burujowa
22nd May 2012, 13:25
Hello everyone.
I came from an apolitical petty bourgeois family (with an extended family full of religious reactionaries) in a state, Utah, that's the wrong kind of red.
I became a "Libertarian" (in the American rightist sense) at a young age, drawn in by the rhetoric about "freedom". I first became interested in socialism in high school after the "history" class about the Soviet Union where communists were depicted as naïve morons who wanted to live on sharing until greedy baby eating Stalin started killing everyone and instated "totalitarianism". The obvious propaganda sparked my interest in the truth. I started to realize the exploitive nature of capitalism and the flaws of representing unrestrained capitalism as "freedom" while investigating what socialism actually means, and soon found myself identifying as a communist. I however still had a very vague understanding, mostly accepted the bourgeois story on the "totalitarian" socialist states of the past, and conveniently labeled them "state capitalists" (which I picked up from a left Trotskyist blog or something without understanding their reasoning) to distance myself from them.
I stayed like that for some time, but as I read more I began aligning myself more with Marxist-Leninists. Recently I've developed a renewed interest in reading original material. I am still recovering from the "shout 'freedom' as a response to everything" disease, so please forgive me.
I came from an apolitical petty bourgeois family (with an extended family full of religious reactionaries) in a state, Utah, that's the wrong kind of red.
I became a "Libertarian" (in the American rightist sense) at a young age, drawn in by the rhetoric about "freedom". I first became interested in socialism in high school after the "history" class about the Soviet Union where communists were depicted as naïve morons who wanted to live on sharing until greedy baby eating Stalin started killing everyone and instated "totalitarianism". The obvious propaganda sparked my interest in the truth. I started to realize the exploitive nature of capitalism and the flaws of representing unrestrained capitalism as "freedom" while investigating what socialism actually means, and soon found myself identifying as a communist. I however still had a very vague understanding, mostly accepted the bourgeois story on the "totalitarian" socialist states of the past, and conveniently labeled them "state capitalists" (which I picked up from a left Trotskyist blog or something without understanding their reasoning) to distance myself from them.
I stayed like that for some time, but as I read more I began aligning myself more with Marxist-Leninists. Recently I've developed a renewed interest in reading original material. I am still recovering from the "shout 'freedom' as a response to everything" disease, so please forgive me.