the Left™
12th December 2012, 02:58
Hi.
So I don't post here that frequently because I tend to find it inaccessible and polarizing. I work 40 to 50 hours a week every week and I have NO paid time off because my employer scheduled all my PTO to fall on a weird date like 9 months into my employment there. My life feels like a huge machine grind with no redeeming qualities or future
I'm extremely disillusioned with the Left and my life. I am a card carrying member of the IWW and i visited the Boston chapter a few weeks ago. It was decent some of my friends in Boston that are wobbs were nice but I didn't feel like I was in the right place politically. I think I'm moving more into M-L or something more party-based, its hard to say really I just feel like the IWW has super limitations and doesnt feel "complete" to address the crisis that we are experiencing and the theoretical and programmatic challenges of creating a revolutionary leftist movement and party. Whatever, its just hard to be involved in activism and leftist practice when I have a full time job of manual labor( its very taxing physically).
A girl I hooked up with apparently had an abusive ex boyfriend. She has seizures, night terrors and bipolar disorder. She says that she wants to be with me but can't because I'm a militant atheist and she needs to be with someone who is a Muslim like her. That, and she has a hard time being close to people after her ex really did a number on her psychologically and physically.
It really sucks because we have a lot in common and really connected and it felt authentic.
I just go through the motions. I dont have many friends. Work is generic and insanely boring( recycling plant). Im saving money for grad school but I feel like I might not do well enough in grad school to become a professor or something close to my interests career wise(educator, activist).
I almost got arrested for possession of marijuana(the cop was a fucking dick), so I am sans pipe.
No cannabis, a bipolar woman who was too good to be true, a dead-end bullshit job, apathetic politically etc etc
My life is meh. It really has taken a toll on me. I feel permanently depressed.
/rant
So I don't post here that frequently because I tend to find it inaccessible and polarizing. I work 40 to 50 hours a week every week and I have NO paid time off because my employer scheduled all my PTO to fall on a weird date like 9 months into my employment there. My life feels like a huge machine grind with no redeeming qualities or future
I'm extremely disillusioned with the Left and my life. I am a card carrying member of the IWW and i visited the Boston chapter a few weeks ago. It was decent some of my friends in Boston that are wobbs were nice but I didn't feel like I was in the right place politically. I think I'm moving more into M-L or something more party-based, its hard to say really I just feel like the IWW has super limitations and doesnt feel "complete" to address the crisis that we are experiencing and the theoretical and programmatic challenges of creating a revolutionary leftist movement and party. Whatever, its just hard to be involved in activism and leftist practice when I have a full time job of manual labor( its very taxing physically).
A girl I hooked up with apparently had an abusive ex boyfriend. She has seizures, night terrors and bipolar disorder. She says that she wants to be with me but can't because I'm a militant atheist and she needs to be with someone who is a Muslim like her. That, and she has a hard time being close to people after her ex really did a number on her psychologically and physically.
It really sucks because we have a lot in common and really connected and it felt authentic.
I just go through the motions. I dont have many friends. Work is generic and insanely boring( recycling plant). Im saving money for grad school but I feel like I might not do well enough in grad school to become a professor or something close to my interests career wise(educator, activist).
I almost got arrested for possession of marijuana(the cop was a fucking dick), so I am sans pipe.
No cannabis, a bipolar woman who was too good to be true, a dead-end bullshit job, apathetic politically etc etc
My life is meh. It really has taken a toll on me. I feel permanently depressed.
/rant