Pour Your Heart Out XIII

[TheGodlessUtopian]

All right, let the emotions flow like my mouth during a six hour road trip!

[NewLeft]

I am first, for the first time in my life!!

[Nox]

My dad's such a twat lol, about a year ago he started going to church with my stepsister and stepmum to take the piss, but he got converted (roflmao) and he's getting baptised in June. Seriously.

[Franz Fanonipants]

Defending thesis proposal tomorrow

[#FF0000]

I can't afford college. My family's not eligible for financial aid for some reason. I stopped going so I could save up money to pay for it out of pocket. That didn't happen. No one is hiring and no one pays well enough for that to be possible while paying for the necessities of life at the same time. My brother only just graduated high school and cannot go to college because of this.

I've already taken out loans which I'm feeling was the biggest mistake I've ever made. The amount is almost trivial -- but the prospect of paying it is frightening all the same. I want to drop out, find work, pay it off, and help pay for my brother to go to college. I can't. On top of the social pressure, the feeling of being a 'failure' and a 'loser', there are no jobs to take in the first place -- at least none that pay above minimum wage.

And so here I am, stuck at home, jobless and not for lack of trying -- with a college bill I can't pay (and thus, at this point, I'm not going back next semester) and loans hanging over my head, a hostile home environment, and no means to get out of it aside from taking out loans that I can never see paying back.

And meanwhile all of my friends are graduating. I just want a way out.

[Vyacheslav Brolotov]

Should I go to sleep, or do my homework........?

[#FF0000]

Should I go to sleep, or do my homework........?

Are you very tired and have time to do it tomorrow? If so, sleep.

Are you not all that tired? Then stay up and do as much as you can until you're tired.

[gorillafuck]

I decided not to go to college. I don't know what I am doing, but I guess now I know what I'm not doing.

[#FF0000]

Everyone I tell this says "noooo go to college!" but it's like yo do you realize what you are telling me to do? I can't pay for college right now without loans. I have loans already that I can't pay for. The only option, then, is to continue taking loans that I don't expect to ever be able to pay.

A strange game.

[Hermes]

It's a pretty silly argument.

"Yes, go to college! With the job you'll get afterwards you'll be able to... spend the rest of your life paying off the debt you've accrued."

Even assuming college helps you get a job.

[Salyut]

I got stopped by two local PD officers, they actually held the bus up before I could get on, and honestly I'm kinda freaking out. Apparently I "fit the description to a T" of someone reported creeping on children at a local beach.

Kicker is, I haven't been to that beach in over a year, and I haven't been around kids at all today - let alone this week (made a record of my movements today just in case). They got my name and info and shit, but they seemed pretty damn certain I was the guy they were after. I been called many things in my time, but I ain't never had law enforcement stop me and accuse me of being a fucking pedo out of the blue. Either this is one glorious fuck up of a coincidence, or someone is out to fuck with me (I have an idea who this might be too).

Not really sure if I should be getting a lawyer or not. Jesus fucking christ. @[email protected]

[Landsharks eat metal]

I hate being told I'm crazy for being transgender :(
Oh well, at least my mother stood up for me against my father. But apparently he was totally shocked that the things he was saying were hurtful.
But then my mother was sympathizing with me in a way that made me feel like she thinks I'm this weak little girl.
I just can't win, can I?

[Art Vandelay]

I hate being told I'm crazy for being transgender :(
Oh well, at least my mother stood up for me against my father. But apparently he was totally shocked that the things he was saying were hurtful.
But then my mother was sympathizing with me in a way that made me feel like she thinks I'm this weak little girl.
I just can't win, can I?

Fuck anyone who has any issues with your sexuality; regardless if they are family or not. You don't deserve that.

[Nox]

I can't afford college. My family's not eligible for financial aid for some reason. I stopped going so I could save up money to pay for it out of pocket. That didn't happen. No one is hiring and no one pays well enough for that to be possible while paying for the necessities of life at the same time. My brother only just graduated high school and cannot go to college because of this.

I've already taken out loans which I'm feeling was the biggest mistake I've ever made. The amount is almost trivial -- but the prospect of paying it is frightening all the same. I want to drop out, find work, pay it off, and help pay for my brother to go to college. I can't. On top of the social pressure, the feeling of being a 'failure' and a 'loser', there are no jobs to take in the first place -- at least none that pay above minimum wage.

And so here I am, stuck at home, jobless and not for lack of trying -- with a college bill I can't pay (and thus, at this point, I'm not going back next semester) and loans hanging over my head, a hostile home environment, and no means to get out of it aside from taking out loans that I can never see paying back.

And meanwhile all of my friends are graduating. I just want a way out.

Smash the fucking system

[PC LOAD LETTER]

I can't afford college. My family's not eligible for financial aid for some reason. I stopped going so I could save up money to pay for it out of pocket. That didn't happen. No one is hiring and no one pays well enough for that to be possible while paying for the necessities of life at the same time. My brother only just graduated high school and cannot go to college because of this.

I've already taken out loans which I'm feeling was the biggest mistake I've ever made. The amount is almost trivial -- but the prospect of paying it is frightening all the same. I want to drop out, find work, pay it off, and help pay for my brother to go to college. I can't. On top of the social pressure, the feeling of being a 'failure' and a 'loser', there are no jobs to take in the first place -- at least none that pay above minimum wage.

And so here I am, stuck at home, jobless and not for lack of trying -- with a college bill I can't pay (and thus, at this point, I'm not going back next semester) and loans hanging over my head, a hostile home environment, and no means to get out of it aside from taking out loans that I can never see paying back.

And meanwhile all of my friends are graduating. I just want a way out.
I know your pain. If I can't get financial aid straight I can't re-start school in June because I refuse to take out student loans. I already have $4,000 in student loans I took out from when I was first in college to pay for an apartment, which was a terrible idea but I can't go back and change it because I don't have a DeLorean. All my friends graduated last year, well the ones that stayed in school anyways. For some reason the school decided to declare me as out-of-state for tuition purposes even though I've lived in Atlanta since I was 10 or something like that. This doubles the cost of the school from "community college" to "four-year state school". I have to jump through hoops to get it straight. They've lost one form once, I brought it in again and they haven't acknowledged its existence yet. This second form says I need a laundry list of shit like a notarized letter from a landlord stating I lived there during the time period required. Then I need fucking notarized letters from every employer from the last two years on company letterhead stating I worked there. And a voter registration, a copy of my drivers license and a copy of my birth certificate. The last three are annoying because I don't want to find my voter registration (reg'ed 5 years ago when I was mostly apolitical and now have no fucking clue where it is). But the real pain in the ass is the letters from employers. I mean, fuckin' really?

[Pretty Flaco]

yesssssss i might have a visit tonight from someone i care about very much! and i think we'd be pulling an all nighter. ;)

[Lanky Wanker]

I've been beating myself up about not being able to express myself on a million issues through lyrics and whatnot, or any flow of words that sounds fancy. Going leftist punk now and addressing the issue of private property and wage slavery without all the fancy Marxist shit, but in more common terms... any ideas for a catchy title? 'Property is theft' floated into my head, but it doesn't sound too creative. 'Marx ftw' maybe. I'm kidding, you'd have to be a total saddo to do that. :D

[gorillafuck]

property is theft is already a song. it's by TSOL.

[Lanky Wanker]

property is theft is already a song. it's by TSOL.

I'm crap with acronyms or whatever so remind me what TSOL is? And yeah I thought it'd probably be taken already. Then again, the song title isn't their property so I'm sure they won't mind me using it as well. :cool:

[Vyacheslav Brolotov]

I haz a project to doooooo tomorrows, going to carnival with friends instead. What happened to the straight-A's student of only two quarters ago?

[NewLeft]

I haz a project to doooooo tomorrows, going to carnival with friends instead. What happened to the straight-A's student of only two quarters ago?
Generally, the last stretch (from may to june) is when I'm the least engaged with my school. Enjoy the carnival.

[gorillafuck]

I'm crap with acronyms or whatever so remind me what TSOL is? And yeah I thought it'd probably be taken already. Then again, the song title isn't their property so I'm sure they won't mind me using it as well. :cool:it technically stands for true sounds of liberty, but literally nobody calls them that ever, and they're never referred to as that. it's just TSOL.

ekixDcDvf_M

[gorillafuck]

I'm going to be such a loser in life.

[Ostrinski]

existence is misery

[NewLeft]

I'm going to be such a loser in life.
welcome to the team :(

[gorillafuck]

I wish I was normal.

[NewLeft]

I wish I was normal.
why don't you think you're normal?

[gorillafuck]

because I don't feel normal. I don't feel like I'm able to conform to anything very well. I feel depressed most of the time.

[NewLeft]

because I don't feel normal. I don't feel like I'm able to conform to anything very well. I feel depressed most of the time.
it was a stupid question.

i dont really fit in anywhere. (i know its not the same as comforming..) hence why lately i've been hanging around here more often. i probably come off as some kinda narcissist, always talking about myself.

have you tried antidepressants?

[Franz Fanonipants]

Calm down teenage bros. If you want to go to college work toward it. I have friends who are at like 50 finishing the MA. That shit doesn't matter.

It's also not the end of the world if you don't finish now/don't go. Life is a long time. My dad died when he was 45 and despite that he had hella crazy changes.

[Le Rouge]

I'm such an arrogant asshole.

[gorillafuck]

its not because I'm not going to college. I got accepted to colleges I can afford. I just don't want to go.


have you tried antidepressants?no. I don't want a therapist.

[Franz Fanonipants]

do what you like man who cares?

trust yourself

[NewLeft]

I'm such an arrogant asshole.
pour heart out, thanks

[Franz Fanonipants]

meditate on death and impermanence every day - a practice to cultivate

[gorillafuck]

do what you like man who cares?

trust yourselftrusting myself doesnt really work.

there's not much I want to do. I used to be really happy but it got less and less basically every year since I was 14 or 15.

I dont want to interact with people very much. it's my fault though, other people haven't done any injustices or whatever to me.

[Ostrinski]

start a band

[Franz Fanonipants]

trusting myself doesnt really work.

there's not much I want to do. I used to be really happy but it got less and less basically every year since I was 14 or 15.

I dont want to interact with people very much. it's my fault though, other people haven't done any injustices or whatever to me. I just cant deal with anything.

work on developing coping skills main

youre too young to be fucking miserable

[gorillafuck]

I'm in one.

[Ostrinski]

what do yall play? (genre)

[Ostrinski]

not fitting in is a sign that youre a good musician

[gorillafuck]

work on developing coping skills main

youre too young to be fucking miserabletoo late


not fitting in is a sign that youre a good musicianI don't "not fit in" I fit in fine

its a throwback hardcore and powerviolence band.

[Le Rouge]

pour heart out, thanks

Today, when i came back home, i started talking with my mom since it's been a long time we didn't discuss. She said that i need to find a job, and tried to convince me of applying to a job that i don't want to do (because i know some fuckers that works at that place, and i hate them) She insisted and insisted very much...She always does that. But that time it was too much, i insulted her. I said really mean things. I need to control my arrogance. When something doesn't please me, I become REALLY fucking arrogant. Grrrrrrrrr I bite.

That's the really short story.

[NewLeft]

Today, when i came back home, i started talking with my mom since it's been a long time we didn't discuss. She said that i need to find a job, and tried to convince me of applying to a job that i don't want to do (because i know some fuckers that works at that place, and i hate them) She insisted and insisted very much...She always does that. But that time it was too much, i insulted her. I said really mean things. I need to control my arrogance. When something doesn't please me, I become REALLY fucking arrogant. Grrrrrrrrr I bite.

That's the really short story.
you acted out.. it's ok. you apologized right?


not fitting in is a sign that youre a good musician
why thank you

[Lobotomy]

sweet baby jesus

[Nox]

My friend got cougar'd last night

In his words, "I slept with a 38 year old Polish woman I met at _________ last night, I legged it at 6am 'cos she wasn't a nice person" (he is 18)

[Vyacheslav Brolotov]

My friend got cougar'd last night

In his words, "I slept with a 38 year old Polish woman I met at _________ last night, I legged it at 6am 'cos she wasn't a nice person" (he is 18)

Gross.

[Art Vandelay]

Gross.

Screw that, a cougar is on my list of things to do in life before I croak. ;)

[Leftsolidarity]

Today at work I had the strangest feeling. It was this young woman (probably 30's) and her young daughter. They didn't look like they were from another country but when she talked to me she had a really strong British (I think British. Honestly, I can't tell the fuckin difference between British and Australian) accent.

I got so turned on.

Like, not even joking. I wanted to like marry her and have sex with her in the middle of the grocery store.

I've never had a thing for accents before which is why I find this so strange. Her voice was soooooooooooo attractive. :wub:

[Lanky Wanker]

(I think British. Honestly, I can't tell the fuckin difference between British and Australian) accent.


http://i0.kym-cdn.com/entries/icons/original/000/000/554/facepalm.jpg

Americans... God's gift to the world. Search on YouTube for a Newcastle accent (or Geordie accent), Yorkshire accent and Liverpudlian accent. If that fails, try Scottish or Welsh. If you still can't tell the difference between that and an Australian accent, America definitely needs central planning. :lol:

[Metacomet]

The store I got hired at isn't even open and according to the schedule the manager seems to already be picking favorites..............me and someone else have 14 hours, other people get 20+ :rolleyes:


Sorry that I had to.............leave on time on my first day. Having other obligations is so inconvenient.

[honest john's firing squad]

Today at work I had the strangest feeling. It was this young woman (probably 30's) and her young daughter. They didn't look like they were from another country but when she talked to me she had a really strong British (I think British. Honestly, I can't tell the fuckin difference between British and Australian) accent.

I got so turned on.

Like, not even joking. I wanted to like marry her and have sex with her in the middle of the grocery store.

I've never had a thing for accents before which is why I find this so strange. Her voice was soooooooooooo attractive. :wub:
It was probably an Australian accent. British accents are generally disgusting.

[NewLeft]

It was probably an Australian accent. British accents are generally disgusting.
i agree!

LANK MAD?

[Vyacheslav Brolotov]

Carnival sucked balls. I really should have just stayed home doing that project! It only had 5 mildly rideable rides and we had to pay $20 each just to ride those 5 rides over and over again for 3 hours! At least I had wi-fi there. The only funny thing that happened was when one of my friends got so sick from riding the ship ride 1000000 times that on our way back to the parking lot, he grabbed his stomach, leaned on the statue of George Washington we have in our township public park, and vomited at its feet. The park security had to clean it up while we laughed our asses off. I was like, "I'm the one with cancer and your vomiting while I'm perfectly fine? What the hell?" Other than that, the day was nothing more than me spending my day at a stupid, cheap-ass carnival with 4 really annoying people. :)

[Lanky Wanker]

It was probably an Australian accent. British accents are generally disgusting.

Or y'know, maybe he doesn't have the same opinion as you. That's a possibility considering how many Americans are obsessed with 'British' accents.


i agree!

LANK MAD?

u mad bruh

[PC LOAD LETTER]

Carnival sucked balls. I really should have just stayed home doing that project! It only had 5 mildly rideable rides and we had to pay $20 each just to ride those 5 rides over and over again for 3 hours! At least I had wi-fi there. The only funny thing that happened was when one of my friends got so sick from riding the ship ride 1000000 times that on our way back to the parking lot, he grabbed his stomach, leaned on the statue of George Washington we have in our township public park, and vomited at its feet. The park security had to clean it up while we laughed our asses off. I was like, "I'm the one with cancer and your vomiting while I'm perfectly fine? What the hell?" Other than that, the day was nothing more than me spending my day at a stupid, cheap-ass carnival with 4 really annoying people. :)
did they have the gravitron

[Vyacheslav Brolotov]

did they have the gravitron

Yes. What American carnival doesn't have the gravitron. Actually, it was called Zero Gravity. My friend that vomitted did not go on it. I think he had an idea of what was wrong with him.

[Vyacheslav Brolotov]

Daft Punk is gone. I'm so sad. :crying:

[Lanky Wanker]

Daft Punk is gone. I'm so sad. :crying:

The MLs have no real opposition anymore eh?

[Zukunftsmusik]

The MLs have no real opposition anymore eh?

they have us, the roosterists

[Lanky Wanker]

they have us, the roosterists

Daft Punk wasn't cool enough to join us, he could've fitted in well.

[Nox]

I got absolutely fucking destroyed by my geography teacher last week

[Vyacheslav Brolotov]

they have us, the roosterists

None of yous where eva competition.

[honest john's firing squad]

The MLs have no real opposition anymore eh?
step the fuck back a challenger approaches

i.e. yours truly

[Hermes]

I got absolutely fucking destroyed by my geography teacher last week

What about? Was it just a test, or an in-class discussion?

[Nox]

What about? Was it just a test, or an in-class discussion?

We've been working on a project for the last 5 weeks, he's already given us 2 extensions, I forgot to bring mine in, he absolutely kicked off. He was shaking, red face, shouting, said "get your head out your ass" :P

[Landsharks eat metal]

Fuck the goddamn filthy horrible world

[Lanky Wanker]

We've been working on a project for the last 5 weeks, he's already given us 2 extensions, I forgot to bring mine in, he absolutely kicked off. He was shaking, red face, shouting, said "get your head out your ass" :P

I have two responses to this, one being too "sexist" for RevLeft probably, so I'll just comment on how over sensitive teachers can be. I don't get it... if you're gonna stress over some kids not doing their homework, go quit your damn job.

[Franz Fanonipants]

fuck this rent shit

e: house owners gonna raise my rent, blaming me for all kinds of shit, fml

[Landsharks eat metal]

There is nothing wrong right now as far as I can tell, but I just feel dead. I wish I were, but I lack the motivation to hurt myself.

[Hermes]

We've been working on a project for the last 5 weeks, he's already given us 2 extensions, I forgot to bring mine in, he absolutely kicked off. He was shaking, red face, shouting, said "get your head out your ass" :P

Ack, that sucks. I've had similar things happen.

In a way, though, I can empathize. I mean, they spend their entire lives trying to teach kids, usually just for the love of teaching (some aren't, of course). Most kids constantly ridicule them behind their backs, society looks down on them, they're paid badly.

I think they sometimes think it's a personal insult when students don't do their homework, when it's usually just forgetfulness or stress.

[Landsharks eat metal]

everything I want to say has to remain unsaid because words are hollow and meaningless and only hurt more to release them, to uncoil the miserable mess of whatever the fuck it is inside of me would cause so much pain. I can't do it without someone to hold my hand

i become so sure that the world has ceased to exist only to look around and notice that everything is still there. I'm counting on death to get me the hell out of here.

[gorillafuck]

Or y'know, maybe he doesn't have the same opinion as you. That's a possibility considering how many Americans are obsessed with 'British' accents.is that what the British tell themselves?

[X5N]

My father is annoying me about university shit.

You see, he wants me to go to a particular college, California State University, Northridge. It's part of his silly little plan for my life. And my mother is sort of in on it, even though the two of them refuse to get along.

I absolutely do not want to go there.

And every once in a while, they start irritating me about it. My mother kept bugging me about it for a while. Then it was all calm. Then today my father started breathing down my fucking neck about it again.

I'm not happy with the way my life is now. And I do not want to continue on this way. I certainly don't want to continue being lightly controlled by my father, and being anchored here by him buying some stupid house (which he's talked about before).

My plan is to just leave. I want to go to, say, Seattle, and re-establish myself there. Once I've got a stable living situation (if I get a stable living situation) I'll take classes at a community college -- something I've already done here, but that I never really got to truly enjoy, then perhaps I'll go to a university...maybe the University of Iceland, which has no tuition. :D

[Landsharks eat metal]

-nothing matters
-it's impossible for me to feel good anymore
-I'll never be able to be the person i want to
-most people don't give a shit
-every day i'm cold and miserable
-I have to be strong but I'm so goddamn weak
-what little good i;ve managed to do has been outweighed by the bad things I've done in the past and most certainly will do in the future.
-There is nowhere I belong
-I waste everyone's time with my stupid complaining just like right now.
-i really fucking hate the world.
-i should die.
-i should just slit my wrists right now
-even if I manage to like the person I become when I have my own life, most people will be repulsed by me
-i will never be a real man
-i'm starting to hate everything just by thinking about it
-i want to bleed.
-joy is fleetingg
-misery has been lasting so much longer
-people, if they cared in the first place, will forget me quickly.
-why the fuck not

[Nox]

is that what the British tell themselves?

That's what Americans tell us ;) When I went to Las Vegas a few years back, literally every time I spoke someone would say "OH MY GAWD I LOVE YOUR ACCENT"

[gorillafuck]

That's what Americans tell us ;) When I went to Las Vegas a few years back, literally every time I spoke someone would say "OH MY GAWD I LOVE YOUR ACCENT"nobody in Las Vegas is sober

but yeah people in America generally like really stereotypical upper class british accents, and generally dislike stereotypically lower class british accents

[Leonid Brozhnev]

Just poured myself a large rum and coke, work deadlines in a week and I have done fuck all... I'm a rare, productive drunk.

[TheGodlessUtopian]

I haz a project to doooooo tomorrows, going to carnival with friends instead. What happened to the straight-A's student of only two quarters ago?

The same thing which happened to me: you stopped giving a shit.

But evidently you still give more of a shit than me since you are still in school.

[Leonid Brozhnev]

Yep, I've just stopped caring. Even last semester I had more done than I have now and I was stressing the fuck out, but now, all my shite is due in a week and I couldn't give a fuck. I know I still care, but I care less... maybe it's because the projects I've been given are literally the biggest piles of crap I've ever had the misfortune to get handed.

[MotherCossack]

tick tock
goes the clock
somewhere ....
what do i care?

you know how time does fly
my life whizzing by
slowly , slowly i do sigh
contemplate the word ... why...
these days ... i mostly just cry...

we are only brief
enough time for light relief
and a taste of right belief
the truth stays hidden underneath
and waits for us there
somewhere....

[Pretty Flaco]

i've lost motivation for school too. i havent turned in a single sheet of homework or opened a textbook this entire semester. the only class i have a decent grade is in spanish cus im actually good at that shit. but in everything else i feel like a fucking idiot.

[Leonid Brozhnev]

This just came on my media player and since I already posted in What are you fapping to or whatever, I thought this is pretty much the soundtrack to Stalinism...

9QyQ9PsOj6A

I'm gonna gulag the fuck out of you!

[Pretty Flaco]

what have i done. i don't know if i will be alive! i am paniking
IA MAPANICIN
sdjf;klsfpkosh iulo32 4yhou2hnrw

salvia?

[gorillafuck]

what have i done. i don't know if i will be alive! i am paniking
IA MAPANICIN
sdjf;klsfpkosh iulo32 4yhou2hnrwwhat is going on?

[NewLeft]

ok .. ok.. calming down.. deep breaths.. i can't talk about it, i will come back tomorrow

[gorillafuck]

wait were you actually on salvia?

[Pretty Flaco]

ok .. ok.. calming down.. deep breaths.. i can't talk about it, i will come back tomorrow

hope youre alright dude. and hope its not drug related. i know a kid who had weed that was laced with pcp but he didnt know and it fucked up him up. like he was curled up in a ball and freaking the fuck out.

[NewLeft]

never again.

[Vyacheslav Brolotov]

Nobody likes me.
http://i3.kym-cdn.com/photos/images/original/000/150/505/f30fd24c56e1bcfc926883d6a51d5a00.gif

[NewLeft]

Nobody likes me.
http://i3.kym-cdn.com/photos/images/original/000/150/505/f30fd24c56e1bcfc926883d6a51d5a00.gif
lol ya.. i do.

[Vyacheslav Brolotov]

lol ya.. i do.

Other people don't like me. In school, I'm soooo lonely because...I'm sorta introverted. I have a girlfriend and a few friends (i.e. carnival), but I am becoming very distant from even those few social connections I have.

On RevLeft.......just forever alone........except NewLeft.

[WanderingCactus]

I have a girlfriend and a few friends (i.e. carnival), but I am becoming very distant from even those few social connections I have.

I had a sort-of similar experience when I left public school for homeschooling. I just didn't make an effort to keep up with most of my friends - even some of my closest. I regret it somewhat now.

[Le Rouge]

wait were you actually on salvia?

Weed makes me panic like that sometimes, when i toke too much.
It sucks really hard.

I never touched salvia and never will.

[NewLeft]

Le Rouge.. You got a week off? Can we trade bodies for a day.. I need a day off.

[Le Rouge]

Le Rouge.. You got a week off? Can we trade bodies for a day.. I need a day off.

If it was possible, i would probably accept the offer.

[Nox]

nobody in Las Vegas is sober

but yeah people in America generally like really stereotypical upper class british accents, and generally dislike stereotypically lower class british accents

My accent is stereotypically inbred-lowerclass (West Country accent)

[Nox]

i've lost motivation for school too. i havent turned in a single sheet of homework or opened a textbook this entire semester. the only class i have a decent grade is in spanish cus im actually good at that shit. but in everything else i feel like a fucking idiot.

Discovering Marxism has had the same effect on me. Although, on the other hand, it has made me pursue what I enjoy rather than what "looks good on the CV" :D

[Nox]

never again.

Dude what happened?

[Salyut]

My remaining cat was put to sleep after a good 20 years of life. I got no animals left. :(

Also waiting on my mom to get in touch with her lawyer re: the thing I posted on the first page. Still no idea WTF the deal is here.

[Art Vandelay]

Other people don't like me. In school, I'm soooo lonely because...I'm sorta introverted. I have a girlfriend and a few friends (i.e. carnival), but I am becoming very distant from even those few social connections I have.

On RevLeft.......just forever alone........except NewLeft.

Honestly I can relate a lot to that. From my experience, open up to your girlfriend. It helped me so much, not that she holds the same views as me, but she can relate to a certain extent and that helps. Worst case scenario and she gets freaked out knowing your views, then she was not the girl for you anyways.

[Landsharks eat metal]

I'm done indulging myself in the delusion that anybody cares.
why am i too much of a lameass to kill myself?

[NoOneIsIllegal]

Apparently she has liked me for a long time and didn't think I was interested.
It's funny how we thought the same thing about each other.
Well, what now?
Where do we go from here?

[NoOneIsIllegal]

I'm done indulging myself in the delusion that anybody cares.
why am i too much of a lameass to kill myself?
Because there's always something to live for. Even if that happiness lasts only temporarily or not often. Every day is a new chance to change it all.

[Landsharks eat metal]

Because there's always something to live for. Even if that happiness lasts only temporarily or not often. Every day is a new chance to change it all.
I'm just so lonely i don't know what to do anymore. It seems like every day is an opportunity, instead, for more pain.

I don't know how to approach people, so I feel like I'm getting closer all the time to doing incredibly stupid desperate things just to get the attention I can't figure out how to get in a reasonable way.

I'll either get attention or die. both would be desirable outcomes.

[Nox]

Other people don't like me. In school, I'm soooo lonely because...I'm sorta introverted. I have a girlfriend and a few friends (i.e. carnival), but I am becoming very distant from even those few social connections I have.

On RevLeft.......just forever alone........except NewLeft.

Hey, look at the bright side - at least you have a girlfriend. I'd be very happy to live my life with just a girlfriend :)

My perfect vision for life would be meeting an amazing girl, marrying her, having loads of kids, and just having each other.

[CommieTroll]

Weed makes me panic like that sometimes, when i toke too much.
It sucks really hard.

I never touched salvia and never will.

My advise to anyone is to avoid that shit, I had a horrible experience on that stuff and it's a pretty funny story if anyone wants to hear it :L

[NewLeft]

My advise to anyone is to avoid that shit, I had a horrible experience on that stuff and it's a pretty funny story if anyone wants to hear it :L
yes please

[Leftsolidarity]

My advise to anyone is to avoid that shit, I had a horrible experience on that stuff and it's a pretty funny story if anyone wants to hear it :L

Of course I do

[CommieTroll]

Well, here we go! Me and two friends got some pretty strong Salvia sometime last year (I forget what X it was). We took a bong out to a secluded place (my friend didn't want us to do it in his house when his mum was there), I took a pretty big hit first and felt nothing for 5 minutes, the other two took theirs right after me and by the time they were finished I was a goner :laugh: I was crawling around the ground slobbering everywhere:laugh: thinking I was a dog or some shit, everything around me was pink and I couldn't speak, I had this weird shocking/irritating sensation under my skin that just made me want to get naked and jump into a pool. 10minutes after my first hit I took a bigger one (BAD IDEA). The second hit made me feel bad, I was disorientated and pissed off at the fact that I couldn't speak. I was sitting on an open concrete manhole and after 2 minutes or so I just fell back into the manhole!:laugh: I remember falling and it seemed to go on forever, I had some fucked up visuals beside me as I fell, Super Mario was actually calling me a ''junkie f****t''. I smacked my head off the edge of the manhole and luckily my friend caught me before I completely fell in. I stood up and didn't know what to think, my head was splitting and I was still fucked off that salvia. I felt the huge bump in the back of my head and there was blood everywhere, I didn't know whether to laugh or to cry, so I did both. I ran screaming fuck off at my friends and some random people in a street nearby with blood pissing out the back of my head, my friend said it looked like I lost my mind :laugh: Some old woman even called the cops on me :L I eventually got back to my friend's house and got cleaned up and that shit wore off. It was really scary and I'm never touching that horrible shit again :D

[Pretty Flaco]

Discovering Marxism has had the same effect on me. Although, on the other hand, it has made me pursue what I enjoy rather than what "looks good on the CV" :D

why would marxism make you lose motivation? ive never had motivation for school.

[Art Vandelay]

Well, here we go! Me and two friends got some pretty strong Salvia sometime last year (I forget what X it was). We took a bong out to a secluded place (my friend didn't want us to do it in his house when his mum was there), I took a pretty big hit first and felt nothing for 5 minutes, the other two took theirs right after me and by the time they were finished I was a goner :laugh: I was crawling around the ground slobbering everywhere:laugh: thinking I was a dog or some shit, everything around me was pink and I couldn't speak, I had this weird shocking/irritating sensation under my skin that just made me want to get naked and jump into a pool. 10minutes after my first hit I took a bigger one (BAD IDEA). The second hit made me feel bad, I was disorientated and pissed off at the fact that I couldn't speak. I was sitting on an open concrete manhole and after 2 minutes or so I just fell back into the manhole!:laugh: I remember falling and it seemed to go on forever, I had some fucked up visuals beside me as I fell, Super Mario was actually calling me a ''junkie f****t''. I smacked my head off the edge of the manhole and luckily my friend caught me before I completely fell in. I stood up and didn't know what to think, my head was splitting and I was still fucked off that salvia. I felt the huge bump in the back of my head and there was blood everywhere, I didn't know whether to laugh or to cry, so I did both. I ran screaming fuck off at my friends and some random people in a street nearby with blood pissing out the back of my head, my friend said it looked like I lost my mind :laugh: Some old woman even called the cops on me :L I eventually got back to my friend's house and got cleaned up and that shit wore off. It was really scary and I'm never touching that horrible shit again :D

Truthfully it sounds like you did not take it in a very secure environment. Salvia can either be a mind blowing experience or can make you afraid of taking drugs. Be smart with it and it can be a wicked time (plus it only last about 10 minutes, but those 10 minutes feel like hours). I have done it a few times, never had a really bad trip, but its also not my drug of choice.

[CommieTroll]

Truthfully it sounds like you did not take it in a very secure environment. Salvia can either be a mind blowing experience or can make you afraid of taking drugs. Be smart with it and it can be a wicked time (plus it only last about 10 minutes, but those 10 minutes feel like hours). I have done it a few times, never had a really bad trip, but its also not my drug of choice.

I guessed that much, I took it in a better place a month after that to see what ''a good trip'' was like but I still didn't enjoy it, that stinging feeling in my skin wouldn't leave me alone and I couldn't speak. I don't know how it could be anyone's drug of choice :laugh: Personally I prefer weed over anything.

[CommieTroll]

Can wait 'till this weekend, I'm getting a quarter of my favourite hash that I couldn't get for months and I'm getting some E tabs that I've been dying to try for ages. It's a friend's 18th birthday as well so I can get shitfaced at a houseparty:) It's a bankholiday on Monday so it's gonna be a 3 day binge :laugh:

[Nox]

why would marxism make you lose motivation? ive never had motivation for school.

I believed in capitalism, I believed that if I worked hard in school I would get an amazing job and get really rich. :rolleyes:

[Lanky Wanker]

Hey, look at the bright side - at least you have a girlfriend. I'd be very happy to live my life with just a girlfriend :)

My perfect vision for life would be meeting an amazing girl, marrying her, having loads of kids, and just having each other.

Aww, that's so cute :3 you're making me cry *feminine waving of the hands to cool self down* I want that so bad! I'm sorry, it's just my time of the month, I... *runs out of the room*.

Sorry, I just thought that scene would go down well in a film. My dream is to settle down with NewLeft and have ginger babies. I joke, I joke, kids are the last thing I want in life while the world is still like this, especially if they're going to be as ugly as Canadian John.

[Trap Queen Voxxy]

I did not want to have that conversation, I did not want to loose a friend. :(

[gorillafuck]

I did not want to have that conversation, I did not want to loose a friend. :(what happened?:(

[Pretty Flaco]

I believed in capitalism, I believed that if I worked hard in school I would get an amazing job and get really rich. :rolleyes:

well if youre good at school then you can at least end up better off then if you werent.

[Vyacheslav Brolotov]

Right at this moment, psychopath Sean Hannity is whining about the general strike tomorrow and how it might help the terrorists who want to get revenge on America for killing bin Laden. Turn to Fox News on your TV. I want him in a gulag so bad.

[NewLeft]

well if youre good at school then you can at least end up better off then if you werent.
FUCK, it really depends on where you're from.. :unsure:

[NewLeft]

Right at this moment, psychopath Sean Hannity is whining about the general strike tomorrow and how it might help the terrorists who want to get revenge on America for killing bin Laden. Turn to Fox News on your TV. I want him in a gulag so bad.
Where is the Fox set located? We should form a blockade tomorrow.

[Pretty Flaco]

goddamn my sister's making me really fucking mad right now. she's so selfish and she thinks everything revolves around her. she fucking flipped the fuck out on me and got a hit on me with a 3 hole puncher and it fucking hurt. im so sick of this shit. my voice is so hoarse from yelling.

[Pretty Flaco]

FUCK, it really depends on where you're from.. :unsure:

people thats good at school have more scholarship opportunities. so even if they dont have any money they could get scholarships and go to some school.

[NewLeft]

people thats good at school have more scholarship opportunities. so even if they dont have any money they could get scholarships and go to some school.
yes!! i got your 1800th rep

oh and i was gonna pull out the 'education and capitalism' and give you all the depressing stats, but i wont.

just too happy.

[Trap Queen Voxxy]

what happened?:(

One of my best friends, my closet friend who hung out with me like every day, today, we were hanging out and she confesses to me that she likes me and wants to be with me and so on and I was confused and I told her like I'm gay and have a boyfriend and I thought she knew and apparently she didn't or didn't want to believe it and she was very upset and I don't think our friendship will recover.

[NewLeft]

One of my best friends, my closet friend who hung out with me like every day, today, we were hanging out and she confesses to me that she likes me and wants to be with me and so on and I was confused and I told her like I'm gay and have a boyfriend and I thought she knew and apparently she didn't or didn't want to believe it and she was very upset and I don't think our friendship will recover.
i think its just awkward between you two, it'll eventually pass.. shrug

[Trap Queen Voxxy]

i think its just awkward between you two, it'll eventually pass.. shrug

This is what I thought but she I guess thought we were already silently together even though I never did anything with her or expressed any romantic sentiments like that. Seems she confused friendship with love and now I feel like a dick because I feel I should have been more observant or vocal.

[gorillafuck]

One of my best friends, my closet friend who hung out with me like every day, today, we were hanging out and she confesses to me that she likes me and wants to be with me and so on and I was confused and I told her like I'm gay and have a boyfriend and I thought she knew and apparently she didn't or didn't want to believe it and she was very upset and I don't think our friendship will recover.oh:(

you should sit down and talk with her about how important she is to you, and that that's not changed by her liking you. it must have taken a lot of courage to admit it to you and she was probably really nervous when she said all that, so hearing that response was probably devastating. ease the tension that this put on your friendship.

[Leftsolidarity]

I've found that lately more than ever its been almost impossible for me to interact with my family. I just can't deal with them and they obviously can't deal with me. I almost have like panic attacks or some shit whenever I have to be around them, even if it's only for dinner.

To sum up my family one basically just needs the word "assholes". Everyone's an asshole, including me when I'm with them. It is constant shouting. No one is polite to each other. My step-mom is a fucking moron who is so wrapped up in 'family values' and gender roles that it's ridiculous. My dad is the ruling patriarch of the family that dwells in the basement when he's not at work. That's kind of a good thing, though, because whenever he's upstairs he's usually in someone's face screaming at them and making them feel like a piece of shit. My step-sister has mental disabilities that lead to her having a lot of behavioral problems, so yeah, that's always fun to deal with. My older brother just moved out (24 years old) but he's still always around and he's basically just a general dick. I have 3 year old twin siblings and they're adorable but the also behave like 3 year old twins so that's always hecktic.

And I just hide in my room. I literally never leave this room when I'm at my house unless I'm pooping, it's dinner time, or I'm having a smoke. That's why I'm always on here. It gets pretty lonely in this room sometimes.

Then my parents get on my ass about how I never leave my room but it's like, how the fuck do they not understand that I just cannot handle them?

Every night we have a big family dinner. It's fucking torture. I gotta sit around for like an hour listening to everyone yell at eachother and at me, almost always for little shit that doesn't mean a fucking thing. Then it usually takes another hour for me, my sister, and my step-mom to do all the dishes. My dad always gets up immediately after he eats, leaves all his dishes on the table, and then walks back down to the basement for the rest of the night. It's like, "yeah, thanks asshole. I'll get your dishes for you and then do all this other work while you go play computer games. Not a fucking problem."

I dread coming back to my house so much. Sometimes I don't even want to leave school (even though I hate that place) because I really just don't want to go back to my family. It's not even just an annoyance thing anymore. It's like a physical weight on my back and chest and I fell like it's hard for me to breathe around them.

At dinner the other night I got up, said I was going to the bathroom, then curled up in a ball in the hallway for like 15 minutes cuz I just needed to get away from them.

My girlfriend says she doesn't even want to come to my house anymore because my family is so obnoxious. She says she doesn't want to be around them because they put her in a bad mood. I swear they got some fucking "asshole virus" that just spreads to you when you deal with them.


Rant over.

[Landsharks eat metal]

I'm going to cut myself. When my father goes to bed and leaves me the hell alone. He's taking the modem so I won't be on Revleft at that point. I wish I could figure out somewhere on my leg where I could kill myself by cutting there, and if I fuck up, no one will see it. I probably won't die though.

[gorillafuck]

oh no, please don't...

[Landsharks eat metal]

why does it matter?

[gorillafuck]

because it's sad to know someone who is having such troubles is cutting their leg up. and we don't want you to die.

we all think of you as a boy, because it's what you are.

[Landsharks eat metal]

I don't know any other way out of here.

[gorillafuck]

one day you will get support to be with, and be glad you did not end your life, even if there is still some pain.

[Luc]

I dunno what say in this stuff and it makes me nervous to respond but just want to say I care 'bout you LEM and hope you can find support in irl :(

[Landsharks eat metal]

I'm just tired of waiting

[TheGodlessUtopian]

Happy May Day to all!!!!!!!

[Vyacheslav Brolotov]

If only we could have a May Day parade as big as the former Moscow one in every capital city of the world. That would be cool :p.

HAPPY MAY DAY, COMRADES! On this day, we are all comrades in our support for the proletariat of the world!

[Trap Queen Voxxy]

oh:(

you should sit down and talk with her about how important she is to you, and that that's not changed by her liking you. it must have taken a lot of courage to admit it to you and she was probably really nervous when she said all that, so hearing that response was probably devastating. ease the tension that this put on your friendship.

Yeah, I spent the last 3 hours doing that with her on the phone and it seems to be helping, I tried to tell her she's still a major player in my life and that it has absolutely nothing to do with her at all. She still seems upset but better. Thank you btw. To everyone who responded.

[Landsharks eat metal]

I didn't try to kill myself. I only cut myself 5 times.
but now I've figured out what I've been doing wrong the whole time, which might make future attempts more serious.

[Landsharks eat metal]

I feel so alone. I am, even though I'm surrounded by people. I don't trust any of these people in the slightest and I feel like they all are watching and judging me, even if they're not even looking at me.

My fucking leg hurts. Not seeing it all the way through was a bad idea. Now I just have more things I have to hide.

[gorillafuck]

Landshark, this thread is also for helping. and I/we want to help you. very badly. we care about you. and anytime I do try to give advice and help you cope, your response is "well I can't get help because I can't get help because I can't get help because help can't be gotten because I can't get help because I can't get help because (revert to beginning)". I understand that depression causes apathy because I have it to so I can empathize. and I am incredibly apathetic and unmotivated so I personally am a hypocrite for saying this, but it's still true.

it's like there's a staircase in front of you that will help you, and an escalator next to it that will make you depressed as fuck, and you're choosing the escalator because your afraid you might trip on the stairs.

you're not alone. this thread is always here for you and we are real people. we want to help. but help takes effort from multiple people. one of which is you.

[Landsharks eat metal]

it's like there's a staircase in front of you that will help you, and an escalator next to it that will make you depressed as fuck, and you're choosing the escalator because your afraid you might trip on the stairs.
Because that's what I've always been taught. That I'm not strong enough to take the stairs and I'll maybe get yelled at if I take the stairs and I'm tired of shit like that.

I feel like I am trying and people just can't see it.

I actually was going to try to kill myself last night until I saw your responses. But I had to still do something or else I'd be a total failure somehow in my screwed up brain.

[gorillafuck]

Because that's what I've always been taught. That I'm not strong enough to take the stairs and I'll maybe get yelled at if I take the stairs and I'm tired of shit like that.fuck that. this is the same attitude. defeat because defeat because defeat because (start from beginning).

give a reason which will add to your overall happiness, of why you should not take that staircase. if you have none, then it makes sense to take it, correct?

^^^please respond to this specific part of this post. it's important.


I feel like I am trying and people just can't see it.if you can and we can, why should you care if the person to your right can?


I actually was going to try to kill myself last night until I saw your responses. But I had to still do something or else I'd be a total failure somehow in my screwed up brain.why would you be a failure for not cutting?

think things like this through, with us. you told yourself "I'll be a failure if I don't cut". we have that down. what standards are you going by for failure? it is not mainstream societies standards, it is not our standards, it is not even your parents standards. it is the standards of having a dedication to depression.

[gorillafuck]

I'm temporarily leaving, btw. errand to run.

[Landsharks eat metal]

I don't know what I can say to get my point across about anything. there is no good reason for any of this shit. I'll try to respond to each part though

-I guess there's no reason I shouldn't except I'm scared.

-Because some days I just want to be loved by somebody, anybody, who is actually physically near me.

-Because I told myself I was going to. If I didn't, maybe I don't have enough resolve to, or something like that.

[Art Vandelay]

I don't know what I can say to get my point across about anything. there is no good reason for any of this shit. I'll try to respond to each part though

-I guess there's no reason I shouldn't except I'm scared.

-Because some days I just want to be loved by somebody, anybody, who is actually physically near me.

-Because I told myself I was going to. If I didn't, maybe I don't have enough resolve to, or something like that.

Like zeekloid said, there are others here who can relate to you, and many of us suffer from depression as well. It sucks, but don't give up. Your 18 now, according to your profile, that means that you can most likely move out after your done your highschool. I know it may seem like far away, but thats usually what keeps me going, knowing that I can live on my own soon enough.

Also have you ever spoken with a psychiatrist? Personally I have, and many people find it helpful. Medications is another option, although personally I do not like medication, but some find it to be really helpful.

[Art Vandelay]

I've found that lately more than ever its been almost impossible for me to interact with my family. I just can't deal with them and they obviously can't deal with me. I almost have like panic attacks or some shit whenever I have to be around them, even if it's only for dinner.

To sum up my family one basically just needs the word "assholes". Everyone's an asshole, including me when I'm with them. It is constant shouting. No one is polite to each other. My step-mom is a fucking moron who is so wrapped up in 'family values' and gender roles that it's ridiculous. My dad is the ruling patriarch of the family that dwells in the basement when he's not at work. That's kind of a good thing, though, because whenever he's upstairs he's usually in someone's face screaming at them and making them feel like a piece of shit. My step-sister has mental disabilities that lead to her having a lot of behavioral problems, so yeah, that's always fun to deal with. My older brother just moved out (24 years old) but he's still always around and he's basically just a general dick. I have 3 year old twin siblings and they're adorable but the also behave like 3 year old twins so that's always hecktic.

And I just hide in my room. I literally never leave this room when I'm at my house unless I'm pooping, it's dinner time, or I'm having a smoke. That's why I'm always on here. It gets pretty lonely in this room sometimes.

Then my parents get on my ass about how I never leave my room but it's like, how the fuck do they not understand that I just cannot handle them?

Every night we have a big family dinner. It's fucking torture. I gotta sit around for like an hour listening to everyone yell at eachother and at me, almost always for little shit that doesn't mean a fucking thing. Then it usually takes another hour for me, my sister, and my step-mom to do all the dishes. My dad always gets up immediately after he eats, leaves all his dishes on the table, and then walks back down to the basement for the rest of the night. It's like, "yeah, thanks asshole. I'll get your dishes for you and then do all this other work while you go play computer games. Not a fucking problem."

I dread coming back to my house so much. Sometimes I don't even want to leave school (even though I hate that place) because I really just don't want to go back to my family. It's not even just an annoyance thing anymore. It's like a physical weight on my back and chest and I fell like it's hard for me to breathe around them.

At dinner the other night I got up, said I was going to the bathroom, then curled up in a ball in the hallway for like 15 minutes cuz I just needed to get away from them.

My girlfriend says she doesn't even want to come to my house anymore because my family is so obnoxious. She says she doesn't want to be around them because they put her in a bad mood. I swear they got some fucking "asshole virus" that just spreads to you when you deal with them.


Rant over.

My advice would be to simply move out on your own whenever it becomes feasible to do so; sounds like that is not a very healthy living environment.

[Art Vandelay]

I got arrested about an hour and a half into my mayday.:(

[gorillafuck]

I don't know what I can say to get my point across about anything. there is no good reason for any of this shit. I'll try to respond to each part though

-I guess there's no reason I shouldn't except I'm scared.

-Because some days I just want to be loved by somebody, anybody, who is actually physically near me.

-Because I told myself I was going to. If I didn't, maybe I don't have enough resolve to, or something like that.this is all very understandable.

[Landsharks eat metal]

Like zeekloid said, there are others here who can relate to you, and many of us suffer from depression as well. It sucks, but don't give up. Your 18 now, according to your profile, that means that you can most likely move out after your done your highschool. I know it may seem like far away, but thats usually what keeps me going, knowing that I can live on my own soon enough.

Also have you ever spoken with a psychiatrist? Personally I have, and many people find it helpful. Medications is another option, although personally I do not like medication, but some find it to be really helpful.
I am done with high school. I tried to go away to college, but that didn't really work out too well, so my parents made me come home. So I don't know what I can do to be able to leave the house short of completing some technical training thing for which I'd have to live at home while I did it.

I've been seeing a psychiatrist and on various medications since I was about 13. It hasn't helped too much. It starts off helping but then it stops working. I have changed psychiatrists several times, which makes it hard because I have trouble opening up to people, and when I told my latest one that my meds had stopped working, he just told me that's what happens with people who have Asperger's, so i have to work on more resources in the community. but i hate this community and don't want to get entrenched in it any more than i already am.

[Art Vandelay]

I am done with high school. I tried to go away to college, but that didn't really work out too well, so my parents made me come home. So I don't know what I can do to be able to leave the house short of completing some technical training thing for which I'd have to live at home while I did it.

I've been seeing a psychiatrist and on various medications since I was about 13. It hasn't helped too much. It starts off helping but then it stops working. I have changed psychiatrists several times, which makes it hard because I have trouble opening up to people, and when I told my latest one that my meds had stopped working, he just told me that's what happens with people who have Asperger's, so i have to work on more resources in the community. but i hate this community and don't want to get entrenched in it any more than i already am.

Grind it out at home, save up some money, move out on your own. Thats what I am doing right now, it sucks, and seems like it takes forever, but in a couple months it will be worth it.

[Leftsolidarity]

My advice would be to simply move out on your own whenever it becomes feasible to do so; sounds like that is not a very healthy living environment.

I actually am. I'm moving out in about a month or 2, once school ends, to go back to where I used to live. Should be nice but I'll be dirt ass poor. That will be not so nice.


I got arrested about an hour and a half into my mayday.:(

haha then you must have been doing something in the spirit of the day ;)

Why were you arrested?

[Landsharks eat metal]

Grind it out at home, save up some money, move out on your own. Thats what I am doing right now, it sucks, and seems like it takes forever, but in a couple months it will be worth it.

I don't have money, a job, or transportation for if I want a job.

[Lanky Wanker]

Right at this moment, psychopath Sean Hannity is whining about the general strike tomorrow and how it might help the terrorists who want to get revenge on America for killing bin Laden. Turn to Fox News on your TV. I want him in a gulag so bad.

You Marxist-Leninists and your fucking gulags, honestly. This is the 21st century, we BURN people alive on the spot with whatever we have on us. It's all about FIRE.

http://cdnimg.visualizeus.com/thumbs/f6/35/fire,greece,police,protests,2008,anarchy-f635f23b21659bb5380996961d45d08a_h.jpg

[Vyacheslav Brolotov]

I'm tired, my eyes got sick, I didn't do any homework (fuck you RevLeft, thanks a lot), and I'm just gonna stay home from school tomorrow. I hate my life so much.

[Anarcho-Brocialist]

I got this guy who delivers supplies to work and his name is John. John and I are continually at each-others throat. So one time I called him out on his shit-starting, slashed his tires with my pocket knife, and started chasing him with it (I wasn't going to stab him; my intention was to scare him so he wouldn't be such a dick). Well, that hasn't worked and the bastard keeps on coming in and pissing me off. I can't stand the asshole! Anyone have any suggestions on how to keep him away from me?

[Leftsolidarity]

I got this guy who delivers supplies to work and his name is John. John and I are continually at each-others throat. So one time I called him out on his shit-starting, slashed his tires with my pocket knife, and started chasing him with it (I wasn't going to stab him; my intention was to scare him so he wouldn't be such a dick). Well, that hasn't worked and the bastard keeps on coming in and pissing me off. I can't stand the asshole! Anyone have any suggestions on how to keep him away from me?

lol doesn't he have to go in there if he delivers to there?

[Ostrinski]

I got this guy who delivers supplies to work and his name is John. John and I are continually at each-others throat. So one time I called him out on his shit-starting, slashed his tires with my pocket knife, and started chasing him with it (I wasn't going to stab him; my intention was to scare him so he wouldn't be such a dick). Well, that hasn't worked and the bastard keeps on coming in and pissing me off. I can't stand the asshole! Anyone have any suggestions on how to keep him away from me?kill it with fire

[#FF0000]

so, my friend is letting me in on some things i didn't know about the last year she and I dated.

there really are no words for how awful i feel now. one of the worst feelings in the world is knowing you hurt someone that (you tell yourself) you care about, and worse than that is when you know they still suffer because of it.

christ

[Landsharks eat metal]

It's almost funny.
I can spend the whole day hating myself, wondering why I don't just kill myself now, thinking about how horrible the world is, and even though I'm feeling like I'm going to explode on the inside, I go about my day stoically... then what brings me to tears is the letter s.
[on the front of "he", used to describe me.]

Misgendering seems to spread like a virus in my English class. It used to be only the one guy, but now it's everybody. But it's never blatant enough for me to call them out on it. And I came so close to crying in the middle of class because of it.

[roy]

i should think any instance of misgendering would be enough to call someone out on

[Landsharks eat metal]

i should think any instance of misgendering would be enough to call someone out on
I'm kind of too shy... especially since there is an incredibly tiny chance that I heard them wrong.

[roy]

I'm kind of too shy... especially since there is an incredibly tiny chance that I heard them wrong.

try to overcome your shyness. i know this seems very simplistic and at the same time a monolithic task, but it's increasingly rewarding the more you chip away at it. i only speak from personal experience.

either way, misgendering is serious enough that you need not feel hesitant to counter it

[Quail]

It's almost funny.
I can spend the whole day hating myself, wondering why I don't just kill myself now, thinking about how horrible the world is, and even though I'm feeling like I'm going to explode on the inside, I go about my day stoically... then what brings me to tears is the letter s.
[on the front of "he", used to describe me.]

Misgendering seems to spread like a virus in my English class. It used to be only the one guy, but now it's everybody. But it's never blatant enough for me to call them out on it. And I came so close to crying in the middle of class because of it.
I think the best way to get around feeling too shy to call them out is to literally force yourself to do it. Maybe promise yourself a nice hot chocolate or something as a reward. I'm terribly unassertive myself though so I'm probably not the best person to give advice.

[Vyacheslav Brolotov]

http://images.pictureshunt.com/pics/c/crying-2545.jpg

I'm really depressed.

[gorillafuck]

misanthropy is getting worse.

[Vyacheslav Brolotov]

I have been crying all day and my legs really hurt because of the diseased bone marrow. Also, my anemia is coming back. I have so much homework to do. No one likes me, even on he internet. My right eye has an infection (I also have diseased corneas, so it hurts like hell). I'm all alone in the house. I never do anything fun. I'm such a boring person. I'm lazy. I hate myself. I hate my life. I'm standing in front of a window. I really wanna jump out.

[Landsharks eat metal]

No one likes me, even on he internet.
Not true. Even though I haven't shown it too much, I do, and I'm pretty sure I'm not the only one.

[Vyacheslav Brolotov]

Not true. Even though I haven't shown it too much, I do, and I'm pretty sure I'm not the only one.

It just feels like that because I guess I am losing my mind. Depression can drive you crazy. I feel crazy.

[Landsharks eat metal]

It just feels like that because I guess I am losing my mind. Depression can drive you crazy. I feel crazy.
I definitely know what you mean. I'm sorry :(
I'm here for you if you ever need someone to talk to.

[Vyacheslav Brolotov]

How do you deal with wanting to kill yourself one day and then being all happy go lucky the next day. And this problem only happens to me when something really bad is going on (i.e. now and when I lost my vision at age eleven).

[Landsharks eat metal]

How do you deal with wanting to kill yourself one day and then being all happy go lucky the next day. And this problem only happens to me when something really bad is going on (i.e. now and when I lost my vision at age eleven).

I'm still trying to figure out how to deal with it myself. (Not always going too well for me, as you can probably tell from some of my previous posts.) This is so much easier said than done, and I sort of feel like a major hypocrite giving this advice considering how hard I find it to follow myself, but you really just have to live for the good days. They're there, even if you feel like you'll never be happy again. The only way you'll never be able to be happy again is if you kill yourself before coming out of the depression. The past few days, I really felt maybe the worst I've ever felt and I sincerely thought I was going to kill myself, but a day like today, when I feel this sense of hope and love for the whole world is totally worth living for.

[Hermes]

How do you deal with wanting to kill yourself one day and then being all happy go lucky the next day. And this problem only happens to me when something really bad is going on (i.e. now and when I lost my vision at age eleven).

This probably won't help at all, and might make things worse, I don't know.

What I've done is chosen a date late in my life that I'm going to kill myself (more specifically, after my parents have died). This probably seems really, really morbid and unnecessary and unhelpful, but at least for me, it gives me time to do... whatever.

In the long term this may not be the best idea as you might not make the best life choices knowing that you're going to eventually kill yourself. However, I've started taking medication (because why not, if I'm going to kill myself), and I think it's helping. I don't know though. It might help for you, but it might not.

(Also, I like you, even if we may disagree on things. You're far more intelligent than I am)

[gorillafuck]

I have been crying all day and my legs really hurt because of the diseased bone marrow. Also, my anemia is coming back. I have so much homework to do. No one likes me, even on he internet. My right eye has an infection (I also have diseased corneas, so it hurts like hell). I'm all alone in the house. I never do anything fun. I'm such a boring person. I'm lazy. I hate myself. I hate my life. I'm standing in front of a window. I really wanna jump out.do your teacher not cut you slack with work even in light of your physical ailments?

[Vyacheslav Brolotov]

do your teacher not cut you slack with work even in light of your physical ailments?

They do, but when I'm sick, I get so fucking lazy. That's why I hate myself.

To everyone: I not so sure I wanna kill myself anymore, but I still hate my life.

[bad ideas actualised by alcohol]

How do you deal with wanting to kill yourself one day and then being all happy go lucky the next day. And this problem only happens to me when something really bad is going on (i.e. now and when I lost my vision at age eleven).

Even though I'm probably not the best to give advice on this, because I myself have had long periods where I was really suicidal, but I would just don't worry, if you can't get your homework done, don't go. I know it sounds cliche but, Do something that makes you feel good. Eventually you will start to feel better.

[Salyut]

May Day rally was interested. CPC, CPC-ML, and the Worker-Communist Party of Iran were present. I got a CPC-ML paper. :lol:

[NewLeft]

May Day rally was interested. CPC, CPC-ML, and the Worker-Communist Party of Iran were present. I got a CPC-ML paper. :lol:
The marching down the street was tiring though.. We are the 99%! For 20 minutes..

[Ele'ill]

time to sleep and I'm gonna lay down on the floor in the bedroom next to my roommate and fall asleep in a sleeping bag and torn up dirty blanket and the cat may or may not join me or wake me up with purring and other obnoxious stuff like clawing and moaning about cat stuff or maybe it's just living stuff and the condition of everything- I once met this worker at a cafe who was pretty good looking and she said she was gonna write a book.. This post should be in post here if you are drunk... wow wait a second the next thread title for post here if you're drunk should be pour your whine out

[Workers-Control-Over-Prod]

I have been crying all day and my legs really hurt because of the diseased bone marrow. Also, my anemia is coming back. I have so much homework to do. No one likes me, even on he internet. My right eye has an infection (I also have diseased corneas, so it hurts like hell). I'm all alone in the house. I never do anything fun. I'm such a boring person. I'm lazy. I hate myself. I hate my life. I'm standing in front of a window. I really wanna jump out.

I dont think you are as boring or as lazy as me, my friend. I know how u feel. It sucks. I cant say i know how physically pained you feel though, but in the end it is really the brain that counts and how you feel. I want to give you a hug now but am too stupid to know thesee stupid fucking codes...

[Landsharks eat metal]

I made a list last night of reasons why I should or should not kill myself. There were far more shoulds than shouldn'ts, and I was able to provide myself with an argument against most of the shouldn'ts (except for ones that are so stupid I just insulted myself for them.)

[Landsharks eat metal]

sorry for being so fucking annoying and whiny and wasting everybody's time

[Quail]

^ You're not fucking annoying and whiny and you don't waste everybody's time. I'm sure that it's your distorted view of the world (that tends to come from being depressed) that's making suicide seem like a good idea. It's easy to convince yourself that you're worthless when you feel low.

I feel like such a neglectful mother. My son has recently become extremely demanding and it's hard for me to do simple tasks like make his food without him demanding my attention. Sometimes I just need a break and have a lie down on the sofa or read the news, but he makes me feel guilty for doing that because he seems to expect 100% of my attention 100% of the time and it's just really hard to cope with. If he's not happy I feel like a massive failure, but I just can't seem to do enough. Maybe I'm taking his tantrums to heart too much. He is 2, after all. It's hard not to lose my temper with him and I don't want to end up shouting at him. I sometimes have to put him somewhere safe, go where he can't hear me and swear just to vent my frustration.

He is wonderful most of the time... I'm just struggling a bit because I don't sleep well and we're potty training at the moment which adds to the amount of work.

[Landsharks eat metal]

I want a reason to live, I just can't really find one.

[#FF0000]

I want a reason to live, I just can't really find one.

We'd all miss you a lot.

And things will get better. Seriously.

[Landsharks eat metal]

And things will get better. Seriously.
They were supposed to already be better. At least that's what i always hear. Like when I graduated from high school it was supposed to get better. But it just got worse.

[WanderingCactus]

I want a reason to live, I just can't really find one.
The only meaningful reason for living is one you make for yourself. Surely there are things you enjoy in life? Devote yourself to it. Maybe the people in your life suck, but people aren't always everything, you know?

[Landsharks eat metal]

Surely there are things you enjoy in life?
Not very much, lately. And even if I still like doing certain things I'm too self-conscious about all of it.

[#FF0000]

They were supposed to already be better. At least that's what i always hear. Like when I graduated from high school it was supposed to get better. But it just got worse.

Yeah, that's something a lot of people say but there's really no specific 'time' where someone can say 'yup now it's gonna be great'. But there will be a time in the future where you'll be happy that you're still around.

[NewLeft]

So much to say, but I don't know how to say it.

[ed miliband]

i always feel pathetic moaning on here when others have real problems, but...

well term is over and i'm back home for revision and will be going back and forth to uni for exams. so essentially it's summer, cool. things certainly improved for me this last term and i've made a real good group of friends. anyway, the person i'd consider my "closest" friend there is also the one i have the most temperamental relationship with. we might spend a day hanging out followed by a day where she barely acknowledges my existence, for example. yesterday we hung out and went out in the evening, today when i was about to leave i went to say bye and she gave me the coldest, most dismissive farewell i have ever received - she may as well just have told me to fuck off.

:confused:

[Metacomet]

So I didn't get the supervisor position at my new job I really needed for the hours/money.

And the Asst. Manager let slip accidental that combined he and the store manager make more then all the regular employees combined. (Not in those words but I can do math) And the 2 supervisors combined make as much as the store manager. :laugh::D

So us peons are making wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy less then 4 people in the store.

And all they talk about is how awesome of a company it is. Sure, I guess it is for them............

[gorillafuck]

i always feel pathetic moaning on here when others have real problems, but...

well term is over and i'm back home for revision and will be going back and forth to uni for exams. so essentially it's summer, cool. things certainly improved for me this last term and i've made a real good group of friends. anyway, the person i'd consider my "closest" friend there is also the one i have the most temperamental relationship with. we might spend a day hanging out followed by a day where she barely acknowledges my existence, for example. yesterday we hung out and went out in the evening, today when i was about to leave i went to say bye and she gave me the coldest, most dismissive farewell i have ever received - she may as well just have told me to fuck off.

:confused:that's wicked odd.

[ed miliband]

i'm just going to assume it's because she said we'd do stuff in the summer so she didn't really see it as the end of anything, still made me feel horrible

[MotherCossack]

I'm kind of too shy... especially since there is an incredibly tiny chance that I heard them wrong.

bloody hell ... i am you....... i have so been in this vile, miserable, cavenous and lonely hole of a hellhole.
doesnt matter, so much, what they choose to hone in on... it is that they do hone in ...on you...me.
i hate it... idespise them for putting me in a position that i should exert myself....and be strong...
all my life i have been told i am weak and trash and worthless and a nothing...
then they say i should be strong ... know how to exert myself .. know how to stick up for myself.....
how can i stick up for myself when i have a lower opinion of myself than*anyone what is that makes them be able to do this... what is missing in me that makes me so like this.....

[MotherCossack]

sorry for being so fucking annoying and whiny and wasting everybody's time

stop saying what i have felt.... so much.... well you dont have to... it is wierd... maybe in a good way... i am glad i am not the only one... but sorry for you cos i know it is shit

[MotherCossack]

I have been crying all day and my legs really hurt because of the diseased bone marrow. Also, my anemia is coming back. I have so much homework to do. No one likes me, even on he internet. My right eye has an infection (I also have diseased corneas, so it hurts like hell). I'm all alone in the house. I never do anything fun. I'm such a boring person. I'm lazy. I hate myself. I hate my life. I'm standing in front of a window. I really wanna jump out.

i am sorry i have not been on this thread.... i have not forgotten you ......i like that image it is expressive... have to go to therapy now... please dont say no-one likes you.... you have posted so much since you started and you come across so intelligent... thats not lazy....
i'll be back later....

[Quail]

One stupid number ruins the day :(

[Landsharks eat metal]

Going to Pittsburgh this weekend for my sister's graduation. I just get to hear more and more about how perfect she is. (I probably won't have access to a computer very much this weekend, so if I disappear for a while, that's where I am. Probably not dead.) There's an anarchist bookstore, but my parents won't let me go because I didn't get my papers written in good time (even though I did get them written. My parents never tell me consequences beforehand, so it just makes me feel really helpless.

And last night my mother looked so annoyed by the fact that I wouldn't wear feminine clothes or go out in public without binding my chest that I cried as soon as she left my room

[Quail]

Could you try explaining to your parents that you feel it's unfair to impose punishments without warning like that? Especially since it seems such a trivial reason to punish you :(

Having my own body issues, I can understand to a degree how it must feel being pressured into wearing things that make you feel so uncomfortable. My bulimia means that the only clothes I feel comfortable wearing are big baggy clothes (my wardrobe mostly consists of jeans and men's t-shirts haha) and my mum always tries to force me into wearing dresses and tight clothes that show off my body and going out dressed like that makes me want to cry and hide and I can't enjoy myself. It must be even worse if your transgendered and feeling pressured to dress like a girl.

[Landsharks eat metal]

Could you try explaining to your parents that you feel it's unfair to impose punishments without warning like that? Especially since it seems such a trivial reason to punish you :(

Having my own body issues, I can understand to a degree how it must feel being pressured into wearing things that make you feel so uncomfortable. My bulimia means that the only clothes I feel comfortable wearing are big baggy clothes (my wardrobe mostly consists of jeans and men's t-shirts haha) and my mum always tries to force me into wearing dresses and tight clothes that show off my body and going out dressed like that makes me want to cry and hide and I can't enjoy myself. It must be even worse if your transgendered and feeling pressured to dress like a girl.

I don't get a say in much of anything that happens. That's just the power dynamics of the relationship. I'm the "kid" so they think I have to just accept anything they do because I'm just supposed to respect them automatically as my parents and as adults. My mother might understand a bit, but she doesn't really stand up to my father very often.

[NewLeft]

Worst day of the year.. Today.


One stupid number ruins the day :(
What happened?

[bad ideas actualised by alcohol]

Worst day of the year.. Today.


What happened?

How can you call my birthday the worst of the year?
I am very offended!
:)

[NewLeft]

How can you call my birthday the worst of the year?
I am very offended!
:)
Don't say that! You set off the trigg..


http://cdn.videogum.com/files/2011/08/happybirthdaygabe3.gif

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
http://th892.photobucket.com/albums/ac122/littleemoticon/birthday%20-%20party/th_thHappy_Birthday_Smiley_by_Wishes_N.gifhttp://www.4smileys.com/smileys/birthday-smileys/smiley_balloon006.gifhttp://smileys.smilchat.net/smiley/party/champa07e.gif
http://c.editingmyspace.com/files/en/happy.birthday/birthday_080.gif

[Zukunftsmusik]

Going to Pittsburgh this weekend for my sister's graduation. I just get to hear more and more about how perfect she is. (I probably won't have access to a computer very much this weekend, so if I disappear for a while, that's where I am. Probably not dead.) There's an anarchist bookstore, but my parents won't let me go because I didn't get my papers written in good time (even though I did get them written. My parents never tell me consequences beforehand, so it just makes me feel really helpless.

That's just stupid. Making up petty punishments afterwards id childish, really.


And last night my mother looked so annoyed by the fact that I wouldn't wear feminine clothes or go out in public without binding my chest that I cried as soon as she left my room

...and that's just mean. I feel with you. You should be able to wear whatever you want, it shouldn't even be necessary to point that out. Not accepting that is, again, petty and childish.

------------------

I've had the most depressing week in a long time. Self hatred, thoughts about hurting myself. It's probably a result of too little sleep.

[Salyut]

At what point does someone not respecting my wishes to not be contacted by them become harassment? I'm starting to lose my patience with this fellow. :unsure:

Edit: Backstory for those not following the older threads... I thought this guy needed a shoulder to cry on...he expected me to pity-fuck him because I'm "desperate". I'm like LOLNO and he's all butthurt about that. He chased me around the student union building trying to cause drama. >_<

[Luc]

At what point does someone not respecting my wishes to not be contacted by them become harassment? I'm starting to lose my patience with this fellow. :unsure:

Edit: Backstory for those not following the older threads... I thought this guy needed a shoulder to cry on...he expected me to pity-fuck him because I'm "desperate". I'm like LOLNO and he's all butthurt about that. He chased me around the student union building trying to cause drama. >_<

It's harassment after you told them not to touch you. I advise going to Campus PD if there is such a thing or police, or you can do it yourself and threaten him.

[Lobotomy]

And last night my mother looked so annoyed by the fact that I wouldn't wear feminine clothes or go out in public without binding my chest that I cried as soon as she left my room

:( this made me sad

[Salyut]

It's harassment after you told them not to touch you. I advise going to Campus PD if there is such a thing or police, or you can do it yourself and threaten him.

He hasn't touched me though. Just continues to try to make contact after I expressed that I never wanted to speak to him again.

[Luc]

He hasn't touched me though. Just continues to try to make contact after I expressed that I never wanted to speak to him again.

ah

what do you mean by "make contact"?

[Lobotomy]

He hasn't touched me though. Just continues to try to make contact after I expressed that I never wanted to speak to him again.

Still sounds like harassment to me.

[Lobotomy]

I think I might be coming to terms with the fact that I only stay with my partner out of fear of being alone rather than actually wanting to be with him.

fuck, it was so hard to even type that..

[Nox]

I thought this guy needed a shoulder to cry on...he expected me to pity-fuck him

cleverLAD

[Salyut]

ah

what do you mean by "make contact"?

I have no wish to speak with him again. He seems to believe I'm obligated to forgive him. That ain't gonna happen.

[NewLeft]

Just bullshit teen stuff:
I can't wait for the day I get a job and wont have to worry about spending $5. I could have saved up enough to go to prom.. It kills me to see all the updates "my prom dress, my prom tux.." Please stop. :( Instead, I'm at home, doing homework on this sunny Friday. I really want to die. This is killing me.. But how! why!

[Luc]

I have no wish to speak with him again. He seems to believe I'm obligated to forgive him. That ain't gonna happen.

So when you say "contact" you speak with? not physically touch?

If it's speak with then is it in real life talking or electronic like on facebook?

sorry for all the questions lol just trying to get a hold of the situation :lol:



"can't wait for the day I get a job and wont have to worry about spending $5. I could have saved up enough to go to prom.. It kills me to see all the updates "my prom dress, my prom tux.." Please stop. http://www.revleft.com/vb/pour-your-heart-t170812/revleft/smilies/sad.gif Instead, I'm at home, doing homework on this sunny Friday. I really want to die. This is killing me.. But how! why! "

Sorry mate I can't relate :( I hate dances and especially prom :sleep:

:unsure:

http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_gl59E0LyvY8/SwrpHSbwX-I/AAAAAAAAAHU/tBcI5ADmxx0/s1600/hanginthere001.jpg

[Arilou Lalee'lay]

They should call birthdays "reflect on how miserable and shitty the last year was while feeling guilty about abusing the very friends and family who won't stop loving you even though you want to be left alone to seriously reconsider dying all at once instead of slowly from alcohol and smokes" days.

In the middle of drinking myself to sleep before the bastards drag me to a club.

[Salyut]

So when you say "contact" you speak with? not physically touch?

If it's speak with then is it in real life talking or electronic like on facebook?

sorry for all the questions lol just trying to get a hold of the situation :lol:

Sorry mate I can't relate :( I hate dances and especially prom :sleep:

:unsure:

http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_gl59E0LyvY8/SwrpHSbwX-I/AAAAAAAAAHU/tBcI5ADmxx0/s1600/hanginthere001.jpg

At the moment its just texting. However, he chased me around the student union building trying to cause a giant scene back in March.

Everyone I tried reaching out to this year ended up using me in various ways. What the fuck did I do to deserve this? :crying:

[Pretty Flaco]

today was my third day at my new job. its shitty work but the people there are nice, including the managers. so i like it :)
some of the girls there are really flirty though. i need to stay away from trouble!

[Luc]

At the moment its just texting. However, he chased me around the student union building trying to cause a giant scene back in March.

Everyone I tried reaching out to this year ended up using me in various ways. What the fuck did I do to deserve this? :crying:

Ah, umm I have never texted before :unsure: Is there maybe a text block thing? You probably thought of that already lol sorry :unsure: Perhaps you could spam the shit out of him till he leaves you alone perhaps with messages like "leave me alone" "don't talk to me" "I don't want to talk to you" etc. X100 :unsure:


You don't deserve it, Capitalism just makes us humans horrible shitheads

[#FF0000]

Finally got to see a doctor. Got the number for a therapist to see about what might be anxiety or some bizarre sort of depression. Feelin p good about that.

A friend of mine is moving rather far as soon as the semester is over. Haven't seen them in a week. Not happy about that.

[thriller]

I've been out of the game for so long. I'm in my mid-twenties and have yet to get my bachelors degree. I will be moving in with my parents soon (albeit for only a few months). When it comes to women, either relationship or hook-ups, I'm fucked. I used to always go my own way and never cared to take notice of other peoples findings of me. But now I do. Maybe that's part of growing up, can't be sure.

[Ostrinski]

Man I got really drunk and sad one night some time ago and made a match.com account and just now remembered

[Vyacheslav Brolotov]

I think I have an eye infection. Oh fun ballsacks.

[TheGodlessUtopian]

Attention everyone, we now have a new thread for off course talk that is just short of dramatic problems and situations.Please direct your attention here:

http://www.revleft.com/vb/whats-your-mindi-t171184/index.html?p=2436945#post2436945

(Will be constantly reminding people of this)

[PC LOAD LETTER]

At the moment its just texting. However, he chased me around the student union building trying to cause a giant scene back in March.

Everyone I tried reaching out to this year ended up using me in various ways. What the fuck did I do to deserve this? :crying:
Check with your cell phone provider - usually they can block a number for you.

Also, restraining order

[Nox]

I can't wait for the day I get a job and wont have to worry about spending $5. I could have saved up enough to go to prom.. It kills me to see all the updates "my prom dress, my prom tux.." Please stop. :( Instead, I'm at home, doing homework on this sunny Friday. I really want to die. This is killing me.. But how! why!

Honestly, proms are so over rated. Mine was boring as fuck, the best part was the walk home.

[Nox]

On thursday on the way back from school I almost got cougar'd by a woman in Greggs. She must have been about 25 and she started striking up a conversation with me lol, I got out of there asap

[honest john's firing squad]

On thursday on the way back from school I almost got cougar'd by a woman in Greggs. She must have been about 25 and she started striking up a conversation with me lol, I got out of there asap
are you sure she was into you or is this just puberty/hormones kicking in again

[thriller]

Honestly, proms are so over rated. Mine was boring as fuck, the best part was the walk home.

I spent my prom in the parking lot smoking cigarettes and skateboarding in my tux. Very overrated indeed.

[NewLeft]

I spent my prom in the parking lot smoking cigarettes and skateboarding in my tux. Very overrated indeed.
Looking at all the pictures.. It doesn't look overrated. :(

Let's never talk about this again.

[TheGodlessUtopian]

Another reminder about the new off course topic thread...

http://www.revleft.com/vb/whats-your-mindi-t171184/index.html?p=2437162#post2437162

Use that for all random musings and talk just short of serious pouring your heart out material, thanks.

[gorillafuck]

On thursday on the way back from school I almost got cougar'd by a woman in Greggs. She must have been about 25 and she started striking up a conversation with me lol, I got out of there asapI think you are just thinking that everyone else is as fixated on sex as you.

[Nox]

are you sure she was into you or is this just puberty/hormones kicking in again


I think you are just thinking that everyone else is as fixated on sex as you.

Good points I guess, but why else would a 25-ish year old woman randomly start a flirty-ish conversation with a 17 year old gopnik?

[Ose]

On thursday on the way back from school I almost got cougar'd by a woman in Greggs. She must have been about 25 and she started striking up a conversation with me lol, I got out of there asapIt makes me feel really old when you describe a 25 year old woman as a cougar, as I will be 25 in 20 minutes. Anyway, my advice would be never turn down the opportunity for sex lessons. Although mere friendliness does not equate to such an opportunity.

EDIT: In fact, I've just realised I have another hour of being nearer 20 than 30. Not that I'm going to do anyhing in that hour.

[gorillafuck]

Good points I guess, but why else would a 25-ish year old woman randomly start a flirty-ish conversation with a 17 year old gopnik?well, what was the context of it?


EDIT: In fact, I've just realised I have another hour of being nearer 20 than 30. Not that I'm going to do anyhing in that hour.you should use that hour to take ten tabs of acid

[TheGodlessUtopian]

Remember guys: use the new "What's On Your Mind" thread here for chit chatting.

[Salyut]

Check with your cell phone provider - usually they can block a number for you.

Also, restraining order

My cell provider doesn't block numbers.

And yeah, restraining order if he doesn't back the fuck off.

[Leftsolidarity]

Yesterday I was out with my girlfriend hanging around. We are both seniors this year. She's going to college in Milwaukee next year while I plan to move back to Illinois at the beginning of summer. I don't want to have me and my gf break up cuz I "love" (whatever the fuck that's supposed to mean anyways) her and all but I really don't want to try to have another long-distance relationship for a girl that, honestly, does not fit the lifestyle I want for my life.

So, I was assuming it would be the sad conclusion of we graduate, kiss and hug and say our goodbyes and then be on our seperate ways. I thought she even wanted it that way more than I did. But yesterday, we were at this coffee shop and we played a game of chess and it was a lot of fun. When we were leaving she said "Over summer when u come up and visit and everything we should sit outside and play chess instead of only lying on the couch together."

To me, this makes it seem like she's assuming that the relationship will continue throughout, at least, the summer with me coming to visit her. I want to be with her but I don't know if that's going to happen. I kind of wanted to break it off if I leave because I want to date other people from down there and with more of a likeness to my interests and a non-long distance thing. I didn't want to be tied down. I don't want to break it off if she doesn't want to, though, because I do really like her. I just always prepped myself for it ending so it wouldn't be that hard.

I don't know what to do. I don't want to mislead her but I also don't want to push her away. I don't know what I even want. Fuck.

[gorillafuck]

I am very drunk

I will still do a heart pour though because it feels good and emotions should be more acceptrable in our ociety

I lover her so much

her freckles and her wonderufl things she says and how good she makes me feel and her intelligence.


I hope se never forgets about me:(

[thriller]

Yesterday I was out with my girlfriend hanging around. We are both seniors this year. She's going to college in Milwaukee next year while I plan to move back to Illinois at the beginning of summer. I don't want to have me and my gf break up cuz I "love" (whatever the fuck that's supposed to mean anyways) her and all but I really don't want to try to have another long-distance relationship for a girl that, honestly, does not fit the lifestyle I want for my life.

So, I was assuming it would be the sad conclusion of we graduate, kiss and hug and say our goodbyes and then be on our seperate ways. I thought she even wanted it that way more than I did. But yesterday, we were at this coffee shop and we played a game of chess and it was a lot of fun. When we were leaving she said "Over summer when u come up and visit and everything we should sit outside and play chess instead of only lying on the couch together."

To me, this makes it seem like she's assuming that the relationship will continue throughout, at least, the summer with me coming to visit her. I want to be with her but I don't know if that's going to happen. I kind of wanted to break it off if I leave because I want to date other people from down there and with more of a likeness to my interests and a non-long distance thing. I didn't want to be tied down. I don't want to break it off if she doesn't want to, though, because I do really like her. I just always prepped myself for it ending so it wouldn't be that hard.

I don't know what to do. I don't want to mislead her but I also don't want to push her away. I don't know what I even want. Fuck.

IMHO it's best to just be straight forward when going into something like this. Be as blatant as possible (ie: "Do you want to continue this relationship from separate states?"). Who knows, maybe she just assumed you would visit the Mil over summer since many recent high school graduates do that sort of thing. If you are unsure about it, that seems fine, she might be too. Then again, what do I know?

[honest john's firing squad]

Good points I guess, but why else would a 25-ish year old woman randomly start a flirty-ish conversation with a 17 year old gopnik?
delightful old women strike up conversations w/ me at the bus stop all the time and i'll be damned if i get cougar'd by one of them

[Vyacheslav Brolotov]

delightful old women strike up conversations w/ me at the bus stop all the time and i'll be damned if i get cougar'd by one of them

Just puked in mouth. How old?

[Vyacheslav Brolotov]

I have...........a sexual desire.........that won't let me fall asleep.

Not only that, I'm full of rage and self-loathing.

Yeah, party in my limbic system! All my emotions are having an orgy!


I just thought I need to post this here too. What do you do when you are so damn......Horny? I already did the Nox thing, but this is serious because I can't stop thinking about it. :laugh:..........:blushing:

[honest john's firing squad]

Just puked in mouth. How old?
idk 75. but you're missing the point here: ladies having a chat w/ you does not = sex.

[Vyacheslav Brolotov]

idk 75. but you're missing the point here: ladies having a chat w/ you does not = sex.

You said "you'll be cougar'd by one of them".

[honest john's firing squad]

No, I pretty clearly said "i'll be damned if i get cougar'd by one of them"