Pour Your Heart Out XI

[Ele'ill]

Watching 'my so called life' again for the first time in years is intense. It's actually not a bad show. I love it.

[Le Rouge]

A NEW THREAD FINALLY! :cool:

Edit: I'm First Again!

[NewLeft]

I think I used to watch reruns of that show with my babysitter. :crying:


A NEW THREAD FINALLY! a :cool:
FUCK YOU I WANTED TO BE FIRST.

[Luc]

You sick fuck! we almost acheived immortality :crying:






first page:cool: this ones to 2000 cheers

god I hope maril knows I'm joking with the "sick fuck" but then again that was pouring my heart out :p

[Le Rouge]

I finally fixed my biggest error when seducing a girl; Physical contact.

It feels good to know that she loves me. :)
For the first time in many months, i went to sleep happy, and woke up happy. :cool:

[NewLeft]

I finally fixed my biggest error when seducing a girl; Physical contact.

It feels good to know that she loves me. :)
For the first time in many months, i went to sleep happy, and woke up happy. :cool:
You're really excelling in the process of female attainment.

[Le Rouge]

You're really excelling in the process of female acquirement.
LOL
I'm far from being excellent. But, i'm slowly becoming better!
Good night!

[Ele'ill]

I have Influenza.

[NewLeft]

LOL
I'm far from being excellent. But, i'm slowly becoming better!
Good night!
Good night? The day has just begun. ;)

[NewLeft]

I have Influenza.
Try taking 8,000 iu of vitamin D.. It's my trick of getting rid of the flu..

Oh and just so that I don't get sued: Consult your doctor first.

[Aurora]

I don't even post here anymore but seriously can this thread be kept clean of all that nonsense shit that infected the last one, honestly this thread turned into people with genuine problems trying to vent between posts of twitter crap.
Like honestly i don't care what type of cereal you like and it's kinda fucked that you post that after someone obviously needing support, comfort or advice ya know.

/vent

[eyedrop]

Just had to turn a friend in for anarexia

[Ostrinski]

I don't even post here anymore but seriously can this thread be kept clean of all that nonsense shit that infected the last one, honestly this thread turned into people with genuine problems trying to vent between posts of twitter crap.
Like honestly i don't care what type of cereal you like and it's kinda fucked that you post that after someone obviously needing support, comfort or advice ya know.

/ventThis.

http://www.revleft.com/vb/say-you-want-t164966/index.html

Seriously, people.

[NewLeft]

Just had to turn a friend in for anarexia
Sorry to hear that. How did it go..

[Ostrinski]

Just had to turn a friend in for anarexiaSucks. S/he gonna have to be committed? I met an anorexic during one of my stays at the psych ward, she was 12 with the body of like an 8 year old. She was very nice though.

[NewLeft]

Sucks. S/he gonna have to be committed? I met an anorexic during one of my stays at the psych ward, she was 12 with the body of like an 8 year old. She was very nice though.
Why were you in the psych ward.. (If you don't mind me asking)

Getting personal:
...This reminds me of the time I visited my dad in the psych ward. I remember picking up the assessment paper and reading it.. Threat to oneself, does not love family, suicidal. That was alot to take in at the time. Am I a bad person for somewhat missing those days?

[Leftsolidarity]

To whoever had asked if I plan to tell my gf.

No, I don't think I will. I always told myself I would but I'm too scared. I don't ever want to cheat on her again so I don't think it would be worth breaking the trust over a really stupid mistake I made shit-face drunk that I won't repeat. I don't know. Maybe that's wrong.

[lombas]

To whoever had asked if I plan to tell my gf.

No, I don't think I will. I always told myself I would but I'm too scared. I don't ever want to cheat on her again so I don't think it would be worth breaking the trust over a really stupid mistake I made shit-face drunk that I won't repeat. I don't know. Maybe that's wrong.

Ah yes.


Haha I don't really want to start calling her "ex". I do like her.

That's ok...



I'm not "actively" cheating

Yes you are... ;)

Accept it. It's not such a bad thing, part of growing up. You make your choices, but accept them for what they are.



and I've never done anything like that before. I got way too drunk and made a really bad choice to go sleep with this other girl. It's a 1 time thing that I hope to never do again. I feel like such an asshole.

If you're serious about your GF: tell her. If you're not serious (you didn't sound very serious imho): don't.

[Nox]

If you're serious about your GF: tell her. If you're not serious (you didn't sound very serious imho): don't.

NO. NO. NO. DO NOT TELL HER. As much as I think it's disgusting that you cheated, you can't tell her. Just forget it ever happened, never mention it again. If you do tell her, there is a very small chance that she won't dump you but even then the relationship will never be the same again. The only circumstance in which you should tell her is if it's almost guaranteed that she will eventually find out (e.g. if you did it with one of her friends or her sister).

[Lanky Wanker]

A NEW THREAD FINALLY! :cool:

Edit: I'm First Again!

Well, technically Mari3L was first. :p



...This reminds me of the time I visited my dad in the psych ward. I remember picking up the assessment paper and reading it.. Threat to oneself, does not love family, suicidal. That was alot to take in at the time. Am I a bad person for somewhat missing those days?

Not a big fan of your dad, eh?

[Lanky Wanker]

Can't remember if I mentioned this in the last thread or not, but oh well, I have an actual rant this time. I have a list of 30 studies from the textbook to type up for sociology tomorrow which I haven't done, and probably won't even bother with. We had to do this before, but then it was like 70 studies, which I didn't do and thankfully didn't get called up on because the teacher didn't notice (I think I was absent or she just didn't ask me for mine). It's basically a bunch of IDIOTS stating obvious things and maybe giving them stupid terms to make themselves sound smart, which doesn't really give me anything to learn that's useful in life. My form tutor (registration teacher or whatever you call them) teaches sociology and said it's basically one of those subjects where you focus on analysing information and learning how to approach it as opposed to actually doing something useful, and I've had enough of doing that. I wasted my time learning about the civil rights movement a couple of years ago for a history exam (that I got an A on) which I probably could've gotten the same mark for if I'd never even touched the stuff we did in class. Back to the main topic, I can't be fucked doing this. I can't learn from forcing myself to do PAINFULLY boring work, so I don't see the point. I think she's gonna drag us into school on the 2 weeks we're off (week after next) if we don't do it, but whatever we get for not doing it, it won't be fun. If you really care about my education, maybe try asking me how I learn best and let me do it that way without forcing me to learn like I'm some kind of database. Then again, it might help if what we were learning from these studies actually gave me something I could apply to life instead of something I'll forget 5 minutes after I'm finished doing it. Authority over education...

[Pretty Flaco]

the friend of mine that i've been reconnecting with dropped out. she makes me wonder why i even go to school. if i get a full time job, save up some money, i could get us both over to florida (she's from florida and had been planning to move back, like me) and we could stay with a friend of mine that offered to take me in until we're good on our own... this girl i've really cared about for a long time. i used to help her with her alcoholism problems, family problems, and even when she was in an abusive relationship. she used to have the biggest crush on me, but back then i was immature and manipulative. i've had this sort of reoccuring daydream of us getting together and living together in florida. i dont think anything would be as good for me as that right now. i just want to finally be happy.
or i dont even have to drop out. i turn 18 in june, i can live on my own. if i move over there i could go to the same high school as my friends younger brother. it's actually not the high school i went to, but i know some people there.

[gorillafuck]

NO. NO. NO. DO NOT TELL HER. As much as I think it's disgusting that you cheated, you can't tell her. Just forget it ever happened, never mention it again. If you do tell her, there is a very small chance that she won't dump you but even then the relationship will never be the same again. The only circumstance in which you should tell her is if it's almost guaranteed that she will eventually find out (e.g. if you did it with one of her friends or her sister).no, you should be honest with people when stuff like this happens. there's a huge culture of dishonesty in the world, it sucks.

[lombas]

NO. NO. NO. DO NOT TELL HER. As much as I think it's disgusting that you cheated, you can't tell her. Just forget it ever happened, never mention it again. If you do tell her, there is a very small chance that she won't dump you but even then the relationship will never be the same again. The only circumstance in which you should tell her is if it's almost guaranteed that she will eventually find out (e.g. if you did it with one of her friends or her sister).

Yes, this sounds great at first, but then again:

1) You don't easily forget you cheated on someone.
2) Especially when you're still together.
3) Guilt feelings will make you act unpredictable in certain situations. You lose your "right" to be angry when she does something that hurts your relationship, unless you're a complete unsensitive dickhead.
4) Hypocrisy doesn't arouse much sympathy.

So either dump the girl and get on with your life, or choose for her but come out.

You can have thousands of secrets for eachother: having had sex with someone else ain't one of them.

[NewLeft]

Can't remember if I mentioned this in the last thread or not, but oh well, I have an actual rant this time. I have a list of 30 studies from the textbook to type up for sociology tomorrow which I haven't done, and probably won't even bother with. We had to do this before, but then it was like 70 studies, which I didn't do and thankfully didn't get called up on because the teacher didn't notice (I think I was absent or she just didn't ask me for mine). It's basically a bunch of IDIOTS stating obvious things and maybe giving them stupid terms to make themselves sound smart, which doesn't really give me anything to learn that's useful in life. My form tutor (registration teacher or whatever you call them) teaches sociology and said it's basically one of those subjects where you focus on analysing information and learning how to approach it as opposed to actually doing something useful, and I've had enough of doing that. I wasted my time learning about the civil rights movement a couple of years ago for a history exam (that I got an A on) which I probably could've gotten the same mark for if I'd never even touched the stuff we did in class. Back to the main topic, I can't be fucked doing this. I can't learn from forcing myself to do PAINFULLY boring work, so I don't see the point. I think she's gonna drag us into school on the 2 weeks we're off (week after next) if we don't do it, but whatever we get for not doing it, it won't be fun. If you really care about my education, maybe try asking me how I learn best and let me do it that way without forcing me to learn like I'm some kind of database. Then again, it might help if what we were learning from these studies actually gave me something I could apply to life instead of something I'll forget 5 minutes after I'm finished doing it. Authority over education...
school is a stress test.


the friend of mine that i've been reconnecting with dropped out. she makes me wonder why i even go to school. if i get a full time job, save up some money, i could get us both over to florida (she's from florida and had been planning to move back, like me) and we could stay with a friend of mine that offered to take me in until we're good on our own... this girl i've really cared about for a long time. i used to help her with her alcoholism problems, family problems, and even when she was in an abusive relationship. she used to have the biggest crush on me, but back then i was immature and manipulative. i've had this sort of reoccuring daydream of us getting together and living together in florida. i dont think anything would be as good for me as that right now. i just want to finally be happy.
or i dont even have to drop out. i turn 18 in june, i can live on my own. if i move over there i could go to the same high school as my friends younger brother. it's actually not the high school i went to, but i know some people there.
don't bother, it's a waste of time going back to it. just graduate asap.

[Landsharks eat metal]

Hope keeps getting dangled in front of my face then being snatched away instantaneously. Apparently, I'm maybe just not good enough to go to college.

[Hermes]

Hope keeps getting dangled in front of my face then being snatched away instantaneously. Apparently, I'm maybe just not good enough to go to college.

I might've already asked you this, so sorry if it's repetition.

What do you want to do in college?

[Landsharks eat metal]

I might've already asked you this, so sorry if it's repetition.

What do you want to do in college?

I want to study sociology. I don't know what I would do with that, but I love the subject. It's more about getting out of my house and living on campus, though.

[NewLeft]

I want to study sociology. I don't know what I would do with that, but I love the subject. It's more about getting out of my house and living on campus, though.
i need a roommate, you need a roommate, we should be roommates.

but really, you should be able to get a single room if you want to?

[¿Que?]

I want to study sociology. I don't know what I would do with that, but I love the subject. It's more about getting out of my house and living on campus, though.
When you do liberal arts, the best advice is to try to do a lot of interships and extracurricular activities with an eye towards employment. Also, try to get scholarships, fellowships, and stuff like that. That'll look good on your resume. If you do the minial requirements, and just barely graduate, you might as well not do it at all.

I was just at a talk about education where they mentioned you're more likely to increase your pay by organizing your workplace straight outta high school than by earning a liberal arts degree. Go fig.

[Leftsolidarity]

words that make too good of a point for me to like


Fuck man. I will continue to ponder this.

[Landsharks eat metal]

i need a roommate, you need a roommate, we should be roommates.

but really, you should be able to get a single room if you want to?

Maybe... I'd hope. My roommate I had in the fall when I was away at college seemed to hate me. She was always giving me what seemed to be these hateful glares just for existing, and I think, if she knew about it, my gender identity freaked her out too. I could perhaps use my Asperger's as an excuse to land me a single, but if not, I'd most likely have to room with a girl, and even if I did get a single, most of the dorms are segregated by floor so I'd probably have to be on a girls' floor.

But apparently, my parents don't think I'm stable enough for them to support me moving out, and I can't tell them that staying here is making me want to kill myself. They say if I were really serious about needing to get out of here, I'd be talking to people at school, seeing if any of them have a couch I could sleep on, but they should realize that not only am I scared to talk to people in the first place, I hate asking for things.

[Lanky Wanker]

I feel like posting one of those "I've never had any luck with girls and probably never will" paragraphs right now... but I'll resist. :p

[lombas]

When you do liberal arts, the best advice is to try to do a lot of interships and extracurricular activities with an eye towards employment. Also, try to get scholarships, fellowships, and stuff like that. That'll look good on your resume. If you do the minial requirements, and just barely graduate, you might as well not do it at all.

I was just at a talk about education where they mentioned you're more likely to increase your pay by organizing your workplace straight outta high school than by earning a liberal arts degree. Go fig.

Why is a liberal arts degree so "low graded" in the US? I have two (MA in history and one in Archival science) and haven't been a day without a well-payed job...

[lombas]

Fuck man. I will continue to ponder this.

Have I tickled that moral standard in ya yet?

:D

[lombas]

I should've studied psychology.

Gives you carte blanche to be a hypocritical moralist to everyone.

I'd love that.

[Lanky Wanker]

I should've studied psychology.

Gives you carte blanche to be a hypocritical moralist to everyone.

I'd love that.

You get to comment on every aspect of a person's behaviour and thinking during a conversation which is always fun... until you have no friends left and a bunch of people paying you to listen to their life problems.

[lombas]

You get to comment on every aspect of a person's behaviour and thinking during a conversation which is always fun... until you have no friends left and a bunch of people paying you to listen to their life problems.

You really got my interest there!

[Franz Fanonipants]

Why is a liberal arts degree so "low graded" in the US? I have two (MA in history and one in Archival science) and haven't been a day without a well-payed job...

they aren't, once you get to the MA level

i think most people are referring to a BA in liberal arts which is significantly less so

[Le Rouge]

I feel like posting one of those "I've never had any luck with girls and probably never will" paragraphs right now... but I'll resist. :p

Do it! It's your turn now!

[lombas]

they aren't, once you get to the MA level

i think most people are referring to a BA in liberal arts which is significantly less so

That's another question: why is there such a distinction between a BA and a MA in the US? Over here you can't do much with a BA, so most students get a MA.

But when I look at the UK for instance, a MA is practically a PhD light? Is it the same in the US? Or is it just the price tag?

[Franz Fanonipants]

That's another question: why is there such a distinction between a BA and a MA in the US? Over here you can't do much with a BA, so most students get a MA.

But when I look at the UK for instance, a MA is practically a PhD light? Is it the same in the US? Or is it just the price tag?

there's a bunch of different factors. the relative availability of BAs in the US (not as available as in France, mind) makes them kind of the minimum educational requirement for certain jobs (teaching stands out as one, but that's even on a state-by-state level). BAs don't usually have a professional preparation built into them.

MAs (which i'm working on right now) come with further professional preparation depending on your field. for example my MA program has a required internship with a public history institution, encourages presenting and publishing papers, and has a curriculum vitae-constructing seminar. educators in states where you have to have an MA to teach are given practicum etc.

liberal Arts PhDs in the US pretty much are a one track job into teaching at the university level. i'm not really interested in that aspect of history, so i'll probably stop w/a terminal MA and try to get a job.

[NewLeft]

What the fuck, I can't have one day where I can just have a good time with people? We went from talking about life to politics :bored: I hate talking about politics. Why is this shit following me everywhere.

[Lanky Wanker]

Do it! It's your turn now!

:crying: I've never had a girlfriend or had special sexy physical contact with a girl. I try to act confident like all the sexy guys that get girls with ease and blah blah blah, I don't like acting. If I saw me across the room I wouldn't go out with me, my life is like a stack of paper with nothing written on it and I'm addicted to nasal spray.

Kinda funny how I can't even mock the people who post things like that because I'm one of them and what I just said was all true. :lol:

[Nox]

Yes, this sounds great at first, but then again:

1) You don't easily forget you cheated on someone.
2) Especially when you're still together.
3) Guilt feelings will make you act unpredictable in certain situations. You lose your "right" to be angry when she does something that hurts your relationship, unless you're a complete unsensitive dickhead.
4) Hypocrisy doesn't arouse much sympathy.

So either dump the girl and get on with your life, or choose for her but come out.

You can have thousands of secrets for eachother: having had sex with someone else ain't one of them.

You're right, but at the end of the day, if he tells her the relationship will be over. If he keeps it a secret, forgets about it and never mentions it again, the relationship will survive.

[¿Que?]

they aren't, once you get to the MA level

i think most people are referring to a BA in liberal arts which is significantly less so
I have an MA, and am having a hard time finding satisfactory work. I think part of the problem is I live in a tech city, where the only jobs are IT or cleaning up, and serving IT. But then again, I could go work for a marketing firm or some shit like that, which I refuse to do.

[Franz Fanonipants]

I have an MA, and am having a hard time finding satisfactory work. I think part of the problem is I live in a tech city, where the only jobs are IT or cleaning up, and serving IT. But then again, I could go work for a marketing firm or some shit like that, which I refuse to do.

yeah. i mean you gotta get in where you fit in man.

but then i went after an MA with a really strong professional networking/preparation component. do you feel you had that or not?

e: not to be dismissive. that's just kind of depressing, as i'm hoping the networking and work i'm doing will transfer p. readily into a job at some level.

e of e: especially teaching at community/jr. colleges

[gorillafuck]

You're right, but at the end of the day, if he tells her the relationship will be over. If he keeps it a secret, forgets about it and never mentions it again, the relationship will survive.you are putting more worth on the concept of having a girlfriend than on actually having an honest relationship...

[Le Rouge]

:crying: I've never had a girlfriend or had special sexy physical contact with a girl.
I guess you are 17. You're still very young man. There are still many people at my age (18) that didn't have any girlfriend/boyfriend. Just meet people, (Girls especially, since you're a guy.)



try to act confident like all the sexy guys that get girls with ease and blah blah blah, I don't like acting. If I saw me across the room I wouldn't go out with me,

I was a very shy person, i used to stay by myself and talk to almost nobody.
I started up acting. I told myself that i wasn't that bad after all, that i was confident and stuff. I slowly (Read : very Slowly) built some self confidence by socializing with people, and managed to get a first GF at 16 Y/O. I dumped her, since she was dumb. it's been a little less than 2 years that i'm alone now. Met a girl that i liked very much, last semester. That girl had a boyfriend at the time. She dumped him. Now she's with me. :wub:

Anyways, The only thing important to get a girl, or a boy, is your personality. Sure, your physical appearance count. You shouldn't neglect your physical appearance. Start buy buying new clothes, have a clean haircut, brush your teeth every morning before going out.
Don't be heavy when talking with people. Act confident and people will think you are.


my life is like a stack of paper with nothing written on it and I'm addicted to nasal spray.


Same here, except the nasal spray part. I'm addicted to eye drops. :lol:

[Lanky Wanker]

I guess you are 17. You're still very young man. There are still many people at my age (18) that didn't have any girlfriend/boyfriend. Just meet people, (Girls especially, since you're a guy.)


16, sir. I look at least 18 according to most people though. :cool:



I was a very shy person, i used to stay by myself and talk to almost nobody.
I started up acting. I told myself that i wasn't that bad after all, that i was confident and stuff. I slowly (Read : very Slowly) built some self confidence by socializing with people, and managed to get a first GF at 16 Y/O. I dumped her, since she was dumb. it's been a little less than 2 years that i'm alone now. Met a girl that i liked very much, last semester. That girl had a boyfriend at the time. She dumped him. Now she's with me. :wub:


I suppose I have built up some confidence from being forced to act more social in school, but I question whether this is just me lying to myself or not sometimes. I suppose the fact that I don't like being in school or hanging out with most of the people there doesn't really help lol.



Anyways, The only thing important to get a girl, or a boy, is your personality. Sure, your physical appearance count. You shouldn't neglect your physical appearance. Start buy buying new clothes, have a clean haircut, brush your teeth every morning before going out.
Don't be heavy when talking with people. Act confident and people will think you are.


I didn't just mean my looks, I meant me as a package. You can tell a lot about a person even from their ways (body language and all that stuff), which I'm not too smooth with. :lol: I'm alright with the way I dress, quite picky actually for someone who ends up looking like the kind of person who attends 90s screamo & punk gigs. My hair is sexy, I've started cutting it myself *proud* ... with clippers though, so don't think I'm too talented. I brush my teeth every morning and chew the almighty sugar free mint gum like 24/7 when I'm out, but I'm always paranoid about how my breath smells. Halitosis vs halitophobia. :blushing: I also shower twice every day and pay careful attention to deodorant :cool:, but I'm also constantly thinking about how I smell so I don't like getting close to people for fear of smelling like a pig's arse without realising.



Same here, except the nasal spray part. I'm addicted to eye drops. :lol:

Nasal spray addiction is a *****, man... it's like being a goddamn heroin addict. I need to try weaning off of it with saline solution though before my huge nose disappears. I seriously think these capitalist fucks make the products addictive just so we keep buying them.

[Le Rouge]

http://i.imgur.com/nR0me.jpg
Wish i was there again. :) I was near the white sign. lol

[Lanky Wanker]

http://i.imgur.com/nR0me.jpg
Wish i was there again. :) I was near the white sign. lol

Where is that?

[NewLeft]

Wish i was there again. :) I was near the white sign. lol
You go get em Red. Tell Charest to fuck himself, don't back down like I did when I met scumbag McGuinty. Occupy the liberal party! We need to mic check these bastards.

[Le Rouge]

Where is that?

Montreal. There was 200 000 people at that demo.

[Aloysius]

I haven't posted in one of these threads in a while. I guess life has been going pretty decently for me. School's fine, just gotta get my grades up so I can qualify for a class that could very well determine my entire working life (CompTIA A+ certification for free!)

My romantic life is sub-par as usual. Prospects galore, but a distinct lack of metaphorical balls has crippled me. Need to get over my awkwardness with other people. Did fine the other night when I went to see the Hunger Games a couple acquaintances. I guess I just lie when I take those personality test. I'm more of an extrovert than I used to be.

My friends are still assholes, especially the one that has texted me twice in the past year threatening to kill himself. I'm strangely fairly good at diffusing that sort of situation. I guess I just don't want to go to a funeral and see a good friend in that casket.

[Pretty Flaco]

a good friend of mine living in florida died when he oded last year. close friends dying is harsh. half the kids my dad grew up with are dead or in prison. his community had a big problem with meth.

[NewLeft]

I'm so nervous right now, I have a speech to give in front of 900 people. :unsure: I am going to fuck this up, I am going to say something inappropriate.

Why am I so incoherent at times, it's like one day I'm crisp clear and the next day I'm a mess.

[Leftsolidarity]

Have I tickled that moral standard in ya yet?

:D

ughhhhhhhh yesss.

I think I might call and tell her tonight.

Fuck dude, I'm so scared.

[9]

uh, might not be a smart idea to tell your girlfriend you cheated on her over the phone. If you are gonna tell her that shit, do it in person.

[Leftsolidarity]

uh, might not be a smart idea to tell your girlfriend you cheated on her over the phone. If you are gonna tell her that shit, do it in person.

I don't think that would be the best idea. We actually even talked about that before we started dating and both said that we would prefer to break/get dumped by someone over the phone. So I think if she takes this really bad and wants to break up or anything like that, it might be better to do it over the phone.

[9]

Well, I would certainly think she would be much more likely to take it badly and wish to break up with you if you were telling her you cheated over the phone rather than in person, but, maybe not, if she doesn't mind being dumped over the phone lol

[Leftsolidarity]

Well, I would certainly think she would be much more likely to take it badly and wish to break up with you if you were telling her you cheated over the phone rather than in person, but, maybe not, if she doesn't mind being dumped over the phone lol

God fucking damn it people, you are making this shit very hard. I was going to hide this until you people's logic made me realize I should tell her. Now you are trying to make me do this in person.

fuckkkkkk


How do I even say this?


Edit: I shouldn't joke. I need some serious answers on this.

[¿Que?]

but then i went after an MA with a really strong professional networking/preparation component. do you feel you had that or not?

Not in the least. They would encourage us to attend conferences and such, but I felt I never really had the time, or the work prepared. I did one conference, and no published papers. Until I became a graduate assistant, I was basically on my own, or at least that's how it felt.

EDIT: I was also going through some serious unrequitted love shit that threw my shit into a tailspin.

[Leftsolidarity]

Well, I told her. She didn't care and said she assumed cuz no one gets shit-faced like that at a party and doesn't hook up with someone. I disagree but I'm not gonna argue that.

Funny thing is though is that we got into this big thing after that. We got off the phone for awhile and thought for a long time about breaking up. I talked to my ex and we pretty much decided I should break it off. I called my gf but we ended up talking it out.

This shit is weird. I have sex with a random girl. She doesn't get mad. I almost break up with her. Fucked up shit man. You all probably think I'm weird as fuck.

Bottom line, I still have a girlfriend. I like her and care about her. She likes and cares for me too. We both fuck up sometimes though. I think it is time for me to go to sleep now. Thank you for reading my over emotional boring drama.

[A Revolutionary Tool]

The last few days have been so fucking awesome that it is crazy. I don't even know how I'm awake right now, I have gotten probably 2 hours of sleep within the last three days and I'm still awake.

I worked Friday about 7 hours and immediately went to my cousins 16th birthday party after work. His mom got us a limo for like a 15 minute drive, big ass waste of money but we made it as awesome as we could. Was typical boring family party until we decided to go teeping at night(Don't know how to spell that, where you throw toilet paper all over a persons house) and some general hooligan shit. Then we went to our uncle's house, who bought us alcohol and had some really hot girls come over and made it a real party. But I'm drunk as fuck when I go to bed. Wake up with about one hour of sleep, go out to breakfast, and get to work at 11:30 feeling like shit.

Get off of work and immediately go to a co-workers going away party. Meet at a place to eat and decide to go to a hookah lounge. On the way there I'm the only one with one of my co-workers and she tells me the craziest things. In her words,"Our work is a whore-house". Apparently almost everybody overage is banging everybody else who is overage :lol:. And I'm talking about EVERYBODY. Managers with managers, workers with workers, managers with workers, all kinds of crazy shit that I would not expect. I will never look at the place the same again. But after that we decide to go get high and this same girl and I are alone in her car again and she starts to get kind of flirty. She says we should go to a park alone and literally right after she says that I get a text from the girl who the party is for that says "Don't tell X, but at the hookah lounge she said she wanted to kiss you and do more, good luck" :blink: Rejected that offer and instead decided to roam the streets of Stockton at night with the whole group(Which I will say now, is a horrible fucking idea, never do such a thing) again doing hooligan shit. When I got home I stayed up and read most of Worker's Council and got like an hours sleep before that girl that wanted me texts me asking if I was awake *facepalm*.

At which point I got up, cashed my paycheck, walked around town buying a few things(Including a new book at the used bookstore that includes The Communist Manifesto, obscure writings from Marx and Engels such as On the History of Early Christianity, and a lot more), went to my cousins and just hung out all day.

Now I need to get off and go to bed because I feel like I'm going to die if I don't. Really don't know why I'm typing this either, just wanted y'all to know the last few days have been really fucking awesome for me or something like that. :thumbup1:

[NewLeft]

Well, I told her. She didn't care and said she assumed cuz no one gets shit-faced like that at a party and doesn't hook up with someone. I disagree but I'm not gonna argue that.

Funny thing is though is that we got into this big thing after that. We got off the phone for awhile and thought for a long time about breaking up. I talked to my ex and we pretty much decided I should break it off. I called my gf but we ended up talking it out.

This shit is weird. I have sex with a random girl. She doesn't get mad. I almost break up with her. Fucked up shit man. You all probably think I'm weird as fuck.

Bottom line, I still have a girlfriend. I like her and care about her. She likes and cares for me too. We both fuck up sometimes though. I think it is time for me to go to sleep now. Thank you for reading my over emotional boring drama.

Trust me, it's better than doing french grammar at 3 AM.

That reminds me, when I use fancy terms like "capital," it's always pretentious. I gotta stop doing that cause I'm not impressing anyone, it'll just make it more obvious that I'm red.

Oh I feel like shit, as usual.

[Lobotomy]

I'm so

[lombas]

Well, I told her. She didn't care and said she assumed cuz no one gets shit-faced like that at a party and doesn't hook up with someone. I disagree but I'm not gonna argue that.

Funny thing is though is that we got into this big thing after that. We got off the phone for awhile and thought for a long time about breaking up. I talked to my ex and we pretty much decided I should break it off. I called my gf but we ended up talking it out.

This shit is weird. I have sex with a random girl. She doesn't get mad. I almost break up with her. Fucked up shit man. You all probably think I'm weird as fuck.

Bottom line, I still have a girlfriend. I like her and care about her. She likes and cares for me too. We both fuck up sometimes though. I think it is time for me to go to sleep now. Thank you for reading my over emotional boring drama.

You did the best thing. A clear conscience gets you far in life.

I know, because I don't have one.

;)

[Искра]

Fuck life.
And then I sing for whole day this magnificent song (100x played on last.fm in one day:blushing:):

I don't have a reason to go back home
So what am I supposed to do?
I only know one place where I have to be
And it's gotta be with you
I'm on my way now
So you gotta help me out
You gotta make it out for me

How could we survive?
Yeah just think about the kids
Just let your speed arrive
Yeah don't worry about the rest

(...)

[lombas]

:crying: I've never had a girlfriend or had special sexy physical contact with a girl. I try to act confident like all the sexy guys that get girls with ease and blah blah blah, I don't like acting. If I saw me across the room I wouldn't go out with me, my life is like a stack of paper with nothing written on it and I'm addicted to nasal spray.


All the girls I have been with, approached me first. I'm not good at playing "hunter" - some people just aren't. There's nothing wrong with that. Why would you try to act like other people? Just be yourself (to a certain degree). Putting on a lot of show or effort shows really hard: being yourself doesn't. It shows you.

Be confident in yourself, and do what makes you feel good.


I suppose I have built up some confidence from being forced to act more social in school, but I question whether this is just me lying to myself or not sometimes. I suppose the fact that I don't like being in school or hanging out with most of the people there doesn't really help lol.

Well, that's all right. Some people don't like going to parties either, or hanging around.



My hair is sexy, I've started cutting it myself *proud* ... with clippers though, so don't think I'm too talented.

:blink:

[gorillafuck]

Ia, so shitfaced right niw

I cannot stiop thinkingnabot kissijg her. I want to

i willproably test the wayter by holding her hand and looking into nher face and she how she howreacts

omg i want to be ballsdeep in her wondefufl personI hung out with this girl again. she was only back in our state for a really short period of time but I got to hang out with her on a tuesday night for about 3 hours which was nice:)

ugh. I wanted to make sure I still felt the same way when I saw her. turns out I feel even stronger than I thought. I didn't say anything because we were having such a nice time and also because we were sitting on top of a building that sometimes had people going by. now I don't see her til summer.

ugh

[Le Rouge]

All the girls I have been with, approached me first. I'm not good at playing "hunter" - some people just aren't. There's nothing wrong with that. Why would you try to act like other people? Just be yourself (to a certain degree).


:blink:

Yes, you should act like yourself. But if you are a shy person that fear to meet people (like my past me), it doesn't hurt to fake.

[Lanky Wanker]

All the girls I have been with, approached me first. I'm not good at playing "hunter" - some people just aren't. There's nothing wrong with that. Why would you try to act like other people? Just be yourself (to a certain degree). Putting on a lot of show or effort shows really hard: being yourself doesn't. It shows you.


Well I have this sad little piece of hope that maybe I'll be saved and have a nice girl randomly come up to me and talk some time, but I can't count on that for the rest of my life. Ah well... we shall see.

[lombas]

Well I have this sad little piece of hope that maybe I'll be saved and have a nice girl randomly come up to me and talk some time, but I can't count on that for the rest of my life. Ah well... we shall see.

Uhm, you're 16. You should grab your chances in life, but sometimes, it can wait just a wee longer.

I'm just trying to make sure you feel OK with what and who you are. There's no rush for anything... Go with the flow.

;)

[lombas]

Yes, you should act like yourself. But if you are a shy person that fear to meet people (like my past me), it doesn't hurt to fake.

I'm also very shy. They made me follow a very expensive "personal coaching" thing at work to help that. It didn't, because I also have medical reasons, but it did help me understand that just by taking a small bit of you you're very comfortable with and extrapolating that, you can gain confidence. For it, it definitely was sarcasm and dry remarks. Now, I'm still "the quiet one" at work, but I'm comfortable with that and so are others. I can really see how my team has improved since I chose not to fake but to throw just a small part of myself in the open...

:)

[Le Rouge]

Well I have this sad little piece of hope that maybe I'll be saved and have a nice girl randomly come up to me and talk some time, but I can't count on that for the rest of my life. Ah well... we shall see.

It isn't worth it to wait. If you wait for a girl to come up, you could wait for so long, that you would become a needy, desesperate person.
Start out by enlarging your social circle.
You're in high school, it's the best place to meet people. (girls)

[Lanky Wanker]

It isn't worth it to wait. If you wait for a girl to come up, you could wait for so long, that you would become a needy, desesperate person.
Start out by enlarging your social circle.
You're in high school, it's the best place to meet people. (girls)

LOL not my high school. I don't think any school would be a good place for me to make friends... (UK) college maybe, but not where I am. I can't stand most people in school and most people in school have no interest in me.

I do see this girl in school that (I think) keeps looking at me though, so at least someone appreciates how sexy I am. :cool:

[Le Rouge]

I do see this girl in school that (I think) keeps looking at me though, so at least someone appreciates how sexy I am. :cool:

That's good enough! Do you know her? Ask her to go out with you.

[Lanky Wanker]

That's good enough! Do you know her? Ask her to go out with you.

Nah, but a friend of mine is quite close to her so I could probably talk to her some time. She does catch my eye, but she's not really my type. Worth getting to know her at least I guess. :o

There's this other girl I've seen looking at me, though it seems to be more when I wear my bright orange tie. :lol: I'd go for it if I could actually start a conversation through one of her friends, but I hardly know any of them. I feel like our year group is too tightly knitted to randomly go asking people out or chatting them up. I always felt like "asking them out" is too formal and just happens for the sake of following the unwritten laws of what everyone else does.

[Le Rouge]

Nah, but a friend of mine is quite close to her so I could probably talk to her some time. She does catch my eye, but she's not really my type. Worth getting to know her at least I guess. :o

There's this other girl I've seen looking at me, though it seems to be more when I wear my bright orange tie. :lol: I'd go for it if I could actually start a conversation through one of her friends, but I hardly know any of them. I feel like our year group is too tightly knitted to randomly go asking people out or chatting them up. I always felt like "asking them out" is too formal and just happens for the sake of following the unwritten laws of what everyone else does.

That's why i like college. These "unwritten laws" are gone. Everybody talk to everybody. :thumbup1: No losers, no rejects.

[#FF0000]

i keep skippin classes and feel bad about it

(i have a b in the class and it's all dumb easy but my gpa is horrible and i feel like I should start being a good student or something)

[Lanky Wanker]

That's why i like college. These "unwritten laws" are gone. Everybody talk to everybody. :thumbup1: No losers, no rejects.

Yeah I kinda regret not going to college in some respects, but I suppose staying in high school for sixth form (if anyone has any idea how English schools work) was better in the long run. I was thinking of leaving to go to college but I'm too lazy to do it and it'd be a waste of time now everyone's settled in. I still can't stand school though.

[Landsharks eat metal]

I'm scared and frustrated and who know what else for no good reason whatsoever. i feel like I have to go do something now to change the world, but I'm powerless.

I also seriously need to stop with my emotional eating shit because I'm already fat enough. And my dad won't shut the fuck up about my weight. Does he really not realize what a shitty thing it is to constantly make fun of his own kid, especially one with horrible self-esteem issues?

There's a kid next to me listening to his iPod on full blast but only has one of his earbuds in. I want to rip that earbud out of his ear and strangle him with the cord. Inconsiderate asshole needs to fuck the hell off. RAFUFGDFEGYEFkljhodfid

[Zukunftsmusik]

I'm scared and frustrated and who know what else for no good reason whatsoever. i feel like I have to go do something now to change the world, but I'm powerless.

We all feel like this, I guess. If not always, then at least from time to time. Didn't you (try to) join IWW? Doesn't that count as "doing something"?



I also seriously need to stop with my emotional eating shit because I'm already fat enough. And my dad won't shut the fuck up about my weight. Does he really not realize what a shitty thing it is to constantly make fun of his own kid, especially one with horrible self-esteem issues?

Then you father is mean and stupid IMO. it's one thing to try to encourage you to do something about your weight and health -- to repeatedly tell you that you're fat or ugly or whatever, is NOT the way to do that.

[Franz Fanonipants]

i keep skippin classes and feel bad about it

(i have a b in the class and it's all dumb easy but my gpa is horrible and i feel like I should start being a good student or something)

go to fucking class fool

[Landsharks eat metal]

We all feel like this, I guess. If not always, then at least from time to time. Didn't you (try to) join IWW? Doesn't that count as "doing something"? Tried to, and was stymied by my parents giving me a huge speech about my impulsivity and how I've changed so much and a bunch of random other shit. I don't know what would have happened had I gotten a ride with a stranger and gone to the meeting against my parents' wishes, but I'm tired of being judged, so I didn't dare try. I'm feeling horrible about not doing it, and also about the fact that I just let them control what I do.


Then you father is mean and stupid IMO. it's one thing to try to encourage you to do something about your weight and health -- to repeatedly tell you that you're fat or ugly or whatever, is NOT the way to do that.[/QUOTE]
Yeah, but he'll never acknowledge how wrong he's been about anything.

[Zukunftsmusik]

Tried to, and was stymied by my parents giving me a huge speech about my impulsivity and how I've changed so much and a bunch of random other shit. I don't know what would have happened had I gotten a ride with a stranger and gone to the meeting against my parents' wishes, but I'm tired of being judged, so I didn't dare try. I'm feeling horrible about not doing it, and also about the fact that I just let them control what I do.

Although I'm not in the same situation as you, I got a similar speech not long ago (about how I've changed so much the last year), and it's shit. I can only guess how more shit it is when you get that crap when you actually try to do something, engage. have you tried to explain that you've thought this through, that it's not impulsive, that you actually try to engage yourself in something but that they are keeping you from it? (I guess you have. all of what I just said is kinda obvious and not much help, I know.)

[Lanky Wanker]

I also seriously need to stop with my emotional eating shit because I'm already fat enough. And my dad won't shut the fuck up about my weight. Does he really not realize what a shitty thing it is to constantly make fun of his own kid, especially one with horrible self-esteem issues?


A fake suicide note with mention of the weight jokes and low self-esteem should help him see things clearly...

[Landsharks eat metal]

Although I'm not in the same situation as you, I got a similar speech not long ago (about how I've changed so much the last year), and it's shit. I can only guess how more shit it is when you get that crap when you actually try to do something, engage. have you tried to explain that you've thought this through, that it's not impulsive, that you actually try to engage yourself in something but that they are keeping you from it? (I guess you have. all of what I just said is kinda obvious and not much help, I know.)
Yeah... they won't listen. I seem to be the only one in the house who notices how much nothing makes sense. My mom says she wants to see me out of the house and getting involved in things, but then she flips out when I want to be involved in politics. I think she just wants me to do something with church :rolleyes: And they say the reason I've changed so much is probably that I have some other mental illness besides the diagnoses I already have (bipolar is the one they keep bringing up) or a brain tumor or something. So they can just repeatedly hold that shit over my head to stop me from doing anything.

And I love how they think I'm the only one that needs to change. That I just need to accept the help they're trying to give me. If their "help" makes me want to kill myself, I think there's a problem there.


A fake suicide note with mention of the weight jokes and low self-esteem should help him see things clearly...
Probably a great way to land myself back in the hospital.

[NewLeft]

Yes, you should act like yourself. But if you are a shy person that fear to meet people (like my past me), it doesn't hurt to fake.
I am the fakest person I know. I laugh for the sake of laughing, make jokes that I don't even find funny, do things I don't wanna do.. Fuck this.


I do see this girl in school that (I think) keeps looking at me though, so at least someone appreciates how sexy I am. :cool:

Girl looks me at me.
She wants me.

[NewLeft]

I did it!! I gave the speech to 900 people with confidence. I feel amazing. How the fuck did I do that. I felt like I was on top of the world. I wanted to knock over/break shit.:D I've come down from that high, but wow.. I need that thrill more often. Watch, I'll feel like shit in 10 minutes.

[Le Rouge]

I did it!! I gave the speech to 900 people with confidence. I feel amazing. How the fuck did I do that. I felt like I was on top of the world. I wanted to knock over/break shit.:D I've come down from that high, but wow.. I need that thrill more often. Watch, I'll feel like shit in 10 minutes.

YEah! Congrats! What was it about?

[Le Rouge]

I am the fakest person I know. I laugh for the sake of laughing, make jokes that I don't even find funny, do things I don't wanna do.. Fuck this.



When i say to be fake, i just mean that you should just act confident. You shouldn't laugh at everything for the sake of laughing...Do what you fucking want, and don't be scared to do it.

[NewLeft]

When i say to be fake, i just mean that you should just act confident. You shouldn't laugh at everything for the sake of laughing...Do what you fucking want, and don't be scared to do it.
I wanna laugh and be a total fake ass, I'm laughing at myself on the inside. I tried being myself, that shit doesn't work. :p

[Le Rouge]

Fuck...I'm happy...

[Lanky Wanker]

And they say the reason I've changed so much is probably that I have some other mental illness besides the diagnoses I already have (bipolar is the one they keep bringing up) or a brain tumor or something. So they can just repeatedly hold that shit over my head to stop me from doing anything.

I hate this. "Mental illnesses" are horribly abused weapons in society. Funny how people who have a negative view of life are depressed and have a mental illness, yet people who hide it and pretend to be happy are in perfectly good mental health. Also funny how those with schizophrenia are crazy for hearing voices, yet the new voice called Jesus is here to save you. Again, funny how suicide is a sign of weakness and low confidence, yet compliance on every level and killing yourself to live is "just growing up". DSN and FFA... oh, psychology.

[NewLeft]

I hate this. "Mental illnesses" are horribly abused weapons in society. Funny how people who have a negative view of life are depressed and have a mental illness, yet people who hide it and pretend to be happy are in perfectly good mental health. Also funny how those with schizophrenia are crazy for hearing voices, yet the new voice called Jesus is here to save you. Again, funny how suicide is a sign of weakness and low confidence, yet compliance on every level and killing yourself to live is "just growing up". DSN and FFA... oh, psychology.
Lankster, I got your message. I'm sorry you feel that way. I just wanted you to know that you're not alone. We all love you here and we all support you when you need it. :)

[Le Rouge]

I hate this. "Mental illnesses" are horribly abused weapons in society. Funny how people who have a negative view of life are depressed and have a mental illness, yet people who hide it and pretend to be happy are in perfectly good mental health. Also funny how those with schizophrenia are crazy for hearing voices, yet the new voice called Jesus is here to save you. Again, funny how suicide is a sign of weakness and low confidence, yet compliance on every level and killing yourself to live is "just growing up". DSN and FFA... oh, psychology.

You should get a trophy bro.

[Lanky Wanker]

Lankster, I got your message. I'm sorry you feel that way. I just wanted you to know that you're not alone. We all love you here and we all support you when you need it. :)

:crying: I love you guys, the Canadian ones I mean.


You should get a trophy bro.

I am an amazing speaker... if only I could put this shit into lyrics.

[Proukunin]

I'm always in fear of some great catastrophe..then after a while I kind of box it up and forget about it.

I've been stuck without a car and job for at least 5 months now and the effects from unemployment have really hit me hard..it's not the first time i've been unemployed..I went 8 months without a job before. I have a car that was sold to me under false advertisement and the clutch went out the day I got it.. I was in debt like 3500 dollars and now i'm down to about 900.

Doctor bills suck.

I had insurance but lost my job without explanation and I only had like 2 months before I could join the union.

I feel like people in America are very misinformed and it makes me extremely angry at our society to where I sometimes want to start breaking shit because I feel like they like being treated like slaves or something..

I have anxiety issues.

[Lanky Wanker]

My mum just got herself a date... he lives a while away, but he was actually born and raised where we live. He's a manager at some supermarket chain though which turned on a light on my head, what with being a leftist and all. I hope he's not a knobend and I hope his kids aren't fuckfaces. I love how optimistic I am when it comes to meeting new people, but I'm not compatible with about 99.999% of the human population so it makes sense.

[Pretty Flaco]

on days like these, where the sun is bright and the sky is blue, it's impossible for me to stay inside. theres something about the sunshine that flips my mood around and puts me on top. i dont have to even be doing anything, i just need to be out in it. :)

[¿Que?]

Nobody likes me here, and I can see why :(

Just got back from a shitty interview :(

A lady friend of mine is not calling back :(

I'm :(

[NewLeft]

Nobody likes me here, and I can see why :(

Just got back from a shitty interview :(

A lady friend of mine is not calling back :(

I'm :(
we like you :)

shit happens :)

about the lady friend :unsure:

This smiley thing better catch on. Anyway, why isn't she coming back?

[Lanky Wanker]

Nobody likes me here, and I can see why :(


NewLeft is a liar, he only likes himself and maple syrup snow cones. I don't know a lot about you, but you sound like a boss so far. :cool:


Just got back from a shitty interview :(

I'm terrified by the thought of doing a job interview, at least you did one.


A lady friend of mine is not calling back :(

Gurlz... girls... confusing creatures from another planet of another galaxy.


I'm :(

This should make you happy:

iheOMq8UkN4

"OINK OINK OINK!" < makes me piss my fucking pants every time

[gorillafuck]

I worry that I'll become an abusive person

[Luc]

I worry that I'll become an abusive person

how do you figure? and what kind?

[gorillafuck]

verbally. and I dunno. reasons in my head.

[Luc]

verbally. and I dunno. reasons in my head.

see a councilor before it gets worse I guess :unsure:

[¿Que?]

verbally. and I dunno. reasons in my head.
Do you rage. Like yell and scream. I worry about this too, sometimes.

EDIT: Newleft and LankyWanker. You guys are great.

[gorillafuck]

no. I'm not abusive. I just worry about it because I'm having more aggressive thoughts than I used to when I was younger.

[Luc]

I punch holes in walls and throw chairs across rooms and I sure I'm not physically abusive :sleep: (emotionally is debatable...) I think your fine unless, these thoughts are of rape or intimate partner abuse?

[¿Que?]

no. I'm not abusive. I just worry about it because I'm having more aggressive thoughts than I used to when I was younger.
You don't strike me as the abusive kind. Hope that helps. Might also be that you're in your teens right? Might just be an increase in hormones that's contributing to those thoughts, maybe?

[gorillafuck]

You don't strike me as the abusive kind. Hope that helps. Might also be that you're in your teens right? Might just be an increase in hormones that's contributing to those thoughts, maybe?maybe. probably.

[Luc]

I think your good :) unless that "no" was to Que... not sure who it was to :unsure:

[¿Que?]

Oh damn. I just assume everyone here is in their teens early twenties.

[gorillafuck]

Oh damn. I just assume everyone here is in their teens early twenties.I edited that post because that "no" was towards einfach, not you. I am 18 years old.

[PC LOAD LETTER]

So last week I mentioned my car's transmission started slipping while I was out looking for work. Just got a call from the shop today ....

$3,600

:crying:

I have no money. I am roughly $5,000 in debt already.

[¿Que?]

So last week I mentioned my car's transmission started slipping while I was out looking for work. Just got a call from the shop today ....

$3,600

:crying:

I have no money. I am roughly $5,000 in debt already.
Time to look for work on the bus route, bike route and/or walking I guess. Sorry to hear that. I hope everything works out.

[Le Rouge]

So last week I mentioned my car's transmission started slipping while I was out looking for work. Just got a call from the shop today ....

$3,600

:crying:

I have no money. I am roughly $5,000 in debt already.

Just bargain with that fucking prick. :D

[NewLeft]

There's a nice bottle of windex on my desk. I want to drink it for some reason. I need to move it off my desk, because it'll happen one day otherwise.

I had a real pour your heart out, but power out.

[PC LOAD LETTER]

Time to look for work on the bus route, bike route and/or walking I guess. Sorry to hear that. I hope everything works out.
My mom offered to let me borrow the money, which is amazing. That's going to be $8,600 ish in debt total that I'm going to be paying off between a credit card, personal loan I got a few years back, and my student loan. At this rate, picking up at least $1,000 in debt each year for various reasons, I should be the legal property of CitiGroup by the time I'm 35. I would be $9,000 in debt right now (not including car repairs), but I contested about $4,000 in medical bills off my credit reports from when my 5th metacarpal snapped in half ... twice in six months ... in the same spot. So I'm not going to worry about that since it's not on my credit report anymore. Fuck 'em.

Just bargain with that fucking prick. :D
I'm calling around to see if anyone can do it cheaper. I called my dad, he told me to keep the old transmission once they're done replacing it. He'll pay to have it rebuilt and sell it, then give me the money for the old transmission minus what he paid to have it rebuilt to pay against what I'm going to borrow from my mom for the transmission replacement.

So I'll have a new transmission in the car, then rebuild and sell the old one to offset some of the cost. It'll net about $1,000 to pay my mom back with.

So I'll be $2600 in the hole instead of $3,600

This still fucking blows. :(

[Le Rouge]

There's a nice bottle of windex on my desk. I want to drink it for some reason. I need to move it off my desk, because it'll happen one day otherwise.

I had a real pour your heart out, but power out.

DONT DO THAT! lol Don't kill yourself please!

[Crux]

I am pondering whetever I just hate this town or I am seriously getting into a depression again. They're hard to tell apart.

[Le Rouge]

@Canis Lupus

Buy a new car! I got a decent civic 2001 DX for 2200 bucks. REALLY clean inside, and reliable on the outside.

[Prometeo liberado]

There's a nice bottle of windex on my desk. I want to drink it for some reason. I need to move it off my desk, because it'll happen one day otherwise.

I had a real pour your heart out, but power out.

Not a wise idea. It's a very slow and painful way to check out. Life wouldn't be as interesting without the lows. Cheer up.

[NewLeft]

DONT DO THAT! lol Don't kill yourself please!
lol If I stopped posting one day, you know what happened.


Not a wise idea. It's a very slow and painful way to check out. Life wouldn't be as interesting without the lows. Cheer up.
It seems too hard to explain with words.. Too bad I can't play an instrument or something, cause I know the tune of exactly how I feel. Slow and painful death, huh? There's my dramatic exit.

Yeah, don't worry about me, I don't really know how I'm feeling half the time. lol

[Le Rouge]

I seriously think we are raping the PYHO thread... :(


:D

[lombas]

Slow and painful death, huh? There's my dramatic exit.

It would be very dramatic if you changed your mind after having drunk a chemical liquid because of the pain the slow death is giving you...

;)

If you want to kill yourself, do it in a way it's over in a matter of seconds --- that way there's not only no way back, but also no way of regretting there's no way back.

This makes me think of a report I had to write on suicide a couple of months ago. You would be surprised how many people kill themselves in front of a train... Seems scary, because it can take a while before a train gets there. Unless you do it in a station, and that's just plain disgusting.

[9]

totally tanked :( not feeling so good

[Искра]

My mind is like a plastic bag....

[Nox]

Question about college/university: Is it viable or even useful to have a car if you live on campus?

[bricolage]

Question about college/university: Is it viable or even useful to have a car if you live on campus?
completely dependent on where you are but I'm generally of an opinion that a car isn't very necessary in most UK cities.
what university are you looking at?

[Lanky Wanker]

There's a nice bottle of windex on my desk. I want to drink it for some reason. I need to move it off my desk, because it'll happen one day otherwise.

I had a real pour your heart out, but power out.

DO IT DO IT DO IT!



I'm kidding... try injecting it instead, feels way better.

[Quail]

Reading the news is really depressing for me at the moment. I feel totally powerless to do anything about all these awful new government policies I keep reading about and I think it's contributing towards my mental health issues because it makes me feel really anxious about the future.

Also, I have such a bad fear of wasps that going outside makes me constantly anxious and worried and I feel sick all the time. It really sucks.

[dodger]

It would be very dramatic if you changed your mind after having drunk a chemical liquid because of the pain the slow death is giving you...

;)

If you want to kill yourself, do it in a way it's over in a matter of seconds --- that way there's not only no way back, but also no way of regretting there's no way back.

This makes me think of a report I had to write on suicide a couple of months ago. You would be surprised how many people kill themselves in front of a train... Seems scary, because it can take a while before a train gets there. Unless you do it in a station, and that's just plain disgusting.

Thanks for that useful suggestion "let the train take the strain!", lombas. In addition the driver will get 3 days paid leave and a break from humdrum routine to attend Coroners Court. I once found an arm with a Longines watch and a 23 gold ring and bracelet. What good fortune...........Just sitting by the side of the track...the voice inside my head said ">>>>>//***!?!!11 " and I did.:blushing::blushing::blushing::blushing::blush ing::scared::scared::scared::laugh::laugh::laugh:: laugh::laugh::confused::confused::confused::rolley es::rolleyes::rolleyes::cool::cool::cool::(:(:(:( It made sense at the time............

[Franz Fanonipants]

literally dreamed my entire final research paper for this borderlands history seminar this morning.

on fucking fire.

[Landsharks eat metal]

Suicidal Tuesdays :/
It's been exactly a week, and fuck it all.

[Bronco]

Question about college/university: Is it viable or even useful to have a car if you live on campus?

Generally students can't/don't have cars there in first year when living on campus because they aren't really necessary and it's hard to find parking, some have them up in later years when they're not in Uni accommodation anymore but I still wouldn't say it's of that much importance

[lombas]

Thanks for that useful suggestion "let the train take the strain!", lombas. In addition the driver will get 3 days paid leave and a break from humdrum routine to attend Coroners Court. I once found an arm with a Longines watch and a 23 gold ring and bracelet. What good fortune...........Just sitting by the side of the track...the voice inside my head said ">>>>>//***!?!!11 " and I did.:blushing::blushing::blushing::blushing::blush ing::scared::scared::scared::laugh::laugh::laugh:: laugh::laugh::confused::confused::confused::rolley es::rolleyes::rolleyes::cool::cool::cool::(:(:(:( It made sense at the time............

Mmmh. Yeesssss. Well, you see, ehm, I work for a railroad infrastructure manager so if you would please not do anything in the vicinity of trains that can even be remotely interpreted as a suicide attempt? Please? Because ehm, mmmh, otherwise it might pop up on my desk and there are enough cases already.

And it doesn't matter where you are, of course, somebody does my job over there.*






* There's more to my job, of course. I just write fancy reports on ... anything. But I hate writing them. Mkay?


PS: train conductors in my country often do several months of administrative work after having experienced a suicide and there has been one case of a person who had six in a couple of years and who was retired early because of psychological reasons.

[lombas]

Question about college/university: Is it viable or even useful to have a car if you live on campus?

Wot? A car just to drive to school? You capitalist bourgeois extravagant pig!








:D

[dodger]

Mmmh. Yeesssss. Well, you see, ehm, I work for a railroad infrastructure manager so if you would please not do anything in the vicinity of trains that can even be remotely interpreted as a suicide attempt? Please? Because ehm, mmmh, otherwise it might pop up on my desk and there are enough cases already.

And it doesn't matter where you are, of course, somebody does my job over there.*






* There's more to my job, of course. I just write fancy reports on ... anything. But I hate writing them. Mkay?


PS: train conductors in my country often do several months of administrative work after having experienced a suicide and there has been one case of a person who had six in a couple of years and who was retired early because of psychological reasons.

exactly lombas.....as a retired train driver on the tube in London I heartily concur .....seems if you can face a train hurtling towards you---surely you can face life's problems. Not always it seems,,,,anyhow best not to dwell on the subject I guess....others misery. Though we both have stories to tell!!!!

[Leftsolidarity]

exactly lombas.....as a retired train driver on the tube in London I heartily concur .....seems if you can face a train hurtling towards you---surely you can face life's problems. Not always it seems,,,,anyhow best not to dwell on the subject I guess....others misery. Though we both have stories to tell!!!!

I thought that was really cool

[thriller]

Lately I feel like I don't fit in anywhere. My hometown is a cesspool of reactionary scum. My current town seems just filled with either hippies, preps, or people who are just SO above me. I liked California, but everyone there seemed either a). To stoned to give a fuck about anything or b). To hardxcore to give a fuck about anything. I always thought about moving to Germany since I'm pretty versed in German. But maybe it's me. Maybe I'm just too judgemental and sour to appreciate any sort of place or 'scene' or whatever.

[NewLeft]

Lately I feel like I don't fit in anywhere. My hometown is a cesspool of reactionary scum. My current town seems just filled with either hippies, preps, or people who are just SO above me. I liked California, but everyone there seemed either a). To stoned to give a fuck about anything or b). To hardxcore to give a fuck about anything. I always thought about moving to Germany since I'm pretty versed in German. But maybe it's me. Maybe I'm just too judgemental and sour to appreciate any sort of place or 'scene' or whatever.
All the hipsters, preps, hippies.. They all act the same if they're all from the same neighborhood. They're just pretending.

I get what you mean though, I feel like an outlier.

[NewLeft]

It would be very dramatic if you changed your mind after having drunk a chemical liquid because of the pain the slow death is giving you...

;)

If you want to kill yourself, do it in a way it's over in a matter of seconds --- that way there's not only no way back, but also no way of regretting there's no way back.

This makes me think of a report I had to write on suicide a couple of months ago. You would be surprised how many people kill themselves in front of a train... Seems scary, because it can take a while before a train gets there. Unless you do it in a station, and that's just plain disgusting.
Thanks for the tip. I'll keep that in mind.

[Nox]

completely dependent on where you are but I'm generally of an opinion that a car isn't very necessary in most UK cities.
what university are you looking at?

University of Bristol, and I will be living in the Student Halls.

[NewLeft]

Fucking hell, university talk in this thread too. Everyone has gotten into their programs and I am struggling to even get the cut off mark. Nevermind getting in, this is just to get my application read. :(

[Leftsolidarity]

Lately I feel like I don't fit in anywhere. My hometown is a cesspool of reactionary scum. My current town seems just filled with either hippies, preps, or people who are just SO above me. I liked California, but everyone there seemed either a). To stoned to give a fuck about anything or b). To hardxcore to give a fuck about anything. I always thought about moving to Germany since I'm pretty versed in German. But maybe it's me. Maybe I'm just too judgemental and sour to appreciate any sort of place or 'scene' or whatever.

We both live in wisconsin. We should chill sometime haha

Now that I think about it, it would be great if I could get you contacts of good comrades I know around here. Maybe that would just help you in general. It's always good to build connections.

[Deicide]

Nox, get a motorbike, you'll save yourself a shitload of cash (car insurance is ridiculous) and you'll have more fun! 125cc are cheap and a lot of fun. But of course, it's up to you, etc, etc.

http://www.motorcyclenews.com/ImgGalleryTn/54/246654/65881_224326.jpg

http://www.motorcycle-showcase.com/wp-content/uploads/2012/03/Yamaha-WR125X-4.jpg

[Zukunftsmusik]

Lately I feel like I don't fit in anywhere. My hometown is a cesspool of reactionary scum. My current town seems just filled with either hippies, preps, or people who are just SO above me. I liked California, but everyone there seemed either a). To stoned to give a fuck about anything or b). To hardxcore to give a fuck about anything. I always thought about moving to Germany since I'm pretty versed in German. But maybe it's me. Maybe I'm just too judgemental and sour to appreciate any sort of place or 'scene' or whatever.

If you have the money and the ability to go to Germany or wherever for a longer period of time, that could actually be helpful, could it not? If you're so tired of "home", I mean.

[Искра]

my muslim friend scared everybody in tram today because she started to scream my name and since she used to be a punk (before she found Allah) she has KILL SCUM tattoed on her fists (and 2 x's)... it was funny :D

I don't know does this belong here... but this was happy time so fuck you depresed people, cause I'll be like you in a 10 minutes.

[Landsharks eat metal]

I can't stop myself from doing stupid things, no matter how minor they are. Like today we got another quiz in my English class about the newspaper, and I just wrote, "Fuck this" and turned it in like that. The professor didn't get angry, but that doesn't change the fact that it was yet another terrible decision of mine.

[Zukunftsmusik]

I can't stop myself from doing stupid things, no matter how minor they are. Like today we got another quiz in my English class about the newspaper, and I just wrote, "Fuck this" and turned it in like that. The professor didn't get angry, but that doesn't change the fact that it was yet another terrible decision of mine.

This is something we all do, minor or major. I have procrastinated several papers that I had to turn in several weeks ago. Did I finish them today? Hell no, I spent most of my time on Revleft and the internet. I guess we just have to deal with it somehow, "face the music" as [up-side-down?]Que? once wrote to me.

[Искра]

I can't stop myself from doing stupid things, no matter how minor they are.
I set myself on fire for fun few times.

I know how you feel.

[PC LOAD LETTER]

I set myself on fire for fun few times.

I know how you feel.
I did this once. Well, I set my jeans on fire. I asked someone waiting for the marta train if they'd give me some money if I did it. They just looked at me, so I busted out my lighter and lit that shit up. The dude jogged down to the other side of the platform. My leg got blistered. :(

[NewLeft]

Set your hand on fire with liquid isoprop? I'm not sure which one it was.. I did it once before, you don't even feel the flame.

[Franz Fanonipants]

Set your hand on fire with liquid isoprop? I'm not sure which one it was.. I did it once before, you don't even feel the flame.

until the liquid burns off

guys stop w/the self-abuse brags

[NewLeft]

until the liquid burns off

guys stop w/the self-abuse brags
no it was fun in the lab

[bricolage]

University of Bristol, and I will be living in the Student Halls.
from what little I know of bristol, no you don't need a car.

[Lobotomy]

1. I need to be more spontaneous
2. I hate this town
3. no
4. I thought that if I stopped smoking weed for a few weeks, maybe I wouldn't be such a dumbass. TURNS OUT I'M A DUMBASS ANYWAY LOL
5. sat down at the piano last week and wrote some music. very little, but still, I haven't done that in years.
6. Boring echoes
7. I keep having disgusting dreams
8. fuck you
9. fuck me.

[Le Rouge]

Does anyone can make a Post Apocalyptic friends list thread II?

[NewLeft]

Does anyone can make a Post Apocalyptic friends list thread II?
asking the wrong people.. you should do it, boss

[Workers-Control-Over-Prod]

Lately I feel like I don't fit in anywhere. My hometown is a cesspool of reactionary scum. My current town seems just filled with either hippies, preps, or people who are just SO above me. I liked California, but everyone there seemed either a). To stoned to give a fuck about anything or b). To hardxcore to give a fuck about anything. I always thought about moving to Germany since I'm pretty versed in German. But maybe it's me. Maybe I'm just too judgemental and sour to appreciate any sort of place or 'scene' or whatever.

Don't move here, the people are a lot more brainwashed here. People actually read the capitalist propaganda daily! It's horrible, sometimes you meet people who nearly get a heartattack and think a communist is the same as a nazi. It's fucking horrible.

[Pretty Flaco]

I can't stop myself from doing stupid things, no matter how minor they are. Like today we got another quiz in my English class about the newspaper, and I just wrote, "Fuck this" and turned it in like that. The professor didn't get angry, but that doesn't change the fact that it was yet another terrible decision of mine.

at least you turned it in. i remember at my old school if you didn't turn something in then you got a automatic 50% because it was school policy. so some people wouldn't turn it in if they thought they'd get lower. some people didn't turn in a single thing and just went with the 50%. and of course some people didn't bother to go at all.

[gorillafuck]

guys stop w/the self-abuse bragsbe a bit more sympathetic

[Lanky Wanker]

I really need more leftists in my Facebook friends list... either that or I should avoid political posts. Kinda pointless posting obviously anti-capitalist crap when the only comments you get are "they worked hard! z0mg", other than one socialist friend.



Like today we got another quiz in my English class about the newspaper, and I just wrote, "Fuck this" and turned it in like that.

I'd love to do that. If I had a terminal illness or something and no longer needed school I'd totally do it... I don't want a terminal illness though.

[Lanky Wanker]

Don't move here, the people are a lot more brainwashed here. People actually read the capitalist propaganda daily! It's horrible, sometimes you meet people who nearly get a heartattack and think a communist is the same as a nazi. It's fucking horrible.

I'd be more scared of the Nazis themselves. I read a story about two Greek guys getting beat up by a gang of boneheads in Germany... what happened to white pride worldwide? :confused: Anyway, a gang of Turks saved them which was good to hear. :D Apparently they like beating up Americans and any other immigrants/visitors too, regardless of race.

[NewLeft]

What should I do for motivation?


I really need more leftists in my Facebook friends list... either that or I should avoid political posts. Kinda pointless posting obviously anti-capitalist crap when the only comments you get are "they worked hard! z0mg", other than one socialist friend.
Just avoid political posts.

[Lanky Wanker]

What should I do for motivation?


Well, drugs usually help... other than that it depends on what you want motivation for.



Just avoid political posts.

I was looking for attention, stop ruining it for me. :crying: I only have 72 Facebook friends *mental breakdown* I'm not trendy enough to live in this world!!!

[Le Rouge]

I was looking for attention, stop ruining it for me. :crying: I only have 72 Facebook friends *mental breakdown* I'm not trendy enough to live in this world!!!

I have 78 facebook friends. I often wonder how some people do to have 900+ friends on FB...Do they know everyone of them?

[Workers-Control-Over-Prod]

What should I do for motivation?

For what?

[Per Levy]

I have 78 facebook friends. I often wonder how some people do to have 900+ friends on FB...Do they know everyone of them?

of course not, they're probally just friend collector or whatever.

[NewLeft]

I have 78 facebook friends. I often wonder how some people do to have 900+ friends on FB...Do they know everyone of them?
These are the people who get burned/screwed in fights/jobs.. Cause everyone sees all their shit.

[Pretty Flaco]

i have too much caffeine and i feel like if i dont stop having so much im gonna have health problems. how can i cut my usage?

[Lanky Wanker]

I have 78 facebook friends. I often wonder how some people do to have 900+ friends on FB...Do they know everyone of them?

Exactly! (I just typed out a response then refreshed the page by accident so I forgot what I said :glare:). With MySpace it was the more friends you had the less you had in real life, with Facebook it's the opposite. If you have like 20 friends you have 200 on Facebook, and if you have 30 friends you have 300. A year or two ago I had some knobend from school add me who I hadn't spoken to in like 5 years at the time, and even then it was only a few words. WHY DO I CARE ABOUT YOUR LIFE???

Oh, messy internet.

Chance to post a song. ;)
83BRULUXqlI

[NewLeft]

i have too much caffeine and i feel like if i dont stop having so much im gonna have health problems. how can i cut my usage?
where are you getting the caffeine from

[Pretty Flaco]

where are you getting the caffeine from

i drink a lot of coffee and then i blow too much of my money on energy drinks.

[gorillafuck]

energy drinks are all horrible.

[Pretty Flaco]

well i drink them when i get really tired. i think i just need to replace them with something in my diet that provides natural energy. but i dont know what does.

[NewLeft]

well i drink them when i get really tired. i think i just need to replace them with something in my diet that provides natural energy. but i dont know what does.
are you always tired?

[Lanky Wanker]

Is it just me or does NewLeft thank like 99% of the posts with his name in them? Stormfront trolls could gain our trust by making friends with him and gaining huge rep quickly. I knew he was a feckin' Nazi.

[gorillafuck]

he and theoneontheleft have turned the music thread into a rep machine, if my rep was showing it'd be so high from them both

[NewLeft]

he and theoneontheleft have turned the music thread into a rep machine, if my rep was showing it'd be so high from them both
HEY I actually listen to the music in the thread, listening to the queers, thanks z

[Lanky Wanker]

he and theoneontheleft have turned the music thread into a rep machine, if my rep was showing it'd be so high from them both

PYHO is pretty much a rep machine as well lol. I think if it weren't for him I'd have about 200 rep points right now. That mean ol' socialist ******* website was making fun of us for gaining all our rep through posting smart one liners. :(

EDIT: wtf, it starred out the P word...

[PC LOAD LETTER]

PYHO is pretty much a rep machine as well lol. I think if it weren't for him I'd have about 200 rep points right now. That mean ol' socialist ******* website was making fun of us for gaining all our rep through posting smart one liners. :(

EDIT: wtf, it starred out the P word...
We aren't allowed to discuss ancient Greek military formations or finger/toe bones in the singular form.

[Landsharks eat metal]

I got invited to a classical guitar concert with a friend. The only problem with that is that I had to call her on the phone because I had missed her message. I am so terrified of calling people on the phone, even friends. She had left me her cell number, but the one digit was inaudible, so I had to use her home phone number. I don't even know how long it took me to get up the courage to call, but my parents got really irritated at me and I was mostly hyperventilating and wanting to find somewhere to hide.

I eventually ended up being able to call her, and it's going to be a lot of fun, but I'm still really freaked out about everything, to the point where I just want to disappear.

[NewLeft]

I eventually ended up being able to call her, and it's going to be a lot of fun, but I'm still really freaked out about everything, to the point where I just want to disappear.
LEM, I have the sudden urge to dance. Will you dance with me?
http://m.blog.hu/la/labigabi/image/dance-smiley-smiley-4988792-100-100.gif

[Landsharks eat metal]

LEM, I have the sudden urge to dance. Will you dance with me?
http://m.blog.hu/la/labigabi/image/dance-smiley-smiley-4988792-100-100.gif

Smileys made me lol

[NewLeft]

Smileys made me lol
I know http://forums.ratedesi.com/images/smilies/icon_hug.gif

[Le Rouge]

I think this is my favorite thread on revleft. I wouldn't go on that website anymore if it wasn't this thread.

[Le Rouge]

I got invited to a classical guitar concert with a friend. The only problem with that is that I had to call her on the phone because I had missed her message. I am so terrified of calling people on the phone, even friends. She had left me her cell number, but the one digit was inaudible, so I had to use her home phone number. I don't even know how long it took me to get up the courage to call, but my parents got really irritated at me and I was mostly hyperventilating and wanting to find somewhere to hide.

I eventually ended up being able to call her, and it's going to be a lot of fun, but I'm still really freaked out about everything, to the point where I just want to disappear.

Classic guitar is the shit! :) Happy for you that you're going to that concert.
I also HATE calling people on the phone...:glare:

[NewLeft]

I think this is my favorite thread on revleft. I wouldn't go on that website anymore if it wasn't this thread.
Fuck, I really do thank every post.

Personal challenge: Don't thank a post for 24 hours. http://www.freesmileys.org/smileys/smiley-sick007.gif I am going to explode after the 24 hours are up. I will thank every single post possible.

I like coaches. I fell asleep on a coach at school.. I woke up and it was already 3rd period.. That means I slept from first period, second and lunch. I wonder how many people noticed..

[Le Rouge]

Fuck, I really do thank every post.

Personal challenge: Don't thank a post for 24 hours. http://www.freesmileys.org/smileys/smiley-sick007.gif I am going to explode after the 24 hours are up. I will thank every single post possible.

I like coaches. I fell asleep on a coach at school.. I woke up and it was already 3rd period.. That means I slept from first period, second and lunch. I wonder how many people noticed..

Good luck!

What's a coach?
And why did you went to school that day? LOL

[NewLeft]

Good luck!

What's a coach?
And why did you went to school that day? LOL
Wow, I can't spell coa..Coa..COUCH, damnit. Finally.

Couch/sofa.. That's what I meant.

I went to surprise my teacher.

[Leftsolidarity]

Fuck, I really do thank every post.

Personal challenge: Don't thank a post for 24 hours. http://www.freesmileys.org/smileys/smiley-sick007.gif I am going to explode after the 24 hours are up. I will thank every single post possible.

I like coaches. I fell asleep on a coach at school.. I woke up and it was already 3rd period.. That means I slept from first period, second and lunch. I wonder how many people noticed..

But I love you Newleft and I love your thanks


@Landsharks- You know it could have been only 1 of 10 numbers that was inaudible. You could have just started at 1 and kept going til you got the right number and didn't have to call the house lol

[NewLeft]

But I love you Newleft and I love your thanks


@Landsharks- You know it could have been only 1 of 10 numbers that was inaudible. You could have just started at 1 and kept going til you got the right number and didn't have to call the house lol
I did that once, I ended up sending my text to some guy who wouldn't stop sending me replies..

I've been here for months and I still get confused by NewLeft. lol Who is NewLeft?? IDK
FUCCCCCK. I thanked a post. http://www.chimpout.com/forum/images/smilies/facepalm.gif

[Leftsolidarity]

I did that once, I ended up sending my text to some guy who wouldn't stop sending me replies..


FUCCCCCK. I thanked a post. http://www.chimpout.com/forum/images/smilies/facepalm.gif

HA! I GOT YOU TO THANK IT!!!!! :lol:

[Le Rouge]

I did that once, I ended up sending my text to some guy who wouldn't stop sending me replies..

I've been here for months and I still get confused by NewLeft. lol Who is NewLeft?? IDK
FUCCCCCK. I thanked a post. http://www.chimpout.com/forum/images/smilies/facepalm.gif

:laugh: I knew you wouldn't last long.

[NewLeft]

Okay, this is just pathetic. I can't stop thanking posts, that's against my human nature.

Off to study for big French test. :glare: Wish me luck.

[¿Que?]

This post deserves aboslutely no thanks. DO NOT THANK this post at all, it is worthless, and deserves to be shot.











(call it a social experiment)

[Le Rouge]

This post deserves aboslutely no thanks. DO NOT THANK this post at all, it is worthless, and deserves to be shot.











(call it a social experiment)

'kay

[9]

Hi. I am startig to hate revleft, tho, and feel like I should stop posting here.

[9]

but then again i am mostly just drunk :(

[lombas]

Why does food in cooking programs always looks and seems to taste better than when you make it yourself?

[Lanky Wanker]

What's a coach?


Silly foreign people...

[Lanky Wanker]

This post deserves aboslutely no thanks. DO NOT THANK this post at all, it is worthless, and deserves to be shot.











(call it a social experiment)

I know what you want me to do... I shall resist!

[thriller]

I can't stop myself from doing stupid things, no matter how minor they are. Like today we got another quiz in my English class about the newspaper, and I just wrote, "Fuck this" and turned it in like that. The professor didn't get angry, but that doesn't change the fact that it was yet another terrible decision of mine.

You fucking rock! Yeah maybe it wasn't the best for your quiz grade, but that is hilarious. You got guts.

[Landsharks eat metal]

You fucking rock! Yeah maybe it wasn't the best for your quiz grade, but that is hilarious. You got guts.
I wouldn't have done it, but when I jokingly mentioned someone should do that since everyone hates the professor and was hesitant to do it, one of the other guys said something I didn't quite catch about "no balls". I know this is a stupid reason, but that's the only class where people accept me as male, so I didn't want the idea spreading that I have no balls (if they haven't already figured out that I'm transgender.)

[Lanky Wanker]

Is anyone here a member on any other leftist or generally political forums? I just joined the Socialist Ph***** (naughty word, eh?) forum to see what the whole idea is behind left-wing nationalism. I found it kinda weird at first that nationalists and internationalists could co-exist on a forum without wanting to murder each other.


I wouldn't have done it, but when I jokingly mentioned someone should do that since everyone hates the professor and was hesitant to do it, one of the other guys said something I didn't quite catch about "no balls". I know this is a stupid reason, but that's the only class where people accept me as male, so I didn't want the idea spreading that I have no balls (if they haven't already figured out that I'm transgender.)

Being obviously somewhat open about your gender in school tells me you have more balls than I would if I were transgendered (though in that case it might not be a bad thing).

[PC LOAD LETTER]

This is no longer "Pour Your Heart Out"

[TheGodlessUtopian]

Urgh, shit is going down here: the women we are boarding with believes we are "setting her up" (which is bullshit) so she is moving out as soon as possible. Here is the kicker though: we, my family, can't afford this place by ourselves so if this other women does move out than we are going to have to find a new place to live pretty goddamn soon.

If it sounds aggravating than keep in mind that it is much worse in person as I am wondering how this will fit in with the events I have planned and how funds will be handled.

[Decolonize The Left]

We need a mod for this thread to warn people who post nonsensical shit that belongs in Chit Chat and/or random shit that belongs in another thread.

Like, say, the post above mine.

As for TGU, I'm sorry to hear that. Have you and your fam looked for another sub-letter yet?

- August

[Leftsolidarity]

We need a mod for this thread to warn people who post nonsensical shit that belongs in Chit Chat and/or random shit that belongs in another thread.

- August

I completely agree with this!!!

[Landsharks eat metal]

Tomorrow someone is coming to the meeting of Allies club with a camera so they can make a video for a sociology class about bullying of LGBT students. I'm thinking of participating openly (letting them show my face and not just use my voice), and talking about how I'm afraid to be open with some people about being FtM because of bullying. I think I'm going to end up doing it either way, but I'm really terrified. I don't know who else is in this girl's class, if there's anyone who knows me in there... and I'm also really horrible at talking.

I feel like this is something I have to do, but I'm terrified.

[Luc]

you could write a script and get someone else to read it. like an actor, they do this with people who are fearful of a response to what they say in other things.

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to mods we can still give advice and replies right?

[Lobotomy]

Tomorrow someone is coming to the meeting of Allies club with a camera so they can make a video for a sociology class about bullying of LGBT students. I'm thinking of participating openly (letting them show my face and not just use my voice), and talking about how I'm afraid to be open with some people about being FtM because of bullying. I think I'm going to end up doing it either way, but I'm really terrified. I don't know who else is in this girl's class, if there's anyone who knows me in there... and I'm also really horrible at talking.

I feel like this is something I have to do, but I'm terrified.

I bet you'll feel good about it once you've done it :)

[NewLeft]

I had a day off today.. So I went with my bud to volunteer at the food bank. It was brutal.. Management expected us to package 1000 items in half an hour. We did this for 3 hours. http://i67.photobucket.com/albums/h308/JMAC_suga_BaBi_27/smiley%20faces/mood_exhausted.gifWe probably got through maybe 500 in an hour.. I should have been paid for doing work that intense. My trainer was an asshole. I cut my finger on a sharp can and I got blood on a Kraft dinner box and I went to report it and she just flipped at me and told me to stop wasting time. She said to just wipe off the blood. Does that not break sanitation laws or something? Someone donated pancake mix that they opened and used a rubber band to close. So when I tossed it into the box, powder got all over my pants and some old lady. :blushing: There was no restrooms either. Fuck food banks.

[TheGodlessUtopian]

As for TGU, I'm sorry to hear that. Have you and your fam looked for another sub-letter yet?

- August

No, not yet. We literally only got wind of this earlier this morning (so hours ago). I don't think my parents are too keen on having another family move in to help with bills so we will probably look for another place.

At any rate, as soon as this other woman gets home we are going to have a talk and get things settled. Supposedly, she is going to take on a job as a traveling nurse (and make more money). This way she has "freedom" (because you know, we "took her house from her), the rent gets paid, and my brother and his wife would be able to move in and stay until the pigs ship him out (he and his wife are having financial difficulties of their own and were nearly on the street: they earn $650 while their rent is $600).

So if that happened we would actually be well off but,as I said,anything could happen between now and tomorrow so we shall have to wait and see.

[Lanky Wanker]

Tomorrow someone is coming to the meeting of Allies club with a camera so they can make a video for a sociology class about bullying of LGBT students. I'm thinking of participating openly (letting them show my face and not just use my voice), and talking about how I'm afraid to be open with some people about being FtM because of bullying. I think I'm going to end up doing it either way, but I'm really terrified. I don't know who else is in this girl's class, if there's anyone who knows me in there... and I'm also really horrible at talking.

I feel like this is something I have to do, but I'm terrified.

I'd feel the same way. Just be happy that you're helping other people though, it can only do good.


I cut my finger on a sharp can and I got blood on a Kraft dinner box and I went to report it and she just flipped at me and told me to stop wasting time. She said to just wipe off the blood.

Sounds like she wasn't having a very good day either...

[NewLeft]

I'd feel the same way. Just be happy that you're helping other people though, it can only do good.
You're right though, he's doing a great thing for others too. :thumbup1:

[Le Rouge]

We need a mod for this thread to warn people who post nonsensical shit that belongs in Chit Chat and/or random shit that belongs in another thread.

Like, say, the post above mine.

As for TGU, I'm sorry to hear that. Have you and your fam looked for another sub-letter yet?

- August

NO. :sneaky:

People! Let's acquire the means of moderation! :star3:

[X5N]

As I posted about in the last thread, I have a bizarre crush-but-not-really-a-crush on a person in my class -- a girl who goes by the name of Tony.

Despite my emotional reaction to her, I really have no interest in her. I just want to finish this class and forget about her. It's all really hard to explain.

Well...

I told a person in a group I have for a class project. She told this Tony person, and apparently she "likes [me] too."

I can't say I'm happy with the fact. Assuming it is a fact and I'm not being fucked with.

She didn't understand that I don't really like Tony, that I just have a dumb crush and no rational interest. So yeah...clusterfuck.

[Le Rouge]

She didn't understand that I don't really like Tony, that I just have a dumb crush and no rational interest. So yeah...clusterfuck.

Define : rational interest.

As far as i know, love is 70% emotional, 30% rational.

[X5N]

Define : rational interest.

As far as i know, love is 70% emotional, 30% rational.

I'll try...

I have what I can describe as a crush. But...

I cannot truly say "I have a crush on her" or "I love her." Because, even though I feel this way, I do not want a relationship with her. I don't even want a girlfriend at all. The idea does not appeal to me at all, when it doesn't absolutely repulse me.

It's like my emotions don't translate into real thoughts. Like most people can rationalize and acknowledge their emotions. I can't. I don't embrace these emotions. I reject them because they contradict how I rationally feel.

If that makes sense...

I would have rational interest in her if I were to connect conscious thought to emotion and could say "gee, I want to talk to her because she seems swell." But that isn't the case.

[A Revolutionary Tool]

Yesterday was amazing, my sister gave birth to a little boy. I got there at like 2pm after she was admitted to the hospital and waited for so long. She finally had him at 10:40. I got to be there when she was giving birth, I was all collected and super excited. Then the baby came out after about 3-4 pushes and then a very silent pause. Then it gave out this cry and out of nowhere I started crying, it was just so beautiful. Thankfully everybody else did too so I didn't look weird crying alone (the only one who didn't was my little sister, but I've long suspected she was a heartless demon child so I wasn't surprised).

But anyways, yeah, it was well worth the wait and just an altogether amazing sight. It was crazy telling my great grandma that she was now a great-great-grandma too, the look on her face...She's freakin' 91!

[thriller]

Tomorrow someone is coming to the meeting of Allies club with a camera so they can make a video for a sociology class about bullying of LGBT students. I'm thinking of participating openly (letting them show my face and not just use my voice), and talking about how I'm afraid to be open with some people about being FtM because of bullying. I think I'm going to end up doing it either way, but I'm really terrified. I don't know who else is in this girl's class, if there's anyone who knows me in there... and I'm also really horrible at talking.

I feel like this is something I have to do, but I'm terrified.

Speaking up and doing what's right can be horrifying because of backlash/bullying/etc... But sounds like you might be able to come out of your shell and be more open and... proud of your trangenderism maybe? Either way, good luck and remember: there are probably other transgenders who may be too afraid to open up, and by you doing it, they will feel safer.

[NewLeft]

I want to punch the shit out of someone..

[Landsharks eat metal]

It turned out the video thing didn't end up happening. Either I missed it or she just never showed up. I was kind of a bit sad because I ended up getting myself kind of fired up about it.

But something good did happen today. I was walking to the club meeting with a girl from the class I had right before (who happens to be the club treasurer also), and she said she had something that she needed to talk to me about. I was kind of nervous because usually that means I did something to make someone mad. But she said that the girl that I sit next to in that class had passed her a note saying she noticed that I had cuts on my wrists and she wanted help in figuring out how to talk to me about it. So she told me that I could talk to her or anyone else in the club about any time. I ended up telling her that I had tried to kill myself (she was the first person outside the internet I've told), and she gave me about three hugs and just offered support for anything I might need.

I feel so loved.:)

[Hermes]

I'll try...

I have what I can describe as a crush. But...

I cannot truly say "I have a crush on her" or "I love her." Because, even though I feel this way, I do not want a relationship with her. I don't even want a girlfriend at all. The idea does not appeal to me at all, when it doesn't absolutely repulse me.

It's like my emotions don't translate into real thoughts. Like most people can rationalize and acknowledge their emotions. I can't. I don't embrace these emotions. I reject them because they contradict how I rationally feel.

If that makes sense...

I would have rational interest in her if I were to connect conscious thought to emotion and could say "gee, I want to talk to her because she seems swell." But that isn't the case.

So, do you just feel attracted to her? If it's just that there's no romantic feeling, then there's nothing odd about that at all.

If your friend actually told her though, you may want to tell her that you're not interested in a relationship, and fairly quickly.

[Salyut]

Poured out my feelings to my friend last night. She took it really well, and we can stay friends.

...I feel gutted but relieved. :s

[Leftsolidarity]

I spent the afternoon with my girlfriend just lying around talking. It was really nice.

Now I'm about to be off for Detriot to go to a conference against foreclosures with some other comrades.

Leftsolidarity is getting all the bases covered and it makes him feel like a good person! :thumbup1:

[NewLeft]

Right now, I'm feeling relief..

I don't feel comfortable sharing things on here anymore, but I get relief in posting them.. Even if it's encrypted. Hope you understand. I know I post on here alot and account for like 99% of the spam, but I don't know.. I guess I just need this thread more than ever sometimes.

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[gorillafuck]

why do people feel less comfortable posting here now?:(

[Ele'ill]

I'm still really sick and am going to see a doctor tomorrow. This cold/flu thing has gone away twice leaving me feeling like I'm recovering with the majority of the symptoms being gone but then it comes back. The first time it came back it was real bad upper respiratory and sinus infection type stuff with a fever higher than it was before like the worst I've ever had and then today it went away again but now it's starting up again with the coughing and fever. I've lost a lot of weight. I've been sick since St Patrick's day.

[TheGodlessUtopian]

Now I'm about to be off for Detriot to go to a conference against foreclosures with some other comrades.

Leftsolidarity is getting all the bases covered and it makes him feel like a good person! :thumbup1:

Great to hear, you sound like me than.lol... I have a conference in April, another conference in May, than the major AIDS activism conference in June and sometime in August I will probably be heading to my party's convention.

I feel less lazy :p

[Pretty Flaco]

I'm still really sick and am going to see a doctor tomorrow. This cold/flu thing has gone away twice leaving me feeling like I'm recovering with the majority of the symptoms being gone but then it comes back. The first time it came back it was real bad upper respiratory and sinus infection type stuff with a fever higher than it was before like the worst I've ever had and then today it went away again but now it's starting up again with the coughing and fever. I've lost a lot of weight. I've been sick since St Patrick's day.

that sounds completely terrible. i hope you'll get better very soon!

[NewLeft]

why do people feel less comfortable posting here now?:(
I don't know.. I don't think it has to do with the people (at least, in my case), everyone on this thread has been great and welcoming. So don't take it personally.

[Pretty Flaco]

jesus christ im in like the most awkward situation with the opposite sex.


1. i feel like i have a deep attraction and longing for this girl... but she's out of my reach. i know she used to have feelings for me and i could reignite those. but i wouldnt be able to be with her for at least another year because of where i currently live.

2. this girl is fucking stalking me and it's creepy as fuck. wtf is wrong with you.

3. this girl i had a fling with a long time ago and now she's trying to get me to be with her again... but if i had another fling with her itd cause a fucking ridiculous amount of drama.

4. this girl has been flirting with me and she's very nice(looking too) but im not attracted to her like that. she's cute and has a crush on me.

5. this girl told me outright that she has a huge crush on me. she's funny and we joke sexually sometimes, which makes me feel a bit uncomfortable because i feel like given the chance i would fuck with her but thatd make a messy situation. oh and her name is really fun to say and i say it a lot and she likes that. i think she thinks its sexy sometimes. i think she wants me to moan her name.

[Workers-Control-Over-Prod]

Wow, you people here have really active romantic lives :)
Personally, i am quite non-observant and emotionally shallow, i think culture has quite abit to do with this as well though.

[Ostrinski]

I hate couples. Can't fucking stand em

[NewLeft]

but i wouldnt be able to be with her for at least another year because of
wow that fucking sucks :(

[Vyacheslav Brolotov]

My friends keep on bothering me at the lunch table by touching my iPod, getting all up in my face to tell me stupid jokes, putting shit on my back like we're in third grade, and trying to talk to me while I'm doing my homework. Why can't they grow up and act like, or at least pretend, that they are high schoolers. I don't sleep a lot at night, so I get pissy during the day and one day I am going to end up punching one of them.

[¿Que?]

jesus christ im in like the most awkward situation with the opposite sex.


1. i feel like i have a deep attraction and longing for this girl... but she's out of my reach. i know she used to have feelings for me and i could reignite those. but i wouldnt be able to be with her for at least another year because of where i currently live.

2. this girl is fucking stalking me and it's creepy as fuck. wtf is wrong with you.

3. this girl i had a fling with a long time ago and now she's trying to get me to be with her again... but if i had another fling with her itd cause a fucking ridiculous amount of drama.

4. this girl has been flirting with me and she's very nice(looking too) but im not attracted to her like that. she's cute and has a crush on me.

5. this girl told me outright that she has a huge crush on me. she's funny and we joke sexually sometimes, which makes me feel a bit uncomfortable because i feel like given the chance i would fuck with her but thatd make a messy situation. oh and her name is really fun to say and i say it a lot and she likes that. i think she thinks its sexy sometimes. i think she wants me to moan her name.


yEAH, i LIKE THIS POST. :0

[¿Que?]

I hate couples. Can't fucking stand em
nO SHIT ME TOO. i HATE COUPLES, NOT ALL OF THEM, BUT A MAJPRITY OF THEM GET ON MY NERDS.

[PC LOAD LETTER]

jesus christ im in like the most awkward situation with the opposite sex.


1. i feel like i have a deep attraction and longing for this girl... but she's out of my reach. i know she used to have feelings for me and i could reignite those. but i wouldnt be able to be with her for at least another year because of where i currently live.

2. this girl is fucking stalking me and it's creepy as fuck. wtf is wrong with you.

3. this girl i had a fling with a long time ago and now she's trying to get me to be with her again... but if i had another fling with her itd cause a fucking ridiculous amount of drama.

4. this girl has been flirting with me and she's very nice(looking too) but im not attracted to her like that. she's cute and has a crush on me.

5. this girl told me outright that she has a huge crush on me. she's funny and we joke sexually sometimes, which makes me feel a bit uncomfortable because i feel like given the chance i would fuck with her but thatd make a messy situation. oh and her name is really fun to say and i say it a lot and she likes that. i think she thinks its sexy sometimes. i think she wants me to moan her name.


I had a stalker once. I was in 11th grade. She was pretty hot. She'd send me messages on MySpace and text me saying "I see you at [x] with [my girlfriend at the time]!! You're so cute together. We should hang out." or "I saw you at [xyz] today ..." ... "I like that shirt you wore to blahblah!". I think she just happened to be in a lot of the same places I was at the time instead of actually tracking me and following me around, but you never (and I don't) know.

The weird thing was, I'd never spoken to her. Ever. She knew me through mutual friends and gotten my number from one of them.

My real advice, though, is hang on to #1 if you want. But don't ... cliche alert ... don't count your chickens before they hatch. Anything could happen. What if you meet some awesome girl between now and then. Shit, what if she meets some abercrombie model next month. What I'm saying is don't reject what could be a fun and interesting relationship just to wait for someone who might not want to date you. But if you reconnect with her and a possibility for a relationship opens up, and you think you'll be happiest with her, then fuck it! Go for it!

nO SHIT ME TOO. i HATE COUPLES, NOT ALL OF THEM, BUT A MAJPRITY OF THEM GET ON MY NERDS.
A majority of them get on my nerds, too, Que. It's tough.

[TheGodlessUtopian]

So, the women we are living with apologized for being so crude and insulting us by saying we were setting her up but she still plans on moving out ASAP... as son as by the end of next month. So, in reaction to this, my parents are going to try and stay here. This is in despite the fact that rent is high and our car just broke down for the second time in as many weeks; this weekend we are going to go buy a new one (with what money I have no fucking idea). All's I can say is this: if they skip out on paying me back my conference funds and I miss the event I am not going to be a happy camper.

[Pretty Flaco]

wow that fucking sucks :(

honestly it makes me feel sort of full of myself. lol
im okay without having a relationship. in a relationship i like to have one that's open about everything. i like somebody that i can connect with, make me feel good, and have great sex with. i just got out of a one year relationship a month ago. honestly that one went on for way too long. i regret wasting my time with her, but i wouldnt tell her that.

and hopefully my employment status will change very soon. im waiting on a call back from a guy and im hoping that he'll set up an interview when he calls me back. ill be working in retail if i get this one and so far i feel pretty good about it.

[Pretty Flaco]

I had a stalker once. I was in 11th grade. She was pretty hot. She'd send me messages on MySpace and text me saying "I see you at [x] with [my girlfriend at the time]!! You're so cute together. We should hang out." or "I saw you at [xyz] today ..." ... "I like that shirt you wore to blahblah!". I think she just happened to be in a lot of the same places I was at the time instead of actually tracking me and following me around, but you never (and I don't) know.

The weird thing was, I'd never spoken to her. Ever. She knew me through mutual friends and gotten my number from one of them.



this girl thats stalking me is creepy as shit. she lives down the road from me but ive never had a conversation with her. i dont know how she got my number. last month she literally texted me 30 times without me responding once. one of the texts was while i was outside doing yardwork. she texts me "i see you!" the fucks up with that? and she also send me some real weird text asking me if i wanted to go to prom with her friend ive never met. it turns out that she sent it to every guy in her phone cuz a friend of mine got the same text too. he showed me his phone and she texts him almost as much as me and he hasnt responded since he asked who she was.

[Nox]

I had a stalker once. I was in 11th grade. She was pretty hot. She'd send me messages on MySpace and text me saying "I see you at [x] with [my girlfriend at the time]!! You're so cute together. We should hang out." or "I saw you at [xyz] today ..." ... "I like that shirt you wore to blahblah!". I think she just happened to be in a lot of the same places I was at the time instead of actually tracking me and following me around, but you never (and I don't) know.

The weird thing was, I'd never spoken to her. Ever. She knew me through mutual friends and gotten my number from one of them.

My real advice, though, is hang on to #1 if you want. But don't ... cliche alert ... don't count your chickens before they hatch. Anything could happen. What if you meet some awesome girl between now and then. Shit, what if she meets some abercrombie model next month. What I'm saying is don't reject what could be a fun and interesting relationship just to wait for someone who might not want to date you. But if you reconnect with her and a possibility for a relationship opens up, and you think you'll be happiest with her, then fuck it! Go for it!

A majority of them get on my nerds, too, Que. It's tough.



Lol, I wish I had a hot female stalker -.-