, that is terrible. I was in the vet the other day. Some kids were in there crying because they had to put down their cat. That's always sad.

I was in there because I had gone visiting my parents and decided to take my dog for a walk. Half way through there was some interaction with other dogs and we kept walking, then like a minute later I realized she was bleeding everywhere. Long story short apparently one of he dogs had ripped a chunk of her ear out. It was really gross but she was like wagging her tail the whole time like "Ah come on, it's just a flesh wound". Anyway we had to go to the vets and get it stitched up and stuff, but the whole scene was really bloody. Apparently ears bleed a lot. Anyway, she's fine now, but she's got a cone on her head and a chunk of her ear missing. Nonethless she's still so goddamn happy. I wish I had that much optimism.

[thriller]

I think I got a number from the cashier at a music store. wtflol.

[TheGodlessUtopian]

I am at that awkward moment where I am itching to "tell off" my roommate but just don't know if it is worth it. First world student problems.

[#FF0000]

Parents are buggin' me about what I want for christmas or something. they just reminded me, inadvertently, that the holidays are coming up and I still haven't heard back from any of the temp agencies or jobs I'd applied to.

[Quail]

Some spam is so... pointless? The thread title "Golf Vicodin on Weed" kind of amused me but seriously what is even the point of spam. Nobody and I mean nobody ever clicks on those links and every forum moderator is going to delete that kind of stuff as soon as they see it. It's like it exists to be annoying.

[TheGodlessUtopian]

Stayed up until 1:00am drinking... wish places were open later. Otherwise would still be drinking. Fucking roommate didn't show up to sleep in his bed even though he said he wanted to talk. Bastard. I hate him so much. Truly words cannot describe my "relationship" with him. I abhor the whole "living with another guy" college experience so much.

At any rate, it is close to 3:00am and I still haven't gone to bed. Waiting to puke. I think I am close.

[Vladimir Innit Lenin]

feeling so re-invigorated about my politics after the bookfair yesterday. Spoke to some really great people, me and the people I went with really have a lot of food for thought in terms of our own politics. Great stuff.

[thriller]

Stayed up until 1:00am drinking... wish places were open later. Otherwise would still be drinking. Fucking roommate didn't show up to sleep in his bed even though he said he wanted to talk. Bastard. I hate him so much. Truly words cannot describe my "relationship" with him. I abhor the whole "living with another guy" college experience so much.

At any rate, it is close to 3:00am and I still haven't gone to bed. Waiting to puke. I think I am close.

I always forget that bar time isn't 2:30am in all states. I hear ya as far as "living with someone else college experience" goes. I knew I would hate it, so I opted out and put off college until I wasn't required to live with other students.

[Questionable]

I may have the chance to join up with another Marxist at my school.

In an online class I'm taking, another student wrote a decent blog post on racism, and included a link from a Marxist website. I emailed him asking if he'd like to discuss the topic with me sometime.

I'm pretty excited. I had resigned to the idea that I'd have to move out of my state if I was ever going to meet another communist.

[TheGodlessUtopian]

Roommate arranged a meeting with a Community Adviser. Will happen in about an hour. You know, it is funny: Saturday night we were supposed to meet so as to talk but he (for reasons unknown) chickened out and decided not to show up when he asked where I was. And now this: a blindside in which there will be "discussion" undoubtedly leaning in favor of his angle since he was the one which requested the meeting (I am probably being too bitter there). Its just frustrating how these things suddenly happen.

[Leftsolidarity]

This girl that I've been having casual sex with for awhile now has started acting kind of girlfriendy and it's weirding me out a little. I don't do well with compliments and lovey-dovey things and when I'm not dating you I do even worse. Maybe I'm just weird and unattached but we were both on the level of it just being casual sex. I'm hoping it hasn't changed.

[TheGodlessUtopian]

Well, the meeting was just as awkward and absolutely fucking useless as I expected it to be: just a bunch of pointless psycho-babble aimed at (...wait for it...) better communication! Ugh, I feel, I dunno, wobbly inside like something which was important was touched upon but not completely elaborated upon because it's impossible to do so. To be honest, when I look upon those "Roommate Agreement Forms" hanging on the walls I just feel bitter and angry.

[Rugged Collectivist]

Turned in my paper half done.

[Red_Banner]

I gotta get my camera fixed.

[TheGodlessUtopian]

Since my emotional levels have sky-rocketed since coming to college with this whole... roommate fiasco... I will return to making Leftist study guides when I feel something is particularly acute. Some people use alcohol to numb themselves, I use Marxism. Go figure.

[Sinister Intents]

Feeling thoroughly crushed...........

[Sinister Intents]

I'm gonna disappear for a while....... I'll be on Facebook

[thriller]

This girl that I've been having casual sex with for awhile now has started acting kind of girlfriendy and it's weirding me out a little. I don't do well with compliments and lovey-dovey things and when I'm not dating you I do even worse. Maybe I'm just weird and unattached but we were both on the level of it just being casual sex. I'm hoping it hasn't changed.

I chuckled at this because I am in the same boat, but somewhat on the opposite end. While I haven't done "lovey-dovey" things, I have those feelings towards a person. And I can't tell if they would approve or not. Ahh the game of attraction is so difficult to decipher.

[Futility Personified]

My life has become getting high on coffee and listening to music, having a cigarette, writing 100 words, saying "that's good enough for today" then playing GTA V til 4 in the morning. Amazingly, it's extremely depressing.

[Leftsolidarity]

My life has become getting high on coffee and listening to music, having a cigarette, writing 100 words, saying "that's good enough for today" then playing GTA V til 4 in the morning. Amazingly, it's extremely depressing.

I know that feeling. If I know I have stuff to do (or even if i dont sometimes) and I've ignored it, it makes me really stressed and depressed even if im stalling with activities i like.

[Futility Personified]

There's something about spirals and negative cycles that remains appealing though, for some reason. It's nice to think that you can contain misery so efficiently :lol:

[thriller]

Two tests, two papers, a problem set, and a new job all in 4 days. Fuuuuuuucccckkkk, I am done for.

[Ele'ill]

and every forum moderator is going to delete that kind of stuff as soon as they see it.

actually I tried to talk to several bots and enjoyed the solitude. it was a confusing and quiet space amidst the tension

[Landsharks eat metal]

supposed to log off but I'm too busy listening to Jens Lekman
just found one of his cds on amazon for 1 cent and ordered it

[Art Vandelay]

There's something about spirals and negative cycles that remains appealing though, for some reason. It's nice to think that you can contain misery so efficiently :lol:

There is certainly an element of a love/hate relationship when it comes to depression and things of that nature, the sadness is the one thing that is always there for you, the one consistency.

[Landsharks eat metal]

ugh I don't want to go to this job interview. I just want to hide in my bedroom.

[Vladimir Innit Lenin]

I really am the most impatient person in the world.

[Quail]

I really am the most impatient person in the world.
I misread this as "important" and was thinking, what an odd thing to say.

[Vladimir Innit Lenin]

I misread this as "important" and was thinking, what an odd thing to say.

sorry typo I did actually mean important. ha.

No, i'm wholly impatient, especially when it comes to dates and girls and stuff. It's silly of me.

[thriller]

sorry typo I did actually mean important. ha.

No, i'm wholly impatient, especially when it comes to dates and girls and stuff. It's silly of me.
Been there, done that :lol:

LEM, I'm sure you rocked the shit outta that interview!

[Yuppie Grinder]

So I was looking for a bass guitar under 250 dollars at a pawn shop today, found a squier mustang that looked perfectly fine, bought it, and took it home only to find it has the guy from fucking my chemical romance's name on it. I fucking hate celebrity custom guitars, and this one's especially dumb.

[TheGodlessUtopian]

God, there is nothing to do... I mean, yeah, there are "things" but nothing meaningful: no one to hang out with, cuddle with, or share my time among. It is lonely.

edit: Through the use of a hook-up site I found a gay upperclassman whom I hung out with for a little while, we chatted about university life as gay men and talked a little of ourselves. Nothing special happened but it was a cathartic experience nonetheless. I was happy that I had someone who identified as gay willing to hang out with me for a bit.

[Landsharks eat metal]

Wow... I've been seeing for months the emails from the local library reminding me of what items will soon be due back. This whole time I thought they were listed as being from some random dude named Ian (without the serifs on the letter I), but today I figured out that it actually says lan. Like, short for Lancaster.
I always think stupid shit like that.

[Vladimir Innit Lenin]

fairly sure I was in the presence of a provocateur tonight.

At a black liberation meeting/COINTELPO film, and some dickhead at the back starts going on about jews running Britain, and the meeting just descends into shit. Massive, massive asshole, ran off really quickly at the end of the meeting too.

[Yuppie Grinder]

Traded in the bass for a regular mustang without any silly shit. Very happy.

[Art Vandelay]

Traded in the bass for a regular mustang without any silly shit. Very happy.

I've been meaning to buy a cheap bass for a while now too. I don't really play, but know asuch as anyone picks up being a guitar player. I think celebrity customs are pretty lame too. The only one I'd ever buy would be the fender SRV model, even though I'm not a fan of the way it looks, having that reverse whammy bar would be cool.

[TheGodlessUtopian]

Watched the trailer for the movie version of Ender's Game: looks like shit, is the short answer.

[Quail]

What's on y mind? Everyting and nothing. Important things and total bullshit.

[Le Libérer]

2 days ago and 2 months after my spinal surgery, I got into a car accident. A huge tree service truck, the kind with the monster tree limb crushers on the back was stopped in front of me. I was stopped as well. The driver decides to back up and didnt hear me laying on the horn and rolled over my vehicle.

My mom just happened to be passing by and got out to check on me. She asked the driver why he backed up and he said there was a tree limb obstructing his passage way and he was going to back up and go around it. He didnt see or hear me.

I am in a lot of pain, just like after the surgery. My mom rushed me to the ER. The 3 fusions they did in my neck are intact and didn't get knocked out of place.

I have an appointment with my surgeon Monday. I was so hopeful to go back to work full time. It could be a temporary thing, its too soon to know. But I was still recovering already and it was too soon to know the prognosis.

[Yuppie Grinder]

I've been meaning to buy a cheap bass for a while now too. I don't really play, but know asuch as anyone picks up being a guitar player. I think celebrity customs are pretty lame too. The only one I'd ever buy would be the fender SRV model, even though I'm not a fan of the way it looks, having that reverse whammy bar would be cool.

Some of those customs are actually really cool guitars, Lee Renaldo's Jazzmaster with Tele Deluxe pick-ups is really cool, totally a guitar I would play. I just don't like the idea of people buying stuff to try to sound like a specific artist, good artists work with what's affordable to them and don't try to mimic their heroes.

[Art Vandelay]

Some of those customs are actually really cool guitars, Lee Renaldo's Jazzmaster with Tele Deluxe pick-ups is really cool, totally a guitar I would play. I just don't like the idea of people buying stuff to try to sound like a specific artist, good artists work with what's affordable to them and don't try to mimic their heroes.

I guess the main reason I don't like them is the price. For example when I bought my main guitar back in highscool, the SRV model was like 3300$. The only reason to drop that, would be litteraly hero worship, which is fine if that's what your into, but for that kind of money you might as well spend 1800$ on a American deluxe, is whatever model you want, an wth a couple hundred bucks, a rudimentary grasp on how a guitar works and some patience, you could probably add whatever it is you want. Although having said that, I've never had the guts to try and add the srv style whammy to my strat.

[Yuppie Grinder]

I guess the main reason I don't like them is the price. For example when I bought my main guitar back in highscool, the SRV model was like 3300$. The only reason to drop that, would be litteraly hero worship, which is fine if that's what your into, but for that kind of money you might as well spend 1800$ on a American deluxe, is whatever model you want, an wth a couple hundred bucks, a rudimentary grasp on how a guitar works and some patience, you could probably add whatever it is you want. Although having said that, I've never had the guts to try and add the srv style whammy to my strat.

I've never spent that much money on an instrument in my life. I play a 73 tele passed down from my dad which is dope. The most expensive thing I ever actually bought was this Mustang.

[thriller]

I've never spent that much money on an instrument in my life. I play a 73 tele passed down from my dad which is dope. The most expensive thing I ever actually bought was this Mustang.

I spent $800 on a used Ernie Ball String Ray. Totally fucking worth it though. Those last forever and are made quite well. Ohh I also have a stand-up bass that was passed down to me, which I think is worth a good chunk of change. But one would have to kill me for it.

What's on my mind? Jesus fuck what a busy week. Pretty sure I failed my oral exam in Russian. I think I did okay on my written test though. Bullshitted some paper on the Popular Front in the US during the 30's and found out I was the ONLY one who used footnotes (this is a seminar class btw), so I bet I fucked the curve for everyone else :lol: Started a new job today, super chill because I just get to study and hang out with one of my closest friends. First time having a drink in a week tonight, which is pretty good considering the path I was on. Got this romantic shit figured out in my head, which is very pleasing since I won't waste hours in a panicked sweat anymore. Got a big problem set due tomorrow which I haven't started at all, but I have all day tomorrow, so I feel confident about it. Have a good night comrades!

[Art Vandelay]

I've never spent that much money on an instrument in my life. I play a 73 tele passed down from my dad which is dope. The most expensive thing I ever actually bought was this Mustang.

That tele sounds nice. I play an American deluxe strat hss, which set me back about 1850$, but was worth every penny. It's basically like my child, shes named and everything. My friend who beat cancer when he was young got o e of those make a wish foundation wishes. We went guitar shopping and we found him a 51' fender nocaster (basically a tele, but was made a yer or two before teles came out). It was priced at 4500$ and he got tht for his wish along with nice fender hotrod deluxe amp, which was about 1100$. I probably prefer my strat, since the deluxe series has 9 pickup settings, but that nocaster is pretty sweet.

[Yuppie Grinder]

I turned 18 today. Probably the best birthday I've ever had.

[argeiphontes]

A godsdamned fucking self-described racist just pissed me the fuck off and left the room. I'm a bit angry at myself that a) I didn't strangle him and b) I didn't argue better. Grr. He did it specifically to piss me off too. Fucking tea bagger with NO material interest in it that could just explain it away.

[Art Vandelay]

I turned 18 today. Probably the best birthday I've ever had.

Happy birthday man!

[Rugged Collectivist]

I turned 18 today. Probably the best birthday I've ever had.

18? I'm genuinely surprised. Happy birthday.

[Landsharks eat metal]

I turned 18 today. Probably the best birthday I've ever had.

Happy birthday and congrats on officially being an adult [even though the difference is pretty much meaningless in a sense] :)

[TheGodlessUtopian]

Going to attend my university's Halloween dance in a little while. I normally do not attend dances because I am socially awkward and never have a partner to take but I am so bored that I minus well go and at least attempt to socialize. That being said I am not expecting much but I should at least try.

[TheGodlessUtopian]

Going to attend my university's Halloween dance in a little while. I normally do not attend dances because I am socially awkward and never have a partner to take but I am so bored that I minus well go and at least attempt to socialize. That being said I am not expecting much but I should at least try.

All right, I am off to the dance: I am going as a communist! lol

[argeiphontes]

A godsdamned fucking self-described racist just pissed me the fuck off and left the room. I'm a bit angry at myself that a) I didn't strangle him and b) I didn't argue better. Grr. He did it specifically to piss me off too. Fucking tea bagger with NO material interest in it that could just explain it away.

I feel like maybe I should apologize for sounding so violent, but I was upset. No idiots were harmed during the making of that post.

I also didn't mean to imply that white people as a whole don't benefit from racism, which clearly they do.

Unfortunately I have to see him every once in a while. He gets all his "information" from Fox News, so it must frustrate him that I'm not an Obama supporter, and racism was his last desperate attempt to anger me.

[Fourth Internationalist]

I'm so frustrated. First I identified as bi, but then I felt uncomfortable with that label. Then I went to gay, and now I'm uncomfortable with that. For now, I'm just going to have no label. I like who I like.

[Art Vandelay]

I'm so frustrated. First I identified as bi, but then I felt uncomfortable with that label. Then I went to gay, and now I'm uncomfortable with that. For now, I'm just going to have no label. I like who I like.

Human sexuality is extremely fluid, you shouldn't feel the need to label your sexual identity. Just as you said, you like who you like and there isn't anything wrong with that.

e: there is a situation at work which is making my job increasingly uncomfortable and I'm not sure what to do about it, that's what's on my mind.

[Quail]

All right, I am off to the dance: I am going as a communist! lol
Does that even require a costume? :lol:

[TheGodlessUtopian]

Does that even require a costume? :lol:

Nope, I didn't wear one though I was briefly tempted to wear my "Russian Hat" (the actual name which I forget) with my Che Ceuvera T-shirt, while draped in the Soviet flag. Alas, both the shirt and hat were back home. I could have gone as Communist Man, defender of the proletariat!

I actually just wore all black and had this toy skeleton ghost hanging by my left arm; kinda like "all the black represents nothing while the only discernible item (the toy) represents what you actually are", so hence a skeleton ghost.

[Os Cangaceiros]

I had some crazy dreams last night. One involved me sneaking into an insane asylum, except it was more like an insane asylum in a horror film, everything was lit a sickly green color, there were corpses lying around on metal slabs, covered in plastic and blood, screams echoing down hallways, etc. It was really vivid and fucked up.

A second dream involved me getting robbed at knife-point by two individuals. I forked over my wallet, but afterwards I became increasingly resentful that I'd just allowed myself to be robbed, so I started gathering up groups of people I knew into a vigilante mob to go and hunt down the people who took my wallet (one part of the dream I remember really well was someone trying to get me to talk to the police, but I was like nah, the police are a corrupt and decadent institution of class rule, lol). I think at the end of the dream we tracked them down and they offered to give me back my stuff, but I think I ultimately decided that they should die anyway

Man, what's wrong with my head? :ohmy:

[DasFapital]

I met another girl. We get along because we are both shy weirdos. Our schedules kinda makes it hard to hang out often. Also her dad is a cop but whatever I can live with it

[Sinister Intents]

I made significant realizations through the help of others. I live vicariously through someone very close and I need to live my own life. I need to pull away and not be so close at all because this person lives their own life. I need to change myself and live for myself not through others. I'm going to take martial arts classes despite expenses, I'm going to continue my schooling, I'm going to brush up on my theory and learn as much as possible of all sides of leftism, I'm going to practice guitar and bass and take my extreme vocals to the next level. It's time I get serious about my own fucking life and live it and let go of the bullshit that's compelled me to mutilate myself and who I am.

The Kataklysm song As The Walls Collapse On Me comes to mind in vivid detail.

[Quail]

Ughhh, so hungover. I felt pretty unclassy with my cheap cider and buckfast last night, butit did the job. Probably still drunk right now. Definitely still drunk right now.

[Rugged Collectivist]

<3

[Leftsolidarity]

I was woken up in the middle of the night to gunfire directly in front of our house. It was the loudest shots I've ever heard and I thought they were on our porch or in the house cuz it shook everything. It wasn't even just like a short thing, it seemed like they were taking their sweet ol' time letting off a shot every couple seconds. My friend who was spending the night had her car window shot out and is now told by her parents that she can't come here which is lame. Anywho, I just wanted to vent about the awful and terrifying way I woke up in the middle of the night.

[Os Cangaceiros]

^yeah, once in a while you'll hear a gunshot or two around this neighborhood too. Seemed to happen more often in the previous place I was in though.

I usually don't pay much mind to it, unless it's happening right in front of my building, lol

[Leftsolidarity]

^yeah, once in a while you'll hear a gunshot or two around this neighborhood too. Seemed to happen more often in the previous place I was in though.

I usually don't pay much mind to it, unless it's happening right in front of my building, lol

It's fairly normal for there to be gunshots around because it's a "rough" neighborhood but this is the first time in about 2 years that it's been on our block and there hasn't been a shoot-out directly in front of our house ever.

Normally I probably wouldn't have even been woken up by shots even just a block away where they normally are but someone definitely had a high-caliber gun because that thing sounded like a god damn cannon going off every time. It was so loud my buddy like 5 blocks away thought it was on his block.

It's all made worse because in the past few days we've had a number of altercations and even had some people threaten the night before to come back with a gun. So at first it seemed like they might be firing at us. We're all a little on edge today I think.

[TheGodlessUtopian]

That moment when an Ex likes a Facebook page called "Anarcho-Monarchism". :rolleyes:

[Art Vandelay]

I just got a mass message sent out to members of my family on my moms side, asking for money for one of my little cousins hockey teams (not literally, give me money, but like were selling some shitty product as a fundraiser). It was apparently written by my 8 year old cousin. Its like fuck, this is obviously written by my aunt, no 8 year old is this articulate, so why pretend he wrote this? I don't know, shouldn't bug me, but I keep getting pop ups of the group chat and its taking every fiber of self control I have within myself not to simply respond in a tounge in cheek manner saying, 'damn he's an articulate kid.'

[Doflamingo]

I told a right-libertarian that unregulated capitalism would turn into a plutocracy. He replied that it is a "bald statement" and wouldn't happen because it's not part of the ideology. Then he went on about how libertarianism can't be socialist or communist. :glare:

These people really have their head up their ass, don't they?

[Zukunftsmusik]

I miss hatzel :(

[TheGodlessUtopian]

Does anyone else ever feel like they can never relate to the people around them? It is like this: I see cliques, people who love anime, play video games, have an obsession with some girl/guy they met a couple weeks ago, those random people who simply talk and glide from thing to thing. I see this and simply cannot fathom why I would ever want to hold a protracted discussion with them. For instance: video games and popular culture in general... it is all just so boring, predictable, and shameless corporate nonsense that I have come to the point where I do not know why I would possibly every want to hold anything of a long conversation with that person, let alone a friendship. With all the shit going on in the world: Fukushima, imperialist wars and revolutions, the destruction of the environment and degradation of independent thought I sit here with my anti-capitalist convictions and realize that none of these people care even in the slightest about these topics; so lost are they in this unstable fantasy world that they care only for such superficial things. I just cannot do it. I can't sit there and pretend to hold a talk about Call of Duty, some celebrity, or a political scandal blown up to obscene proportions. It is all just such bullshit.

[Os Cangaceiros]

I burned both my fingertips quite badly last night, like, literally on pads on both my index fingers look like I experienced an aborted attempt to melt my fingerprints off, and I have absolutely no memory of how it happened. :unsure: I have a memory fragment of running my fingers under cold water and being like, FUCK! I BURNED MYSELF! but that's about it...guess it'll always remain a mystery...

[Os Cangaceiros]

Does anyone else ever feel like they can never relate to the people around them? It is like this: I see cliques, people who love anime, play video games, have an obsession with some girl/guy they met a couple weeks ago, those random people who simply talk and glide from thing to thing. I see this and simply cannot fathom why I would ever want to hold a protracted discussion with them. For instance: video games and popular culture in general... it is all just so boring, predictable, and shameless corporate nonsense that I have come to the point where I do not know why I would possibly every want to hold anything of a long conversation with that person, let alone a friendship. With all the shit going on in the world: Fukushima, imperialist wars and revolutions, the destruction of the environment and degradation of independent thought I sit here with my anti-capitalist convictions and realize that none of these people care even in the slightest about these topics; so lost are they in this unstable fantasy world that they care only for such superficial things. I just cannot do it. I can't sit there and pretend to hold a talk about Call of Duty, some celebrity, or a political scandal blown up to obscene proportions. It is all just such bullshit.

You don't have interests outside of serious political topics? :ohmy:

I wouldn't get too down on people for indulging in stupid, ultimately pointless shit. Life is stupid and ultimately pointless, lol. Even if there were a mass communist revolution and the world lived in a perfect utopia, that kind of thing would still exist, because people would still feel "existential pain". Think of how terrible life would be without diversion!

I remember watching a documentary about Lee Harvey Oswald, and supposedly one of the things that Oswald really didn't like about the USSR was the fact that they didn't have any bowling alleys there, and he loved to go bowling.

[Os Cangaceiros]

I burned both my fingertips quite badly last night, like, literally on pads on both my index fingers look like I experienced an aborted attempt to melt my fingerprints off, and I have absolutely no memory of how it happened. :unsure: I have a memory fragment of running my fingers under cold water and being like, FUCK! I BURNED MYSELF! but that's about it...guess it'll always remain a mystery...

I just found someone's phone number scrawled on a piece of paper in a jacket pocket (the jacket I wore last night). I don't recognize the name or the number or asking for/meeting anyone who would write down a phone number.

I do remember going out drinking, I do remember playing darts with a couple people I met there, I don't remember leaving the bar, I do remember going into some weird apartment with, like, four beds in one room and some woman passed out on one of them, and a bunch of other people in the room, I don't remember why we were there, I do remember brandishing my knife jokingly at some dude I'd met that night drinking (and having to reassure him that I wasn't really going to stab him), I remember somewhat walking home but I don't really remember arriving home. Also, someone called me from an unknown phone number this morning, I didn't recognize the voice mail, sounded like some old dude.

What the fuck is going on with my life.

[Sinister Intents]

Rip their skin open!
Bleed them fucking dry!

[TheGodlessUtopian]

You don't have interests outside of serious political topics? :ohmy:

I wouldn't get too down on people for indulging in stupid, ultimately pointless shit. Life is stupid and ultimately pointless, lol. Even if there were a mass communist revolution and the world lived in a perfect utopia, that kind of thing would still exist, because people would still feel "existential pain". Think of how terrible life would be without diversion!

I remember watching a documentary about Lee Harvey Oswald, and supposedly one of the things that Oswald really didn't like about the USSR was the fact that they didn't have any bowling alleys there, and he loved to go bowling.

I have other interests and I am not launching a polemic against recreation in general, I was merely expressing that I have this dislike of people who seem to do nothing but... chill, I guess. Non-politicized individuals who simply are ignorant of the wider world around them. College students. In my day to day routine I simply see nothing but what is expected from bourgeois society: uninformed, uncaring people who fail to comprehend their surroundings beyond what they hear from TV.

[Quail]

Been feeling ill today... Tired, dizzy, nauseous :( I tried doing some work because I'm getting behind with my uni stuff but couldn't concentrate, and I feel anxious that I've missed Judo tonight (because obviously when you feel nauseous pretty much the last thing you want to happen is have someone throw you on the floor). I have a competition on Saturday so I really needed this session.

[Yuppie Grinder]

Some shithead parent brought a gun to the middle school right by my highschool, both schools are on lock down because the guy got away and is still somewhere in the area. Walking home from school I saw at least 10 cop cars including the sherrif and was wondering what was up. I left 5 minutes before the end of the school day, and had I not I would be in there right now.

[Crabbensmasher]

I have other interests and I am not launching a polemic against recreation in general, I was merely expressing that I have this dislike of people who seem to do nothing but... chill, I guess. Non-politicized individuals who simply are ignorant of the wider world around them. College students. In my day to day routine I simply see nothing but what is expected from bourgeois society: uninformed, uncaring people who fail to comprehend their surroundings beyond what they hear from TV.

Hah, what's new?


In reality though, there's not much you can do. I dislike narrow-minded people as well. You know the type, very material, down to earth types. Talking about their new iphone, getting wasted, their new jacket. The type where if you ask them anything else, they say "Whoa man, that's too deep for me". Too stuck in the system.

At the same time though, I think that's just a personality type I dislike. I don't really blame capitalism for that, nor do I wish they were able to "Wake up". Some people just don't want to wake up. Blaming bourgeoisie society for that seems extremely depressing and useless.

I'm sure you'll find there are other people out there, who, although they aren't revolutionaries, are able to look at the wider picture. In my mind, that's good enough company. But the material asses, the 'plastic' people, don't talk to them. Hey, let's face it, not everyone's like us. If they give a shit about something meaningful though, I'd say their good people.

[Quail]

In reality though, there's not much you can do. I dislike narrow-minded people as well. You know the type, very material, down to earth types. Talking about their new iphone, getting wasted, their new jacket. The type where if you ask them anything else, they say "Whoa man, that's too deep for me". Too stuck in the system.
One of the worst things to hear in a conversation... Just when it's getting interesting, you think I'm being "too deep"?

But I guess sitting down and talking about politics for hours is not everyone's cup of tea... Hell, sometimes even I don't feel like talking about politics and would rather talk about less meaningful, fun stuff so I don't get down about how fucked up everything seems to be.

[Leftsolidarity]

I've had a great day for so many reasons I don't care to type them all. It was all good except I was riding in my friend's car and we got in a wreck. Surprisingly, everyone was alright though the cars are both pretty much totaled. I do have a bit of a headache and a sore back but I think that should be expected. I hope that that goes away within a couple days and doesn't become a problem.

So good day plus some scary car smashing.

[Leftsolidarity]

So idk when it started happening but part of my leg is like numbish. I'm not sure if its related to the crash or if its something else. It's got me a tad bit concerned but I'm just hoping it stops doing whatever it is doing.

[Art Vandelay]

So idk when it started happening but part of my leg is like numbish. I'm not sure if its related to the crash or if its something else. It's got me a tad bit concerned but I'm just hoping it stops doing whatever it is doing.

Hmm, I'd probably go get it checked out, but I realize the healthcare situation in our respective countries differs quite a bit. I'd suggest perhaps holding out for as long as you can, but if its clearly a problem by tmro, or at the latest the next day, maybe bite the bullet and see a doctor.

[TheGodlessUtopian]

Fantastic news: A single opened up! I will meet with the student life director Friday afternoon so as to discuss the specifics. It is on the honor floor of my current resident hall so my grades have to be up to snuff (which I think they are). But finally, it is here, so close. Also, another bit of decent news- I think I am moving in the right direction of my essay thesis for my English class. This one was a bit of a doozy so this is good as well.

[Vladimir Innit Lenin]

hehe I was just on the TV...

[thriller]

Made it through another week alive :ohmy:

[Futility Personified]

Can't sleep, clowns will get me....

[Ceallach_the_Witch]

i'm so dreadful at managing my time (and i'm further proving that by being on here at 4 in the morning ugh) I could have done this (short, easy) essay at literally any other time in the last two weeks but here I am again in that unpleasant face-hurting stage of tiredness and eye fatigue trying to figure out how I make the introduction not read like utter ass and how to manage not to repeat myself in the conclusion.

the first essay of the year always sucks :(

[DasFapital]

No trick or treaters showed up this year. I wanted to be all fun loving and hand out candy and shit.

[#FF0000]

David Sandstrom of Refused is my favorite drummer ever holy fucking shit dude.

[Goblin]

Earlier today, me and my mom huffed nail polish remover together. It was interesting.

[Sinister Intents]

It's so great to be out of a husk of a relationship that used to be wonderful. She began to ignore me, she changed every idea I came up with, she tried changing me. I was her loyal lapdog she constantly deceived and ignored. I catered to her every need while she spit on my needs

[Leftsolidarity]

Earlier today, me and my mom huffed nail polish remover together. It was interesting.

Was it actually nail polish remover or was it that Jungle Juice stuff listed as "nail polish remover"? I have some of the latter and I love it.

[#FF0000]

got pizza to celebrate having money to get groceries, fill up my car and pay more bills hooray

[Sinister Intents]

I wanna be dominated ;)

[Quail]

Earlier today, me and my mom huffed nail polish remover together. It was interesting.
Haha, wow. I seriously can't imagine ever doing that with my mum.

[Le Socialiste]

Some man dressed up as Walter White/Heisenberg approached my friends and I as we sat in my buddy's car last night. Comrade rolls down his window to see what he wants, and guy says "Say my name." We reply "You're Heisenberg." Dude nods and walks off. Made my night.

[A Revolutionary Tool]

I was trying to talk politics with some well off jock last night and he was saying the stupidest shit ever. He asks me if I want some chewing tobacco so I tell him no, it's bad for your health *takes two hits from the blunt* and we start talking about chew. He tells me that he's addicted to it, then five minutes later tells me he's going to start to give his kid chewing tobacco when he turns 6. Da fok?! All I could do was try and tell him how big of a dumbfuck he is being and try to hustle some money out of him, I felt so much stupider when he left that it hurt my brain.

[Hermes]

I'm just putting this here because it doesn't deserve its own thread, and it's a really insignificant thing, etc

Does anyone know if Marx ever definitively claimed that the revolution was going to happen on x date or in x years? I'm aware that, or at least I've heard, that in letters to friends, etc, he expressed his desire/wish/'vague prediction?' of when it would happen, but not anything more than that.

It's just really annoying when every single time Marx is mentioned anywhere that HE WAS WRONG because THE REVOLUTION didn't happen, and all that.

[TheGodlessUtopian]

Am now all moved into my new single! Took four hours but all is organized and neat. I feel nice and happy now.

[Os Cangaceiros]

I'm just putting this here because it doesn't deserve its own thread, and it's a really insignificant thing, etc

Does anyone know if Marx ever definitively claimed that the revolution was going to happen on x date or in x years? I'm aware that, or at least I've heard, that in letters to friends, etc, he expressed his desire/wish/'vague prediction?' of when it would happen, but not anything more than that.

It's just really annoying when every single time Marx is mentioned anywhere that HE WAS WRONG because THE REVOLUTION didn't happen, and all that.

He thought that there'd either be a revolution, or the "destruction of the contending classes", if memory serves me

[Os Cangaceiros]

Someone at my school spraypainted on a wall "WHO IS JOHN GALT?" and someone else tagged "some whiny billionaire on strike" right next to it, haha

[Art Vandelay]

I'm just putting this here because it doesn't deserve its own thread, and it's a really insignificant thing, etc

Does anyone know if Marx ever definitively claimed that the revolution was going to happen on x date or in x years? I'm aware that, or at least I've heard, that in letters to friends, etc, he expressed his desire/wish/'vague prediction?' of when it would happen, but not anything more than that.

It's just really annoying when every single time Marx is mentioned anywhere that HE WAS WRONG because THE REVOLUTION didn't happen, and all that.

Marx never predicted a specific time table for revolution, as a materialist, he never would have even pretended to have been able to predict such a thing. I'm currently reading a collection of essays by Bertell Ollman, dealing with this topic. He puts forth the argument that Marx's conception of the development of class consciousness, was too monolithic; an argument that I'm finding fairly compelling. So while Marx never stated a given date for revolution, Ollman states that while he grew increasingly pessimistic later in life, as far as the possibility of witnessing a socialist revolution, he never considered himself someone writing for events which would transpire much later then the end of his century.

[Sinister Intents]

I'm so Fucking high right now :'( I just want to cone down....

[Crabbensmasher]

I was trying to talk politics with some well off jock last night and he was saying the stupidest shit ever. He asks me if I want some chewing tobacco so I tell him no, it's bad for your health *takes two hits from the blunt* and we start talking about chew. He tells me that he's addicted to it, then five minutes later tells me he's going to start to give his kid chewing tobacco when he turns 6. Da fok?! All I could do was try and tell him how big of a dumbfuck he is being and try to hustle some money out of him, I felt so much stupider when he left that it hurt my brain.

That's when you say "I have to uhh... wash my dog" and then walk away never to be seen again. Those people will just make ya depressed.

[Klaatu]

When he finished I said, 'In that passage Jesus says that if you have real faith you will be able to drink poison and not die'. I took a bottle of Lankem (detergent) from behind my back, held it up and said, 'Here is some poison. Demonstrate to me the strength of your faith and I will listen to anything you have to say about Jesus'.

Keep a copy of this Bible reference and a bottle of Lankem ready and every time the evangelists come to your door to harass you give them this test. You might like to have a polanga ready as well.


Hate to tell you this, but the "poison" is metaphorical. The "poison" is the evil we consume. But then, those ignorant "Christians" should have known this--- the Bible is chock full of metaphor and allegory.

[Art Vandelay]

Results show we lost in a close race in mini, this fucking sucks and I'm feeling pretty depressed over it. Was planning on having a drink to celebrate, but its probably going to be a couple stiff ones, for other reasons.

[TheGodlessUtopian]

Sometimes I wish I could go back to the old me, the one who cared far more about recent video games releases than politics because let me tell you something: knowing everything which happens in the world and why it happens is majorly depressing. I think this because at least back than I was happy and content; now I seem to never truly be happy or feel content. It is just a slog of shit I am suppose to do.

[ed miliband]

just wrote and referenced two 1,700 essays in 4 days, and got both in on time. feel a wreck, coming down with a horrible cold, but last year and the year before that i would have probably said 'fuck it' and not bothered, so i'm proud i got it all done :)

[TheGodlessUtopian]

One of my Facebook friends just told me that he broke up with the guy he was dating because he was Black and he had a sexual dream where he was having intercourse with two guys... both of which were White; and so he took this as his sub-conscious telling him to break up with the guy he was going out with... also involved was the other guy's lack of a hot body.

:unsure:

[human strike]

Went to the first meeting of a rebooted men's consciousness raising group last night. It was a pretty encouraging start. I'm also glad someone else organised it because knowing me I probably would never have gotten round to doing it, despite saying I would. :)

[Futility Personified]

I typed in "I don't want a shit job" onto google, and this is what came up. http://www.snagajob.com/employer-solutions/blog/five-things-bad-job-seekers-dont-want-you-to-know/

Motherfuckers!

[Sinister Intents]

I feel so alone. I just want someone to be with, but apparently I can't have long hair as a man, I can't dress like a metalhead because according to my parents I'm going to attract "high schoolers, the obese, drunkards, and drug abusers" apparently I can't just be my fucking self. I'm too creepy and dirty looking for a new girlfriend. My family is ruining my self esteem little by little, they're trying to coerce me into something I'm not. "You're too narrow minded." I should just fucking hide in bed all day and fucking cry.

[Trap Queen Voxxy]

http://fast-images.picyou.com/images/InwJbP/InwJbP.jpg

Law of attraction, we'll see motherfucker. So. Fucking. Pissed.

[Sinister Intents]

I have concluded that I am a loud, obnoxious piece of shit. Congratulations, JULIAN! On fucking embarrassing yourself yet again! Now go fucking hide from society and life you miserable mistake of human fucking life! BETTER YET, go kill yourself! You know it's been becoming more comfortable to load the rifle and put it to your fucking head! GO FORTH! GO FORTH AND DIE!!

[Landsharks eat metal]

I have concluded that I am a loud, obnoxious piece of shit. Congratulations, JULIAN! On fucking embarrassing yourself yet again! Now go fucking hide from society and life you miserable mistake of human fucking life! BETTER YET, go kill yourself! You know it's been becoming more comfortable to load the rifle and put it to your fucking head! GO FORTH! GO FORTH AND DIE!!

What led you to this extremely inaccurate conclusion?

[Sinister Intents]

What led you to this extremely inaccurate conclusion?

Having almost no friends nearby. As well as trying to open up to people in college to be blatantly informed that a fucking FRIGHTEN AND DISTURB PEOPLE! Feel so great! I'm a creepy asshole.

[motion denied]

I'm creepy too.

[Landsharks eat metal]

Having almost no friends nearby. As well as trying to open up to people in college to be blatantly informed that a fucking FRIGHTEN AND DISTURB PEOPLE! Feel so great! I'm a creepy asshole.
Yeah, I've been told that too. What you can do with that is learn from it instead of getting upset. Do you notice anything that seems to get this reaction on multiple occasions? See if you can find someone you can trust to tell you why you might come across that way. (I notice that you said almost no friends, so there could be something there?)

[Sinister Intents]

Any fucking comedic movie, I find the majority if them awkward and distasteful

[TheGodlessUtopian]

Any fucking comedic movie, I find the majority if them awkward and distasteful

Yeah, so many are just repetitive reactionary dribble. The comedy movie that actually has some progressive politics behind it is something I do not see often. Of course I may be being too snobby but still.

[Rugged Collectivist]

just wrote and referenced two 1,700 essays in 4 days, and got both in on time. feel a wreck, coming down with a horrible cold, but last year and the year before that i would have probably said 'fuck it' and not bothered, so i'm proud i got it all done :)

At first I thought you meant 1700 pages and I was really confused/amazed. Not that I'm not still amazed.


Having almost no friends nearby. As well as trying to open up to people in college to be blatantly informed that a fucking FRIGHTEN AND DISTURB PEOPLE! Feel so great! I'm a creepy asshole.

Don't worry about that. I've had people tell me I was a creepy asshole and I've had other people tell me I'm the nicest person in the world. It's all a matter of perspective. Try to befriend people who accept you for who you are and ignore everyone else. The loneliness can be difficult but it's not worth dying over. Hell, after a while you may actually get used to the loneliness. I know that's probably not what you want, and I'm not saying you should get used to it, but it's one of those things where constant exposure makes you numb to it. It gets better is what I'm saying.

[Yuppie Grinder]

I got love for all the weedmen out there, but why does no weedman now how to tell time? They're like "i'll be there in 20" and there there in an hour.

[Art Vandelay]

I got love for all the weedmen out there, but why does no weedman now how to tell time? They're like "i'll be there in 20" and there there in an hour.

Stoner time man, its the worst. I generally double whatever time I'm told, depending on the dealer. I get told 20 minutes and I instantly expect him to show up in 40.

[TheGodlessUtopian]

Don't worry about that. I've had people tell me I was a creepy asshole and I've had other people tell me I'm the nicest person in the world. It's all a matter of perspective. Try to befriend people who accept you for who you are and ignore everyone else. The loneliness can be difficult but it's not worth dying over. Hell, after a while you may actually get used to the loneliness. I know that's probably not what you want, and I'm not saying you should get used to it, but it's one of those things where constant exposure makes you numb to it. It gets better is what I'm saying.

It is true and moreover I think for certain kinds of introverted, shy people it is a given. I know I am comfortable with my loneliness; I wish I had a partner but at the same time I do not despise the person I am. This is much ahead of those extroverted, sociable people (like my former roommate) who are so uncomfortable with themselves that they need to call in others not to become inane. To illustrate I remember a conversation I had with him which he told me about how alone he felt in the cafeteria with no friends nearby. He said that he felt like giving me a call so I could show up and eat with him. I found this astonishing: to be so insecure with yourself that you need to have another acquaintance with you just to feel content while eating lunch. If I ever have known such a feeling of insecurity it was only when I was a young child (as opposed to his young adulthood).

[Rugged Collectivist]

I decided to drop out of college. They said it's too late to withdraw so I'll have to take two F's which will make it harder to go back if I ever want to. I could have finished out the semester but I don't really see the point, and I need to spend that time working so I can make more money to fund my latest endeavor. I'm just glad I got out before I accumulated too much debt.

Oh well. On to better things!

[Igor]

I decided to drop out of college. They said it's too late to withdraw so I'll have to take two F's which will make it harder to go back if I ever want to. I could have finished out the semester but I don't really see the point, and I need to spend that time working so I can make more money to fund my latest endeavor. I'm just glad I got out before I accumulated too much debt.

Oh well. On to better things!

welcome to the club

[Igor]

ive found my mornings have become notably better since instead of general phone noise my alarm is now bruce springsteen's "factory"

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in a weird way it puts me on a good mood when i wake up, turn up the volume and make myself some breakfast before the sun is even up

[Sinister Intents]

My constant embarrassment and shame over myself for things in the past. But also what to have for breakfast...

[Futility Personified]

Had a weird, strange dream where I became a minor celebrity's PA, trying to juggle a double life of being me, and coping with the demands of that job. The worst part was I was a panderer, I don't want to be a panderer. Nightmares where you're being chased, or eaten, preferable to nightmares where you wake up and realise that you might be an arsehole.

[Sinister Intents]

My shattered cellphone screen is beginning to fall out :D

[Sinister Intents]

My home is infested fleas :crying:

[TheGodlessUtopian]

My home is infested fleas :crying:

For most of my life I lived in an apartment building which was so infested with fleas during the summer that whenever you set your foot upon the floor you could see them jump upon your leg and crawl all over your flesh. It was interesting... highly annoying as well.

[Sinister Intents]

For most of my life I lived in an apartment building which was so infested with fleas during the summer that whenever you set your foot upon the floor you could see them jump upon your leg and crawl all over your flesh. It was interesting... highly annoying as well.

I've lived them for the last five years and the quantity is torture :crying: we have eight pets, we've tried do many things.... and I'm covered...

[TheGodlessUtopian]

My saving grace is that the fleas I was with didn't particularly like my blood so they didn't give me a great deal of trouble.

[Sinister Intents]

Youre lucky :( I've been losing sleep, I've been itching so much, they w won't leave me alone... what do I do?

[Sinister Intents]

I just sat in my car screaming and growling "WHY???" Repeatedly because it's snowing

[TheGodlessUtopian]

Youre lucky :( I've been losing sleep, I've been itching so much, they w won't leave me alone... what do I do?

Invest in insect/flea bombs? That is what my family did when the fleas got too bad.

[Landsharks eat metal]

I almost wish I were in college right now. Not for a degree because you have to fulfill a bunch of bullshit requirements. I just want to take classes that are interesting to me. Like psychology. Or learn a new language. I've tried to study languages independently, but without the actual classroom aspect, I soon lose motivation. Fuck I wish I could afford to just learn as much as I want. Free online classes are really hard to get motivated for, plus I have never gained much out of that sort of learning environment.

[Art Vandelay]

I almost wish I were in college right now. Not for a degree because you have to fulfill a bunch of bullshit requirements. I just want to take classes that are interesting to me. Like psychology. Or learn a new language. I've tried to study languages independently, but without the actual classroom aspect, I soon lose motivation. Fuck I wish I could afford to just learn as much as I want. Free online classes are really hard to get motivated for, plus I have never gained much out of that sort of learning environment.

I think there is alot of value in independent learning, if you can motivate yourself, as opposed to college/university. I mean that, in the sense of, the amount of tedious and arbitrary barriers which exist in capitalist society, which make uni/college so expensive and inaccessible, are a huge draw back. This is also coming from someone about half way through a degree and while not in classes right now, will be back within the next 1-2 years, simply because in capitalist society intelligence doesn't count for much, without a degree. You could always try the steve jobs approach and while not being a university student, just show up at a campus large enough that most people don't know one another, and go drop in on classes which interest you. Don't have to pay anything and don't have to follow arbitrary major requirements, you just get free access to an intellectual environment.

[Sinister Intents]

I want to escape my life. I want to get the fuck away from everything that reminds of of my ex and my significant failures. I must escape this dismal reality!

[Doflamingo]

Does anyone else think Murray Rothbard looks like the guy from the Six Flags commercials?

[motion denied]

Por allí viene Durruti
Con un libro en el morral,
Donde apunta los millones
Que ha robado el capital

[Trap Queen Voxxy]

http://2.bp.blogspot.com/-02bI34nvUH8/UJV8_4UBrKI/AAAAAAAACkc/-wmg66I5AHs/s1600/tumblr_m9zv7hRESE1rdlevlo1_500.jpg

[TheGodlessUtopian]

Found a guy on a site which lives close by and is not interested purely in sex... downside, he is a Republican. Damn, so close!

[ed miliband]

you may as well check him out, dude. obviously it's up to you but there's a chance you'll get on about other things.

[TheGodlessUtopian]

He sent me a message after I told him of our differences last night but because I have a free account I cannot access it right away. I am not opposed to possibly hanging out and chatting/debating (if he is a level headed guy) but that being said I am hesitant about doing much with a person who the opposite of me both spiritually and politically. I am seeking more partner material with friendship being the bridge to something more so I am simply unsure if I want to waste my time with something that will not evolve to that point.

[Trap Queen Voxxy]

He sent me a message after I told him of our differences last night but because I have a free account I cannot access it right away. I am not opposed to possibly hanging out and chatting/debating (if he is a level headed guy) but that being said I am hesitant about doing much with a person who the opposite of me both spiritually and politically. I am seeking more partner material with friendship being the bridge to something more so I am simply unsure if I want to waste my time with something that will not evolve to that point.

Never know until you try. Nothing ventured, nothing gained.

[Sinister Intents]

I've decided to accept Christ back into my life. I'm Catholic again :)

Just Kidding :D

[Landsharks eat metal]

starting to think it's not possible for people to keep their word. At least not to me. I don't know. Maybe I deserve it.. or maybe everyone's been lying to me all along.
what if I don't exist?

[Art Vandelay]

Its my friends 21st today and I need to get him a half decent present. My close friends and I aren't ones to make big deals about birthdays at all, but since he's turning 21 I figured my usual present of a pack of smokes/case of beer would probably be insufficient. Pretty sure this friend took me out to eat on my 21st, so maybe I'll just do that, but I'd like to come up with something cool/original. Probably shouldn't always leave this stuff till the last minute.

[Sinister Intents]

I'm thinking of starting my own music blog :) It'd be mostly metal, punk, and goth music. Who'd be interested?

[Trap Queen Voxxy]

Why am I so adorable? The world may never know.

[Landsharks eat metal]

I miss the feeling of being in love. I know that's kind of dumb because every time I have been in love, it's been with someone who would probably never love me back. Or maybe I'm just sad because there's not even anyone around for me to fall in love with.

[Leftsolidarity]

When I was in NYC over the weekend I finally got to visit C-Squat.
Childhood goal: accomplished

[Sinister Intents]

Today is looking like a multiple joint day.

[Art Vandelay]

When I was in NYC over the weekend I finally got to visit C-Squat.
Childhood goal: accomplished

I'm so fucking jealous. :glare:

[Leftsolidarity]

I'm so fucking jealous. :glare:

They have this super-rad like activist/squat museum with tours on the first floor and basement. I was just expecting a shitty building that I couldn't even walk into.

[Goblin]

I'm 20 now

[Art Vandelay]

Has anyone else ever thought that Huey Freeman from 'the boondocks,' would look like Reggie Watts, if he grew up to be chubby with a beard? No...okay...I figured it was a weird thought to cross my mind regardless.

[Quail]

Someone tagged me in some photos on facebook and all I see when I look at them is how gross my teeth look. There's a reason I avoid smiling with my mouth open. Which reminds me I really should book a dentist appointment soon.

[Vladimir Innit Lenin]

as part of my teacher training I get to design a series of lessons and teach them.

I'm doing mine on the women's movement in britain in the early 20th century. So fuckin' excited to teach this. :D

[TheGodlessUtopian]

Today was a good day: I earned three "A" grades in English and paid off the remaining balance on my student account thereby removing the hold. Now I will be all set to register for classes tomorrow morning!

[#FF0000]

got a job

better believe I'm gonna drive 45 minutes in an ice storm to get to orientation

better believe that commute is going to leave me with a barely positive balance at the end of the week.

better believe that's better than what I was dealing with before

[Quail]

Star Trek definitely reached its peak of progressiveness. The recent films are kind of depressingly not in the spirit of Star Trek, especially with the way that the women are depicted. You could forgive TOS as a product of its time because it was made in the '60s, but the recent films have no excuse. I'm watching Enterprise at the moment, and it just really infuriates me that T'Pol's clothing is always unnecessarily revealing. Okay, she is probably the most attractive character on the show, but she is also one of the few with a personality and decent development (Enterprise is, as far as Star Trek and TV shows in general are concerned, pretty poor) and I'm sure she would still be in many geeky fantasies even if she didn't wear pointlessly revealing outfits.

[Landsharks eat metal]

My 50-something year old father does not seem to have learned at any point in his life that bad-mouthing someone in front of them is not a nice thing to do and makes them very uncomfortable. He loves to talk about how lazy and selfish I am to others when I am in earshot (whether or not he realizes that I can hear him is a different question). I have never heard him say things like that about my sister, and in fact, he can praise her hard work and attitude in the same breath as talking about how lazy I am to a stranger. I can't say anything to him or he'll call me pathetic or ask how I expect to be treated like a man if I can't take a little teasing, or something like that. I think he doesn't even realize how combative he is, and yet he gets mad at me or makes fun of me anytime I can't figure out some sort of social skills thing.

I survived my dad badmouthing me to my aunts by thinking about how this is the last Thanksgiving I'll ever be forced to spend in this hellhole, and the second to last family get-together ever before I leave

[Landsharks eat metal]

My 50-something year old father does not seem to have learned at any point in his life that bad-mouthing someone in front of them is not a nice thing to do and makes them very uncomfortable. He loves to talk about how lazy and selfish I am to others when I am in earshot (whether or not he realizes that I can hear him is a different question). I have never heard him say things like that about my sister, and in fact, he can praise her hard work and attitude in the same breath as talking about how lazy I am to a stranger. I can't say anything to him or he'll call me pathetic or ask how I expect to be treated like a man if I can't take a little teasing, or something like that. I think he doesn't even realize how combative he is, and yet he gets mad at me or makes fun of me anytime I can't figure out some sort of social skills thing.

I survived my dad badmouthing me to my aunts by thinking about how this is the last Thanksgiving I'll ever be forced to spend in this hellhole, and the second to last family get-together ever before I leave

Decided to try to talk politely to him about it (after he kicked me off the computer after only an hour and 15 minutes, seemingly to punish me for not applying to enough jobs), and he did neither of the things I was scared of. Instead, he ignored me until my mother prodded him to answer, at which point he told me I was dressed like a bum. And also that apparently I don't have to listen to him when he says things like that, even though he is doing it well within earshot. Evidently I have the undiscovered skill of turning off my ears to prevent myself from hearing people saying mean things about me.

Still kind of shocked. Just when I think things have turned a corner with him, shit like this happens. My mom apologized for him, but that's not really enough. I know if he weren't my dad, I might not even believe it was possible for someone to be so ridiculous.

[#FF0000]

"Okay #FF0000 we will call you later this week and we'll tell you what day you start"

ONE HOUR LEFT WHERE IS THIS PHONE CALL

[#FF0000]

no phone call asdfnasjdfjhasdgfjhadfgjad

[Rugged Collectivist]

Call them and ask what's up.

[#FF0000]

Yeah that's the annoying part.

I did.

Every half hour the course of five hours.

No one picked up.

[LOLseph Stalin]

Capitalism has really been taking its toll on me lately. I have very little money myself and I've been having to give my mom money so she doesn't starve or get evicted. What am I supposed to do when neither of us has money :crying:? Luckily she sees many of the same flaws in the system as I do and agrees with me that it's shit.

[La Comédie Noire]

My 50-something year old father does not seem to have learned at any point in his life that bad-mouthing someone in front of them is not a nice thing to do and makes them very uncomfortable. He loves to talk about how lazy and selfish I am to others when I am in earshot (whether or not he realizes that I can hear him is a different question). I have never heard him say things like that about my sister, and in fact, he can praise her hard work and attitude in the same breath as talking about how lazy I am to a stranger. I can't say anything to him or he'll call me pathetic or ask how I expect to be treated like a man if I can't take a little teasing, or something like that. I think he doesn't even realize how combative he is, and yet he gets mad at me or makes fun of me anytime I can't figure out some sort of social skills thing.

I survived my dad badmouthing me to my aunts by thinking about how this is the last Thanksgiving I'll ever be forced to spend in this hellhole, and the second to last family get-together ever before I leave



The great thing I find with over bearing and abusive relatives is they can't stand being ignored. Props to you for leaving, in my experience the bitterness, jokes at your expense, and insults just get worse with age.

[TheGodlessUtopian]

Originally I was going to post up the Capital guide later this month but due to circumstance I will be posting it up within the week. Be looking for it soon!

[Ele'ill]

http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-ef3rjM62ikc/UC5ntBMZ66I/AAAAAAAAAEk/s-VYMbzIWFI/s1600/occupazione-logo-4cd0571f093b0.jpg

[RedAnarchist]

You would think that something terrible had happened the way some people in my country are going on about ITV on Facebook and Twitter. ITV was down for a while in parts of the country, meaning some people..and you might want to sit down for this (:lol:)...MISSED PART OF X FACTOR AND I'M A CELEBRITY!:rolleyes:

[Sinister Intents]

Hate that which doesn't exist. Follow that which you love.

[Yuppie Grinder]

i've been sleeping on satan for way too long satan is so punk

[Yet_Another_Boring_Marxist]

So some of you might have noticed that I haven't really been posting lately, it's not that there isn't stuff that I want to reply to, it's just lately I've been feeling kinda down and what not and haven't really been able to. My erratic sleep pattern and my work is really starting to take a toll on my mental and physical health and while I've managed to prevent it from affecting my personal life I have been more unstable around these parts. Hell I even called an ultra-left friend of mine a fascist for some dumbass reason. I mean as long as I am able to keep it together in real life it isn't really that important but it does worry me sometimes

[ed miliband]

i hate the winter. about seven hours sunlight a day, and since i usually wake up at around 10am each day i miss about two of them. i don't think i saw sunlight at all over the weekend. i can't wait for those long summer days.

i'm quite glad it's december though, really. i can't lie that i am looking forward to christmas and new years quite a bit.

[Art Vandelay]

Living in the prairies is so depressing, I need to get out of here.

e: It would of been the birthday, of a fellow Canadian CWI comrade, today, if he had not drowned a few months ago. He was in his early 20's and I cannot help but wonder why he is dead and yet someone like me is not. I did not know him very well, in fact outside of exchanging a few words with one another (perhaps not even directly) during National phone conferences, I don't think I ever interacted with him outside of accepting a friend request on facebook. Its all making me very sad though, maybe its cause I wasn't in a great mood tonight, but I can't help but focus on the fleeting experience of temporary consciousness/existence and all the baggage that comes with it.

[Sinister Intents]

Sometimes I think about how easily I could extinguish the lives of those around me. Such as in the past when I was working with certain individuals I went to high school with. I could have easily impaled someone repeatedly with a pick-ax and then went onto the other and fucking mutilated him. How easily I could have picked up a razor blade and sneak up behind the one, cut his throat, and then repeatedly stab him. How easy it would have been to spill ones organs from their belly and spread them around the jobsite. Oh I could have killed those two in so many ways and gained so much enjoyment from their suffering and death. To cover myself in their entrails and blood and consume some of their parts. These two would have deserved their fucking punishment for how they treated me, for stealing from me, for abusing me, for treating me like I was significantly less than them. I could have easily fucking punished them, but I did nothing. I remained kind, calm, collective, and I ignored their treatment of me. I feel as if I should have reacted violently and killed the one in front of his mother with a framing hammer by repeatedly bludgeoning his head with it. Again, I did nothing violent.

[TheGodlessUtopian]

Sometimes I think about how easily I could extinguish the lives of those around me. Such as in the past when I was working with certain individuals I went to high school with. I could have easily impaled someone repeatedly with a pick-ax and then went onto the other and fucking mutilated him. How easily I could have picked up a razor blade and sneak up behind the one, cut his throat, and then repeatedly stab him. How easy it would have been to spill ones organs from their belly and spread them around the jobsite. Oh I could have killed those two in so many ways and gained so much enjoyment from their suffering and death. To cover myself in their entrails and blood and consume some of their parts. These two would have deserved their fucking punishment for how they treated me, for stealing from me, for abusing me, for treating me like I was significantly less than them. I could have easily fucking punished them, but I did nothing. I remained kind, calm, collective, and I ignored their treatment of me. I feel as if I should have reacted violently and killed the one in front of his mother with a framing hammer by repeatedly bludgeoning his head with it. Again, I did nothing violent.

I often become existential like this as well. Sometimes it is violence but more often than not it is simply pondering proper formal habit: introductions, clothes, language and so on. I become so introspective that it can freak me out... 'cause it is weird realizing that if you choose to do [X] than a great deal of your life would be ruined and is only possible to remain proper when you undertake [Y].

[Crabbensmasher]

I often become existential like this as well. Sometimes it is violence but more often than not it is simply pondering proper formal habit: introductions, clothes, language and so on. I become so introspective that it can freak me out... 'cause it is weird realizing that if you choose to do [X] than a great deal of your life would be ruined and is only possible to remain proper when you undertake [Y].

Mhhm, sometimes thoughts like this make me anxious. Particularly, if some sort of relationship is going really well, I'll think "I could say this right now, and completely fuck everything up". And it's just the act of thinking this that makes me worried and a bit depressed.

And in more day to day life, I actually act on some of these minor things. I find myself (in really small ways) breaking out of social norms. Or, I don't think it's really norms, but moreso minor conventions.

Like, I won't really bother with small talk from cashiers and stuff anymore, unless I'm in the mood for it. Even though I've always done it before out of convention.
My sister always points out how I act "weird". Like, if I see something shiny on the ground, I'll stoop over to inspect it or something. The way I talk always conveys my emotions very clearly too.

These all seems like normal things, but it feels like everybody else is so, robotic, you know? It's these little conventions. Walk on the sidewalk, don't run your hands across the wall, smile at the old lady, say you're having a nice day even if you aren't. I'm just not bothering with that crap anymore. I'm not depressed though. Apathetic maybe?

As I'm writing this, I'm thinking maybe these are good things, albeit a bit worrisome. Am I becoming a more honest, distinct person, or becoming more apathetic towards relations, community, life in general?

[Ethics Gradient, Traitor For All Ages]

"Okay #FF0000 we will call you later this week and we'll tell you what day you start"

ONE HOUR LEFT WHERE IS THIS PHONE CALL

At this point I assume that when I hear "I should have more information for you early next week" that the person on the other end is holding in laughter as they crumple up my resume and throw it in the trash.

[GiantMonkeyMan]

Feeling really helpless and useless. I live with a Kurdish refugee who just got arrested after a woman accused him of stalking her because every day, for over a year, he goes to the same coffee shop and she apparently goes there often as well. Basically we think it was virtually racism on every level with the woman just assuming he was bad and the cops just assuming they should arrest him without any prior history.

Because his English isn't great he was locked up for over five hours until an interpreter could be found and he could give a proper statement. I've just been sat on my hands for five hours wondering what the hell is going on, not being allowed to speak with him due to fucking police sergeants not giving a shit and just hating cops in general. I didn't want to make a political statement out of it (because my friend was in trouble and it wasn't just some article online) but I was totally in an ACAB mood mainly because I just felt I couldn't do anything to help him. He finally got out due to 'insufficient evidence' which anyone who isn't a racist could tell right away.

Even still I feel like I did nothing useful, could do nothing useful, and feeling shit which makes me feel worse because I wasn't the one that got locked up. Basically, why the fuck does this system exist? Why the fuck does shit like this still go on?

[Sinister Intents]

Goodbye everyone.

[Landsharks eat metal]

Goodbye everyone.
In case anybody else sees this message and freaks out like I did, he is fine. He can't access Revleft right now to fix his post to make it a little clearer, but he told me to tell you that he's not going to have internet access for a bit and might not be able to log on for a few weeks.

[Os Cangaceiros]

Working only a few hours of sleep over a 36+ hour time period, I've gotta write two essays for two classes that are due tomorrow. If I actually manage to pull this off I'll be pretty impressed with myself.

[Quail]

Working only a few hours of sleep over a 36+ hour time period, I've gotta write two essays for two classes that are due tomorrow. If I actually manage to pull this off I'll be pretty impressed with myself.

Good luck :)

[Os Cangaceiros]

24 ounces of black coffee and 15 mgs of dextroamphetamine really put my head in the game. I got this shit.

I GOT THIS SHIT. ;)

[Yuppie Grinder]

i'm not normally a conspiracy theory person but i think the us government might have been behind the moon landing

[Landsharks eat metal]

Had a nightmare last night. Still feel a little weird thinking about it. I was working as a 9-1-1 dispatcher, and it was Christmas Eve. We received a call that told us our building was about to flood, so we had to evacuate to a nearby Chinese restaurant (that was also flooding but was somehow more safe.) We couldn't leave yet until this lady known only as "Mama" found some sort of hairpiece she lost. Once she found her hairpiece, we all left except some lady named Shirley, who wouldn't come because they were making us wear rain boots. She considered wearing rain boots an "alternate lifestyle" and didn't want to die like that because she thought she would go to hell.

Then a noise irl startled me and woke me up (probably from the actual storm that was going on outside.) I still thought I was in the dream even though I saw that I was in my room. I felt someone's hand touch my hip, and they said to me, "This place is not long for this world. Goodbye." They were leaving me to die and I was paralyzed on my bed.

[Lily Briscoe]

^the last part sounds like sleep paralysis. I get that sometimes.

Anyway, I'm pulled over atm getting written up for speeding by a cop who looks like he's in high school. Thought I'd share :(

[TheGodlessUtopian]

I remember seeing on Facebook today a picture regarding the situation in Ukraine. The picture was a map of Europe with the European Union represented by the EU logo and a Swastika while Russia was represented by the Tsarist flag and the Hammer and Sickle. Jeez. :rolleyes:

[Crabbensmasher]

Had a nightmare last night. Still feel a little weird thinking about it. I was working as a 9-1-1 dispatcher, and it was Christmas Eve. We received a call that told us our building was about to flood, so we had to evacuate to a nearby Chinese restaurant (that was also flooding but was somehow more safe.) We couldn't leave yet until this lady known only as "Mama" found some sort of hairpiece she lost. Once she found her hairpiece, we all left except some lady named Shirley, who wouldn't come because they were making us wear rain boots. She considered wearing rain boots an "alternate lifestyle" and didn't want to die like that because she thought she would go to hell.

Then a noise irl startled me and woke me up (probably from the actual storm that was going on outside.) I still thought I was in the dream even though I saw that I was in my room. I felt someone's hand touch my hip, and they said to me, "This place is not long for this world. Goodbye." They were leaving me to die and I was paralyzed on my bed.


Do you ever get dreams that involve you dying? They're the worst.

Like, I used to get this one where I was lying down in a ditch, unable to really move much. I must have been shot or something. And then two seriously freaked out dudes stand over top of me trying to debate what to do, even though I'm still conscious and can hear everything. It's just this utter helplessness, scares the shit out of me

Then they shoot me, and I jolt awake. Once it was so bad I kicked a small hole in my wall. Funny thing is, I've like never had a traumatic experience in my life, so I don't know where it came from. Movies maybe?

[Os Cangaceiros]

Working only a few hours of sleep over a 36+ hour time period, I've gotta write two essays for two classes that are due tomorrow. If I actually manage to pull this off I'll be pretty impressed with myself.

I got it done.

The disruption of my sleep patterns has resulted in some pretty frustrating episodes of me falling asleep randomly during the day though, hopefully that goes away soon.