whats it take to be a Communist/Anarchist?

[thinkerOFthoughts]

I have been wondering.... what does it take? I guess I need some reassurance (its hard to explain how depression will do this to you but anyone)

I read stuff on Anarcho Communism, and as you guys know I come from a strong Conservative background, and I read this stuff, and it hits me, it makes sense, some of the stuff I read pisses me off (in a good way) but I always end up doubting myself......Am I a revolutionary left? I always wonder this because I could easily just go back to my ignorant Conservative view points (thats what I did..... which is why I was gone for like.....I dunno but my long absence was because I just went back:crying:) but I come back check this stuff out, like what I read (again) and it just hits me... how do I know that I'm not like fooling myself into believeing this stuff? uggg its a big hinderence, I dont know if any of you have ever dealt with this crud? sigh.

[Invincible Summer]

What does your background have to do with anything? So long as you feel that the fight for Communism is worth fighting, and you have a general understanding of leftist ideas and theory, you're on board, IMO.

It's not like there's a written test you have to take to "prove" your worth.

[LOLseph Stalin]

I agree with destructicon. I come from a family that's not even interested in politics and yet, look at me.

[Revulero]

I think I know what you mean, I remember when I first started reading it also hit me that there is a lot of ignorant shit out there. I live in the bible belt so there is a lot of social issues that people in my town are'nt comfortable with like homosexualality. A lot people say ignorant bs for example when people here don't like something they say "thats gay", and I admit that I've caught myself saying it without realizing it. Its just after a while the culture and the people around you influence your language. Just try your best to ignore the ignorance around you and stay true to your ideas.

[StalinFanboy]

I have been wondering.... what does it take? I guess I need some reassurance (its hard to explain how depression will do this to you but anyone)

I read stuff on Anarcho Communism, and as you guys know I come from a strong Conservative background, and I read this stuff, and it hits me, it makes sense, some of the stuff I read pisses me off (in a good way) but I always end up doubting myself......Am I a revolutionary left? I always wonder this because I could easily just go back to my ignorant Conservative view points (thats what I did..... which is why I was gone for like.....I dunno but my long absence was because I just went back:crying:) but I come back check this stuff out, like what I read (again) and it just hits me... how do I know that I'm not like fooling myself into believeing this stuff? uggg its a big hinderence, I dont know if any of you have ever dealt with this crud? sigh.
Honestly, dude, who cares what you are? Do what makes sense to you. If you absolutely hate the way this society is structured, and the way government and capitalism makes people into commodities, then you might be an anarchist/communist. If you feel that capitalism is beneficial, and that the government is supposed to look out for private property then you might be conservative. What matters is that you take control of you life.

I come from a mixed family. My mom's side is a mix of working class and petit-bourgeoise liberals, and my dad's side is working class conservative christians. I went through a phase of both before realizing what kind of person I am.

Honestly, though, I'd rather you be a comrade, than an enemy. But it's your life.

[StalinFanboy]

I think I know what you mean, I remember when I first started reading it also hit me that there is a lot of ignorant shit out there. I live in the bible belt so there is a lot of social issues that people in my town are'nt comfortable with like homosexualality. A lot people say ignorant bs for example when people here don't like something they say "thats gay", and I admit that I've caught myself saying it without realizing it. Its just after a while the culture and the people around you influence your language. Just try your best to ignore the ignorance around you and stay true to your ideas.
I know what you're going through. I come from an extremely conservative area. And throughout my life I've had to battle with extreme racism, sexism, and homophobia; in myself and in my community.

[Rjevan]

I read stuff on Anarcho Communism, and as you guys know I come from a strong Conservative background, and I read this stuff, and it hits me, it makes sense, some of the stuff I read pisses me off (in a good way) but I always end up doubting myself......Am I a revolutionary left? I always wonder this because I could easily just go back to my ignorant Conservative view points (thats what I did..... which is why I was gone for like.....I dunno but my long absence was because I just went back:crying:) but I come back check this stuff out, like what I read (again) and it just hits me... how do I know that I'm not like fooling myself into believeing this stuff? uggg its a big hinderence, I dont know if any of you have ever dealt with this crud? sigh.
As destruction said, your background doesn't mean anything, Engels' father was a capitalist. ;)
Even if you are unsure, coming back to leftism after your "conservative phase" and agreeing with what you read shows that you aren't happy with the capitalist system and that you have a tendency towards leftism. But finally it's your decission and your life.

[thinkerOFthoughts]

It just seems that I read this stuff, and then I don't do any thinking for myself:confused: i feel like I just copy what I read in some book, and it makes me wonder? do I like it for the neat little colors? flags for the display of it all? do I like it because I actually think their is credibility to this all? I dont know...... I really like what I read... I think it has to do with what I think is right... do I think its right that I can build something that I will never be able to afford? no absolutely not!.... I have to go with whats right rather than what I have been raised with:rolleyes: I have been taught by birth what I used to believe in, I have to make my own choice like you guys said, and I want to fight against all this brainwashing I have gone through:blink: I just realized that I am treating this like a religion:laugh: "oh god!! do I really believe!!!!??!! *sob, sob*" lol



wow this little post just made me feel 10 times better:lol::lol:

[Dharma]

My Dad is a hardcore conservative and is a Zionist. I'm 14 and I consider myself a Marxist. Keep reading and interpreting, turn the TV off too. Stay on your toes when it comes to politics and question EVERYTHING.

Stay strong comrade:thumbup1:

[Black Dagger]

how do I know that I'm not like fooling myself into believeing this stuff? uggg its a big hinderence, I dont know if any of you have ever dealt with this crud? sigh.

A couple of things come to mind... talk about your politics with other people, your friends - try to find people are left-wing already - they will be less hostile. Also, try acting on your politics, look for likeminded groups or individuals in your area - find out if there is anything going on in your community or city and see if you can help out. Putting your politics into practice with actions and with words in discussion will help you become more confident in yourself and your politics.

[thinkerOFthoughts]

Thank you :) it does seem that just thinking about it, just doesn't feel right. I dont trust myself you know? its a problem I have (most likely mental) I am always questioning my motives on things. like I will read my name on my panick disorder bottle and read it like 15 more times just to make sure, that I am not making some sort of mistake cuz I dont trust that I actually read my name:confused: but then..... reading the books and stuff tends to make me feel better :) and reading your guys posts :) so thanks for this all!:)