DiaperGrandpa
30th May 2012, 15:01
If you were to ask me five years ago what my political views were, I'd likely have told you I was a serious nihilistic anti-statist. Years of existential angst and confusion left me feeling cynical and alienated. The majority of my early life was spent feeling like a rejected misfit, that my entire being was an abomination.
I worked for many years at a public high school cafeteria to make money to pay the rent. Several years ago, my partner of 17 years left me for a "BDSM Slave" and left me with nothing. Shortly after, I had what some people call a "mental breakdown." I went outside and I swear I saw colors that never existed before. Everything was so bright. I bought a webcam off craigslist and everything changed. In the midst of this "breakdown," I turned my camera on and recorded myself speaking almost non-stop for 6 hours. The "breakdown" lasted for anywhere between 7-12 days, and when it ended I listened to the recording of me speaking. I had an epiphany. I felt cleansed of all the shame.
Now after all of this, two of the most important things in my life occurred. I found the Adult Baby/Diaper Lover (AB/DL) community and I found politics. Finally I found people who were proud of who they were and didn't let society's prejudices stop them from being true to themselves. And then I started to see things from a "class struggle" framework. I stopped thinking of myself as an individualistic anti-statist, and not removed from society, but as a part of the proletariat.
I worked for many years at a public high school cafeteria to make money to pay the rent. Several years ago, my partner of 17 years left me for a "BDSM Slave" and left me with nothing. Shortly after, I had what some people call a "mental breakdown." I went outside and I swear I saw colors that never existed before. Everything was so bright. I bought a webcam off craigslist and everything changed. In the midst of this "breakdown," I turned my camera on and recorded myself speaking almost non-stop for 6 hours. The "breakdown" lasted for anywhere between 7-12 days, and when it ended I listened to the recording of me speaking. I had an epiphany. I felt cleansed of all the shame.
Now after all of this, two of the most important things in my life occurred. I found the Adult Baby/Diaper Lover (AB/DL) community and I found politics. Finally I found people who were proud of who they were and didn't let society's prejudices stop them from being true to themselves. And then I started to see things from a "class struggle" framework. I stopped thinking of myself as an individualistic anti-statist, and not removed from society, but as a part of the proletariat.