Pour Your Heart Out XII

[RedAnarchist]

The other one went over 500 posts.

[RedAnarchist]

http://www.revleft.com/vb/pour-your-...169451&page=40 is the link to the old one.

[Landsharks eat metal]

Don't think you got out of telling it, Lanky Wanker. I WANNA HEAR IT! I WANT TO HEAR EVERYTHING

[Lanky Wanker]

YAY I'm at the top of PYHO for once. I shall tell you, Landsharks, but I need to hit post before 10 other people get in before me.

[Lanky Wanker]

Well, you asked for it.

1. School
I fucking hate school, it's pointless and will hardly help me in life. I'm in school by "choice" and I need A-levels to get some kind of a job that isn't factory work, but I really couldn't give a crap about what I'm studying. As you know, I'm in a band which I hope I'll spend more time in than a dead end job I hate. School isn't just boring, it's painfully boring. The only time I'm not thinking about how crap it is is probably when I'm in private study reading communist books instead of doing sociology work. :lol:

2. I'll skip the 'y u no have girlfriend' crying. A bigger issue is that I have this serious worry about the way I smell all the time though (despite people telling me I don't smell... yay) which makes it uncomfortable for me to even sit next to people, so that affects my confidence a lot. Two showers a day, anti-persperant, cologne, brush my teeth & gargle n all that, chewing mega minty gum every second of the day when I'm around people which even messes with my stomach... so yeah, I don't know if I have a psychological problem or a physical one. It's awkward talking about this. :o Then there's the fact that I have a strong dislike for 99.999999999% of the world's population, so making friends is hard enough. I ask myself, am I picky or is everyone else just a complete fuckface?

http://fc02.deviantart.net/fs71/f/2010/239/d/f/forever_alone_by_foreveraloneplz.png

3. Liiife
I'm sinking into the idea that I just exist now and nothing more. I don't hate my life or anything, I just don't really see what there is to enjoy about it at the moment. The only two things that can keep me happy are music and weed. When I get tired it plays with my mind and I get all depressed and stuff and have these scary thoughts about life that make me sound psychotic. Getting high is great because it takes me into reality and out of it at the same time, I just function so much better. I can be around people and talk to new people confidently without constant worry of how I present myself and everything, I'm way more creative, I understand people and life better... I could go on but yeah, this is s00per great until the comedown when all the bad thoughts kick in. Then there's the problem that I have no dealer </3. I suppose being alone makes it worse, but I enjoy being alone. As for music, saturdays with the band is like the only part of the week I enjoy because I get to escape from school or stabbing myself in the brain with thoughts of the future, but recently I've even felt a bit of a lack of energy doing that. I think a lack of sleep is a big problem for me, I just try and extract every moment of life I have outside of school by staying up late I suppose.

[Landsharks eat metal]

Pouring my own heart out right now, but i would like to address yours at some time when i'm feeling less desperate:
my fucking brain hates me. I can't focus on anything anymore. ithought everything was going fine in biology and I got a friggin 111% on the last test but this one I had no idea what the fuck any of the questions were supposed to mean and i didn't evern remember most of the words we learned, and my brain wouldn't shut up about random shit so I just sat there until i couldn't take it any longer, turned in a more than 3/4 blank test, and almost started crying when I was explaining to the professor why it was so blank. And I still haven't finished my paper, which is due less than 2 hours from now and I don't even know how I'm going to use all thes fucking sources and get my brain to stop singing all these random songs when i can't focus at all, so I'd really rather just stab myself in the heart. probably couldn't pull thatone off, considering I couldn't manage to slit my wrists.

If i'm just self-destructing, it's easier to do it all at once :(
yay first page and I've already brought the suicide drama :/

[Lanky Wanker]

Pouring my own heart out right now, but i would like to address yours at some time when i'm feeling less desperate:
my fucking brain hates me. I can't focus on anything anymore. ithought everything was going fine in biology and I got a friggin 111% on the last test but this one I had no idea what the fuck any of the questions were supposed to mean and i didn't evern remember most of the words we learned, and my brain wouldn't shut up about random shit so I just sat there until i couldn't take it any longer, turned in a more than 3/4 blank test, and almost started crying when I was explaining to the professor why it was so blank. And I still haven't finished my paper, which is due less than 2 hours from now and I don't even know how I'm going to use all thes fucking sources and get my brain to stop singing all these random songs when i can't focus at all, so I'd really rather just stab myself in the heart. probably couldn't pull thatone off, considering I couldn't manage to slit my wrists.

If i'm just self-destructing, it's easier to do it all at once :(
yay first page and I've already brought the suicide drama :/

Do you know if you might have ADD or something like that?

[Landsharks eat metal]

Do you know if you might have ADD or something like that?
I got tested for that when I was 9 and they said i didn't have it, but the school counselor or whoever it was doing the test I don't really remember because nobody told me what was going on completely missed the Asperger's, so i don't know. but my therapist is concerned about the focus issues and maybe when I see my new psychiatrist in about a week, he might consider testing me again or something.

[Lanky Wanker]

I got tested for that when I was 9 and they said i didn't have it, but the school counselor or whoever it was doing the test I don't really remember because nobody told me what was going on completely missed the Asperger's, so i don't know. but my therapist is concerned about the focus issues and maybe when I see my new psychiatrist in about a week, he might consider testing me again or something.

Yeah it's worth getting re-rested. If you have a big enough problem with concentrating that it affects your education that much then there must be something they can do, regardless of whether it qualifies as ADD or not. Things like ADD seem to be criteria for them to know which bottle of pills to throw at you as soon as the test results come in.

[Nox]

Going to the doctors soon to get some super strength acne cream prescribed for me :D

Me - 1
Acne - 0

[Lanky Wanker]

Going to the doctors soon to get some super strength acne cream prescribed for me :D

Me - 1
Acne - 0

Losing your virginity, overcoming acne... my little baby is becoming a man. :crying::D

[Lanky Wanker]

And just a word of warning to everyone: I'm gonna pop a zop tonight so if I start posting random shit that makes no sense, which I'll try and avoid, you know why. My friend got banned from a drugs forum for posting the same thread like 3 times or something when he was on them. :lol:

[NewLeft]

And just a word of warning to everyone: I'm gonna pop a zop tonight so if I start posting random shit that makes no sense, which I'll try and avoid, you know why. My friend got banned from a drugs forum for posting the same thread like 3 times or something when he was on them. :lol:
It'll be the highlight of my day.. :mellow:

[Pretty Flaco]

if i don't get employed soon im gonna be fucked. i need to start making more money and i need to be smart with it. i need to save it and not waste it on stupid shit. it seems like every place i go to isn't hiring til the summer though, which pisses me off. :thumbdown:

i have a friend whos the shift manager at a place and he says he wouldnt be able to get me a job til may-ish. id like to try and stay out of fast food but if i cant get one at a decent place by then i can hopefully count on him. ive heard him talk about where he works and its a real shitty place. but you gotta make money somehow and ill do whatever i got to to make cash right about now. i told my dad that and he told me once his friend picked up a job shoveling horse shit cus he was desperate.

[PC LOAD LETTER]

if i don't get employed soon im gonna be fucked. i need to start making more money and i need to be smart with it. i need to save it and not waste it on stupid shit. it seems like every place i go to isn't hiring til the summer though, which pisses me off. :thumbdown:

i have a friend whos the shift manager at a place and he says he wouldnt be able to get me a job til may-ish. id like to try and stay out of fast food but if i cant get one at a decent place by then i can hopefully count on him. ive heard him talk about where he works and its a real shitty place. but you gotta make money somehow and ill do whatever i got to to make cash right about now. i told my dad that and he told me once his friend picked up a job shoveling horse shit cus he was desperate.
Sell drugs

No, really, though. Check craigslist.

http://indianapolis.craigslist.org/

[NewLeft]

Sell drugs
That's too much trouble. He should rob a bank or milk truck. (Where the $$ at)

[Kitty_Paine]

That's too much trouble. He should rob a bank or milk truck. (Where the $$ at)

I always get a decent amount of money when I work a night on the street. I'm not sure about the male end of the spectrum though. Is male prostitution a profitable occupation?

[Pretty Flaco]

damn craigslist is useful for all types of shit!

[NewLeft]

I always get a decent amount of money when I work a night on the street. I'm not sure about the male end of the spectrum though. Is male prostitution a profitable occupation?
you're asking me because i would know? :lol: yes, ive pocketed around $20 for a quickie

[Kitty_Paine]

you're asking me because i would know? :lol: yes, ive pocketed around $20 for a quickie

If anyone would know, I would have expected it to be you. It's not my fault I think that! lol

[NewLeft]

If anyone would know, I would have expected it to be you. It's not my fault I think that! lol
great, even people on revleft think im a whore. oh well, its kinda flattering actually.

[Kitty_Paine]

great, even people on revleft think im a whore. oh well, its kinda flattering actually.

Nothing but love. <3

[Nox]

Had a great fap session earlier, quadruple ejaculation :cool:

[NewLeft]

Had a great fap session earlier, quadruple ejaculation :cool:
sexy stalin approves

[gorillafuck]

Had a great fap session earlier, quadruple ejaculation :cool:great heart pour nox

[Nox]

great heart pour nox

Yup there's a lot of luv going on between my and my right hand

[TheGodlessUtopian]

Rev-Left: 25% Politics, 75% Masturbation

It's a fact :tt2:

[Kitty_Paine]

Rev-Left: 25% Politics, 75% Masturbation

It's a fact :tt2:

These numbers are... quite accurate.

The topic of masturbation seems to slip in (hehe) to most threads without any clear provocation. I don't know if it's surpressed sexuality or just teenage boys... :rolleyes:

[gorillafuck]

its only been happening a lot more lately ever because pyho crew teenagers started mentioning it a lot

[NewLeft]

most of my post in these threads are pure masturbation (like this one)

[Landsharks eat metal]

And an increasing amount of mine are me whining about it.

[Le Rouge]

I wank
You wank
He wanks
She wanks
It wanks
We wank
You wank
They wank

[Lanky Wanker]

Had a great fap session earlier, quadruple ejaculation :cool:

Pour Your HEART Out, not empty your cock out, sonny jim. Take it to the sex thread. But congratulations, I have to force myself to get one out so you're way ahead.



I wank
You wank
He wanks
She wanks
It wanks
We wank
You wank
They wank

Well done, you learned your English pronouns or whatever they're called.

[Luc]

Pour Your HEART Out, not empty your cock out, sonny jim. Take it to the sex thread. But congratulations, I have to force myself to get one out so you're way ahead.

:huh:

we have a sex thread?

[Lanky Wanker]

:huh:

we have a sex thread?

No, but we should have one. :cool: Oh this will be great, learning about who's fucked who, who's the dirtiest little bastard on the site, who can cum the most times in under 5 minutes (we already know that one -- Nox)...

WOULD ANYONE LIKE A SEX THREAD?
5 or 10 likes and I'm making one.
Drugs ftw.

[gorillafuck]

so this is pyho

[Leftsolidarity]

I'm a shitty person and an even worse boyfriend

[Kitty_Paine]

I'm a shitty person and an even worse boyfriend

Cheat? :huh:

[honest john's firing squad]

Had a great fap session earlier, quadruple ejaculation :cool:
have you considered that no-one really wants to hear this? i'm not one for moral decency or anything, but you are fucking foul.

[Leftsolidarity]

have you considered that no-one really wants to hear this? i'm not one for moral decency or anything, but you are fucking foul.

I find it halarious

[honest john's firing squad]

I find it halarious
i'm personally amazed the acne-scarred wanker (pun intentional) even got laid. although so is he apparently, which is probably why he felt it necessary to share the news with basement-dwelling leftists in his revleft blog.

[Leftsolidarity]

i'm personally amazed the acne-scarred wanker (pun intentional) even got laid. although so is he apparently, which is probably why he felt it necessary to share the news with basement-dwelling leftists in his revleft blog.

Well you're a rude one now aren't ya?

Maybe you haven't caught on but Pour Your Heart Out threads are for people who are nice to each other and don't shit on one another. I think you should be a little kinder in this.

If you want to rip on people and be mean, there is an entire forum for that. We have our 1 thread.

[NewLeft]

i'm personally amazed the acne-scarred wanker (pun intentional) even got laid. although so is he apparently, which is probably why he felt it necessary to share the news with basement-dwelling leftists in his revleft blog.
i know you're mad, but hang in there. you will get laid eventually.

[Le Rouge]

i'm personally amazed the acne-scarred wanker (pun intentional) even got laid. although so is he apparently, which is probably why he felt it necessary to share the news with basement-dwelling leftists in his revleft blog.

Hey you mad bro?

[Le Rouge]

I don't have acne, i'm not a basement dweller, BUT i didn't ever get laid. But that will change soon enough, i have a girlfriend now.

[¿Que?]

Ok so I'm not one to kiss and tell or anything so...

In any case, I get home and I get this text: "Next time we should have drinks at your place."

http://i3.kym-cdn.com/photos/images/newsfeed/000/185/885/SANDCASTLES.png

[NewLeft]

Ok so I'm not one to kiss and tell or anything so...

In any case, I get home and I get this text: "Next time we should have drinks at your place."

http://i3.kym-cdn.com/photos/images/newsfeed/000/185/885/SANDCASTLES.png
I love that baby. I'm happy for you man.
http://r11.imgfast.net/users/1114/11/18/36/smiles/237693.gif that's it boy, you get some..

[Le Rouge]

I can't pour my heart out right now, i don't have any problem...Exept that my school's strike might end next friday.

Seeing GF tomorrow, Yay!!!

[¿Que?]

I love that baby. I'm happy for you man.
http://r11.imgfast.net/users/1114/11/18/36/smiles/237693.gif that's it boy, you get some..
Well, you know old single folk like myself need love too, you know.

[MustCrushCapitalism]

Had a great fap session earlier, quadruple ejaculation
I'm touched.

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y'know everyone what gets me down? ever been in this type of situation - ex girlfriend broke up with me a while back because she wasn't over her ex boyfriend before me who wanted to be with her again. (who's a real ass, I should mention... never had any time for her while I can actually say that making her happy was my no. 1 priority for a time...) I was pretty much devastatingly depressed for a few months and we stopped talking only because it was literally impossible to hold up a conversation for more than like 2 minutes.

Then in November, I believe it was, we began talking again... I feel like I always have to act as if I don't really care and if she wants to do something say no to it, despite the fact that inside I feel the exact opposite way and it's killing me to not be able to say that to her. Yesterday she said something that got to me. She asked why I didn't care about talking to her anymore. And I've basically been thinking about that since then.

so yeah. sadness. now give me a box of chocolate and make me feel better damn it.

[Lanky Wanker]

I don't have acne, i'm not a basement dweller, BUT i didn't ever get laid. But that will change soon enough, i have a girlfriend now.

I hope she has a penis just to ruin the moment you've been waiting for for so long. Don't get me wrong, a penis can suit a woman well, but I get the feeling you'd back out after trying to anal it for 20 seconds.

And btw, 'pour your heart out' doesn't strictly reject positive emotions... but then again you just make all us depressed fuckers feel even worse about ourselves. :lol:

Anyways, TO THE SEX THREAD!

[honest john's firing squad]

I think you should be a little kinder in this.
I think Nox should quit making a mockery out of PYHO by delivering reports on his ejaculations whilst there are people ITT who genuinely need this thread for support.

[No_Leaders]

I'm touched.

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y'know everyone what gets me down? ever been in this type of situation - ex girlfriend broke up with me a while back because she wasn't over her ex boyfriend before me who wanted to be with her again. (who's a real ass, I should mention... never had any time for her while I can actually say that making her happy was my no. 1 priority for a time...) I was pretty much devastatingly depressed for a few months and we stopped talking only because it was literally impossible to hold up a conversation for more than like 2 minutes.

Then in November, I believe it was, we began talking again... I feel like I always have to act as if I don't really care and if she wants to do something say no to it, despite the fact that inside I feel the exact opposite way and it's killing me to not be able to say that to her. Yesterday she said something that got to me. She asked why I didn't care about talking to her anymore. And I've basically been thinking about that since then.

so yeah. sadness. now give me a box of chocolate and make me feel better damn it.

I know the feeling all to well man. Actually was in a similar sitchy not too long ago. Same story this girl i had known and liked for a years basically gave me the cold shoulder. (we had a thing for each other but she moved away to oregon for school) I saw her a few times since she had moved and i always still had those feelings for her. She would come visit and we could pickup as if no time had passed, it really said something.. to me at least. Welp she ended up moving back and right when i told her how i had felt she said she still had some feelings for me, and regrets never giving me a chance before she moved.. BUT that there was someone else.. So all the while i tend to push her away not because i hate her but i wanna move on.. if i keep acting like i care which i do, i will never get over her and yeah. It's been working to an extent.. but that's kinda how i always deal with hearbreaks, i tend to cut that person out of my life until i'm sure my feelings are long gone.. makes it easier.

Not exactly the same situation but i know how you feel especially with the acting like you don't care and don't wanna be around them when all you really want is the opposite. If you lived here in tucson i'd buy you a drink or two or three!

[Leftsolidarity]

Fuckin stressed. I'm travelling tomorrow morning to my homecity and catching like 3 buses. I fucking hate buses. Then I need to figure out how I'm getting to the punk house and then to this party and back. Then I'm recording an acoustic demo the next day. Then leading a group of 10 people in an Occupy action (and i don't even know what's going on, i was just told i'm a team leader), then I gotta figure out a way to have band practice and see my friends, then I gotta figure out how I'm catching all my buses back to my parent's house. My parents also want basically nothing to do with me.

Gah, fuck. Fuck stress.

[No_Leaders]

Fuckin stressed. I'm travelling tomorrow morning to my homecity and catching like 3 buses. I fucking hate buses. Then I need to figure out how I'm getting to the punk house and then to this party and back. Then I'm recording an acoustic demo the next day. Then leading a group of 10 people in an Occupy action (and i don't even know what's going on, i was just told i'm a team leader), then I gotta figure out a way to have band practice and see my friends, then I gotta figure out how I'm catching all my buses back to my parent's house. My parents also want basically nothing to do with me.

Gah, fuck. Fuck stress.

Ah, stress one of the worst things. I deal with it on such a regular basis, i know the feeling of one thing adding onto another, and they all gang up on you and it just ruins your day. Any of your friends willing to drive you(if they drive) to the punk house or to the party?

[Leftsolidarity]

Ah, stress one of the worst things. I deal with it on such a regular basis, i know the feeling of one thing adding onto another, and they all gang up on you and it just ruins your day. Any of your friends willing to drive you(if they drive) to the punk house or to the party?

Looks like I might be able to have a friend drive me to the punk house. If not I'll have to deal with the city bus, which is a fuckin pain in the ass for where I'd be getting on. To and from the party is iffy. I also really don't want to have to skate/walk through the hood drunk as fuck in the middle of the night to get back to the punk house.

Edit: I like the No Ca$h avatar btw

[No_Leaders]

City busses are pain anywhere. I've had horrible experiences on busses here especially. But that's another story haha. Well that's good, perhaps you could stay with a friend for the night? That way you're not trying to find your way back all drunk, especially if you gotta walk/skate that's not good. At least that way you can wake up (hopefully hangover free!) in the morning and deal with the busses then or even have a better ride situation.

hahah thanks i been listening to them all day today, and absolutely love the cd artwork.

[gorillafuck]

Miss Marple is right that this thread does actually have a purpose. there's a difference between when it gets sidetracked and just treating it like a miscellaneous thread.

[Landsharks eat metal]

Miss Marple is right that this thread does actually have a purpose. there's a difference between when it gets sidetracked and just treating it like a miscellaneous thread.

That's very true, but that doesn't excuse the second post. Personal attacks do not belong in this thread.

That being said, it made me so happy to see how everyone handled it.
I love you all :)

[Nox]

i'm personally amazed the acne-scarred wanker (pun intentional) even got laid. although so is he apparently, which is probably why he felt it necessary to share the news with basement-dwelling leftists in his revleft blog.

You're pretty much spot on there

[Nox]

Anyway, it will probably be hard to take this seriously after my previous few posts, but I need some motivation. It feels like I'll never get a girlfriend :( I'm only 17 at the moment, still in the British equivalent of high school for another year-and-a-bit. I know that I definitely won't get a girlfriend before I leave here, that's a certainty. I'm hoping to meet someone special when I go to university but I don't know... I've always been a shy, slightly socially awkward person and I am very introverted :/

[NewLeft]

I don't like watching violent movies, when I was hesitant I meant no. Now I'll never forget that image of..
ʇoɥs ƃuiʇʇǝƃ ʎqɐq ɐ
I felt like crying watching that, but I wont because.. but I am horrified.

[Vyacheslav Brolotov]

Gonna start prepping for that spinal tap. See you guys tomorrow.

[Franz Fanonipants]

Anyway, it will probably be hard to take this seriously after my previous few posts, but I need some motivation. It feels like I'll never get a girlfriend :( I'm only 17 at the moment

this is patently ridiculous

[Ostrinski]

Nox just fucking relax man

[Quail]

Anyway, it will probably be hard to take this seriously after my previous few posts, but I need some motivation. It feels like I'll never get a girlfriend :( I'm only 17 at the moment, still in the British equivalent of high school for another year-and-a-bit. I know that I definitely won't get a girlfriend before I leave here, that's a certainty. I'm hoping to meet someone special when I go to university but I don't know... I've always been a shy, slightly socially awkward person and I am very introverted :/
I'm a shy, socially awkward introvert and I managed to have relationships. I moved to a different school to do the A levels that I wanted and I think being able to shed my past (I was bullied a lot in secondary school) helped me to make new friends and meet partners through them. When you get to university, I'm sure you'll find someone. :) Annoyingly, relationships seem to happen more when you're not looking for one.

Drugs also helped. I feel so much less socially awkward when I'm a bit drunk/high. But I don't think that's really great advice.

I don't like watching violent movies, when I was hesitant I meant no. Now I'll never forget that image of..
ʇoɥs ƃuiʇʇǝƃ ʎqɐq ɐ
I felt like crying watching that, but I wont because.. but I am horrified.
Sounds pretty horrific :( Maybe try watching something nice to distract yourself if it's still bothering you? When I get really persistent OCD thoughts I find it can be calming to watch a DVD I really like or play a video game that I can really get into to take my mind off them.

Gonna start prepping for that spinal tap. See you guys tomorrow.
I never know what to say to your posts, because I don't really have any experience of cancer and I don't feel that I can say anything useful. I hope it goes well for you.

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I'm feeling quite positive about the CBT therapist I'm seeing. I've seen her three times, but I've managed to talk about my experience of being assaulted and we're working on it. This is the first time I've ever really told anyone who can do anything to help me do anything about moving forward. It's been over 6 years now, it's about time I dealt with the issue.

Trigger warning for what's inside the spoiler.
On the flipside, I've unfortunately been having loads of intrusive thoughts recently where I see an image of him kneeling over me, assaulting me. It's really uncomfortable for me to have these feelings and memories brought up from where I'd buried them away.

I don't want to feel like this because it's going to leave me vulnerable to doing dangerous things to try to make these unwanted images go away. When I accidentally cut into my vein recently it was because I couldn't get intrusive memories out of my head. I really can't afford to be doing stuff like that when I have a kid.

Also, I fucking ran out of meds. So on top of the problem in the spoiler, I'm going to start feeling really anxious and weird if I can't get any tomorrow. Good job I have some leftover valium.

[Nox]

Ok ok :( I'm probably worrying way too much about this.

Btw, is it weird that I find "attractive" girls not-so-attractive and some "not-so-attractive" girls extremely attractive? Are humans naturally attracted to people "in their league"?

[Nox]

I'm a shy, socially awkward introvert and I managed to have relationships. I moved to a different school to do the A levels that I wanted and I think being able to shed my past (I was bullied a lot in secondary school) helped me to make new friends and meet partners through them. When you get to university, I'm sure you'll find someone. :) Annoyingly, relationships seem to happen more when you're not looking for one.

Drugs also helped. I feel so much less socially awkward when I'm a bit drunk/high. But I don't think that's really great advice.


Thanks for the advice man. The main thing I've noticed is that people in my Sixth Form who didn't go to the same high school as me are very friendly/nice towards everyone, I assume Uni will be even better :D

[Ostrinski]

1. You're only 17 and many more women will be receptive to you if and when you go off to college

2. Even if they don't, who cares? You don't need a girlfriend to be happy. I hate how in modern bourgeois society people always think they can only be happy in a relationship. Be independent. If a girl comes your way that you really like, good for you. But don't go on some expedition for a girlfriend and don't sit and wait your whole life for one to come by ffs

I've never had a girlfriend and don't plan on ever meeting anyone. But if someone comes along, great. It's no big deal.

[Luc]

Ok ok :( I'm probably worrying way too much about this.

Btw, is it weird that I find "attractive" girls not-so-attractive and some "not-so-attractive" girls extremely attractive? Are humans naturally attracted to people "in their league"?

Humans aren't naturally anything

you probably just like what society doesn't consider attractive :cool:

least thats how I figure for myself

[Landsharks eat metal]

Today in my sociology class, we started talking about gender, and the professor led off by having us take a little masculinity/feminity/androgyny assessment (kind of outdated, but who cares). I was really nervous that I was going to get scored as really feminine, but I got masculine :) The score ranges were -20 and lower for feminine, -19 to -10 for almost feminine, -9 to 9 for androgynous, 10 to 19 for almost masculine, and 20 and up for masculine. I got a 28. But that kind of reminds me of how problematic it is that I keep focusing on masculinity in myself as what is to be desired (even though it's not really my fault because every time someone notices me exhibiting a feminine characteristic they insist I can never be a man.)

But I don't think any transgender identities are going to be covered in this class, and the way the professor said things today, it makes it sound like she thinks I will always be female because I have a vagina and two X chromosomes.

And also, I can't stop shaking, but I can't figure out why.

[Nox]

you probably just like what society doesn't consider attractive :cool:



I'm the ultimate hipster

[gorillafuck]

nox the key to finding someone to fuck you is take note of how many y's a girl uses at the end of "hey". if it is four or above then she wants to stampede at your cock head first.

[Landsharks eat metal]

I should probably clarify from my last post, the only guy I really have a problem if he's not masculine enough is me. I think people should be able to be whoever they are without having to worry about arbitrary rules, but any time I do anything I perceive as stereotypically feminine or show any weakness, I start saying really sexist shit to myself in my head.

[Quail]

Ok ok :( I'm probably worrying way too much about this.

Btw, is it weird that I find "attractive" girls not-so-attractive and some "not-so-attractive" girls extremely attractive? Are humans naturally attracted to people "in their league"?
Depends what you mean by "attractive." I don't usually like stereotypically attractive people, but in men that's often because good-looking guys can be very arrogant, and in women I find too much make up is quite a turn-off. Everyone is attractive in their own unique way and everyone has different taste.


I should probably clarify from my last post, the only guy I really have a problem if he's not masculine enough is me. I think people should be able to be whoever they are without having to worry about arbitrary rules, but any time I do anything I perceive as stereotypically feminine or show any weakness, I start saying really sexist shit to myself in my head.
I say a lot of sexist shit to myself in my head, but for different reasons. I don't know why the standards I apply to everyone else are so hard to apply to myself.

[Lanky Wanker]

Drugs also helped. I feel so much less socially awkward when I'm a bit drunk/high. But I don't think that's really great advice.


I think it's great advice. :D


nox the key to finding someone to fuck you is take note of how many y's a girl uses at the end of "hey". if it is four or above then she wants to stampede at your cock head first.

Everyone, listen to this guy... he's actually right.

[NewLeft]

Sounds pretty horrific :( Maybe try watching something nice to distract yourself if it's still bothering you? When I get really persistent OCD thoughts I find it can be calming to watch a DVD I really like or play a video game that I can really get into to take my mind off them.
I don't seem to feel queasy about it anymore.. I can replay it in my head and I don't feel a thing. I get pretty worried when that happens cause the last thing I want is to be desensitized to this kinda stuff. I've seen some horrific stuff before..
like an autopsy. Never never never again.
I'll try that next time, maybe play on my phone or something.


nox the key to finding someone to fuck you is take note of how many y's a girl uses at the end of "hey". if it is four or above then she wants to stampede at your cock head first.
to think of it, im probably adding more y's than the girl. :unsure::lol:


Today in my sociology class, we started talking about gender, and the professor led off by having us take a little masculinity/feminity/androgyny assessment (kind of outdated, but who cares). I was really nervous that I was going to get scored as really feminine, but I got masculine :) The score ranges were -20 and lower for feminine, -19 to -10 for almost feminine, -9 to 9 for androgynous, 10 to 19 for almost masculine, and 20 and up for masculine. I got a 28. But that kind of reminds me of how problematic it is that I keep focusing on masculinity in myself as what is to be desired (even though it's not really my fault because every time someone notices me exhibiting a feminine characteristic they insist I can never be a man.)

But I don't think any transgender identities are going to be covered in this class, and the way the professor said things today, it makes it sound like she thinks I will always be female because I have a vagina and two X chromosomes.

And also, I can't stop shaking, but I can't figure out why.
they seem really lazy [profs]. they prob dont want the extra work, but that still doesnt mean they shouldnt acknowledge it.

[gorillafuck]

to think of it, im probably adding more y's than the girl. :unsure::lol:you effeminate motherfucker you

[NewLeft]

you effeminate motherfucker you
zeeeeek :cool:

[Vyacheslav Brolotov]

Wow. The neurologist had me sit down and force myself into some kind of vertical fetal position until my spine could be felt. Then he put the anti-septic on my lower back (more like my lower-middle back) and proceeded to put in the needle for the local anesthetic. That hurt like shitballs on fire. Then he put in the other needle for the penetration of the spine. Oh. My. God. He pushed that thing in further like three times and I was crying like a baby (even though the pain was not as bad as I expected). He put pressure on the puncture site while he took everything and collected droplets from the needle (I don't think it was really a needle, but something else). After everything was done, he made me sit up for a while. He said that they tend to only make fat people lay down in special positions. I am back home now and I have such a bad headache. I already vomited twice. He did ask me if it was OK to reinsert the needle in order to prevent future headaches. I said no and now I regret that I did. I feel so sick. My back and head hurt like hell and I have not sat down in 4 whole hours. Ouch. I came home just now actually.

[Lanky Wanker]

Wow. The neurologist had me sit down and force myself into some kind of vertical fetal position until my spine could be felt. Then he put the anti-septic on my lower back (more like my lower-middle back) and proceeded to put in the needle for the local anesthetic. That hurt like shitballs on fire. Then he put in the other needle for the penetration of the spine. Oh. My. God. He pushed that thing in further like three times and I was crying like a baby (even though the pain was not as bad as I expected). He put pressure on the puncture site while he took everything and collected droplets from the needle (I don't think it was really a needle, but something else). After everything was done, he made me sit up for a while. He said that they tend to only make fat people lay down in special positions. I am back home now and I have such a bad headache. I already vomited twice. He did ask me if it was OK to reinsert the needle in order to prevent future headaches. I said no and now I regret that I did. I feel so sick. My back and head hurt like hell and I have not sat down in 4 whole hours. Ouch. I came home just now actually.

Aaand this is the exact reason I get scared of checking my nuts for lumps... the thought of them trying to stick a needle in it or twist it off or something. Just my luck it'll be the right ball, that's my more sensitive one. Sorry for turning this into a conversation about my balls. Can't you go back and get the needle put in or whatever?


I had a dream last night like 3 people from my family or whatever died... I was at one funeral while someone else died. I started crying I think even though I hardly ever see that relative. But then I had this feeling that my mum was gonna be next. :( I was at school, but something about it was really weird, like it was a special day or something. I remember being in an elevator where something weird happened, but I can't remember what... I just remember I was on my way to sociology in a random building I've never seen before. Apparently zops play with your dreams (good and bad) so who knows. Took 1 last night, 3 tonight. I hope I can lucid dream or something and just have like one day of fun in dreamland.

[Vyacheslav Brolotov]

Can't you go back and get the needle put in or whatever?

Nope. I can't do anything other than bedrest. I forgot to explain the bedrest part. He only made me sit up for the application of pressure on the puncture site. Then he had me lay down for bedrest. Yet, when I got up to go home, from then on it became painful for me to lay down once again. I need to, though. Only bedrest can really help the pain.

[Lanky Wanker]

Nope. I can't do anything other than bedrest. I forgot to explain the bedrest part. He only made me sit up for the application of pressure on the puncture site. Then he had me lay down for bedrest. Yet, when I got up to go home, from then on it became painful for me to lay down once again. I need to, though. Only bedrest can really help the pain.

Pain killers? I really wish I had some pain killers to erm... yeah, what else what I do with sedatives.

[Vyacheslav Brolotov]

Pain killers? I really wish I had some pain killers to erm... yeah, what else what I do with sedatives.

Tylenol does not do shit and that is all I have. I need some Tylenol-3, which I do not have. That works pretty good.

[Lanky Wanker]

Tylenol does not do shit and that is all I have. I need some Tylenol-3, which I do not have. That works pretty good.

Codeeeiiine.

[TheGodlessUtopian]

Why did they have to do the spinal tap?

[Vyacheslav Brolotov]

Why did they have to do the spinal tap?


Doctors also use a test called a lumbar puncture (or spinal tap) to find out whether there are leukemia cells in the fluid around the brain and spinal cord.


http://marrow.org/Patient/Disease_and_Treatment/About_Your_Disease/ALL/Acute_Lymphoblastic_Leukemia_(ALL).aspx

[TheGodlessUtopian]

Sorry you had to go through that man, sounds like it was awful...

[Nox]

nox the key to finding someone to fuck you is take note of how many y's a girl uses at the end of "hey". if it is four or above then she wants to stampede at your cock head first.

Thanks for that. Whenever someone uses 4 or more y's or a winky face, I will ask them to be fuckbuddies. :)

[gorillafuck]

well what's the context of the winky face?

[Salyut]

Social Justice Manifest Project: 10%

This assignment is an opportunity for students to articulate their learning, ideals and vision for achieving social justice in the form of a manifesto. This one page assignment can be organized in point form or narrative style. It should contain a minimum of 10 points. The manifesto should reflect student engagement with the course themes, ideas, readings, and lectures. On the final day of class students will be asked to share their Manifesto with a group of their peers.

Use this as a platform to ramble about post-marxism and smashing the state, y/n?

[Ostrinski]

What were the results of the spinal tap, Commistar.

[NewLeft]

Use this as a platform to ramble about post-marxism and smashing the state, y/n?
If it's relevant..

[Vyacheslav Brolotov]

What were the results of the spinal tap, Commistar.

I'll get them back tomorrow.

[Lobotomy]

1. I wish I had a sibling
2. Lil b sucks
3. I'm in love with captain kirk
4. not to be mean but I'm starting to think that my roommate is really quite stupid
5. For some reason I have this idea in my head like when I leave college all my anxiety will go away. it's probably not true though. I probably need to make changes in my own thought patterns and behavior, but that scares the shit out of me
6. lol I'm worthless
7. last night I had a dream that kim jong il was still alive and I was his assistant and he was mad at me for not speaking Korean and not really knowing much about Korea that wasn't related to the korean-american war

[Ostrinski]

2. We're not friends anymore

6. No you're not

[Lobotomy]

Oh, I forgot something.

8. I have this friend who is literally happy all the time. and... I can't fucking stand it. he's always saying things, on fb and irl, such as 'went for a beautiful hike this morning, I cherish days like this!!' 'HIGH ON LIFE! i love you all! <3' 'got so many things planned in the weeks to come, soo looking forward to it!!' it's disgusting. any time I see him do this i just want to tear away this facade he's built and see the actual human being that is inside of him. I mean come the fuck on, that cannot be real. or, maybe it is. maybe he really is that happy and i'm just a bitter calloused fuck projecting my own problems on other people. that's a possibility.

[Ostrinski]

There is not one thing I hate more in this world than happy people. People laughing, having a good time. Makes me wanna puke. Especially children. The sound of children laughing is like grinding metal.

[Quail]

Tylenol does not do shit and that is all I have. I need some Tylenol-3, which I do not have. That works pretty good.
Try a cold water codeine extraction with some OTC strength painkillers. It's easy, should be safe and should take some of the edge off the pain.

[Lanky Wanker]

Try a cold water codeine extraction with some OTC strength painkillers. It's easy, should be safe and should take some of the edge off the pain.

Call me an irresponsible little knob, but I've been thinking of trying to extract codeine from painkillers for a while now...

[Le Rouge]

Lanks, Quail, gtfo to stonertalk.

[ed miliband]

2. We're not friends anymore

6. No you're not

well obv s/he is if s/he thinks lil b sucks

[Rafiq]

There is not one thing I hate more in this world than happy people. People laughing, having a good time. Makes me wanna puke. Especially children. The sound of children laughing is like grinding metal.

I hate "positive" people.

Really, being positive literally means having your head up your own ass

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[Landsharks eat metal]

There is not one thing I hate more in this world than happy people. People laughing, having a good time. Makes me wanna puke. Especially children. The sound of children laughing is like grinding metal.
Yeah, I hate the sound of laughter.
But usually it's because I think people are actually laughing at me.

[Lanky Wanker]

Yeah, I hate the sound of laughter.
But usually it's because I think people are actually laughing at me.

I hate the sound of laughter when people are making those jokes about fuck knows what, like y'know those people that talk about random TV series no one's heard of? I feel like tying those people up and locking them in a basement. I also hate that one fucking girl in school who never shuts up laughing when I'm trying to work, she's got one of them ".....hhhHHHAAAAAAAAHAHAHA!" *long throat drag on the inhale* laughs.

[NewLeft]

I wish I got hit by a car and died

[Landsharks eat metal]

I wish I got hit by a car and died
I'm glad you haven't...

[Railyon]

Last night I dreamed Stalin crawled out from under my bed and stabbed me with his mustache. Then I exploded into a thousand little Trotsky candy bars.

[NewLeft]

I'm glad you haven't...
It nearly happened 3 times already. I just want it to happen, so it's done.

[Luc]

I wish I got hit by a car and died

What's up NewLeft? Wanna pour your heart out?

[Lanky Wanker]

Fucking piece of shit internet not posting my goddamn messages then making me retype them. I'm in one of those bad moods where I just wanna blast some slam death metal out of my computer at full volume and plot ways to kill everyone then commit suicide before my earth-destroying bomb goes off and kills all the fluffy animals as well. Alright, maybe not that bad. School on monday, yay... I honestly have no idea how TWO whole weeks went that fast. I just wanna fucking drop out of school and become a cleaner.

[Rooster]

I dreamt that it was my birthday and the Pope was there. He came up to me and whispered into my ear with a wink "hey, seeing how it's your birthday, you can commit any sin you want and it won't count". So I shot him.

[Vyacheslav Brolotov]

Since it has been most likely many years that I have had leukemia, some leukemia cells have been found in my Cerebrospinal Fluid.

[NewLeft]

Since it has been most likely many years that I have had leukemia, some leukemia cells have been found in my Cerebrospinal Fluid.
i am sorry to hear that.. i worked in a histology lab briefly.. i am not a doctor or some kind of specialist/expert, but if i remember correctly, leukemia spreading to the cns is p common. do you have any symptoms? :( oh right, you mentioned before the blurred vision. did you tell your doctor about that?

[PC LOAD LETTER]

Since it has been most likely many years that I have had leukemia, some leukemia cells have been found in my Cerebrospinal Fluid.
What is the next step that they will take?

[00001]

I dreamt that it was my birthday and the Pope was there. He came up to me and whispered into my ear with a wink "hey, seeing how it's your birthday, you can commit any sin you want and it won't count". So I shot him.

glorious!

[Pretty Flaco]

I dreamt that it was my birthday and the Pope was there. He came up to me and whispered into my ear with a wink "hey, seeing how it's your birthday, you can commit any sin you want and it won't count". So I shot him.

one of my teachers has a picture of him standing next to the pope at ohio state.

[Vyacheslav Brolotov]

What is the next step that they will take?

Radiation, chemotherapy, drugs. I'm not too excited. I'm actually really depressed.

[Vyacheslav Brolotov]

do you have any symptoms? :( oh right, you mentioned before the blurred vision. did you tell your doctor about that?

I have no symptoms. Oh, and my visual problems were not caused by unknown factors, it was due to malpractice done by a surgeon when I got ptosis repair on my eyelids at age eleven. I have been legally blind in both eyes without my glasses and legally blind in my right eye with my glasses ever since. It gets a little annoying, but I got over it around last year (I'm 15). It was not caused by anything else other than a doctor who made a mistake and health insurance that would not pay for me to get treatment in the best optomological hospital in the region, the Will's Eye Institute of Philadelphia.

[PC LOAD LETTER]

Radiation, chemotherapy, drugs. I'm not too excited. I'm actually really depressed.
Don't worry, dude. The doctors can take care of this. Also, medical marijuana is legal in New Jersey. It will help with any nausea and malaise resulting from the radiation and chemotherapy treatments.

I don't think there are any age restrictions, but if you begin to get sick after you begin radiation/chemotherapy, ask your doctor about it.

[Lanky Wanker]

Don't worry, dude. The doctors can take care of this. Also, medical marijuanais legal in New Jersey. It will help with any nausea and malaise resulting from the radiation and chemotherapy treatments.

I don't think there are any age restrictions, but if you begin to get sick after you begin radiation/chemotherapy, ask your doctor about it.

I always hear it's 21. I've seen them give little kids with so-called "ADHD" (i.e. being a kid disorder) small amounts of weed though.

[PC LOAD LETTER]

I always hear it's 21. I've seen them give little kids with so-called "ADHD" (i.e. being a kid disorder) small amounts of weed though.
MMJ laws in the US vary widely by state. NJ is one of the more restrictive states in that you can't grow your own, but I didn't see anything about age on the NORML database.

[Sentinel]

After a PM conversation that got me thinking about ageing, I was just recently reading some old threads. From -05 and -06, back when I had just joined RevLeft and was becoming politically active (it still took a long while before I became what I today define as an 'activist', but yeah).

And suddenly I felt like I wanted to scream out loud. I want to go back to that time, to have those people who posted then around again, to just be 6 years younger again.

This age crisis is killing me. Fuck.

[NewLeft]

After a PM conversation that got me thinking about ageing, I was just recently reading some old threads. From -05 and -06, back when I had just joined RevLeft and was becoming politically active (it still took a long while before I became what I today define as an 'activist', but yeah).

And suddenly I felt like I wanted to scream out loud. I want to go back to that time, to have those people who posted then around again, to just be 6 years younger again.

This age crisis is killing me. Fuck.
What exactly is the difference?

[Lanky Wanker]

After a PM conversation that got me thinking about ageing, I was just recently reading some old threads. From -05 and -06, back when I had just joined RevLeft and was becoming politically active (it still took a long while before I became what I today define as an 'activist', but yeah).

And suddenly I felt like I wanted to scream out loud. I want to go back to that time, to have those people who posted then around again, to just be 6 years younger again.

This age crisis is killing me. Fuck.

You old people, always complaining. :rolleyes:

[Sentinel]

What exactly is the difference?


The annoying nostalgia, the weariness, the lack of excitement, and the fear of getting old are a couple of things. The irony of it all is of course that back then I used to long back to the 90s and my teen years in a similar way..

Little did I know. It's much worse when you have the magical number of 30+ and no hair on your head. :(

[NewLeft]

The annoying nostalgia, the weariness, the lack of excitement, and the fear of getting old are a couple of things. The irony of it all is of course that back then I used to long back to the 90s and my teen years in a similar way..
I miss my days too. I really hope they invent time travel, I'd love to go back to visit.


Little did I know. It's much worse when you have the magical number of 30+ and no hair on your head. :(
Ya.... Alopecia sucks. :( Waking up to a hairy pillowcase.

[#FF0000]

And suddenly I felt like I wanted to scream out loud. I want to go back to that time, to have those people who posted then around again, to just be 6 years younger again.

I sort of know the feeling, though I am much younger. Except I only look back a year or so. I look back and don't miss much of anything because it feels like it's been the same as it always has been. I'm afraid that I'm missing something and losing my chance for it, you know what I mean?

[Sentinel]

I'm afraid that I'm missing something and losing my chance for it, you know what I mean?


Indeed, that's what it's all about, and it gets worse all the time. :) I think it develops to actual anxiety for most people when they are approaching 30, for some reason. Then they learn to cope for it -- or not, I guess.

I guess it's because thats when the marks of ageing start to become visible.

[MustCrushCapitalism]

Not exactly the same situation but i know how you feel especially with the acting like you don't care and don't wanna be around them when all you really want is the opposite. If you lived here in tucson i'd buy you a drink or two or three!
Ah thanks man, glad to know someone else knows what I mean. And damn it I could use the drink lol.


Anyway, it will probably be hard to take this seriously after my previous few posts, but I need some motivation. It feels like I'll never get a girlfriend :( I'm only 17 at the moment, still in the British equivalent of high school for another year-and-a-bit. I know that I definitely won't get a girlfriend before I leave here, that's a certainty. I'm hoping to meet someone special when I go to university but I don't know... I've always been a shy, slightly socially awkward person and I am very introverted :/
I know exactly how you feel, man. I'm as introverted and socially awkward as is humanly possible.


nox the key to finding someone to fuck you is take note of how many y's a girl uses at the end of "hey". if it is four or above then she wants to stampede at your cock head first.
The trueness of this statement is over 9000.

[ed miliband]

The annoying nostalgia, the weariness, the lack of excitement, and the fear of getting old are a couple of things. The irony of it all is of course that back then I used to long back to the 90s and my teen years in a similar way..

Little did I know. It's much worse when you have the magical number of 30+ and no hair on your head. :(


I sort of know the feeling, though I am much younger. Except I only look back a year or so. I look back and don't miss much of anything because it feels like it's been the same as it always has been. I'm afraid that I'm missing something and losing my chance for it, you know what I mean?

i'm only 19 and i'm getting this a lot atm - i'm not depressed about it and if anything i like to sort of wallow in my memories of 3 to 4 years ago but then i get sorta sad

i don't know what it is i miss

[Le Rouge]

nox the key to finding someone to fuck you is take note of how many y's a girl uses at the end of "hey". if it is four or above then she wants to stampede at your cock head first.

Heyyyyyy sexy boy, crash at my place.

[ed miliband]

this is essentially how i feel tho it's about being old not 19:

uDRLW748j68

[Lanky Wanker]

Fuck capitalism, I want a job.

[NewLeft]

Fuck capitalism, I want a job.
Get a job, lazy communist fuck.

[Lanky Wanker]

Get a job, lazy communist fuck.

but i wantz da welfare!!!!!!!!! i dnt give in2 tha system that stealz from meh!!:blackA::reda:!!!1!:blackA:!!

[Le Rouge]

nox the key to finding someone to fuck you is take note of how many y's a girl uses at the end of "hey". If it is between four and five then she wants to stampede at your cock head first. If it is six or more then she is wasted.

Fixed

[NewLeft]

Fixed
heyyy lil rougie, whatss upp ♥ (:

[Le Rouge]

heyyy lil rougie, whatss upp ♥ (:

Fuck my school man. My school's administration declared that students must return in class by next monday even when WE (the students) decided democratically that our strike will continue 'till april 20th.
That means that next monday, we'll block the school's entrance and prevent anybody access to the school. You'll find me on the front line.

[NewLeft]

Fuck my school man. My school's administration declared that students must return in class by next monday even when WE (the students) decided democratically that our strike will continue 'till april 20th.
That means that next monday, we'll block the school's entrance and prevent anybody access to the school. You'll find me on the front line.
Smash the state while you're at it! FUCK CANADA!

[MotherCossack]

Fucking piece of shit internet not posting my goddamn messages then making me retype them. I'm in one of those bad moods where I just wanna blast some slam death metal out of my computer at full volume and plot ways to kill everyone then commit suicide before my earth-destroying bomb goes off and kills all the fluffy animals as well. Alright, maybe not that bad. School on monday, yay... I honestly have no idea how TWO whole weeks went that fast. I just wanna fucking drop out of school and become a cleaner.

aaaahh wanky lanker you are soooo cute.
i love it when i really identify with a post.... cos it has happened to me so many times...and.....
I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL.......BIG TIME!!!!!!!!!!!
FLUFFY,CUDDLY CREATURES OF THE WORLD...... PREPARE TO DIE.
SUICIDAL MANIAC WITH FAULTY HARDWARE COMING THROUGH!!!!!!
BEWARE !!!! I AM VERY CROSS!!!!!!
oh it is the very biggest wind up.... and all the best stuff gets sacrificed at the alter of technology.
Never mind... it will pass.

[Le Rouge]

Smash the state while you're at it! FUCK CANADA!

lol yes. I would if i could. :crying:

[MotherCossack]

Since it has been most likely many years that I have had leukemia, some leukemia cells have been found in my Cerebrospinal Fluid.


Radiation, chemotherapy, drugs. I'm not too excited. I'm actually really depressed.


I have no symptoms. Oh, and my visual problems were not caused by unknown factors, it was due to malpractice done by a surgeon when I got ptosis repair on my eyelids at age eleven. I have been legally blind in both eyes without my glasses and legally blind in my right eye with my glasses ever since. It gets a little annoying, but I got over it around last year (I'm 15). It was not caused by anything else other than a doctor who made a mistake and health insurance that would not pay for me to get treatment in the best optomological hospital in the region, the Will's Eye Institute of Philadelphia.

well comrade. i have to say that you got a seriously rubbish deck of cards.
but you sound seriously strong.
i wish you lots of luck and good treatment.... which is what you deserve.
you have courage and i salute you.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx from me in london

[Rooster]

god damn, I had such a great idea. I was going to invent a range of hot sauces based on communist guys. It was going to be great. I'd have vanilla Stalin flavour, Lenin Lemonade but I couldn't think of one for Marx. Then I thought of one. Hot Karl. I ran home to tell my wife "we're gonna be rich, honey! I invented the hot Karl!". She looked at me strangely and then laughed. I laughed too because I like to seem popular. To this day, I still have no idea what we were laughing about. And my sauce? It never say the light of mass production :(

[Lanky Wanker]

I'd have vanilla Stalin flavour, Lenin Lemonade but I couldn't think of one for Marx. Then I thought of one. Hot Karl

LOL vanilla stalin. We should have a whole thread dedicated to communist sauces. Luxemburg's left lime flavour... har har to me, not.

[Lanky Wanker]

Fuck my school man. My school's administration declared that students must return in class by next monday even when WE (the students) decided democratically that our strike will continue 'till april 20th.
That means that next monday, we'll block the school's entrance and prevent anybody access to the school. You'll find me on the front line.

My little baby is growing into a revolutionary. :D Care to update me on why you're striking?

I'd love to fucking drop out right now. Come on, Boris, find us some more fucking jobs and comb your hair.

[Le Rouge]

My little baby is growing into a revolutionary. :D Care to update me on why you're striking?

I'd love to fucking drop out right now. Come on, Boris, find us some more fucking jobs and comb your hair.

We're striking against a rise in tuition fees.

[Le Rouge]

Our teacher's union supports us by the way.

[NewLeft]

Our teacher's union supports us by the way.
I am doing absolutely nothing this week. I should take the next train to Montreal and march.

[Lanky Wanker]

I'll join you both if it means I don't have to go to school and kill my brain.

[Kitty_Paine]

I generally just skip school and go break windows and drink vodka... :glare:

[Lanky Wanker]

I generally just skip school and go break windows and drink vodka... :glare:

My god, please marry me. I don't care if you look like Kermit, just be my friend.

[Kitty_Paine]

My god, please marry me. I don't care if you look like Kermit, just be my friend.

Do my extramural school activities interest you? I would love to take you along though :lol:

And I certainly don't look like Kermit... so... yeah... lol

[Lanky Wanker]

Do my extramural school activities interest you? I would love to take you along though :lol:

And I certainly don't look like Kermit... so... yeah... lol

Well, change vodka to opiates and I'm up for it. And turn smashing windows into smashing people's faces in, I feel like killing someone right now. Not looking like Kermit is a plus, but it's no biggie.

[Kitty_Paine]

Well, change vodka to opiates and I'm up for it. And turn smashing windows into smashing people's faces in, I feel like killing someone right now. Not looking like Kermit is a plus, but it's no biggie.

Well I enjoy opium and also methadone (synthetic, I know), so I may be able to work with you.

A guy also threw me up against a locker earlier this week so If you would like to come help me smash his face in you've got yourself a deal.

I look a helluva lot unlike kermit, lol

[NewLeft]

Well I enjoy opium and also methadone (synthetic, I know), so I may be able to work with you.

A guy also threw me up against a locker earlier this week so If you would like to come help me smash his face in you've got yourself a deal.

I look a helluva lot unlike kermit, lol
I wanna smash something so bad. Let's find that guy, let's go.

[Ostrinski]

I would marry kermit. He's always so happy

[Lanky Wanker]

I wanna smash something so bad. Let's find that guy, let's go.

NO man don't drag me into this... I meant I wanted to beat up someone weak and innocent. I can't fight for shit, and you know that woman abusers are always strong (or weak and nerdy).

Kitty_Paine, I would like to propose to you.

S7C_5NB4bSU

[Kitty_Paine]

I wanna smash something so bad. Let's find that guy, let's go.

He's a little beafy so bring a few molotovs ;)


I would marry kermit. He's always so happy

I would marry Animal... totally

[Pretty Flaco]

does anybody else live in an area where there are a lot of different accents? sometimes for me something will sound similar but not for somebody else.
like corn and con. they don't sound exactly the same but they sound really similar. but some people really stress the r sound and it makes it sound nothing like con.
the word syrup comes to mind here. some people pronounce it sirrup instead of seerup.
i live in a really middle class suburban area too and not a lot of people here drop the r sound at the end of words or the g sound at the end of words for instance
fucker, pronounced fucka. jumping, pronounced jumpin. i always thought of that as how nerds talked where i used to live.

[Kitty_Paine]

NO man don't drag me into this... I meant I wanted to beat up someone weak and innocent. I can't fight for shit, and you know that woman abusers are always strong (or weak and nerdy).

Kitty_Paine, I would like to propose to you.

S7C_5NB4bSU

Sometimes it's about fighting even though you know you can't win. :)

But yeah, he's a beafy fucker....

I can't believe I watched that whole thing! lol, That's priceless... his semi-fluent english is great. Is this how you really feel? :lol:

[Lanky Wanker]

Sometimes it's about fighting even though you know you can't win. :)

But yeah, he's a beafy fucker....

I can't believe I watched that whole thing! lol, That's priceless... his semi-fluent english is great. Is this how you really feel? :lol:

Yes. :o

[NewLeft]

does anybody else live in an area where there are a lot of different accents? sometimes for me something will sound similar but not for somebody else.
like corn and con. they don't sound exactly the same but they sound really similar. but some people really stress the r sound and it makes it sound nothing like con.
the word syrup comes to mind here. some people pronounce it sirrup instead of seerup.
i live in a really middle class suburban area too and not a lot of people here drop the r sound at the end of words or the g sound at the end of words for instance
fucker, pronounced fucka. jumping, pronounced jumpin. i always thought of that as how nerds talked where i used to live.I'm a nerd and we don't talk like that over here lol


NO man don't drag me into this... I meant I wanted to beat up someone weak and innocent. I can't fight for shit, and you know that woman abusers are always strong (or weak and nerdy).

Kitty_Paine, I would like to propose to you.

S7C_5NB4bSUlol @ proposal


He's a little beafy so bring a few molotovs ;)

I would marry Animal... totally
I'll bring the sickle.

[Pretty Flaco]

people here swear less too. im hard pressed to not swear once in a sentence when i talk.

[NewLeft]

people here swear less too. im hard pressed to not swear once in a sentence when i talk.
might as well swear, cause your name is fuck

[Kitty_Paine]

Yes. :o



I'll bring the sickle.

I'm so lucky to have dirty commie friends like you :)


people here swear less too. im hard pressed to not swear once in a sentence when i talk.

I swear... a lot...

Too much probably... :mellow:

[Lanky Wanker]

I'm so lucky to have dirty commie friends like you :)


Me especially.



I swear... a lot...

Too much probably... :mellow:

one more reason i lurvs u

[freya4]

I haven't posted on this forum in a while, and most of you probably don't know who the hell I am, but I feel like I need some way to deal with what's been on my mind lately.

A couple months ago, one of my best friends came into school with these bruises on her face. She told everyone that she had got them from crashing into a swimming pool wall. Just yesterday, she told me and two of my other friends that the real reason behind the bruises was that her mom had hit her. Now, these weren't some minor scratches or anything. There were literally cuts and scars all over her face, and you can still kind of see them even two months later. With a lot of convincing, my friends and I convinced her to go see the school guidance counselor, and the four of us went there after lunch. The guidance counselor actually seemed kind of annoyed with us. She told us that she would call her mom, which she did, but apparently there was no reply. The guidance counselor told her to wait until after vacation, which is this week for us, to see if things get better. I feel as if she's almost dismissing us or something. And I feel so scared for my friend. Her mom is really strict, and my friends and I have not seen her once out of school for the past year or so. We told her to text, email or call us last night to let us know how she's doing, but she hasn't done anything. I tried texting and messaging her, but she hasn't replied, and now it seems like I won't be able to communicate with her this entire week. I'm so scared, and I feel so guilty that I could have overlooked something so obvious. When my friend was telling us about how her mom hit her, she broke down crying and started calling herself ugly and stupid, and said she wasn't going anywhere in life. This apparently the kind of stuff her mom tells her. And it's not like I didn't know this. On nearly every single one of the few times that I've gone over to my friend's house, her mom has yelled at her in front of my friends and I, sometimes even reducing her to tears. But we didn't think much of it and just assumed her mom was crazy. I feel so bad right now. I feel like an awful person, and at the same time, I feel like there's nothing I can do in this situation. I'm so lost, and I don't know if I'll even be able to sleep tonight, knowing what I do.

[NewLeft]

I haven't posted on this forum in a while, and most of you probably don't know who the hell I am, but I feel like I need some way to deal with what's been on my mind lately.
You did the right thing by telling her to go to the guidance, but the guidance woman mishandled the situation entirely and should be fired. That dumbass calls the mom, what kind of fucking idiot would do that. Telling her to wait it out like it's something that only happened once and not repeatedly. It's a complete misunderstanding of the situation. Either way, you may want to tell your parents about it. You're not an awful person, you're being a good friend.

[00001]

Just got back from a seven mile run. Feels like ecstasy.

[00001]

I haven't posted on this forum in a while, and most of you probably don't know who the hell I am, but I feel like I need some way to deal with what's been on my mind lately.

A couple months ago, one of my best friends came into school with these bruises on her face. She told everyone that she had got them from crashing into a swimming pool wall. Just yesterday, she told me and two of my other friends that the real reason behind the bruises was that her mom had hit her. Now, these weren't some minor scratches or anything. There were literally cuts and scars all over her face, and you can still kind of see them even two months later. With a lot of convincing, my friends and I convinced her to go see the school guidance counselor, and the four of us went there after lunch. The guidance counselor actually seemed kind of annoyed with us. She told us that she would call her mom, which she did, but apparently there was no reply. The guidance counselor told her to wait until after vacation, which is this week for us, to see if things get better. I feel as if she's almost dismissing us or something. And I feel so scared for my friend. Her mom is really strict, and my friends and I have not seen her once out of school for the past year or so. We told her to text, email or call us last night to let us know how she's doing, but she hasn't done anything. I tried texting and messaging her, but she hasn't replied, and now it seems like I won't be able to communicate with her this entire week. I'm so scared, and I feel so guilty that I could have overlooked something so obvious. When my friend was telling us about how her mom hit her, she broke down crying and started calling herself ugly and stupid, and said she wasn't going anywhere in life. This apparently the kind of stuff her mom tells her. And it's not like I didn't know this. On nearly every single one of the few times that I've gone over to my friend's house, her mom has yelled at her in front of my friends and I, sometimes even reducing her to tears. But we didn't think much of it and just assumed her mom was crazy. I feel so bad right now. I feel like an awful person, and at the same time, I feel like there's nothing I can do in this situation. I'm so lost, and I don't know if I'll even be able to sleep tonight, knowing what I do.

Can you maybe go to her house and visit her during break to make sure she is OK?

[NewLeft]

Me especially.
It's not a competition bro, I love you and Kitty equally <3

[Lanky Wanker]

It's not a competition bro, I love you and Kitty equally <3

Motherfucker, shut up.

i w1n da *****ez

[NewLeft]

Motherfucker, shut up.
Love you too Lank.

[Lanky Wanker]

Love you too Lank.

<3

Back to pouring our hearts out now, everyone. Like, in a depressing way, none of this happy shit.

[Nox]

Oi Wanker, shouldn't you be asleep now? :O School is tomorrow!

[00001]

This weekend I have felt like being a loner for some reason. I am actually really enjoying it, though. I love my friends to death, but I feel like I am starting to prefer being by myself more and more, although I don't really know why. I guess it seems like, as I'm getting a bit older, my whole disposition is just sort of changing. Like, I used to go partying and/or clubbing every weekend, and I loved doing it, but in the past maybe nine or tens months, all of that has been gradually losing its appeal, to the point where now I just find that whole scene to be really very boring.

[NewLeft]

This weekend I have felt like being a loner for some reason. I am actually really enjoying it, though. I love my friends to death, but I feel like I am starting to prefer being by myself more and more, although I don't really know why. I guess it seems like, as I'm getting a bit older, my whole disposition is just sort of changing. Like, I used to go partying and/or clubbing every weekend, and I loved doing it, but in the past maybe nine or tens months, all of that has been gradually losing its appeal, to the point where now I just find that whole scene to be really very boring.
I haven't gone clubbing in a long time now, I get what you mean. We used to hit up this place with out fakes every week.. I got tired of the same shit going down. Maybe you're just getting tired of the clubs you're going to and not actually clubbing.

[00001]

Maybe you're just getting tired of the clubs you're going to and not actually clubbing.

I don't think so, actually. I think it is the whole scene.

[#FF0000]

awful situation

Dogg that is terrible. I second bird's advice, tho. See if you can see her during the break. I know what it's like to be in a situation like this, though. I had an acquaintance during high school who was just like the nicest person I knew who always had this v. happy but v. peaceful demeanor. She was up there in our class rankings and all that -- but apparently her father didn't like that she was only 4th in the class. I remember the next year she came in, hair cut shorter than she's ever had it cut before, and she never really seemed happy again. She just looked exhausted and kept a blank expression that just made me uncomfortable. I saw her for a few days in the beginning of that year, and never again. I haven't heard anything about her from our numerous mutual friends, either. Makes me extremely sad when I remember her. I hope she's okay.

[#FF0000]

i have a little panic-attack whenever I read the words 'post-college' now. seems like everyone talks about 'college years' like it's some time full of adventure and goin out and a time where people have these experience and make FRIENDS THAT LAST FOREVER and shit but i dunno.

i'm nearing the end of those and it all seemed like a lot of nothing to me.

[black magick hustla]

i went ona first day today with a really cute black metal chick. i went dutch though. apparently some people feel really strongly about dudes paying for shit. man if someone rejects me because i went dutch i rpolly dont want anything to do with her cuz she is either a gold digger/looking for a provider which fuck if i am or like really oldskool and believes real life is the notebook or some shit i can't tolerate that shit and i rather jerk off incontrolably for a month than date someone like that

[black magick hustla]

ill make u laugh till it hurts thats enough i dont need to pay for ur bullshit

[Os Cangaceiros]

Urgh need to make something of my life. That's the conclusion I came to last night during a drug-and-alcohol binge (it was recreational, though, I'm not a drug addict or anything lolololol :unsure: ) Anyway, my friend and I were talking about how our generation, as personified by the two of us, were working these menial jobs, just wasting our potential basically, and the future looks kind of grim for us. In the USA and the developed world, the future has continually looked up for most of the latter half of the 20th century, with some hiccups now and then. But now I think we've all gotten the collective realization that it's going to peak and we're all gonna be screwed.

I think the curse of my generation (or some of my generation, anyway) is looking back at the experiences our parents and then looking at our own achievements. My mother was thrown out of her house when she was 15 and worked as a waitress/nurse for a good part of her life before entering the fishing industry. Her and my father moved to a place thousands of miles away from where they'd previously lived, to a place where they knew no one and had nothing, and achieved success. I admire that on some level, I can barely take care of myself. Part of it has to do with the ethic and redemptive power of "hard work", which I admittedly hate (the whole cultural notion and idolization of "work", not work as it's casually understood), but still to go from being broke and a nobody to a respected individual within your occupation takes some effort which I probably don't have.

[kashkin]

i have a little panic-attack whenever I read the words 'post-college' now. seems like everyone talks about 'college years' like it's some time full of adventure and goin out and a time where people have these experience and make FRIENDS THAT LAST FOREVER and shit but i dunno.

i'm nearing the end of those and it all seemed like a lot of nothing to me.

Exactly, I get this all the time. University is a place where you'll meet new people, make new friends and connections that will last a lifetime! I haven't made any friends at uni, the only people I regularly hang out with are comrades.

[Rooster]

I would marry kermit. He's always so happy

57ta7mkgrOU

[#FF0000]

Exactly, I get this all the time. University is a place where you'll meet new people, make new friends and connections that will last a lifetime! I haven't made any friends at uni, the only people I regularly hang out with are comrades.

Yeah, p. much them or people I used to know in high school.

[Nox]

This weekend I have felt like being a loner for some reason. I am actually really enjoying it, though. I love my friends to death, but I feel like I am starting to prefer being by myself more and more, although I don't really know why. I guess it seems like, as I'm getting a bit older, my whole disposition is just sort of changing. Like, I used to go partying and/or clubbing every weekend, and I loved doing it, but in the past maybe nine or tens months, all of that has been gradually losing its appeal, to the point where now I just find that whole scene to be really very boring.

I think it's part of growing up. The same thing happened to me except around age 15.

[Nox]

I might change my surname to Marx when I'm older just for banter

[MotherCossack]

my kids are getting all big.... they are you guys but different[ well apart from the kernal... who is you guys, one of]
they get more and more obstacleatious ['i made that word up.... it means difficult and unhelpful and unwilling and uncooperative]
i mean this girl still wants to have fun.... but it seems that it is the wrong sort of fun or maybe it is just that fun shared by teenagers and parents is just not allowed.
so i am sad.......
have to find some friends my own age i suppose.....
never was very good at that.....
not when i was younger anyway....
maybe i was too wierd then....
i had better try again.... now i am old and past it... nearly.....
less of a threat maybe... it might work,.....
but how..... where to begin.....?????

[MotherCossack]

I haven't posted on this forum in a while, and most of you probably don't know who the hell I am, but I feel like I need some way to deal with what's been on my mind lately.

A couple months ago, one of my best friends came into school with these bruises on her face. She told everyone that she had got them from crashing into a swimming pool wall. Just yesterday, she told me and two of my other friends that the real reason behind the bruises was that her mom had hit her. Now, these weren't some minor scratches or anything. There were literally cuts and scars all over her face, and you can still kind of see them even two months later. With a lot of convincing, my friends and I convinced her to go see the school guidance counselor, and the four of us went there after lunch. The guidance counselor actually seemed kind of annoyed with us. She told us that she would call her mom, which she did, but apparently there was no reply. The guidance counselor told her to wait until after vacation, which is this week for us, to see if things get better. I feel as if she's almost dismissing us or something. And I feel so scared for my friend. Her mom is really strict, and my friends and I have not seen her once out of school for the past year or so. We told her to text, email or call us last night to let us know how she's doing, but she hasn't done anything. I tried texting and messaging her, but she hasn't replied, and now it seems like I won't be able to communicate with her this entire week. I'm so scared, and I feel so guilty that I could have overlooked something so obvious. When my friend was telling us about how her mom hit her, she broke down crying and started calling herself ugly and stupid, and said she wasn't going anywhere in life. This apparently the kind of stuff her mom tells her. And it's not like I didn't know this. On nearly every single one of the few times that I've gone over to my friend's house, her mom has yelled at her in front of my friends and I, sometimes even reducing her to tears. But we didn't think much of it and just assumed her mom was crazy. I feel so bad right now. I feel like an awful person, and at the same time, I feel like there's nothing I can do in this situation. I'm so lost, and I don't know if I'll even be able to sleep tonight, knowing what I do.

jesus h christ what is this fucking dark ages shit that they are chucking at you poor fuckers.?

man!!!! i wish i could get a load of lolly and fly over there and rescue you from a mad fucking house full of repression and hypocracy.
the mum needs to be fucking whipped with a seriously slick fuck off whip.!!!!
i would happily do it!!!!
please can i!!!!

listen.... parents who take their own stinky shit and smear it all over their own kids...... like they, soon, won't have enough of their own to deal with, make me heave!!!!!

listen again...... i have a heap of shit myself, some call it baggage.... whatever.... it does not do to spill ANY OF IT ON YOUR CHILDREN !!!!!!
YOU HAVE TO PROTECT THEM FROM YOUR OWN GARBAGE.
IF YOU DO NOT...... YOU BECOME AN ABUSER.... INSTANTLY.
I have therapy to deal with my issues...... i do not pay... the NHS pays.
i wish to protect my children ,.... give them a good start....
not offload my shite on them , like perhaps my parents did...
i want to end the cycle of abuse not perpetuate and even extend it.!!!!

your friend deserves every bit of support as do you.
That APOLOGY FOR A COUNSELLOR NEEDS TO BE AT BEST SACKED AND PROBABLY IMPRISONED FOR CONDONING THE SERIOUS ABUSE THAT HAS BEEN VISITED ON YOUR POOR FRIENd.
trust me.... there has been a number of violations here....in england i would like to believe that this young person would have all the support she needs.... it is a difficult situation, i know, and it is not always good for kids to split up a family.... but this awful parent needs to be told in big clear letters
"STOP ABUSING YOUR CHILD!!!!! SORT OUT YOUR OWN DIRT YOU AWFUL SELFISH WOMAN BEFORE YOU RUIN HER LIFE!!!"


i am so impressed with your concern for your friend... you are so doing the right thing.... try to keep in touch with her and find a way to tell as many people as you can.... there must be someone in america whlo can spell child abuse and recognise it when it bites them on the bum!!!

[Lanky Wanker]

I hate my internet... I hate retyping all these fucking messages it doesn't wanna send the first time around.

Anyways, after difficulty sleeping last night with all this shit about life sticking in my head I'm feeling better now. I've been looking at flats and shit with my friend(s) I'm gonna move in with so I actually have something to look forward to, even if it isn't gonna be any time too soon. Anyone need a male prostitute? I'm ugly but I give good licky licky. I could do with the extra money to help me save up for a deposit and all that. I joke, I joke... though that would be fun.

And as a side note, beer only tastes good when it's cold as the fridge. :cool:

[Kitty_Paine]

It's not a competition bro, I love you and Kitty equally <3

Tha fuck is this NewLeft? What is this treachery? You owe your love and loyalty to me and to me alone.


Motherfucker, shut up.

i w1n da *****ez

You're refering to NewLeft as the "*****e"... right?!

[Landsharks eat metal]

I'm tired of this bullshit. I feel like I can't do anything without being criticized/judged. If it weren't for the Internet, I'm pretty sure I would just curl up in my room and never leave it again until I'd manage to finally die.

[Zukunftsmusik]

I'm tired of this bullshit. I feel like I can't do anything without being criticized/judged. If it weren't for the Internet, I'm pretty sure I would just curl up in my room and never leave it again until I'd manage to finally die.


looking for hope in the dark

keep looking, LEM. Please.



And I don't judge you. But then again I'm the internet. I wish I could not judge you IRL, if that would help.

[Landsharks eat metal]

Honestly, the "Would you date a trans person" thread makes me want to shoot myself. I'll be finally thinking of some way I imagine I may be able to be happy in the future, and then I remember some of the things posted in there by leftists, realizing that the general public would be a lot less sympathetic, and thinking goddammit, it's just going to get worse, isn't it. Because even though living at home sucks ass, I'm also somewhat sheltered from some of the harmful parts of the real world.

(And also, my mother mentioned that she thought if I were to move out of the house now, I'd wind up in a shelter OR IN JAIL. I'm not sure how serious she was, given that she was using it as a hypothetical for a discussion on religion we were having, but that still stings.)

[NewLeft]

Honestly, the "Would you date a trans person" thread makes me want to shoot myself. I'll be finally thinking of some way I imagine I may be able to be happy in the future, and then I remember some of the things posted in there by leftists, realizing that the general public would be a lot less sympathetic, and thinking goddammit, it's just going to get worse, isn't it. Because even though living at home sucks ass, I'm also somewhat sheltered from some of the harmful parts of the real world.
LEM, leftists are so full of shit, don't think of them as more sympathetic because they really aren't. If I were a girl, then I would date you.


(And also, my mother mentioned that she thought if I were to move out of the house now, I'd wind up in a shelter OR IN JAIL. I'm not sure how serious she was, given that she was using it as a hypothetical for a discussion on religion we were having, but that still stings.)
You have a fair amount of control over that, you're not going to end up in a shelter or jail because your mom thinks you will.

[Lanky Wanker]

LEM, leftists are so full of shit, don't think of them as more sympathetic because they really aren't.

Well most leftists THINK they're sympathetic and totally anti-discrimination, but usually end up biting their own tails at some point. Anyway, given that it's a question regarding people's individual sexuality I don't see the question as particularly bad, but to present it in that way isn't very sensitive.

[NewLeft]

Well most leftists THINK they're sympathetic and totally anti-discrimination, but usually end up biting their own tails at some point. Given that it's a question regarding people's individual sexuality I don't see the question as particularly bad, but to present it in that way isn't very sensitive.
Out of the mouth of ginger hater.. :rolleyes:

[Kitty_Paine]

:p I'd have to agree with you two, seeing as how I've been flammed on a few occasions for arguing against the random murders of cops and soldiers (I'm all for violent revolution but I can't get behind this). Not to mention I found it shocking how many people here considered cheating on their significant other to be 100% okay. Overall the level of selfishness and individualism here, and the lack of empathy for one's fellow "man", is shocking to me sometimes considering how community based communism is. But I dunno, lol.

[Zukunftsmusik]

Well most leftists THINK they're sympathetic and totally anti-discrimination, but usually end up biting their own tails at some point. Anyway, given that it's a question regarding people's individual sexuality I don't see the question as particularly bad, but to present it in that way isn't very sensitive.

I looked up the thread and I don't find the the question bad. It's the things that are written there. Seriously, some people who call themselves revolutionary surely have some reactionary views (not naming names, but to quote one of them: (answer to the question: do you decide someone's gender by looking at their chromosomes with an x-ray?) "No, but I would")

[NewLeft]

:p I'd have to agree with you two, seeing as how I've been flammed on a few occasions for arguing against the random murders of cops and soldiers (I'm all for violent revolution but I can't get behind this). Not to mention I found it shocking how many people here considered cheating on their significant other to be 100% okay. Overall the level of selfishness and individualism here, and the lack of empathy for one's fellow "man", is shocking to me sometimes considering how community based communism is. But I dunno, lol.
They don't actually believe that, they just want to seem like they're 100% rational anti-moralists materialist robots devoid of human.. anything..

[Kitty_Paine]

They don't actually believe that, they just want to seem like they're 100% rational anti-moralists materialist robots devoid of human.. anything..

This is what I have often theorized, thank you, lol.

[Lanky Wanker]

(Late reply on this one, my apologies)



You're refering to NewLeft as the "*****e"... right?!

Uh... of course, yeah. :D


:p I'd have to agree with you two, seeing as how I've been flammed on a few occasions for arguing against the random murders of cops and soldiers (I'm all for violent revolution but I can't get behind this). Not to mention I found it shocking how many people here considered cheating on their significant other to be 100% okay. Overall the level of selfishness and individualism here, and the lack of empathy for one's fellow "man", is shocking to me sometimes considering how community based communism is. But I dunno, lol.

Yeah, people do get overly revolutionary here. People either side with them too much or hate them too much. "i iz communist anarchy p3rs0n so i make da c0pz die!!!!!!!!"

[Vyacheslav Brolotov]

I'm so depressed. I just want to die (not really, but I just don't want to keep living like this). I was crying. I am so pathetic.

[NewLeft]

I'm so depressed. I just want to die (not really, but I just don't want to keep living like this). I was crying. I am so pathetic.
Let it all out Comrade, you're not pathetic for crying. It's healthy to relieve yourself.. Tackle hug.http://www.sherv.net/cm/emo/hug/tackle.gif
Anything on your mind? Pour your heart out.

[Vyacheslav Brolotov]

I rather not pour my heart out. I am just über-depressed. I think that that depression that I had when I was younger is coming back with a vengeance.

[Bright Banana Beard]

Have to let it out and move on. Now back to party, drinking, and many dance. :-) damn i never feel this alive.

Back patting on you all.

[MotherCossack]

I'm so depressed. I just want to die (not really, but I just don't want to keep living like this). I was crying. I am so pathetic.

i wasn't sure if thanking you was appropriate... but i did anyway.... but thought i'd add a little note of support....
you are so, yes, so not pathetic...... you should see me.... mum of four.... 44.... wrinkled before my age.... premature lack of teeth.... ravished and spoilt ex-beauty... almost spent.... delapidated... yet un-finished... so-disappointed... yet almost past it.... here i am.... sending you my undivided well wishes....
you are so young.... i wish i could help..... if i could i would....
life is such a *****..... such a cruel *****..... i don't know how i would bear it if any of this happened to my 4.
maybe the only way to proceed is to take little steps... one at a time... and just get one out of the way at a time.... and feel free to tell us anything at any time.... telling people seems to help...right?

[gorillafuck]

Well I enjoy opium and also methadone (synthetic, I know), so I may be able to work with you.yeah I live in ancient China too

[Per Levy]

I'm so depressed. I just want to die (not really, but I just don't want to keep living like this). I was crying. I am so pathetic.

anyparticular reasonfor the depression(if you want to share something so personal) or "just" a depression out of nowhere/illness?

had depressions too back then still do nowadays from time to time. a little advice, cutting yourself leaves scars, oh yes. only advice i could give you that wont hurt, sleep, play a videogame you enjoy or where you can just fuck things over in(saints row 2, gta or whatever) or watch stuff that could make you happy(loony toon cartoons maybe). in general do stuff that keeps your mind occupied with something.

[Pretty Flaco]

the amount of safety where i live right now is really great. i can go outside at night and have absolutely no worries. i can walk down the street too and not have to worry about getting chased, jumped, or stuck. i remember when i started going to middle school id walk to the ymca after school every day because it was right down the block. but there were always these 3 kids id have to pass and they used to chase me. i remember in the 6th grade i hadnt hit my growth spurt yet and so i was one of the smallest kids i knew. but because of them i practiced running and i started playing more soccer and bball so i could get better at running. but by the end of the year i had started to grow and by the beginning of my 7th i had grown over a foot taller. i got a lot of tips on fighting from my uncle and a friend of mine who started boxing and he helped learn me boxing.

in 7th grade i started fighting back against the kids even though at first i would still get my ass handed back to me because i was up 3 against 1. but by 8th grade i was a lot larger than all of them and i would go with my friend brandon to his house (down the same route) and they stopped messing with me. i remember one day me and him searched out the kid who gave me the worst time, his name was jesse, and we beat the living shit outta him cus we thought it would be funny. it felt good at the time but i regret it now. revenge is bitter sweet.

those kids gave me probably one of the most embarrassing times in my life. they were chasing me and i tried to round a corner real fast by jumping over a trashcan that was in the way. i cleared it... up until the very end when i grazed the tip of the can. it was enough to make me fall and the trash can to fall on top of me. it was right in front of some little shop and it made some people laugh at me. when the kids rounded the corner they all took a few kicks on me and then jetted. it really hurt and nobody came to help me.

i just felt like sharing that story. i probably didn't write it out very good. oh well

[Kitty_Paine]

the amount of safety where i live right now is really great. i can go outside at night and have absolutely no worries. i can walk down the street too and not have to worry about getting chased, jumped, or stuck. i remember when i started going to middle school id walk to the ymca after school every day because it was right down the block. but there were always these 3 kids id have to pass and they used to chase me. i remember in the 6th grade i hadnt hit my growth spurt yet and so i was one of the smallest kids i knew. but because of them i practiced running and i started playing more soccer and bball so i could get better at running. but by the end of the year i had started to grow and by the beginning of my 7th i had grown over a foot taller. i got a lot of tips on fighting from my uncle and a friend of mine who started boxing and he helped learn me boxing.

in 7th grade i started fighting back against the kids even though at first i would still get my ass handed back to me because i was up 3 against 1. but by 8th grade i was a lot larger than all of them and i would go with my friend brandon to his house (down the same route) and they stopped messing with me. i remember one day me and him searched out the kid who gave me the worst time, his name was jesse, and we beat the living shit outta him cus we thought it would be funny. it felt good at the time but i regret it now. revenge is bitter sweet.

those kids gave me probably one of the most embarrassing times in my life. they were chasing me and i tried to round a corner real fast by jumping over a trashcan that was in the way. i cleared it... up until the very end when i grazed the tip of the can. it was enough to make me fall and the trash can to fall on top of me. it was right in front of some little shop and it made some people laugh at me. when the kids rounded the corner they all took a few kids on me and then jetted. it really hurt and nobody came to help me.

i just felt like sharing that story. i probably didn't write it out very good. oh well

I can actually empathize with you quite a lot. My middle school years were quite similar. A lot of bullying, teasing and sometimes even getting assaulted. It wasn't until about 9th grade that I started getting mean and fighting back. Not to mention I developed a lot the summer after 8th grade, eliminating some previous topics of teasing. Most of it was because I was poor though. But anyway, once I started to fight back everyone left me alone. I was pretty much a normal kid by the 10th grade.

And now no one fucks with Kitty! lol

But I'm glad that you shared that. It's always comforting, in a way, to find someone who has suffered in the same way you have. I dunno, lol.

[Nox]

the amount of safety where i live right now is really great. i can go outside at night and have absolutely no worries. i can walk down the street too and not have to worry about getting chased, jumped, or stuck. i remember when i started going to middle school id walk to the ymca after school every day because it was right down the block. but there were always these 3 kids id have to pass and they used to chase me. i remember in the 6th grade i hadnt hit my growth spurt yet and so i was one of the smallest kids i knew. but because of them i practiced running and i started playing more soccer and bball so i could get better at running. but by the end of the year i had started to grow and by the beginning of my 7th i had grown over a foot taller. i got a lot of tips on fighting from my uncle and a friend of mine who started boxing and he helped learn me boxing.

in 7th grade i started fighting back against the kids even though at first i would still get my ass handed back to me because i was up 3 against 1. but by 8th grade i was a lot larger than all of them and i would go with my friend brandon to his house (down the same route) and they stopped messing with me. i remember one day me and him searched out the kid who gave me the worst time, his name was jesse, and we beat the living shit outta him cus we thought it would be funny. it felt good at the time but i regret it now. revenge is bitter sweet.

those kids gave me probably one of the most embarrassing times in my life. they were chasing me and i tried to round a corner real fast by jumping over a trashcan that was in the way. i cleared it... up until the very end when i grazed the tip of the can. it was enough to make me fall and the trash can to fall on top of me. it was right in front of some little shop and it made some people laugh at me. when the kids rounded the corner they all took a few kicks on me and then jetted. it really hurt and nobody came to help me.

i just felt like sharing that story. i probably didn't write it out very good. oh well

I can relate to you on that, I kicked the shit out of one of the kids who bullied me and although at the time it felt great, I really regret it now because he was very close to being seriously hurt (I kneed him in the head) and he apparently got bullied at his new school (he moved to a different school a week before the fight happened)

And I also know from personal experience how awful the bystander effect can be, when that kid bullied me it was almost always in front of my classmates or his friends :/

[00001]

About to do another six or seven mile run, tryna get psyched up.

[Pretty Flaco]

I grew up in a trailer until i was 12 and then i lived in a 2 bedroom apartment a block down the street with my 6 other family members until we moved away. my clothes were all hand me downs until i was 14 and i bought myself some decent clothes. the best shirt i had, my church shirt, my grandma had bought for me from a yardsale. those kids that chased me new exactly where i was from. even though they werent from anywhere much better they used to call me garbage pale, trashman, oscar the grouch, etc. they called themselves stick up kids and theyd usually try to jack peoples shit but i never had anything to take, which they would joke about. when i turned 14 almost all the money i had started going to clothes. i bought the nicest ones i could get but i was smart about it and bought it all when it was on clearance. in all honesty i used to shoplift some here and there too. i would always hit target or walmart for that because i had a system for copping clothes. i feel ashamed to tell most people here that i used to steal a lot.

[gorillafuck]

Dead from Mayhem was beaten so badly by classmates as a kid that he was dead for a little while, and it's thought that after that he had cotard delusion (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cotard_delusion)

[PC LOAD LETTER]

Dead from Mayhem was beaten so badly by classmates as a kid that he was dead for a little while, and it's thought that after that he had cotard delusion (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cotard_delusion)
Isn't that the guy whose post-suicide photo was used as an album cover

[Vyacheslav Brolotov]

I don't know how to pour my heart out anymore, that how depressed I am. :crying:

[PC LOAD LETTER]

I don't know how to pour my heart out anymore, that how depressed I am. :crying:
Have you tried running? When I'm feeling really down I start exercising like mad. It helps. I mean it's no cure or anything, but it helps.

[gorillafuck]

Isn't that the guy whose post-suicide photo was used as an album coveryeah.

[Lanky Wanker]

Isn't that the guy whose post-suicide photo was used as an album cover

Yep...

(not for the squeamish)

http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/en/thumb/5/59/DawnOfTheBlackHearts.jpg/220px-DawnOfTheBlackHearts.jpg

[00001]

In other news, I had a dream last night that I had sex with Bill Clinton on the side of a bathtub. :unsure:

[MotherCossack]

Since it has been most likely many years that I have had leukemia, some leukemia cells have been found in my Cerebrospinal Fluid.


Radiation, chemotherapy, drugs. I'm not too excited. I'm actually really depressed.


I have no symptoms. Oh, and my visual problems were not caused by unknown factors, it was due to malpractice done by a surgeon when I got ptosis repair on my eyelids at age eleven. I have been legally blind in both eyes without my glasses and legally blind in my right eye with my glasses ever since. It gets a little annoying, but I got over it around last year (I'm 15). It was not caused by anything else other than a doctor who made a mistake and health insurance that would not pay for me to get treatment in the best optomological hospital in the region, the Will's Eye Institute of Philadelphia.


I'm so depressed. I just want to die (not really, but I just don't want to keep living like this). I was crying. I am so pathetic.


Let it all out Comrade, you're not pathetic for crying. It's healthy to relieve yourself.. Tackle hug.http://www.sherv.net/cm/emo/hug/tackle.gif
Anything on your mind? Pour your heart out.


I rather not pour my heart out. I am just über-depressed. I think that that depression that I had when I was younger is coming back with a vengeance.


anyparticular reasonfor the depression(if you want to share something so personal) or "just" a depression out of nowhere/illness?

had depressions too back then still do nowadays from time to time. a little advice, cutting yourself leaves scars, oh yes. only advice i could give you that wont hurt, sleep, play a videogame you enjoy or where you can just fuck things over in(saints row 2, gta or whatever) or watch stuff that could make you happy(loony toon cartoons maybe). in general do stuff that keeps your mind occupied with something.

listen up .i know this is a lot of quotes.
but right now i am trying to give our good friend the comrade a bit of support.
he has bared his soul on this thread ..... and as you can see.... there is some serious shit being dumped in his direction.

so i kind of thought it would be good if we all dont keep asking him to spell this crap out.... unless he wants to, that is.... if it helps*go for it.... but if not......it would be nice if as many of us as possible remember for more than a day that he is down but not out.

as for me.... i hope i am not adding to your shite... little bloke/comrade commistar....just say what you want.... we will be over here listening.... cos we feel for you.... [me and the kernal anyway.... he is shy of this stuff but it was him that told me...i know he is rooting for you etc etc ]
anyway keep us posted.... if you want.... write total gibberish... if you want .... just rant .....if it helps...whatever...
say nothing.... whatever .... we will get that you are in a hole... and stuff...
if i could do more i would....

[Landsharks eat metal]

I feel sick when I think about the fact that I am alive, that I have to keep living if I can't ever manage to kill myself.

Shit gets worse, not better, and I think I've forgotten how to be happy for any significant amount of time.

[Nox]

I grew up in a trailer until i was 12 and then i lived in a 2 bedroom apartment a block down the street with my 6 other family members until we moved away. my clothes were all hand me downs until i was 14 and i bought myself some decent clothes. the best shirt i had, my church shirt, my grandma had bought for me from a yardsale. those kids that chased me new exactly where i was from. even though they werent from anywhere much better they used to call me garbage pale, trashman, oscar the grouch, etc. they called themselves stick up kids and theyd usually try to jack peoples shit but i never had anything to take, which they would joke about. when i turned 14 almost all the money i had started going to clothes. i bought the nicest ones i could get but i was smart about it and bought it all when it was on clearance. in all honesty i used to shoplift some here and there too. i would always hit target or walmart for that because i had a system for copping clothes. i feel ashamed to tell most people here that i used to steal a lot.

That's another thing I've noticed, most of the cases of bullying I know of were from rich to poor. I've been bullied by 2 different kids before and both of them were very rich, both of their families were bourgeois. One of my friends was bullied really bad by the same kids and a few others too.

As for stealing, I used to steal sweets from Tesco A LOT when I was in year 9/10 (I stopped because I got a reprimand for something totally unrelated), I figure I must have stolen at least £1000 worth of sweets - I stole a few quids worth almost every day for nearly 2 years, sometimes I went overboard and stole like £20 worth of pick n mix or something like that. I have no idea why I stole, I didn't need the stuff I was stealing and I certainly wasn't doing it to show off (only one of my friends knew what I did) and it wasn't for political reasons (I wasn't a communist then), I guess I just enjoyed taking the free stuff without having to feel guilt or suffer consequences*

*For the first month or so I was worried about what would happen if I got caught, then I got caught and the security guard just took the stuff and told me to leave, after that I was no longer worried about being caught, and funnily enough that was the only time I ever did get caught.

[Landsharks eat metal]

I want to stab myself. In the heart.

[Nox]

I want to stab myself. In the heart.

Care to share what's bothering you?



On another note: I also want to stab myself in the heart because I know that the kids who bullied me in high school are going to be much more wealthy than me because they will just take over their parents' businesses.

[Lanky Wanker]

Looking for jobs as I'll probably fail my A-levels in May and if I do I won't waste another year on this tripe. All the jobs I see require "good communication skills"... yay for me, I just absolutely love communicating with people (not). And on top of that they all require experience, of course. Fucking parents could just walk into a job as soon as they finished their GCSEs, but oooh no, we have to go to university and have 3 years work experience to get a job as a part-time cleaner.

[Nox]

Looking for jobs as I'll probably fail my A-levels in May and if I do I won't waste another year on this tripe. All the jobs I see require "good communication skills"... yay for me, I just absolutely love communicating with people (not). And on top of that they all require experience, of course. Fucking parents could just walk into a job as soon as they finished their GCSEs, but oooh no, we have to go to university and have 3 years work experience to get a job as a part-time cleaner.

Haha yeah, that's exactly why I plan on going to university, and why I plan on lying on my CV about experience. ;)

PS: I bunked off on the first day back, couldn't be bothered to go in :(

[Landsharks eat metal]

Care to share what's bothering you?
I just don't see why it's worth it fighting through all the bullshit I need to deal with in order to have any sort of good life, especially since it's probably never going to happen anyway

[black magick hustla]

why?

[Landsharks eat metal]

why?

I'm too shy to talk to most people even if I want to, and me being transgender and a leftist doesn't help me have people like me... I've had people randomly not liking me my whole life and my parents don't believe me that I'm actually being honest about myself and not just making up a bunch of shit for attention and I can't do anything on my own and I still have to live with them for at least another year, and things my father says to me make me want to kill myself but I can't say anything or they'll make me go back to the hospital. That's basically it...

[ellipsis]

Solidarity, LEM. Your stuggle only deepens my resolve to fight hetero-normative patriarchy and hierarchies in general.

[Lanky Wanker]

Haha yeah, that's exactly why I plan on going to university, and why I plan on lying on my CV about experience. ;)

PS: I bunked off on the first day back, couldn't be bothered to go in :(

I don't think there's much point in me writing a CV, I'll have like 3 things to tell them. "I did work experience for 2 weeks with school because I had to, I like to work hard (lie) and uh... yeah I like this job so hire me."

I didn't go in today either, I couldn't sleep last night so I used that as my excuse. :cool: Only one lesson tomorrow though so that's good, but of course I'd still rather have no lessons.

[NewLeft]

I feel like a jerk.. You know that girl who I was flirting with before? Well she was crying today because she thought I would ask her out to prom. :unsure:

[Luc]

I feel like a jerk.. You know that girl who I was flirting with before? Well she was crying today because she thought I would ask her out to prom. :unsure:

huh? :huh: Can you give more details?

edit: your not a jerk for not wanting to go to prom :) (I assume that the reason, right?) if you didn't already just say it's not her it prom and maybe you two could make arrangements for the prom day (like a date instead of going to prom) :unsure:

[Pretty Flaco]

That's another thing I've noticed, most of the cases of bullying I know of were from rich to poor. I've been bullied by 2 different kids before and both of them were very rich, both of their families were bourgeois. One of my friends was bullied really bad by the same kids and a few others too.


they weren't rich at all. one of them lived in the apartment complex i moved into and the others lived in houses a few blocks down. they were poor kids too. they just liked to have something to be better than, trailer trash.

[gorillafuck]

That's another thing I've noticed, most of the cases of bullying I know of were from rich to poor.this is not representative of bullying in general.

[Nox]

I don't think there's much point in me writing a CV, I'll have like 3 things to tell them. "I did work experience for 2 weeks with school because I had to, I like to work hard (lie) and uh... yeah I like this job so hire me."

I didn't go in today either, I couldn't sleep last night so I used that as my excuse. :cool: Only one lesson tomorrow though so that's good, but of course I'd still rather have no lessons.

Haha yeah, I haven't got much to show off either. Poor you, having to do it for 2 weeks - I only had to do it for 1 week and I spent that whole week playing with kids... It's not as bad as it sounds, I was a teaching assistant at the local primary school ;)

I also only have one lesson tomorrow - the dreaded maths. I am without a shadow of a doubt going to drop it after AS level. I HATE it so much. I've bunked off about 1/4 of the lessons this year, haven't done any of the homework, hate one of the teachers, don't really like the class, and find it so boring. I don't even know why I took it in the first place.

I actually hate Revleft & Marxism. After discovering them I have lost all motivation to do well in school, all motivation to go to university, all motivation to get a job, and all motivation to do anything -.- :D


I feel like a jerk.. You know that girl who I was flirting with before? Well she was crying today because she thought I would ask her out to prom. :unsure:

Explain to her your reasons for not going to prom :)


this is not representative of bullying in general.

From my experience that is the general trend. All of the 'bullies' at my school were from bourgeois or at least wealthy families, and almost all of the victims were from much poorer backgrounds (such as myself & my friend)

[gorillafuck]

From my experience that is the general trend. All of the 'bullies' at my school were from bourgeois or at least wealthy families, and almost all of the victims were from much poorer backgrounds (such as myself & my friend)from my observations it's not.

[Ele'ill]

I'm hungry.

[TheGodlessUtopian]

I'm hungry.

So am I.... I am going to make a pizza.... *walks off with grumbling tummy*

[Hermes]

Am I the only one who doesn't really understand the point of the day of silence?

I mean, instead of not speaking, why not speak out against it? And yes, I understand that silence is a form of action, but in this instance it really doesn't accomplish anything. It has symbolism, sure, but no real power.

[Nox]

from my observations it's not.

Perhaps it's just a coincidence. The people who went to my school were either "upper middle class" or working class (me) and the bullying in almost all cases only went in one direction.

[NewLeft]

Am I the only one who doesn't really understand the point of the day of silence?

I mean, instead of not speaking, why not speak out against it? And yes, I understand that silence is a form of action, but in this instance it really doesn't accomplish anything. It has symbolism, sure, but no real power.
It's to make those annoying LGBT people shut up..
But really that comparison reeks of conservative..

[TheGodlessUtopian]

Am I the only one who doesn't really understand the point of the day of silence?

I mean, instead of not speaking, why not speak out against it? And yes, I understand that silence is a form of action, but in this instance it really doesn't accomplish anything. It has symbolism, sure, but no real power.

It is a low level action. Usually a student activist will use such a day to create an event at school and attempt to get youth who normally joke at the expense of Queers to register and remain silent. I see it as a means to an end; during the course of creating the event and rallying support there willl be plenty of talk and awareness rising.

There are other applications in other facets of society but student activism is the primary event here.

[Vyacheslav Brolotov]

I just fell asleep for 2 hours, but now I only have 3 hours to study for large French, Math, and English exams and also do some homework. It's 8PM where I live. Great.

[Pretty Flaco]

Perhaps it's just a coincidence. The people who went to my school were either "upper middle class" or working class (me) and the bullying in almost all cases only went in one direction.

in my experiences urban poor are far more prone to violent behavior than suburban middle class in the USA.

it seems like right about now most of my good friends have got some major problems, be it self confidence, being pregnant, going to court, having somebody mess with them, etc. everybody's fucked up

[NewLeft]

Just wanted to get this out of me.

The one thing holding me back from going to college is my worries.. I am worried about the safety of my family. I am not sure if that is a normal worry or not.