Self Sabotage

[Niccolò Rossi]

I have a Mech of Solids assignment worth 4% (a subject I'm already failing) due tommorow morning that I havent stated. I don't know how to do any of it either. Instead of studying, all day I played COD, even though I don't play video games...

This is a pretty regular Sunday ritual for me now, since all my assignments are due on Mondays.

Does anyone else respond to pressure by just giving up and self-sabotaging any attempt at fixing the problem?

Nic.

[Sir Comradical]

My parents are both engineers, mechanical and civil. If you had asked earlier I could have helped you.

Too bad you can't turn the war between nations into a war between classes on COD. Commies should develop that...

[¿Que?]

Yeah, I do that.

[PhoenixAsh]

Same here. If you get the chance...change that. Seriously...it gets ingrained and becomes harder and harder to change the pattern.

[Sasha]

i'm so good at that shit...

[black magick hustla]

why call it self sabotage, its called procrastination

[black magick hustla]

btw all my assingments were done the night before and i did fine

[Lyev]

Oh nuts, I just typed up a reply then my browser crashed. Anyway, I can completely relate to this. I think, basically, if I am anxious, stressed or worried about a future event, it is easier to deny it by doing something that will distract me or take my mind away from it. I actually have a film studies exam tomorrow at college (UK time is 22:41 right now), and instead of reading up I am wasting time on here and on YouTube. I suppose when a situation or event remains hypothetical and I am not doing anything concrete to prepare for that situation (just something passive), it puts the stress to the back of the mind. I even do this when I am getting out of bed, and whilst in bed, I think about how my morning regime could be a lot more organised if I could regularly wake up just half-an-hour earlier.

I dunno, I am not a psychologist or anything, just some thoughts from personal experience. Good luck with the exam and hope everything goes alright.

[Astarte]

dude, defeatism is not always revolutionary.

[L.A.P.]

I'm doing it right now on RevLeft! Have a 6 page thesis paper debunking the 9/11 conspiracy theory due in a week. Haven't started it.

[#FF0000]

I'm pretty sure I failed every class this semester, doing exactly what you're doing!

[Public Domain]

I have a Mech of Solids assignment worth 4% (a subject I'm already failing) due tommorow morning that I havent stated. I don't know how to do any of it either. Instead of studying, all day I played COD, even though I don't play video games...

This is a pretty regular Sunday ritual for me now, since all my assignments are due on Mondays.

Does anyone else respond to pressure by just giving up and self-sabotaging any attempt at fixing the problem?

Nic.
Ha! Yes! I've been ruining my 'potential' for about a year by doing this

I'm distracted easily I guess. Or... The work sucks and I'd rather not do this lame shit, no matter how much I remind myself.
School work's in the shitter, failed my whole grade because of it last year...

To work for them or not to work for them? Computer games it is then!

[Niccolò Rossi]

why call it self sabotage, its called procrastination


I feel it is something more than just procrastinating. I mean, I can count on two hands the amount of times I thought to myself how serious it is that i get and do this shit and then can't muster the will power to do it. Or even when I feel like I have, I will go and do something else almost as if on purpose. It feels to me like self-sabotage. I dunno.

Nic.

[Niccolò Rossi]

I don't think I'm cut out for engineering, tbh...

Gonna talk to one of the uni careers councillors later this week. See if they have any good advice.

Nic.

[Niccolò Rossi]

Also, I didn't do the assignment. I went to bed early and woke up late, decided I'd rather get 9 hours sleep so I don't screw up training this evening.

I've probably failed this subject. Ill need to get like 80%+ in the final just to pass the subject because of my poor performance thus far. Meh. What a waste of $900 and I've only had uni 3 days a week this sem, could have worked like 3-4 days and earnt close to a grand a week... fuck

Nic.

[black magick hustla]

Also, I didn't do the assignment. I went to bed early and woke up late, decided I'd rather get 9 hours sleep so I don't screw up training this evening.

I've probably failed this subject. Ill need to get like 80%+ in the final just to pass the subject because of my poor performance thus far. Meh. What a waste of $900 and I've only had uni 3 days a week this sem, could have worked like 3-4 days and earnt close to a grand a week... fuck

Nic.
80 percent plus is possible dawg. also passing a class is more important than training. pulled a bunch of all nighters all the time is not that big of a deal

[Johnny Kerosene]

I had a term paper all semester that had to be a minimum 8.5 pages with 2 pages about each subject due at 11:05 pm at the end of the semester. I did it all the day it was due.

[Tim Finnegan]

Well, I didn't get kicked out of architecture school for working too hard, that's for damn sure...

[Zav]

Yes, I do this a lot. Actually, I have a 5 page paper due in a few hours that I haven't thought about since it was assigned. I could stay up and write it, and get no sleep, or I could wank off to some of my favourite porn and then get a good night's rest. I choose the latter. It's more fun.

[synthesis]

why call it self sabotage, its called procrastination

At the risk of spamming this quote, "procrastination is the soul rebelling against entrapment." Self-sabotage has always been a problem for me; the only thing that really works, in my experience, is motivating oneself through a long, hard look at the alternative.

[Sir Comradical]

I don't think I'm cut out for engineering, tbh...

Gonna talk to one of the uni careers councillors later this week. See if they have any good advice.

Nic.

Arts/Journalism/International-Studies. You'll smash its head in.

[Niccolò Rossi]

80 percent plus is possible dawg. also passing a class is more important than training. pulled a bunch of all nighters all the time is not that big of a deal

80% plus is probably possible, to be honest, but I'm gonna have to get damn good at this subject...

Either way, I'm not willing to pull all nighters on a regular basis. I'd rather have 9-10 hours sleep.

To be honest, I've never pulled a real all nighter, the lastest I've ever stayed up doing work in a little past 2am I think. And that was for a report. I can't imagine doing study at 2am is going to be productive, let alone possible, an essay or report is a little different.

Nic.

[Niccolò Rossi]

Arts/Journalism/International-Studies. You'll smash its head in.

Fuck that bro. I'm too cynical to do that shit. Trust me, I'd have way less chance at that than engineering. The self-loathing would simply be too much for me.

Alot of it has to do with my outlook on life, my motivation and what not. If their a deadline involved, or I'm being marked on my performance or whatever other fucking whip is involved, I do very poorly. I work for my own satisfaction only and when I do, I tend to do shit pretty passionately and with alot of time and effort. I'm not a show pony that jumps through hoops and I'm not some number on a piece of paper. Fuck that

Nic.

[Niccolò Rossi]

I just wanna have a house in the bush, and keep chickens and goats, and grow vegetables and dragon fruit.

Nic.

[Sir Comradical]

Fuck that bro. I'm too cynical to do that shit. Trust me, I'd have way less chance at that than engineering. The self-loathing would simply be too much for me.

Alot of it has to do with my outlook on life, my motivation and what not. If their a deadline involved, or I'm being marked on my performance or whatever other fucking whip is involved, I do very poorly. I work for my own satisfaction only and when I do, I tend to do shit pretty passionately and with alot of time and effort. I'm not a show pony that jumps through hoops and I'm not some number on a piece of paper. Fuck that

Nic.

What a badkent.

At least with Arts you can do subjects that allow you to smother a thick layer of Marx over it. You can end up in academia, smoke a pipe and wear a tweed jacket.

[Sir Comradical]

I just wanna have a house in the bush, and keep chickens and goats, and grow vegetables and dragon fruit.

Nic.

With your diet you'll need a lot of chickens and goats.

[synthesis]

80% plus is probably possible, to be honest, but I'm gonna have to get damn good at this subject...

Either way, I'm not willing to pull all nighters on a regular basis. I'd rather have 9-10 hours sleep.

To be honest, I've never pulled a real all nighter, the lastest I've ever stayed up doing work in a little past 2am I think. And that was for a report. I can't imagine doing study at 2am is going to be productive, let alone possible, an essay or report is a little different.

Nic.

Damn, I probably averaged one all-nighter a week in my last year of college. If I was in engineering I'd probably be completely insane by now. My buddy's girlfriend is finishing her engineering degree and she takes, like, 80mg of Adderall a day, followed by a fifth (750ml) or so, pretty much every night.

[Decolonize The Left]

Fuck that bro. I'm too cynical to do that shit. Trust me, I'd have way less chance at that than engineering. The self-loathing would simply be too much for me.

Alot of it has to do with my outlook on life, my motivation and what not. If their a deadline involved, or I'm being marked on my performance or whatever other fucking whip is involved, I do very poorly. I work for my own satisfaction only and when I do, I tend to do shit pretty passionately and with alot of time and effort. I'm not a show pony that jumps through hoops and I'm not some number on a piece of paper. Fuck that

Nic.

Then I suggest you take classes which interest you (majors included). I had the same outlook when I was in school so I spent a lot of time locating the good teachers in the disciplines I was interested in and taking their classes. I did much better that way.

I also suggest attempting to start work earlier than the night before. I know it's stupid because you've heard it before, I did too (many times), but take it from someone who's pulled countless all-nighters/writing papers the morning-of/lying to get extensions/hopped up on coffee and add meds all night in a smoke filled cafe reading 400+ pages and writing 25+ page papers.... it's just easier if you start earlier.
And I don't mean write the whole thing, I mean do the reading a week before, then write a draft/first couple paragraphs 4 days before, then spend one evening filling it out, then spend the night before finalizing the draft.

- August