Pour Your Heart Out X

[Ele'ill]

Pour it out

Leaving the other thread sticky'd for a day so everyone can catch up on stuff

[Le Rouge]

:crying: First? What do i win?

(edit : Ok, i leave :D)

[NewLeft]

Everyone's out of town.. They're all going on the grad trip to Spain to some party island. I didn't really want to go, but it would be nice to go on vacation for once. I think the last time I went somewhere just for fun was like 10 years ago? The trip was $5000 just for the tickets and reservations, let alone clubs/drinks. There's no way in hell I could afford that. I'll just spend my day tomorrow reading.. Reading.. And then coming back to school after the break and talking about what you did..

[gorillafuck]

the long time friend who I mention sometimes (all aboard the patheticness train) is going to be back in under a week.

I'm trying to figure out things I could say or do to test the water to see how she might respond if I confessed how I actually feel to her (the patheticness train is going to gruesomely crash if I talk any more).

[PC LOAD LETTER]

Everyone's out of town.. They're all going on the grad trip to Spain to some party island. I didn't really want to go, but it would be nice to go on vacation for once. I think the last time I went somewhere just for fun was like 10 years ago? The trip was $5000 just for the tickets and reservations, let alone clubs/drinks. There's no way in hell I could afford that. I'll just spend my day tomorrow reading.. Reading.. And then coming back to school after the break and talking about what you did..
Do you have someplace nearby you where you can go camping? Or exploring? Fishing? That's always fun.


the long time friend who I mention sometimes (all aboard the patheticness train) is going to be back in under a week.

I'm trying to figure out things I could say or do to test the water to see how she might respond if I confessed how I actually feel to her (the patheticness train is going to gruesomely crash if I talk any more).
Don't be bashful

Let's hear it

[NewLeft]

the long time friend who I mention sometimes (all aboard the patheticness train) is going to be back in under a week.

I'm trying to figure out things I could say or do to test the water to see how she might respond if I confessed how I actually feel to her (the patheticness train is going to gruesomely crash if I talk any more).
You always seem to cut to the chase.. Why not..?

[NewLeft]

Do you have someplace nearby you where you can go camping? Or exploring? Fishing? That's always fun.

I might just get a job. I already waste my time anyway.

[Leftsolidarity]

It seems as if no one noticed this from Newleft's (I think) post.


It can't be too bad.. I got my wisdom tooth removed a couple of pages ago and I was dysfunctional for hours..

Are we really so attached to this thread that we now measure time by its pages?

[PC LOAD LETTER]

I might just get a job. I already waste my time anyway.
When I don't have a job I go crazy with boredom.

Tomorrow I'm supposed to go to this one place and give them my resume. Hopefully I'll hear back from them. But I'm not going to hold my breath. I hope I find something soon or I won't be able to pay my bills next month :unsure:

Jobs suck, but they pass the time and result in money for shit you need. Or, as I call it sometimes, imperial credits.

[NewLeft]

Are we really so attached to this thread that we now measure time by its pages?

I can't really think in time. I don't remember things in time for some reason. Ask me what I did yesterday and I wont remember..

[Pretty Flaco]

I can't really think in time. I don't remember things in time for some reason. Ask me what I did yesterday and I wont remember..

i have the same problem. people'll ask me what i did at a certain time and or when i did a certain thing and i honestly won't be able to remember. they might think im lying but it's hard. :(

[NewLeft]

When I don't have a job I go crazy with boredom.

Tomorrow I'm supposed to go to this one place and give them my resume. Hopefully I'll hear back from them. But I'm not going to hold my breath. I hope I find something soon or I won't be able to pay my bills next month :unsure:

Jobs suck, but they pass the time and result in money for shit you need. Or, as I call it sometimes, imperial credits.
Yeah.. I mean I found a couple of student jobs on weekdays. They're all after school and last 8 hours.. :glare: I will fall so behind in school if I did that..

[gorillafuck]

You always seem to cut to the chase.. Why not..?yeah but this is a lot more serious and socially complicated


Don't be bashful

Let's hear itread previous pourings of the heart

[Pretty Flaco]

damn you guys are responding so fuckin fast lol

[Le Rouge]

I say that in 14 days, we will close this thread.

[NewLeft]

It's a sad day when you can't even pour your heart out on the pour your heart out thread.. :mellow: With that said, I'll shut up. For good.

[Le Rouge]

It's a sad day when you can't even pour your heart out on the pour your heart out thread.. :mellow: With that said, I'll shut up. For good.

Indeed. I already poured my heart out :sleep:

[NewLeft]

Just another moody rant. Just felt like being a black hole tonight..

Outside of my home, I'm chill and always having a good time, but at home.. I have the worst of my days. My best memories are away from home. I like home, it's comfortable and all. My house is green and with all the plants at home, it always feels like I'm outdoors.. But the only times I've considered committing suicide were at home. It seems the most appropriate place. It's a hellhole.. The worst memories are at home, especially in my room. I live with other people, but only feel related to two of the three. I really wish I had a dad, not some guy who calls himself my dad. My least favorite day of the year is father's day. He's mentally ill, so it's hard to try and understand, but I can't tell anymore where the mental illness starts or where personality begins. I feel like he became my punch bag, that person who I hate just for the sake of hating because I hate other things/myself. But I've been traumatized by things he's done and seeming him today really ruined my mood for whatever reason. Other days, I wont mind. Makes me want to pull out my hair, why is this so frustrating/confusing.

[Ostrinski]

the long time friend who I mention sometimes (all aboard the patheticness train) is going to be back in under a week.

I'm trying to figure out things I could say or do to test the water to see how she might respond if I confessed how I actually feel to her (the patheticness train is going to gruesomely crash if I talk any more).do you feel like your heart is gonna jump out of your chest

[Le Rouge]

@Newleft
Get out of your home. Find an apt. and a job if you don't have one. You're 18+ I hope.



My heart out :
RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH. It's been 2hours, been throwing shit on messenger at a girl that i loved once...She still want to talk to me. I don't. I'm borderline insulting her...Don't know what to do. I hate her so much now. Can't find the will to block her.

[gorillafuck]

do you feel like your heart is gonna jump out of your chestyes yes this is precisely the feeling

[Ostrinski]

yes yes this is precisely the feelingAh.. I miss that feeling. So afflictive and agonizing when felt, but longed for when it's gone. Indescribable.

[Zukunftsmusik]

Okay, so I actually decided to skip school today, because on the bus with my girlfriend we realised that we were both fucking fed up with school, so when we got off the bus like 20 metres from the school, we just walked past it, went to a cafe and had coffee. Then we went back to school (during class so nobody saw us), picked up something I had left there, went to my place, played zelda, shared a mango, played some more, fooled around.

The scary part about skipping school is that you don't want to go back because you actually have fun. Luckily I have this whole weekend to build up enough courage/willpower to force myself to school on monday.

There were questions in the last thread about the norwegian school. Here it is for anyone who's interested:
Apparently I can't quote posts from the last PYHO, but Lanky Wanker had a question about how far you could go in insulting teachers, don't work etc. without getting in trouble for it. In high school you're given a lot of responsibility, so if you don't do homework, f.x., a teacher might give you a mark, others don't but say something like "well, it's your problem, do it next time, 'kay?" or they don't say anything at all and seem to think that "if he didn't do it, he didn't do it, but it's his/her own problem because I have less papers/hand-ins/homework to build his/her final grade on". But insulting teachers is a no-go. Not sure if you're punished for it, but you'll most likely get in a talk with teachers and parents and stuff. This is different from school to school, though. There are of course schools with poor mental environment, where students probably can do or say whatever they want to teachers or other students and get away with it.

Regarding one of CanisLupus' posts: You actually have school cops? What the fuck? Isn't that like openly admit that you're teated like, I dunno, inmates?

[PC LOAD LETTER]

Okay, so I actually decided to skip school today, because on the bus with my girlfriend we realised that we were both fucking fed up with school, so when we got off the bus like 20 metres from the school, we just walked past it, went to a cafe and had coffee. Then we went back to school (during class so nobody saw us), picked up something I had left there, went to my place, played zelda, shared a mango, played some more, fooled around.

The scary part about skipping school is that you don't want to go back because you actually have fun. Luckily I have this whole weekend to build up enough courage/willpower to force myself to school on monday.

There were questions in the last thread about the norwegian school. Here it is for anyone who's interested:
Apparently I can't quote posts from the last PYHO, but Lanky Wanker had a question about how far you could go in insulting teachers, don't work etc. without getting in trouble for it. In high school you're given a lot of responsibility, so if you don't do homework, f.x., a teacher might give you a mark, others don't but say something like "well, it's your problem, do it next time, 'kay?" or they don't say anything at all and seem to think that "if he didn't do it, he didn't do it, but it's his/her own problem because I have less papers/hand-ins/homework to build his/her final grade on". But insulting teachers is a no-go. Not sure if you're punished for it, but you'll most likely get in a talk with teachers and parents and stuff. This is different from school to school, though. There are of course schools with poor mental environment, where students probably can do or say whatever they want to teachers or other students and get away with it.

Regarding one of CanisLupus' posts: You actually have school cops? What the fuck? Isn't that like openly admit that you're teated like, I dunno, inmates?

Public school students in the US are treated like inmates. We used to kind of joke around about it. :unsure:

[Landsharks eat metal]

Damn... I wish I could just get shitfaced drunk to distract me from the loneliness and boredom, but all we have in the house is wine, and my parents would definitely notice if I took some. Or I could see if my sister left a photo ID around, see if I can make myself look feminine enough to resemble her and look 21 and walk 3 miles to a bar where I can't afford much anyway and people would probably end up figuring out I'm only 18, anyway. Bad idea.
Frustrated as fuck.

[Lanky Wanker]

Damn... I wish I could just get shitfaced drunk to distract me from the loneliness and boredom, but all we have in the house is wine, and my parents would definitely notice if I took some. Or I could see if my sister left a photo ID around, see if I can make myself look feminine enough to resemble her and look 21 and walk 3 miles to a bar where I can't afford much anyway and people would probably end up figuring out I'm only 18, anyway. Bad idea.
Frustrated as fuck.

Drink some perfume or aftershave, that has enough alcohol in it. :cool:

[NewLeft]

Today I woke up at 10 AM and my mom came into my room and asked if I wanted to go on vacation with a couple of other people.. What a coincidence. She also told me to skip school, so none of this getting to the phone and clearing the school message nonsense has to take place today.

[Landsharks eat metal]

Going through a box of old college letters... back when my future was bright and people believed in me. :crying:
How did I manage to fuck everything up so badly?

[NewLeft]

Going through a box of old college letters... back when my future was bright and people believed in me. :crying:
How did I manage to fuck everything up so badly?
I know what you mean! Looking back, I'm thinking what the fuck happened. I had so many good chances I missed. And by the way, I believe in you!!

[9]

took an addie and am now filling out 1248234982394873 job applications. does this even count as pouring my heart out? this has become my all purpose chit chat thread for some inexplicable reason. anyway, looked online earlier at the website for the community college in my city, and am thinking about doing the phlebotomy program. its short, more or less affordable, and a good trade in terms of job prospects. blah.

[NewLeft]

took an addie and am now filling out 1248234982394873 job applications. does this even count as pouring my heart out? this has become my all purpose chit chat thread for some inexplicable reason. anyway, looked online earlier at the website for the community college in my city, and am thinking about doing the phlebotomy program. its short, more or less affordable, and a good trade in terms of job prospects. blah.
I took one before while studying for exams.. I died the next day of sleep.

[9]

Damn... I wish I could just get shitfaced drunk to distract me from the loneliness and boredom, but all we have in the house is wine, and my parents would definitely notice if I took some. Or I could see if my sister left a photo ID around, see if I can make myself look feminine enough to resemble her and look 21 and walk 3 miles to a bar where I can't afford much anyway and people would probably end up figuring out I'm only 18, anyway.

Why? A lot of 21 year olds look like little kids, tbh. It wouldnt hurt to try.

[Lanky Wanker]

Just smoked some weed in my room out of the window... not a good idea, especially when you only have one lighter that's on its deathbed.

[TheGodlessUtopian]

Are we really so attached to this thread that we now measure time by its pages?

You say that as if it were a bad thing :tt2:

[Искра]

I feel good today. I just need to find my balls and I'll be perfect.

[TheGodlessUtopian]

Am worried for my partner... in a couple weeks or so he will be going to this place called "New Beginnings." While it seems they are completely dedicated to helping runaway youth,I am paranoid that they have a ulterior and are anti-queer; you know, those freaks that try and convince abused youth that the way they were born is unnatural and that they need to change.

I'm just disturbed...

[gorillafuck]

Ia, so shitfaced right niw

I cannot stiop thinkingnabot kissijg her. I want to:(

i willproably test the wayter by holding her hand and looking into nher face and she how she howreacts

omg i want to be ballsdeep in her wondefufl person

[Ostrinski]

Dentist visit was interesting. I was really nervous beforehand, then they doped me up on something that made me feel goofy. I had some kind of reaction to the anesthetic they shot me with which made my legs shake uncontrollably for a couple minutes. Then the hygienist offered to let me choose what music to listen to and I found out that she is as diehard a Radiohead fan as I and we spent like a half hour talking about alternative music. I think I fell in love with her. Then the procedure began and shit was fucked up. The instrument the dentist used to trim the crowns down to the point where she could cut them made a god awful high pitched noise. The noise of the pliers pulling the crowns off was also awful. The worst part was where they trimmed my teeth further down and I had to taste teeth shavings. So fucking disgusting, I gagged a couple times.

So there's the play by play.

[Ostrinski]

omg i want to be ballsdeep in her wondefufl personthis is gold

[NewLeft]

Am worried for my partner... in a couple weeks or so he will be going to this place called "New Beginnings." While it seems they are completely dedicated to helping runaway youth,I am paranoid that they have a ulterior and are anti-queer; you know, those freaks that try and convince abused youth that the way they were born is unnatural and that they need to change.

I'm just disturbed...
I am not sure, but I used to work at something like that and they were very strict on their discrimination policy.. But then again I'm in Toronto.. Either way, I hope they're supportive.

[gorillafuck]

yeah i mean torotonto is to gays what cuba was to black pamnthers

i hope they are nice too!

[TheGodlessUtopian]

I am not sure, but I used to work at something like that and they were very strict on their discrimination policy.. But then again I'm in Toronto.. Either way, I hope they're supportive.

Me too.... I hope I am just paranoid.... I can't find anything in their site which says in any direct fashion that they are aimed at such a subversive policy but when I am freaked out I just read every single line as "what could that actually mean?" He will probably be fine, I just have lots of fear for him because of his dysfunctional home life.

[NewLeft]

Dentist visit was interesting. I was really nervous beforehand, then they doped me up on something that made me feel goofy. I had some kind of reaction to the anesthetic they shot me with which made my legs shake uncontrollably for a couple minutes. Then the hygienist offered to let me choose what music to listen to and I found out that she is as diehard a Radiohead fan as I and we spent like a half hour talking about alternative music. I think I fell in love with her. Then the procedure began and shit was fucked up. The instrument the dentist used to trim the crowns down to the point where she could cut them made a god awful high pitched noise. The noise of the pliers pulling the crowns off was also awful. The worst part was where they trimmed my teeth further down and I had to taste teeth shavings. So fucking disgusting, I gagged a couple times.

So there's the play by play.

How does teeth shavings taste like..

[gorillafuck]

this is goldit will probably see funny to me tomorrow too but it is my real feelings. she is evetything to meand I wangt to be in her.

[NewLeft]

Me too.... I hope I am just paranoid.... I can't find anything in their site which says in any direct fashion that they are aimed at such a subversive policy but when I am freaked out I just read every single line as "what could that actually mean?" He will probably be fine, I just have lots of fear for him because of his dysfunctional home life.
He's very lucky, to have someone to care about him like that. :)

[Leftsolidarity]

I should stop getting attached to people

[9]

drunk zeekloid is gr8 :lol:

dude i got an idea just now! does that girl you like drink? because actually, that would be an easy solution to your predicament. get drunk with her, tell her youre really into her, and if she doesnt reciprocate, the next morning you can just be like WHAT HAppENED LAST NIGHT thereby avoiding any awkward strain that your confessional may have otherwise put on your friendship! :cool:

[Ostrinski]

How does teeth shavings taste like..Disgusting. They have something of a burned bitter taste.

[Ostrinski]

dude i got an idea just now! does that girl you like drink? because actually, that would be an easy solution to your predicament. get drunk with her, tell her youre really into her, and if she doesnt reciprocate, the next morning you can just be like WHAT HAppENED LAST NIGHT thereby avoiding any awkward strain that your confessional may have otherwise put on your friendship! :cool:Something tells me that this wouldn't go well. Too many variables that could go wrong.

[Ostrinski]

I should stop getting attached to peopleUnfortunately it doesn't really work like that. The longer you go without the more you hunger for it and the more easily it happens again.

[Leftsolidarity]

Unfortunately it doesn't really work like that. The longer you go without the more you hunger for it and the more easily it happens again.

Very true. These are the nights where I smoke cigarettes and listen to this song on repeat til I fall asleep.

ZYwT0PVB9YY

such a great song

[gorillafuck]

drunk zeekloid is gr8 :lol:

dude i got an idea just now! does that girl you like drink? because actually, that would be an easy solution to your predicament. get drunk with her, tell her youre really into her, and if she doesnt reciprocate, the next morning you can just be like WHAT HAppENED LAST NIGHT thereby avoiding any awkward strain that your confessional may have otherwise put on your friendship! :cool:/no, too dfiszhonest

thank ypou for the advice though

[9]

/no, too dfiszhonest


aww thats sweet haha. alright, suit yourself. good luck either way. the internet is rooting for you, zeekloid!!!1

[Susurrus]

Events that have people dancing(I don't even take part) always leave me feeling bitter and cynical.

[NewLeft]

Spending all day on my laptop makes me manically depressed.. Too cold to go out, no one's in town.. Nothing like reading archives all day.

[Lobotomy]

well, my boyfriend's roommate is a royal prick who tried to scam him out of paying rent, so my boyfriend is kicking him out. boyfriend had to go to work, so I'm watching his apartment and making sure that his roommate doesn't steal any of his shit while he's moving out :glare: how are you lovely individuals spending your friday evenings?

[NewLeft]

well, my boyfriend's roommate is a royal prick who tried to scam him out of paying rent, so my boyfriend is kicking him out. boyfriend had to go to work, so I'm watching his apartment and making sure that his roommate doesn't steal any of his shit while he's moving out :glare: how are you lovely individuals spending your friday evenings?
That's sketchy.. Beats my sketchy neighbour with his intense lights coming from his basement.. He's only home once a week and he's a baller.. I wonder what he does for a living.

[PC LOAD LETTER]

That's sketchy.. Beats my sketchy neighbour with his intense lights coming from his basement.. He's only home once a week and he's a baller.. I wonder what he does for a living.
international drug smuggling obv

[Ostrinski]

Events that have people dancing(I don't even take part) always leave me feeling bitter and cynical.Events that have people having what anyone could perceive as a good time always leave me feeling bitter and cynical.

[Susurrus]

Events that have people having what anyone could perceive as a good time always leave me feeling bitter and cynical.

That's sad. I just always retreat to the nearest garden at the point where people start telling me I look miserable.

[Zukunftsmusik]

Events that have people dancing(I don't even take part) always leave me feeling bitter and cynical.

YES! This is more or less exactly how I feel. And it always leads to someone telling you that you're boring or something. I hate that.

Once I was at a party where people danced. The whole party was in itself awkward, but just to add to the awkwardness, some rather drunk girl came to the sofa where I and some other people were sitting, and told us to stop being so boring and get up and dance. She tried to pull me up from there, but I denied, then she started to dance right in front of me. I mean so close that I had her thighs in my face. It was indescribably awkward. I just tried to ignore her and look away. She disappeared after a while, luckily.

[praxis1966]

So yeah, more drama from thousands of miles away in the praxis family... My sister, the single mother of the niece I basically raised for the entirety of her first year of life, just got out of the hospital after a week of life threatening pneumonia. My brother just got out of jail and I really can't bring myself to talk to him yet because I'm still so angry at him due to the circumstances which landed him in the clink in the first place... And a friend of 15 years has disappeared... to the point where his fiancee has been posting the Facebook equivalent of Amber alerts online. Just right into thin air; gone. And I haven't been able to get my mother to return my calls since Christmas. Check that, she didn't return the calls I placed on Christmas, so it had to have been a couple of months before that.

I think my dad might be in jail but I'm not sure. He was sending me a whole bunch of letters at first, but I didn't open any of them... couldn't bring myself to it after reading my brother's first letter from jail. I guess there's a reason I ran 2000 miles to get away from that family. Unfortunately, as a Sikh yogi once said, if you go to the mountaintop, where will you lay your head?

(In case you were wondering, this and the fighting in Oakland is why you don't see me around much.)

[NoOneIsIllegal]

Well, since my last post about a week ago...

I realize you're pretty much perfect. I've never had a type, but you seem to be the person I could find myself always wanting.
The more I talk to you, the more I find out about you. The more I find out, the more I like.
But, you keep telling me you're asexual.
I didn't even ask you to do anything, but you showed up at my work at 2:00am just to hang out with me on my lunch break....even though you live on the complete other-side of town and had work in 5 hours.
But, you keep telling me you're asexual.

[Искра]

Well, since my last post about a week ago...

I realize you're pretty much perfect. I've never had a type, but you seem to be the person I could find myself always wanting.
The more I talk to you, the more I find out about you. The more I find out, the more I like.
But, you keep telling me you're asexual.
I didn't even ask you to do anything, but you showed up at my work at 2:00am just to hang out with me on my lunch break....even though you live on the complete other-side of town and had work in 5 hours.
But, you keep telling me you're asexual.
I love you to :tt1:

[gorillafuck]

aww thats sweet haha. alright, suit yourself. good luck either way. the internet is rooting for you, zeekloid!!!1sweet is my middle name.

if someone wants to get their rep as high as possible they should just go into the pour your heart out thread wicked wasted, apparently.:laugh:

[Zukunftsmusik]

So yeah, more drama from thousands of miles away in the praxis family... My sister, the single mother of the niece I basically raised for the entirety of her first year of life, just got out of the hospital after a week of life threatening pneumonia. My brother just got out of jail and I really can't bring myself to talk to him yet because I'm still so angry at him due to the circumstances which landed him in the clink in the first place... And a friend of 15 years has disappeared... to the point where his fiancee has been posting the Facebook equivalent of Amber alerts online. Just right into thin air; gone. And I haven't been able to get my mother to return my calls since Christmas. Check that, she didn't return the calls I placed on Christmas, so it had to have been a couple of months before that.

I think my dad might be in jail but I'm not sure. He was sending me a whole bunch of letters at first, but I didn't open any of them... couldn't bring myself to it after reading my brother's first letter from jail. I guess there's a reason I ran 2000 miles to get away from that family. Unfortunately, as a Sikh yogi once said, if you go to the mountaintop, where will you lay your head?

(In case you were wondering, this and the fighting in Oakland is why you don't see me around much.)

Shit, I'm so sorry to hear this :(

It actually makes me feel bad for spamming this thread with insignificant posts. Hope things work out for you and that you find someplace to "lay your head".

[Pretty Flaco]

I go to court for the first time in early april. i don't think ive ever been so afraid of something in my life. if they dont drop the charges or if they dont decide on something before june, ill be 18.

[Leftsolidarity]

So yeah, more drama from thousands of miles away in the praxis family... My sister, the single mother of the niece I basically raised for the entirety of her first year of life, just got out of the hospital after a week of life threatening pneumonia. My brother just got out of jail and I really can't bring myself to talk to him yet because I'm still so angry at him due to the circumstances which landed him in the clink in the first place... And a friend of 15 years has disappeared... to the point where his fiancee has been posting the Facebook equivalent of Amber alerts online. Just right into thin air; gone. And I haven't been able to get my mother to return my calls since Christmas. Check that, she didn't return the calls I placed on Christmas, so it had to have been a couple of months before that.

I think my dad might be in jail but I'm not sure. He was sending me a whole bunch of letters at first, but I didn't open any of them... couldn't bring myself to it after reading my brother's first letter from jail. I guess there's a reason I ran 2000 miles to get away from that family. Unfortunately, as a Sikh yogi once said, if you go to the mountaintop, where will you lay your head?

(In case you were wondering, this and the fighting in Oakland is why you don't see me around much.)

I actually was wondering about you. Used to see you around here a lot but its been awhile. That sounds extremely shitty man I'm sorry to hear. What do they think happened with your friend?

[NewLeft]

Once I was at a party where people danced. The whole party was in itself awkward, but just to add to the awkwardness, some rather drunk girl came to the sofa where I and some other people were sitting, and told us to stop being so boring and get up and dance. She tried to pull me up from there, but I denied, then she started to dance right in front of me. I mean so close that I had her thighs in my face. It was indescribably awkward. I just tried to ignore her and look away. She disappeared after a while, luckily.

I think I know a girl like that, she thinks she's snookie and famous..

[NewLeft]

Well, since my last post about a week ago...

I realize you're pretty much perfect. I've never had a type, but you seem to be the person I could find myself always wanting.
The more I talk to you, the more I find out about you. The more I find out, the more I like.
But, you keep telling me you're asexual.
I didn't even ask you to do anything, but you showed up at my work at 2:00am just to hang out with me on my lunch break....even though you live on the complete other-side of town and had work in 5 hours.
But, you keep telling me you're asexual.

Asexual people can be emotionally attracted to people, just without sexual desire.. I think..

[Lanky Wanker]

Asexual people can be emotionally attracted to people, just without sexual desire.. I think..

That would absolutely kill me...

[Искра]

That would absolutely kill me...
Been there :rolleyes: I was with women who claimed to be bi, but she was fucking asexual. Her only plesure was to fuck my brain. I was in a relationship for 1 year or so... she broke up with me 9 times. :rolleyes:

Anyhow... I'm happy with whole shit I did today. I was busy and did some good stuff. Right now I'm gonna listen to some music and I've downloaded UT4 so I'll kill some shit.

[NewLeft]

Been there :rolleyes: I was with women who claimed to be bi, but she was fucking asexual. Her only plesure was to fuck my brain. I was in a relationship for 1 year or so... she broke up with me 9 times. :rolleyes:

Anyhow... I'm happy with whole shit I did today. I was busy and did some good stuff. Right now I'm gonna listen to some music and I've downloaded UT4 so I'll kill some shit.

You got back with her that many times?? WHY

[Искра]

You got back with her that many times?? WHY
Because I'm henpecked

[Landsharks eat metal]

My parents don't want a son. My sister doesn't want a brother. If I actually transition, my family will lose a daughter/sister and not gain anything in return. Whether I live or not, either way, I'm gone. And dying would take away the pain of being rejected.

[Искра]

You should learn to live only for yourself. Fuck people.

[TheGodlessUtopian]

My parents don't want a son. My sister doesn't want a brother. If I actually transition, my family will lose a daughter/sister and not gain anything in return. Whether I live or not, either way, I'm gone. And dying would take away the pain of being rejected.

I am going to be blunt: fuck what your family "wants." What only matters is what you want and need to live a healthy life. The nuclear family is a failed institution of the bourgeoisie and shouldn't be taken seriously by revolutionaries. I'm not saying you should stop loving them or anything just that you can't live your life by what they want.

[Landsharks eat metal]

Some of my problem is that I have huge issues with guilt.

[NewLeft]

I just wanted to say that I have a very elevated mood right now..


Some of my problem is that I have huge issues with guilt.
I don't understand, what do you mean by that?

[Landsharks eat metal]

I don't understand, what do you mean by that?
I feel guilty about pretty much everything I do, even if it's a stupid little thing, and I always end up thinking people are going to be angry at me. I'm scared to make my own decisions because I know my parents won't like them and I'll feel guilty about upsetting them (and sometimes it gets to the point where I get depressed and I can't tell them because I'll feel guilty about that so I think if I kill myself then all the guilt will go away.)

[Le Rouge]

I feel guilty about pretty much everything I do, even if it's a stupid little thing, and I always end up thinking people are going to be angry at me. I'm scared to make my own decisions because I know my parents won't like them and I'll feel guilty about upsetting them (and sometimes it gets to the point where I get depressed and I can't tell them because I'll feel guilty about that so I think if I kill myself then all the guilt will go away.)

I only have 1 lesson to give you.
Learn to not give a fuck about what people think of you. :cool:

Your welcome.

[#FF0000]

Whether I live or not, either way, I'm gone.

I am sure that is not how they feel. Even if they don't understand and what you do upsets them, they would still much rather have you around.

[Искра]

...or find a women who will make all decisions for you and if since you don't have a problem with that you'll live a happy life

[Landsharks eat metal]

...or find a women who will make all decisions for you and if since you don't have a problem with that you'll live a happy life

No, I actually really fucking hate it, but I don't know how to get out... especially considering my parents can just say, "You can't do that! You have Asperger's!" to stop me from doing pretty much anything that will get me anywhere in life. Which is one of the reasons I've considered running away and just living on the streets instead of bothering to extricate myself from the situation in a more logical fashion.

[NewLeft]

I am locked out from the university application site for too many incorrect logins.. I had to submit an application due tonight, but it looks like I'm missing my only chance. :( I'm literally going no where, I fucked up my whole school year, my grades, my university applications..

[Lanky Wanker]

I am locked out from the university application site for too many incorrect logins.. I had to submit an application due tonight, but it looks like I'm missing my only chance. :( I'm literally going no where, I fucked up my whole school year, my grades, my university applications..

I got a C and an E in my only two January exams if that makes you feel any better. :lol: An E is still a pass and we only need DDE to get back in to the second year, but it's still not great. At least you have enough motivation to go to university, I just wanna get out of education as soon as possible.

[Nox]

I got a C and an E in my only two January exams if that makes you feel any better. :lol: An E is still a pass and we only need DDE to get back in to the second year, but it's still not great. At least you have enough motivation to go to university, I just wanna get out of education as soon as possible.

I got an A in Business Studies. It's weird, because I didn't revise at all but my friends revised for weeks and they all got D's and E's.

[Nox]

Btw, I might be getting laid tomorrow, wish me luck

[NewLeft]

Btw, I might be getting laid tomorrow, wish me luck
Cheers.. You can do it Nox!!

[Nox]

Cheers.. You can do it Nox!!

Thanks. I can thank 4chan for me possibly getting laid.

I was browsing /b/ and I saw a thread that dared people to send "Why haven't we had sex yet?" to a random girl, I adapted it slightly and sent "We should hook up sometime :)" to a girl who doesn't go to my school and that I don't know that well (that way I would have nothing to lose). She didn't exactly say yes, but she sort of laughed it off then said "why don't you come round sunday?" so yeah, I've got my hopes up.

I'll probably add what happens to my blog, because tbh it's a significant point in my life (even if we don't have sex, it's the first time a girl has shown interest in me)

The weird part is, she's a few years older than me. I'm 17 and she's either 19 or 20 (can't remember which)

[Lanky Wanker]

I got an A in Business Studies. It's weird, because I didn't revise at all but my friends revised for weeks and they all got D's and E's.

I hardly revised myself, I always just read certain parts of the book over and over again on and before the day of the exam trying to remember things I should've known from the beginning. Mind you, I did get a B or something in one or two mock exams for psychology that way. Sociology we always get U grades for when we do practice exams. :laugh:


Btw, I might be getting laid tomorrow, wish me luck

Good luck. Remember to wash downstairs and don't forget your condoms, honey; I bought you a double pack of ultra safe Durex.

Sorry, I have a strange sense of humour.

[Nox]

I hardly revised myself, I always just read certain parts of the book over and over again on and before the day of the exam trying to remember things I should've known from the beginning. Mind you, I did get a B or something in one or two mock exams for psychology that way. Sociology we always get U grades for when we do practice exams. :laugh:



Good luck. Remember to wash downstairs and don't forget your condoms, honey; I bought you a double pack of ultra safe Durex.

Aaaah. Yeah one of my friends who does sociology said that almost everyone in his class did really bad.

And yeah I will definitely try and get a condom from somewhere (don't know where)

[NewLeft]

Thanks. I can thank 4chan for me possibly getting laid.

I was browsing /b/ and I saw a thread that dared people to send "Why haven't we had sex yet?" to a random girl, I adapted it slightly and sent "We should hook up sometime :)" to a girl who doesn't go to my school and that I don't know that well (that way I would have nothing to lose). She didn't exactly say yes, but she sort of laughed it off then said "why don't you come round sunday?" so yeah, I've got my hopes up.

I'll probably add what happens to my blog, because tbh it's a significant point in my life (even if we don't have sex, it's the first time a girl has shown interest in me)

The weird part is, she's a few years older than me. I'm 17 and she's either 19 or 20 (can't remember which)

Nox THE MAN. We're all very proud of you.. Taking that next step in life. :crying:

[Lanky Wanker]

The weird part is, she's a few years older than me. I'm 17 and she's either 19 or 20 (can't remember which)

Oh what I would give to have a 19/20 year old girlfriend...

[Luc]

uhg fuck I tired to do a youtube video of It's a trap in reply to Nox but w/e fuck this it's impossible to figure out
(the you tube tags)

[NewLeft]

Pour Your Heart Out X should be titled Men's Locker Room.

[Lanky Wanker]

Pour Your Heart Out X should be titled Men's Locker Room.

Actually, that wouldn't be a bad idea. Then again, the girls would probably all keep track of it anyway. Anyone got a rough idea of the ratio of M:F on this site?

[Nox]

Oh what I would give to have a 19/20 year old girlfriend...

Nooooo I'm not looking for a relationship. No way. I'm simply not ready for one yet and I'm not ashamed to admit that.


uhg fuck I tired to do a youtube video of It's a trap in reply to Nox but w/e fuck this it's impossible to figure out

I may have mistyped that, it wasn't literally a random girl. It was a random girl that I knew, just clearing that up :P

[Nox]

Actually, that wouldn't be a bad idea. Then again, the girls would probably all keep track of it anyway. Anyone got a rough idea of the ratio of M:F on this site?

It's something ridiculous like 50:1

Agent Ducky is the only active user here who I know is female.

[Lanky Wanker]

Nooooo I'm not looking for a relationship. No way. I'm simply not ready for one yet and I'm not ashamed to admit that.


Well, a one off or a girlfriend would be fine either way for me. I'm not sure I'd want a girlfriend now either 'cause relationships seem more hassle than they're worth, especially being young. A lack of physical connection is definitely frustrating though...

[NewLeft]

It's something ridiculous like 50:1

Agent Ducky is the only active user here who I know is female.
Shhh, lobotomy is browsing this thread. http://mhvn.zippygamer.com/images/smilies/smiley-face-whistle.gif

[Luc]

fuck

I just tried to respond but I deleted my post, somehow

I give up :/

[Nox]

Well, a one off or a girlfriend would be fine either way for me. I'm not sure I'd want a girlfriend now either 'cause relationships seem more hassle than they're worth, especially being young. A lack of physical connection is definitely frustrating though...

Tbh I don't want a girlfriend atm because I will struggle to make enough time for her, wouldn't be able to bring her to my house (if you saw my family you'd understand lol), have to concentrate on A levels, and tbh I don't want commitment especially before starting Uni - one of my friends met a girl a few months before he started Uni and it totally fucked up his social life there (e.g. he didn't go to parties, didn't meet enough people etc) and he never fully recovered.

[Luc]

Well, a one off or a girlfriend would be fine either way for me. I'm not sure I'd want a girlfriend now either 'cause relationships seem more hassle than they're worth, especially being young. A lack of physical connection is definitely frustrating though...


this, so much (well and other connections but point is theres no connection to anyone and it sucks)

[Lanky Wanker]

Tbh I don't want a girlfriend atm because I will struggle to make enough time for her, wouldn't be able to bring her to my house (if you saw my family you'd understand lol), have to concentrate on A levels, and tbh I don't want commitment especially before starting Uni - one of my friends met a girl a few months before he started Uni and it totally fucked up his social life there (e.g. he didn't go to parties, didn't meet enough people etc) and he never fully recovered.

Own flat, parties, girls, drugs, playing gigs with band... or £9,000 debt for university... hmm hard one there. I doubt I'll get any of the former anyway though. :lol: The only thing you're guaranteed in life is death, yay for everyone.

[Nox]

Own flat, parties, girls, drugs, playing gigs with band... or £9,000 debt for university... hmm hard one there. I doubt I'll get any of the former anyway though. :lol: The only thing you're guaranteed in life is death, yay for everyone.

You're right about the debt, and although I am (don't mean to sound arrogant) smarter than most people (at least in terms of grades), I will probably struggle to get in to a good university and more importantly be able to stay there for the length of the degree course.

[TheGodlessUtopian]

Nooooo I'm not looking for a relationship. No way. I'm simply not ready for one yet and I'm not ashamed to admit that.

Nothing to be ashamed about either;I have only ever sought a relationship with someone...I couldn't see the point in life if all that ever happened was pointless one night stands.

[PC LOAD LETTER]

Nothing to be ashamed about either;I have only ever sought a relationship with someone...I couldn't see the point in life if all that ever happened was pointless one night stands.
Based on my previous experiences with relationships, I'm beginning to prefer a more casual relationship. Where before I saw one night stands as pointless and emotionally devoid (and therefore useless to me) ... I see the appeal of 'no commitment' and sexual freedom now.

I honestly could flat-out not be in a serious relationship right now.

[Lanky Wanker]

You're right about the debt, and although I am (don't mean to sound arrogant) smarter than most people (at least in terms of grades), I will probably struggle to get in to a good university and more importantly be able to stay there for the length of the degree course.

Have faith in yourself, I'm sure you'll get in if you want to. Just don't tell them you're a communist when you do your interview and you'll be fine.

[Nox]

Based on my previous experiences with relationships, I'm beginning to prefer a more casual relationship. Where before I saw one night stands as pointless and emotionally devoid (and therefore useless to me) ... I see the appeal of 'no commitment' and sexual freedom now.

I honestly could flat-out not be in a serious relationship right now.

That's exactly how I used to be. We are so similar :D


Nothing to be ashamed about either;I have only ever sought a relationship with someone...I couldn't see the point in life if all that ever happened was pointless one night stands.

It's the opposite for me. One night stands are all I see a point in at the moment.

[NewLeft]

It's the opposite for me. One night stands are all I see a point in at the moment.
Go for fuck buddy..

[PC LOAD LETTER]

Go for fuck buddy..
Seems like a solid compromise. I really should have put fuck buddy in my post rather than one-night stand. More along the lines of a 'casual relationship'

[Lanky Wanker]

Arghhh fuck, I just broke my pipe. I was trying to push the resin through the hole with a tiny flathead screwdriver and half the bowl thing cracked and fell in. :thumbdown: Oh well, at least I can clean it now, AND I have an excuse to buy a new pipe. This should go in stoner talk, but it's kinda inactive most of the time.

[PC LOAD LETTER]

Arghhh fuck, I just broke my pipe. I was trying to push the resin through the hole with a tiny flathead screwdriver and half the bowl thing cracked and fell in. :thumbdown: Oh well, at least I can clean it now, AND I have an excuse to buy a new pipe. This should go in stoner talk, but it's kinda inactive most of the time.
At the risk of offtopicness, check out Grunge Off or Formula 420 when you grab your next piece. You put some inside of the piece ... cover holes ... shake ... empty and re-do if necessary. Cleans the fuck out of a piece without risking breakage. Just remember to rinse with water afterwards.

[Lanky Wanker]

At the risk of offtopicness, check out Grunge Off or Formula 420 when you grab your next piece. You put some inside of the piece ... cover holes ... shake ... empty and re-do if necessary. Cleans the fuck out of a piece without risking breakage. Just remember to rinse with water afterwards.

Hey man, I'm 16 and have no job, I'm tight as fuck when it comes to buying weed. :lol: I'll smoke a dehydrated penis if it's covered in some form of cannabis. Cheers for the recommendation, my next task is trying to find it in Camden Town (the only place I know that sells weed shit to underage people).

[Искра]

You people are not even funny. It's sad how much males are preocupied with sex. I hope that you'll learn how to do it, because there's nothing worst that unhappy woman.

[PC LOAD LETTER]

You people are not even funny. It's sad how much males are preocupied with sex. I hope that you'll learn how to do it, because there's nothing worst that unhappy woman.
I am experienced ... that's why I don't want anything to do with any more serious relationships right now. It's way too tiring and stressful for me.

[Искра]

I am experienced ... that's why I don't want anything to do with any more serious relationships right now. It's way too tiring and stressful for me.Life is stressful and you can't get away from it.

My life is like this song:
ggdD_KUC77U

[Luc]

Dissapointing a sexual partner is one of my worst fears :crying:

[PC LOAD LETTER]

Life is stressful and you can't get away from it.

My life is like this song:
ggdD_KUC77U
True, true. That's a tight song.


Dissapointing a sexual partner is my worst fears :crying:
Everybody wants to fuck like a pornstar

The truth is only pornstars fuck like pornstars (and partially through editing techniques)

Unless you pop an X pill or something

[Luc]

Everybody wants to fuck like a pornstar

The truth is only pornstars fuck like pornstars (and partially through editing techniques)

Unless you pop an X pill or something

Indeed, life is nothing but dissapointment:(

edit: woot! new page!

[Искра]

It's not about fucking like a pornstar. It's about how boys are boring with sex shit and when they get their chance they can't do shit and then women are sad... I know that this is teenage male thing which never actually stops... but whatever.

And you don't need a X pill to make a lady happy. Use your imagination ;)

[Ostrinski]

Yeah really just be willing to do the weird stuff

[Luc]

pfft I don't got to worry bout that stuff anyways :glare:

I'm just gunna bitterly masterbate and cry myself to sleep for the rest of my life. it's been workin okay sofar:sleep:

[PC LOAD LETTER]

Yeah really just be willing to do the weird stuff
"Weird" stuff is usually the most fun :D

[NewLeft]

This sounds awfully complicated..

[Искра]

Yeah really just be willing to do the weird stuff
My mission is to find a girl/woman (I don't care about age) which will throw me down the stairs and when I'm at the bottom all fucked up she'll come down and kick me in the head... and then comes regular animal planet part... which is boring... but she deserved it. So far I've only met 2 women which don't find this strange :D

[Luc]

If you give me money i'll push you down stairs Kontra:)

[Искра]

I don't pay for love :D

[Ostrinski]

My mission is to find a girl/woman (I don't care about age) which will throw me down the stairs and when I'm at the bottom all fucked up she'll come down and kick me in the head... and then comes regular animal planet part... which is boring... but she deserved it. So far I've only met 2 women which don't find this strange :Di wish you luck

[Lanky Wanker]

My mission is to find a girl/woman (I don't care about age) which will throw me down the stairs and when I'm at the bottom all fucked up she'll come down and kick me in the head... and then comes regular animal planet part... which is boring... but she deserved it. So far I've only met 2 women which don't find this strange :D

Dominatrix eh? ;)

[Luc]

fuck that nvm shitty post

[Luc]

damnit, quoted

I was too late...

[NewLeft]

damnit, quoted

I was too late...
I'm a snake like that.. Got CanisLupus, now got you!

[Искра]

Ok :D

I feel like shit because it's almost 4 in the morning and I'm listening to Blink182 because I've fucked up everything hehehehe :) too late is too late

Anyhow, tomorrow is sunday... I'll go to church in Bathory t-shirt to provoke people. It usually works... yeah I'm fucking bored.

[Luc]

I'm a snake like that.. Got CanisLupus, now got you!

this "thanks" is sarcastic :glare:

[Kitty_Paine]

My mission is to find a girl/woman (I don't care about age) which will throw me down the stairs and when I'm at the bottom all fucked up she'll come down and kick me in the head... and then comes regular animal planet part... which is boring... but she deserved it. So far I've only met 2 women which don't find this strange :D

No, I totally get you... lol. Mostly because I have a similar, wierd... fetish kinda thing... which most people give me crazy eyes in response to it. I thought I was alone :rolleyes:

On another note my P.O. is pushing for me to get diagnosed with oppositional defiant disorder or even conduct disorder... What a fucking asshole. Yes, please help me further fuck up my future, that'll help... shitbag

[gorillafuck]

oppositional defiant disorder is one of those disorders that is just a part of the mission of some people to turn everything into a disorder.

[Kitty_Paine]

oppositional defiant disorder is one of those disorders that is just a part of the mission of some people to turn everything into a disorder.

Especially when some of the criteria for diagnoses are -

"actively defies or refuses to comply with adults"

"often argues with adults"

"often looses temper"

etc.

No, of course that's totally fucking wierd for a teenage girl who attends inner city public school and lives below the poverty line... Idiots

[NewLeft]

It needs to be irrational to be considered ODD.

[gorillafuck]

yeah, they most likely wouldn't diagnose you with that if it wasn't extreme.

[Kitty_Paine]

It needs to be irrational to be considered ODD.

Well yes, this is true. But this is also up to individual interpretation. I've been to a few psychiatrists/psychologists in my short time on this earth. I've found most of them to be arrogant elitists who place people in categories instead of diagnosing individually; usually more interested in telling you what you have, than listening or actively engaging themselves in you and your "problem". I find they are quick to throw a label on something when they think they have the answer instead of actually getting in deep and exploring to search for the root.

Maybe I do have ODD or CD, maybe it is irrational of me but why do I really act that way? They don't care... Maybe I'm just grumpy and biased because of my experiences but... I dunno

[NewLeft]

Well yes, this is true. But this is also up to individual interpretation. I've been to a few psychiatrists/psychologists in my short time on this earth. I've found most of them to be arrogant elitists who place people in categories instead of diagnosing individually; usually more interested in telling you what you have, than listening or actively engaging themselves in you and your "problem". I find they are quick to throw a label on something when they think they have the answer instead of actually getting in deep and exploring to search for the root.

Maybe I do have ODD or CD, maybe it is irrational of me but why do I really act that way? They don't care... Maybe I'm just grumpy and biased because of my experiences but... I dunno
Bourgeois professionals only know as much as you tell them.. Tell them to shut up for a second and let you talk.. (It worked with my doctor)

[gorillafuck]

Well yes, this is true. But this is also up to individual interpretation. I've been to a few psychiatrists/psychologists in my short time on this earth. I've found most of them to be arrogant elitists who place people in categories instead of diagnosing individually; usually more interested in telling you what you have, than listening or actively engaging themselves in you and your "problem". I find they are quick to throw a label on something when they think they have the answer instead of actually getting in deep and exploring to search for the root.

Maybe I do have ODD or CD, maybe it is irrational of me but why do I really act that way? They don't care... Maybe I'm just grumpy and biased because of my experiences but... I dunnowhat did they all diagnose you with?

[Kitty_Paine]

Bourgeois professionals only know as much as you tell them.. Tell them to shut up for a second and let you talk.. (It worked with my doctor)

lol, I like this advice

I did kinda once, but I kinda took it too far, and I kinda got kicked out... lol

But next time I'm with a psychiatrist (FML), I'll try and do it without comitting to a huge flip out, lol, thanks :lol:

[gorillafuck]

lol, I like this advice

I did kinda once, but I kinda took it too far, and I kinda got kicked out... lol

But next time I'm with a psychiatrist (FML), I'll try and do it without comitting to a huge flip out, lol, thanks :lol:you got kicked out of a psychiatrist office?

uh, how?

[Kitty_Paine]

what did they all diagnose you with?

Uhhh, lol... well a little more complicated than that but it was for therapy (which I couldn't nor can afford) that I don't go to anymore. Therapy for various reasons which I may or may not agree with, lol. I was diagnosed with cyclothymic disorder, and they were trying to give me generalized anxiety disorder but I was never "official" diagnosed. All of which I couldn't and can't afford medication or treatment for anyway... so... whatever, lol.

[Kitty_Paine]

you got kicked out of a psychiatrist office?

uh, how?

lol, well it was about a year/year and a half ago... my "love"/boyfriend left me abruptly (blah, blah, blah) was depressed/acting out and whatever. Told me to see the school counselor, sent me to a psychiatrist - he was a dick, well I thought he was... And I got a little aggressive, I was yelling at him... I may have thrown something at him.... :rolleyes:. So yeah, they sent me to someone else...

Is that detailed enough as to my discharge? lol

[gorillafuck]

lol, well it was about a year/year and a half ago... my "love"/boyfriend left me abruptly (blah, blah, blah) was depressed/acting out and whatever. Told me to see the school counselor, sent me to a psychiatrist - he was a dick, well I thought he was... And I got a little aggressive, I was yelling at him... I may have thrown something at him.... :rolleyes:. So yeah, they sent me to someone else...

Is that detailed enough as to my discharge? lolyeah.

the roll eyes next to "I might have thrown something at him" is hilarious

[Kitty_Paine]

yeah.

the roll eyes next to "I might have thrown something at him" is hilarious

I swear I'm not as much of a crazy person as I may seem through these posts... lol

...

..

.

[gorillafuck]

why did you think he was a dick?

[Kitty_Paine]

why did you think he was a dick?

I can't recall the specific method or type or approach he seemed to favor but he was kind of a "stop feeling sorry for yourself and buck up" kind of psychiatrist. He wasn't very good at responding to emotions, he felt very cold and had a no-bull shit kind of approach. I didn't like it, it wasn't what I needed, not at that time anyway. I've found since then that psychologists and psychiatrists are a personal fit, you have to find one you kind of mesh with correctly. Regradless, I generally hate them like this site's members hate cops.

[#FF0000]

I can't recall the specific method or type or approach he seemed to favor but he was kind of a "stop feeling sorry for yourself and buck up" kind of psychiatrist. He wasn't very good at responding to emotions, he felt very cold and had a no-bull shit kind of approach. I didn't like it, it wasn't what I needed, not at that time anyway. I've found since then that psychologists and psychiatrists are a personal fit, you have to find one you kind of mesh with correctly. Regradless, I generally hate them like this site's members hate cops.

Ha. Someone I knew was like that when dealing with people's problems. Very often it worked because her friends were dipshits who liked to whine and that's just what they needed.

Speaking of, I miss this person very much right now.

[NewLeft]

I can't recall the specific method or type or approach he seemed to favor but he was kind of a "stop feeling sorry for yourself and buck up" kind of psychiatrist. He wasn't very good at responding to emotions, he felt very cold and had a no-bull shit kind of approach. I didn't like it, it wasn't what I needed, not at that time anyway. I've found since then that psychologists and psychiatrists are a personal fit, you have to find one you kind of mesh with correctly. Regradless, I generally hate them like this site's members hate cops.
Oh we hate them too. I hate all bourgeois professionals, I suffer from ODD.

[gorillafuck]

I can't recall the specific method or type or approach he seemed to favor but he was kind of a "stop feeling sorry for yourself and buck up" kind of psychiatrist. He wasn't very good at responding to emotions, he felt very cold and had a no-bull shit kind of approach. I didn't like it, it wasn't what I needed, not at that time anyway. I've found since then that psychologists and psychiatrists are a personal fit, you have to find one you kind of mesh with correctly.what else is he going to do to help you get over your boyfriend breaking up? what would you have liked?

also, you shouldn't ever consider "no bullshit" to be a negative thing.


Regradless, I generally hate them like this site's members hate cops.are you obligated by the state to go to them or something?:confused:

[Kitty_Paine]

Oh we hate them too. I hate all bourgeois professionals, I suffer from ODD.

I don't know if a PO is considered a bourgeois professional occupation (i guess it would be) but mine is just the worst form of human life... and he's new, I'm his first so.... yeah, that's just pleasant.

Oh so you've gots the ODD? Do you think it's rightly diagnosed? For your circumstances al least...

[gorillafuck]

if you hate school counselors because they are bourgeois professionals then you basically hate everyone who isn't in a dead end job because school counselors don't make shit.

[Pretty Flaco]

I had such a good night. :)

There's a girl who's been my friend for a while but I haven't really hung out with her for a while til tonight and I felt like there was a lot of attraction between us. But I'm not sure...
Like she's always thought I was really funny and she even told me that she used to have a big crush on me. But I could make it awkward if she wasn't attracted to me like that anymore.

i dont know if i wrote what i wanted to say right but oh well

[Pretty Flaco]

oh but her really good friend also has a huge crush on me so...

[9]

this is my last night smoking weed til I get a new job. nine without weed is like fire without heat :crying: I was supposed to fly back east for a family reunion in april, cant go to that shit now unless I have a job by then, cuz you cant be around my extended family without getting blazed.

today I applied for jobs online at a few different grocery stores. the online applications were insane. you had to fill out pages of information, and then on top of that, SEVENTEEN pAGES of questions about ur "attitude" which all seemed like weird creepy trick psychological questions. for all of the questions, you had four answers to choose from... strongly disagree, disagree, agree, or strongly agree. and the questions were things like e.g. "I try my best to fake politeness" and "I have made decisions in my past which I regret" . WTF is the proper answer to those questions????? I mean, I bullshitted the whole thing, but then I wonder in retrospect whether the questions were just mind tricks to measure how honest u are.... for fucks sake, what sort of SUpERB ATTITUDE do u need to bag motherfucking groceries??? assholes. :mad:

[gorillafuck]

when I filled out an application to burger king they asked if I was enraged when guilty criminals are let free.

what the fuck is the answer to that?

[Kitty_Paine]

what else is he going to do to help you get over your boyfriend breaking up? what would you have liked?

Coping strategies, lol... but I wasn't there long so I didn't really see everything his style had to offer.

And that boyfriend situation is more complicated than it sounds, and there's many more factors involved... lol. I'm not one of those girls who would go nuts simply because of a break up... :lol:



also, you shouldn't ever consider "no bullshit" to be a negative thing.

It works and helps people in some situations, but the drill sergeant approach isn't always best. It can be the opposite of what some people need.




are you obligated by the state to go to them or something?:confused:

They've sent me in the past for sessions based off of school events or other events outside of school, like drinking... and me doing stupid shit... but usually they only send me without cost to myself once or a few times then It's up to me to pay... lol, like I have the money... or care that much

[NewLeft]

I don't know if a PO is considered a bourgeois professional occupation (i guess it would be) but mine is just the worst form of human life... and he's new, I'm his first so.... yeah, that's just pleasant.

Oh so you've gots the ODD? Do you think it's rightly diagnosed? For your circumstances al least...
I'm not actually diagnosed, I was just making a shitty joke.

[gorillafuck]

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Schadenfreude

I experience this, but more in when it is directed at people who hate society or want to change society. is that weird?

[Kitty_Paine]

when I filled out an application to burger king they asked if I was enraged when guilty criminals are let free.

what the fuck is the answer to that?

I believe the answer they're looking for is: YES, I am enraged when that happens, lol.

Just a question to try and super secretly find out your views on crime to see if you're likely to steel from them or let steeling go unreported from the company.

[NewLeft]

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Schadenfreude

I experience this, but more in when it is directed at people who hate society or want to change society. is that weird?
What do you mean by people who hate society..?

[Kitty_Paine]

I'm not actually diagnosed, I was just making a shitty joke.

lol, my fault, went over my head :lol:


http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Schadenfreude

I experience this, but more in when it is directed at people who hate society or want to change society. is that weird?

I believe that would be... a lot of people, lol. Maybe even most people...

What about Che and Gandhi?! I may be going too far outside what you mean though... :lol:

[NewLeft]

What about Che and Gandhi?! I may be going too far outside what you mean though... :lol:

I fucking hate Gandhi, racist prick. Che is a romanticized icon.

[Fawkes]

As much as I love dubstep, dnb, glitch, and house, I can't fucking stand the totally rampant sexism that exists in a huge portion of electronic dance music

Whether it's that piece of shit (and absolutely horrible musician) Borgore rapping about "in the bed act like a hoe, but first do the dishes" or videos on youtube just being pictures of barely clothed women along with hundreds of unimaginative and blatantly sexist comments like "if dubstep was my girlfriend, maybe I'd listen to her" or women literally being raped (http://nyc.barstoolsports.com/random-thoughts/chick-getting-finger-blasted-at-the-dubstep-music-awards/) at shows (or, as some douche bags prefer to call it, "finger-blasted"), I can't fucking stand this bullshit. I love the music and many of the people in the scene, but I want to put a fucking bullet through the heads of every producer that makes tracks about "*****es" and every bandana wearing, "sex, drugs and dubstep"-tshirt-clad douche bag that's ever roofied someone.


I don't even have fun at raves anymore cause I just get so angry witnessing all of this bullshit constantly.

I swear I'm gonna straight up mule kick the next jock asswipe I see moshing at raves and creeping on girls

[gorillafuck]

every person in an alternative subculture is the same as a person in mainstream culture except with different fashions, music taste, etc.

underground electronic music is no exception.

[Kitty_Paine]

I fucking hate Gandhi, racist prick. Che is a romanticized icon.

Yes, yes... on both accounts. Maybe bad examples but I was more or less getting at the fact that there are people who have problems with society and that have actively tried to correct those problems and changed the world for the better, or just changed it.... okay, again debatable, lol.

[NewLeft]

As much as I love dubstep, dnb, glitch, and house, I can't fucking stand the totally rampant sexism that exists in a huge portion of electronic dance music

Whether it's that piece of shit (and absolutely horrible musician) Borgore rapping about "in the bed act like a hoe, but first do the dishes" or videos on youtube just being pictures of barely clothed women along with hundreds of unimaginative and blatantly sexist comments like "if dubstep was my girlfriend, maybe I'd listen to her" or women literally being raped (http://nyc.barstoolsports.com/random-thoughts/chick-getting-finger-blasted-at-the-dubstep-music-awards/) at shows (or, as some douche bags prefer to call it, "finger-blasted"), I can't fucking stand this bullshit. I love the music and many of the people in the scene, but I want to put a fucking bullet through the heads of every producer that makes tracks about "*****es" and every bandana wearing, "sex, drugs and dubstep"-tshirt-clad douche bag that's ever roofied someone.

I don't even have fun at raves anymore cause I just get so angry witnessing all of this bullshit constantly.

I swear I'm gonna straight up mule kick the next jock asswipe I see moshing at raves and creeping on girls
I like your attitude and all, but they're being sexist to get laid. It's their way of showing dominance. :rolleyes: (bullshit response)

[NewLeft]

every person in an alternative subculture is the same as a person in mainstream culture except with different fashions, music taste, etc.

underground electronic music is no exception.
Is it even underground anymore, considering how anyone with an internet can pretty much uncover the whole scene..

[Fawkes]

every person in an alternative subculture is the same as a person in mainstream culture except with different fashions, music taste, etc.

underground electronic music is no exception.

I know that, it just sucks that something I like to think of as being a haven is infested with the same problems as "mainstream culture", sometimes even worse.

[9]

edit. cant talk about this shit here tho

[Jack]

As much as I love dubstep, dnb, glitch, and house, I can't fucking stand the totally rampant sexism that exists in a huge portion of electronic dance music

Whether it's that piece of shit (and absolutely horrible musician) Borgore rapping about "in the bed act like a hoe, but first do the dishes" or videos on youtube just being pictures of barely clothed women along with hundreds of unimaginative and blatantly sexist comments like "if dubstep was my girlfriend, maybe I'd listen to her" or women literally being raped (http://nyc.barstoolsports.com/random-thoughts/chick-getting-finger-blasted-at-the-dubstep-music-awards/) at shows (or, as some douche bags prefer to call it, "finger-blasted"), I can't fucking stand this bullshit. I love the music and many of the people in the scene, but I want to put a fucking bullet through the heads of every producer that makes tracks about "*****es" and every bandana wearing, "sex, drugs and dubstep"-tshirt-clad douche bag that's ever roofied someone.


I don't even have fun at raves anymore cause I just get so angry witnessing all of this bullshit constantly.

I swear I'm gonna straight up mule kick the next jock asswipe I see moshing at raves and creeping on girls



That's not rape......stop trivializing rape.

[NewLeft]

That's not rape......stop trivializing rape.
Nice to meet you Jack.

[#FF0000]

That's not rape......stop trivializing rape.

yeah it is

[Lobotomy]

today I applied for jobs online at a few different grocery stores. the online applications were insane. you had to fill out pages of information, and then on top of that, SEVENTEEN pAGES of questions about ur "attitude" which all seemed like weird creepy trick psychological questions. for all of the questions, you had four answers to choose from... strongly disagree, disagree, agree, or strongly agree. and the questions were things like e.g. "I try my best to fake politeness" and "I have made decisions in my past which I regret" . WTF is the proper answer to those questions????? I mean, I bullshitted the whole thing, but then I wonder in retrospect whether the questions were just mind tricks to measure how honest u are.... for fucks sake, what sort of SUpERB ATTITUDE do u need to bag motherfucking groceries??? assholes. :mad:

I think part of the reason they ask all those bullshit questions is to see if you're going to be consistent in your answers. like they're checking to see if you have solid "values", or something.

[#FF0000]

i think it's funny that grocery stores care more about my values than the pharma and chemical factories i've worked at

[Fawkes]

Is it even underground anymore, considering how anyone with an internet can pretty much uncover the whole scene..

Sure, there are huge names out there like Skrillex and Nero, and while you could easily pay upwards of $50 to see some of the biggest electronic artists, the whole scene (or, really, scenes) still thrives off of and is driven by an "underground" culture of clandestine warehouse raves, abandoned rooftop parties, and people that produce music on their own time without any financial gain from it. It sounds like I'm being romantic, but at least in new york, that's really how it is. For every show at Webster Hall or Best Buy Theater, there are 50 shows going on in warehouses and basements all over the city in discrete locations to avoid cops with as few as 30 people in attendance. Just last fall, I went to a show right of Houston St. in the middle of downtown manhattan that some kid was throwing at a house that was vacant and under construction.

[NewLeft]

Capitalists want you to be grateful for giving YOU the luxury to work at their store as a cashier/stocker..etc.

[9]

yeah it is
what is? that video? its really not...

I think part of the reason they ask all those bullshit questions is to see if you're going to be consistent in your answers. like they're checking to see if you have solid "values", or something.

wtf sort of values do u need to put boxes of macaroni in a plastic fucking bag. jesus, a paraplegic smackhead could do that shit.

[NewLeft]

Sure, there are huge names out there like Skrillex and Nero, and while you could easily pay upwards of $50 to see some of the biggest electronic artists, the whole scene (or, really, scenes) still thrives off of and is driven by an "underground" culture of clandestine warehouse raves, abandoned rooftop parties, and people that produce music on their own time without any financial gain from it. It sounds like I'm being romantic, but at least in new york, that's really how it is. For every show at Webster Hall or Best Buy Theater, there are 50 shows going on in warehouses and basements all over the city in discrete locations to avoid cops with as few as 30 people in attendance. Just last fall, I went to a show right of Houston St. in the middle of downtown manhattan that some kid was throwing at a house that was vacant and under construction.
Glorious explanation, but I wouldn't understand. :sneaky: The only things I've been to were shitty raves.

[#FF0000]

what is? that video? its really not...

oh i didn't see a video. i thought that bit was just underlined.

yeah i guess its not.

e: on second thought yeah idk i think it is.

[gorillafuck]

I know that, it just sucks that something I like to think of as being a haven is infested with the same problems as "mainstream culture", sometimes even worse.meh. I used to have convinced myself that punk is not misogynistic.

once you realize that all people are hypocrites, including the leftists, you become incredibly apathetic about stuff like that. and if you're intelligent enough to actually observe your surroundings then the only way to be happy at all is when you feel apathetic.

[Fawkes]

That's not rape......stop trivializing rape.

fuck off you piece

perhaps you'd prefer the term "sexual assault". Either way, it amounts to the same thing. One guy feeding a clearly incapacitated girl alcohol while another stands behind her shoving his finger into her is rape. There's no way you could tell me that girl was in any way capable of consenting to that

[Lobotomy]

wtf sort of values do u need to put boxes of macaroni in a plastic fucking bag. jesus, a paraplegic smackhead could do that shit.

Idk, I guess they just need excuses to turn people away

[NewLeft]

Idk, I guess they just need excuses to turn people away
I used to work at a grocery store, they definitely wanted to weave out all the drug/gang/undesirables.. So yeah, interview clothing makes the most difference. They turned down everyone with a tattoo.

[Lobotomy]

welp I was going to hang out with a friend but she bailed (got tired and went to bed :glare:). Fuck it, I'm watching Seinfeld.

[Jack]

fuck off you piece

perhaps you'd prefer the term "sexual assault". Either way, it amounts to the same thing. One guy feeding a clearly incapacitated girl alcohol while another stands behind her shoving his finger into her is rape. There's no way you could tell me that girl was in any way capable of consenting to that

You've got to be fucking kidding me...

That guy obviously didn't just fucking show up out of nowhere and start fingering her, they were probably hooking up before that, he's probably just as drunk as her. What the fuck does "capable of consenting" mean? They're both obviously fucked up, shit like this happens, I've seen it.


Anyways, what's with the prudish attitude in your previous post? Chill the fuck out.


hundreds of unimaginative and blatantly sexist comments like "if dubstep was my girlfriend, maybe I'd listen to her"

You're digging for discrimination in anything. That's unimaginative, but it's not some representation of institutional patriarchy.


I want to put a fucking bullet through the heads of every producer that makes tracks about "*****es" and every bandana wearing, "sex, drugs and dubstep"-tshirt-clad douche bag

You really want to kill people because they use the word "*****es"....okay....you're fucking stupid.

[9]

e: on second thought yeah idk i think it is.


fuck off you piece

perhaps you'd prefer the term "sexual assault". Either way, it amounts to the same thing. One guy feeding a clearly incapacitated girl alcohol while another stands behind her shoving his finger into her is rape. There's no way you could tell me that girl was in any way capable of consenting to that

There is absolutely no basis to conclude, from that video, that anything going on is non-consensual. The girl is clearly conscious, she is obviously reciprocating with regard to the alcohol. Really this is just a perfect example of the whole patronizing, and honestly actually sexist, Male Feminist™ belief that women are innocent asexual little doves who, unlike men, are incapable of expressing any sort of heterosexual sexuality, particularly when alcohol is involved, unless they are being tricked and manipulated.

[9]

Also, from my memory, jack is probably a complete jerkoff, and my post is not intended in any way as a defense of any dumb shit he may say.

[Leftsolidarity]

i think it's funny that grocery stores care more about my values than the pharma and chemical factories i've worked at

Story time.

Yesterday at work I was bagging and these 2 older middle aged people were in line (not with each other but they were talking together). They were talking SUPER intense about the churches they go to and they seemed fucking crazy religious. When the guy was about to walk away the lady in line behind him whom he was talking to handed him a stone. It had a bible verse on it and he was like "this is amazing. this is really touching. blah blah fucking blah." I was trying not to crack up laughing because they reminded me of my mom so much.

So I put her bags in her cart and was about to walk away when she handed me a stone. In my head I was like "great. i know what this fucking is." I said "Oh. Thank you." And was trying to walk away when she stopped me and said "Read it." I looked at it and one side said "His love endures forever" and the other side said "Give thanks to the Lord for He is good."

I looked at her and said "Oh.... How nice..." and tried to walk away again when she stopped me again. She looked straight into my eyes and said "Do you love Jesus?" I literally almost burst out laughing. I really wanted to go "Lady, I'm a bi-sexual, communist, athiest, who got kicked out of his house for listening to "devil's music", and just got an upside down cross tattoo'd on his chest." Then I realized that I value my income over making this lady think I'm an asshole and said, "Uh.... Yeahhhh I love Jesus...." She smiled and looked at me and said, "Then its yours."


I walked away cracking up. I mean what a weird fucking situation that was for me. Then I was thinking about what if I had said what I was thinking? Would she have taken the stone away from me? I mean she already handed it too me and I already said thank you. Would she have been like "Give me my god damn stone you cock sucking devil worshipper!"? I guess I'll never know.

[Jack]

Also, from my memory, jack is probably a complete jerkoff, and my post is not intended in any way as a defense of any dumb shit he may say.

Cry about it.

[NewLeft]

I walked away cracking up. I mean what a weird fucking situation that was for me. Then I was thinking about what if I had said what I was thinking? Would she have taken the stone away from me? I mean she already handed it too me and I already said thank you. Would she have been like "Give me my god damn stone you cock sucking devil worshipper!"? I guess I'll never know.
I just got water all over my keyboard, thanks. :laugh:

[gorillafuck]

There is absolutely no basis to conclude, from that video, that anything going on is non-consensual. The girl is clearly conscious, she is obviously reciprocating with regard to the alcohol. Really this is just a perfect example of the whole patronizing, and honestly actually sexist, Male Feminist™ belief that women are innocent asexual little doves who, unlike men, are incapable of expressing any sort of heterosexual sexuality, particularly when alcohol is involved, unless they are being tricked and manipulated.you attribute this attitude towards male feminists too much, tbh. even if it is patronizing to women (which I think it is), it's definitely put forward by male and female feminists.

gender traitors are among the ranks

[9]

you attribute this attitude towards male feminists too much, tbh. even if it is patronizing to women (which I think it is), it's definitely put forward by male and female feminists.

yeah yeah i know, it is just an easy dis on revleft because the people putting forward these arguments on here are always watery males.

[Fawkes]

You've got to be fucking kidding me...


nah



That guy obviously didn't just fucking show up out of nowhere and start fingering her
Have you ever actually been to a rave or even a club? That easily could've been the case



What the fuck does "capable of consenting" mean?
It means exactly that.


Anyways, what's with the prudish attitude in your previous post?
Prudish, huh? I talked about the usage of violently sexist language, exploitative and objectifying images, and rape. If that's "prudish" to you, you're in the wrong place bud

This happens all the time when people confront sexism and are disregarded as being "prudes", as if the two had any correlation whatsoever.


Chill the fuck out.
No, cause I don't like living in a world where half the population is objectified and demeaned over their sex/gender.


You're digging for discrimination in anything. That's unimaginative, but it's not some representation of institutional patriarchy.
Women being incapable of holding valid opinions worth listening to is not "some representation of institutional patriarchy"? Do you not realize how stupid that sounds?


You really want to kill people because they use the word "*****es"
No, I don't actually want to kill them. This is a systemic problem, lashing out at individuals does little to solve it. But that doesn't mean I don't get pissed off at people using the sexual equivalent of "nigger"





There is absolutely no basis to conclude, from that video, that anything going on is non-consensual. The girl is clearly conscious, she is obviously reciprocating with regard to the alcohol. Really this is just a perfect example of the whole patronizing, and honestly actually sexist, Male Feminist™ belief that women are innocent asexual little doves who, unlike men, are incapable of expressing any sort of heterosexual sexuality, particularly when alcohol is involved, unless they are being tricked and manipulated.
No, it's not a perfect example of that because context is key in this case.

It's not like I watched some Dateline episode about the horrors of raves, I've seen people roofied, I've seen people sexually assaulted. It's absolutely rampant. That's what led me to my conclusion. Maybe I was a bit presumptuous in claiming it as rape, but that's the result of the hundreds of images conjured by that video of people I've witnessed truly being assaulted compounded with the general response I've seen being along the lines of "drunk ***** gettin fingerbanged" and "dude's a pro". You're right, I probably did jump to a conclusion a little quick, but it's only because of all the horrible shit I've seen happen at things like this

And I know plenty of women who are very expressive of heterosexual sexuality, including when alcohol's involved. In fact, I grew up with a sister who very much embodied that, and it's something I do not have a problem with in any way

[NewLeft]

Is it normal to feel a weird gushing feeling in the back of your head?

[9]

It's not like I watched some Dateline episode about the horrors of raves, I've seen people roofied, I've seen people sexually assaulted. It's absolutely rampant. That's what led me to my conclusion. Maybe I was a bit presumptuous in claiming it as rape, but that's the result of the hundreds of images conjured by that video of people I've witnessed truly being assaulted compounded with the general response I've seen being along the lines of "drunk ***** gettin fingerbanged" and "dude's a pro". You're right, I probably did jump to a conclusion a little quick, but it's only because of all the horrible shit I've seen happen at things like this

And I know plenty of women who are very expressive of heterosexual sexuality, including when alcohol's involved. In fact, I grew up with a sister who very much embodied that, and it's something I do not have a problem with in any way

fair enough.

[¿Que?]

Hey, PYHO, what's the good word? Somebody give me a rundown of what's been happening here. This thread moves so fast I always have to skip some pages!

[Fawkes]

Jack's a derp and Leftsolidarity loves Jesus

[Искра]

I was dreaming that I'm female. This is 7th time that that happaned and I have to admint you that I'm fucking good looking as female (I'm 6 feet, thin, blond (?! this is ugly part) and with stupid haircut). Of course, there are some problems with my personality... For example even I was dreaming that I'm a female I was actually myself watching that female me and she was wild. She burned my house on fire and tried to stab me... also she was pregnant. It was fucking hell... I've actually liked this dream (even in was kind of horrorish)... Maybe I should start to write fiction...

[NoOneIsIllegal]

Asexual people can be emotionally attracted to people, just without sexual desire.. I think..
I'm going to make a complete ass out of myself and talk to her about it soon.

[Nox]

Question for all you guys arguing for the past few pages: How drunk does someone have to be before they cannot give consent for sex? There has to be a line drawn somewhere...

[Искра]

What kind of stupid question is this?

[Ostrinski]

Uhh, drunk enough to the point that they can't give consent, don't see what else needs to be said

[gorillafuck]

No, I don't actually want to kill them. This is a systemic problem, lashing out at individuals does little to solve it. But that doesn't mean I don't get pissed off at people using the sexual equivalent of "nigger"that is absurd. why is it that every time that any group within society have a pejorative that is specific to their group, it is compared to the word nigger? it's not on the same level.

[Luc]

Question for all you guys arguing for the past few pages: How drunk does someone have to be before they cannot give consent for sex? There has to be a line drawn somewhere...

If I was you I wouldn't sleep with anyone drunk or high but I guess as long as she's not passed out or blacking out frequently (same thing?)

edit: jsut want to note that the not wanting to sleep with drunk/high people is not from a belief that they can't make decisions but from insecurity about how entertaining I am

[Quail]

Question for all you guys arguing for the past few pages: How drunk does someone have to be before they cannot give consent for sex? There has to be a line drawn somewhere...
I think it's hard to make an objective judgment. I definitely don't think that passing out or falling asleep should be the line, because there are a couple of times I've had drunken sex with my boyfriend and not remembered it in the morning until he mentioned it and I must have seemed "with it" enough to him because he's good with consent stuff. I think the key really is to be sensible. If someone is stumbling around, noticeably drunk and perhaps saying or doing things that they wouldn't do when sober, they're probably too drunk to give consent. Even if you do end up kissing or whatever, you can always say, "I think you've had a bit too much to drink. Let's do this another time."

[NoOneIsIllegal]

Question for all you guys arguing for the past few pages: How drunk does someone have to be before they cannot give consent for sex? There has to be a line drawn somewhere...
Well, you just answered your own question.
That's a "no" on your part.

[gorillafuck]

usually when people have drunk sex, it involves both of them being drunk.

if they are both drunk, are they raping eachother?

[thriller]

My one friend is moving to Colorado, my other is moving to Oregon, the other one moving to the 3rd world somewhere. I went snowboarding yesterday and ate shit the entire time, but it was super fucking fun. I just hate that it takes everyone leaving to bring us together.

[Nox]

I'll probably add what happens to my blog, because tbh it's a significant point in my life (even if we don't have sex, it's the first time a girl has shown interest in me)


It was a fucking awful experience. I'm not even sure if I'm heterosexual after that.

[Lanky Wanker]

It was a fucking awful experience. I'm not even sure if I'm heterosexual after that.

LOL did someone else join in or something?

[Nox]

LOL did someone else join in or something?

>Lasted 30 minutes
>Felt extremely uncomfortable throughout
>Kept losing my erection
>Didn't go anywhere near orgasm
>Didn't even feel good

[NewLeft]

My one friend is moving to Colorado, my other is moving to Oregon, the other one moving to the 3rd world somewhere. I went snowboarding yesterday and ate shit the entire time, but it was super fucking fun. I just hate that it takes everyone leaving to bring us together.
I know this feel.. Sometimes I forget about someone and then they'll announce that they're moving away and then you'll remember them and all the good times. :(


>Lasted 30 minutes
>Felt extremely uncomfortable throughout
>Kept losing my erection
>Didn't go anywhere near orgasm
>Didn't even feel good
> First time
> Awkward

[Nox]

> First time
> Awkward

I always hear stories about people's first time being awkward because they orgasm in like 2 minutes, well mine was the exact opposite.

[Leftsolidarity]

I always hear stories about people's first time being awkward because they orgasm in like 2 minutes, well mine was the exact opposite.

How did she react?

[Nox]

How did she react?

I think she enjoyed it lol. It was a bit awkward when I kept losing my erection though...

[Zukunftsmusik]

>Lasted 30 minutes
>Felt extremely uncomfortable throughout
>Kept losing my erection
>Didn't go anywhere near orgasm
>Didn't even feel good

Most of this is usual the first time.

...or so I hear. ;) Nah, seriously: The first time is awkward. And the second. And third. If you don't like it (yet), then don't do it. Wait until it feels right, don't feel forced to do it, don't force yourself to do it. If you eventually get into a steady relationship, things like this is easier IMO, since you'll be closer with the person and therefore sex would be easier to talk about (it still would be a bit difficult, at least it is to me). But remember, this comes from someone hopelessly romantic and monogamous.

[Leftsolidarity]

Yeah, Haust is right.

You should really wait until you feel more ready and you have some sort of connection with the person. It will make you feel a lot more comfortable and make the experience much more enjoyable.

[NewLeft]

I think she enjoyed it lol. It was a bit awkward when I kept losing my erection though...
You got rid of your virginity. Call to celebration!

[Nox]

You got rid of your virginity. Call to celebration!

Yeah man but it actually feels pretty shitty. I should've followed everyone's advice and waited until I was with someone I love.

Isn't it funny how everyone wants to lose their virginity but once they do they regret it?

[gorillafuck]

It was a fucking awful experience. I'm not even sure if I'm heterosexual after that.did another guy sneak into the room and start tickling your asshole right when you were about to cum?

[Zukunftsmusik]

Yeah man but it actually feels pretty shitty. I should've followed everyone's advice and waited until I was with someone I love.

Isn't it funny how everyone wants to lose their virginity but once they do they regret it?

I didn't mean to make you feel guilty or anything. I don't think you should feel bad for this, sex isn't exactly sacred. I just think that sex is easier when it's with someone you trust. But now you've done it, and you're experience wasn't the best. At least you have learned something out of it, or you will.

[Lanky Wanker]

>Lasted 30 minutes
>Felt extremely uncomfortable throughout
>Kept losing my erection
>Didn't go anywhere near orgasm
>Didn't even feel good

It was those damn ultra safe rubbers, they desensitise you. How many of the 30 minutes were erect minutes? And that kinda sucks that you regret it, maybe try and think of it as the precursor to losing your virginity seeing as you didn't shift your load. Now you know what happens (or doesn't happen ;)) so you can look out for it next time.

And just to clear this up, did you actually find her attractive? That is often a cause of boner absence.

[Leftsolidarity]

lol @ a page and a half dedicated to Nox's boner

[Rooster]

And just to clear this up, did you actually find her attractive? That's often a cause of boner absence.

I think that being nervous might have been more of an issue in regards to boner fright.

[Rooster]

lol @ a page and a half dedicated to Nox's boner

And that's what she said.

couldn't resist; not sure if made sense

[Zukunftsmusik]

And that kinda sucks that you regret it, maybe try and think of it as the precursor to losing your virginity seeing as you didn't shift your load.

This is kinda stupid, I think. Who cares if he's lost his virginity or not, according to this or that criteria?

[Искра]

This thread makes me listen to more and more of blink-182.

[Fawkes]

that is absurd. why is it that every time that any group within society have a pejorative that is specific to their group, it is compared to the word nigger? it's not on the same level.
Both are words that attribute certain negative behaviors and traits to groups of people based off of a shared physical characteristic (in the case of sex, it's often an assumed one as opposed to readily apparent). Both have connections to long histories of systemic violence and oppression and gain their "weight" from those connections.

The only difference in levels between them is that "*****" is a lot more socially acceptable than "nigger", and that's cause sexism is lot more socially acceptable than racism.

[Landsharks eat metal]

Sorry to interrupt the boner conversation...:lol:

Last night was scary as fuck. I was just lying on my bed before I felt like going to sleep, and I started hearing this random noise. It sounded somewhat mechanical, like it was coming from my CD player or something, but I couldn't really find the source of it... I'm pretty sure it was all in my head. And then I would think I heard some random person walking down the hallway so I kept ducking down and covering the back of my head. I don't know why I was so terrified.

Then I had a nightmare about snakes. I'm not afraid of snakes, but in my dream they were on a cruise ship and trying to bite everyone, and when someone would try to kill them by chopping them in half, each half would regenerate into a new snake. Very unsettling.

[Lanky Wanker]

This is kinda stupid, I think. Who cares if he's lost his virginity or not, according to this or that criteria?

That's kinda what I'm getting at. It's no big deal, but if it bothers you that much then just try and picture it in a different light at least.

[Luc]

"Shallow skin I can paint with pain
I mark the trails on my arm with your disdain
Everyday is the same
I love, you hate
but I guess I don't care anymore

Fix my problems with blade!
as my eyes turn from blue to grey
the worst thing happened to me today
but I guess I don't care anymore!"

This thread is for lonley depressed people gtfo with your human contact and happiness people :cursing:

[Искра]

(...)
I was once talking to Sadako from Ringu for 20 minutes and I really tought that it was fucking real, even it was strange to me, and I tought that I'm mad, but then I've woke up. Funny thing was that I fall asleap on my floor while listening to Merzbow on my gramaphone. I'll never do that again...

[Искра]

This thread is for lonley depressed people gtfo with your human contact and happiness people :cursing:
I'm gonna listen to Björk now. You can join in.

[NewLeft]

I never remember my dreams. It's weird when you wake up happy and you have a tear trail from your eyes.. What the fuck happened.

[NorwegianCommunist]

Im in high shool (first year)
There is this beautiful girl in my class, a very quiet girl with friends, but doesn't talk much during classes.
I haven't had a singel conversation with her since we started high school (August 2011) and I only wrote to her on facebook ONE time and it feels like I have really strong feelings for her because when I look at her and she looks at me, mye heart beats faster (literally) BUT the problem is that I don't have the guts to say anything or the strength to even make a conversation with her.

Any advice?

[Luc]

I'm gonna listen to Björk now. You can join in.

Björk?

[Искра]

Björk?
http://www.last.fm/music/Bj%25C3%25B6rk?ac=Bj%C3%B6rk

rYzcPMaf1Ls

KUKL is kind of depressing.

[NewLeft]

Björk?
Some woman who lives in the mountains and likes chasing dragons and demons in Iceland.

[NewLeft]

Im in high shool (first year)
There is this beautiful girl in my class, a very quiet girl with friends, but doesn't talk much during classes.
I haven't had a singel conversation with her since we started high school (August 2011) and I only wrote to her on facebook ONE time and it feels like I have really strong feelings for her because when I look at her and she looks at me, mye heart beats faster (literally) BUT the problem is that I don't have the guts to say anything or the strength to even make a conversation with her.

Any advice?
How close are you to her now?

[Lanky Wanker]

Im in high shool (first year)
There is this beautiful girl in my class, a very quiet girl with friends, but doesn't talk much during classes.
I haven't had a singel conversation with her since we started high school (August 2011) and I only wrote to her on facebook ONE time and it feels like I have really strong feelings for her because when I look at her and she looks at me, mye heart beats faster (literally) BUT the problem is that I don't have the guts to say anything or the strength to even make a conversation with her.

Any advice?

With the number of people in the same situation as you we could probably start a whole thread on this lol. I can't even talk to strangers in general too well when they're the ones driving the conversation, let alone randomly start one with a girl whose name I don't even know. If there's any advice someone can give you that isn't "just go and say hi to her, be nice and stuff" then I'd love to hear it. You can do what I do and let her fade from your mind by hoping for film-style love miracles, but I wouldn't recommend that.

[Quail]

I always remember my dreams. They're always really weird. They're not unpleasant, but I tend to remember 1-3 really vivid dreams every night and I just wish sometimes that I could have a restful, dream-free night for a change.

[gorillafuck]

I always remember my dreams. They're always really weird. They're not unpleasant, but I tend to remember 1-3 really vivid dreams every night and I just wish sometimes that I could have a restful, dream-free night for a change.do you take melatonin?

[NorwegianCommunist]

How close are you to her now?

That's the imbarresing part =(
No singel conversation since we met (Only one on facebook -.-)
Just some "hello's" after the weekend etc.

When we see eachother its like we both feel something and she is the most beautiful person in the world! I want to talk to her, but its like I literally CAN'T talk to this girl xD

[gorillafuck]

Both are words that attribute certain negative behaviors and traits to groups of people based off of a shared physical characteristic (in the case of sex, it's often an assumed one as opposed to readily apparent). Both have connections to long histories of systemic violence and oppression and gain their "weight" from those connections.

The only difference in levels between them is that "*****" is a lot more socially acceptable than "nigger", and that's cause sexism is lot more socially acceptable than racism.the level of systematic oppression that has been directed at women as a whole to what blacks have had as a race is extremely uneven.