What's happening to me?

[A New Era]

Something is missing in my life.

I have not a whole lot of friends but some really good ones. I am happy with them. I am training under some of the best martial artists in the world. I've trained about every day now. Financially I guess I'm okay.

My girlfriend broke up a few months ago. I've been with 4-5 girls since that. But they are extremely going back and forth. Is this normal for girls? It's like they can't make up their minds. The girls I am involved with either are romantic but not sexual, or they are sexual without being faithful or romantic. What's that all about?

My relationship with girls is just a mess.

Yesterday I walked home from the bar. When I got home I still listened to my Ipod and I just sat on my couch, feeling I have nothing to do.

Today the bars closed at 3 AM and I just sat on a bench until 4:30, having nothing to do. I just sat there in the middle of the night alone without anybody around.

I actually kissed a girl today but then I found out she kissed everyone. Normally I would be thrilled that a girl would just kiss me but now I don't feel that spark anymore.

I sit at my house now at 5 AM, and I feel so empty and lost.

I wasn't like this before. What has happened to me?

[Andrei Kuznetsov]

Shit like this happens. It can take months to get your groove back to its fullest potential. Just give yourself time to heal and let it be. This too will pass. Trust me, I've been there before, and I'm dealing with my own weird problems now too... it will pass.

You know, there should really be a POUR YOUR HEART OUT thread here in Chit-Chat. Commies have hearts too you know.

[n0thing]

Well how terrible for you mr I-have-a-great-life-but-still-feel-and-talk-like-a-shithead.

Excuse me while I dry my tears on my welfare cheque.

[Mala Tha Testa]

Well how terrible for you mr I-have-a-great-life-but-still-feel-and-talk-like-a-shithead.

Excuse me while I dry my tears on my welfare cheque.

That's just unnecessary.
:mad:

[Muzk]

and 'un'-communist - noone deserves to be treated like that.

[ZeroNowhere]

Well how terrible for you mr I-have-a-great-life-but-still-feel-and-talk-like-a-shithead.

Excuse me while I dry my tears on my welfare cheque.Look, having a good signature does not excuse somebody for being an asshole.

[RedAnarchist]

You know, there should really be a POUR YOUR HEART OUT thread here in Chit-Chat. Commies have hearts too you know.

I'll make one, see how it goes.

http://www.revleft.com/vb/pour-your-heart-t115347/index.html?t=115347

[NecroCommie]

Well how terrible for you mr I-have-a-great-life-but-still-feel-and-talk-like-a-shithead.

Excuse me while I dry my tears on my welfare cheque.
You don't have to cheer on the emotional honesty of the post, but to completely bash it is not a grown-up thing to do.

[bellyscratch]

Something is missing in my life.

I have not a whole lot of friends but some really good ones. I am happy with them. I am training under some of the best martial artists in the world. I've trained about every day now. Financially I guess I'm okay.

My girlfriend broke up a few months ago. I've been with 4-5 girls since that. But they are extremely going back and forth. Is this normal for girls? It's like they can't make up their minds. The girls I am involved with either are romantic but not sexual, or they are sexual without being faithful or romantic. What's that all about?

My relationship with girls is just a mess.

Yesterday I walked home from the bar. When I got home I still listened to my Ipod and I just sat on my couch, feeling I have nothing to do.

Today the bars closed at 3 AM and I just sat on a bench until 4:30, having nothing to do. I just sat there in the middle of the night alone without anybody around.

I actually kissed a girl today but then I found out she kissed everyone. Normally I would be thrilled that a girl would just kiss me but now I don't feel that spark anymore.

I sit at my house now at 5 AM, and I feel so empty and lost.

I wasn't like this before. What has happened to me?

Been there, done that and it does pass.

To be honest, I'm probably as happy as I've ever been at the moment. Yeh there is still some problems, but that just makes life interesting. I actually feel like the things I do now have meaning and I just make sure I have things to do that keep me busy.

[ÑóẊîöʼn]

I really don't see what you're unhappy about. From the sounds of it you're in a much better position than I am - I don't have a job and the council is fucking me about with regards to housing, meaning there's a chance I could be on the streets in a month or two. Yet despite problems like that, I feel content overall. My life isn't exactly stellar at the moment, but I still have my blessings and there's no reason for my life not to get even better if I put the effort in.

Here's what I feel is "holding me back" so to speak:

1) My own natural laziness. Yes, the economy is a heap of shit at the moment, but even so I feel there is more I could do in terms of finding a job (even if I don't know exactly what). I also need to pull my finger out with regards to my studies, since I've been slacking off quite a bit.

2) Shitty social life. This is somewhat related to number 1; I'd be able to afford to go out more and do more things if I had more disposable cash. Although it helps that I don't feel that I need as much social interaction as some people, as well as my ability to find things to amuse myself with (hooray for having a vivid imagination!).

So yeah, like everyone I've got problems, but I don't feel that they're dragging me down or consuming my soul. Thinking and reading about the kind of lives that other people lead, I would in fact say that I'm a very fortunate person. I'm not starving, I have good health (well, I suppose I could be fitter but at least I don't feel like shit all the time), I have good educational prospects, I don't have any relationship issues (ah, the benefits of being single!), and I don't feel stressed.

Basically, while things aren't perfect, they could be so much worse. And I'm happy with that.

[#FF0000]

If I remember correctly, OP lives in my area. If so, that would explain his problem with girls.

The problem is that there is almost nobody worth getting involved with on this entire mountain, male or female, gay or straight.

Also: Crushing loneliness is something a lot of people in our town complain about. It is almost comical how shitty the place we live is, New Era.

[spiltteeth]

C'mon people material circumstances don't equal happiness.
Mother Teresa, whatever you think of her, once said "Loneliness is the worst form of poverty."

Listen, I've been to prison, half-way house, mental wards, rehabs, never homeless thank god and you know what my emotional bottom in life? Not any of those - it was the soul-crushing loneliness at night.

And dude, women are tuff. After 9/11 I fell my love life has been the most tragic thing to happen to America.

Just keep putting one foot in front of the other and keep talking about it.

PM me if you want.

[Bright Banana Beard]

Fucking been there so many time. You will grow out of it, but for now let us talk in MSN Messenger.:( It is hard to find a job and I couldn't do anything that much. The people here is even terrible as they all for material and not about having fun.
You will be fine.

[Scary Monster]

Ive totally been there quite a lot also! What helps me is finding a lover that you get along with real well and sticks with you through those sucky parts of your life. Having someone like that keeps you from feeling lonely and shitty all the time. at least for me it does. we all go through this whether those people admit it or not. Im 21 and Ive been lookin for a job for almost 4 months now ever since i moved back from Sacramento to Los Angeles (USA), after i moved outta this girl's house (we didnt get along at all. crazy ass woman! I found a job in Sac town within a week by the way. had to move back coz i had no one else to stay with and makin minimum wage, i wouldnt be able to sustain myself). Since i dont have a job right now, im goin to school with the help of financial aid and, im not ashamed of saying, livin with my mutha for now :D. But, i know i will eventually get back on track once i do find a job and havethe abilityto do somethin with myself. You gotta hang in there. If u arent happy with your situation, then theres better way to handle it than to do somethin about it, instead of "goin with the flow".